James was wandering in the garden
of Primpton House while Mrs. Jackson thither went
her way. Since the termination of his engagement
with Mary three days back, the subject had not been
broached between him and his parents; but he divined
their thoughts. He knew that they awaited the
arrival of his uncle, Major Forsyth, to set the matter
right. They did not seek to reconcile themselves
with the idea that the break was final; it seemed
too monstrous a thing to be true. James smiled,
with bitter amusement, at their simple trust in the
man of the world who was due that day.
Major Forsyth was fifty-three, a haunter
of military clubs, a busy sluggard, who set his pride
in appearing dissipated, and yet led the blameless
life of a clergyman’s daughter; preserving a
spotless virtue, nothing pleased him more than to
be thought a rake. He had been on half-pay for
many years, and blamed the War Office on that account
rather than his own incompetence. Ever since retiring
he had told people that advancement, in these degenerate
days, was impossible without influence: he was,
indeed, one of those men to whom powerful friends
offer the only chance of success; and possessing none,
inveighed constantly against the corrupt officialism
of those in authority. But to his Jeremiads upon
the decay of the public services he added a keen interest
in the world of fashion; it is always well that a man
should have varied activities; it widens his horizon,
and gives him a greater usefulness. If his attention
had been limited to red-tape, Major Forsyth, even
in his own circle, might have been thought a little
one-sided; but his knowledge of etiquette and tailors
effectually prevented the reproach. He was pleased
to consider himself in society; he read assiduously
those papers which give detailed accounts of the goings-on
in the “hupper succles,” and could give
you with considerable accuracy the whereabouts of
titled people. If he had a weakness, it was by
his manner of speaking to insinuate that he knew certain
noble persons whom, as a matter of fact, he had never
set eyes on; he would not have told a direct lie on
the subject, but his conscience permitted him a slight
equivocation. Major Forsyth was well up in all
the gossip of the clubs, and if he could not call
himself a man of the world, he had not the least notion
who could. But for all that, he had the strictest
principles; he was true brother to Mrs. Parsons, and
though he concealed the fact like something disreputable,
regularly went to church on Sunday mornings.
There was also a certain straitness in his income
which confined him to the paths shared by the needy
and the pure at heart.
Major Forsyth had found no difficulty
in imposing upon his sister and her husband.
“Of course, William is rather
rackety,” they said. “It’s a
pity he hasn’t a wife to steady him; but he
has a good heart.”
For them Major Forsyth had the double
advantage of a wiliness gained in the turmoil of the
world and an upright character. They scarcely
knew how in the present juncture he could help, but
had no doubt that from the boundless store of his
worldly wisdom he would invent a solution to their
difficulty.
James had found his uncle out when
he was quite a boy, and seeing his absurdity, had
treated him ever since with good-natured ridicule.
“I wonder what they think he can say?”
he asked himself.
James was profoundly grieved at the
unhappiness which bowed his father down. His
parents had looked forward with such ecstatic pleasure
to his arrival, and what sorrow had he not brought
them!
“I wish I’d never come back,” he
muttered.
He thought of the flowing, undulating
plains of the Orange Country, and the blue sky, with
its sense of infinite freedom. In that trim Kentish
landscape he felt hemmed in; when the clouds were low
it seemed scarcely possible to breathe; and he suffered
from the constraint of his father and mother, who
treated him formally, as though he had become a stranger.
There was always between them and him that painful
topic which for the time was carefully shunned.
They did not mention Mary’s name, and the care
they took to avoid it was more painful than would have
been an open reference. They sat silent and sad,
trying to appear natural, and dismally failing; their
embarrassed manner was such as they might have adopted
had he committed some crime, the mention of which for
his sake must never be made, but whose recollection
perpetually haunted them. In every action was
the belief that James must be suffering from remorse,
and that it was their duty not to make his burden heavier.
James knew that his father was convinced that he had
acted dishonourably, and he-what did he
himself think?
