Harris, the silk merchant, was in
South Germany on his way home from a business trip
when the idea came to him suddenly that he would take
the mountain railway from Strassbourg and run down
to revisit his old school after an interval of something
more than thirty years. And it was to this chance
impulse of the junior partner in Harris Brothers of
St. Paul’s Churchyard that John Silence owed
one of the most curious cases of his whole experience,
for at that very moment he happened to be tramping
these same mountains with a holiday knapsack, and from
different points of the compass the two men were actually
converging towards the same inn.
Now, deep down in the heart that for
thirty years had been concerned chiefly with the profitable
buying and selling of silk, this school had left the
imprint of its peculiar influence, and, though perhaps
unknown to Harris, had strongly coloured the whole
of his subsequent existence. It belonged to the
deeply religious life of a small Protestant community
(which it is unnecessary to specify), and his father
had sent him there at the age of fifteen, partly because
he would learn the German requisite for the conduct
of the silk business, and partly because the discipline
was strict, and discipline was what his soul and body
needed just then more than anything else.
The life, indeed, had proved exceedingly
severe, and young Harris benefited accordingly; for
though corporal punishment was unknown, there was
a system of mental and spiritual correction which somehow
made the soul stand proudly erect to receive it, while
it struck at the very root of the fault and taught
the boy that his character was being cleaned and strengthened,
and that he was not merely being tortured in a kind
of personal revenge.
That was over thirty years ago, when
he was a dreamy and impressionable youth of fifteen;
and now, as the train climbed slowly up the winding
mountain gorges, his mind travelled back somewhat lovingly
over the intervening period, and forgotten details
rose vividly again before him out of the shadows.
The life there had been very wonderful, it seemed to
him, in that remote mountain village, protected from
the tumults of the world by the love and worship of
the devout Brotherhood that ministered to the needs
of some hundred boys from every country in Europe.
Sharply the scenes came back to him. He smelt
again the long stone corridors, the hot pinewood rooms,
where the sultry hours of summer study were passed
with bees droning through open windows in the sunshine,
and German characters struggling in the mind with
dreams of English lawns and then the sudden
awful cry of the master in German
“Harris, stand up! You sleep!”
And he recalled the dreadful standing
motionless for an hour, book in hand, while the knees
felt like wax and the head grew heavier than a cannon-ball.
The very smell of the cooking came
back to him the daily Sauerkraut,
the watery chocolate on Sundays, the flavour of the
stringy meat served twice a week at Mittagessen;
and he smiled to think again of the half-rations that
was the punishment for speaking English. The very
odour of the milk-bowls, the hot sweet aroma
that rose from the soaking peasant-bread at the six-o’clock
breakfast, came back to him pungently,
and he saw the huge Speisesaal with the hundred
boys in their school uniform, all eating sleepily
in silence, gulping down the coarse bread and scalding
milk in terror of the bell that would presently cut
them short and, at the far end where the
masters sat, he saw the narrow slit windows with the
vistas of enticing field and forest beyond.
And this, in turn, made him think
of the great barnlike room on the top floor where
all slept together in wooden cots, and he heard in
memory the clamour of the cruel bell that woke them
on winter mornings at five o’clock and summoned
them to the stone-flagged Waschkammer, where
boys and masters alike, after scanty and icy washing,
dressed in complete silence.
From this his mind passed swiftly,
with vivid picture-thoughts, to other things, and
with a passing shiver he remembered how the loneliness
of never being alone had eaten into him, and how everything work,
meals, sleep, walks, leisure was done with
his “division” of twenty other boys and
under the eyes of at least two masters. The only
solitude possible was by asking for half an hour’s
practice in the cell-like music rooms, and Harris
smiled to himself as he recalled the zeal of his violin
studies.
Then, as the train puffed laboriously
through the great pine forests that cover these mountains
with a giant carpet of velvet, he found the pleasanter
layers of memory giving up their dead, and he recalled
with admiration the kindness of the masters, whom
all addressed as Brother, and marvelled afresh at
their devotion in burying themselves for years in
such a place, only to leave it, in most cases, for
the still rougher life of missionaries in the wild
places of the world.
He thought once more of the still,
religious atmosphere that hung over the little forest
community like a veil, barring the distressful world;
of the picturesque ceremonies at Easter, Christmas,
and New Year; of the numerous feast-days and charming
little festivals. The Beschehr-Fest, in
particular, came back to him, the feast
of gifts at Christmas, when the entire
community paired off and gave presents, many of which
had taken weeks to make or the savings of many days
to purchase. And then he saw the midnight ceremony
in the church at New Year, with the shining face of
the Prediger in the pulpit, the village
preacher who, on the last night of the old year, saw
in the empty gallery beyond the organ loft the faces
of all who were to die in the ensuing twelve months,
and who at last recognised himself among them, and,
in the very middle of his sermon, passed into a state
of rapt ecstasy and burst into a torrent of praise.
Thickly the memories crowded upon
him. The picture of the small village dreaming
its unselfish life on the mountain-tops, clean, wholesome,
simple, searching vigorously for its God, and training
hundreds of boys in the grand way, rose up in his
mind with all the power of an obsession. He felt
once more the old mystical enthusiasm, deeper than
the sea and more wonderful than the stars; he heard
again the winds sighing from leagues of forest over
the red roofs in the moonlight; he heard the Brothers’
voices talking of the things beyond this life as though
they had actually experienced them in the body; and,
as he sat in the jolting train, a spirit of unutterable
longing passed over his seared and tired soul, stirring
in the depths of him a sea of emotions that he thought
had long since frozen into immobility.
And the contrast pained him, the
idealistic dreamer then, the man of business now, so
that a spirit of unworldly peace and beauty known only
to the soul in meditation laid its feathered finger
upon his heart, moving strangely the surface of the
waters.
Harris shivered a little and looked
out of the window of his empty carriage. The
train had long passed Hornberg, and far below the streams
tumbled in white foam down the limestone rocks.
In front of him, dome upon dome of wooded mountain
stood against the sky. It was October, and the
air was cool and sharp, woodsmoke and damp moss exquisitely
mingled in it with the subtle odours of the pines.
Overhead, between the tips of the highest firs, he
saw the first stars peeping, and the sky was a clean,
pale amethyst that seemed exactly the colour all these
memories clothed themselves with in his mind.
He leaned back in his corner and sighed.
He was a heavy man, and he had not known sentiment
for years; he was a big man, and it took much to move
him, literally and figuratively; he was a man in whom
the dreams of God that haunt the soul in youth, though
overlaid by the scum that gathers in the fight for
money, had not, as with the majority, utterly died
the death.
He came back into this little neglected
pocket of the years, where so much fine gold had collected
and lain undisturbed, with all his semispiritual emotions
aquiver; and, as he watched the mountain-tops come
nearer, and smelt the forgotten odours of his boyhood,
something melted on the surface of his soul and left
him sensitive to a degree he had not known since,
thirty years before, he had lived here with his dreams,
his conflicts, and his youthful suffering.
A thrill ran through him as the train
stopped with a jolt at a tiny station and he saw the
name in large black lettering on the grey stone building,
and below it, the number of metres it stood above the
level of the sea.
“The highest point on the line!”
he exclaimed. “How well I remember it Sommerau Summer
Meadow. The very next station is mine!”
And, as the train ran downhill with
brakes on and steam shut off, he put his head out
of the window and one by one saw the old familiar landmarks
in the dusk. They stared at him like dead faces
in a dream. Queer, sharp feelings, half poignant,
half sweet, stirred in his heart.
“There’s the hot, white
road we walked along so often with the two Brueder
always at our heels,” he thought; “and
there, by Jove, is the turn through the forest to
‘Die Galgen,’ the stone gallows
where they hanged the witches in olden days!”
He smiled a little as the train slid past.
