The pale young gentleman and I stood
contemplating one another in Barnard’s Inn,
until we both burst out laughing. “The idea
of its being you!” said he. “The
idea of its being you!” said I. And then we
contemplated one another afresh, and laughed again.
“Well!” said the pale young gentleman,
reaching out his hand good-humoredly, “it’s
all over now, I hope, and it will be magnanimous in
you if you’ll forgive me for having knocked
you about so.”
I derived from this speech that Mr.
Herbert Pocket (for Herbert was the pale young gentleman’s
name) still rather confounded his intention with his
execution. But I made a modest reply, and we shook
hands warmly.
“You hadn’t come into
your good fortune at that time?” said Herbert
Pocket.
“No,” said I.
“No,” he acquiesced:
“I heard it had happened very lately. I
was rather on the lookout for good fortune then.”
“Indeed?”
“Yes. Miss Havisham had
sent for me, to see if she could take a fancy to me.
But she couldn’t, at all events, she
didn’t.”
I thought it polite to remark that
I was surprised to hear that.
“Bad taste,” said Herbert,
laughing, “but a fact. Yes, she had sent
for me on a trial visit, and if I had come out of
it successfully, I suppose I should have been provided
for; perhaps I should have been what-you-may-called
it to Estella.”
“What’s that?” I asked, with sudden
gravity.
He was arranging his fruit in plates
while we talked, which divided his attention, and
was the cause of his having made this lapse of a word.
“Affianced,” he explained, still busy with
the fruit. “Betrothed. Engaged.
What’s-his-named. Any word of that sort.”
“How did you bear your disappointment?”
I asked.
“Pooh!” said he, “I didn’t
care much for it. She’s a Tartar.”
“Miss Havisham?”
“I don’t say no to that,
but I meant Estella. That girl’s hard and
haughty and capricious to the last degree, and has
been brought up by Miss Havisham to wreak revenge
on all the male sex.”
“What relation is she to Miss Havisham?”
“None,” said he. “Only adopted.”
“Why should she wreak revenge on all the male
sex? What revenge?”
“Lord, Mr. Pip!” said he. “Don’t
you know?”
“No,” said I.
“Dear me! It’s quite
a story, and shall be saved till dinner-time.
And now let me take the liberty of asking you a question.
How did you come there, that day?”
I told him, and he was attentive until
I had finished, and then burst out laughing again,
and asked me if I was sore afterwards? I didn’t
ask him if he was, for my conviction on that point
was perfectly established.
“Mr. Jaggers is your guardian, I understand?”
he went on.
“Yes.”
“You know he is Miss Havisham’s
man of business and solicitor, and has her confidence
when nobody else has?”
This was bringing me (I felt) towards
dangerous ground. I answered with a constraint
I made no attempt to disguise, that I had seen Mr.
Jaggers in Miss Havisham’s house on the very
day of our combat, but never at any other time, and
that I believed he had no recollection of having ever
seen me there.
“He was so obliging as to suggest
my father for your tutor, and he called on my father
to propose it. Of course he knew about my father
from his connection with Miss Havisham. My father
is Miss Havisham’s cousin; not that that implies
familiar intercourse between them, for he is a bad
courtier and will not propitiate her.”
Herbert Pocket had a frank and easy
way with him that was very taking. I had never
seen any one then, and I have never seen any one since,
who more strongly expressed to me, in every look and
tone, a natural incapacity to do anything secret and
mean. There was something wonderfully hopeful
about his general air, and something that at the same
time whispered to me he would never be very successful
or rich. I don’t know how this was.
I became imbued with the notion on that first occasion
before we sat down to dinner, but I cannot define by
what means.
He was still a pale young gentleman,
and had a certain conquered languor about him in the
midst of his spirits and briskness, that did not seem
indicative of natural strength. He had not a handsome
face, but it was better than handsome: being
extremely amiable and cheerful. His figure was
a little ungainly, as in the days when my knuckles
had taken such liberties with it, but it looked as
if it would always be light and young. Whether
Mr. Trabb’s local work would have sat more gracefully
on him than on me, may be a question; but I am conscious
that he carried off his rather old clothes much better
than I carried off my new suit.