James asked himself a hundred times
a day whether he had acted well or ill; and though
he forced himself to answer that he had done the only
possible thing, deep down in his heart was a terrible,
a perfectly maddening uncertainty. He tried to
crush it, and would not listen, for his intelligence
told him clearly it was absurd; but it was stronger
than intelligence, an incorporeal shape through which
passed harmlessly the sword-cuts of his reason.
It was a little devil curled up in his heart, muttering
to all his arguments, “Are you sure?”
Sometimes he was nearly distracted,
and then the demon laughed, so that the mocking shrillness
rang in his ears:
“Are you sure, my friend-are
you sure? And where, pray, is the honour which
only a while ago you thought so much of?”
James walked to and fro restlessly,
impatient, angry with himself and with all the world.
But then on the breath of the wind,
on the perfume of the roses, yellow and red, came
suddenly the irresistible recollection of Mrs. Wallace.
Why should he not think of her now? He was free;
he could do her no harm; he would never see her again.
The thought of her was the only sunshine in his life;
he was tired of denying himself every pleasure.
Why should he continue the pretence that he no longer
loved her? It was, indeed, a consolation to think
that the long absence had not dulled his passion;
the strength of it was its justification. It was
useless to fight against it, for it was part of his
very soul; he might as well have fought against the
beating of his heart. And if it was torture to
remember those old days in India, he delighted in it;
it was a pain more exquisite than the suffocating
odours of tropical flowers, a voluptuous agony such
as might feel the fakir lacerating his flesh in a divine
possession.... Every little occurrence was clear,
as if it had taken place but a day before.
James repeated to himself the conversations
they had had, of no consequence, the idle gossip of
a stray half-hour; but each word was opulent in the
charming smile, in the caressing glance of her eyes.
He was able to imagine Mrs. Wallace quite close to
him, wearing the things that he had seen her wear,
and with her movements he noticed the excessive scent
she used. He wondered whether she had overcome
that failing, whether she still affected the artificiality
which was so adorable a relief from the primness of
manner which he had thought the natural way of women.
If her cheeks were not altogether
innocent of rouge or her eyebrows of pencil, what
did he care; he delighted in her very faults; he would
not have her different in the very slightest detail;
everything was part of that complex, elusive fascination.
And James thought of the skin which had the even softness
of fine velvet, and the little hands. He called
himself a fool for his shyness. What could have
been the harm if he had taken those hands and kissed
them? Now, in imagination, he pressed his lips
passionately on the warm palms. He liked the barbaric
touch in the many rings which bedecked her fingers.
“Why do you wear so many rings?”
he asked. “Your hands are too fine.”
He would never have ventured the question,
but now there was no danger. Her answer came
with a little, good-humoured laugh; she stretched out
her fingers, looking complacently at the brilliant
gems.
“I like to be gaudy. I
should like to be encrusted with jewels. I want
to wear bracelets to my elbow and diamond spangles
on my arms; and jewelled belts, and jewels in my hair,
and on my neck. I should like to flash from head
to foot with exotic stones.”
Then she looked at him with amusement.
“Of course, you think it’s
vulgar. What do I care? You all of you think
it’s vulgar to be different from other people.
I want to be unique.”
“You want everybody to look at you?”
“Of course I do! Is it
sinful? Oh, I get so impatient with all of you,
with your good taste and your delicacy, and your insupportable
dulness. When you admire a woman, you think it
impertinent to tell her she’s beautiful; when
you have good looks, you carry yourselves as though
you were ashamed.”
And in a bold moment he replied:
“Yet you would give your soul
to have no drop of foreign blood in your veins!”
“I?” she cried, her eyes
flashing with scorn. “I’m proud of
my Eastern blood. It’s not blood I have
in my veins, it’s fire-a fire of gold.
It’s because of it that I have no prejudices,
and know how to enjoy my life.”
James smiled, and did not answer.
“You don’t believe me?” she asked.
“No!”
“Well, perhaps I should like
to be quite English. I should feel more comfortable
in my scorn of these regimental ladies if I thought
they could find no reason to look down on me.”
“I don’t think they look down on you.”
