It was all charming, if a little strange the
friendliness of Miss Elton when Lena met her at the
station, the smart trap and groom that met them at
the end of their short journey, the very way in which
Miss Elton took possession of those awe-inspiring
objects, and the respectful curiosity of the loungers
at the country station. As she stepped into the
carriage, Lena caught a glimpse of a cart-horse with
so many ribs as to suggest that the female of his
species had yet to be created. He looked so like
her mother, that he gave her a spasm of anguish which
she tried to forget, as they were whirled down the
road with its fringe of straight-limbed trees.
Never had the world looked more lovely. Her spirits
were lifted up.
Mrs. Lenox met them at the door with
hospitable effusiveness, but Lena’s crucifixion
began from that moment.
“The man will carry your bag
up for you,” said Mrs. Lenox.
As Olaf obediently stepped forward,
Lena flushed and thought: “They both noticed
that it was only imitation leather.”
Mrs. Lenox walked up stairs with them,
chattering gaily with Madeline, and Lena followed
in embarrassed silence at the charming freshness and
daintiness of everything about her.
“I’ve put you and Miss
Elton in adjoining rooms,” said Mrs. Lenox,
smiling kindly at her, “so that you needn’t
feel remote and lonely on your first visit here.”
The man put down the bag and disappeared,
and a trim maid came forward to help Lena off with
her coat which, with a sudden pang, she wished were
lined with satin instead of sateen.
“Sall Ay unpack you bag?” said the little
maid politely.
“No, thank you. I prefer
to do it myself,” said Lena desperately.
It was more than she could endure to have a strange
girl spying out the nakedness of the land. Yet
when the little maid said, “Vary well, ma’am,”
and walked into the next room, Lena wondered if she
had made a mistake. She heard Miss Elton’s
cheerful address of the appalling personage with the
puffed up bit of hair and the saucy cap.
“How do you do, Sophie?”
“Good day, mees. As thar anything Ay can
do for you?”
“I fancy my dress would be better
for a good brushing after the dusty train, and the
gown I want is in the top tray of the little trunk,
Sophie.”
The door closed and Lena wondered
in terror what of her small store of finery she ought
to put on, and when she ought to go down stairs.
She solved the first question to the best of her ability
and sat down on the edge of a very clean beflowered
chair in despair about the other, when there came
voices in the hall, and Madeline tapped on her door,
and called:
“Don’t you want to come out and see the
baby?”
Now Lena detested babies as sticky
and order-destroying vermin, but in relief she said:
“A baby? Oh, how lovely!”
“Come,” said Mrs. Lenox.
“The proper study of womanhood is baby.”
Lena went out to find a very small person in a very
tottering condition, steered up and down the hall
by another be-capped maid who was holding tight to
his rear petticoats, while Mrs. Lenox trotted by his
side, pulling a woolly lamb that baa’d with
enchanting precision, and allowing her skirts to be
worried by a small puppy, whose business in life was
to bite anything hard that lay on the floor or that
wiggled. Mrs. Lenox and Miss Elton sat down on
the floor to towsle and to be towsled amid laughter
and hair-pulling and frantic yelps from the puppy,
while Lena looked on and said: “Isn’t
he cunning?” and wondered whether she ought
to sit on the floor or not. She wondered if this
were indeed the millionaire Mrs. Lenox of whom she
read with awe from the “In the swing”
column as being present at such and such “society
functions”, thus and thus attired.
Somehow Mrs. Lenox, seated on the
floor, with her hair over one eye, disconcerted Lena
more than any amount of grandeur would have done.
She felt as one might who should catch the Venus of
Melos cutting capers. Then the redoubtable lady
jumped up, tucked in a few hair-pins, gave a final
shake to her small son and said:
“I dressed little Frank myself
this afternoon. Don’t you think I did a
good job? Dressing a baby combines all the pleasures
of the chase with the requirements of the exact sciences,
Miss Quincy. Now let’s go down and have
some tea before big Frank gets home. I think we’ve
time for a little friendly chat.”
This time Lena followed with greater
sense of security. She knew her dress was pretty
and becoming, though inexpensive; and as for conversation,
that to Lena’s mind meant clothes and society,
with which she felt a journalistic familiarity.