As he was so communicative, I felt
that reserve on my part would be a bad return unsuited
to our years. I therefore told him my small story,
and laid stress on my being forbidden to inquire who
my benefactor was. I further mentioned that as
I had been brought up a blacksmith in a country place,
and knew very little of the ways of politeness, I would
take it as a great kindness in him if he would give
me a hint whenever he saw me at a loss or going wrong.
“With pleasure,” said
he, “though I venture to prophesy that you’ll
want very few hints. I dare say we shall be often
together, and I should like to banish any needless
restraint between us. Will you do me the favour
to begin at once to call me by my Christian name, Herbert?”
I thanked him and said I would.
I informed him in exchange that my Christian name
was Philip.
“I don’t take to Philip,”
said he, smiling, “for it sounds like a moral
boy out of the spelling-book, who was so lazy that
he fell into a pond, or so fat that he couldn’t
see out of his eyes, or so avaricious that he locked
up his cake till the mice ate it, or so determined
to go a bird’s-nesting that he got himself eaten
by bears who lived handy in the neighborhood.
I tell you what I should like. We are so harmonious,
and you have been a blacksmith, –would
you mind it?”
“I shouldn’t mind anything
that you propose,” I answered, “but I don’t
understand you.”
“Would you mind Handel for a
familiar name? There’s a charming piece
of music by Handel, called the Harmonious Blacksmith.”
“I should like it very much.”
“Then, my dear Handel,”
said he, turning round as the door opened, “here
is the dinner, and I must beg of you to take the top
of the table, because the dinner is of your providing.”
This I would not hear of, so he took
the top, and I faced him. It was a nice little
dinner, seemed to me then a very Lord Mayor’s
Feast, and it acquired additional relish
from being eaten under those independent circumstances,
with no old people by, and with London all around us.
This again was heightened by a certain gypsy character
that set the banquet off; for while the table was,
as Mr. Pumblechook might have said, the lap of luxury, being
entirely furnished forth from the coffee-house, the
circumjacent region of sitting-room was of a comparatively
pastureless and shifty character; imposing on the waiter
the wandering habits of putting the covers on the floor
(where he fell over them), the melted butter in the
arm-chair, the bread on the bookshelves, the cheese
in the coal-scuttle, and the boiled fowl into my bed
in the next room, where I found much of
its parsley and butter in a state of congelation when
I retired for the night. All this made the feast
delightful, and when the waiter was not there to watch
me, my pleasure was without alloy.
We had made some progress in the dinner,
when I reminded Herbert of his promise to tell me
about Miss Havisham.
“True,” he replied.
“I’ll redeem it at once. Let me introduce
the topic, Handel, by mentioning that in London it
is not the custom to put the knife in the mouth, for
fear of accidents, and that while the fork
is reserved for that use, it is not put further in
than necessary. It is scarcely worth mentioning,
only it’s as well to do as other people do.
Also, the spoon is not generally used over-hand, but
under. This has two advantages. You get
at your mouth better (which after all is the object),
and you save a good deal of the attitude of opening
oysters, on the part of the right elbow.”
He offered these friendly suggestions
in such a lively way, that we both laughed and I scarcely
blushed.
“Now,” he pursued, “concerning
Miss Havisham. Miss Havisham, you must know,
was a spoilt child. Her mother died when she was
a baby, and her father denied her nothing. Her
father was a country gentleman down in your part of
the world, and was a brewer. I don’t know
why it should be a crack thing to be a brewer; but
it is indisputable that while you cannot possibly
be genteel and bake, you may be as genteel as never
was and brew. You see it every day.”
“Yet a gentleman may not keep
a public-house; may he?” said I.
“Not on any account,”
returned Herbert; “but a public-house may keep
a gentleman. Well! Mr. Havisham was very
rich and very proud. So was his daughter.”