“Oh, don’t they? They despise and
loathe me.”
“When you were ill, they did all they could
for you.”
“Foolish creature! Don’t
you know that to do good to your enemy is the very
best way of showing your contempt.”
And so James could go on, questioning,
replying, putting little jests into her mouth, or
half-cynical repartees. Sometimes he spoke aloud,
and then Mrs. Wallace’s voice sounded in his
ears, clear and rich and passionate, as though she
were really standing in the flesh beside him.
But always he finished by taking her in his arms and
kissing her lips and her closed eyes, the lids transparent
like the finest alabaster. He knew no pleasure
greater than to place his hands on that lustrous hair.
What could it matter now? He was not bound to
Mary; he could do no harm to Mrs. Wallace, ten thousand
miles away.
But Colonel Parsons broke into the
charming dream. Bent and weary, he came across
the lawn to find his son. The wan, pathetic figure
brought back to James all the present bitterness.
He sighed, and advanced to meet him.
“You’re very reckless
to come out without a hat, father. I’ll
fetch you one, shall I?”
“No, I’m not going to
stay.” The Colonel could summon up no answering
smile to his boy’s kind words. “I
only came to tell you that Mrs. Jackson is in the
drawing-room, and would like to see you.”
“What does she want?”
“She’ll explain herself. She has
asked to see you alone.”
Jamie’s face darkened, as some
notion of Mrs. Jackson’s object dawned upon
him.
“I don’t know what she can have to talk
to me about alone.”
“Please listen to her, Jamie.
She’s a very clever woman, and you can’t
fail to benefit by her advice.”
The Colonel never had an unfriendly
word to say of anyone, and even for Mrs. Jackson’s
unwarrantable interferences could always find a good-natured
justification. He was one of those deprecatory
men who, in every difference of opinion, are convinced
that they are certainly in the wrong. He would
have borne with the most cheerful submission any rebuke
of his own conduct, and been, indeed, vastly grateful
to the Vicar’s wife for pointing out his error.
James found Mrs. Jackson sitting bolt
upright on a straight-backed chair, convinced, such
was her admirable sense of propriety, that a lounging
attitude was incompatible with the performance of a
duty. She held her hands on her lap, gently clasped;
and her tight lips expressed as plainly as possible
her conviction that though the way of righteousness
was hard, she, thank God! had strength to walk it.
“How d’you do, Mrs. Jackson?”
“Good morning,” she replied, with a stiff
bow.
James, though there was no fire, went
over to the mantelpiece and leant against it, waiting
for the lady to speak.
“Captain Parsons, I have a very painful duty
to perform.”
Those were her words, but it must
have been a dense person who failed to perceive that
Mrs. Jackson found her duty anything but painful.
There was just that hard resonance in her voice that
an inquisitor might have in condemning to the stake
a Jew to whom he owed much money.
“I suppose you will call me a busybody?”
“Oh, I’m sure you would
never interfere with what does not concern you,”
replied James, slowly.
“Certainly not!” said
Mrs. Jackson. “I come here because my conscience
tells me to. What I wish to talk to you about
concerns us all.”
“Shall I call my people? I’m sure
they’d be interested.”
“I asked to see you alone, Captain
Parsons,” answered Mrs. Jackson, frigidly.
“And it was for your sake. When one has
to tell a person home-truths, he generally prefers
that there should be no audience.”
“So you’re going to tell
me some home-truths, Mrs. Jackson?” said James,
with a laugh. “You must think me very good-natured.
How long have I had the pleasure of your acquaintance?”
Mrs. Jackson’s grimness did not relax.
“One learns a good deal about people in a week.”
“D’you think so?
I have an idea that ten years is a short time to get
to know them. You must be very quick.”
“Actions often speak.”
“Actions are the most lying
things in the world. They are due mostly to adventitious
circumstances which have nothing to do with the character
of the agent. I would never judge a man by his
actions.”
“I didn’t come here to
discuss abstract things with you, Captain Parsons.”
“Why not? The abstract
is so much more entertaining than the concrete.
