The remarkable happened. Scarcely
had the minister left when Kurt Dorn’s smiling
wonder and happiness sustained a break, as sharp and
cold and terrible as if nature had transformed him
from man to beast.
His face became like that of a gorilla.
Struggling up, he swept his right arm over and outward
with singular twisting energy. A bayonet-thrust!
And for him his left arm was still intact! A savage,
unintelligible battle-cry, yet unmistakably German,
escaped his lips.
Lenore stood one instant petrified.
Her father, grinding his teeth, attempted to lead
her away. But as Dorn was about to pitch off the
bed, Lenore, with piercing cry, ran to catch him and
force him back. There she held him, subdued his
struggles, and kept calling with that intensity of
power and spirit which must have penetrated even his
delirium. Whatever influence she exerted, it quieted
him, changed his savage face, until he relaxed and
lay back passive and pale. It was possible to
tell exactly when his reason returned, for it showed
in the gaze he fixed upon Lenore.
“I had one of my fits!”
he said, huskily.
“Oh I don’t
know what it was,” replied Lenore, with quavering
voice. Her strength began to leave her now.
Her arms that had held him so firmly began to slip
away.
“Son, you had a bad spell,”
interposed Anderson, with his heavy breathing.
“First one she’s seen.”
“Lenore, I laid out my Huns
again,” said Dorn, with a tragic smile.
“Lately I could tell when they were
coming back.”
“Did you know just now?” queried Lenore.
“I think so. I wasn’t
really out of my head. I’ve known when I
did that. It’s a strange feeling thought memory
... and action drives it away. Then I seem always
to want to kill my Huns all over
again.”
Lenore gazed at him with mournful
and passionate tenderness. “Do you remember
that we were just married?” she asked.
“My wife!” he whispered.
“Husband!... I knew you
were coming home to me.... I knew you would not
die.... I know you will get well.”
“I begin to feel that, too.
Then maybe the black spells will go away.”
“They must or or
you’ll lose me,” faltered Lenore.
“If you go on killing your Huns over and over it’ll
be I who will die.”
She carried with her to her room a
haunting sense of Dorn’s reception of her last
speech. Some tremendous impression it made on
him, but whether of fear of domination or resolve,
or all combined, she could not tell. She had
weakened in mention of the return of his phantoms.
But neither Dorn nor her father ever guessed that,
once in her room, she collapsed from sheer feminine
horror at the prospect of seeing Dorn change from a
man to a gorilla, and to repeat the savage orgy of
remurdering his Huns. That was too much for Lenore.
She who had been invincible in faith, who could stand
any tests of endurance and pain, was not proof against
a spectacle of Dorn’s strange counterfeit presentment
of the actual and terrible killing he had performed
with a bayonet.
For days after that she was under
a strain which she realized would break her if it
was not relieved. It appeared to be solely her
fear of Dorn’s derangement. She was with
him almost all the daylight hours, attending him,
watching him sleep, talking a little to him now and
then, seeing with joy his gradual improvement, feeling
each day the slow lifting of the shadow over him,
and yet every minute of every hour she waited in dread
for the return of Dorn’s madness. It did
not come. If it recurred at night she never was
told. Then after a week a more pronounced change
for the better in Dorn’s condition marked a lessening
of the strain upon Lenore. A little later it was
deemed safe to dismiss the nurse. Lenore dreaded
the first night vigil. She lay upon a couch in
Dorn’s room and never closed her eyes. But
he slept, and his slumber appeared sound at times,
and then restless, given over to dreams. He talked
incoherently, and moaned; and once appeared to be drifting
into a nightmare, when Lenore awakened him. Next
day he sat up and said he was hungry. Thereafter
Lenore began to lose her dread.
“Well, son, let’s talk
wheat,” said Anderson, cheerily, one beautiful
June morning, as he entered Dorn’s room.
“Wheat!” sighed Dorn,
with a pathetic glance at his empty sleeve. “How
can I even do a man’s work again in the fields?”
Lenore smiled bravely at him.
“You will sow more wheat than ever, and harvest
more, too.”
“I should smile,” corroborated Anderson.
“But how? I’ve only one arm,”
said Dorn.
