In the castle there lived
A knight.
Ayala was compelled to consent to
remain at Stalham. The “I don’t think”
which she repeated so often was, of course, of no avail
to her. Sir Harry would be angry, and Lady Albury
would be disgusted, were she to go, and
so she remained. There was to be a week before
Colonel Stubbs would come, and she was to remain not
only for the week but also for some short time afterwards, so
that there might be yet a few days left of hunting
under the Colonel. It could not, surely, have
been doubtful to her after she had read that letter, with
the postscript, that if she remained her
happiness would be insured! He would not have
come again and insisted on her being there to receive
him if nothing were to come of it. And yet she
had fought for permission to return to Kingsbury Crescent
after her little fashion, and had at last yielded,
as she told Lady Albury, because Sir Harry
seemed to wish it. “Of course he wishes
it,” said Lady Albury. “He has got
the pony on purpose, and nobody likes being disappointed
when he has done a thing so much as Sir Harry.”
Ayala, delighted as she was, did not make her secret
known. She was fluttered, and apparently uneasy, so
that her friend did not know what to make of it, or
which way to take it. Ayala’s secret was
to herself a secret still to be maintained with holy
reticence. It might still be possible that Jonathan
Stubbs should never say another word to her of his
love. If he did, why then all the world
might know. Then there would be no secret.
Then she could sit and discuss her love, and his love,
all night long with Lady Albury, if Lady Albury would
listen to her. In the meantime the secret must
be a secret. To confess her love, and then to
have her love disappointed, that would
be death to her!
And thus it went on through the whole
week, Lady Albury not quite knowing what to make of
it. Once she did say a word, thinking that she
would thus extract the truth, not as yet understanding
how potent Ayala could be to keep her secret.
“That man has, at any rate, been very true to
you,” she said. Ayala frowned, and shook
her head, and would not say a word upon the subject.
“If she did not mean to take him now, surely
she would have gone,” Lady Albury said to her
husband.
“She is a pretty little girl
enough,” said Sir Harry, “but I doubt
whether she is worth all the trouble.”
“Of course she is not.
What pretty little girl ever was? But as long
as he thinks her worth it the trouble has to be taken.”
“Of course she’ll accept him?”
“I am not at all so sure of
it. She has been made to believe that you wanted
her to stay, and therefore she has stayed. She
is quite master enough of herself to ride out hunting
with him again and then to refuse him.”
And so Lady Albury doubted up to the Sunday, and all
through the Sunday, up to the very moment
when the last preparations were to be made for the
man’s arrival.
The train reached the Stalham Road
Station at 7 P.M., and the distance was five miles.
On Sundays they usually dined at Stalham at 7.30.
The hour fixed was to be 8 on this occasion, and
even with this there would be some bustling.
The house was now nearly empty, there being no visitors
there except Mr. and Mrs. Gosling and Ayala.
Lady Albury gave many thoughts to the manner of the
man’s reception, and determined at last that
Jonathan should have an opportunity of saying a word
to Ayala immediately on his arrival if he so pleased.
“Mind you are down at half-past seven,”
she said to Ayala, coming to her in her bedroom.
“I thought we should not dine till eight.”
“There is no knowing. Sir
Harry is so fussy. I shall be down, and I should
like you to be with me.” Then Ayala promised.
“And mind you have his frock on.”
“You’ll make me wear it
out before any one else sees it,” she said,
laughing. But again she promised. She got
a glimmer of light from it all, nearly understanding
what Lady Albury intended. But against such intentions
as these she had no reason to fight. Why should
she not be ready to see him? Why should she not
have on her prettiest dress when he came? If
he meant to say the word, then her prettiest
dress would all be too poor, and her readiest ears
not quick enough to meet so great a joy. If he
were not to say the other word, then should
she shun him by staying behind, or be afraid of the
encounter? Should she be less gaily attired because
it would be unnecessary to please his eye?
Oh, no! “I’ll be
there at half-past seven,” she said. “But
I know the train will be late, and Sir Harry won’t
get his dinner till nine.”
