It never occurred to Septimus that
he had done a quixotic thing in marrying Emmy, any
more than to pat himself on the back for a monstrously
clever fellow when he had completed a new invention.
At the door of the Registry Office he took off his
hat, held out his hand, and said good-by.
“But where are you going?” Emmy asked
in dismay.
Septimus didn’t know. He
waved his hand vaguely over London, and said, “Anywhere.”
Emmy began to cry. She had passed
most of the morning in tears. She felt doubly
guilty now that she had accepted the sacrifice of his
life; an awful sense of loneliness also overwhelmed
her.
“I didn’t know that you hated me like
that,” she said.
“Good heavens!” he cried
in horror. “I don’t hate you.
I only thought you had no further use for me.”
“And I’m to be left alone in the street?”
“I’ll drive you anywhere you like,”
said he.
“And then get rid of me as soon
as possible? Oh! I know what you must be
feeling.”
Septimus put his hand under her arm, and led her away,
in great distress.
“I thought you wouldn’t be able to bear
the sight of me.”
“Oh, don’t be silly!” said Emmy.
Her adjuration was on a higher plane
of sentiment than expression. It comforted Septimus.
“What would you like me to do?”
“Anything except leave me to
myself at any rate for the present.
Don’t you see, I’ve only you in the world
to look to.”
“God bless my soul,” said
he, “I suppose that’s so. It’s
very alarming. No one has ever looked to me in
all my life. I’d wander barefoot for you
all over the earth. But couldn’t you find
somebody else who’s more used to looking after
people? It’s for your own sake entirely,”
he hastened to assure her.
“I know,” she said.
“But you see it’s impossible for me to
go to any of my friends, especially after what has
happened.” She held out her ungloved left
hand. “How could I explain?”
“You must never explain,”
he agreed, sagely. “It would undo everything.
I suppose things are easy, after all, when you’ve
set your mind on them or get some chap
that knows everything to tell you how to do them and
there’s lots of fellows about that know everything solicitors
and so forth. There’s the man who told
me about a Registrar. See how easy it was.
Where would you like to go?”
“Anywhere out of England.”
She shuddered. “Take me to Paris first.
We can go on from there anywhere we like.”
“Certainly,” said Septimus, and he hailed
a hansom.
Thus it fell out that the strangely
married pair kept together during the long months
that followed. Emmy’s flat in London had
been rented furnished. The maid Edith had vanished,
after the manner of many of her kind, into ancillary
space. The theater and all it signified to Emmy
became a past dream. Her inner world was tragical
enough, poor child. Her outer world was Septimus.
In Paris, as she shrank from meeting possible acquaintances,
he found her a furnished appartement in the
Boulevard Raspail, while he perched in a little hotel
close by. The finding of the appartement
was an illustration of his newly invented, optimistic
theory of getting things done.
He came back to the hotel where he
had provisionally lodged her and informed her of his
discovery. She naturally asked him how he had
found it.
“A soldier told me,” he said.
“A soldier?”
“Yes. He had great baggy
red trousers and a sash around his waist and a short
blue jacket braided with red and a fez with a tassel
and a shaven head. He saved me from being run
over by a cab.”
Emmy shivered. “Oh, don’t
talk of it in that calm way suppose you
had been killed!”
“I suppose the Zouave would
have buried me he’s such a helpful
creature, you know. He’s been in Algiers.
He says I ought to go there. His name is Hegisippe
Cruchot.”
“But what about the flat?” asked Emmy.
“Oh, you see, I fell down in
front of the cab and he dragged me away and brushed
me down with a waiter’s napkin there
was a cafe within a yard or two. And then I asked
him to have a drink and gave him a cigarette.
He drank absinthe, without water, and then I began
to explain to him an idea for an invention which occurred
to me to prevent people from being run over by cabs,
and he was quite interested. I’ll show you ”
“You won’t,” said
Emmy, with a laugh. She had her lighter moments.
“You’ll do no such thing not
until you’ve told me about the flat.”
“Oh! the flat,” said Septimus
in a disappointed tone, as if it were a secondary
matter altogether. “I gave him another absinthe
and we became so friendly that I told him that I wanted
a flat and didn’t in the least know how to set
about finding one. It turned out that there was
an appartement vacant in the house of which
his mother is concierge. He took me along to
see it, and introduced me to Madame, his mother.
