When James went home he found that
the Vicar of Little Primpton and his wife had already
arrived. They were both of them little, dried-up
persons, with an earnest manner and no sense of humour,
quite excellent in a rather unpleasant way; they resembled
one another like peas, but none knew whether the likeness
had grown from the propinquity of twenty years, or
had been the original attraction. Deeply impressed
with their sacred calling-for Mrs. Jackson
would never have acknowledged that the Vicar’s
wife held a position inferior to the Vicar’s-they
argued that the whole world was God’s, and they
God’s particular ministrants; so that it was
their plain duty to concern themselves with the business
of their fellows-and it must be confessed
that they never shrank from this duty. They were
neither well-educated, nor experienced, nor tactful;
but blissfully ignorant of these defects, they shepherded
their flock with little moral barks, and gave them,
rather self-consciously, a good example in the difficult
way to eternal life. They were eminently worthy
people, who thought light-heartedness somewhat indecent.
They did endless good in the most disagreeable manner
possible; and in their fervour not only bore unnecessary
crosses themselves, but saddled them on to everyone
else, as the only certain passport to the Golden City.
The Reverend Archibald Jackson had
been appointed to the living of Little Primpton while
James was in India, and consequently had never seen
him.
“I was telling your father,”
said Mrs. Jackson, on shaking hands, “that I
hoped you were properly grateful for all the mercies
that have been bestowed upon you.”
James stared at her a little. “Were you?”
He hated the fashion these people
had of discussing matters which he himself thought
most private.
“Mr. Jackson was asking if you’d
like a short prayer offered up next Sunday, James,”
said his mother.
“I shouldn’t at all.”
“Why not?” asked the Vicar,
“I think it’s your duty to thank your Maker
for your safe return, and I think your parents should
join in the thanksgiving.”
“We’re probably none of
us less grateful,” said James, “because
we don’t want to express our feelings before
the united congregation.”
Jamie’s parents looked at him
with relief, for the same thought filled their minds;
but thinking it their duty to submit themselves to
the spiritual direction of the Vicar and his wife,
they had not thought it quite right to decline the
proposal. Mrs. Jackson glanced at her husband
with pained astonishment, but further argument was
prevented by the arrival of Colonel and Mrs. Clibborn,
and Mary.
Colonel Clibborn was a tall man, with
oily black hair and fierce eyebrows, both dyed; aggressively
military and reminiscent He had been in a cavalry
regiment, where he had come to the philosophic conclusion
that all men are dust-except cavalry-men;
and he was able to look upon Jamie’s prowess-the
prowess of an infantryman-from superior
heights. He was a great authority upon war, and
could tell anyone what were the mistakes in South
Africa, and how they might have been avoided; likewise
he had known in the service half the peers of the realm,
and talked of them by their Christian names.
He spent three weeks every season in London, and dined
late, at seven o’clock, so he had every qualification
for considering himself a man of fashion.
“I don’t know what they’d
do in Little Primpton without us,” he said.
“It’s only us who keep it alive.”
But Mrs. Clibborn missed society.
“The only people I can speak
to are the Parsons,” she told her husband, plaintively.
“They’re very good people-but
only infantry, Reggie.”
“Of course, they’re only
infantry,” agreed Colonel Clibborn.
Mrs. Clibborn was a regimental beauty-of
fifty, who had grown stout; but not for that ceased
to use the weapons which Nature had given her against
the natural enemies of the sex. In her dealings
with several generations of adorers, she had acquired
such a habit of languishing glances that now she used
them unconsciously. Whether ordering meat from
the butcher or discussing parochial matters with Mr.
Jackson, Mrs. Clibborn’s tone and manner were
such that she might have been saying the most tender
things. She had been very popular in the service,
because she was the type of philandering woman who
required no beating about the bush; her neighbour
at the dinner-table, even if he had not seen her before,
need never have hesitated to tell her with the soup
that she was the handsomest creature he had ever seen,
and with the entree that he adored her.
On coming in, Mrs. Clibborn for a
moment looked at James, quite speechless, her head
on one side and her eyes screwing into the corner
of the room.
“Oh, how wonderful!” she
said, at last “I suppose I mustn’t call
you Jamie now.” She spoke very slowly,
and every word sounded like a caress. Then she
looked at James again in silent ecstasy. “Colonel
Parsons, how proud you must be! And when I think
that soon he will be my son! How thin you look,
James!”
“And how well you look, dear lady!”
It was understood that everyone must
make compliments to Mrs. Clibborn; otherwise she grew
cross, and when she was cross she was horrid.
She smiled to show her really beautiful teeth.
