When they drove up to the Hotel de
Paris, she alighted and bade him a smiling farewell,
and went to her room with the starlight in her eyes.
The lift man asked if Madame had won. She dangled
her empty purse and laughed. Then the lift man,
who had seen that light in women’s eyes before,
made certain that she was in love, and opened the
lift door for her with the confidential air of the
Latin who knows sweet secrets. But the lift man
was wrong. No man had a part in her soul’s
exultation. If Septimus Dix crossed her mind
while she was undressing, it was as a grotesque, bearing
the same relation to her emotional impression of the
night as a gargoyle does to a cathedral. When
she went to bed, she slept the sound sleep of youth.
Septimus, after dismissing the cab,
wandered in his vague way over to the Cafe de Paris,
instinct suggesting his belated breakfast, which, like
his existence, Zora had forgotten. The waiter
came.
“Monsieur desire?”
“Absinthe,” murmured Septimus
absent-mindedly, “and er poached
eggs and anything a raspberry
ice.”
The waiter gazed at him in stupefaction;
but nothing being too astounding in Monte Carlo, he
wiped the cold perspiration from his forehead and
executed the order.
The unholy meal being over, Septimus
drifted into the square and spent most of the night
on a bench gazing at the Hotel de Paris and wondering
which were her windows. When she mentioned casually,
a day or two later, that her windows looked the other
way over the sea, he felt that Destiny had fooled
him once more; but for the time being he found a gentle
happiness in his speculation. Chilled to the
bone, at last, he sought his hotel bedroom and smoked
a pipe, meditative, with his hat on until the morning.
Then he went to bed.
Two mornings afterwards Zora came
upon him on the Casino terrace. He sprawled idly
on a bench between a fat German and his fat wife, who
were talking across him. His straw hat was tilted
over his eyes and his legs were crossed. In spite
of the conversation (and a middle-class German does
not whisper when he talks to his wife), and the going
and coming of the crowd in spite of the
sunshine and the blue air, he slumbered peacefully.
Zora passed him once or twice. Then by the station
lift she paused and looked out at the bay of Mentone
clasping the sea a blue enamel in a setting
of gold. She stood for some moments lost in the
joy of it when a voice behind her brought her back
to the commonplace.
“Very lovely, isn’t it?”
A thin-faced Englishman of uncertain
age and yellow, evil eyes met her glance as she turned
instinctively.
“Yes, it’s beautiful,”
she replied coldly; “but that is no reason why
you should take the liberty of speaking to me.”
“I couldn’t help sharing
my emotions with another, especially one so beautiful.
You seem to be alone here?”
Now she remembered having seen him
before rather frequently. The previous
evening he had somewhat ostentatiously selected a table
near hers at dinner. He had watched her as she
had left the theater and followed her to the lift
door. He had been watching for his opportunity
and now thought it had come. She shivered with
sudden anger, and round her heart crept the chill
of fright which all women know who have been followed
in a lonely street.
“I certainly am not alone,”
she said wrathfully. “Good morning.”
The man covered his defeat by raising
his hat with ironic politeness, and Zora walked swiftly
away, in appearance a majestic Amazon, but inwardly
a quivering woman. She marched straight up to
the recumbent Dix. The Literary Man from London
would have been amused. She interposed herself
between the conversing Teutons and awakened the sleeper.
He looked at her for a moment with a dreamy smile,
then leaped to his feet.
“A man has insulted me he
has been following me about and tried to get into
conversation with me.”
“Dear me,” said Septimus.
“What shall I do? Shall I shoot him?”
“Don’t be silly,”
she said seriously. “It’s serious.
I’d be glad if you’d kindly walk up and
down a little with me.”
“With pleasure.”
They strolled away together. “But I am
serious. If you wanted me to shoot him I’d
do it. I’d do anything in the world for
you. I’ve got a revolver in my room.”
She laughed, disclaiming desire for supreme vengeance.
