Amelia Maxwell sat by the front-chamber
window of the great house overlooking the road, and
her own “story-an’-a-half” farther
toward the west. Every day she was alone under
her own roof, save at the times when old lady Knowles
of the great house summoned her for work at fine sewing
or braiding rags. All Amelia’s kin were
dead. Now she was used to their solemn absence,
and sufficiently at one with her own humble way of
life, letting her few acres at the halves, and earning
a dollar here and there with her clever fingers.
She was but little over forty, yet she was aware that
her life, in its keener phases, was already done.
She had had her romance and striven to forget it;
but out of that time pathetic voices now and then
called to her, and old longings awoke, to breathe
for a moment and then sleep again.
Amelia seemed, even to old lady Knowles,
who knew her best, a cheerful, humorous body; but
only Amelia saw the road by which her serenity had
come. Chiefly it was through an inexplicable devotion
to the great house. She could not remember a
time when it was not wonderful to her. While
she was a little girl, living alone with her mother,
she used to sit on the doorstone with her bread and
milk at bedtime, and think of the great house, how
grand it was and large. There was a wonderful
way the sun had of falling, at twilight, across the
pillars of its porch where the elm drooped sweetly,
and in the moonlight it was like a fairy city.
But the morning was perhaps the best moment of all.
The great house was painted a pale yellow, and when
Amelia awoke with the sun in her little unshaded chamber,
she thought how dark the blinds were there, with such
a solemn richness in their green. The flower-beds
in front were beautiful to her; but the back garden,
lying alongside the orchard, and stretching through
tangles of sweet-william and rose, was an enchanted
spot to play in. The child that was, used to wander
there and feel very rich. Now, a woman, she sat
in the great house sewing, and felt rich again.
As it happened, for one of the many times it came to
her, she was thinking what the great house had done
for her. Old lady Knowles had, in her stately
way, been a kind of patron saint, and in that summer,
years ago, when Amelia’s romance died and she
had drooped like a starving plant, Rufus, the old
lady’s son, had seemed to see her trouble and
stood by her. He did not speak of it. He
only took her for long drives, and made his cheerful
presence evident in many ways, and when he died, with
a tragic suddenness, Amelia used selfishly to feel
that he had lived at least long enough to keep her
from failing of that inner blight.
On this day when old lady Knowles
had gone with Ann, her faithful help, to see the cousin
to whom she made pilgrimage once a year, Amelia resolved
to enjoy herself to the full. She laid down her
sewing, from time to time, to look about her at the
poppy-strewn paper, the four-post bed and flowered
tester, the great fireplace with its shining dogs,
and the Venus and Cupid mirror. Over and over
again she had played that the house was hers, and
to-day, through some heralding excitement in the air,
it seemed doubly so. She sat in a dream of housewifely
possession, conning idly over the pleasant things
she might do before the day was over. There was
cold tongue for her dinner, Ann had told her, and a
clear soup, if she liked to heat it. She might
cook vegetables if she chose. And there was the
best of tea to be made out of the china caddy, and
rich cake in the parlor crock. After one such
glad deliberation, she caught her sewing guiltily
up from her lap and began to set compensating stitches.
But even then her conscience slept unstirred.
Old lady Knowles was in no hurry for the work, she
knew, and she would make up for her dreaming in the
account of her day.
There was a sound without. The
gate swung softly shut and a man came up the path.
Amelia, at the glance, rose quickly, dropped her sewing,
and hurried out and down the stairs. The front
door was open, she knew, and though there was never
anything to be afraid of, still the house was in her
charge. At the door she met him, just lifting
his hand to touch the knocker. He was a tall,
weedy fellow of something more than her own age, with
light hair and blue eyes and a strangely arrested look,
as if he obstinately, and against his own advantage,
continued to keep young.
Amelia knew him at once, as he did
her, though it was twenty years since they had met.
“Why, Jared Beale!” she faltered.
He was much moved. The flush
came quickly to his face in a way she had known, and
his eyes softened.
“I should ha’ recognized
ye anywheres, Milly,” he asserted.
She still stood looking at him, unable
to ask him in or to make apology for the lack.
“I went straight to your house
from the train,” he said. “’Twas
all shut up. Don’t anybody live there now?”
“Yes,” answered Amelia,
“somebody lives there.” The red had
come into her cheeks, and her eyes burned brightly.