“Kurt, you hug me better with
that one arm than you ever did with two arms.”
replied Lenore, in sublime assurance.
“Son, you lose that argument,”
roared Anderson. “Me an’ Lenore stand
pat. You’ll sow more an’ better wheat
than ever than any other man in the Northwest.
Get my hunch?... Well, I’ll tell you later....
Now see here, let me declare myself about you.
I seen it worries you more an’ more, now you’re
gettin’ well. You miss that good arm, an’
you feel the pain of bullets that still lodge somewhere’s
in you, an’ you think you’ll be a cripple
always. Look things in the face square. Sure,
compared to what you once was, you’ll be a cripple.
But Kurt Dorn weighin’ one hundred an’
ninety let loose on a bunch of Huns was some man!
My Gawd!... Forget that, an’ forget that
you’ll never chop a cord of wood again in a
day. Look at facts like me an’ Lenore.
We gave you up. An’ here you’re with
us, comin’ along fine, an’ you’ll
be able to do hard work some day, if you’re
crazy about it. Just think how good that is for
Lenore, an’ me, too.... Now listen to this.”
Anderson unfolded a newspaper and began to read:
“Continued improvement, with favorable
weather conditions, in the winter-wheat states
and encouraging messages from the Northwest warrant
an increase of crop estimates made two weeks ago and
based mainly upon the government’s report.
In all probability the yield from winter fields
will slightly exceed 600,000,000 bushels. Increase
of acreage in the spring states in unexpectedly large.
For example, Minnesota’s Food Administrator
says the addition in his state is 40 per cent,
instead of the early estimate of 20 per cent.
Throughout the spring area the plants have a good
start and are in excellent condition. It
may be that the yield will rise to 300,000,000
bushels, making a total of about 900,000,000.
From such a crop 280,000,000 could be exported
in normal times, and by conservation the surplus
can easily be enlarged to 350,000,000 or even
400,000,000. In Canada also estimates of acreage
increase have been too low. It was said that
the addition in Alberta was 20 per cent., but
recent reports make it 40 per cent. Canada may
harvest a crop of 300,000,000 bushels, or nearly
70,000,000 more than last year’s. Our
allies in Europe can safely rely upon the shipment
of 500,000,000 bushels from the United States
and Canada.
“After the coming harvest there
will be an ample supply of wheat for the foes
of Germany at ports which can easily be reached.
In addition, the large surplus stocks in Australia
and Argentina will be available when ships can
be spared for such service. And the ships
are coming from the builders. For more than a
year to come there will be wheat enough for our
war partners, the Belgians, and the northern European
neutral countries with which we have trade agreements.”
Lenore eagerly watched her husband’s
face in pleasurable anticipation, yet with some anxiety.
Wheat had been a subject little touched upon and the
war had never been mentioned.
“Great!” he exclaimed,
with a glow in his cheeks. “I’ve been
wanting to ask.... Wheat for the Allies and neutrals for
more than a year!... Anderson, the United States
will feed and save the world!”
“I reckon. Son, we’re
sendin’ thousands of soldiers a day now ships
are buildin’ fast aeroplanes comin’
like a swarm of bees money for the government
to burn an’ every American gettin’
mad.... Dorn, the Germans don’t know they’re
ruined!... What do you say?”
Dorn looked very strange. “Lenore,
help me stand up,” he asked, with strong tremor
in his voice.
“Oh, Kurt, you’re not able yet,”
appealed Lenore.
“Help me. I want you to do it.”
Lenore complied, wondering and frightened,
yet fascinated, too. She helped him off the bed
and steadied him on his feet. Then she felt him
release himself so he stood free.
“What do I say? Anderson
I say this. I killed Germans who had grown up
with a training and a passion for war. I’ve
been a farmer. I did not want to fight.
Duty and hate forced me. The Germans I met fell
before me. I was shell-shot, shocked, gassed,
and bayoneted. I took twenty-five wounds, and
then it was a shell that downed me. I saw my comrades
kill and kill before they fell. That is American.
Our enemies are driven, blinded, stolid, brutal, obsessed,
and desperate. They are German. They lack not
strength nor efficiency nor courage but
soul.”