“I only want to show the wretch
that I am not a helpless woman,” she observed,
with the bewildering illogic of the sex. And as
she passed by the offender she smiled down at her
companion with all the sweetness of intimacy and asked
him why he carried a revolver. She did not point
the offender out, be it remarked, to the bloodthirsty
Septimus.
“It belongs to Wiggleswick,”
he replied in answer to her question. “I
promised to take care of it for him.”
“What does Wiggleswick do when you are away?”
“He reads the police reports.
I take in Reynolds and the News of the World
and the illustrated Police News for him, and
he cuts them out and gums them in a scrap book.
But I think I’m happier without Wiggleswick.
He interferes with my guns.”
“By the way,” said Zora,
“you talked about guns the other evening.
What have you got to do with guns?”
He looked at her in a scared way out
of the corner of his eye, child-fashion, as though
to make sure she was loyal and worthy of confidence,
and then he said:
“I invent ’em. I
have written a treatise on guns of large caliber.”
“Really?” cried Zora,
taken by surprise. She had not credited him with
so serious a vocation. “Do tell me something
about it.”
“Not now,” he pleaded.
“Some other time. I’d have to sit
down with paper and pencil and draw diagrams.
I’m afraid you wouldn’t like it. Wiggleswick
doesn’t. It bores him. You must be
born with machinery in your blood. Sometimes
it’s uncomfortable.”
“To have cogwheels instead of
corpuscles must be trying,” said Zora flippantly.
“Very,” said he.
“The great thing is to keep them clear of the
heart.”
“What do you mean?” she asked quickly.
“Whatever one does or tries
to do, one should insist on remaining human.
It’s good to be human, isn’t it? I
once knew a man who was just a complicated mechanism
of brain encased in a body. His heart didn’t
beat; it clicked and whirred. It caused the death
of the most perfect woman in the world.”
He looked dreamily into the blue ether
between sea and sky. Zora felt strangely drawn
to him.
“Who was it?” she asked softly.
“My mother,” said he.
They had paused in their stroll, and
were leaning over the parapet above the railway line.
After a few moments’ silence he added, with a
faint smile:
“That’s why I try hard
to keep myself human so that, if a woman
should ever care for me, I shouldn’t hurt her.”
A green caterpillar was crawling on
his sleeve. In his vague manner he picked it
tenderly off and laid it on the leaf of an aloe that
grew in the terrace vase near which he stood.
“You couldn’t even hurt
that crawling thing let alone a woman,”
said Zora. This time very softly.
He blushed. “If you kill
a caterpillar you kill a butterfly,” he said
apologetically.
“And if you kill a woman?”
“Is there anything higher?” said he.
She made no reply, her misanthropical
philosophy prompting none. There was rather a
long silence, which he broke by asking her if she read
Persian. He excused his knowledge of it by saying
that it kept him human. She laughed and suggested
a continuance of their stroll. He talked disconnectedly
as they walked up and down.
The crowd on the terrace thinned as
the hour of dejeuner approached. Presently she
proclaimed her hunger. He murmured that it must
be near dinner time. She protested. He passed
his hands across his eyes and confessed that he had
got mixed up in his meals the last few days. Then
an idea struck him.
“If I skip afternoon tea, and
dinner, and supper, and petit dejeuner, and have two
breakfasts running,” he exclaimed brightly, “I
shall begin fair again.” And he laughed,
not loud, but murmuringly, for the first time.
They went round the Casino to the
front of the Hotel de Paris, their natural parting
place. But there, on the steps, with legs apart,
stood the wretch with the evil eyes. He looked
at her from afar, banteringly. Defiance rose
in Zora’s soul. She would again show him
that she was not a lone and helpless woman at the
mercy of the casual depredator.
“I’m taking you in to
lunch with me, Mr. Dix. You can’t refuse,”
she said; and without waiting for a reply she sailed
majestically past the wretch, followed meekly by Septimus,
as if she owned him body and soul.