“Perhaps you prefer cream in
your tea?” said Mrs. Lenox, with hand poised
over the little table.
“No, thank you, I like lemon,”
answered Lena, who had never tasted it before and
now thought it very nasty indeed. Then she wondered
why she had told such a small useless lie.
But it was comfortable to be in a
big lovely room with a pile of logs blazing in a great
fireplace, and soft lamps shedding a glow rather than
making spots of light. She wished she had, like
Madeline, picked out a very easy chair instead of
the stiff one she had selected, but she felt too shy
to move until Mrs. Lenox suggested it, and then she
was embarrassed because she was embarrassed.
She wondered if she should ever be able to do things
like these women, without thinking of what she was
doing.
Madeline was idly turning the pages
of a magazine and now she held it up.
“Look at these illustrations. Aren’t
they stunning?”
“I don’t know,”
said Mrs. Lenox. “I’m growing tired
of that kind of thing. It isn’t art; it’s
a fad. The trouble with most of this modern work
is that it is too smart and fashionable. The clothes
are more important than the people.”
“Quite a contrast to ancient
art, where the people were everything and the clothes
nothing,” Madeline retorted. “After
all, I rather like the modern way. The old Greeks
were not a bit more real people. They were nothing
but types.”
“And very decapitated and de-legged
types,” said Mrs. Lenox with a laugh. “And
dirty, too like the Sleeping Beauty.
Do you know, it gives me the shivers to think of the
Sleeping Beauty, lying there for ages, with dust and
cobwebs accumulating on her. I’m sure I
hope the prince gave her a thorough dusting before
he kissed her.”
“You are horribly realistic,
Vera a person with no imagination.”
“I think I have just shown a truly vivid imagination.”
“It is the business of imagination
to build up a world of loveliness and order.”
“I don’t agree with you.
I think it is the business of imagination to project
things as they really are. I don’t want
to slip out from under reality and see only beauty.
Beware, Madeline, or you will degenerate into a mere
optimist.”
“Isn’t it funny that if
your opponent can call you an optimist, he feels that
he has delivered a knock-down blow to all your arguments?”
Mrs. Lenox suddenly pulled herself together and turned
toward Lena, who sat silently drinking her tea and
taking no part in the conversation.
“Did you tell me that your mother
is an invalid, Miss Quincy?”
“Not exactly; but she can’t
go about much. It seems to play her out to walk.”
“It must be very hard on her
to stay in the house all the time. I wonder if
I might take her to drive with me once in a while?”
A scarlet flush passed over Lena’s face at the
very idea of her mother’s querulous vulgarity
being displayed to this woman, and Mrs. Lenox could
not help seeing her embarrassment.
A little wave of pity swept over the
older woman. It must be a cruel fate to be ashamed
of one’s surroundings. Mrs. Lenox herself
was one of those serious-minded persons who regard
their opportunities as responsibilities. She
waged constant warfare with the dominion of externals,
and believed with all her heart that the life was more
than raiment; but a momentary doubt assailed her as
to whether, after all, it might not be easier to conquer
things when one owned them, rather than when one had
to do without them. It has generally been Dives
who is represented as enslaved by the goods of this
world. Perhaps Lazarus, if his heart is absorbed
in sordid longing for what others have and he has
not, stands just as poor a chance of the kingdom of
Heaven.
What could she do to make Miss Quincy
feel at ease? The girl certainly had brains and
character. Dick had told them of her brave bearing
of burdens. This stiff back and this silence
were but the tribute of shyness to new surroundings.
So ran Mrs. Lenox’s swift thoughts and she set
herself to make Lena talk about the things with which
she was familiar, to link her past to this present.
Evidently the same thought was flitting
through Madeline’s brain, for before Mrs. Lenox
spoke she began:
“Do you know, Miss Quincy, I
have felt a little envy of you ever since Dick first
told us about you.”
“Envy! Of me?” Lena exclaimed, moved
to genuine surprise.
“Yes,” Madeline went on,
leaning forward, eager to explain herself. “You
see, I seem to have had a good deal of training, which
looks as though it should prepare me to do something,
and then then I don’t do anything.