“And there’s the copse
where the Lilies of the Valley powdered the ground
in spring; and, I swear,” he put his
head out with a sudden impulse “if
that’s not the very clearing where Calame, the
French boy, chased the swallow-tail with me, and Bruder
Pagel gave us half-rations for leaving the road without
permission, and for shouting in our mother tongues!”
And he laughed again as the memories came back with
a rush, flooding his mind with vivid detail.
The train stopped, and he stood on
the grey gravel platform like a man in a dream.
It seemed half a century since he last waited there
with corded wooden boxes, and got into the train for
Strassbourg and home after the two years’ exile.
Time dropped from him like an old garment and he felt
a boy again. Only, things looked so much smaller
than his memory of them; shrunk and dwindled they
looked, and the distances seemed on a curiously smaller
scale.
He made his way across the road to
the little Gasthaus, and, as he went, faces and
figures of former schoolfellows, German,
Swiss, Italian, French, Russian, slipped
out of the shadowy woods and silently accompanied
him. They flitted by his side, raising their eyes
questioningly, sadly, to his. But their names
he had forgotten. Some of the Brothers, too,
came with them, and most of these he remembered by
name Bruder Roest, Bruder Pagel, Bruder
Schliemann, and the bearded face of the old preacher
who had seen himself in the haunted gallery of those
about to die Bruder Gysin. The dark
forest lay all about him like a sea that any moment
might rush with velvet waves upon the scene and sweep
all the faces away. The air was cool and wonderfully
fragrant, but with every perfumed breath came also
a pallid memory....
Yet, in spite of the underlying sadness
inseparable from such an experience, it was all very
interesting, and held a pleasure peculiarly its own,
so that Harris engaged his room and ordered supper
feeling well pleased with himself, and intending to
walk up to the old school that very evening.
It stood in the centre of the community’s village,
some four miles distant through the forest, and he
now recollected for the first time that this little
Protestant settlement dwelt isolated in a section
of the country that was otherwise Catholic. Crucifixes
and shrines surrounded the clearing like the sentries
of a beleaguering army. Once beyond the square
of the village, with its few acres of field and orchard,
the forest crowded up in solid phalanxes, and beyond
the rim of trees began the country that was ruled
by the priests of another faith. He vaguely remembered,
too, that the Catholics had showed sometimes a certain
hostility towards the little Protestant oasis that
flourished so quietly and benignly in their midst.
He had quite forgotten this. How trumpery it
all seemed now with his wide experience of life and
his knowledge of other countries and the great outside
world. It was like stepping back, not thirty years,
but three hundred.
There were only two others besides
himself at supper. One of them, a bearded, middle-aged
man in tweeds, sat by himself at the far end,
and Harris kept out of his way because he was English.
He feared he might be in business, possibly even in
the silk business, and that he would perhaps talk
on the subject. The other traveller, however,
was a Catholic priest. He was a little man who
ate his salad with a knife, yet so gently that it
was almost inoffensive, and it was the sight of “the
cloth” that recalled his memory of the old antagonism.
Harris mentioned by way of conversation the object
of his sentimental journey, and the priest looked
up sharply at him with raised eyebrows and an expression
of surprise and suspicion that somehow piqued him.
He ascribed it to his difference of belief.
“Yes,” went on the silk
merchant, pleased to talk of what his mind was so
full, “and it was a curious experience for an
English boy to be dropped down into a school of a
hundred foreigners. I well remember the loneliness
and intolerable Heimweh of it at first.”
His German was very fluent.
The priest opposite looked up from
his cold veal and potato salad and smiled. It
was a nice face. He explained quietly that he
did not belong here, but was making a tour of the
parishes of Württemberg and Baden.
“It was a strict life,”
added Harris. “We English, I remember, used
to call it Gefaengnisleben prison
life!”
The face of the other, for some unaccountable
reason, darkened. After a slight pause, and more
by way of politeness than because he wished to continue
the subject, he said quietly
“It was a flourishing school
in those days, of course. Afterwards, I have
heard ” He shrugged his shoulders
slightly, and the odd look it almost seemed
a look of alarm came back into his eyes.
The sentence remained unfinished.
Something in the tone of the man seemed
to his listener uncalled for in a sense
reproachful, singular. Harris bridled in spite
of himself.
“It has changed?” he asked. “I
can hardly believe ”
“You have not heard, then?”
observed the priest gently, making a gesture as though
to cross himself, yet not actually completing it.
“You have not heard what happened there before
it was abandoned ?”
It was very childish, of course, and
perhaps he was overtired and overwrought in some way,
but the words and manner of the little priest seemed
to him so offensive so disproportionately
offensive that he hardly noticed the concluding
sentence. He recalled the old bitterness and
the old antagonism, and for a moment he almost lost
his temper.
“Nonsense,” he interrupted
with a forced laugh, “Unsinn! You
must forgive me, sir, for contradicting you.
But I was a pupil there myself. I was at school
there. There was no place like it. I cannot
believe that anything serious could have happened
to to take away its character. The
devotion of the Brothers would be difficult to equal
anywhere ”
He broke off suddenly, realising that
his voice had been raised unduly and that the man
at the far end of the table might understand German;
and at the same moment he looked up and saw that this
individual’s eyes were fixed upon his face intently.
They were peculiarly bright. Also they were rather
wonderful eyes, and the way they met his own served
in some way he could not understand to convey both
a reproach and a warning. The whole face of the
stranger, indeed, made a vivid impression upon him,
for it was a face, he now noticed for the first time,
in whose presence one would not willingly have said
or done anything unworthy. Harris could not explain
to himself how it was he had not become conscious
sooner of its presence.
But he could have bitten off his tongue
for having so far forgotten himself. The little
priest lapsed into silence. Only once he said,
looking up and speaking in a low voice that was not
intended to be overheard, but that evidently was
overheard, “You will find it different.”
Presently he rose and left the table with a polite
bow that included both the others.
And, after him, from the far end rose
also the figure in the tweed suit, leaving Harris
by himself.
He sat on for a bit in the darkening
room, sipping his coffee and smoking his fifteen-pfennig
cigar, till the girl came in to light the oil lamps.
He felt vexed with himself for his lapse from good
manners, yet hardly able to account for it. Most
likely, he reflected, he had been annoyed because
the priest had unintentionally changed the pleasant
character of his dream by introducing a jarring note.
Later he must seek an opportunity to make amends.
At present, however, he was too impatient for his
walk to the school, and he took his stick and hat and
passed out into the open air.
And, as he crossed before the Gasthaus,
he noticed that the priest and the man in the tweed
suit were engaged already in such deep conversation
that they hardly noticed him as he passed and raised
his hat.
He started off briskly, well remembering
the way, and hoping to reach the village in time to
have a word with one of the Brueder. They might
even ask him in for a cup of coffee. He felt sure
of his welcome, and the old memories were in full
possession once more. The hour of return was
a matter of no consequence whatever.
It was then just after seven o’clock,
and the October evening was drawing in with chill
airs from the recesses of the forest. The road
plunged straight from the railway clearing into its
depths, and in a very few minutes the trees engulfed
him and the clack of his boots fell dead and echoless
against the serried stems of a million firs. It
was very black; one trunk was hardly distinguishable
from another. He walked smartly, swinging his
holly stick. Once or twice he passed a peasant
on his way to bed, and the guttural “Gruß
Got,” unheard for so long, emphasised the passage
of time, while yet making it seem as nothing.
A fresh group of pictures crowded his mind. Again
the figures of former schoolfellows flitted out of
the forest and kept pace by his side, whispering of
the doings of long ago. One reverie stepped hard
upon the heels of another. Every turn in the
road, every clearing of the forest, he knew, and each
in turn brought forgotten associations to life.
He enjoyed himself thoroughly.