He has also got an aunt who can cook.”
“I should like to have seen
you talking to the Zouave,” said Emmy. “It
would have made a pretty picture the two
of you hobnobbing over a little marble table.”
“It was iron, painted yellow,”
said Septimus. “It wasn’t a resplendent
cafe.”
“I wonder what he thought of you.”
“Well, he introduced me to his
mother,” replied Septimus gravely, whereat Emmy
broke into merry laughter, for the first time for many
days.
“I’ve taken the appartement
for a month and the aunt who can cook,” he remarked.
“What!” cried Emmy, who
had not paid very serious regard to the narrative.
“Without knowing anything at all about it?”
She put on her hat and insisted on
driving there incontinently, full of misgivings.
But she found a well-appointed house, a deep-bosomed,
broad-beamed concierge, who looked as if she might
be the mother of twenty helpful Zouaves, and
an equally matronly and kindly-faced sister, a Madame
Bolivard, the aunt aforesaid who could cook.
Thus, as the ravens fed Elijah, so
did Zouaves and other casual fowl aid Septimus
on his way. Madame Bolivard in particular took
them both under her ample wing, to the girl’s
unspeakable comfort. A brav’ femme,
Madame Bolivard, who not only could cook, but could
darn stockings and mend linen, which Emmy’s
frivolous fingers had never learned to accomplish.
She could also prescribe miraculous tisanes
for trivial ailments, could tell the cards, and could
converse volubly on any subject under heaven; the less
she knew about it, the more she had to say, which is
a great gift. It spared the girl many desolate
and despairing hours.
It was a lonely, monotonous life.
Septimus she saw daily. Now and then, if Septimus
were known to be upstairs, Hegisippe Cruchot, coming
to pay his filial respects to his mother and his mother’s
bouillabaisse (she was from Marseilles) and
her matelote of eels, luxuries which his halfpenny
a day could not provide, would mount to inquire dutifully
after his aunt and incidentally after the belle
dame du troisième. He was their only visitor
from the outside world, and as he found a welcome and
an ambrosial form of alcohol compounded of Scotch
whiskey and Maraschino (whose subtlety Emmy had learned
from an eminent London actor-manager at a far-away
supper party), he came as often as his respectful
ideas of propriety allowed.
They were quaint gatherings, these,
in the stiffly furnished little salon: Emmy,
fluffy-haired, sea-shell-cheeked, and softly raimented,
lying indolently on the sofa amid a pile of cushions she
had sent Septimus out to “La Samaritaine”
to buy some (in French furnished rooms they stuff the
cushions with cement), and he had brought back a dozen
in a cab, so that the whole room heaved and swelled
with them; Septimus, with his mild blue eyes and upstanding
hair, looking like the conventional picture of one
who sees a ghost; Hegisippe Cruchot, the outrageousness
of whose piratical kit contrasted with his suavity
of manner, sitting with military precision on a straight-backed
chair; and Madame Bolivard standing in a far corner
of the room; her bare arms crossed above her blue
apron, and watching the scene with an air of kindly
proprietorship. They spoke in French, for only
one word of English had Hegisippe and his aunt between
them, and that being “Howdodogoddam” was
the exclusive possession of the former. Emmy gave
utterance now and then to peculiar vocables which
she had learned at school, and which Hegisippe declared
to be the purest Parisian he had ever heard an Englishwoman
use, while Septimus spoke very fair French indeed.
Hegisippe would twirl his little brown mustache he
was all brown, skin and eyes and close-cropped hair,
and even the skull under the hair and tell
of his military service and of the beautiful sunshine
of Algiers and, when his aunt was out of the room,
of his Arcadian love affairs. She served in a
wine shop in the Rue des Francs-Bouchers.
When was he going to get married? At Emmy’s
question he laughed, with a wave of his cigarette,
and a clank of his bayonet against the leg of the
chair. On a sou a day? Time enough for that
when he had made his fortune. His mother then
would doubtless find him a suitable wife with a dowry.
When his military service was over he was going to
be a waiter. When he volunteered this bit of information
Emmy gave a cry of surprise. This dashing, swaggering
desperado of a fellow a waiter!
