When Souchey left the room with the
note, Nina went to the door and listened. She
heard him turn the lock below, and heard his step out
in the courtyard, and listened till she knew that he
was crossing the square. Then she ran quickly
up to her own room, put on her hat and her old worn
cloak the cloak which aunt Sophie had given
her and returned once more into the parlour.
She looked round the room with anxious eyes, and seeing
her desk, she took the key from her pocket and put
it into the lock. Then there came a thought into
her mind as to the papers; but she resolved that the
thought need not arrest her, and she left the key
in the lock with the papers untouched. Then she
went to the door of her father’s room, and stood
there for a moment with her hand upon the latch.
She tried it ever so gently, but she found that the
door was bolted. The bolt, she knew, was on her
side, and she could withdraw it; but she did not do
so; seeming to take the impediment as though it were
a sufficient bar against her entrance. Then she
ran down the stairs rapidly, opened the front door,
and found herself out in the night air.
It was a cold windy night not
so late, indeed, as to have made her feel that it
was night, had she not come from the gloom of the dark
parlour, and the glimmer of her one small lamp.
It was now something beyond the middle of October,
and at present it might be eight o’clock.
She knew that there would be moonlight, and she looked
up at the sky; but the clouds were all dark, though
she could see that they were moving along with the
gusts of wind. It was very cold, and she drew
her cloak closer about her as she stepped out into
the archway.
Up above her, almost close to her
in the gloom of the night, there was the long colonnade
of the palace, with the lights glimmering in the windows
as they always glimmered. She allowed herself
for a moment to think who might be there in those
rooms as she had so often thought before.
It was possible that Anton might be there. He
had been there once before at this time in the evening,
as he himself had told her. Wherever he might
be, was he thinking of her? But if he thought
of her, he was thinking of her as one who had deceived
him, who had tried to rob him. Ah! the day would
soon come in which he would learn that he had wronged
her. When that day should come, would his heart
be bitter within him? “He will certainly
be unhappy for a time,” she said; “but
he is hard and will recover, and she will console him.
It will be better so. A Christian and a Jew should
never love each other.”
As she stood the clouds were lifted
for a moment from the face of the risen moon, and
she could see by the pale clear light the whole façade
of the palace as it ran along the steep hillside above
her. She could count the arches, as she had so
often counted them by the same light. They seemed
to be close over her head, and she stood there thinking
of them, till the clouds had again skurried across
the moon’s face, and she could only see the
accustomed glimmer in the windows. As her eye
fell upon the well-known black buildings around her,
she found that it was very dark. It was well
for her that it should be so dark. She never
wanted to see the light again.
There was a footstep on the other
side of the square, and she paused till it had passed
away beyond the reach of her ears. Then she came
out from under the archway, and hurried across the
square to the street which led to the bridge.
It was a dark gloomy lane, narrow, and composed of
high buildings without entrances, the sides of barracks
and old palaces. From the windows above her head
on the left, she heard the voices of soldiers.
A song was being sung, and she could hear the words.
How cruel it was that other people should have so much
of light-hearted joy in the world, but that for her
everything should have been so terribly sad!
The wind, as it met her, seemed to penetrate to her
bones. She was very cold! But it was useless
to regard that. There was no place on the face
of the earth that would ever be warm for her.
As she passed along the causeway leading
to the bridge, a sound with which she was very familiar
met her ears. They were singing vespers under
the shadow of one of the great statues which are placed
one over each arch of the bridge. There was a
lay friar standing by a little table, on which there
was a white cloth and a lighted lamp and a small crucifix;
and above the crucifix, supported against the stone-work
of the bridge, there was a picture of the Virgin with
her Child, and there was a tawdry wreath of paper
flowers, so that by the light of the lamp you could
see that a little altar had been prepared. And
on the table there was a plate containing kreutzers,
into which the faithful who passed and took a part
in the evening psalm of praise, might put an offering
for the honour of the Virgin, and for the benefit of
the poor friar and his brethren in their poor cloisters
at home. Nina knew all about it well. Scores
of times had she stood on the same spot upon the bridge,
and sung the vesper hymn, ere she passed on to the
Kleinseite.
