James had been away from England for
five years; and in that time a curious change, long
silently proceeding, had made itself openly felt-becoming
manifest, like an insidious disease, only when every
limb and every organ were infected. A new spirit
had been in action, eating into the foundations of
the national character; it worked through the masses
of the great cities, unnerved by the three poisons
of drink, the Salvation Army, and popular journalism.
A mighty force of hysteria and sensationalism was
created, seething, ready to burst its bonds ...
The canker spread through the country-side; the boundaries
of class and class are now so vague that quickly the
whole population was affected; the current literature
of the day flourished upon it; the people of England,
neurotic from the stress of the last sixty years, became
unstable as water. And with the petty reverses
of the beginning of the war, the last barriers of
shame were broken down; their arrogance was dissipated,
and suddenly the English became timorous as a conquered
nation, deprecating, apologetic; like frightened women,
they ran to and fro, wringing their hands. Reserve,
restraint, self-possession, were swept away ...
And now we are frankly emotional; reeds tottering in
the wind, our boast is that we are not even reeds
that think; we cry out for idols. Who is there
that will set up a golden ass that we may fall down
and worship? We glory in our shame, in our swelling
hearts, in our eyes heavy with tears. We want
sympathy at all costs; we run about showing our bleeding
vitals, asking one another whether they are not indeed
a horrible sight. Englishmen now are proud of
being womanish, and nothing is more manly than to
weep. To be a man of feeling is better than to
be a gentleman-it is certainly much easier.
The halt of mind, the maim, the blind of wit, have
come by their own; and the poor in spirit have inherited
the earth.
James had left England when this emotional
state was contemptible. Found chiefly in the
dregs of the populace, it was ascribed to ignorance
and to the abuse of stimulants. When he returned,
it had the public conscience behind it. He could
not understand the change. The persons he had
known sober, equal-minded, and restrained, now seemed
violently hysterical. James still shuddered,
remembering the curate’s allusions to his engagement;
and he wondered that Mary, far from thinking them
impertinent, had been vastly gratified. She seemed
to take pleasure in publicly advertising her connection,
in giving her private affairs to the inspection of
all and sundry. The whole ceremony had been revolting;
he loathed the adulation and the fulsome sentiment.
His own emotions seemed vulgar now that he had been
forced to display them to the gaping crowd.
But the function of the previous day
had the effect also of sealing his engagement.
Everyone knew of it. Jamie’s name was indissolubly
joined with Mary’s; he could not break the tie
now without exposing her to the utmost humiliation.
And how could he offer her such an affront when she
loved him devotedly? It was not vanity that made
him think so, his mother had told him outright; and
he saw it in every look of Mary’s eyes, in the
least inflection of her voice. James asked himself
desperately why Mary should care for him. He was
not good-looking; he was silent; he was not amusing;
he had no particular attraction.
James was sitting in his room, and
presently heard Mary’s voice calling from the
hall.
“Jamie! Jamie!”
He got up and came downstairs.
“Why, Jamie,” said his
father, “you ought to have gone to fetch Mary,
instead of waiting here for her to come to you.”
“You certainly ought, Jamie,”
said Mary, laughing; and then, looking at him, with
sudden feeling: “But how seedy you look!”
James had hardly slept, troubling
over his perplexity, and he looked haggard and tired.
“I’m all right,”
he said; “I’m not very strong yet, and
I was rather exhausted yesterday.”
“Mary thought you would like
to go with her this morning, while she does her district
visiting.”
“It’s a beautiful morning,
Jamie; it will do you good!” cried Mary.
“I should like it very much.”
They started out. Mary wore her
every-day costume-a serge gown, a sailor
hat, and solid, square-toed boots. She walked
fast, with long steps and firm carriage. James
set himself to talk, asking her insignificant questions
about the people she visited. Mary answered with
feeling and at length, but was interrupted by arriving
at a cottage.
“You’d better not come
in here,” she said, blushing slightly; “although
I want to take you in to some of the people. I
think it will be a lesson to them.”
“A lesson in what?”
“Oh, I can’t tell you
to your face, I don’t want to make you conceited;
but you can guess while you’re waiting for me.”
Mary’s patient was about to
be confined, and thinking her condition rather indecent,
quite rightly, Mary had left James outside. But
the good lady, since it was all in the way of nature,
was not so ashamed of herself as she should have been,
and insisted on coming to the door to show Miss Clibborn
out.
“Take care he doesn’t
see you!” cried Mary in alarm, pushing her back.