He marched on and on. There was
powdered gold in the sky till the moon rose, and then
a wind of faint silver spread silently between the
earth and stars. He saw the tips of the fir trees
shimmer, and heard them whisper as the breeze turned
their needles towards the light. The mountain
air was indescribably sweet. The road shone like
the foam of a river through the gloom. White
moths flitted here and there like silent thoughts
across his path, and a hundred smells greeted him from
the forest caverns across the years.
Then, when he least expected it, the
trees fell away abruptly on both sides, and he stood
on the edge of the village clearing.
He walked faster. There lay the
familiar outlines of the houses, sheeted with silver;
there stood the trees in the little central square
with the fountain and small green lawns; there loomed
the shape of the church next to the Gasthof der
Bruedergemeinde; and just beyond, dimly rising into
the sky, he saw with a sudden thrill the mass of the
huge school building, blocked castlelike with deep
shadows in the moonlight, standing square and formidable
to face him after the silences of more than a quarter
of a century.
He passed quickly down the deserted
village street and stopped close beneath its shadow,
staring up at the walls that had once held him prisoner
for two years two unbroken years of discipline
and homesickness. Memories and emotions surged
through his mind; for the most vivid sensations of
his youth had focused about this spot, and it was
here he had first begun to live and learn values.
Not a single footstep broke the silence, though lights
glimmered here and there through cottage windows;
but when he looked up at the high walls of the school,
draped now in shadow, he easily imagined that well-known
faces crowded to the windows to greet him closed
windows that really reflected only moonlight and the
gleam of stars.
This, then, was the old school building,
standing foursquare to the world, with its shuttered
windows, its lofty, tiled roof, and the spiked lightning-conductors
pointing like black and taloned fingers from the corners.
For a long time he stood and stared. Then, presently,
he came to himself again, and realised to his joy
that a light still shone in the windows of the Bruderstube.
He turned from the road and passed
through the iron railings; then climbed the twelve
stone steps and stood facing the black wooden door
with the heavy bars of iron, a door he had once loathed
and dreaded with the hatred and passion of an imprisoned
soul, but now looked upon tenderly with a sort of
boyish delight.
Almost timorously he pulled the rope
and listened with a tremor of excitement to the clanging
of the bell deep within the building. And the
long-forgotten sound brought the past before him with
such a vivid sense of reality that he positively shivered.
It was like the magic bell in the fairy-tale that
rolls back the curtain of Time and summons the figures
from the shadows of the dead. He had never felt
so sentimental in his life. It was like being
young again. And, at the same time, he began
to bulk rather large in his own eyes with a certain
spurious importance. He was a big man from the
world of strife and action. In this little place
of peaceful dreams would he, perhaps, not cut something
of a figure?
“I’ll try once more,”
he thought after a long pause, seizing the iron bell-rope,
and was just about to pull it when a step sounded on
the stone passage within, and the huge door slowly
swung open.
A tall man with a rather severe cast
of countenance stood facing him in silence.
“I must apologise it
is somewhat late,” he began a trifle pompously,
“but the fact is I am an old pupil. I have
only just arrived and really could not restrain myself.”
His German seemed not quite so fluent as usual.
“My interest is so great. I was here in
’70.”
The other opened the door wider and
at once bowed him in with a smile of genuine welcome.
“I am Bruder Kalkmann,”
he said quietly in a deep voice. “I myself
was a master here about that time. It is a great
pleasure always to welcome a former pupil.”
He looked at him very keenly for a few seconds, and
then added, “I think, too, it is splendid of
you to come very splendid.”
“It is a very great pleasure,”
Harris replied, delighted with his reception.
The dimly lighted corridor with its
flooring of grey stone, and the familiar sound of
a German voice echoing through it, with
the peculiar intonation the Brothers always used in
speaking, all combined to lift him bodily,
as it were, into the dream-atmosphere of long-forgotten
days. He stepped gladly into the building and
the door shut with the familiar thunder that completed
the reconstruction of the past. He almost felt
the old sense of imprisonment, of aching nostalgia,
of having lost his liberty.
Harris sighed involuntarily and turned
towards his host, who returned his smile faintly and
then led the way down the corridor.
“The boys have retired,”
he explained, “and, as you remember, we keep
early hours here. But, at least, you will join
us for a little while in the Bruderstube and
enjoy a cup of coffee.” This was precisely
what the silk merchant had hoped, and he accepted
with an alacrity that he intended to be tempered by
graciousness. “And to-morrow,” continued
the Bruder, “you must come and spend a whole
day with us. You may even find acquaintances,
for several pupils of your day have come back here
as masters.”
For one brief second there passed
into the man’s eyes a look that made the visitor
start. But it vanished as quickly as it came.
It was impossible to define. Harris convinced
himself it was the effect of a shadow cast by the
lamp they had just passed on the wall. He dismissed
it from his mind.
“You are very kind, I’m
sure,” he said politely. “It is perhaps
a greater pleasure to me than you can imagine to see
the place again. Ah,” he stopped
short opposite a door with the upper half of glass
and peered in “surely there is one
of the music rooms where I used to practise the violin.
How it comes back to me after all these years!”
Bruder Kalkmann stopped indulgently,
smiling, to allow his guest a moment’s inspection.
“You still have the boys’
orchestra? I remember I used to play ’zweite
Geige’ in it. Bruder Schliemann conducted
at the piano. Dear me, I can see him now with
his long black hair and and ”
He stopped abruptly. Again the odd, dark look
passed over the stern face of his companion.
For an instant it seemed curiously familiar.
“We still keep up the pupils’
orchestra,” he said, “but Bruder Schliemann,
I am sorry to say ” he hesitated an
instant, and then added, “Bruder Schliemann
is dead.”
“Indeed, indeed,” said
Harris quickly. “I am sorry to hear it.”
He was conscious of a faint feeling of distress, but
whether it arose from the news of his old music teacher’s
death, or from something else he
could not quite determine. He gazed down the
corridor that lost itself among shadows. In the
street and village everything had seemed so much smaller
than he remembered, but here, inside the school building,
everything seemed so much bigger. The corridor
was loftier and longer, more spacious and vast, than
the mental picture he had preserved. His thoughts
wandered dreamily for an instant.
He glanced up and saw the face of
the Bruder watching him with a smile of patient indulgence.
“Your memories possess you,”
he observed gently, and the stern look passed into
something almost pitying.
“You are right,” returned
the man of silk, “they do. This was the
most wonderful period of my whole life in a sense.
At the time I hated it ” He hesitated,
not wishing to hurt the Brother’s feelings.
“According to English ideas
it seemed strict, of course,” the other said
persuasively, so that he went on.
“ Yes, partly that;
and partly the ceaseless nostalgia, and the solitude
which came from never being really alone. In English
schools the boys enjoy peculiar freedom, you know.”
Bruder Kalkmann, he saw, was listening intently.
“But it produced one result
that I have never wholly lost,” he continued
self-consciously, “and am grateful for.”
“Ach! Wie so, denn?”
“The constant inner pain threw
me headlong into your religious life, so that the
whole force of my being seemed to project itself towards
the search for a deeper satisfaction a
real resting-place for the soul. During my two
years here I yearned for God in my boyish way as perhaps
I have never yearned for anything since. Moreover,
I have never quite lost that sense of peace and inward
joy which accompanied the search. I can never
quite forget this school and the deep things it taught
me.”
He paused at the end of his long speech,
and a brief silence fell between them. He feared
he had said too much, or expressed himself clumsily
in the foreign language, and when Bruder Kalkmann laid
a hand upon his shoulder, he gave a little involuntary
start.
“So that my memories perhaps
do possess me rather strongly,” he added apologetically;
“and this long corridor, these rooms, that barred
and gloomy front door, all touch chords that that ”
His German failed him and he glanced at his companion
with an explanatory smile and gesture. But the
Brother had removed the hand from his shoulder and
was standing with his back to him, looking down the
passage.