And now she paused and sang it once
again. Around the table upon the pavement there
stood perhaps thirty or forty persons, most of them
children, and the remainder girls perhaps of Nina’s
age. And the friar stood close by the table,
leaning idly against the bridge, with his eye wandering
from the little plate with the kreutzers to the
passers-by who might possibly contribute. And
ever and anon he with drawling voice would commence
some sentence of the hymn, and then the girls and
children would take it up, well knowing the accustomed
words; and their voices as they sang would sound sweetly
across the waters, the loud gurgling of which, as
they ran beneath the arch, would be heard during the
pauses.
And Nina stopped and sang. When
she was a child she had sung there very often, and
the friar of those days would put his hand upon her
head and bless her, as she brought her small piece
of tribute to his plate. Of late, since she had
been at variance with the Church by reason of the
Jew, she had always passed by rapidly, as though feeling
that she had no longer any right to take a part in
such a ceremony. But now she had done with the
Jew, and surely she might sing the vesper song.
So she stopped and sang, remembering not the less
as she sang, that that which she was about to do,
if really done, would make all such singing unavailing
for her.
But then, perhaps, even yet it might
not be done. Lotta’s first prediction,
that the Jew would desert her, had certainly come true;
and Lotta’s second prediction, that there would
be nothing left for her but to drown herself, seemed
to her to be true also. She had left the house
in which her father’s dead body was still lying,
with this purpose. Doubly deserted as she now
was by lover and father, she could live no longer.
It might, however, be possible that that saint who
was so powerful over the waters might yet do something
for her might yet interpose on her behalf,
knowing, as he did, of course, that all idea of marriage
between her, a Christian, and her Jew lover had been
abandoned. At any rate she stood and sang the
hymn, and when there came the accustomed lull at the
end of the verse, she felt in her pocket for a coin,
and, taking a piece of ten kreutzers, she stepped
quickly up to the plate and put it in. A day or
two ago ten kreutzers was an important portion
of the little sum which she still had left in hand,
but now ten kreutzers could do nothing for her.
It was at any rate better that the friar should have
it than that her money should go with her down into
the blackness of the river. Nevertheless she did
not give the friar all. She saw one girl whispering
to another as she stepped up to the table, and she
heard her own name. “That is Nina Balatka.”
And then there was an answer which she did not hear,
but which she was sure referred to the Jew. The
girls looked at her with angry eyes, and she longed
to stop and explain to them that she was no longer
betrothed to the Jew. Then, perhaps, they would
be gentle with her, and she might yet hear a kind
word spoken to her before she went. But she did
not speak to them. No; she would never speak to
man or woman again. What was the use of speaking
now? No sympathy that she could receive would
go deep enough to give relief to such wounds as hers.
As she dropped her piece of money
into the plate her eyes met those of the friar, and
she recognised at once a man whom she had known years
ago, at the same spot and engaged in the same work.
He was old and haggard, and thin, and grey, and very
dirty; but there came a smile over his face as he
also recognised her. He could not speak to her,
for he had to take up a verse in the hymn, and drawl
out the words which were to set the crowd singing,
and Nina had retired back again before he was silent.
But she knew that he had known her, and she almost
felt that she had found a friend who would be kind
to her. On the morrow, when inquiry would be
made and aunt Sophie would certainly be
loud in her inquiries this friar would
be able to give some testimony respecting her.
She passed on altogether across the
bridge, in order that she might reach the spot she
desired without observation and perhaps
also with some halting idea that she might thus postpone
the evil moment. The figure of St John Nepomucene
rested on the other balustrade of the bridge, and
she was minded to stand for a while under its shadow.