“Well, there’s no harm
in it. I’m a married woman. You’ll
have to go through it yourself one day, miss.”
Mary rejoined her lover, suffused
in blushes, hoping he had seen nothing.
“It’s very difficult to
teach these people propriety. Somehow the lower
classes seem to have no sense of decency.”
“What’s the matter?”
“Oh, nothing I can tell you,”
replied Mary, modestly. Then, to turn the conversation:
“She asked after my young man, and was very anxious
to see you.”
“Was she? How did she know
you had a young man?” asked James, grimly.
“Oh, everyone knows that!
You can’t keep secrets in Primpton. And
besides, I’m not ashamed of it. Are you?”
“I haven’t got a young man.”
Mary laughed.
They walked on. The morning was
crisp and bright, sending a healthy colour through
Mary’s cheeks. The blue sky and the bracing
air made her feel more self-reliant, better assured
than ever of her upright purpose and her candid heart.
The road, firm underfoot and delightful to walk upon,
stretched before them in a sinuous line. A pleasant
odour came from the adjoining fields, from the farm-yards,
as they passed them; the larks soared singing with
happy heart, while the sparrows chirruped in the hedges.
The hawthorn was bursting into leaf, all bright and
green, and here and there the wild flowers were showing
themselves, the buttercup and the speedwell.
But while the charm of Nature made James anxious to
linger, to lean on a gate and look for a while at the
cows lazily grazing, Mary had too sound a constitution
to find in it anything but a stimulus to renewed activity.
“We mustn’t dawdle, you
lazy creature!” she cried merrily. “I
shall never get through my round before one o’clock
if we don’t put our best foot foremost.”
“Can’t you see them some other time?”
The limpid air softened his heart;
he thought for a moment that if he could wander aimlessly
with Mary, gossiping without purpose, they might end
by understanding one another. The sun, the wild
flowers, the inconstant breeze, might help to create
a new feeling.
But Mary turned to him with grave tenderness.
“You know I’d do anything
to please you, Jamie. But even for you I cannot
neglect my duty.”
James froze.
“Of course, you’re quite right,”
he said. “It really doesn’t matter.”
They came to another cottage, and this time Mary took
James in.
“It’s a poor old man,”
she said. “I’m so sorry for him; he’s
always so grateful for what I do.”
They found him lying in bed, writhing
with pain, his head supported by a pillow.
“Oh, how uncomfortable you look!”
cried Mary. “You poor thing! Who on
earth arranged your pillows like that?”
“My daughter, miss.”
“I must talk to her; she ought to know better.”
Miss Clibborn drew away the pillows
very gently, smoothed them out, and replaced them.
“I can’t bear ’em
like that, miss. The other is the only way I’m
comfortable.”
“Nonsense, John!” cried
Mary, brightly. “You couldn’t be comfortable
with your head all on one side; you’re much better
as you are.”
James saw the look of pain in the
man’s face, and ventured to expostulate.
“Don’t you think you’d
better put them back in the old way? He seemed
much easier.”
“Nonsense, Jamie. You must
know that the head ought to be higher than the body.”
“Please, miss, I can’t bear the pillow
like this.”
“Oh, yes, you can. You
must show more forbearance and fortitude. Remember
that God sends you pain in order to try you. Think
of Our Lord suffering silently on the Cross.”
“You’re putting him to
quite unnecessary torture, Mary,” said James.
“He must know best how he’s comfortable.”
“It’s only because he’s
obstinate. Those people are always complaining.
Really, you must permit me to know more about nursing
than you do, Jamie.”
Jamie’s face grew dark and grim, but he made
no answer.
“I shall send you some soup,
John,” said Mary, as they went out, “You
know, one can never get these people to do anything
in a rational way,” she added to James.
“It’s perfectly heartrending trying to
teach them even such a natural thing as making themselves
comfortable.”
James was silent.
They walked a few yards farther, and
passed a man in a dog-cart Mary turned very red, staring
in front of her with the fixed awkwardness of one
not adept in the useful art of cutting.
“Oh,” she said, with vexation, “he’s
going to John.”
“Who is it?”
“It’s Dr. Higgins-a
horrid, vulgar man. He’s been dreadfully
rude to me, and I make a point of cutting him.”
“Really?”
“Oh, he behaved scandalously.
I can’t bear doctors, they’re so dreadfully
interfering. And they seem to think no one can
know anything about doctoring but themselves!