It makes me feel flat and unprofitable. I’d
like to feel like you every night as though
I’d really accomplished a thing or two.”
“Isn’t it like Madeline
to try to make the girl feel the dignity of drudgery!”
Mrs. Lenox said to herself.
“The stuck-up thing!”
thought Lena; “rubbing it into me that she does
not have to work for her living.”
She was tempted to make a sharp answer,
but remembered her diplomacy and held it in.
“Work isn’t always so
pleasant when you’re in it,” she said.
“Everything is apt to look rough
around the edges until you hold it off and get a view
of it as a whole,” Mrs. Lenox put in. “Even
love sometimes. But I think that, next
to love, work is about the best thing in life.”
“Oh, that depends,” Madeline
cried. “When I read papers at clubs, people
talk about my ‘work’, but nobody thinks
that it is worth while. I’d like to earn
a dollar, just as a guaranty that some one thought
the thing I did was worth it.”
“Gracious!” Lena exclaimed
in genuine surprise. “Do you really feel
that way about earning money?”
“Don’t you?” Madeline
asked in return; and each looked at the other uncomprehendingly.
“No, I don’t,” Lena
burst out sullenly, but forgetting to be shy.
“I feel degraded by every dirty five-dollar
bill I get by being a slavey. People make you
feel that way. You get it rubbed into you every
day.”
“No, no,” Mrs Lenox cried,
remorseful now that their talk had drifted into such
intimate personalities. “I am sure, Miss
Quincy, nobody feels that way about a woman that works,
except, perhaps, people whose opinion you can well
afford to despise.” This was a shaft that
struck so near home that Lena could hardly hold back
the tears. “I am sure I think a thousand
times more of a woman who does her honest share than
I do of the helpless ones who lie down on somebody
else and whine,” Mrs. Lenox went on.
Madeline was inwardly bemoaning her
own lack of tact. She really wanted to make a
friend of this girl, because Dick had asked her to,
and here, at the very beginning, she had stumbled,
and all that was meant to show her regard and sympathy
but served to make a gulf between them.
Mrs. Lenox darted a look at her and
sprang suddenly to her feet.
“Oh, here’s Frank,”
she exclaimed with an air of relief. “Come
in, boy, and have some tea and fire. It was good
of you to come so bright and early.”
“Earlier than bright, I’m afraid,”
he said.
Lena looked with interest toward the
door. Frank Lenox was great in St. Etienne, first
because he was the son-in-law of old Nicholas Windsor,
a potentate of the first local magnitude, and second,
because he was pushing to still greater success the
enterprises that the elder man had begun. So
people talked about him in the street-cars by his first
name. Lena felt that it was a privilege to look
at him, big, clean, with that mingling of alertness
with power which is the characteristic of the American
business man. It was an experience of absorbing
interest to see the half underhand caress he gave
his wife in passing, and to find herself actually
shaking hands with him. He seemed imposing and
friendly and yet quite like other people, as he looked
around for a capacious chair and his wife handed him
a cup of tea. She was conscious that he looked
at her with great interest. She recognized the
expression in masculine eyes and it soothed her ruffled
spirit. It was the constant affirmation of her
beauty, a beauty which had in it something dream-like
that made men’s eyes dream. After all, she
could always get along with men.
“If you’d know what brought
me home before my time, it was not your charms, my
dear, but a mad desire to get away from Harris, who
cornered me and opened up the negro question.
I saw nothing for it but to take to the woods.”
“It makes my traditional abolition
blood boil to see how public opinion seems to be settling
down and dallying with heresy and injustice again,”
Madeline exclaimed. She looked flushed and vigorous,
and Lena stared at her and wondered how she could
care for such things. Was it pure affectation?
“Oh, you’re young, my
dear,” said Mrs. Lenox laughingly. “You
must hold all your opinions violently. And you
haven’t been South. Things can’t
help looking different down there.”
“Vera!” cried Miss Elton
so explosively that Lena sat up straighter than ever,
“you’re not really a renegade yourself,
are you?” and she spoke as though her life depended
on the answer.
“Certainly not,” Mrs.
