Major Forsyth was not at all discouraged
by the issue of his intervention.
“Now I see how the land lies,”
he said, “it’s all plain sailing.
Reconnoitre first, and then wire in.”
He bravely attacked James next day,
when they were smoking in the garden after breakfast.
Uncle William smoked nothing but gold-tipped cigarettes,
which excited his nephew’s open scorn.
“I’ve been thinking about
what you said yesterday, James,” he began.
“For Heaven’s sake, Uncle
William, don’t talk about it any more. I’m
heartily sick of the whole thing. I’ve made
up my mind, and I really shall not alter it for anything
you may say.”
Major Forsyth changed the conversation
with what might have been described as a strategic
movement to the rear. He said that Jamie’s
answer told him all he wished to know, and he was content
now to leave the seeds which he had sown to spring
up of their own accord.
“I’m perfectly satisfied,”
he told his sister, complacently. “You’ll
see that if it’ll all come right now.”
Meanwhile, Mary conducted herself
admirably. She neither avoided James nor sought
him, but when chance brought them together, was perfectly
natural. Her affection had never been demonstrative,
and now there was in her manner but little change.
She talked frankly, as though nothing had passed between
them, with no suspicion of reproach in her tone.
She was, indeed, far more at ease than James.
He could not hide the effort it was to make conversation,
nor the nervous discomfort which in her presence he
felt. He watched her furtively, asking himself
whether she still suffered. But Mary’s
face betrayed few of her emotions; tanned by exposure
to all weathers, her robust colour remained unaltered;
and it was only in her eyes that James fancied he
saw a difference. They had just that perplexed,
sorrowful expression which a dog has, unjustly beaten.
James, imaginative and conscience-stricken, tortured
himself by reading in their brown softness all manner
of dreadful anguish. He watched them, unlit by
the smile which played upon the lips, looking at him
against their will, with a pitiful longing. He
exaggerated the pain he saw till it became an obsession,
intolerable and ruthless; if Mary desired revenge,
she need not have been dissatisfied. But that
apparently was the last thing she thought of.
He was grateful to hear of her anger with Mrs. Jackson,
whose sympathy had expressed itself in round abuse
of him. His mother repeated the words.
“I will never listen to a word
against Captain Parsons, Mrs. Jackson. Whatever
he did, he had a perfect right to do. He’s
incapable of acting otherwise than as an honourable
gentleman.”
But if Mary’s conduct aroused
the admiration of all that knew her, it rendered James
still more blameworthy.
The hero-worship was conveniently
forgotten, and none strove to conceal the dislike,
even the contempt, which he felt for the fallen idol.
James had outraged the moral sense of the community;
his name could not be mentioned without indignation;
everything he did was wrong, even his very real modesty
was explained as overweening conceit.
And curiously enough, James was profoundly
distressed by the general disapproval. A silent,
shy man, he was unreasonably sensitive to the opinion
of his fellows; and though he told himself that they
were stupid, ignorant, and narrow, their hostility
nevertheless made him miserable. Even though
he contemned them, he was anxious that they should
like him. He refused to pander to their prejudices,
and was too proud to be conciliatory; yet felt bitterly
wounded when he had excited their aversion. Now
he set to tormenting himself because he had despised
the adulation of Little Primpton, and could not equally
despise its censure.
Sunday came, and the good people of
Little Primpton trooped to church. Mrs Clibborn
turned round and smiled at James when he took his seat,
but the Colonel sat rigid, showing by the stiffness
of his backbone that his indignation was supreme.
The service proceeded, and in due
course Mr. Jackson mounted the pulpit steps.
He delivered his text: “The fear of the
Lord is to hate evil: pride, and arrogancy, and
the evil way, and the froward mouth, do I hate.”
The Vicar of Little Primpton was an
earnest man, and he devoted much care to the composition
of his sermons. He was used to expound twice a
Sunday the more obvious parts of Holy Scripture, making
in twenty minutes or half an hour, for the benefit
of the vulgar, a number of trite reflections; and
it must be confessed that he had great facility for
explaining at decorous length texts which were plain
to the meanest intelligence.
But having a fair acquaintance with
the thought of others, Mr. Jackson flattered himself
that he was a thinker; and on suitable occasions attacked
from his village pulpit the scarlet weed of heresy,
expounding to an intelligent congregation of yokels
and small boys the manifold difficulties of the Athanasian
Creed. He was at his best in pouring vials of
contempt upon the false creed of atheists, Romanists,
Dissenters, and men of science. The theory of
Evolution excited his bitterest scorn, and he would
set up, like a row of nine-pins, the hypotheses of
the greatest philosophers of the century, triumphantly
to knock them down by the force of his own fearless
intellect. His congregation were inattentive,
and convinced beyond the need of argument, so they
remained pious members of the Church of England.