“I should like to kiss you, James. May
I, Mrs. Parsons?”
“Certainly,” replied Jamie’s
mother, who didn’t approve of Mrs. Clibborn
at all.
She turned her cheek to James, and
assumed a seraphic expression while he lightly touched
it with his lips.
“I’m only an old woman,”
she murmured to the company in general.
She seldom made more than one remark
at a time, and at the end of each assumed an appropriate
attitude-coy, Madonna-like, resigned, as
the circumstances might require. Mr. Jackson
came forward to shake hands, and she turned her languishing
glance on him.
“Oh, Mr. Jackson, how beautiful your sermon
was!”
They sat down to dinner, and ate their
ox-tail soup. It is terrible to think of the
subtlety with which the Evil One can insinuate himself
among the most pious; for soup at middle-day is one
of his most dangerous wiles, and it is precisely with
the simple-minded inhabitants of the country and of
the suburbs that this vice is most prevalent.
James was sitting next to Mrs. Clibborn,
and presently she looked at him with the melancholy
smile which had always seemed to her so effective.
“We want you to tell us how
you won your Victoria Cross, Jamie.”
The others, eager to hear the story
from the hero’s lips, had been, notwithstanding,
too tactful to ask; but they were willing to take
advantage of Mrs. Clibborn’s lack of that quality.
“We’ve all been looking forward to it,”
said the Vicar.
“I don’t think there’s anything
to tell,” replied James.
His father and mother were looking
at him with happy eyes, and the Colonel nodded to
Mary.
“Please, Jamie, tell us,”
she said. “We only saw the shortest account
in the papers, and you said nothing about it in your
letters.”
“D’you think it’s
very good form of me to tell you about it?” asked
James, smiling gravely.
“We’re all friends here,” said the
Vicar.
And Colonel Clibborn added, making sheep’s eyes
at his wife:
“You can’t refuse a lady!”
“I’m an old woman,”
sighed Mrs. Clibborn, with a doleful glance. “I
can’t expect him to do it for me.”
The only clever thing Mrs. Clibborn
had done in her life was to acknowledge to old age
at thirty, and then she did not mean it. It had
been one of her methods in flirtation, covering all
excesses under a maternal aspect. She must have
told hundreds of young officers that she was old enough
to be their mother; and she always said it looking
plaintively at the ceiling, when they squeezed her
hand.
“It wasn’t a very wonderful
thing I did,” said James, at last, “and
it was completely useless.”
“No fine deed is useless,” said the Vicar,
sententiously.
James looked at him a moment, but proceeded with his
story.
“It was only that I tried to
save the life of a sub who’d just joined-and
didn’t.”
“Would you pass me the salt?” said Mrs.
Clibborn.
“Mamma!” cried Mary, with
a look as near irritation as her gentle nature permitted.
“Go on, Jamie, there’s a good boy,”
said Mrs. Parsons.
And James, seeing his father’s
charming, pathetic look of pride, told the story to
him alone. The others did not care how much they
hurt him so long as they could gape in admiration,
but in his father he saw the most touching sympathy.
“It was a chap called Larcher,
a boy of eighteen, with fair hair and blue eyes, who
looked quite absurdly young. His people live somewhere
round here, near Ashford.”
“Larcher, did you say?”
asked Mrs. Clibborn, “I’ve never heard
the name. It’s not a county family.”
“Go on, Jamie,” said Mary, with some impatience.
“Well, he’d only been
with us three or four weeks; but I knew him rather
well. Oddly enough, he’d taken a sort of
fancy to me. He was such a nice, bright boy,
so enthusiastic and simple. I used to tell him
that he ought to have been at school, rather than
roughing it at the Cape.”
Mrs. Clibborn sat with an idiotic
smile on her lips, and a fixed expression of girlish
innocence.
“Well, we knew we should be
fighting in a day or so; and the evening before the
battle young Larcher was talking to me. ‘How
d’you feel?’ I said. He didn’t
answer quite so quickly as usual. ‘D’you
know,’ he said, ‘I’m so awfully
afraid that I shall funk it.’ ‘You
needn’t mind that,’ I said, and I laughed.
’The first time we most of us do funk it.
For five minutes or so you just have to cling on to
your eyelashes to prevent yourself from running away,
and then you feel all right, and you think it’s
rather sport.’ ’I’ve got a sort
of presentiment that I shall be killed,’ he
said. ‘Don’t be an ass,’ I answered.
’We’ve all got a presentiment that we
shall be killed the first time we’re under fire.
If all the people were killed who had presentiments,
half the army would have gone to kingdom come long
ago.’”