Lenox answered. “But I’m growing tolerant
toward the poor old world as it is. I’m
willing to let it grow slowly instead of insisting
that it shall all be immediately as good and wise as
I am. I’m learning to respect other people’s
point of view and to suspect that my mind is not such
an ingenious mechanism as I once supposed it to be.”
“Moreover, since she has married,
she has contracted a habit of taking the opposite
point of view,” said her husband.
“Oh, that’s one of the
jokes that has successfully withstood the ravages
of time,” said Mrs. Lenox scornfully.
“Very well, then, I’ll
say that you are getting on toward middle life and
have had your enthusiasms corrupted by a worldly-wise
father and husband. But I dare say that Miss
Quincy, being young, is quite as explosive as you
are, Madeline. So we shall be two against two.”
He looked with a challenge toward
the girl, and perhaps Lena might have managed the
expected saucy answer if she had not suddenly remembered
that her shoes were shabby and she had meant to keep
them hidden under her skirts. This memory destroyed
her new-found equilibrium, so she blurted out a weak,
“I really don’t know anything about it,”
and then blushed hotly at her own awkwardness.
“It’s a stupid subject,
anyway,” said Mr. Lenox. “I fled from
town to avoid it. Let’s not talk about
negroes.”
“Tell us what has happened in
the great world,” said Mrs. Lenox, leaning forward
with her elbows on her knees and chin in hands.
“Another Jap victory,”
he said. “And I’ll take a second one
of those little cakes please, if Miss Quincy will
leave one for me. It cuts me to the heart to
see how the young girls of our generation stuff on
little cakes. If they’d only take example
by these same Japanese, who develop strategy and patriotism
on rice, cherry blossoms and gymnastics, there’d
be some hopes for us as a people.”
He glanced again at Lena in a very
amiable manner, as though he expected her to be saucy
in return, but she blushed with mystification and
mortification. She had felt doubtful as to whether
she ought to take another of the little cakes, but
they were very good, and she was young enough to love
goodies, without many chances at anything so delectable
as these particular bits. And now to be detected
and made fun of! She began to question if she
should be able to get along with these men, after
all.
“Thank you,” he went on
after a pause. “And now that I’m comforted
with cake, another cup of tea, Vera; and then, if
you would complete my happiness, just give me a posy
out of that bouquet for my buttonhole.”
His wife rose, pulled a flower from
a vase and pinned it to his coat.
“Here’s mignonette!
That’s for dividends,” she said, and she
put her fingers in his hair and gave his head a little
shake.
“Don’t infringe on my
head, it’s patented,” he said.
“Now go and sit down, and I will tell you something
really exciting as well as instructive. I know
about it because I have the privilege of helping the
good work with a few dollars. Professor Gregory
has dug up two or three hundred old manuscripts somewhere
near Thebes, and he cables that they belong to the
first century after Christ, that he expects them to
illuminate most of the dark recesses of the time, and
that I am privileged to share the glory by making
an ample contribution. Doesn’t that stir
your young blood? I never hear of these things
without a passionate desire to go to some respectably
aged land and dig and dig and dig. It’s
a choice between doing so and making things in this
very new land for some other fellow to dig up six
thousand years from now. Which would you choose,
Miss Quincy?”
Lena was extraordinarily pretty, and
he had a theory that pretty girls were made to be
talked to. Lena thought so too, yet all she said
was, “I should think the digging would be very
dirty work, though.”
He glanced at her swiftly, and, though
there was nothing unfriendly in the look, she felt
an uncomfortable shiver. She fell into a miserable
silence which she hardly broke when the others addressed
her with a deliberate question or made some manifest
effort to include her in topics introduced for her
benefit. These attempts were only too apparent
to her and rasped her soul the more. These people
had such a perplexing way of saying whatever came
into their heads. They were serious and frivolous
at unexpected places. They were not at all “elegant”;
they were natural, but their naturalness was not of
Lena’s kind. Mr. Lenox rose and smiled
at his wife.
“I think I must go and have
a look at my latest son,” he said. “He
is a very interesting person. At present he seems
to be composed of two simple but diverse elements,
a stomach and a sense of humor.” At the
door he paused again and said, “Have you seen
our new coat of arms, Madeline? two kids
rambunctious?”