“I shall never understand this country!”
she cried.
“When one has good introductions
and knows how to comport oneself, one makes much” and
he rubbed his thumb and fingers together, according
to the national code of pantomime.
And then his hosts would tell him
about England and the fogs, wherein he was greatly
interested; or Septimus would discourse to him of inventions,
the weak spot in which his shrewd intelligence generally
managed to strike, and then Septimus would run his
fingers through this hair and say, “God bless
my soul, I never thought of that,” and Emmy would
laugh; or else they talked politics. Hegisippe,
being a Radical, fiche’d himself absolutely
of the Pope and the priests. To be kind to one’s
neighbors and act as a good citizen summed up his
ethical code. He was as moral as any devout Catholic.
“What about the girl in the
Rue des Francs-Bouchers?” asked
Emmy.
“If I were a good Catholic,
I would have two, for then I could get absolution,”
he cried gaily, and laughed immoderately at his jest.
The days of his visits were marked red in Emmy’s
calendar.
“I wish I were a funny beggar,
and had lots of conversation like our friend Cruchot,
and could make you laugh,” said Septimus one
day, when the taedium vitae lay heavy on her.
“If you had a sense of humor
you wouldn’t be here,” she replied, with
some bitterness.
Septimus rubbed his thin hands together thoughtfully.
“I don’t know why you
should say that,” said he. “I never
heard a joke I didn’t see the point of.
I’m rather good at it.”
“If you don’t see the
point of this joke, I can’t explain it, my dear.
It has a point the size of a pyramid.”
He nodded and looked dreamily out
of the window at the opposite houses. Sometimes
her sharp sayings hurt him. But he understood
all, in his dim way, and pardoned all. He never
allowed her to see him wince. He stood so long
silent that Emmy looked up anxiously at his face, dreading
the effect of her words. His hand hung by his
side he was near the sofa where she lay.
She took it gently, in a revulsion of feeling, kissed
it, and, as he turned, flung it from her.
“Go, my dear; go. I’m
not fit to talk to you. Yes, go. You oughtn’t
to be here; you ought to be in England in your comfortable
home with Wiggleswick and your books and inventions.
You’re too good for me, and I’m hateful.
I know it, and it drives me mad.”
He took her hand in his turn and held
it for a second or two in both of his and patted it
kindly.
“I’ll go out and buy something,”
he said.
When he returned she was penitent
and glad to see him; and although he brought her as
a present a hat a thing of purple feathers
and green velvet and roses, in which no self-respecting
woman would be seen mummified a thousand years hence she
neither laughed at it nor upbraided him, but tried
the horror on before the glass and smiled sweetly while
the cold shivers ran down her back.
“I don’t want you to say
funny things, Septimus,” she said, reverting
to the starting point of the scene, “so long
as you bring me such presents as this.”
“It’s a nice hat,”
he admitted modestly. “The woman in the
shop said that very few people could wear it.”
“I’m so glad you think
I’m an exceptional woman,” she said.
“It’s the first compliment you have ever
paid me.”
She shed tears, though, over the feathers
of the hat, before she went to bed, good tears, such
as bring great comfort and cleanse the heart.
She slept happier that night; and afterwards, whenever
the devils entered her soul and the pains of hell
got hold upon her, she recalled the tears, and they
became the holy water of an exorcism.
Septimus, unconscious of this landmark
in their curious wedded life, passed tranquil though
muddled days in his room at the Hotel Godet. A
gleam of sunlight on the glazed hat of an omnibus
driver, the stick of the whip and the horse’s
ear, as he was coming home one day on the impériale,
put him on the track of a new sighting apparatus for
a field gun which he had half invented some years
before. The working out of this, and the superintendence
of the making of the model at some works near Vincennes,
occupied much of his time and thought. In matters
appertaining to his passion he had practical notions
of procedure; he would be at a loss to know where
to buy a tooth-brush, and be dependent on the ministrations
of a postman or an old woman in a charcoal shop, but
to the place where delicate instruments could be made
he went straight, as instinctively and surely as a
buffalo heads for water. Many of his books and
papers had been sent him from time to time by Wiggleswick,
who began to dread the post, the labor of searching
and packing and dispatching becoming too severe a tax
on the old villain’s leisure. These lay
in promiscuous heaps about the floor of his bedroom,
stepping-stones amid a river of minor objects, such
as collars and bits of india rubber and the day before
yesterday’s Petit Journal. The femme
de chambre and the dirty, indeterminate man in
a green baize apron, who went about raising casual
dust with a great feather broom, at first stowed the
litter away daily, with jackdaw ingenuity of concealment,
until Septimus gave them five francs each to desist;
whereupon they desisted with alacrity, and the books
became the stepping-stones aforesaid, stepping-stones
to higher things. His only concern was the impossibility
of repacking them when the time should come for him
to leave the Hotel Godet, and sometimes the more academic
speculation as to what Zora would say should some
miracle of levitation transport her to the untidy chamber.