White and spent, Dorn then leaned
upon Lenore and got back upon his bed. His passion
had thrilled her. Anderson responded with an excitement
he plainly endeavored to conceal.
“I get your hunch,” he
said. “If I needed any assurance, you’ve
given it to me. To hell with the Germans!
Let’s don’t talk about them any more....
An’ to come back to our job. Wheat!
Son, I’ve plans that ’ll raise your hair.
We’ll harvest a bumper crop at ‘Many Waters’
in July. An’ we’ll sow two thousand
acres of winter wheat. So much for ’Many
Waters.’ I got mad this summer.
I blowed myself. I bought about all the farms
around yours up in the Bend country. Big harvest
of spring wheat comin’. You’ll superintend
that harvest, an’ I’ll look after ours
here.... An’ you’ll sow ten thousand
acres of fallow on your own rich hills this
fall. Do you get that? Ten thousand acres?”
“Anderson!” gasped Dorn.
“Yes, Anderson,” mimicked
the rancher. “My blood’s up.
But I’d never have felt so good about it if
you hadn’t come back. The land’s not
all paid for, but it’s ours. We’ll
meet our notes. I’ve been up there twice
this spring. You’d never know a few hills
had burned over last harvest. Olsen, an’
your other neighbors, or most of them, will work the
land on half-shares. You’ll be boss.
An’ sure you’ll be well for fall sowin’.
That’ll make you the biggest sower of wheat in
the Northwest.”
“My sower of wheat!” murmured
Lenore, seeing his rapt face through tears.
“Dreams are coming true,”
he said, softly. “Lenore, just after I saw
you the second time and fell so in love
with you I had vain dreams of you.
But even my wildest never pictured you as the wife
of a wheat farmer. I never dreamed you loved
wheat.”
“But, ah, I do!” replied
Lenore. “Why, when I was born dad bought
’Many Waters’ and sowed the slopes in
wheat. I remember how he used to take me up to
the fields all green or golden. I’ve grown
up with wheat. I’d never want to live anywhere
away from it. Oh, you must listen to me some
day while I tell you what I know about
the history and romance of wheat.”
“Begin,” said Dorn, with
a light of pride and love and wonder in his gaze.
“Leave that for some other time,”
interposed Anderson. “Son, would it surprise
you if I’d tell you that I’ve switched
a little in my ideas about the I.W.W.?”
“No,” replied Dorn.
“Well, things happen. What
made me think hard was the way that government man
got results from the I.W.W. in the lumber country.
You see, the government had to have an immense amount
of timber for ships, an’ spruce for aeroplanes.
Had to have it quick. An’ all the lumbermen
an’ loggers were I.W.W. or most of
them. Anyhow, all the strikin’ lumbermen
last summer belonged to the I.W.W. These fellows
believed that under the capitalistic order of labor
the workers an’ their employers had nothin’
in common, an’ the government was hand an’
glove with capital. Now this government official
went up there an’ convinced the I.W.W. that
the best interest of the two were identical. An’
he got the work out of them, an’ the government
got the lumber. He dealt with them fairly.
Those who were on the level he paid high an’
considered their wants. Those who were crooked
he punished accordin’ to their offense.
An’ the innocent didn’t have to suffer
with the guilty.
“That deal showed me how many
of the I.W.W. could be handled. An’ we’ve
got to reckon with the I.W.W. Most all the farm-hands
in the country belong to it. This summer I’ll
give the square harvesters what they want, an’
that’s a big come-down for me. But I won’t
stand any monkey-bizness from sore-headed disorganizers.
If men want to work they shall have work at big pay.
You will follow out this plan up in the Bend country.
We’ll meet this labor union half-way. After
the war there may come trouble between labor an capital.
It begins to seem plain to me that men who work hard
ought to share somethin’ of the profits.
If that doesn’t settle the trouble, then we’ll
know we’re up against an outfit with socialist
an’ anarchist leaders. Time enough then
to resort to measures I regret we practised last summer.”
“Anderson, you’re fine you’re
as big as the hills!” burst out Dorn. “But
you know there was bad blood here last summer.