It affords opportunities for generalisation, which
is the salt of conversation.”
“I’m a very busy woman,”
retorted Mrs. Jackson sharply, thinking that James
was not treating her with proper seriousness.
He was not so easy to tackle as she had imagined.
“It’s very good of you,
then, to spare time to come and have a little chat
with me,” said James.
“I did not come for that purpose, Captain Parsons.”
“Oh, I forgot-home-truths,
wasn’t it? I was thinking of Shakespeare
and the musical glasses!”
“Would you kindly remember that
I am a clergyman’s wife, Captain Parsons?
I daresay you are not used to the society of such.”
“Pardon me, I even know an archdeacon
quite well. He has a great gift of humour; a
man wants it when he wears a silk apron.”
“Captain Parsons,” said
Mrs. Jackson, sternly, “there are some things
over which it is unbecoming to jest. I wish to
be as gentle as possible with you, but I may remind
you that flippancy is not the best course for you
to pursue.”
James looked at her with a good-tempered stare.
“Upon my word,” he said to himself, “I
never knew I was so patient.”
“I can’t beat about the
bush any longer,” continued the Vicar’s
lady; “I have a very painful duty to perform.”
“That quite excuses your hesitation.”
“You must guess why I have asked to see you
alone.”
“I haven’t the least idea.”
“Does your conscience say nothing to you?”
“My conscience is very well-bred. It never
says unpleasant things.”
“Then I’m sincerely sorry for you.”
James smiled.
“Oh, my good woman,” he
thought, “if you only knew what a troublesome
spirit I carry about with me!”
But Mrs. Jackson saw only hardness
of heart in the grave face; she never dreamed that
behind those quiet eyes was a turmoil of discordant
passions, tearing, rending, burning.
“I’m sorry for you,”
she repeated. “I think it’s very sad,
very sad indeed, that you should stand there and boast
of the sluggishness of your conscience. Conscience
is the voice of God, Captain Parsons; if it does not
speak to you, it behoves others to speak in its place.”
“And supposing I knew what you
wanted to say, do you think I should like to hear?”
“I’m afraid not.”
“Then don’t you think discretion points
to silence?”
“No, Captain Parsons. There
are some things which one is morally bound to say,
however distasteful they may be.”
“The easiest way to get through
life is to say pleasant things on all possible occasions.”
“That is not my way, and that is not the right
way.”
“I think it rash to conclude
that a course is right merely because it is difficult.
Likewise an uncivil speech is not necessarily a true
one.”
“I repeat that I did not come
here to bandy words with you.”
“My dear Mrs. Jackson, I have
been wondering why you did not come to the point at
once.”
“You have been wilfully interrupting me.”
“I’m so sorry. I
thought I had been making a series of rather entertaining
observations.”
“Captain Parsons, what does
your conscience say to you about Mary Clibborn?”
James looked at Mrs. Jackson very
coolly, and she never imagined with what difficulty
he was repressing himself.
“I thought you said your subject
was of national concern. Upon my word, I thought
you proposed to hold a thanksgiving service in Little
Primpton Church for the success of the British arms.”
“Well, you know different now,”
retorted Mrs. Jackson, with distinct asperity.
“I look upon your treatment of Mary Clibborn
as a matter which concerns us all.”
“Then, as politely as possible,
I must beg to differ from you. I really cannot
permit you to discuss my private concerns. You
have, doubtless, much evil to say of me; say it behind
my back.”
“I presumed that you were a gentleman, Captain
Parsons.”
“You certainly presumed.”
“And I should be obliged if you would treat
me like a lady.”
James smiled. He saw that it was folly to grow
angry.
“We’ll do our best to
be civil to one another, Mrs. Jackson. But I don’t
think you must talk of what really is not your business.”
“D’you think you can act
shamefully and then slink away as soon as you are
brought to book? Do you know what you’ve
done to Mary Clibborn?”
“Whatever I’ve done, you
may be sure that I have not acted rashly. Really,
nothing you can say will make the slightest difference.