As usual, many eyes were turned on
her as she entered the restaurant a radiant
figure in white, with black hat and black chiffon boa,
and a deep red rose in her bosom. The maitre
d’hotel, in the pride of reflected glory, conducted
her to a table near the window. Septimus trailed
inconclusively behind. When he seated himself
he stared at her silently in a mute surmise as the
gentlemen in the poem did at the peak in Darien.
It was even a wilder adventure than the memorable
drive. That was but a caprice of the goddess;
this was a sign of her friendship. The newness
of their intimacy smote him dumb. He passed his
hand through his Struwel Peter hair and wondered.
Was it real? There sat the goddess, separated
from him by the strip of damask, her gold-flecked
eyes smiling frankly and trustfully into his, pulling
off her gloves and disclosing, in almost disconcerting
intimacy, her warm wrists and hands. Was he dreaming,
as he sometimes did, in broad daylight, of a queer
heaven in which he was strong like other men and felt
the flutter of wings upon his cheek? Something
soft was in his hand. Mechanically he began to
stuff it up his sleeve. It was his napkin.
Zora’s laugh brought him to earth to
happy earth.
It is a pleasant thing to linger tete-a-tete
over lunch on the terrace of the Hotel de Paris.
Outside is the shade of the square, the blazing sunshine
beyond the shadow; the fountain and the palms and the
doves; the white gaiety of pleasure houses; the blue-gray
mountains cut sharp against the violet sky. Inside,
a symphony of cool tones: the pearl of summer
dresses; the snow, crystal, and silver of the tables;
the tender green of lettuce, the yellows of fruit,
the soft pink of salmon; here and there a bold note
of color the flowers in a woman’s
hat, the purples and topazes of wine. Nearer
still to the sense is the charm of privacy. The
one human being for you in the room is your companion.
The space round your chairs is a magic circle, cutting
you off from the others, who are mere decorations,
beautiful or grotesque. Between you are substances
which it were gross to call food: dainty mysteries
of coolness and sudden flavors; a fish salad in which
the essences of sea and land are blended in cold, celestial
harmony; innermost kernels of the lamb of the salted
meadows where must grow the Asphodel on which it fed,
in amorous union with what men call a sauce, but really
oil and cream and herbs stirred by a god in a dream;
peaches in purple ichor chastely clad in snow, melting
on the palate as the voice of the divine singer after
whom they are named melts in the soul.
It is a pleasant thing hedonistic?
yes; but why live on lentils when lotus is to your
hand? and, really, at Monte Carlo lentils are quite
as expensive it is a pleasant thing, even
for the food-worn wanderer of many restaurants, to
lunch tete-a-tete at the Hotel de Paris; but
for the young and fresh-hearted to whom it is new,
it is enchantment.
“I’ve often looked at
people eating like this and I’ve often wondered
how it felt,” said Septimus.
“But you must have lunched hundreds
of times in such places.”
“Yes but by myself.
I’ve never had a ” he paused.
“A what?”
“A a gracious lady,”
he said, reddening, “to sit opposite me.”
“Why not?”
“No one has ever wanted me.
It has always puzzled me how men get to know women
and go about with them. I think it must be a gift,”
he asserted with the profound gravity of a man who
has solved a psychological problem. “Some
fellows have a gift for collecting Toby jugs.
Everywhere they go they discover a Toby jug.
I couldn’t find one if I tried for a year.
It’s the same thing. At Cambridge they
used to call me the Owl.”
“An owl catches mice, at any rate,” said
Zora.
“So do I. Do you like mice?”
“No. I want to catch lions
and tigers and all the bright and burning things of
life,” cried Zora, in a burst of confidence.
He regarded her with wistful admiration.
“Your whole life must be full of such things.”
“I wonder,” she said,
looking at him over the spoonful of péché Melba
which she was going to put in her mouth, “I
wonder whether you have the faintest idea who I am
and what I am and what I’m doing here all by
myself, and why you and I are lunching together in
this delightful fashion. You have told me all
about yourself but you seem to take me for
granted.”