“Then, my dear, great as the
Colonel is, he may come in and get what is left for
him in the middle. Sir Harry will not wait a minute
after eight.”
The buxom woman came and dressed her.
The buxom woman probably knew what was going to happen; was
perhaps more keenly alive to the truth than Lady Albury
herself. “We have taken great care of it,
haven’t we, Miss?” she said, as she fastened
the dress behind. “It’s just as new
still.”
“New!” said Ayala.
“It has got to be new with me for the next two
years.”
“I don’t know much about
that, Miss. Somebody will have to pay for a good
many more new dresses before two years are over, I
take it.” To this Ayala made no answer,
but she was quite sure that the buxom woman intended
to imply that Colonel Stubbs would have to pay for
the new dresses.
Punctually at half-past seven she
was in the drawing-room, and there she remained alone
for a few minutes. She endeavoured to sit down
and be quiet, but she found it impossible to compose
herself. Almost immediately he would be there,
and then, as she was quite sure, her
fate would be known to her instantly. She knew
that the first moment of his presence in the room
with her would tell her everything. If that were
told to her which she desired to hear, everything
should be re-told to him as quickly. But, if it
were otherwise, then she thought that when the moment
came she would still have strength enough to hide
her sorrow. If he had come simply for the hunting, simply
that they two might ride a-hunting together so that
he might show to her that all traces of his disappointment
were gone, then she would know how to teach
him to think that her heart towards him was as it
had ever been. The thing to be done would be so
sad as to call from her tears almost of blood in her
solitude; but it should be so done that no one should
know that any sorrow such as this had touched her
bosom. Not even to Lucy should this secret be
told.
There was a clock on the mantelpiece
to which her eye was continually turned. It now
wanted twenty minutes to eight, and she was aware that
if the train was punctual he might now be at the hall-door.
At this moment Lady Albury entered the room.
“Your knight has come at last,” she said;
“I hear his wheels on the gravel.”
“He is no knight of mine,”
said Ayala, with that peculiar frown of hers.
“Whose ever knight he is, there
he is. Knight or not, I must go and welcome him.”
Then Lady Albury hurried out of the room and Ayala
was again alone. The door had been left partly
open, so that she could hear the sound of voices and
steps across the inner hall or billiard-room.
There were the servants waiting upon him, and Sir
Harry bidding him to go up and dress at once so as
not to keep the whole house waiting, and Lady Albury
declaring that there was yet ample time as the dinner
certainly would not be on the table for half-an-hour.
She heard it all, and heard him to whom all her thoughts
were now given laughing as he declared that he had
never been so cold in his life, and that he certainly
would not dress himself till he had warmed his fingers.
She was far away from the door, not having stirred
from the spot on which she was standing when Lady
Albury left her; but she fancied that she heard the
murmur of some slight whisper, and she told herself
that Lady Albury was telling him where to seek her.
Then she heard the sound of the man’s step across
the billiard-room, she heard his hand upon the door,
and there he was in her presence!
When she thought of it all afterwards,
as she did so many scores of times, she never could
tell how it had occurred. When she accused him
in her playfulness, telling him that he had taken for
granted that of which he had had no sign, she never
knew whether there had been aught of truth in her
accusation. But she did know that he had hardly
closed the door behind him when she was in his arms,
and felt the burning love of his kisses upon her cheeks.
There had been no more asking whether he was to have
any other answer. Of that she was quite sure.
Had there been such further question she would have
answered him, and some remembrance of her own words
would have remained with her. She was quite sure
that she had answered no question. Some memory
of mingled granting and denying, of repulses and assents
all quickly huddled upon one another, of attempts
to escape while she was so happy to remain, and then
of a deluge of love terms which fell upon her ears, “his
own one, his wife, his darling, his Ayala, at last
his own sweet Ayala,” this was what
remained to her of that little interview. She
had not spoken a word. She thought she was sure
of that. Her breath had left her, so
that she could not speak. And yet it had been
taken for granted, though on former occasions
he had pleaded with slow piteous words! How had
it been that he had come to know the truth so suddenly?