“You should have told him to
lay his trust in the hands of Him who has power to
turn the bullet and to break the sword,” said
Mrs. Jackson.
“He wasn’t that sort,”
replied James, drily, “I laughed at him, thinking
it the better way.... Well, next day we did really
fight. We were sent to take an unoccupied hill.
Our maxim was that a hill is always unoccupied unless
the enemy are actually firing from it. Of course,
the place was chock full of Boers; they waited till
we had come within easy range for a toy-pistol, and
then fired murderously. We did all we could.
We tried to storm the place, but we hadn’t a
chance. Men tumbled down like nine-pins.
I’ve never seen anything like it. The order
was given to fire, and there was nothing to fire at
but the naked rocks. We had to retire-we
couldn’t do anything else; and presently I found
that poor Larcher had been wounded. Well, I thought
he couldn’t be left where he was, so I went
back for him. I asked him if he could move.
‘No,’ he said, ‘I think I’m
hurt in the leg.’ I knelt down and bandaged
him up as well as I could. He was simply bleeding
like a pig; and meanwhile brother Boer potted at us
for all he was worth. ‘How d’you feel?’
I asked. ‘Bit dicky; but comfortable.
I didn’t funk it, did I?’ ’No, of
course not, you juggins!’ I said. ‘Can
you walk, d’you think?’ ’I’ll
try.’ I lifted him up and put my arm round
him, and we got along for a bit; then he became awfully
white and groaned, ’I do feel so bad, Parsons,’
and then he fainted. So I had to carry him; and
we went a bit farther, and then-and then
I was hit in the arm. ’I say, I can’t
carry you now,’ I said; ‘for God’s
sake, buck up.’ He opened his eyes, and
I prevented him from falling. ‘I think
I can stand,’ he said, and as he spoke a bullet
got him in the neck, and his blood splashed over my
face. He gave a gasp and died.”
James finished, and his mother and
Mary wiped the tears from their eyes. Mrs. Clibborn
turned to her husband.
“Reggie, I’m sure the Larchers are not
a county family.”
“There was a sapper of that
name whom we met at Simla once, my dear,” replied
the Colonel.
“I thought I’d heard it
before,” said Mrs. Clibborn, with an air of
triumph, as though she’d found out a very difficult
puzzle. “Had he a red moustache?”
“Have you heard from the young
man’s people, Captain Parsons?” asked
Mrs. Jackson.
“I had a letter from Mrs. Larcher,
the boy’s mother, asking me to go over and see
her.”
“She must be very grateful to you, Jamie.”
“Why? She has no reason to be.”
“You did all you could to save him.”
“It would have been better if
I’d left him alone. Don’t you see
that if he had remained where he was he might have
been alive now. He would have been taken prisoner
and sent to Pretoria, but that is better than rotting
on the veldt. He was killed because I tried to
save him.”
“There are worse things than
death,” said Colonel Parsons. “I have
often thought that those fellows who surrendered did
the braver thing. It is easy to stand and be
shot down, but to hoist the white flag so as to save
the lives of the men under one-that requires
courage.”
“It is a sort of courage which
seemed not uncommon,” answered James, drily.
“And they had a fairly pleasant time in Pretoria.
Eventually, I believe, wars will be quite bloodless;
rival armies will perambulate, and whenever one side
has got into a good position, the other will surrender
wholesale. Campaigns will be conducted like manoeuvres,
and the special correspondents will decide which lot
has won.”
“If they were surrounded and
couldn’t escape, it would have been wicked not
to hoist the white flag,” said Mrs. Jackson.
“I daresay you know more about it than I,”
replied James.
But the Vicar’s lady insisted:
“If you were so placed that
on one hand was certain death for yourself and all
your men, and on the other hand surrender, which would
you chose?”
“One can never tell; and in
those matters it is wiser not to boast. Certain
death is an awful thing, but our fathers preferred
it to surrender.”
“War is horrible!” said Mary, shuddering.
“Oh, no!” cried James,
shaking himself out of his despondency. “War
is the most splendid thing in the world. I shall
never forget those few minutes, now and then, when
we got on top of the Boers and fought with them, man
to man, in the old way. Ah, life seemed worth
living then! One day, I remember, they’d
been giving it us awfully hot all the morning, and
we’d lost frightfully. At last we rushed
their position, and, by Jove, we let ’em have
it! How we did hate them! You should have
heard the Tommies cursing as they killed!
I shall never forget the exhilaration of it, the joy
of thinking that we were getting our own again.
By Gad, it beat cock-fighting!”
Jamie’s cheeks were flushed
and his eyes shone; but he had forgotten where he
was, and his father’s voice came to him through
a mist of blood and a roar of sound.
