A letter from Mrs. Clibborn to General
Sir Charles Clow, K.C.B., 8 Gladhorn Terrace, Bath:
“DEAR CHARLES,-I am
so glad to hear you are settled in your new house
in Bath, and it is most kind to ask us down.
I am devoted to Bath; one meets such nice
people there, and all one’s friends whom
one knew centuries ago. It is such a comfort to
see how fearfully old they’re looking!
I don’t know whether we can manage to accept
your kind invitation, but I must say I should be glad
of a change after the truly awful things
that have happened here. I have been dreadfully
upset all the winter, and have had several touches
of rheumatism, which is a thing I never suffered from
before.
“I wrote and told you of the
sudden and mysterious death of poor James
Parsons, a fortnight before he was going to marry my
dear Mary. He shot himself accidentally
while cleaning a gun-that is to say,
every one thinks it was an accident. But
I am certain it was nothing of the kind.
Ever since the dreadful thing happened-six
months ago-it has been on my conscience,
and I assure you that the whole time I have not
slept a wink. My sufferings have been horrible!
You will be surprised at the change in me; I
am beginning to look like an old woman.
I tell you this in strict confidence. I believe
he committed suicide. He confessed that he
loved me, Charles. Of course, I told him I was
old enough to be his mother; but love is blind.
When I think of the tragic end of poor Algy Turner,
who poisoned himself in India for my sake, I
don’t know how I shall ever forgive myself.
I never gave James the least encouragement, and
when he said that he loved me, I was so taken
aback that I nearly fainted. I am convinced
that he shot himself rather than marry a woman
he did not love, and what is more, my
daughter. You can imagine my feelings! I
have taken care not to breathe a word of this
to Reginald, whose gout is making him more irritable
every day, or to anyone else. So no one suspects
the truth.
“But I shall never get over it.
I could not bear to think of poor Algy Turner,
and now I have on my head as well the blood of James
Parsons. They were dear boys, both of them.
I think I am the only one who is really sorry
for him. If it had been my son who was killed
I should either have gone raving mad or had
hysterics for a week; but Mrs. Parsons merely
said: ’The Lord has given, and the Lord
has taken away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.’
I cannot help thinking it was rather profane,
and most unfeeling. I was dreadfully
upset, and Mary had to sit up with me for several
nights. I don’t believe Mary really
loved him. I hate to say anything against
my own daughter, but I feel bound to tell the truth,
and my private opinion is that she loved herself
better. She loved her constancy and the
good opinion of Little Primpton; the fuss the
Parsons have made of her I’m sure is very bad
for anyone. It can’t be good for a
girl to be given way to so much; and I never
really liked the Parsons. They’re very good
people, of course; but only infantry!
“I am happy to say that poor
Jamie’s death was almost instantaneous.
When they found him he said: ’It was an
accident; I didn’t know the gun was loaded.’
(Most improbable, I think. It’s
wonderful how they’ve all been taken in;
but then they didn’t know his secret!)
A few minutes later, just before he died, he said:
‘Tell Mary she’s to marry the curate.’
“If my betrothed had died, nothing
would have induced me to marry anybody else.
I would have remained an old maid. But
so few people have any really nice feeling!
Mr. Dryland, the curate, had already proposed
to Mary, and she had refused him. He is a pleasant-spoken
young man, with a rather fine presence-not
my ideal at all; but that, of course,
doesn’t matter! Well, a month after
the funeral, Mary told me that he had asked her again,
and she had declined. I think it was very
bad taste on his part, but Mary said she thought
it most noble.
“It appears that Colonel and
Mrs. Parsons both pressed her very much to accept
the curate. They said it was Jamie’s dying
wish, and that his last thought had been for
her happiness. There is no doubt that Mr.
Dryland is an excellent young man, but if the Parsons
had really loved their son, they would
never have advised Mary to get married.
I think it was most heartless.
“Well, a few days ago, Mr. Dryland
came and told us that he had been appointed vicar
of Stone Fairley, in Kent. I went to see Mrs.
Jackson, the wife of our Vicar, and she looked
it out in the clergy list. The stipend is
L300 a year, and I am told that there is a good
house. Of course, it’s not very much, but
better than nothing. This morning Mr. Dryland
called and asked for a private interview with
Mary. He said he must, of course, leave Little
Primpton, and his vicarage would sadly want a
mistress; and finally, for the third time, begged
her on his bended knees to marry her. He
had previously been to the Parsons, and the Colonel
sent for Mary, and told her that he hoped she
would not refuse Mr. Dryland for their sake,
and that they thought it was her duty to marry.
The result is that Mary accepted him, and is
to be married very quietly by special license
in a month. The widow of the late incumbent of
Stone Fairley moves out in six weeks, so this
will give them time for a fortnight’s honeymoon
before settling down. They think of spending
it in Paris.
“I think, on the whole, it is
as good a match as poor Mary could expect
to make. The stipend is paid by the Ecclesiastical
Commissioners, which, of course, is much safer
than glebe. She is no longer a young girl,
and I think it was her last chance. Although
she is my own daughter, I cannot help confessing that
she is not the sort of girl that wears well;
she has always been plain-(no
one would think she was my daughter)-and
as time goes on, she will grow plainer.
When I was eighteen my mother’s maid used
to say: ’Why, miss, there’s many a
married woman of thirty who would be proud to
have your bust.’ But our poor, dear
Mary has no figure. She will do excellently
for the wife of a country vicar. She’s
so fond of giving people advice, and of looking after
the poor, and it won’t matter that she’s
dowdy. She has no idea of dressing herself,
although I’ve always done my best for her.
“Mr. Dryland is, of course, in
the seventh heaven of delight. He has gone
into Tunbridge Wells to get a ring, and as an engagement
present has just sent round a complete edition
of the works of Mr. Hall Caine. He is evidently
generous. I think they will suit one another
very well, and I am glad to get my only daughter married.
She was always rather a tie on Reginald and me.
We are so devoted to one another that a third
person has often seemed a little in the way.
Although you would not believe it, and we have been
married for nearly thirty years, nothing gives
us more happiness than to sit holding one another’s
hands. I have always been sentimental, and
I am not ashamed to own it. Reggie is sometimes
afraid that I shall get an attack of my rheumatism
when we sit out together at night; but I always
take care to wrap myself up well, and I invariably
make him put a muffler on.
“Give my kindest
regards to your wife, and tell her I hope to see
her soon.-Yours
very sincerely,
“CLARA DE TULLEVILLE CLIBBORN.”
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