Then as he looked at her hesitatingly, in the way
he used to look, she trembled a little.
“Come in, Jared,” she
said, retreating a hospitable space. “Come
right in.”
She stood aside, and then, when he
stepped over the sill, led the way into the dining-room,
where there was a cool green light from the darkened
blinds, and the only window open to the sun disclosed
a trembling grapevine and a vista down the garden
path. Amelia drew forward a chair, with a decided
motion.
“Sit down,” she said,
and busied herself with opening a blind.
When she took her own chair opposite
him, she found that he had laid his hat beside him
on the floor, and, with the tips of his fingers together,
was bending forward in an attitude belonging to his
youth. He was regarding her with the slightly
blurred look of his near-sighted eyes, and she began
hastily to speak.
“You stayin’ round these parts?”
“No,” said Jared, “no.
I had to come east on business. There was some
property to be settled up in Beulah, so I thought I’d
jest step down here an’ see how things were.”
“Beulah!” she repeated.
“Why, that’s fifty miles from here!”
“Yes,” returned Jared.
“It’s a matter o’ fifty mile.
Fact is,” he said uneasily, “I didn’t
know how you was fixed. It’s kinder worried
me.”
A flush ran into her face, to the
roots of her pretty hair; yet her frank eyes never
left him. Then her evasive speech belied her look.
“I get along real well.
I s’pose you knew mother wa’n’t with
me now?”
“I ain’t heard a word
from here for seventeen year,” he said, half
bitterly, as if the silence had been hard to bear.
“There’s no way for me to hear now.
The last was from Tom Merrick. He said you’d
begun to go with Rufus Knowles.”
Amelia trembled over her whole body.
“That was a good while ago,” she ventured.
“Yes, ‘twas. A good
many things have come an’ gone. An’
now Rufus is dead - I see his death in an
old paper - an’ here you be, his widder,
livin’ in the old house.”
“Why!” breathed Amelia,
“why!” She choked upon the word, but before
she could deny it he had begun again, in gentle reminiscence.
“’Twon’t harm nobody
to talk over old times a mite, Amelia. Mebbe that’s
what I come on for, though I thought ’twas to
see how you was fixed. I thought mebbe I should
find you livin’ kinder near the wind, an’
mebbe you’d let me look out for you a mite.”
The tears came into Amelia’s
eyes. She looked about her as if she owned the
room, the old china, and the house.
“That’s real good of you,
Jared,” she said movingly. “I sha’n’t
ever forget it. But you see for yourself.
I don’t want for nothin’.”
“I guess we should ha’
thought ‘twas queer, when you went trottin’
by to school,” he said irrelevantly, “if
anybody’d told you you’d reign over the
old Knowles house.”
“Yes,” said Amelia softly,
again looking about her, this time with love and thankfulness,
“I guess they would. You leave your wife
well?” she asked suddenly, perhaps to suggest
the reality of his own house of life.
Jared shook his head.
“She ain’t stepped a step for seven year.”
“Oh, my!” grieved Amelia. “Won’t
she ever be any better?”
“No. We’ve had all
the doctors, eclectic an’ herb besides, an’
they don’t give her no hope. She was a
great driver. We laid up money steady them years
before she was took down. She knew how to make
an’ she knew how to save.”
His face settled into lines of brooding
recollection. Immediately Amelia was aware that
those years had been bitter to him, and that the fruit
of them was stale and dry. She cut by instinct
into a pleasant by-path.
“You play your fiddle any now?”
He started out of his maze at life.
“No,” he owned, “no!”
as if he hardly remembered such a thing had been.
“I dropped that more’n fifteen year ago.”
“Seems if my feet never could
keep still when you played ‘Money Musk,’”
avowed Amelia, her eyes shining. “‘The
Road to Boston,’ too! My! wa’n’t
that grand!”
“’Twas mostly dance-music
I knew,” said Jared. “She never liked
it,” he added, in a burst of weary confidence.
“Your wife?”
“She was a church member, old-fashioned
kind. Didn’t believe in dancin’.
‘The devil’s tunes,’ she called ’em.
Well, mebbe they were; but I kinder liked ’em
myself.”
“Well,” said Amelia, in
a safe commonplace, “I guess there’s some
harm in ’most everything. It’s ‘cordin’
to the way you take it.” Then one of her
quick changes came upon her. The self that played
at life when real life failed her, and so kept youth
alive, awoke to shine in her eyes and flush her pretty
cheek. She looked about the room, as if to seek
concurrence from the hearthside gods. “Jared,”
she said, “you goin’ to stay round here
long?”