“Miss Havisham was an only child?” I hazarded.
“Stop a moment, I am coming
to that. No, she was not an only child; she had
a half-brother. Her father privately married again his
cook, I rather think.”
“I thought he was proud,” said I.
“My good Handel, so he was.
He married his second wife privately, because he was
proud, and in course of time she died. When she
was dead, I apprehend he first told his daughter what
he had done, and then the son became a part of the
family, residing in the house you are acquainted with.
As the son grew a young man, he turned out riotous,
extravagant, undutiful, altogether bad.
At last his father disinherited him; but he softened
when he was dying, and left him well off, though not
nearly so well off as Miss Havisham. Take
another glass of wine, and excuse my mentioning that
society as a body does not expect one to be so strictly
conscientious in emptying one’s glass, as to
turn it bottom upwards with the rim on one’s
nose.”
I had been doing this, in an excess
of attention to his recital. I thanked him, and
apologized. He said, “Not at all,”
and resumed.
“Miss Havisham was now an heiress,
and you may suppose was looked after as a great match.
Her half-brother had now ample means again, but what
with debts and what with new madness wasted them most
fearfully again. There were stronger differences
between him and her than there had been between him
and his father, and it is suspected that he cherished
a deep and mortal grudge against her as having influenced
the father’s anger. Now, I come to the
cruel part of the story, merely breaking
off, my dear Handel, to remark that a dinner-napkin
will not go into a tumbler.”
Why I was trying to pack mine into
my tumbler, I am wholly unable to say. I only
know that I found myself, with a perseverance worthy
of a much better cause, making the most strenuous
exertions to compress it within those limits.
Again I thanked him and apologized, and again he said
in the cheerfullest manner, “Not at all, I am
sure!” and resumed.
“There appeared upon the scene say
at the races, or the public balls, or anywhere else
you like a certain man, who made love to
Miss Havisham. I never saw him (for this happened
five-and-twenty years ago, before you and I were,
Handel), but I have heard my father mention that he
was a showy man, and the kind of man for the purpose.
But that he was not to be, without ignorance or prejudice,
mistaken for a gentleman, my father most strongly
asseverates; because it is a principle of his that
no man who was not a true gentleman at heart ever was,
since the world began, a true gentleman in manner.
He says, no varnish can hide the grain of the wood;
and that the more varnish you put on, the more the
grain will express itself. Well! This man
pursued Miss Havisham closely, and professed to be
devoted to her. I believe she had not shown much
susceptibility up to that time; but all the susceptibility
she possessed certainly came out then, and she passionately
loved him. There is no doubt that she perfectly
idolized him. He practised on her affection in
that systematic way, that he got great sums of money
from her, and he induced her to buy her brother out
of a share in the brewery (which had been weakly left
him by his father) at an immense price, on the plea
that when he was her husband he must hold and manage
it all. Your guardian was not at that time in
Miss Havisham’s counsels, and she was too haughty
and too much in love to be advised by any one.
Her relations were poor and scheming, with the exception
of my father; he was poor enough, but not time-serving
or jealous. The only independent one among them,
he warned her that she was doing too much for this
man, and was placing herself too unreservedly in his
power. She took the first opportunity of angrily
ordering my father out of the house, in his presence,
and my father has never seen her since.”
I thought of her having said, “Matthew
will come and see me at last when I am laid dead upon
that table;” and I asked Herbert whether his
father was so inveterate against her?
“It’s not that,”
said he, “but she charged him, in the presence
of her intended husband, with being disappointed in
the hope of fawning upon her for his own advancement,
and, if he were to go to her now, it would look true even
to him and even to her. To return to
the man and make an end of him. The marriage
day was fixed, the wedding dresses were bought, the
wedding tour was planned out, the wedding guests were
invited. The day came, but not the bridegroom.
He wrote her a letter ”
“Which she received,”
I struck in, “when she was dressing for her
marriage? At twenty minutes to nine?”
