Eleanor did not leave for New York
the following day. Neither did she see Harold
Phipps when he arrived on the morning train. His
anxious inquiries over the telephone were met by Rose’s
cool assurance that Miss Bartlett was spending the
week-end with her, and that she would write and explain
her silly telegram. His demand for an immediate
interview was parried with the excuse that Miss Bartlett
was confined to her bed with a severe headache and
could not see any one. Without saying so directly,
Rose managed to convey the impression that Miss Bartlett
was quite indifferent to his presence in the city
and not at all sure that she would be able to see
him at all.
This was an interpretation of the
situation decidedly more liberal than the facts warranted.
Even after Eleanor had been served with the unpalatable
truth, generously garnished with unpleasant gossip,
she still clung to her belief in Harold and the conviction
that he would be able to explain everything when she
saw him. Quin’s report of Madam’s
offer to send her to New York was received in noncommittal
silence. She would agree to nothing, she declared,
until she saw Harold, her only concession being that
she would stay in bed until the afternoon and not see
him before evening.
About noon a messenger-boy brought
her a box of flowers and a bulky letter. The
latter had evidently been written immediately after
Harold’s talk with Rose, and he made the fatal
mistake of concluding, from her remarks, that Eleanor
had changed her mind after sending the telegram and
had not come to Chicago. He therefore gave free
rein to his imagination, describing in burning rhetoric
how he had received her message Saturday night just
as he was retiring, how he tossed impatiently on his
bed all night, and rose at dawn to be at the station
when the train came in. He pictured vividly his
ecstasy of expectation, his futile search, his bitter
disappointment. He had dropped everything, he
declared, to take the next train to Kentucky to find
out what had changed her plans, and to persuade her
to be married at once and return with him to Chicago.
The epistle ended with a love rhapsody that deserved
a better fate than to be torn into shreds and consigned
to the waste-basket.
“Tell the boy not to wait!”
was Eleanor’s furious instruction. “Tell
him there’s no answer now or ever!”
Then she pitched the flowers after
the note, locked her door, and refused to admit any
one for the rest of the day.
After that her one desire was to get
away. She felt utterly humiliated, disillusioned,
disgraced, and her sole hope for peace lay in the further
humiliation of accepting Madam’s offer and trying
to go on with her work. But even here she met
an obstacle. A letter arrived from Papa Claude,
saying that he would not be able to get possession
of the little apartment until December first, a delay
that necessitated Eleanor’s remaining with the
Martels for another month.
The situation was a delicate and a
difficult one. Eleanor was more than willing
to forgo the luxuries to which she had been accustomed
and was even willing to share Rose’s untidy
bedroom; but the knowledge that she was adding another
weight to Cass’s already heavy burden was intolerable
to her. To make things worse, she was besieged
with notes and visits and telephone calls from various
emissaries sent out by her grandmother.
“I’ll go perfectly crazy
if they don’t leave me alone!” she declared
one night to Quin. “They act as if studying
for the stage were the wickedest thing in the world.
Aunt Isobel was here all morning, harping on my immortal
soul until I almost hoped I didn’t have one.
This afternoon Aunt Flo came and warned me against
getting professional notions in my head, and talked
about my social position, and what a blow it would
be to the family. Then, to cap the climax, Uncle
Ranny had the nerve to telephone and urge me against
taking any step that would break my grandmother’s
heart. Uncle Ranny! Can you beat that?”
“I’d chuck the whole bunch
for a while,” was Quin’s advice. “Why
don’t you let their standards go to gallagher
and live up to your own?”
“That’s what I want to
do, Quin,” she said earnestly. “My
standards are just as good as theirs, every bit.
I’ve got terrifically high ideals. Nobody
knows how serious I feel about the whole thing.
It isn’t just a silly whim, as grandmother thinks;
it’s the one thing in the world I care about now.”
Quin started to speak, reconsidered
it, and whistled softly instead. He had formed
a Spartan resolve to put aside his own claims for the
present, and be in word and deed that “best
friend” to whom he had urged Eleanor to come
in time of trouble. With heroic self-control,
he set himself to meet her problems, even going so
far as to encourage her spirit of independence and
to help her build air-castles that at present were
her only refuge from despair.
“Just think of all the wonderful
things I can do if I succeed,” she said.
“Papa Claude need never take another pupil, and
Myrna can go to college, and Cass and Fan Loomis can
get married.”
“And don’t forget Rose,”
suggested Quin, to keep up the interest. “You
must do something handsome for her. She’s
a great girl, Rose is!”
Eleanor looked at him curiously, and
the smallest of puckers appeared between her perfectly
arched brows. Quin saw it at once, and decided
that Rose’s recent handling of Mr. Phipps had
met with disfavor, and he sighed as he thought of
the hold the older man still had on Eleanor.
During the next difficult weeks Quin
devoted all his spare time to the grateful occupation
of diverting the Martels’ woe-begone little guest.
Hardly a day passed that he did not suggest some excursion
that would divert her without bringing her into contact
with her own social world, from which she shrank with
aversion. On Sundays and half-holidays he took
her on long trolley rides to queer out-of-the-way places
where she had never been before: to Zachary Taylor’s
grave, and George Rogers Clark’s birthplace,
to the venerable tree in Iroquois Park that bore the
carved inscription, “D. Boone, 1735.”
One Sunday morning they went to Shawnee Park and rented
a rowboat, in which they followed the windings of the
Ohio River below the falls, and had innumerable adventures
that kept them out until sundown.