Did you ever get proof that German money backed the
I.W.W. to strike and embarrass our government?”
“No. But I believe so,
or else the I.W.W. leaders took advantage of a critical
time. I’m bound to say that now thousands
of I.W.W. laborers are loyal to the United States,
and that made me switch.”
“I’ll deal with them the
same way,” responded Dorn, with fervor.
Then Lenore interrupted their discussion,
and, pleading that Dorn was quite worn out from excitement
and exertion, she got her father to leave the room.
The following several days Lenore
devoted to the happy and busy task of packing what
she wanted to take to Dorn’s home. She had
set the date, but had reserved the pleasure of telling
him. Anderson had agreed to her plan and decided
to accompany them.
“I’ll take the girls,”
he said. “It’ll be a fine ride for
them. We’ll stay in the village overnight
an’ come back home next day.... Lenore,
it strikes me sudden-like, your leavin’....
What will become of me?”
All at once he showed the ravages
of pain and loss that the last year had added to his
life of struggle. Lenore embraced him and felt
her heart full.
“Dad, I’m not leaving
you,” she protested. “He’ll
get well up there find his balance sooner
among those desert wheat-hills. We will divide
our time between the two places. Remember, you
can run up there any day. Your interests are
there now. Dad, don’t think of it as separation.
Kurt has come into our family and we’re
just going to be away some of the time.”
Thus she won back a smile to the worn face.
“We’ve all got a weak
spot,” he said, musingly. “Mine is
here an’ it’s a fear of growin’
old an’ bein’ left alone. That’s
selfish. But I’ve lived, an’ I reckon
I’ve no more to ask for.”
Lenore could not help being sad in
the midst of her increasing happiness. Joy to
some brought to others only gloom! Life was sunshine
and storm youth and age.
This morning she found Kathleen entertaining
Dorn. This was the second time the child had
been permitted to see him, and the immense novelty
had not yet worn off. Kathleen was a hero-worshiper.
If she had been devoted to Dorn before his absence,
she now manifested symptoms of complete idolatry.
Lenore had forbidden her to question Dorn about anything
in regard to the war. Kathleen never broke her
promises, but it was plain that Dorn had read the
mute, anguished wonder and flame in her eyes when
they rested upon his empty sleeve, and evidently had
told her things. Kathleen was white, wide-eyed,
and beautiful then, with all a child’s imagination
stirred.
“I’ve been telling Kathie
how I lost my arm,” explained Dorn.
“I hate Germans! I hate
war!” cried Kathleen, passionately.
“My dear, hate them always,” said Dorn.
When Kathleen had gone Lenore asked
Dorn if he thought it was right to tell the child
always to hate Germans.
“Right!” exclaimed Dorn,
with a queer laugh. Every day now he showed signs
of stronger personality. “Lenore, what I
went through has confused my sense of right and wrong.
Some day perhaps it will all come clear. But,
Lenore, all my life, if I live to be ninety, I shall
hate Germans.”
“Oh, Kurt, it’s too soon
for you to to be less narrow, less passionate,”
replied Lenore, with hesitation. “I understand.
The day will come when you’ll not condemn a
people because of a form of government of
military class.”
“It will never come,”
asserted Dorn, positively. “Lenore, people
in our country do not understand. They are too
far away from realities. But I was six months
in France. I’ve seen the ruined villages,
thousands of refugees and I’ve met
the Huns at the front. I know I’ve
seen the realities. In regard to this war I can
only feel. You’ve got to go over there
and see for yourself before you realize. You can
understand this that but for you and your
power over me I’d be a worn-out, emotionally
burnt out man. But through you I seem to
be reborn. Still, I shall hate Germans all my
life, and in the after-life, what ever that may be.
I could give you a thousand reasons. One ought
to suffice. You’ve read, of course, about
the regiment of Frenchmen called Blue Devils.
I met some of them got friendly with them.
They are great beyond words to tell!
One of them told me that when his regiment drove the
Huns out of his own village he had found his mother
disemboweled, his wife violated and murdered, his sister
left a maimed thing to become the mother of a Hun,
his daughter carried off, and his little son crippled
for life! ... These are cold facts. As long
as I live I will never forget the face of that Frenchman
when he told me. Had he cause to hate the Huns?