He was attending one of my patients; it was a woman,
and of course I knew what she wanted. She was
ill and weak, and needed strengthening; so I sent
her down a bottle of port. Well, Dr. Higgins
came to the house, and asked to see me. He’s
not a gentleman, you know, and he was so rude!
‘I’ve come to see you about Mrs. Gandy,’
he said. ’I particularly ordered her not
to take stimulants, and I find you’ve sent her
down port.’ ‘I thought she wanted
it,’ I said. ’She told me that you
had said she wasn’t to touch anything, but I
thought a little port would do her good.’
Then he said, ’I wish to goodness you wouldn’t
interfere with what you know nothing about.’
’I should like you to remember that you’re
speaking to a gentlewoman,’ I said. ’I
don’t care twopence,’ he answered, in
the rudest way. ’I’m not going to
allow you to interfere with my patients. I took
the port away, and I wish you to understand that you’re
not to send any more.’
“Then I confess I lost my temper.
’I suppose you took it away to drink yourself?’
I said. Then what d’you think he did?
He burst out laughing, and said: ’A bottle
of port that cost two bob at the local grocer’s!
The saints preserve us!’”
James repressed a smile.
“‘You impertinent man!’
I said. ’You ought to be ashamed to talk
to a woman like that. I shall at once send Mrs.
Gandy another bottle of port, and it’s no business
of yours how much it cost.’ ‘If you
do,’ he said, ‘and anything happens, by
God, I’ll have you up for manslaughter.’
I rang the bell. ‘Leave the house,’
I said, ’and never dare come here again!’
Now don’t you think I was right, Jamie?”
“My dear Mary, you always are!”
James looked back at the doctor entering
the cottage. It was some comfort to think that
he would put the old man into a comfortable position.
“When I told papa,” added
Mary, “he got in a most fearful rage. He
insisted on going out with a horsewhip, and said he
meant to thrash Dr. Higgins. He looked for him
all the morning, but couldn’t find him; and
then your mother and I persuaded him it was better
to treat such a vulgar man with silent contempt.”
James had noticed that the doctor
was a burly, broad-shouldered fellow, and he could
not help thinking Colonel Clibborn’s resolution
distinctly wise. How sad it is that in this world
right is so often subordinate to brute force!
“But he’s not received
anywhere. We all cut him; and I get everyone I
can not to employ him.”
“Ah!” murmured James.
Mary’s next patient was feminine,
and James was again left to cool his heels in the
road; but not alone, for Mr. Dryland came out of the
cottage. The curate was a big, stout man, with
reddish hair, and a complexion like squashed strawberries
and cream; his large, heavy face, hairless except
for scanty red eyebrows, gave a disconcerting impression
of nakedness. His eyes were blue and his mouth
small, with the expression which young ladies, eighty
years back, strove to acquire by repeating the words
prune and prism. He had a fat, full voice, with
unctuous modulations not entirely under his control,
so that sometimes, unintentionally, he would utter
the most commonplace remark in a tone fitted for a
benediction. Mr. Dryland was possessed by the
laudable ambition to be all things to all men; and
he tried, without conspicuous success, always to suit
his conversation to his hearers. With old ladies
he was bland; with sportsmen slangy; with yokels he
was broadly humorous; and with young people aggressively
juvenile. But above all, he wished to be manly,
and cultivated a boisterous laugh and a jovial manner.
“I don’t know if you remember
me,” he cried, with a ripple of fat laughter,
going up to James, “I had the pleasure of addressing
a few words to you yesterday in my official capacity.
Miss Clibborn told me you were waiting, and I thought
I would introduce myself. My name is Dryland.”
“I remember quite well.”
“I’m the Vicar’s
bottle-washer, you know,” added the curate, with
a guffaw. “Change for you-going
round to the sick and needy of the parish-after
fighting the good fight. I hear you were wounded.”
“I was, rather badly.”
“I wish I could have gone out
and had a smack at the Boers. Nothing I should
have liked better. But, of course, I’m only
a parson, you know. It wouldn’t have been
thought the correct thing.” Mr. Dryland,
from his superior height, beamed down on James.
“I don’t know whether you remember the
few words which I was privileged to address to you
yesterday-”
“Perfectly,” put in James.
“Impromptu, you know; but they
expressed my feelings. That is one of the best
things the war has done for us. It has permitted
us to express our emotions more openly. I thought
it a beautiful sight to see the noble tears coursing
down your father’s furrowed cheeks. Those
few words of yours have won all our hearts. I
may say that our little endeavours were nothing beside
that short, unstudied speech. I hope there will
be a full report in the Tunbridge Wells papers.”