He made an involuntary motion toward his hat.
“No, oh, no,” he answered.
“I’m goin’ ’cross lots to the
Junction. I come round the road. I guess
’tain’t more’n four mile along by
the pine woods an’ the b’ilin’ spring,”
he added, smiling at her. “Leastways it
didn’t use to be. I thought if I could get
the seven-o’clock, ’twould take me back
to Boston so ’s I could ketch my train to-night.
She’s kinder dull, out there alone,” he
ended, wearily. “‘Twas some o’ her
property I come to settle up. She’ll want
to hear about it. I never was no kind of a letter-writer.”
Amelia rose.
“I’ll tell you what, then,”
she said, with a sweet decision, “you stay right
here an’ have dinner. I’m all alone
to-day.”
“Ain’t old lady Knowles - ”
He paused decorously, and Amelia laughed. It
seemed to her as if old lady Knowles and the house
would always be beneficently there because they always
had been.
“Law, yes,” she said.
“She’s alive. So’s old Ann.
They’ve gone to Wareham, to spend the day.”
Jared threw back his head and laughed.
“If that don’t make time
stand still,” he said, “nothin’ ever
did. Why, when we was in the Third Reader old
lady Knowles an’ Ann harnessed up one day in
the year an’ drove over to Wareham to spend the
day.”
“Yes,” Amelia sparkled
back at him, “’tis so. They look pretty
much the same, both of ’em.”
“They must be well along in years?”
Amelia had begun putting up the leaves
of the mahogany dining-table. She laughed, a
pretty ripple.
“Well, anyway,” she qualified,
“old Pomp ain’t gone with ’em.
He’s buried out under the August sweet.
They’ve got an old white now. ’Twas
the colt long after you left here.” She
had gone to the dresser and pulled open a drawer.
Those were the every-day tablecloths, fine and good;
but in the drawer above, she knew, was the best damask,
snowdrops and other patterns more wonderful, with
birds and butterflies. She debated but a moment,
and then pulled out a lovely piece that shone with
ironing. “I’ll tell you what it is,
Jared,” she said, returning to spread it on
the table with deft touches, “it’s we that
change, as well as other folks. Ever think o’
that? Ever occur to you old lady Knowles wa’n’t
much over sixty them days when we used to call her
old? ’Twas because we were so young ourselves.
She don’t seem much different to me now from
what she did then.”
“There’s a good deal in
that,” said Jared, rising. “Want I
should draw you up some water out o’ the old
well?”
“Yes. I shall want some
in a minute. I’ll make us a cup o’
coffee. You like that.”
Jared drew the water, and after he
had brought it to her he went out into the back garden;
and, while she moved back and forth from pantry to
table, she caught glimpses of him through the window
as he went about from the bees to the flower-beds,
in a reminiscent wandering. Once he halted under
the sweet-bough and gave one branch a shake, and then,
with an unerring remembrance, he crossed the sward
to the “sopsy-vine” by the wall.
Amelia could not get over the wonder
of having him there. Strangely, he had not changed.
Even his speech had the old neighborly tang. Whether
he had returned to it as to a never-forgotten tune,
she could not know; but it was in her ears, awakening
touches of old harmony. Yet these things she
dared not dwell upon. She put them aside in haste
to live with after he should be gone.
Her preparations were swiftly made,
lest she should lose a moment of his stay, and presently
she went to the door and summoned him.
“Dinner’s ready, Jared!”
It sounded as if she had said it every
day, and she knew why; the words and others like them,
sweet and commonplace, were inwoven with the texture
of her dreams.
Jared came in, an eager look upon
his face, as if he also were in a maze, and they sat
down at the table, where the viands were arranged in
a beautiful order. Jared laid down his knife and
fork.
“Well,” said he, “old
Ann ain’t lost her faculty. This tastes
for all the world just as old lady Knowles’s
things used to when I come over here to weed the garden
an’ stayed to dinner.”
Amelia lifted a thankful look.
“I’m proper glad you’ve
come back, Jared,” she said simply. “I
never had any expectation of seein’ you again,
leastways not in this world.”