Then she became aware that Lady Albury was speaking
to Mrs. Gosling in the billiard-room outside, detaining
her other guest till the scene within should be over.
At that moment she did speak a word which she remembered
afterwards. “Go; go; you must
go now.” Then there had been one other soft
repulse, one other sweet assent, and the man had gone.
There was just a moment for her, in which to tell
herself that the Angel of Light had come for her,
and had taken her to himself.
Mrs. Gosling, who was a pretty little
woman, crept softly into the room, hiding her suspicion
if she had any. Lady Albury put out her hand
to Ayala behind the other woman’s back, not raising
it high, but just so that her young friend might touch
it if she pleased. Ayala did touch it, sliding
her little fingers into the offered grasp. “I
thought it would be so,” whispered Lady Albury.
“I thought it would be so.”
“What the deuce are you all
up to,” said Sir Harry, bursting into the room.
“It’s eight now, and that man has only
just gone up to his room.”
“He hasn’t been in the
house above five minutes yet,” said Lady Albury,
“and I think he has been very quick.”
Ayala thought so too.
During dinner and afterwards they
were very full of hunting for the next day. It
was wonderful to Ayala that there should be thought
for such a trifle when there was such a thing as love
in the world. While there was so much to fill
her heart, how could there be thoughts of anything
else? But Jonathan, he was Jonathan
to her now, her Jonathan, her Angel of Light, was
very keen upon the subject. There was but one
week left. He thought that Croppy might manage
three days as there was to be but one week. Croppy
would have leisure and rest enough afterwards.
“It’s a little sharp,” said Sir Harry.
“Oh, pray don’t,” said Ayala.
But Lady Albury and Jonathan together
silenced Sir Harry, and Mrs. Gosling proved the absurdity
of the objection by telling the story of a pony who
had carried a lady three days running. “I
should not have liked to be either the pony, or the
owner, or the lady,” said Sir Harry. But
he was silenced. What did it matter though the
heavens fell, so that Ayala was pleased? What
is too much to be done for a girl who proves herself
to be an angel by accepting the right man at the right
time?
She had but one moment alone with
her lover that night. “I always loved you,”
she whispered to him as she fled away. The Colonel
did not quite understand the assertion, but he was
contented with it as he sat smoking his cigar with
Sir Harry and Mr. Gosling.
But, though she could have but one
word that night with her lover, there were many words
between her and Lady Albury before they went to bed.
“And so, like wise people, you have settled it
all between you at last,” said Lady Albury.
“I don’t know whether he is wise.”
“We will take that for granted. At any
rate he has been very true.”
“Oh, yes.”
“And you, you knew all about it.”
“No; I knew nothing.
I did not think he would ever ask again. I only
hoped.”
“But why on earth did you give him so much trouble?”
“I can’t tell you,” said Ayala,
shaking her head.
“Do you mean that there is still a secret?”
“No, not that. I would
tell you anything that I could tell, because you have
been so very, very good to me. But I cannot tell.
I cannot explain even to myself. Oh, Lady Albury,
why have you been so good to me?”
“Shall I say because I have loved you?”
“Yes; if it be true.”
“But it is not true.”
“Oh, Lady Albury!”
“I do love you dearly.
I shall always love you now. I do hope I shall
love you now, because you will be his wife. But
I have not been kind to you as you call it because
I loved you.”
“Then why?”
“Because I loved him. Cannot
you understand that? Because I was anxious that
he should have all that he wanted. Was it not
necessary that there should be some house in which
he might meet you? Could there have been much
of a pleasant time for wooing between you in your
aunt’s drawing-room in Kingsbury Crescent?”
“Oh, no,” said Ayala.
“Could he have taken you out
hunting unless you had been here? How could he
and you have known each other at all unless I had been
kind to you? Now you will understand.”
“Yes,” said Ayala, “I understand
now. Did he ask you?”