Now, at Prague it is the custom that they who pass
over the bridge shall always take the right-hand path
as they go; and she, therefore, in coming from the
Kleinseite, had taken that opposite to the statue of
the saint. She had thought of this, and had told
herself that she would cross the roadway in the middle
of the bridge; but at that moment the moon was shining
brightly: and then, too, the night was long.
Why need she be in a hurry?
At the further end of the bridge she
stood a while in the shade of the watch-tower, and
looked anxiously around her. When last she had
been over in the Old Town, within a short distance
of the spot where she now stood, she had chanced to
meet her lover. What if she should see him now?
She was sure that she would not speak to him.
And yet she looked very anxiously up the dark street,
through the glimmer of the dull lamps. First
there came one man, and then another, and a third;
and she thought, as her eyes fell upon them, that
the figure of each was the figure of Anton Trendellsohn.
But as they emerged from the darker shadow into the
light that was near, she saw that it was not so, and
she told herself that she was glad. If Anton were
to come and find her there, it might be that he would
disturb her purpose. But yet she looked again
before she left the shadow of the tower. Now there
was no one passing in the street. There was no
figure there to make her think that her lover was
coming either to save her or to disturb her.
Taking the pathway on the other side,
she turned her face again towards the Kleinseite,
and very slowly crept along under the balustrade of
the bridge. This bridge over the Moldau is remarkable
in many ways, but it is specially remarkable for the
largeness of its proportions. It is very long,
taking its spring from the shore a long way before
the actual margin of the river; it is of a fine breadth:
the side-walks to it are high and massive; and the
groups of statues with which it is ornamented, though
not in themselves of much value as works of art, have
a dignity by means of their immense size which they
lend to the causeway, making the whole thing noble,
grand, and impressive. And below, the Moldau
runs with a fine, silent, dark volume of water a
very sea of waters when the rains have fallen and the
little rivers have been full, though in times of drought
great patches of ugly dry land are to be seen in its
half-empty bed. At the present moment there were
no such patches; and the waters ran by, silent, black,
in great volumes, and with unchecked rapid course.
It was only by pausing specially to listen to them
that the passer-by could hear them as they glided
smoothly round the piers of the bridge. Nina did
pause and did hear them. They would have been
almost less terrible to her, had the sound been rougher
and louder.
On she went, very slowly. The
moon, she thought, had disappeared altogether before
she reached the cross inlaid in the stone on the bridge-side,
on which she was accustomed to lay her fingers, in
order that she might share somewhat of the saint’s
power over the river. At that moment, as she
came up to it, the night was very dark. She had
calculated that by this time the light of the moon
would have waned, so that she might climb to the spot
which she had marked for herself without observation.
She paused, hesitating whether she would put her hand
upon the cross. It could not at least do her any
harm. It might be that the saint would be angry
with her, accusing her of hypocrisy; but what would
be the saint’s anger for so small a thing amidst
the multitudes of charges that would be brought against
her? For that which she was going to do now there
could be no absolution given. And perhaps the
saint might perceive that the deed on her part was
not altogether hypocritical that there
was something in it of a true prayer. He might
see this, and intervene to save her from the waters.
So she put the palm of her little hand full upon the
cross, and then kissed it heartily, and after that
raised it up again till it rested on the foot of the
saint. As she stood there she heard the departing
voices of the girls and children singing the last
verse of the vesper hymn, as they followed the friar
off the causeway of the bridge into the Kleinseite.
She was determined that she would
persevere. She had endured that which made it
impossible that she should recede, and had sworn to
herself a thousand times that she would never endure
that which would have to be endured if she remained
longer in this cruel world. There would be no
roof to cover her now but the roof in the Windberg-gasse,
beneath which there was to her a hell upon earth.
No; she would face the anger of all the saints rather
than eat the bitter bread which her aunt would provide
for her. And she would face the anger of all the
saints rather than fall short in her revenge upon
her lover. She had given herself to him altogether for
him she had been half-starved, when, but for him,
she might have lived as a favoured daughter in her
aunt’s house for him she had made
it impossible to herself to regard any other man with
a spark of affection for his sake she had
hated her cousin Ziska her cousin who
was handsome, and young, and rich, and had loved her
feeling that the very idea that she could accept love
from anyone but Anton had been an insult to her.