“Naturally, naturally so,”
he said hastily without turning round. “Es
ist doch selbstverstaendlich. We shall all
understand.”
Then he turned suddenly, and Harris
saw that his face had turned most oddly and disagreeably
sinister. It may only have been the shadows again
playing their tricks with the wretched oil lamps on
the wall, for the dark expression passed instantly
as they retraced their steps down the corridor, but
the Englishman somehow got the impression that he had
said something to give offence, something that was
not quite to the other’s taste. Opposite
the door of the Bruderstube they stopped.
Harris realised that it was late and he had possibly
stayed talking too long. He made a tentative
effort to leave, but his companion would not hear of
it.
“You must have a cup of coffee
with us,” he said firmly as though he meant
it, “and my colleagues will be delighted to see
you. Some of them will remember you, perhaps.”
The sound of voices came pleasantly
through the door, men’s voices talking together.
Bruder Kalkmann turned the handle and they entered
a room ablaze with light and full of people.
“Ah, but your name?”
he whispered, bending down to catch the reply; “you
have not told me your name yet.”
“Harris,” said the Englishman
quickly as they went in. He felt nervous as he
crossed the threshold, but ascribed the momentary trepidation
to the fact that he was breaking the strictest rule
of the whole establishment, which forbade a boy under
severest penalties to come near this holy of holies
where the masters took their brief leisure.
“Ah, yes, of course Harris,”
repeated the other as though he remembered it.
“Come in, Herr Harris, come in, please.
Your visit will be immensely appreciated. It
is really very fine, very wonderful of you to have
come in this way.”
The door closed behind them and, in
the sudden light which made his sight swim for a moment,
the exaggeration of the language escaped his attention.
He heard the voice of Bruder Kalkmann introducing him.
He spoke very loud, indeed, unnecessarily, absurdly
loud, Harris thought.
“Brothers,” he announced,
“it is my pleasure and privilege to introduce
to you Herr Harris from England. He has just arrived
to make us a little visit, and I have already expressed
to him on behalf of us all the satisfaction we feel
that he is here. He was, as you remember, a pupil
in the year ’70.”
It was a very formal, a very German
introduction, but Harris rather liked it. It
made him feel important and he appreciated the tact
that made it almost seem as though he had been expected.
The black forms rose and bowed; Harris
bowed; Kalkmann bowed. Every one was very polite
and very courtly. The room swam with moving figures;
the light dazzled him after the gloom of the corridor,
there was thick cigar smoke in the atmosphere.
He took the chair that was offered to him between
two of the Brothers, and sat down, feeling vaguely
that his perceptions were not quite as keen and accurate
as usual. He felt a trifle dazed perhaps, and
the spell of the past came strongly over him, confusing
the immediate present and making everything dwindle
oddly to the dimensions of long ago. He seemed
to pass under the mastery of a great mood that was
a composite reproduction of all the moods of his forgotten
boyhood.
Then he pulled himself together with
a sharp effort and entered into the conversation that
had begun again to buzz round him. Moreover, he
entered into it with keen pleasure, for the Brothers there
were perhaps a dozen of them in the little room treated
him with a charm of manner that speedily made him
feel one of themselves. This, again, was a very
subtle delight to him. He felt that he had stepped
out of the greedy, vulgar, self-seeking world, the
world of silk and markets and profit-making stepped
into the cleaner atmosphere where spiritual ideals
were paramount and life was simple and devoted.
It all charmed him inexpressibly, so that he realised yes,
in a sense the degradation of his twenty
years’ absorption in business. This keen
atmosphere under the stars where men thought only
of their souls, and of the souls of others, was too
rarefied for the world he was now associated with.
He found himself making comparisons to his own disadvantage, comparisons
with the mystical little dreamer that had stepped thirty
years before from the stern peace of this devout community,
and the man of the world that he had since become, and
the contrast made him shiver with a keen regret and
something like self-contempt.
He glanced round at the other faces
floating towards him through tobacco smoke this
acrid cigar smoke he remembered so well: how keen
they were, how strong, placid, touched with the nobility
of great aims and unselfish purposes. At one
or two he looked particularly. He hardly knew
why. They rather fascinated him. There was
something so very stern and uncompromising about them,
and something, too, oddly, subtly, familiar, that
yet just eluded him. But whenever their eyes met
his own they held undeniable welcome in them; and
some held more a kind of perplexed admiration,
he thought, something that was between esteem and deference.
This note of respect in all the faces was very flattering
to his vanity.
Coffee was served presently, made
by a black-haired Brother who sat in the corner by
the piano and bore a marked resemblance to Bruder
Schliemann, the musical director of thirty years ago.
Harris exchanged bows with him when he took the cup
from his white hands, which he noticed were like the
hands of a woman. He lit a cigar, offered to him
by his neighbour, with whom he was chatting delightfully,
and who, in the glare of the lighted match, reminded
him sharply for a moment of Bruder Pagel, his former
room-master.
“Es ist wirklich merkwuerdig,”
he said, “how many resemblances I see, or imagine.
It is really very curious!”
“Yes,” replied the other,
peering at him over his coffee cup, “the spell
of the place is wonderfully strong. I can well
understand that the old faces rise before your mind’s
eye almost to the exclusion of ourselves
perhaps.”
They both laughed presently.
It was soothing to find his mood understood and appreciated.
And they passed on to talk of the mountain village,
its isolation, its remoteness from worldly life, its
peculiar fitness for meditation and worship, and for
spiritual development of a certain kind.
“And your coming back in this
way, Herr Harris, has pleased us all so much,”
joined in the Bruder on his left. “We esteem
you for it most highly. We honour you for it.”
Harris made a deprecating gesture.
“I fear, for my part, it is only a very selfish
pleasure,” he said a trifle unctuously.
“Not all would have had the
courage,” added the one who resembled Bruder
Pagel.
“You mean,” said Harris,
a little puzzled, “the disturbing memories ?”
Bruder Pagel looked at him steadily,
with unmistakable admiration and respect. “I
mean that most men hold so strongly to life, and can
give up so little for their beliefs,” he said
gravely.
The Englishman felt slightly uncomfortable.
These worthy men really made too much of his sentimental
journey. Besides, the talk was getting a little
out of his depth. He hardly followed it.
“The worldly life still has
some charms for me,” he replied smilingly,
as though to indicate that sainthood was not yet quite
within his grasp.
“All the more, then, must we
honour you for so freely coming,” said the Brother
on his left; “so unconditionally!”
A pause followed, and the silk merchant
felt relieved when the conversation took a more general
turn, although he noted that it never travelled very
far from the subject of his visit and the wonderful
situation of the lonely village for men who wished
to develop their spiritual powers and practise the
rites of a high worship. Others joined in, complimenting
him on his knowledge of the language, making him feel
utterly at his ease, yet at the same time a little
uncomfortable by the excess of their admiration.
After all, it was such a very small thing to do, this
sentimental journey.
The time passed along quickly; the
coffee was excellent, the cigars soft and of the nutty
flavour he loved. At length, fearing to outstay
his welcome, he rose reluctantly to take his leave.
But the others would not hear of it. It was not
often a former pupil returned to visit them in this
simple, unaffected way. The night was young.
If necessary they could even find him a corner in
the great Schlafzimmer upstairs. He was
easily persuaded to stay a little longer. Somehow
he had become the centre of the little party.
He felt pleased, flattered, honoured.
“And perhaps Bruder Schliemann
will play something for us now.”
It was Kalkmann speaking, and Harris
started visibly as he heard the name, and saw the
black-haired man by the piano turn with a smile.
For Schliemann was the name of his old music director,
who was dead. Could this be his son? They
were so exactly alike.