Don’t you think we had better bring our conversation
to an end?”
James made a movement towards the door.
“Your father and mother wish
me to speak with you, Colonel Parsons,” said
Mrs. Jackson. “And they wish you to listen
to what I have to say.”
James paused. “Very well.”
He sat down and waited. Mrs.
Jackson felt unaccountably nervous; it had never occurred
to her that a mere soldier could be so hard to deal
with, and it was she who hesitated now. Jamie’s
stern eyes made her feel singularly like a culprit;
but she cleared her throat and straightened herself.
“It’s very sad,”
she said, “to find how much we’ve been
mistaken in you, Captain Parsons. When we were
making all sorts of preparations to welcome you, we
never thought that you would repay us like this.
It grieves me to have to tell you that you have done
a very wicked thing. I was hoping that your conscience
would have something to say to you, but unhappily
I was mistaken. You induced Mary to become engaged
to you; you kept her waiting for years; you wrote
constantly, pretending to love her, deceiving her
odiously; you let her waste the best part of her life,
and then, without excuse and without reason, you calmly
say that you’re sick of her, and won’t
marry her. I think it is horrible, and brutal,
and most ungentlemanly. Even a common man wouldn’t
have behaved in that way. Of course, it doesn’t
matter to you, but it means the ruin of Mary’s
whole life. How can she get a husband now when
she’s wasted her best years? You’ve
spoilt all her chances. You’ve thrown a
slur upon her which people will never forget.
You’re a cruel, wicked man, and however you
won the Victoria Cross I don’t know; I’m
sure you don’t deserve it.”
Mrs. Jackson stopped.
“Is that all?” asked James, quietly.
“It’s quite enough.”
“Quite! In that case, I think we may finish
our little interview.”
“Have you nothing to say?”
asked Mrs. Jackson indignantly, realising that she
had not triumphed after all.
“I? Nothing.”
Mrs. Jackson was perplexed, and still
those disconcerting eyes were fixed upon her; she
angrily resented their polite contempt.
“Well, I think it’s disgraceful!”
she cried. “You must be utterly shameless!”
“My dear lady, you asked me
to listen to you, and I have. If you thought
I was going to argue, I’m afraid you were mistaken.
But since you have been very frank with me, you can
hardly mind if I am equally frank with you. I
absolutely object to the way in which not only you,
but all the persons who took part in that ridiculous
function the other day, talk of my private concerns.
I am a perfect stranger to you, and you have no business
to speak to me of my engagement with Miss Clibborn
or the rupture of it. Finally, I would remark
that I consider your particular interference a very
gross piece of impertinence. I am sorry to have
to speak so directly, but apparently nothing but the
very plainest language can have any effect upon you.”
Then Mrs. Jackson lost her temper.
“Captain Parsons, I am considerably
older than you, and you have no right to speak to
me like that. You forget that I am a lady; and
if I didn’t know your father and mother, I should
say that you were no gentleman. And you forget
also that I come here on the part of God. You
are certainly no Christian. You’ve been
very rude to me, indeed.”
“I didn’t mean to be,” replied James,
smiling.
“If I’d known you would
be so rude to a lady, I should have sent Archibald
to speak with you.”
“Perhaps it’s fortunate
you didn’t. I might have kicked him.”
“Captain Parsons, he’s a minister of the
gospel.”
“Surely it is possible to be that without being
a malicious busybody.”
“You’re heartless and vain! You’re
odiously conceited.”
“I should have thought it a
proof of modesty that for half an hour I have listened
to you with some respect and with great attention.”
“I must say in my heart I’m
glad that Providence has stepped in and prevented
Mary from marrying you. You are a bad man.
And I leave you now to the mercies of your own conscience;
I am a Christian woman, thank Heaven! and I forgive
you. But I sincerely hope that God will see fit
to punish you for your wickedness.”
Mrs. Jackson bounced to the door,
which James very politely opened.
“Oh, don’t trouble!”
she said, with a sarcastic shake of the head.
“I can find my way out alone, and I shan’t
steal the umbrellas.”