She had trusted Anton as though his word had been
gospel to her. She had obeyed him in everything,
allowing him to scold her as though she were already
subject to his rule; and, to speak the truth, she
had enjoyed such treatment, obtaining from it a certain
assurance that she was already his own. She had
loved him entirely, had trusted him altogether, had
been prepared to bear all that the world could fling
upon her for his sake, wanting nothing in return but
that he should know that she was true to him.
This he had not known, nor had he
been able to understand such truth. It had not
been possible to him to know it. The inborn suspicion
of his nature had broken out in opposition to his
love, forcing her to acknowledge to herself that she
had been wrong in loving a Jew. He had been unable
not to suspect her of some vile scheme by which she
might possibly cheat him of his property, if at the
last moment she should not become his wife. She
told herself that she understood it all now
that she could see into his mind, dark and gloomy as
were its recesses. She had wasted all her heart
upon a man who had never even believed in her; and
would she not be revenged upon him? Yes, she would
be revenged, and she would cure the malady of her
own love by the only possible remedy within her reach.
The statue of St John Nepomucene is
a single figure, standing in melancholy weeping posture
on the balustrade of the bridge, without any of that
ponderous strength of wide-spread stone which belongs
to the other groups. This St John is always pictured
to us as a thin, melancholy, half-starved saint, who
has had all the life washed out of him by his long
immersion. There are saints to whom a trusting
religious heart can turn, relying on their apparent
physical capabilities. St Mark, for instance,
is always a tower of strength, and St Christopher
is very stout, and St Peter carries with him an ancient
manliness which makes one marvel at his cowardice when
he denied his Master. St Lawrence, too, with
his gridiron, and St Bartholomew with his flaying-knife
and his own skin hanging over his own arm, look as
though they liked their martyrdom, and were proud of
it, and could be useful on an occasion. But this
St John of the Bridges has no pride in his appearance,
and no strength in his look. He is a mild, meek
saint, teaching one rather by his attitude how to bear
with the malice of the waters, than offering any protection
against their violence. But now, at this moment,
his aid was the only aid to which Nina could look
with any hope. She had heard of his rescuing many
persons from death amidst the current of the Moldau.
Indeed she thought that she could remember having
been told that the river had no power to drown those
who could turn their minds to him when they were struggling
in the water. Whether this applied only to those
who were in sight of his statue on the bridge of Prague,
or whether it was good in all rivers of the world,
she did not know. Then she tried to think whether
she had ever heard of any case in which the saint had
saved one who had who had done the thing
which she was now about to do. She was almost
sure that she had never heard of such a case as that.
But, then, was there not something special in her
own case? Was not her suffering so great, her
condition so piteous, that the saint would be driven
to compassion in spite of the greatness of her sin?
Would he not know that she was punishing the Jew by
the only punishment with which she could reach him?
She looked up into the saint’s wan face, and
fancied that no eyes were ever so piteous, no brow
ever so laden with the deep suffering of compassion.
But would this punishment reach the heart of Anton
Trendellsohn? Would he care for it? When
he should hear that she had destroyed her
own life because she could not endure the cruelty of
his suspicion, would the tidings make him unhappy?
When last they had been together he had told her,
with all that energy which he knew so well how to
put into his words, that her love was necessary to
his happiness. “I will never release you
from your promises,” he had said, when she offered
to give him back his troth because of the ill-will
of his people. And she still believed him.
Yes, he did love her. There was something of
consolation to her in the assurance that the strings
of his heart would be wrung when he should hear of
this. If his bosom were capable of agony, he
would be agonised.