“If Bruder Meyer has not put
his Amati to bed, I will accompany him,” said
the musician suggestively, looking across at a man
whom Harris had not yet noticed, and who, he now saw,
was the very image of a former master of that name.
Meyer rose and excused himself with
a little bow, and the Englishman quickly observed
that he had a peculiar gesture as though his neck had
a false join on to the body just below the collar
and feared it might break. Meyer of old had this
trick of movement. He remembered how the boys
used to copy it.
He glanced sharply from face to face,
feeling as though some silent, unseen process were
changing everything about him. All the faces seemed
oddly familiar. Pagel, the Brother he had been
talking with, was of course the image of Pagel, his
former room-master, and Kalkmann, he now realised
for the first time, was the very twin of another master
whose name he had quite forgotten, but whom he used
to dislike intensely in the old days. And, through
the smoke, peering at him from the corners of the
room, he saw that all the Brothers about him had the
faces he had known and lived with long ago Roest,
Fluheim, Meinert, Rigel, Gysin.
He stared hard, suddenly grown more
alert, and everywhere saw, or fancied he saw, strange
likenesses, ghostly resemblances, more,
the identical faces of years ago. There was something
queer about it all, something not quite right, something
that made him feel uneasy. He shook himself,
mentally and actually, blowing the smoke from before
his eyes with a long breath, and as he did so he noticed
to his dismay that every one was fixedly staring.
They were watching him.
This brought him to his senses.
As an Englishman, and a foreigner, he did not wish
to be rude, or to do anything to make himself foolishly
conspicuous and spoil the harmony of the evening.
He was a guest, and a privileged guest at that.
Besides, the music had already begun. Bruder
Schliemann’s long white fingers were caressing
the keys to some purpose.
He subsided into his chair and smoked
with half-closed eyes that yet saw everything.
But the shudder had established itself
in his being, and, whether he would or not, it kept
repeating itself. As a town, far up some inland
river, feels the pressure of the distant sea, so he
became aware that mighty forces from somewhere beyond
his ken were urging themselves up against his soul
in this smoky little room. He began to feel exceedingly
ill at ease.
And as the music filled the air his
mind began to clear. Like a lifted veil there
rose up something that had hitherto obscured his vision.
The words of the priest at the railway inn flashed
across his brain unbidden: “You will find
it different.” And also, though why he could
not tell, he saw mentally the strong, rather wonderful
eyes of that other guest at the supper-table, the
man who had overheard his conversation, and had later
got into earnest talk with the priest. He took
out his watch and stole a glance at it. Two hours
had slipped by. It was already eleven o’clock.
Schliemann, meanwhile, utterly absorbed
in his music, was playing a solemn measure. The
piano sang marvellously. The power of a great
conviction, the simplicity of great art, the vital
spiritual message of a soul that had found itself all
this, and more, were in the chords, and yet somehow
the music was what can only be described as impure atrociously
and diabolically impure. And the piece itself,
although Harris did not recognise it as anything familiar,
was surely the music of a Mass huge, majestic,
sombre? It stalked through the smoky room with
slow power, like the passage of something that was
mighty, yet profoundly intimate, and as it went there
stirred into each and every face about him the signature
of the enormous forces of which it was the audible
symbol. The countenances round him turned sinister,
but not idly, negatively sinister: they grew dark
with purpose. He suddenly recalled the face of
Bruder Kalkmann in the corridor earlier in the evening.
The motives of their secret souls rose to the eyes,
and mouths, and foreheads, and hung there for all
to see like the black banners of an assembly of ill-starred
and fallen creatures. Demons was the
horrible word that flashed through his brain like a
sheet of fire.
When this sudden discovery leaped
out upon him, for a moment he lost his self-control.
Without waiting to think and weigh his extraordinary
impression, he did a very foolish but a very natural
thing. Feeling himself irresistibly driven by
the sudden stress to some kind of action, he sprang
to his feet and screamed! To his own
utter amazement he stood up and shrieked aloud!
But no one stirred. No one, apparently,
took the slightest notice of his absurdly wild behaviour.
It was almost as if no one but himself had heard the
scream at all as though the music had drowned
it and swallowed it up as though after
all perhaps he had not really screamed as loudly as
he imagined, or had not screamed at all.
Then, as he glanced at the motionless,
dark faces before him, something of utter cold passed
into his being, touching his very soul.... All
emotion cooled suddenly, leaving him like a receding
tide. He sat down again, ashamed, mortified,
angry with himself for behaving like a fool and a
boy. And the music, meanwhile, continued to issue
from the white and snakelike fingers of Bruder Schliemann,
as poisoned wine might issue from the weirdly fashioned
necks of antique phials.
And, with the rest of them, Harris drank it in.
Forcing himself to believe that he
had been the victim of some kind of illusory perception,
he vigorously restrained his feelings. Then the
music presently ceased, and every one applauded and
began to talk at once, laughing, changing seats, complimenting
the player, and behaving naturally and easily as though
nothing out of the way had happened. The faces
appeared normal once more. The Brothers crowded
round their visitor, and he joined in their talk and
even heard himself thanking the gifted musician.
But, at the same time, he found himself
edging towards the door, nearer and nearer, changing
his chair when possible, and joining the groups that
stood closest to the way of escape.
“I must thank you all tausendmal
for my little reception and the great pleasure the
very great honour you have done me,” he began
in decided tones at length, “but I fear I have
trespassed far too long already on your hospitality.
Moreover, I have some distance to walk to my inn.”
A chorus of voices greeted his words.
They would not hear of his going, at least
not without first partaking of refreshment. They
produced pumpernickel from one cupboard, and rye-bread
and sausage from another, and all began to talk again
and eat. More coffee was made, fresh cigars lighted,
and Bruder Meyer took out his violin and began to
tune it softly.
“There is always a bed upstairs
if Herr Harris will accept it,” said one.
“And it is difficult to find
the way out now, for all the doors are locked,”
laughed another loudly.
“Let us take our simple pleasures
as they come,” cried a third. “Bruder
Harris will understand how we appreciate the honour
of this last visit of his.”
They made a dozen excuses. They
all laughed, as though the politeness of their words
was but formal, and veiled thinly more and
more thinly a very different meaning.
“And the hour of midnight draws
near,” added Bruder Kalkmann with a charming
smile, but in a voice that sounded to the Englishman
like the grating of iron hinges.
Their German seemed to him more and
more difficult to understand. He noted that they
called him “Bruder” too, classing him as
one of themselves.
And then suddenly he had a flash of
keener perception, and realised with a creeping of
his flesh that he had all along misinterpreted grossly
misinterpreted all they had been saying. They
had talked about the beauty of the place, its isolation
and remoteness from the world, its peculiar fitness
for certain kinds of spiritual development and worship yet
hardly, he now grasped, in the sense in which he had
taken the words. They had meant something different.
Their spiritual powers, their desire for loneliness,
their passion for worship, were not the powers, the
solitude, or the worship that he meant and understood.
He was playing a part in some horrible masquerade;
he was among men who cloaked their lives with religion
in order to follow their real purposes unseen of men.
What did it all mean? How had
he blundered into so equivocal a situation? Had
he blundered into it at all? Had he not rather
been led into it, deliberately led? His thoughts
grew dreadfully confused, and his confidence in himself
began to fade. And why, he suddenly thought again,
were they so impressed by the mere fact of his coming
to revisit his old school? What was it they so
admired and wondered at in his simple act? Why
did they set such store upon his having the courage
to come, to “give himself so freely,”
“unconditionally” as one of them had expressed
it with such a mockery of exaggeration?
Fear stirred in his heart most horribly,
and he found no answer to any of his questionings.
Only one thing he now understood quite clearly:
it was their purpose to keep him here. They did
not intend that he should go. And from this moment
he realised that they were sinister, formidable and,
in some way he had yet to discover, inimical to himself,
inimical to his life. And the phrase one of them
had used a moment ago “this last
visit of his” rose before his eyes
in letters of flame.