Have I?... I saw all that in the faces of those
Huns who would have killed me if they could.”
Lenore covered her face with her hands.
“Oh horrible! ... Is there nothing no
hope only...?” She faltered and broke
down.
“Lenore, because there’s
hate does not prove there’s nothing left....
Listen. The last fight I had was with a boy.
I didn’t know it when we met. I was rushing,
head down, bayonet low. I saw only his body, his
blade that clashed with mine. To me his weapon
felt like a toy in the hands of a child. I swept
it aside and lunged. He screamed ‘Kamarad!’
before the blade reached him. Too late! I
ran him through. Then I looked. A boy of
nineteen! He never ought to have been forced to
meet me. It was murder. I saw him die on
my bayonet. I saw him slide off it and stretch
out.... I did not hate him then. I’d
have given my life for his. I hated what he represented....
That moment was the end of me as a soldier. If
I had not been in range of the exploding shell that
downed me I would have dropped my rifle and have stood
strengthless before the next Hun.... So you see,
though I killed them, and though I hate now, there’s
something something strange and inexplicable.”
“That something is the divine
in you. It is God!... Oh, believe it, my
husband!” cried Lenore.
Dorn somberly shook his head.
“God! I did not find God out there.
I cannot see God’s hand in this infernal war.”
“But I can. What
called you so resistlessly? What made you go?”
“You know. The debt I thought
I ought to pay. And duty to my country.”
“Then when the debt was paid,
the duty fulfilled when you stood stricken
at sight of that poor boy dying on your bayonet what
happened in your soul?”
“I don’t know. But
I saw the wrong of war. The wrong to him the
wrong to me! I thought of no one else. Certainly
not of God!”
“If you had stayed your bayonet if
you had spared that boy, as you would have done had
you seen or heard him in time what would
that have been?”
“Pity, maybe, or scorn to slay a weaker foe.”
“No, no, no I can’t
accept that,” replied Lenore, passionately.
“Can you see beyond the physical?”
“I see only that men will fight
and that war will come again. Out there I learned
the nature of men.”
“If there’s divinity in
you there’s divinity in every man. That
will oppose war end it eventually.
Men are not taught right. Education and religion
will bring peace on earth, good-will to man.”
“No, they will not. They
never have done so. We have educated men and
religious men. Yet war comes despite them.
The truth is that life is a fight. Civilization
is only skin-deep. Underneath man is still a savage.
He is a savage still because he wants the same he had
to have when he lived in primitive state. War
isn’t necessary to show how every man fights
for food, clothing, shelter. To-day it’s
called competition in business. Look at your
father. He has fought and beaten men like Neuman.
Look at the wheat farmers in my country. Look
at the I.W.W. They all fight. Look at the
children. They fight even at their games.
Their play is a make-believe battle or escaping or
funeral or capture. It must be then that some
kind of strife was implanted in the first humans and
that it is necessary to life.”
“Survival of the fittest!”
exclaimed Lenore, in earnest bitterness. “Kurt,
we have changed. You are facing realities and
I am facing the infinite. You represent the physical,
and I the spiritual. We must grow into harmony
with each other. We can’t ever hope to learn
the unattainable truth of life. There is something
beyond us something infinite which I believe
is God. My soul finds it in you.... The first
effects of the war upon you have been trouble, sacrifice,
pain, and horror. You have come out of it impaired
physically and with mind still clouded. These
will pass, and therefore I beg of you don’t grow
fixed in absolute acceptance of the facts of evolution
and materialism. They cannot be denied, I grant.
I see that they are realities. But also I see
beyond them. There is some great purpose running
through the ages. In our day the Germans have
risen, and in the eyes of most of the world their
brutal force tends to halt civilization and kill idealism.
But that’s only apparent only temporary.
We shall come out of this dark time better, finer,
wiser. The history of the world is a proof of
a slow growth and perfection. It will never be
attained. But is not the growth a beautiful and
divine thing? Does it now oppose a hopeless prospect?...
Life is inscrutable. When I think only
think without faith all seems so futile.