It was very dark at this moment, and
now was the time for her to climb upon the stone-work
and hide herself behind the drapery of the saint’s
statue. More than once, as she had crossed the
bridge, she had observed the spot, and had told herself
that if such a deed were to be done, that would be
the place for doing it. She had always been conscious,
since the idea had entered her mind, that she would
lack the power to step boldly up on to the parapet
and go over at once, as the bathers do when they tumble
headlong into the stream that has no dangers for them.
She had known that she must crouch, and pause, and
think of it, and look at it, and nerve herself with
the memory of her wrongs. Then, at some moment
in which her heart was wrung to the utmost, she would
gradually slacken her hold, and the dark, black, silent
river should take her. She climbed up into the
niche, and found that the river was very far from
her, though death was so near to her and the fall would
be so easy. When she became aware that there was
nothing between her and the great void space below
her, nothing to guard her, nothing left to her in
all the world to protect her, she retreated, and descended
again to the pavement. And never in her life had
she moved with more care, lest, inadvertently, a foot
or a hand might slip, and she might tumble to her
doom against her will.
When she was again on the pathway
she remembered her note to Anton that
note which was already in his hands. What would
he think of her if she were only to threaten the deed,
and then not perform it? And would she allow
him to go unpunished? Should he triumph, as he
would do if she were now to return to the house which
she had told him she had left? She clasped her
hands together tightly, and pressed them first to
her bosom and then to her brow, and then again she
returned to the niche from which the fall into the
river must be made. Yes, it was very easy.
The plunge might be taken at any moment. Eternity
was before her, and of life there remained to her
but the few moments in which she might cling there
and think of what was coming. Surely she need
not begrudge herself a minute or two more of life.
She was very cold, so cold that she
pressed herself against the stone in order that she
might save herself from the wind that whistled round
her. But the water would be colder still than
the wind, and when once there she could never again
be warm. The chill of the night, and the blackness
of the gulf before her, and the smooth rapid gurgle
of the dark moving mass of waters beneath, were together
more horrid to her imagination than even death itself.
Thrice she released herself from her backward pressure
against the stone, in order that she might fall forward
and have done with it, but as often she found herself
returning involuntarily to the protection which still
remained to her. It seemed as though she could
not fall. Though she would have thought that
another must have gone directly to destruction if placed
where she was crouching though she would
have trembled with agony to see anyone perched in
such danger she appeared to be firm fixed.
She must jump forth boldly, or the river would not
take her. Ah! what if it were so
that the saint who stood over her, and whose cross
she had so lately kissed, would not let her perish
from beneath his feet? In these moments her mind
wandered in a maze of religious doubts and fears, and
she entertained, unconsciously, enough of doctrinal
scepticism to found a school of freethinkers.
Could it be that God would punish her with everlasting
torments because in her agony she was driven to this
as her only mode of relief? Would there be no
measuring of her sins against her sorrows, and no
account taken of the simplicity of her life? She
looked up towards heaven, not praying in words, but
with a prayer in her heart. For her there could
be no absolution, no final blessing. The act
of her going would be an act of terrible sin.
But God would know all, and would surely take some
measure of her case. He could save her if He
would, despite every priest in Prague. More than
one passenger had walked by while she was crouching
in her niche beneath the statue had passed
by and had not seen her. Indeed, the night at
present was so dark, that one standing still and looking
for her would hardly be able to define her figure.
And yet, dark as it was, she could see something of
the movement of the waters beneath her, some shimmer
produced by the gliding movement of the stream.
Ah! she would go now and have done with it. Every
moment that she remained was but an added agony.
Then, at that moment, she heard a
voice on the bridge near her, and she crouched close
again, in order that the passenger might pass by without
noticing her. She did not wish that anyone should
hear the splash of her plunge, or be called on to
make ineffectual efforts to save her. So she
would wait again. The voice drew nearer to her,
and suddenly she became aware that it was Souchey’s
voice. It was Souchey, and he was not alone.
It must be Anton who had come out with him to seek
her, and to save her. But no. He should
have no such relief as that from his coming sorrow.