Eleanor had never before had so much
liberty. She came and went as she pleased; and
if she missed a meal the explanation that she was out
with Quin was sufficient. Sometimes when the
weather was good she would walk over to Central Park
and meet him when he came home in the evening.
They would sit under the bare trees and talk, or look
over the books he had brought her from the library.
At first she had found his selections
a tame substitute for her recent highly spiced literary
diet; but before long she began to take a languid
interest in them. They invariably had to do with
outdoor things stars and flowers, birds
and beasts, and adventures in foreign lands.
“Here’s a jim-dandy!”
Quin would say enthusiastically. “It’s
all about bees. I can’t pronounce the guy
that wrote it, but, take it from me, he’s got
the dope all right.”
It was in the long hours of the day,
when Eleanor was in the house alone, that she faced
her darkest problems. She had been burnt so badly
in her recent affair that she wanted nothing more
to do with fire; yet she was chilled and forlorn without
it. With all her courage she tried to banish
the unworthy image of Harold Phipps, but his melancholy
eyes still exercised their old potent charm, and the
memory of his low, insistent tones still echoed in
her ears. She came to the tragic conclusion that
she was the victim of a hopeless infatuation that would
follow her to her grave.
So obsessed was she by the thought
of her shattered love affair that she failed to see
that a troubled conscience was equally responsible
for her restlessness. Her life-long training
in acquiescence and obedience was at grips with her
desire to live her own life in her own way. She
had not realized until she made the break how much
she cared for the family approval, how dependent she
was on the family advice and assistance, how hideous
it was to make people unhappy. Now that she was
about to obtain her freedom, she was afraid of it.
Suppose she did not make good? Suppose she had
no talent, after all? Suppose Papa Claude was
as visionary about her career as he was about everything
else? At such times a word of discouragement
would have broken her spirit and sent her back to bondage.
“Would you go on with it?”
she asked Quin, time and again.
“Sure,” said Quin stoutly;
“you’ll never be satisfied until you try
it out.”
“But suppose I’m a failure?”
“Well, then you’ve got
it out of your system, and won’t have to go
through life thinking about the big success you’d
have been if you’d just had your chance.”
She was not satisfied with his answer,
but it had to suffice. While he never discouraged
her, she felt that he shared the opinion of the family
that her ambition was a caprice to be indulged and
got rid of, the sooner the better.
The first day of December brought
word from Claude Martel that the apartment was ready.
Eleanor left on twenty-four hours’ notice, and
it required the combined efforts of both families
to get her off. She had refused up to the last
to see her grandmother, but had yielded to united
pressure and written a stiff good-by note in which
she thanked her for advancing the money, and added not
without a touch of bitterness that it would
all be spent for the purpose intended.
Randolph Bartlett took her to the
station in his car, and Miss Isobel met them there
with a suit-case full of articles that she feared Eleanor
had failed to provide.
“I put in some overshoes,”
she said, fluttering about like a distracted hen whose
adopted duckling unexpectedly takes to water.
“I also fixed up a medicine-case and a sewing
basket. I knew you would never think of them.
And, dear, I know how you hate heavy underwear, but
pneumonia is so prevalent. You must promise me
not to take cold if you can possibly avoid it.”
Eleanor promised. Somehow, Aunt
Isobel, with her anxious face and her reddened eyelids,
had never seemed so pathetic before.
“I’ll write to you, auntie,”
she said reassuringly; “and you mustn’t
worry.”
“Don’t write to me,”
whispered Miss Isobel tremulously. “Write
to mother. Just a line now and then to let her
know you think of her. She’s quite feeble,
Nellie, and she talks about you from morning until
night.”
Eleanor’s face hardened.
She evidently did not enjoy imagining the nature of
Madam’s discourse. However, she squeezed
Aunt Isobel’s hand and said she would write.
Then Quin arrived with the ticket
and the baggage-checks, the train was called, and
Eleanor was duly embraced and wept over.
“We won’t go through the
gates,” said Mr. Ranny, with consideration for
Miss Isobel’s tearful condition. “Quin
will get you aboard all right. Good-by, kiddie!”
Eleanor stumbled after Quin with many
a backward glance. Both Aunt Isobel and Uncle
Ranny seemed to have acquired haloes of kindness and
affection, and she felt like a selfish ingrate.
She looked at the lunch-box in her hand, and thought
of Rose rising at dawn to fix it before she went to
work. She remembered the little gifts Cass and
Myrna and Edwin had slipped in her bag. How good
they had all been to her, and how she was going to
miss them! Now that she was actually embarked
on her great adventure, a terrible misgiving seized
her.
“Train starts in two minutes,
boss!” warned the porter, as Quin helped Eleanor
aboard and piloted her to her seat.
“You couldn’t hold it
up for half an hour, could you?” asked Quin.
Then, as he glanced down and met Eleanor’s eyes
brimming with all those recent tendernesses, his carefully
practised stoicism received a frightful jolt.
As the “All aboard!” sounded,
she clutched his sleeve in sudden panic.
“Oh, Quin, I know I’m
going to be horribly lonesome and homesick. I I
wish you were going too!”
“All right! I’ll go! Why not?”
“But you can’t! I was fooling.
You must get off this instant!”
“May I come on later? Say in the spring?”
“Yes, yes! But get off now! Quick,
we are moving!”
She had almost to push him down the
aisle and off the steps. Then, as the train gained
speed, instead of looking forward to the wide fields
of freedom stretching before her, she looked wistfully
back to the disconsolate figure on the platform, and,
with a sigh that was half for him and half for herself,
she lifted her fingers to her lips and rashly blew
him a good-by kiss.