“I hope not!” cried James.
“You’re too modest, Captain
Parsons. That is what I said to Miss Clibborn
yesterday; true courage is always modest. But
it is our duty to see that it does not hide its light
under a bushel. I hope you won’t think
it a liberty, but I myself gave the reporter a few
notes.”
“Will Miss Clibborn be long?”
asked James, looking at the cottage.
“Ah, what a good woman she is,
Captain Parsons. My dear sir, I assure you she’s
an angel of mercy.”
“It’s very kind of you to say so.”
“Not at all! It’s
a pleasure. The good she does is beyond praise.
She’s a wonderful help in the parish. She
has at heart the spiritual welfare of the people,
and I may say that she is a moral force of the first
magnitude.”
“I’m sure that’s a very delightful
thing to be.”
“You know I can’t help
thinking,” laughed Mr. Dryland fatly, “that
she ought to be the wife of a clergyman, rather than
of a military man.”
Mary came out.
“I’ve been telling Mrs.
Gray that I don’t approve of the things her
daughter wears in church,” she said. “I
don’t think it’s nice for people of that
class to wear such bright colours.”
“I don’t know what we
should do in the parish without you,” replied
the curate, unctuously. “It’s so
rare to find someone who knows what is right, and
isn’t afraid of speaking out.”
Mary said that she and James were
walking home, and asked Mr. Dryland whether he would
not accompany them.
“I shall be delighted, if I’m not de
trop.”
He looked with laughing significance from one to the
other.
“I wanted to talk to you about my girls,”
said Mary.
She had a class of village maidens,
to whom she taught sewing, respect for their betters,
and other useful things.
“I was just telling Captain
Parsons that you were an angel of mercy, Miss Clibborn.”
“I’m afraid I’m
not that,” replied Mary, gravely. “But
I try to do my duty.”
“Ah!” cried Mr. Dryland,
raising his eyes so that he looked exactly like a
codfish, “how few of us can say that!”
“I’m seriously distressed
about my girls. They live in nasty little cottages,
and eat filthy things; they pass their whole lives
under the most disgusting conditions, and yet they’re
happy. I can’t get them to see that they
ought to be utterly miserable.”
“Oh, I know,” sighed the
curate; “it makes me sad to think of it.”
“Surely, if they’re happy,
you can want nothing better,” said James, rather
impatiently.
“But I do. They have no
right to be happy under such circumstances. I
want to make them feel their wretchedness.”
“What a brutal thing to do!” cried James.
“It’s the only way to
improve them. I want them to see things as I see
them.”
“And how d’you know that
you see them any more correctly than they do?”
“My dear Jamie!” cried
Mary; and then as the humour of such a suggestion
dawned upon her, she burst into a little shout of laughter.
“What d’you think is the
good of making them dissatisfied?” asked James,
grimly.
“I want to make them better,
nobler, worthier; I want to make their lives more
beautiful and holy.”
“If you saw a man happily wearing
a tinsel crown, would you go to him and say, ’My
good friend, you’re making a fool of yourself.
Your crown isn’t of real gold, and you must
throw it away. I haven’t a golden crown
to give you instead, but you’re wicked to take
pleasure in that sham thing.’ They’re
just as comfortable, after their fashion, in a hovel
as you in your fine house; they enjoy the snack of
fat pork they have on Sunday just as much as you enjoy
your boiled chickens and blanc-manges. They’re
happy, and that’s the chief thing.”
“Happiness is not the chief
thing in this world, James,” said Mary, gravely.
“Isn’t it? I thought it was.”
“Captain Parsons is a cynic,”
said Mr. Dryland, with a slightly supercilious smile.
“Because I say it’s idiotic
to apply your standards to people who have nothing
in common with you? I hate all this interfering.
For God’s sake let us go our way; and if we
can get a little pleasure out of dross and tinsel,
let us keep it.”
“I want to give the poor high ideals,”
said Mary.
“I should have thought bread and cheese would
be more useful.”
“My dear Jamie,” said
Mary, good-naturedly, “I think you’re talking
of things you know nothing about.”
“You must remember that Miss
Clibborn has worked nobly among the poor for many
years.”
“My own conscience tells me
I’m right,” pursued Mary, “and you
see Mr. Dryland agrees with me. I know you mean
well, Jamie; but I don’t think you quite understand
the matter, and I fancy we had better change the conversation.”