The poet says we are here as on a darkling plain, swept
by confused alarms of struggle and flight, where ignorant
armies clash by night.... Trust me, my husband!
There is something in woman the instinct
of creation the mother that feels
what cannot be expressed. It is the hope of the
world.”
“The mother!” burst out
Dorn. “I think of that in you....
Suppose I have a son, and war comes in his day.
Suppose he is killed, as I killed that poor boy!...
How, then, could I reconcile that with this, this
something you feel so beautifully? This strange
sense of God! This faith in a great purpose of
the ages!”
Lenore trembled in the exquisite pain
of the faith which she prayed was beginning to illumine
Dorn’s dark and tragic soul.
“If we are blessed with a son and
if he must go to war to kill and be killed you
will reconcile that with God because our son shall
have been taught what you should have been taught what
must be taught to all the sons of the future.”
“What will that be?” queried
Dorn.
“The meaning of life the
truth of immortality,” replied Lenore. “We
live on we improve. That is enough
for faith.”
“How will that prevent war?”
“It will prevent it in
the years to come. Mothers will take good care
that children from babyhood shall learn the consequences
of fight of war. Boys will learn that
if the meaning of war to them is the wonder of charge
and thunder of cannon and medals of distinction, to
their mothers the meaning is loss and agony.
They will learn the terrible difference between your
fury and eagerness to lunge with bayonet and your horror
of achievement when the disemboweled victims lie before
you. The glory of a statue to the great general
means countless and nameless graves of forgotten soldiers.
The joy of the conquering army contrasts terribly
with the pain and poverty and unquenchable hate of
the conquered.”
“I see what you mean,”
rejoined Dorn. “Such teaching of children
would change the men of the future. It would
mean peace for the generations to come. But as
for my boy it would make him a poor soldier.
He would not be a fighter. He would fall easy
victim to the son of the father who had not taught
this beautiful meaning of life and terror of war.
I’d want my son to be a man.”
“That teaching would
make him all the more a man,” said
Lenore, beginning to feel faint.
“But not in the sense of muscle,
strength, courage, endurance. I’d rather
there never was peace than have my son inferior to
another man’s.”
“My hope for the future is that
all men will come to teach their sons the wrong
of violence.”
“Lenore, never will that day come,” replied
Dorn.
She saw in him the inevitableness
of the masculine attitude; the difference between
man and woman; the preponderance of blood and energy
over the higher motives. She felt a weak little
woman arrayed against the whole of mankind. But
she could not despair. Unquenchable as the sun
was this fire within her.
“But it might come?”
she insisted, gently, but with inflexible spirit.
“Yes, it might if men change!”
“You have changed.”
“Yes. I don’t know myself.”
“If we do have a boy, will you
let me teach him what I think is right?” Lenore
went on, softly.
“Lenore! As if I would
not!” he exclaimed. “I try to see
your way, but just because I can’t I’ll
never oppose you. Teach me if you can!”
She kissed him and knelt beside his
bed, grieved to see shadow return to his face, yet
thrilling that the way seemed open for her to inspire.
But she must never again choose to talk of war, of
materialism, of anything calculated to make him look
into darkness of his soul, to ponder over the impairment
of his mind. She remembered the great specialist
speaking of lesions of the organic system, of a loss
of brain cells. Her inspiration must be love,
charm, care a healing and building process.
She would give herself in all the unutterableness and
immeasurableness of her woman’s heart.
She would order her life so that it would be a fulfilment
of his education, of a heritage from his fathers, a
passion born in him, a noble work through which surely
he could be saved the cultivation of wheat.
“Do you love me?” she whispered.
“Do I!... Nothing could ever change my
love for you.”
“I am your wife, you know.”
The shadow left his face.
“Are you? Really? Lenore Anderson...”
“Lenore Dorn. It is a beautiful name now.”
“It does sound sweet. But you my
wife? Never will I believe!”
“You will have to very soon.”
“Why?” A light, warm and
glad and marveling, shone in his eyes. Indeed,
Lenore felt then a break in the strange aloofness of
him in his impersonal, gentle acceptance
of her relation to him.
“To-morrow I’m going to take you home
to your wheat-hills.”