Harris was not a man of action, and
had never known in all the course of his career what
it meant to be in a situation of real danger.
He was not necessarily a coward, though, perhaps,
a man of untried nerve. He realised at last plainly
that he was in a very awkward predicament indeed,
and that he had to deal with men who were utterly in
earnest. What their intentions were he only vaguely
guessed. His mind, indeed, was too confused for
definite ratiocination, and he was only able to follow
blindly the strongest instincts that moved in him.
It never occurred to him that the Brothers might all
be mad, or that he himself might have temporarily
lost his senses and be suffering under some terrible
delusion. In fact, nothing occurred to him he
realised nothing except that he meant to
escape and the quicker the better.
A tremendous revulsion of feeling set in and overpowered
him.
Accordingly, without further protest
for the moment, he ate his pumpernickel and drank
his coffee, talking meanwhile as naturally and pleasantly
as he could, and when a suitable interval had passed,
he rose to his feet and announced once more that he
must now take his leave. He spoke very quietly,
but very decidedly. No one hearing him could doubt
that he meant what he said. He had got very close
to the door by this time.
“I regret,” he said, using
his best German, and speaking to a hushed room, “that
our pleasant evening must come to an end, but it is
now time for me to wish you all good-night.”
And then, as no one said anything, he added, though
with a trifle less assurance, “And I thank you
all most sincerely for your hospitality.”
“On the contrary,” replied
Kalkmann instantly, rising from his chair and ignoring
the hand the Englishman had stretched out to him, “it
is we who have to thank you; and we do so most gratefully
and sincerely.”
And at the same moment at least half
a dozen of the Brothers took up their position between
himself and the door.
“You are very good to say so,”
Harris replied as firmly as he could manage, noticing
this movement out of the corner of his eye, “but
really I had no conception that my little
chance visit could have afforded you so much pleasure.”
He moved another step nearer the door, but Bruder
Schliemann came across the room quickly and stood in
front of him. His attitude was uncompromising.
A dark and terrible expression had come into his face.
“But it was not by chance
that you came, Bruder Harris,” he said so that
all the room could hear; “surely we have not
misunderstood your presence here?” He raised
his black eyebrows.
“No, no,” the Englishman
hastened to reply, “I was I am delighted
to be here. I told you what pleasure it gave
me to find myself among you. Do not misunderstand
me, I beg.” His voice faltered a little,
and he had difficulty in finding the words. More
and more, too, he had difficulty in understanding
their words.
“Of course,” interposed
Bruder Kalkmann in his iron bass, “we
have not misunderstood. You have come back in
the spirit of true and unselfish devotion. You
offer yourself freely, and we all appreciate it.
It is your willingness and nobility that have so completely
won our veneration and respect.” A faint
murmur of applause ran round the room. “What
we all delight in what our great Master
will especially delight in is the value
of your spontaneous and voluntary ”
He used a word Harris did not understand.
He said “Opfer.” The bewildered
Englishman searched his brain for the translation,
and searched in vain. For the life of him he
could not remember what it meant. But the word,
for all his inability to translate it, touched his
soul with ice. It was worse, far worse, than anything
he had imagined. He felt like a lost, helpless
creature, and all power to fight sank out of him from
that moment.
“It is magnificent to be such
a willing ” added Schliemann, sidling
up to him with a dreadful leer on his face. He
made use of the same word “Opfer.”
“God! What could it all
mean?” “Offer himself!” “True
spirit of devotion!” “Willing,”
“unselfish,” “magnificent!”
Opfer, Opfer, Opfer! What in the name of heaven
did it mean, that strange, mysterious word that struck
such terror into his heart?
He made a valiant effort to keep his
presence of mind and hold his nerves steady.
Turning, he saw that Kalkmann’s face was a dead
white. Kalkmann! He understood that well
enough. Kalkmann meant “Man of Chalk”:
he knew that. But what did “Opfer”
mean? That was the real key to the situation.
Words poured through his disordered mind in an endless
stream unusual, rare words he had perhaps
heard but once in his life while “Opfer,”
a word in common use, entirely escaped him. What
an extraordinary mockery it all was!
Then Kalkmann, pale as death, but
his face hard as iron, spoke a few low words that
he did not catch, and the Brothers standing by the
walls at once turned the lamps down so that the room
became dim. In the half light he could only just
discern their faces and movements.
“It is time,” he heard
Kalkmann’s remorseless voice continue just behind
him. “The hour of midnight is at hand.
Let us prepare. He comes! He comes; Bruder
Asmodelius comes!” His voice rose to a chant.
And the sound of that name, for some
extraordinary reason, was terrible utterly
terrible; so that Harris shook from head to foot as
he heard it. Its utterance filled the air like
soft thunder, and a hush came over the whole room.
Forces rose all about him, transforming the normal
into the horrible, and the spirit of craven fear ran
through all his being, bringing him to the verge of
collapse.
Asmodelius! Asmodelius!
The name was appalling. For he understood at
last to whom it referred and the meaning that lay between
its great syllables. At the same instant, too,
he suddenly understood the meaning of that unremembered
word. The import of the word “Opfer”
flashed upon his soul like a message of death.
He thought of making a wild effort
to reach the door, but the weakness of his trembling
knees, and the row of black figures that stood between,
dissuaded him at once. He would have screamed
for help, but remembering the emptiness of the vast
building, and the loneliness of the situation, he
understood that no help could come that way, and he
kept his lips closed. He stood still and did
nothing. But he knew now what was coming.
Two of the Brothers approached and
took him gently by the arm.
“Bruder Asmodelius accepts you,”
they whispered; “are you ready?”
Then he found his tongue and tried
to speak. “But what have I to do with this
Bruder Asm Asmo ?” he stammered,
a desperate rush of words crowding vainly behind the
halting tongue.
The name refused to pass his lips.
He could not pronounce it as they did. He could
not pronounce it at all. His sense of helplessness
then entered the acute stage, for this inability to
speak the name produced a fresh sense of quite horrible
confusion in his mind, and he became extraordinarily
agitated.
“I came here for a friendly
visit,” he tried to say with a great effort,
but, to his intense dismay, he heard his voice saying
something quite different, and actually making use
of that very word they had all used: “I
came here as a willing Opfer,” he heard
his own voice say, “and I am quite ready.”
He was lost beyond all recall now!
Not alone his mind, but the very muscles of his body
had passed out of control. He felt that he was
hovering on the confines of a phantom or demon-world, a
world in which the name they had spoken constituted
the Master-name, the word of ultimate power.
What followed he heard and saw as in a nightmare.
“In the half light that veils
all truth, let us prepare to worship and adore,”
chanted Schliemann, who had preceded him to the end
of the room.
“In the mists that protect our
faces before the Black Throne, let us make ready the
willing victim,” echoed Kalkmann in his great
bass.
They raised their faces, listening
expectantly, as a roaring sound, like the passing
of mighty projectiles, filled the air, far, far away,
very wonderful, very forbidding. The walls of
the room trembled.
“He comes! He comes!
He comes!” chanted the Brothers in chorus.
The sound of roaring died away, and
an atmosphere of still and utter cold established
itself over all. Then Kalkmann, dark and unutterably
stern, turned in the dim light and faced the rest.
“Asmodelius, our Hauptbruder,
is about us,” he cried in a voice that even
while it shook was yet a voice of iron; “Asmodelius
is about us. Make ready.”
There followed a pause in which no
one stirred or spoke. A tall Brother approached
the Englishman; but Kalkmann held up his hand.
“Let the eyes remain uncovered,”
he said, “in honour of so freely giving himself.”
And to his horror Harris then realised for the first
time that his hands were already fastened to his sides.