He could see her, radiant and commanding, dispelling
chaos with the sweep of her parasol.
There were few moments in the day
when he did not crave her presence. It had been
warmth and sunshine and color to him for so long that
now the sun seemed to have disappeared from the sky,
leaving the earth a chill monochrome. Life was
very difficult without her. She had even withdrawn
from him the love “in a sort of way” to
which she had confessed. The goddess was angry
at the slight cast on her by his secret marriage.
And she was in California, a myriad of miles away.
She could not have been more remote had she been in
Saturn. When Emmy asked him whether he did not
long for Wiggleswick and the studious calm of Nunsmere,
he said, “No.” And he spoke truly;
for wherein lay the advantage of one spot on the earth’s
surface over another, if Zora were not the light thereof?
But he kept his reason in his heart. They rarely
spoke of Zora.
Of the things that concerned Emmy
herself so deeply, they never spoke at all. Of
her hopes and fears for the future he knew nothing.
For all that was said between them, Mordaunt Prince
might have been the figure of a dream that had vanished
into the impenetrable mists of dreamland. To the
girl he was a ghastly memory which she strove to hide
in the depths of her soul. Septimus saw that
she suffered, and went many quaint and irrelevant
ways to alleviate her misery. Sometimes they got
on her nerves; more often they made the good tears
come. Once she was reading a tattered volume of
George Eliot which she had picked up during a stroll
on the quays, and calling him over to her side pointed
out a sentence: “Dogs are the best friends,
they are always ready with their sympathy and they
ask no questions.”
“That’s like you,”
she said; “but George Eliot had never met a man
like you, poor thing, so she had to stick the real
thing down to dogs.”
Septimus reddened. “Dogs
bark and keep one from sleeping,” he said.
“My next-door neighbor at the Hotel Godet has
two. An ugly man with a beard comes and takes
them out in a motor car. Do you know, I’m
thinking of growing a beard. I wonder how I should
look in it?”
Emmy laughed and caught his sleeve.
“Why won’t you even let me tell you what
I think of you?”
“Wait till I’ve grown
the beard, and then you can,” said Septimus.
“That will be never,”
she retorted; “for if you grow a beard, you’ll
look a horror, like a Prehistoric Man and
I sha’n’t have anything to do with you.
So I’ll never be able to tell you.”
“It would be better so,” said he.
They made many plans for settling
down in some part of rural France or Switzerland they
had the map of Europe to choose from but
Septimus’s vagueness and a disinclination for
further adventure on the part of Emmy kept them in
Paris. The winter brightened into spring, and
Paris, gay in lilac and sunshine, held them in her
charm. There were days when they almost forgot,
and became the light-hearted companions of the lame
donkey on Nunsmere Common.
A day on the Seine, for instance,
in a steamboat, when the water was miraculously turned
to sparkling wine and the great masses of buildings
were bathed in amber and the domes of the Pantheon
and the Invalides and the cartouches and
bosses of the Pont Alexandre III shone burnished gold.
There was Auteuil, with its little open-air restaurants,
rustic trellis and creepers, and its friture
of gudgeon and dusty salt and cutlery and great yards
of bread, which Emmy loved to break with Septimus,
like Christmas crackers. Then, afterwards, there
was the winding Seine again, Robinson Crusoe’s
Island in all its greenery, and St. Cloud with its
terrace looking over the valley to Paris wrapped in
an amethyst haze, with here and there a triumphant
point of glory.