“At the hour and minute,”
said Herbert, nodding, “at which she afterwards
stopped all the clocks. What was in it, further
than that it most heartlessly broke the marriage off,
I can’t tell you, because I don’t know.
When she recovered from a bad illness that she had,
she laid the whole place waste, as you have seen it,
and she has never since looked upon the light of day.”
“Is that all the story?” I asked, after
considering it.
“All I know of it; and indeed
I only know so much, through piecing it out for myself;
for my father always avoids it, and, even when Miss
Havisham invited me to go there, told me no more of
it than it was absolutely requisite I should understand.
But I have forgotten one thing. It has been supposed
that the man to whom she gave her misplaced confidence
acted throughout in concert with her half-brother;
that it was a conspiracy between them; and that they
shared the profits.”
“I wonder he didn’t marry
her and get all the property,” said I.
“He may have been married already,
and her cruel mortification may have been a part of
her half-brother’s scheme,” said Herbert.
“Mind! I don’t know that.”
“What became of the two men?”
I asked, after again considering the subject.
“They fell into deeper shame
and degradation if there can be deeper and
ruin.”
“Are they alive now?”
“I don’t know.”
“You said just now that Estella
was not related to Miss Havisham, but adopted.
When adopted?”
Herbert shrugged his shoulders.
“There has always been an Estella, since I have
heard of a Miss Havisham. I know no more.
And now, Handel,” said he, finally throwing
off the story as it were, “there is a perfectly
open understanding between us. All that I know
about Miss Havisham, you know.”
“And all that I know,” I retorted, “you
know.”
“I fully believe it. So
there can be no competition or perplexity between
you and me. And as to the condition on which you
hold your advancement in life, namely,
that you are not to inquire or discuss to whom you
owe it, you may be very sure that it will
never be encroached upon, or even approached, by me,
or by any one belonging to me.”
In truth, he said this with so much
delicacy, that I felt the subject done with, even
though I should be under his father’s roof for
years and years to come. Yet he said it with
so much meaning, too, that I felt he as perfectly
understood Miss Havisham to be my benefactress, as
I understood the fact myself.
It had not occurred to me before,
that he had led up to the theme for the purpose of
clearing it out of our way; but we were so much the
lighter and easier for having broached it, that I now
perceived this to be the case. We were very gay
and sociable, and I asked him, in the course of conversation,
what he was? He replied, “A capitalist, an
Insurer of Ships.” I suppose he saw me glancing
about the room in search of some tokens of Shipping,
or capital, for he added, “In the City.”
I had grand ideas of the wealth and
importance of Insurers of Ships in the City, and I
began to think with awe of having laid a young Insurer
on his back, blackened his enterprising eye, and cut
his responsible head open. But again there came
upon me, for my relief, that odd impression that Herbert
Pocket would never be very successful or rich.
“I shall not rest satisfied
with merely employing my capital in insuring ships.
I shall buy up some good Life Assurance shares, and
cut into the Direction. I shall also do a little
in the mining way. None of these things will
interfere with my chartering a few thousand tons on
my own account. I think I shall trade,”
said he, leaning back in his chair, “to the
East Indies, for silks, shawls, spices, dyes, drugs,
and precious woods. It’s an interesting
trade.”
“And the profits are large?” said I.
“Tremendous!” said he.
I wavered again, and began to think
here were greater expectations than my own.
“I think I shall trade, also,”
said he, putting his thumbs in his waist-coat pockets,
“to the West Indies, for sugar, tobacco, and
rum. Also to Ceylon, specially for elephants’
tusks.”
“You will want a good many ships,” said
I.
“A perfect fleet,” said he.
Quite overpowered by the magnificence
of these transactions, I asked him where the ships
he insured mostly traded to at present?
“I haven’t begun insuring yet,”
he replied. “I am looking about me.”
Somehow, that pursuit seemed more
in keeping with Barnard’s Inn. I said (in
a tone of conviction), “Ah-h!”
“Yes. I am in a counting-house, and looking
about me.”