But this particular sermon, after
mature consideration, the Vicar had made up his mind
to devote to a matter of more pressing interest.
He repeated the text. Mrs. Jackson, who knew
what was coming, caught the curate’s eye, and
looked significantly at James. The homily, in
fact, was directed against him; his were the pride,
the arrogancy, and the evil way. He was blissfully
unconscious of these faults, and for a minute or two
the application missed him; but the Vicar of Little
Primpton, intent upon what he honestly thought his
duty, meant that there should be no mistake.
He crossed his t’s and dotted his i’s,
with the scrupulous accuracy of the scandal-monger
telling a malicious story about some person whom charitably
he does not name, yet wishes everyone to identify.
Colonel Parsons started when suddenly
the drift of the sermon dawned upon him, and then
bowed his head with shame. His wife looked straight
in front of her, two flaming spots upon her pale cheeks.
Mary, in the next pew, dared not move, hardly dared
breathe; her heart sank with dismay, and she feared
she would faint.
“How he must be suffering!” she muttered.
They all felt for James intensely;
the form of Mr. Jackson, hooded and surpliced, had
acquired a new authority, and his solemn invective
was sulphurous with the fires of Hell. They wondered
how James could bear it.
“He hasn’t deserved this,” thought
Mrs. Parsons.
But the Colonel bent his head still
lower, accepting for his son the reproof, taking part
of it himself. The humiliation seemed merited,
and the only thing to do was to bear it meekly.
James alone appeared unconcerned; the rapid glances
at him saw no change in his calm, indifferent face.
His eyes were closed, and one might have thought him
asleep. Mr. Jackson noted the attitude, and attributed
it to a wicked obstinacy. For the repentant sinner,
acknowledging his fault, he would have had entire
forgiveness; but James showed no contrition.
Stiff-necked and sin-hardened, he required a further
chastisement.
“Courage, what is courage?”
asked the preacher. “There is nothing more
easy than to do a brave deed when the blood is hot.
But to conduct one’s life simply, modestly,
with a meek spirit and a Christ-like submission, that
is ten times more difficult Courage, unaccompanied
by moral worth, is the quality of a brute-beast.”
He showed how much more creditable
were the artless virtues of honesty and truthfulness;
how better it was to keep one’s word, to be
kind-hearted and dutiful. Becoming more pointed,
he mentioned the case which had caused them so much
sorrow, warning the delinquent against conceit and
self-assurance.
“Pride goeth before a fall,”
he said. “And he that is mighty shall be
abased.”
They walked home silently, Colonel
Parsons and his wife with downcast eyes, feeling that
everyone was looking at them. Their hearts were
too full for them to speak to one another, and they
dared say nothing to James. But Major Forsyth
had no scruples of delicacy; he attacked his nephew
the moment they sat down to dinner.
“Well, James, what did you think
of the sermon? Feel a bit sore?”
“Why should I?”
“I fancy it was addressed pretty directly to
you.”
“So I imagine,” replied
James, good-humouredly smiling. “I thought
it singularly impertinent, but otherwise uninteresting.”
“Mr. Jackson doesn’t think
much of you,” said Uncle William, with a laugh,
ignoring his sister’s look, which implored him
to be silent.
“I can bear that with equanimity.
I never set up for a very wonderful person.”
“He was wrong to make little
of your attempt to save young Larcher,” said
Mrs. Parsons, gently.
“Why?” asked James.
“He was partly right. Physical courage is
more or less accidental. In battle one takes
one’s chance. One soon gets used to shells
flying about; they’re not so dangerous as they
look, and after a while one forgets all about them.
Now and then one gets hit, and then it’s too
late to be nervous.”
“But you went back-into
the very jaws of death-to save that boy.”
“I’ve never been able
to understand why. It didn’t occur to me
that I might get killed; it seemed the natural thing
to do. It wasn’t really brave, because
I never realised that there was danger.”
In the afternoon James received a
note from Mrs. Clibborn, asking him to call upon her.
Mary and her father were out walking, she said, so
there would be no one to disturb them, and they could
have a pleasant little chat. The invitation was
a climax to Jamie’s many vexations, and
he laughed grimly at the prospect of that very foolish
lady’s indignation. Still, he felt bound
to go. It was, after a fashion, a point of honour
with him to avoid none of the annoyances which his
act had brought upon him. It was partly in order
to face every infliction that he insisted on remaining
at Little Primpton.
“Why haven’t you been
to see me, James?” Mrs. Clibborn murmured, with
a surprisingly tender smile.
“I thought you wouldn’t wish me to.”