She was ever so little piqued at his
apparent indifference. But if men like Septimus
Dix did not take women for granted, where would be
the chivalry and faith of the children of the world?
He accepted her unquestioningly as the simple Trojan
accepted the Olympian lady who appeared to him clad
in grace (but otherwise scantily) from a rosy cloud.
“You are yourself,” he
said, “and that has been enough for me.”
“How do you know I’m not
an adventuress? There are heaps of them, people
say, in this place. I might be a designing thief
of a woman.”
“I offered you the charge of my money the other
night.”
“Was that why you did it? To test me?”
she asked.
He reddened and started as if stung.
She saw the hurt instantly, and with a gush of remorse
begged for forgiveness.
“No. I didn’t mean
it. It was horrid of me. It is not in your
nature to think such a thing. Forgive me.”
Frankly, impulsively, she stretched
her hand across the table. He touched it timidly
with his ineffectual fingers, not knowing what to do
with it, vaguely wondering whether he should raise
it to his lips, and so kept touching it, until she
pressed his fingers in a little grip of friendliness,
and withdrew it with a laugh.
“Do you know, I still have that
money,” he said, pulling a handful of great
five-louis pieces from his pocket. “I
can’t spend it. I’ve tried to.
I bought a dog yesterday but he wanted to bite me
and I had to give him to the hotel porter. All
this gold makes such a bulge in my pocket.”
When Zora explained that the coins
were only used as counters and could be changed for
notes at the rooms, he was astonished at her sapience.
He had never thought of it. Thus Zora regained
her sense of superiority.
This lunch was the first of many meals
they had together; and meals led to drives and excursions,
and to evenings at the theater. If she desired
still further to convince the wretch with the evil
eyes of her befriended state, she succeeded; but the
wretch and his friends speculated evilly on the relations
between her and Septimus Dix. They credited her
with pots of money. Zora, however, walked serene,
unconscious of slander, enjoying herself prodigiously.
Secure in her scorn and hatred of men she saw no harm
in her actions. Nor was there any, from the point
of view of her young egotism and inexperience.
It scarcely occurred to her that Septimus was a man.
In some aspects he appealed to her instinctive motherhood
like a child. When she met him one day coming
out of one of the shops in the arcade, wearing a newly
bought Homburg hat too small for him, she marched
him back with a delicious sense of responsibility and
stood over him till he was adequately fitted.
In other aspects he was like a woman in whose shy
delicacy she could confide. She awoke also to
a new realization that of power. Now,
to use power with propriety needs wisdom, and the woman
who is wise at five-and-twenty cannot make out at
sixty why she has remained an old maid. The delightful
way to use it is that of a babe when he first discovers
that a stick hits. That is the way that Zora,
who was not wise, used it over Septimus. For
the first time in her life she owned a human being.
A former joy in the possession of a devoted dog who
did tricks was as nothing to this rapture. It
was splendid. She owned him. Whenever she
had a desire for his company which was often,
as solitude at Monte Carlo is more depressing than
Zora had realized she sent a page boy, in
the true quality of his name of chasseur, to
hunt down the quarry and bring him back. He would,
therefore, be awakened at unearthly hours, at three
o’clock in the afternoon, for instance, when,
as he said, all rational beings should be asleep,
it being their own unreason if they were not; or he
would be tracked down at ten in the morning to some
obscure little cafe in the town where he would be
discovered eating ices and looking the worse for wear
in his clothes of the night before. As this meant
delay in the execution of her wishes, Zora prescribed
habits less irregular. By means of bribery of
chambermaids and porters, and the sacrifice of food
and sleep, he contrived to find himself dressed in
decent time in the mornings. He would then patiently
await her orders or call modestly for them at her
residence, like the butcher or the greengrocer.
“Why does your hair stand up
on end, in that queer fashion?” she asked him
one day. The hat episode had led to a general
regulation of his personal appearance.