“Is a counting-house profitable?” I asked.
“To do you mean to the young fellow
who’s in it?” he asked, in reply.
“Yes; to you.”
“Why, n-no; not to me.”
He said this with the air of one carefully reckoning
up and striking a balance. “Not directly
profitable. That is, it doesn’t pay me
anything, and I have to keep myself.”
This certainly had not a profitable
appearance, and I shook my head as if I would imply
that it would be difficult to lay by much accumulative
capital from such a source of income.
“But the thing is,” said
Herbert Pocket, “that you look about you.
That’s the grand thing. You are in a counting-house,
you know, and you look about you.”
It struck me as a singular implication
that you couldn’t be out of a counting-house,
you know, and look about you; but I silently deferred
to his experience.
“Then the time comes,”
said Herbert, “when you see your opening.
And you go in, and you swoop upon it and you make
your capital, and then there you are! When you
have once made your capital, you have nothing to do
but employ it.”
This was very like his way of conducting
that encounter in the garden; very like. His
manner of bearing his poverty, too, exactly corresponded
to his manner of bearing that defeat. It seemed
to me that he took all blows and buffets now with
just the same air as he had taken mine then.
It was evident that he had nothing around him but the
simplest necessaries, for everything that I remarked
upon turned out to have been sent in on my account
from the coffee-house or somewhere else.
Yet, having already made his fortune
in his own mind, he was so unassuming with it that
I felt quite grateful to him for not being puffed
up. It was a pleasant addition to his naturally
pleasant ways, and we got on famously. In the
evening we went out for a walk in the streets, and
went half-price to the Theatre; and next day we went
to church at Westminster Abbey, and in the afternoon
we walked in the Parks; and I wondered who shod all
the horses there, and wished Joe did.
On a moderate computation, it was
many months, that Sunday, since I had left Joe and
Biddy. The space interposed between myself and
them partook of that expansion, and our marshes were
any distance off. That I could have been at our
old church in my old church-going clothes, on the very
last Sunday that ever was, seemed a combination of
impossibilities, geographical and social, solar and
lunar. Yet in the London streets so crowded with
people and so brilliantly lighted in the dusk of evening,
there were depressing hints of reproaches for that
I had put the poor old kitchen at home so far away;
and in the dead of night, the footsteps of some incapable
impostor of a porter mooning about Barnard’s
Inn, under pretence of watching it, fell hollow on
my heart.
On the Monday morning at a quarter
before nine, Herbert went to the counting-house to
report himself, to look about him, too,
I suppose, and I bore him company.
He was to come away in an hour or two to attend me
to Hammersmith, and I was to wait about for him.
It appeared to me that the eggs from which young Insurers
were hatched were incubated in dust and heat, like
the eggs of ostriches, judging from the places to
which those incipient giants repaired on a Monday morning.
Nor did the counting-house where Herbert assisted,
show in my eyes as at all a good Observatory; being
a back second floor up a yard, of a grimy presence
in all particulars, and with a look into another back
second floor, rather than a look out.
I waited about until it was noon,
and I went upon ’Change, and I saw fluey men
sitting there under the bills about shipping, whom
I took to be great merchants, though I couldn’t
understand why they should all be out of spirits.
When Herbert came, we went and had lunch at a celebrated
house which I then quite venerated, but now believe
to have been the most abject superstition in Europe,
and where I could not help noticing, even then, that
there was much more gravy on the tablecloths and knives
and waiters’ clothes, than in the steaks.
This collation disposed of at a moderate price (considering
the grease, which was not charged for), we went back
to Barnard’s Inn and got my little portmanteau,
and then took coach for Hammersmith. We arrived
there at two or three o’clock in the afternoon,
and had very little way to walk to Mr. Pocket’s
house. Lifting the latch of a gate, we passed
direct into a little garden overlooking the river,
where Mr. Pocket’s children were playing about.
And unless I deceive myself on a point where my interests
or prepossessions are certainly not concerned, I saw
that Mr. and Mrs. Pocket’s children were not
growing up or being brought up, but were tumbling
up.