“James!”
She sighed and cast up her eyes to heaven.
“I always liked you. I shall never feel
differently towards you.”
“It’s very kind of you to say so,”
replied James, somewhat relieved.
“You must come and see me often. It’ll
comfort you.”
“I’m afraid you and Colonel Clibborn must
be very angry with me?”
“I could never be angry with
you, James.... Poor Reginald, he doesn’t
understand! But you can’t deceive a woman.”
Mrs. Clibborn put her hand on Jamie’s arm and
gazed into his eyes. “I want you to tell
me something. Do you love anyone else?”
James looked at her quickly and hesitated.
“If you had asked me the other
day, I should have denied it with all my might.
But now-I don’t know.”
Mrs. Clibborn smiled.
“I thought so,” she said. “You
can tell me, you know.”
She was convinced that James adored
her, but wanted to hear him say so. It is notorious
that to a handsome woman even the admiration of a
crossing-sweeper is welcome.
“Oh, it’s no good any
longer trying to conceal it from myself!” cried
James, forgetting almost to whom he was speaking.
“I’m sorry about Mary; no one knows how
much. But I do love someone else, and I love her
with all my heart and soul; and I shall never get
over it now.”
“I knew it,” sighed Mrs.
Clibborn, complacently, “I knew it!” Then
looking coyly at him: “Tell me about her.”
“I can’t. I know
my love is idiotic and impossible; but I can’t
help it. It’s fate.”
“You’re in love with a married woman,
James.”
“How d’you know?”
“My poor boy, d’you think
you can deceive me! And is it not the wife of
an officer?”
“Yes.”
“A very old friend of yours?”
“It’s just that which makes it so terrible.”
“I knew it.”
“Oh, Mrs. Clibborn, I swear
you’re the only woman here who’s got two
ounces of gumption. If they’d only listened
to you five years ago, we might all have been saved
this awful wretchedness.”
He could not understand that Mrs.
Clibborn, whose affectations were manifest, whose
folly was notorious, should alone have guessed his
secret. He was tired of perpetually concealing
his thoughts.
“I wish I could tell you everything!”
he cried.
“Don’t! You’d only regret it.
And I know all you can tell me.”
“You can’t think how hard
I’ve struggled. When I found I loved her,
I nearly killed myself trying to kill my love.
But it’s no good. It’s stronger than
I am.”
“And nothing can ever come of it, you know,”
said Mrs. Clibborn.
“Oh, I know! Of course,
I know! I’m not a cad. The only thing
is to live on and suffer.”
“I’m so sorry for you.”
Mrs. Clibborn thought that even poor
Algy Turner, who had killed himself for love of her,
had not been so desperately hit.
“It’s very kind of you
to listen to me,” said James. “I have
nobody to speak to, and sometimes I feel I shall go
mad.”
“You’re such a nice boy,
James. What a pity it is you didn’t go into
the cavalry!”
James scarcely heard; he stared at
the floor, brooding sorrowfully.
“Fate is against me,” he muttered.
“If things had only happened a little differently.
Poor Reggie!”
Mrs. Clibborn was thinking that if
she were a widow, she could never have resisted the
unhappy young man’s pleading.
James got up to go.
“It’s no good,”
he said; “talking makes it no better. I
must go on trying to crush it. And the worst
of it is, I don’t want to crush it; I love my
love. Though it embitters my whole life, I would
rather die than lose it. Good-bye, Mrs. Clibborn.
Thank you for being so kind. You can’t
imagine what good it does me to receive a little sympathy.”
“I know. You’re not
the first who has told me that he is miserable.
I think it’s fate, too.”
James looked at her, perplexed, not
understanding what she meant. With her sharp,
feminine intuition, Mrs. Clibborn read in his eyes
the hopeless yearning of his heart, and for a moment
her rigid virtue faltered.
“I can’t be hard on you,
Jamie,” she said, with that effective, sad smile
of hers. “I don’t want you to go away
from here quite wretched.”
“What can you do to ease the bitter aching of
my heart?”
Mrs. Clibborn, quickly looking at
the window, noticed that she could not possibly be
seen by anyone outside. She stretched out her
hand.
“Jamie, if you like you may kiss me.”
She offered her powdered cheek, and
James, rather astonished, pressed it with his lips.
“I will always be a mother to
you. You can depend on me whatever happens....
Now go away, there’s a good boy.”
She watched him as he walked down
the garden, and then sighed deeply, wiping away a
tear from the corner of her eyes.
“Poor boy!” she murmured.
Mary was surprised, when she came
home, to find her mother quite affectionate and tender.
Mrs. Clibborn, indeed, intoxicated with her triumph,
could afford to be gracious to a fallen rival.