So she clung fast, waiting till they should pass,
but still leaning a little towards the causeway, so
that, if it were possible, she might see the figures
as they passed. She heard the voice of Souchey
quite plain, and then she perceived that Souchey’s
companion was a woman. Something of the gentleness
of a woman’s voice reached her ear, but she
could distinguish no word that was spoken. The
steps were now very close to her, and with terrible
anxiety she peeped out to see who might be Souchey’s
companion. She saw the figure, and she knew at
once by the hat that it was Rebecca Loth. They
were walking fast, and were close to her now.
They would be gone in an instant.
On a sudden, at the very moment that
Souchey and Rebecca were in the act of passing beneath
the feet of the saint, the clouds swept by from off
the disc of the waning moon, and the three faces were
looking at each other in the clear pale light of the
night. Souchey started back and screamed.
Rebecca leaped forward and put the grasp of her hand
tight upon the skirt of Nina’s dress, first one
hand and then the other, and, pressing forward with
her body against the parapet, she got a hold also
of Nina’s foot. She perceived instantly
what was the girl’s purpose, but, by God’s
blessing on her efforts, there should be no cold form
found in the river that night; or, if one, then there
should be two. Nina kept her hold against the
figure, appalled, dumbfounded, awe-stricken, but still
with some inner consciousness of salvation that comforted
her. Whether her life was due to the saint or
to the Jewess she knew not, but she acknowledged to
herself silently that death was beyond her reach,
and she was grateful.
“Nina,” said Rebecca.
Nina still crouched against the stone, with her eyes
fixed on the other girl’s face; but she was unable
to speak. The clouds had again obscured the moon,
and the air was again black, but the two now could
see each other in the darkness, or feel that they did
so. “Nina, Nina why are you here?”
“I do not know,” said Nina, shivering.
“For the love of God take care
of her,” said Souchey, “or she will be
over into the river.”
“She cannot fall now,”
said Rebecca. “Nina, will you not come down
to me? You are very cold. Come down, and
I will warm you.”
“I am very cold,” said
Nina. Then gradually she slid down into Rebecca’s
arms, and was placed sitting on a little step immediately
below the figure of St John. Rebecca knelt by
her side, and Nina’s head fell upon the shoulder
of the Jewess. Then she burst into the violence
of hysterics, but after a moment or two a flood of
tears relieved her.
“Why have you come to me?”
she said. “Why have you not left me alone?”
“Dear Nina, your sorrows have
been too heavy for you to bear.”
“Yes; they have been very heavy.”
“We will comfort you, and they shall be softened.”
“I do not want comfort. I only want to to to
go.”
While Rebecca was chafing Nina’s
hands and feet, and tying a handkerchief from off
her own shoulders round Nina’s neck, Souchey
stood over them, not knowing what to propose.
“Perhaps we had better carry her back to the
old house,” he said.
“I will not be carried back,” said Nina.
“No, dear; the house is desolate
and cold. You shall not go there. You shall
come to our house, and we will do for you the best
we can there, and you shall be comfortable. There
is no one there but mother, and she is kind and gracious.
She will understand that your father has died, and
that you are alone.”
Nina, as she heard this, pressed her
head and shoulders close against Rebecca’s body.
As it was not to be allowed to her to escape from
all her troubles, as she had thought to do, she would
prefer the neighbourhood of the Jews to that of any
Christians. There was no Christian now who would
say a kind word to her. Rebecca spoke to her
very kindly, and was soft and gentle with her.
She could not go where she would be alone. Even
if left to do so, all physical power would fail her.
She knew that she was weak as a child is weak, and
that she must submit to be governed. She thought
it would be better to be governed by Rebecca Loth
at the present moment than by anyone else whom she
knew. Rebecca had spoken of her mother, and Nina
was conscious of a faint wish that there had been
no such person in her friend’s house; but this
was a minor trouble, and one which she could afford
to disregard amidst all her sorrows. How much
more terrible would have been her fate had she been
carried away to aunt Sophie’s house! “Does
he know?” she said, whispering the question into
Rebecca’s ear.
