Sad solitary thought! that keeps thy vigils,
Thy solemn vigils in the sick man’s
mind;
Communing lonely with his sinking soul,
And musing on the dim obscurity around
him!
Thee! rapt in thy dark magnificence, I
call
At this still midnight hour, this awful
season,
When on my bed in wakeful restlessness,
I turn me, weary: while all around,
All, all, save me, sink in forgetfulness,
I only wake to watch the sickly taper
that lights,
Me to my tomb. Yes, ’tis the
hand of death
I feel press heavy on my vitals;
Slow sapping the warm current of existence;
My moments now are few! e’en now
I feel the knife, the separating knife,
divide
The tender chords that tie my soul
To earth. Yes, I must die, I feel
that I must die
And though to me has life been dark and
dreary
Though smiling Hope, has lured but to
deceive,
And disappointment still pursued its blandishments,
Yet do I feel my soul recoil within me,
As I contemplate the grim gulf,
The shuddering blank, the awful void futurity.
Aye, I had planned full many a sanguine
scheme,
Romantic schemes and fraught with loveliness;
And it is hard to feel the hand of death
Arrest one’s steps; throw a chill
blast
O’er all one’s budding hopes,
and hurl one’s soul
Untimely to the grave, lost in the gaping
gulf
Of blank oblivion. Fifty years hence,
And who will think of Henry? ah, none!
Another busy world of beings will start
up
In the interim, and none will hold him
In remembrance. I shall sink as sinks
A stranger in the crowded streets of busy
London,
A few enquiries, and the crowds pass on,
And all’s forgotten. O’er
my grassy grave
The men of future times will careless
tread
And read my name upon the sculptured stone;
Nor will the sound, familiar with their
ears,
Recall my vanished memory. I had
hoped
For better things; I hoped I should not
leave
This earth without a vestige. Fate
decrees
It shall be otherwise, and I submit.
Henceforth, oh, world! no more of thy
desires,
No more of hope, that wanton vagrant hope;
Now higher cares engross me, and my tired
soul,
With emulative haste, looks to its God,
And prunes its wings for heaven.
KIRKE WHITE.