The Brother retreated again silently,
and in the pause that followed all the figures about
him dropped to their knees, leaving him standing alone,
and as they dropped, in voices hushed with mingled
reverence and awe, they cried, softly, odiously, appallingly,
the name of the Being whom they momentarily expected
to appear.
Then, at the end of the room, where
the windows seemed to have disappeared so that he
saw the stars, there rose into view far up against
the night sky, grand and terrible, the outline of a
man. A kind of grey glory enveloped it so that
it resembled a steel-cased statue, immense, imposing,
horrific in its distant splendour; while, at the same
time, the face was so spiritually mighty, yet so proudly,
so austerely sad, that Harris felt as he stared, that
the sight was more than his eyes could meet, and that
in another moment the power of vision would fail him
altogether, and he must sink into utter nothingness.
So remote and inaccessible hung this
figure that it was impossible to gauge anything as
to its size, yet at the same time so strangely close,
that when the grey radiance from its mightily broken
visage, august and mournful, beat down upon his soul,
pulsing like some dark star with the powers of spiritual
evil, he felt almost as though he were looking into
a face no farther removed from him in space than the
face of any one of the Brothers who stood by his side.
And then the room filled and trembled
with sounds that Harris understood full well were
the failing voices of others who had preceded him in
a long series down the years. There came first
a plain, sharp cry, as of a man in the last anguish,
choking for his breath, and yet, with the very final
expiration of it, breathing the name of the Worship of
the dark Being who rejoiced to hear it. The cries
of the strangled; the short, running gasp of the suffocated;
and the smothered gurgling of the tightened throat,
all these, and more, echoed back and forth between
the walls, the very walls in which he now stood a
prisoner, a sacrificial victim. The cries, too,
not alone of the broken bodies, but far
worse of beaten, broken souls. And
as the ghastly chorus rose and fell, there came also
the faces of the lost and unhappy creatures to whom
they belonged, and, against that curtain of pale grey
light, he saw float past him in the air, an array
of white and piteous human countenances that seemed
to beckon and gibber at him as though he were already
one of themselves.
Slowly, too, as the voices rose, and
the pallid crew sailed past, that giant form of grey
descended from the sky and approached the room that
contained the worshippers and their prisoner.
Hands rose and sank about him in the darkness, and
he felt that he was being draped in other garments
than his own; a circlet of ice seemed to run about
his head, while round the waist, enclosing the fastened
arms, he felt a girdle tightly drawn. At last,
about his very throat, there ran a soft and silken
touch which, better than if there had been full light,
and a mirror held to his face, he understood to be
the cord of sacrifice and of death.
At this moment the Brothers, still
prostrate upon the floor, began again their mournful,
yet impassioned chanting, and as they did so a strange
thing happened. For, apparently without moving
or altering its position, the huge Figure seemed,
at once and suddenly, to be inside the room, almost
beside him, and to fill the space around him to the
exclusion of all else.
He was now beyond all ordinary sensations
of fear, only a drab feeling as of death the
death of the soul stirred in his heart.
His thoughts no longer even beat vainly for escape.
The end was near, and he knew it.
The dreadfully chanting voices rose
about him in a wave: “We worship! We
adore! We offer!” The sounds filled his
ears and hammered, almost meaningless, upon his brain.
Then the majestic grey face turned
slowly downwards upon him, and his very soul passed
outwards and seemed to become absorbed in the sea of
those anguished eyes. At the same moment a dozen
hands forced him to his knees, and in the air before
him he saw the arm of Kalkmann upraised, and felt
the pressure about his throat grow strong.
It was in this awful moment, when
he had given up all hope, and the help of gods or
men seemed beyond question, that a strange thing happened.
For before his fading and terrified vision there slid,
as in a dream of light, yet without apparent
rhyme or reason wholly unbidden and unexplained, the
face of that other man at the supper table of the
railway inn. And the sight, even mentally, of
that strong, wholesome, vigorous English face, inspired
him suddenly with a new courage.
It was but a flash of fading vision
before he sank into a dark and terrible death, yet,
in some inexplicable way, the sight of that face stirred
in him unconquerable hope and the certainty of deliverance.
It was a face of power, a face, he now realised, of
simple goodness such as might have been seen by men
of old on the shores of Galilee; a face, by heaven,
that could conquer even the devils of outer space.
And, in his despair and abandonment,
he called upon it, and called with no uncertain accents.
He found his voice in this overwhelming moment to
some purpose; though the words he actually used, and
whether they were in German or English, he could never
remember. Their effect, nevertheless, was instantaneous.
The Brothers understood, and that grey Figure of evil
understood.
For a second the confusion was terrific.
There came a great shattering sound. It seemed
that the very earth trembled. But all Harris remembered
afterwards was that voices rose about him in the clamour
of terrified alarm
“A man of power is among us! A man of God!”
The vast sound was repeated the
rushing through space as of huge projectiles and
he sank to the floor of the room, unconscious.
The entire scene had vanished, vanished like smoke
over the roof of a cottage when the wind blows.
And, by his side, sat down a slight
un-German figure, the figure of the stranger
at the inn, the man who had the “rather
wonderful eyes.”
When Harris came to himself he felt
cold. He was lying under the open sky, and the
cool air of field and forest was blowing upon his face.
He sat up and looked about him. The memory of
the late scene was still horribly in his mind, but
no vestige of it remained. No walls or ceiling
enclosed him; he was no longer in a room at all.
There were no lamps turned low, no cigar smoke, no
black forms of sinister worshippers, no tremendous
grey Figure hovering beyond the windows.
Open space was about him, and he was
lying on a pile of bricks and mortar, his clothes
soaked with dew, and the kind stars shining brightly
overhead. He was lying, bruised and shaken, among
the heaped-up debris of a ruined building.
He stood up and stared about him.
There, in the shadowy distance, lay the surrounding
forest, and here, close at hand, stood the outline
of the village buildings. But, underfoot, beyond
question, lay nothing but the broken heaps of stones
that betokened a building long since crumbled to dust.
Then he saw that the stones were blackened, and that
great wooden beams, half burnt, half rotten, made
lines through the general debris. He stood, then,
among the ruins of a burnt and shattered building,
the weeds and nettles proving conclusively that it
had lain thus for many years.
The moon had already set behind the
encircling forest, but the stars that spangled the
heavens threw enough light to enable him to make quite
sure of what he saw. Harris, the silk merchant,
stood among these broken and burnt stones and shivered.
Then he suddenly became aware that
out of the gloom a figure had risen and stood beside
him. Peering at him, he thought he recognised
the face of the stranger at the railway inn.
“Are you real?”
he asked in a voice he hardly recognised as his own.
“More than real I’m
friendly,” replied the stranger; “I followed
you up here from the inn.”
Harris stood and stared for several
minutes without adding anything. His teeth chattered.
The least sound made him start; but the simple words
in his own language, and the tone in which they were
uttered, comforted him inconceivably.
“You’re English too, thank
God,” he said inconsequently. “These
German devils ” He broke off and
put a hand to his eyes. “But what’s
become of them all and the room and and ”
The hand travelled down to his throat and moved nervously
round his neck. He drew a long, long breath of
relief. “Did I dream everything everything?”
he said distractedly.
He stared wildly about him, and the
stranger moved forward and took his arm. “Come,”
he said soothingly, yet with a trace of command in
the voice, “we will move away from here.
The high-road, or even the woods will be more to your
taste, for we are standing now on one of the most
haunted and most terribly haunted spots
of the whole world.”
He guided his companion’s stumbling
footsteps over the broken masonry until they reached
the path, the nettles stinging their hands, and Harris
feeling his way like a man in a dream. Passing
through the twisted iron railing they reached the
path, and thence made their way to the road, shining
white in the night. Once safely out of the ruins,
Harris collected himself and turned to look back.