He pondered gravely over the conundrum
for some time, and then replied that he must have
lost control over it. The command went forth that
he should visit a barber and learn how to control
his hair. He obeyed, and returned with his shock
parted in the middle and plastered down heavily with
pomatum, a saint of more than methodistical meekness.
On Zora declaring that he looked awful (he was indeed
inconceivably hideous), and that she preferred Struwel
Peter after all, he dutifully washed his head with
soda (after grave consultation with the chambermaid),
and sunned himself once more in the smiles of his
mistress.
Now and then, however, as she was
kind and not tyrannical, she felt a pin-prick of compunction.
“If you would rather do anything
else, don’t hesitate to say so.”
But Septimus, after having contemplated
the world’s potentialities of action with lack-luster
eye, would declare that there was nothing else that
could be done. Then she could rate him soundly.
“If I proposed that we should
sail up the Andes and eat fried moonbeams, you would
say ‘yes.’ Why haven’t you more
initiative?”
“I’m like Mrs. Shandy,”
he replied. “Some people are born so.
They are quiescent; other people can jump about like
grasshoppers. Do you know grasshoppers are very
interesting?” And he began to talk irrelevantly
on insects.
Their intercourse encouraged confidential
autobiography. Zora learned the whole of his
barren history. Fatherless, motherless, brotherless,
he was alone in the world. From his father, Sir
Erasmus Dix, a well-known engineer, to whose early
repression much of Septimus’s timidity was due,
he had inherited a modest fortune. After leaving
Cambridge he had wandered aimlessly about Europe.
Now he lived in a little house in Shepherd’s
Bush, with a studio or shed at the end of the garden
which he used as a laboratory.
“Why Shepherd’s Bush?” asked Zora.
“Wiggleswick likes it,” said he.
“And now he has the whole house
to himself? I suppose he makes himself comfortable
in your quarters and drinks your wine and smokes your
cigars with his friends. Did you lock things
up?”
“Oh, yes, of course,” said Septimus.
“And where are the keys?”
“Why Wiggleswick has them,” he replied.
Zora drew in her breath. “You
don’t know how angry you make me. If ever
I meet Wiggleswick ”
“Well?”
“I’ll talk to him,” said Zora with
a fine air of menace.
She, on her side, gave him such of
her confidences as were meet for masculine ears.
Naturally she impressed upon him the fact that his
sex was abhorrent to her in all its physical, moral,
and spiritual manifestations. Septimus, on thinking
the matter over, agreed with her. Memories came
back to him of the men with whom he had been intimate.
His father, the mechanical man who had cogs instead
of corpuscles in his blood, Wiggleswick the undesirable,
a few rowdy men on his staircase at Cambridge who had
led shocking lives once making a bonfire
of his pyjamas and a brand-new umbrella in the middle
of the court and had since come to early
and disastrous ends. His impressions of the sex
were distinctly bad. Germs of unutterable depravity,
he was sure, lurked somewhere in his own nature.
“You make me feel,” said
he, “as if I weren’t fit to black the boots
of Jezebel.”
“That’s a proper frame
of mind,” said Zora. “Would you be
good and tie this vexatious shoestring?”
The poor fool bent over it in reverent
ecstasy, but Zora was only conscious of the reddening
of his gills as he stooped.
This, to her, was the charm of their
intercourse: that he never presumed upon their
intimacy. When she remembered the prophecy of
the Literary Man from London, she laughed at it scornfully.
Here was a man, at any rate, who regarded her beauty
unconcerned, and from whose society she derived no
emotional experiences. She felt she could travel
safely with him to the end of the earth.
This reflection came to her one morning
while Turner, her maid, was brushing her hair.
The corollary followed: “why not?”
“Turner,” she said, “I’ll
soon have seen enough of Monte Carlo. I must go
to Paris. What do you think of my asking Mr. Dix
to come with us?”
“I think it would be most improper, ma’am,”
said Turner.
“There’s nothing at all
improper about it,” cried Zora, with a flush.
“You ought to be ashamed of yourself.”