He went away and sounds of manifest
hilarity floated down the stairs. And then dinner
was announced, and he looked so good-tempered when
he returned and gave Lena his arm that her spirits
were again lifted up. She had never before been
escorted to a meal as though it were an affair of
ceremony.
“I met an old fellow to-day,”
her host began with persistent attempt to draw her
out, “that told me that for two years he had
dined on bread and milk. And then I felt that
I was a favorite of fortune to be able fearlessly
to storm the dining-room. Happy the appendix that
has no history.”
Lena giggled helplessly. Was
it amusement that she saw in Mr. Lenox’s eyes
as he unfolded his napkin and surveyed her?
“It’s an awesome thing,
isn’t it, to be living in a world darkened on
one side by the servant question and on the other by
the appendix, like Scylla and Charybdis?”
She found herself sitting down to
face the mysteries of a meal whose type was different
from any hitherto met in her brief experience of life.
Her internal summing up was, “Of course I can’t
make any impression on Mr. Lenox. He likes the
other kind of woman.”
She looked at Mrs. Lenox, a woman
of restraint and dark hair and straight lines, and
contrasted her with herself, a thing of curves and
sunshine colors. She did not know that a man never
cares for a type of woman, but only for woman in the
concrete. Poor little Lena! When the evening
was over and she found herself at last in her too-splendid
bedroom, she put arms and head down on the dressing-table
and sobbed. These people were simple where she
was complicated and complicated where she was simple.
It was all uncomfortable and different. She thought
of Jim Nolan’s unfrilled conversation, of his
clumsy, rather inane compliments, of his primitive
amoeba-like type of humor. She saw the whole
course of her life of mean shifts and wranglings with
her mother; and though its moral niggardliness was
unappreciated, its physical meagerness sickened her
in contrast to the ease and beauty of these newer
scenes. She must climb out of that life, somehow,
by hook or crook; if this were the alternative, she
must grow to its likeness, no matter how the birth-pangs
hurt. She would face it. She would even
rejoice in the opportunity to study these women and
mold herself to their outward form of bien aise.
She would she would. Faint and far-away
voices came to her, and she wondered if Mr. and Mrs.
Lenox were discussing her and laughing, as she would
do in their place, at her gaucheries. The meaner
you are yourself, the easier it is to believe in the
meanness of others. It was the most godlike of
men who taught the godliness of all men. Lena
could not imagine that these people could either like
or respect her unless she were molded after their pattern
and had as much as they had.
And Miss Elton! She hated Miss
Elton for that irritating calmness, for that easy
appropriation of the good things of life. She
hated with a hate that tingled her spine and shook
her small body. The tragedy of littleness made
her grit her teeth as she thought of the unconscious
girl now going to bed in the next room.
“I’ll get even with her
somehow,” was Miss Lena’s resolve.
“Just let me get the hang of things a little,
and I’ll show her!” Miss Quincy was conscious
that though she as yet lacked knowledge of their world,
she had the advantage of the inheritance of guile.
But things! things! things! Lena
thought a little of the irony of it that
all her life she had pined to be set in luxury, and
yet now and here the very rugs and chairs and soft
lights, the pictures of unrecognized subjects, the
unfamiliar delicacies before her at the table, all
seemed to loom up and crush her into insignificance
by their importance and expensiveness. They were
her masters still.
But it was not Lena’s way to
waste her time on abstractions. While she sat
and watched her fire crumble away into ashes, she was
chiefly occupied with the concrete, and there entered
into her soul and took possession of its empty chambers
and began to mold her to her own purposes the demon
of social ambition, which is not the desire to do or
to be, but rather the longing to appear to be and to
seem to do to take the chaff and leave
the wheat.
Mastered by this powerful spirit,
Lena actually did make great strides in the next few
days. She learned to lounge quite comfortably,
to pretend with verisimilitude, even to chatter a
little, helped chiefly by a certain persistent light-weight
on the part of Mr. Lenox; but the life was hard and
the rewards meager. All the time she suspected
Miss Elton and Mrs. Lenox of despising her, because
she had so much less than they. Their kindliness
was but an added insult.