“I have fought, too,”
said Colonel Parsons, looking at his son with troubled
eyes-“I have fought, too, but never
with anger in my heart, nor lust of vengeance.
I hope I did my duty, but I never forgot that my enemy
was a fellow-creature. I never felt joy at killing,
but pain and grief. War is inevitable, but it
is horrible, horrible! It is only the righteous
cause that can excuse it; and then it must be tempered
with mercy and forgiveness.”
“Cause? Every cause is
righteous. I can think of no war in which right
has not been fairly equal on both sides; in every question
there is about as much to be said on either part,
and in none more than in war. Each country is
necessarily convinced of the justice of its own cause.”
“They can’t both be right.”
“Oh, yes, they can. It’s
generally six to one and half a dozen of the other.”
“Do you mean to say that you,
a military man, think the Boers were justified?”
asked Colonel Clibborn, with some indignation.
James laughed.
“You must remember that if any
nation but ourselves had been engaged, our sympathies
would have been entirely with the sturdy peasants
fighting for their independence. The two great
powers in the affairs of the world are sentiment and
self-interest. The Boers are the smaller, weaker
nation, and they have been beaten; it is only natural
that sympathy should be with them. It was with
the French for the same reason, after the Franco-Prussian
War. But we, who were fighting, couldn’t
think of sentiment; to us it was really a matter of
life and death, I was interested to see how soon the
English put aside their ideas of fair play and equal
terms when we had had a few reverses. They forgot
that one Englishman was equal to ten foreigners, and
insisted on sending out as many troops as possible.
I fancy you were badly panic-stricken over here.”
James saw that his listeners looked
at him with surprise, even with consternation; and
he hastened to explain.
“Of course, I don’t blame
them. They were quite right to send as many men
as possible. The object of war is not to do glorious
actions, but to win. Other things being equal,
it is obviously better to be ten to one; it is less
heroic, but more reasonable.”
“You take from war all the honour
and all the chivalry!” cried Mary. “The
only excuse for war is that it brings out the noblest
qualities of man-self-sacrifice, unselfishness,
endurance.”
“But war doesn’t want
any excuse,” replied James, smiling gently.
“Many people say that war is inhuman and absurd;
many people are uncommonly silly. When they think
war can be abolished, they show a phenomenal ignorance
of the conditions of all development. War in one
way and another is at the very root of life.
War is not conducted only by fire and sword; it is
in all nature, it is the condition of existence for
all created things. Even the wild flowers in the
meadow wage war, and they wage it more ruthlessly
even than man, for with them defeat means extermination.
The law of Nature is that the fit should kill the unfit.
The Lord is the Lord of Hosts. The lame, and the
halt, and the blind must remain behind, while the
strong man goes his way rejoicing.”
“How hard you are!” said Mary. “Have
you no pity, James?”
“D’you know, I’ve
got an idea that there’s too much pity in the
world. People seem to be losing their nerve;
reality shocks them, and they live slothfully in the
shoddy palaces of Sham Ideals. The sentimentalists,
the cowards, and the cranks have broken the spirit
of mankind. The general in battle now is afraid
to strike because men may be killed. Sometimes
it is worth while to lose men. When we become
soldiers, we know that we cease to be human beings,
and are merely the instruments for a certain work;
we know that sometimes it may be part of a general’s
deliberate plan that we should be killed. I have
no confidence in a leader who is tender-hearted.
Compassion weakens his brain, and the result, too
often, is disaster.”
But as he spoke, James realised with
a start how his father would take what he was saying.
He could have torn out his tongue, he would have given
anything that the words should remain unspoken.
His father, in pity and in humanity, had committed
just such a fatal mistake, and trying tender-heartedly
to save life had brought about death and disaster.
He would take the thoughtless words as a deliberate
condemnation; the wound, barely closed, was torn open
by his very son, and he must feel again the humiliation
which had nearly killed him.
Colonel Parsons sat motionless, as
though he were stunned, his eyes fixed on James with
horror and pain; he looked like some hunted animal,
terror-stricken, and yet surprised, wondering that
man should be so cruel.
“What can I do?” thought
James. “How can I make it good for him?”
The conversation was carried on by
the Clibborns and by the Vicar, all happily unconscious
that a tragedy was acting under their noses. James
looked at his father. He wanted to show how bitterly
he regretted the pain he had caused, but knew not
what to say; he wanted to give a sign of his eager
love, and tortured himself, knowing the impossibility
of showing in any way his devotion.
Fortunately, the maid came in to announce
that the school children were without, to welcome
Captain Parsons; and they all rose from the table.