A day also in the woods of Bas Meudon,
alone beneath the trees, when they talked like children,
and laughed over the luncheon basket which Madame
Bolivard had stuffed full of electrifying edibles;
when they lay on their backs and looked dreamily at
the sky through the leaves, and listened to the chirrup
of insects awakening from winter and the strange cracklings
and tiny voices of springtide, and gave themselves
up to the general vibration of life which accompanies
the working of the sap in the trees.
Days, too, in mid-Paris, in the Luxembourg
Gardens, among the nursery maids and working folk;
at cafes on the remoter boulevards, where the kindly
life of Paris, still untouched by touristdom, passes
up and down, and the spring gets into the step of
youth and sparkles in a girl’s eyes. At
the window even of the appartement in the Boulevard
Raspail, when the air was startlingly clear and scented
and brought the message of spring from far lands,
from the golden shores of the Mediterranean, from the
windy mountain tops of Auvergne, from the broad, tender
green fields of Central France, from every heart and
tree and flower, from Paris itself, quivering with
life. At such times they would not talk, both
interpreting the message in their own ways, yet both
drawn together into a common mood in which they vaguely
felt that the earth was still a Land of Romance, that
the mystery of rebirth was repeating itself according
to unchanging and perpetual law; that inconsiderable,
forlorn human atoms though they were, the law would
inevitably affect them too, and cause new hopes, new
desires, and new happiness to bud and flower in their
hearts.
During these spring days there began
to dawn in the girl’s soul a knowledge of the
deeper meaning of things. When she first met Septimus
and delightedly regarded him as a new toy, she was
the fluffy, frivolous little animal of excellent breeding
and half education, so common in English country residential
towns, with the little refinements somewhat coarsened,
the little animalism somewhat developed, the little
brain somewhat sharpened, by her career on the musical-comedy
stage. Now there were signs of change. A
glimmering notion of the duty of sacrifice entered
her head. She carried it out by appearing one
day, when Septimus was taking her for a drive, in
the monstrous nightmare of a hat. It is not given
to breathing male to appreciate the effort it cost
her. She said nothing; neither did he. She
sat for two hours in the victoria, enduring the
tortures of the uglified, watching him out of the
tail of her eye and waiting for a sign of recognition.
At last she could endure it no longer.
“I put this thing on to please you,” she
said.
“What thing?”
“The hat you gave me.”
“Oh! Is that it?” he murmured in
his absent way. “I’m so glad you like
it.”
He had never noticed it. He had
scarcely recognized it. It had given him no pleasure.
She had made of herself a sight for gods and men to
no earthly purpose. All her sacrifice had been
in vain. It was then that she really experienced
the disciplinary irony of existence. She never
wore the hat again; wherein she was blameless.
The spring deepened into summer, and
they stayed on in the Boulevard Raspail until they
gave up making plans. Paris baked in the sun,
and theaters perished, and riders disappeared from
the Acacias, and Cook’s brakes replaced
the flashing carriages in the grand Avenue des
Champs Elysees, and the great Anglo-Saxon language
resounded from the Place de la Bastille to the Bon
Marche. The cab horses drooped as if drugged by
the vapor of the melting asphalt beneath their noses.
Men and women sat by doorways, in front of little
shops, on the benches in wide thoroughfares.
The Latin Quarter blazed in silence and the gates of
the great schools were shut. The merchants of
lemonade wheeled their tin vessels through the streets
and the bottles crowned with lemons looked pleasant
to hot eyes. For the dust lay thick upon the
leaves of trees and the lips of men, and the air was
heavy with the over-fulfilment of spring’s promise.
Septimus was sitting with Hegisippe
Cruchot outside the little cafe of the iron tables
painted yellow where first they had consorted.
“Mon ami,” said
he, “you are one of the phenomena that make me
believe in the bon Dieu. If you hadn’t
dragged me from under the wheels of the cab, I should
have been killed, and if I had been killed you wouldn’t
have introduced me to your aunt who can cook, and
what I should have done without your aunt heaven only
knows. I owe you much.”
“Bah, mon vieux,”
said Hegisippe, “what are you talking about?
You owe me nothing.”
“I owe you three lives,” said Septimus.