Jared spoke irrelevantly: -
“There’s a good many things
I’ve wanted to talk over with you, ’Melia,
from time to time. Now there’s Arthur.”
Amelia nodded.
“He ain’t done very well,
has he?” she inquired. “I never knew
much about him after he moved away; but seems if I
heard he’d took to drink.”
“That’s it. Arthur
was as good a boy as ever stepped, but he got led
away when he wa’n’t old enough to know
t’other from which. Well, I’ve always
stood by him, ’Melia. Folks say he’s
only an adopted brother. ‘What you want
to hang on to him for, an’ send good money after
bad?’ That’s what they say. Well,
what if he is an adopted brother? Father an’
mother set by him, an’ I set by him, too.”
He had a worried look, and his tone
rang fretfully, as if it continued a line of dreary
argument.
“Of course you set by him, Jared,”
said Amelia, almost indignantly. “I shouldn’t
feel the same towards you if you didn’t.”
Jared was deep in the relief of his pathetic confidences.
“Arthur married young, an’
folks said he’d no business to, nothin’
to live on, an’ his habits bein’ what
they were. Well, I couldn’t dispute that.
But when he got that fall, so ’t he laid there
paralyzed, I wanted to take the cars an’ go
right on to York State an’ see him. I didn’t.
I couldn’t get away; but I sent him all I could
afford to, an’ I’m goin’ to keep
on sendin’ jest as long as I’m above ground.
An’ I’ve made my will an’ provided
for him.”
His voice had a fractious tone, as
if he combated an unseen tyrant. Amelia dared
not speak. At a word, she felt, he might say too
much. Now Jared was looking at her in a bright
appeal, as if, sure as he was of her sympathy, he
besought the expression of it.
“There ain’t a soul but
you knows I’ve made my will, ’Melia,”
he said. “There’s suthin’ in
it for you, too.”
Amelia shrank, and her eyes betrayed
her terror; it was as if she could carry on their
relation together quite happily, but as soon as the
judgment of the world were challenged she must hide
it away, like a treasure in a box.
“No, Jared!” she breathed.
“No, oh, no! Don’t you do such a thing
as that.”
Jared laughed a little, but half sadly.
“Seems kinder queer to me now,”
he owned, “now I see you settin’ here,
only to put out your hand an’ take a thing if
you want it. Did Rufus leave a will?”
Amelia shrank still smaller.
“No,” she trembled; “no, he didn’t
leave a will.”
“Well, I sha’n’t
change mine, ’Melia.” He spoke with
an ostentatious lightness, but Amelia was aware that
his mind labored in heavy seas of old regret, buoyed
by the futile hope of compensating her age for the
joys her youth had lacked. “I guess I’ll
let it stand as ‘tis, an’, long as you
don’t need what I’ve left ye, why, you
can put it into some kind o’ folderol an’
enjoy it. You was always one to enjoy things.”
They sat a long time at the table,
and Jared took, as he said, more coffee than was good
for him, and praised the making of it. Then he
followed her about as she cleared away, and helped
her a little with an awkward hand. Amelia left
the dishes in the sink.
“I won’t clear up till
night,” she said. “We ain’t
talked out yet.”
She led the way into the garden, and
under the grape-trellis, where the tall lilac-hedge
shut them from the sight of passers-by, she gave him
old lady Knowles’s great armchair, and took the
little one that was hers when she came over to sit
a while with her old friend. The talk went wandering
back as if it sought the very sources of youth and
life; but somehow it touched commonplaces only.
Yet Amelia had the sense, and she was sure he had,
too, of wandering there hand in hand, of finding no
surprises, but only the old things grown more dear,
the old loyalties the more abiding.
Suddenly he spoke, haltingly, voicing her own conviction.
“Don’t seem but a minute,
‘Melia, sence we set talkin’ things over,
much as we do now. Seems if we hadn’t been
so fur separated all these years.”
“No,” said Amelia, with
her beautiful sincerity, “I don’t believe
we have been, Jared. Maybe that’s how it
is when folks die. We can’t see ’em
nor speak to ’em, but maybe they go right along
bein’ what we like best. I know ’tis
so with mother. Seems if, if she walked in here
this minute, we shouldn’t have so very many
stitches to take up. Sometimes I’ve thought
all I should say would be, ’Well, mother, you’ve
got back, ain’t you?’ Kinder like that.”