“But, how is it possible?”
he exclaimed, his voice still shaking. “How
can it be possible? When I came in here I saw
the building in the moonlight. They opened the
door. I saw the figures and heard the voices
and touched, yes touched their very hands, and saw
their damned black faces, saw them far more plainly
than I see you now.” He was deeply bewildered.
The glamour was still upon his eyes with a degree of
reality stronger than the reality even of normal life.
“Was I so utterly deluded?”
Then suddenly the words of the stranger,
which he had only half heard or understood, returned
to him.
“Haunted?” he asked, looking
hard at him; “haunted, did you say?” He
paused in the roadway and stared into the darkness
where the building of the old school had first appeared
to him. But the stranger hurried him forward.
“We shall talk more safely farther
on,” he said. “I followed you from
the inn the moment I realised where you had gone.
When I found you it was eleven o’clock ”
“Eleven o’clock,”
said Harris, remembering with a shudder.
“ I saw you drop.
I watched over you till you recovered consciousness
of your own accord, and now now I am here
to guide you safely back to the inn. I have broken
the spell the glamour ”
“I owe you a great deal, sir,”
interrupted Harris again, beginning to understand
something of the stranger’s kindness, “but
I don’t understand it all. I feel dazed
and shaken.” His teeth still chattered,
and spells of violent shivering passed over him from
head to foot. He found that he was clinging to
the other’s arm. In this way they passed
beyond the deserted and crumbling village and gained
the high-road that led homewards through the forest.
“That school building has long
been in ruins,” said the man at his side presently;
“it was burnt down by order of the Elders of
the community at least ten years ago. The village
has been uninhabited ever since. But the simulacra
of certain ghastly events that took place under that
roof in past days still continue. And the ‘shells’
of the chief participants still enact there the dreadful
deeds that led to its final destruction, and to the
desertion of the whole settlement. They were
devil-worshippers!”
Harris listened with beads of perspiration
on his forehead that did not come alone from their
leisurely pace through the cool night. Although
he had seen this man but once before in his life,
and had never before exchanged so much as a word with
him, he felt a degree of confidence and a subtle sense
of safety and well-being in his presence that were
the most healing influences he could possibly have
wished after the experience he had been through.
For all that, he still felt as if he were walking
in a dream, and though he heard every word that fell
from his companion’s lips, it was only the next
day that the full import of all he said became fully
clear to him. The presence of this quiet stranger,
the man with the wonderful eyes which he felt now,
rather than saw, applied a soothing anodyne to his
shattered spirit that healed him through and through.
And this healing influence, distilled from the dark
figure at his side, satisfied his first imperative
need, so that he almost forgot to realise how strange
and opportune it was that the man should be there
at all.
It somehow never occurred to him to
ask his name, or to feel any undue wonder that one
passing tourist should take so much trouble on behalf
of another. He just walked by his side, listening
to his quiet words, and allowing himself to enjoy
the very wonderful experience after his recent ordeal,
of being helped, strengthened, blessed. Only once,
remembering vaguely something of his reading of years
ago, he turned to the man beside him, after some more
than usually remarkable words, and heard himself,
almost involuntarily it seemed, putting the question:
“Then are you a Rosicrucian, sir, perhaps?”
But the stranger had ignored the words, or possibly
not heard them, for he continued with his talk as
though unconscious of any interruption, and Harris
became aware that another somewhat unusual picture
had taken possession of his mind, as they walked there
side by side through the cool reaches of the forest,
and that he had found his imagination suddenly charged
with the childhood memory of Jacob wrestling with
an angel, wrestling all night with a being
of superior quality whose strength eventually became
his own.
“It was your abrupt conversation
with the priest at supper that first put me upon the
track of this remarkable occurrence,” he heard
the man’s quiet voice beside him in the darkness,
“and it was from him I learned after you left
the story of the devil-worship that became secretly
established in the heart of this simple and devout
little community.”
“Devil-worship! Here !” Harris
stammered, aghast.
“Yes here; conducted
secretly for years by a group of Brothers before unexplained
disappearances in the neighbourhood led to its discovery.
For where could they have found a safer place in the
whole wide world for their ghastly traffic and perverted
powers than here, in the very precincts under
cover of the very shadow of saintliness and holy living?”
“Awful, awful!” whispered
the silk merchant, “and when I tell you the
words they used to me ”
“I know it all,” the stranger
said quietly. “I saw and heard everything.
My plan first was to wait till the end and then to
take steps for their destruction, but in the interest
of your personal safety,” he spoke
with the utmost gravity and conviction, “in
the interest of the safety of your soul, I made my
presence known when I did, and before the conclusion
had been reached ”
“My safety! The danger,
then, was real. They were alive and ”
Words failed him. He stopped in the road and
turned towards his companion, the shining of whose
eyes he could just make out in the gloom.
“It was a concourse of the shells
of violent men, spiritually developed but evil men,
seeking after death the death of the body to
prolong their vile and unnatural existence. And
had they accomplished their object you, in turn, at
the death of your body, would have passed into their
power and helped to swell their dreadful purposes.”
Harris made no reply. He was
trying hard to concentrate his mind upon the sweet
and common things of life. He even thought of
silk and St. Paul’s Churchyard and the faces
of his partners in business.
“For you came all prepared to
be caught,” he heard the other’s voice
like some one talking to him from a distance; “your
deeply introspective mood had already reconstructed
the past so vividly, so intensely, that you were en
rapport at once with any forces of those days that
chanced still to be lingering. And they swept
you up all unresistingly.”
Harris tightened his hold upon the
stranger’s arm as he heard. At the moment
he had room for one emotion only. It did not seem
to him odd that this stranger should have such intimate
knowledge of his mind.
“It is, alas, chiefly the evil
emotions that are able to leave their photographs
upon surrounding scenes and objects,” the other
added, “and who ever heard of a place haunted
by a noble deed, or of beautiful and lovely ghosts
revisiting the glimpses of the moon? It is unfortunate.
But the wicked passions of men’s hearts alone
seem strong enough to leave pictures that persist;
the good are ever too lukewarm.”
The stranger sighed as he spoke.
But Harris, exhausted and shaken as he was to the
very core, paced by his side, only half listening.
He moved as in a dream still. It was very wonderful
to him, this walk home under the stars in the early
hours of the October morning, the peaceful forest
all about them, mist rising here and there over the
small clearings, and the sound of water from a hundred
little invisible streams filling in the pauses of
the talk. In after life he always looked back
to it as something magical and impossible, something
that had seemed too beautiful, too curiously beautiful,
to have been quite true. And, though at the time
he heard and understood but a quarter of what the stranger
said, it came back to him afterwards, staying with
him till the end of his days, and always with a curious,
haunting sense of unreality, as though he had enjoyed
a wonderful dream of which he could recall only faint
and exquisite portions.
But the horror of the earlier experience
was effectually dispelled; and when they reached the
railway inn, somewhere about three o’clock in
the morning, Harris shook the stranger’s hand
gratefully, effusively, meeting the look of those
rather wonderful eyes with a full heart, and went
up to his room, thinking in a hazy, dream-like way
of the words with which the stranger had brought their
conversation to an end as they left the confines of
the forest
“And if thought and emotion
can persist in this way so long after the brain that
sent them forth has crumbled into dust, how vitally
important it must be to control their very birth in
the heart, and guard them with the keenest possible
restraint.”
But Harris, the silk merchant, slept
better than might have been expected, and with a soundness
that carried him half-way through the day. And
when he came downstairs and learned that the stranger
had already taken his departure, he realised with
keen regret that he had never once thought of asking
his name.
“Yes, he signed the visitors’
book,” said the girl in reply to his question.
And he turned over the blotted pages
and found there, the last entry, in a very delicate
and individual handwriting
“John Silence, London.”