“Well, he consulted
me. We talked you all over, and made up our minds,
between us, that if we petted you down here that would
be the best way to win you. Were we not right?”
“It was a very nice way. I do so like to
be petted.”
“Sir Harry was in the secret,
and he did his petting by buying the frock. That
was a success too, I think.”
“Did he care about that, Lady Albury?”
“What he?”
“Jonathan,” said Ayala,
almost stumbling over the word, as she pronounced
it aloud for the first time.
“I think he liked it. But
whether he would have persevered without it you must
ask yourself. If he tells you that he would never
have said another word to you only for this frock,
then I think you ought to thank Sir Harry, and give
him a kiss.”
“I am sure he will not tell
me that,” said Ayala, with mock indignation.
“And now, my dear, as I have
told you all my secret, and have explained to you
how we laid our heads together, and plotted against
you, I think you ought to tell me your secret.
Why was it that you refused him so pertinaciously
on that Sunday when you were out walking, and yet
you knew your mind about it so clearly as soon as he
arrived to-day?”
“I can’t explain it,” said Ayala.
“You must know that you liked him.”
“I always liked him.”
“You must have more than liked on that Sunday.”
“I adored him.”
“Then I don’t understand you.”
“Lady Albury, I think I fell
in love with him the first moment I saw him.
The Marchesa took me to a party in London, and there
he was.”
“Did he say anything to you then?”
“No. He was very funny, as
he often is. Don’t you know his way?
I remember every word he said to me. He came up
without any introduction and ordered me to dance with
him.”
“And you did?”
“Oh yes. Whatever he told
me I should have done. Then he scolded me because
I did not stand up quick enough. And he invented
some story about a woman who was engaged to him and
would not marry him because he had red hair and his
name was Jonathan. I knew it was all a joke,
and yet I hated the woman.”
“That must have been love at first sight.”
“I think it was. From that
day to this I have always been thinking about him.”
“And yet you refused him twice over?”
“Yes.”
“At ever so long an interval?”
Ayala bobbed her head at her companion. “And
why?”
“Ah; that I can’t
tell. I shall try to tell him some day, but I
know that I never shall. It was because .
But, Lady Albury, I cannot tell it. Did you ever
picture anything to yourself in a waking dream?”
“Build castles in the air?” suggested
Lady Albury.
“That’s just it.”
“Very often. But they never come true.”
“Never have come true, exactly.
I had a castle in the air, and in the castle lived
a knight.” She was still ashamed to say
that the inhabitant of the castle was an Angel of
Light. “I wanted to find out whether he
was the knight who lived there. He was.”
“And you were not quite sure till to-day?”
“I have been sure a long time.
But when we walked out on that Sunday I was such an
idiot that I did not know how to tell him. Oh,
Lady Albury, I was such a fool! What should I
have done if he hadn’t come back?”
“Sent for him.”
“Never; never!
I should have been miserable always! But now I
am so happy.”
“He is the real knight?”
“Oh, yes; indeed. He is
the real, real knight, that has always been
living in my castle.”
Ayala’s promotion was now so
firmly fixed that the buxom female came to assist
her off with her clothes when Lady Albury had left
her. From this time forth it was supposed that
such assistance would be necessary. “I
take it, Miss,” said the buxom female, “there
will be a many new dresses before the end of this
time two years.” From which Ayala was quite
sure that everybody in the house knew all about it.
But it was now, now when she was quite
alone, that the great sense of her happiness came
to her. In the fulness of her dreams there had
never been more than the conviction that such a being,
and none other, could be worthy of her love.
There had never been faith in the hope that such a
one would come to her, never even though
she would tell herself that angels had come down from
heaven and had sought in marriage the hands of the
daughters of men. Her dreams had been to her
a barrier against love rather than an encouragement.
But now he that she had in truth dreamed of had come
for her. Then she brought out the Marchesa’s
letter and read that description of her lover.
Yes; he was all that; true, brave, tender, a
very hero. But then he was more than all that, for
he was in truth the very “Angel of Light.”