The beautiful afternoon light lay
on the grass and turned the grapevine to a tender
green. Jared looked upon the land as if he were
treasuring it in his heart for a day of loss.
When the sun was low, and green and red were flaming
in the west, he rose.
“Well, ’Melia,” he said, “I’ve
seen you. Now I’ll go.”
Amelia stirred, too, recalled to service.
“I want to make you a cup o’
tea,” she said. “You get me a pail
o’ fresh water, Jared. ’Twon’t
take but a minute.”
He followed her about, this time,
while she set the table; and again they broke bread
together. When he rose from his chair now, it
was for good.
“Well, ’Melia,” he said; and she
gave him her hand.
She went with him to the door, and
stood there as he started down the path. Half-way
he hesitated, and then came back to her. His eyes
were soft and kindly.
“‘Melia,” he said,
“I ain’t told you the half, an’ I
dunno ’s I can tell it now. I never knew
how things were with you. I’ve laid awake
nights, wonderin’. You never was very strong.
‘Why,’ says I to myself many a night when
I’d hear the wind blowin’ ag’inst
the winder, ’mebbe she’s had to go out
to work. Mebbe she ain’t got a place to
lay her head.’”
He was rushing on in a full tide of
confidence, and she recalled him. She leaned
forward to him, out of the doorway of her beautiful
house, and spoke in an assuring tone.
“Don’t you worry no more,
Jared. I’m safe an’ well content,
an’ you ain’t got nothin’ to regret.
An’ when we meet again, - I guess ’twon’t
be here, dear, it’ll be t’other side, - why,
we’ll sit down an’ have another dish o’
talk.”
Then they shook hands again, and Jared
walked away. When he looked back from the top
of Schoolma’am Hill, she was still in the doorway,
and she waved her hand to him.
After that last glimpse of him, Amelia
went soberly about the house, setting it in order.
When her dishes were washed and she had fed old Trot,
the cat, forgotten all day, she rolled up the fine
tablecloth and left it behind the porch-door, where
she could take it on her way home. Then she sat
down on the front steps and waited for old lady Knowles.
Amelia did not think very much about her day.
It was still a possession to be laid aside and pondered
over all the hours and days until she died. For
there would be no other day like it.
The dusk fell and the sounds of night
began to rise in their poignant summoning of memory
and hope. The past and the present seemed one
to her in a beautiful dream; yet it was not so much
a dream as life itself, a warm reality. Presently
there came the slow thud of horse’s feet, and
the chaise turned in at the yard. Old lady Knowles
was in it, sitting prettily erect, as she had driven
away, and Ann was peering forward, as she always did,
to see if the house had burned down in their absence.
John Trueman, who lived “down the road,”
was lounging along behind. They had called him
as they passed, and bade him come to “tend the
horse.” Amelia rose and shook herself free
from the web of her dream. She hurried forward
and at the horse-block offered old lady Knowles her
hand.
“Anything happened?” asked
old Ann, making her way past to the kitchen.
Amelia only smiled at her, but she
followed old lady Knowles in at the porch-door.
“We’ve had a very enjoyable
day, Amelia,” said the old lady, untying her
bonnet-strings. “Suppose you lay this on
the table. Ann must brush it before it’s
put away. What is it? Child, child, what
is it?”
Amelia had taken a fold of her old
friend’s skirt. It would have seemed to
her a liberty to touch her hand.
“Mis’ Knowles,”
she said, “I’ve had company. ’Twas
somebody to see me, an’ I got dinner here, an’
supper, too, an’ I used your best tablecloth,
an’ I’m goin’ to do it up so ‘t
Ann won’t know. An’ I acted for all
the world as if ’twas my own house.”
Old lady Knowles laughed a little.
She had never been a woman to whom small things seemed
large, and now very few things were of any size at
all.
“Who was it, Amelia?” she asked.
“Who was your company?”
There was a moment’s silence,
and Amelia heard her own heart beat. But she
answered quietly, -
“’Twas Jared Beale.”
There was silence again while old
lady Knowles thought back over the years. When
she spoke, her voice was very soft and kindly.
“You are a good girl, Amelia.
You’ve always been a good girl. Run home,
child, now, and come to-morrow. Good-night.”
Amelia, out in the path a moment afterwards,
the tablecloth under her arm, could hardly believe
in what had surely happened to her. Old lady
Knowles had bent forward to her; her soft lips had
touched Amelia’s cheek.