Mrs. Pocket was sitting on a garden
chair under a tree, reading, with her legs upon another
garden chair; and Mrs. Pocket’s two nurse-maids
were looking about them while the children played.
“Mamma,” said Herbert, “this is
young Mr. Pip.” Upon which Mrs. Pocket received
me with an appearance of amiable dignity.
“Master Alick and Miss Jane,”
cried one of the nurses to two of the children, “if
you go a bouncing up against them bushes you’ll
fall over into the river and be drownded, and what’ll
your pa say then?”
At the same time this nurse picked
up Mrs. Pocket’s handkerchief, and said, “If
that don’t make six times you’ve dropped
it, Mum!” Upon which Mrs. Pocket laughed and
said, “Thank you, Flopson,” and settling
herself in one chair only, resumed her book.
Her countenance immediately assumed a knitted and
intent expression as if she had been reading for a
week, but before she could have read half a dozen
lines, she fixed her eyes upon me, and said, “I
hope your mamma is quite well?” This unexpected
inquiry put me into such a difficulty that I began
saying in the absurdest way that if there had been
any such person I had no doubt she would have been
quite well and would have been very much obliged and
would have sent her compliments, when the nurse came
to my rescue.
“Well!” she cried, picking
up the pocket-handkerchief, “if that don’t
make seven times! What are you a doing of
this afternoon, Mum!” Mrs. Pocket received her
property, at first with a look of unutterable surprise
as if she had never seen it before, and then with a
laugh of recognition, and said, “Thank you,
Flopson,” and forgot me, and went on reading.
I found, now I had leisure to count
them, that there were no fewer than six little Pockets
present, in various stages of tumbling up. I had
scarcely arrived at the total when a seventh was heard,
as in the region of air, wailing dolefully.
“If there ain’t Baby!”
said Flopson, appearing to think it most surprising.
“Make haste up, Millers.”
Millers, who was the other nurse,
retired into the house, and by degrees the child’s
wailing was hushed and stopped, as if it were a young
ventriloquist with something in its mouth. Mrs.
Pocket read all the time, and I was curious to know
what the book could be.
We were waiting, I supposed, for Mr.
Pocket to come out to us; at any rate we waited there,
and so I had an opportunity of observing the remarkable
family phenomenon that whenever any of the children
strayed near Mrs. Pocket in their play, they always
tripped themselves up and tumbled over her, always
very much to her momentary astonishment, and their
own more enduring lamentation. I was at a loss
to account for this surprising circumstance, and could
not help giving my mind to speculations about it,
until by and by Millers came down with the baby, which
baby was handed to Flopson, which Flopson was handing
it to Mrs. Pocket, when she too went fairly head foremost
over Mrs. Pocket, baby and all, and was caught by
Herbert and myself.
“Gracious me, Flopson!”
said Mrs. Pocket, looking off her book for a moment,
“everybody’s tumbling!”
“Gracious you, indeed, Mum!”
returned Flopson, very red in the face; “what
have you got there?”
“I got here, Flopson?” asked Mrs. Pocket.
“Why, if it ain’t your
footstool!” cried Flopson. “And if
you keep it under your skirts like that, who’s
to help tumbling? Here! Take the baby, Mum,
and give me your book.”
Mrs. Pocket acted on the advice, and
inexpertly danced the infant a little in her lap,
while the other children played about it. This
had lasted but a very short time, when Mrs. Pocket
issued summary orders that they were all to be taken
into the house for a nap. Thus I made the second
discovery on that first occasion, that the nurture
of the little Pockets consisted of alternately tumbling
up and lying down.
Under these circumstances, when Flopson
and Millers had got the children into the house, like
a little flock of sheep, and Mr. Pocket came out of
it to make my acquaintance, I was not much surprised
to find that Mr. Pocket was a gentleman with a rather
perplexed expression of face, and with his very gray
hair disordered on his head, as if he didn’t
quite see his way to putting anything straight.