“Yes, he knows. It was
he who sent me.” Why did he not come himself?
That question flashed across Nina’s mind, and
it was present also to Rebecca. She knew that
it was the question which Nina, within her heart,
would silently ask. “I was there when the
note came,” said Rebecca, “and he thought
that a woman could do more than a man. I am so
glad he sent me so very glad. Shall
we go, dear?”
Then Nina rose from her seat, and
stood up, and began to move slowly. Her limbs
were stiff with cold, and at first she could hardly
walk; but she did not feel that she would be unable
to make the journey. Souchey came to her side,
but she rejected his arm petulantly. “Do
not let him come,” she said to Rebecca.
“I will do whatever you tell me; I will indeed.”
Then the Jewess said a word or two to the old man,
and he retreated from Nina’s side, but stood
looking at her till she was out of sight. Then
he returned home to the cold desolate house in the
Kleinseite, where his only companion was the lifeless
body of his old master. But Souchey, as he left
his young mistress, made no complaint of her treatment
of him. He knew that he had betrayed her, and
brought her close upon the step of death’s door.
He could understand it all now. Indeed he had
understood it all since the first word that Anton
Trendellsohn had spoken after reading Nina’s
note.
“She will destroy herself,” Anton had
said.
“What! Nina, my mistress?”
said Souchey. Then, while Anton had called Rebecca
to him, Souchey had seen it all. “Master,”
he said, when the Jew returned to him, “it was
Lotta Luxa who put the paper in the desk. Nina
knew nothing of its being there.” Then the
Jew’s heart sank coldly within him, and his
conscience became hot within his bosom. He lost
nothing of his presence of mind, but simply hurried
Rebecca upon her errand. “I shall see you
again to-night,” he said to the girl.
“You must come then to our house,”
said Rebecca. “It may be that I shall not
be able to leave it.”
Rebecca, as she led Nina back across
the bridge, at first said nothing further. She
pressed the other girl’s arm within her own,
and there was much of tenderness and regard in the
pressure. She was silent, thinking, perhaps,
that any speech might be painful to her companion.
But Nina could not restrain herself from a question,
“What will they say of me?”
“No one, dear, shall say anything.”
“But he knows.”
“I know not what he knows, but
his knowledge, whatever it be, is only food for his
love. You may be sure of his love, Nina quite
sure, quite sure. You may take my word for that.
If that has been your doubt, you have doubted wrongly.”
Not all the healing medicines of Mercury,
not wine from the flasks of the gods, could have given
Nina life and strength as did those words from her
rival’s lips. All her memory of his offences
against her had again gone in her thought of her own
sin. Would he forgive her and still love her?
Yes; she was a weak woman very weak; but
she had that one strength which is sufficient to atone
for all feminine weakness she could really
love; or rather, having loved, she could not cease
to love. Anger had no effect on her love, or was
as water thrown on blazing coal, which makes it burn
more fiercely. Ill usage could not crush her
love. Reason, either from herself or others, was
unavailing against it. Religion had no power
over it. Her love had become her religion to
Nina. It took the place of all things both in
heaven and earth. Mild as she was by nature,
it made her a tigress to those who opposed it.
It was all the world to her. She had tried to
die, because her love had been wounded; and now she
was ready to live again because she was told that
her lover the lover who had used her so
cruelly still loved her. She pressed
Rebecca’s arm close into her side. “I
shall be better soon,” she said. Rebecca
did not doubt that Nina would soon be better, but
of her own improvement she was by no means so certain.
They walked on through the narrow
crooked streets into the Jews’ quarter, and
soon stood at the door of Rebecca’s house.
The latch was loose, and they entered, and they found
a lamp ready for them on the stairs. “Had
you not better come to my bed for to-night?”
said Rebecca.
“Only that I should be in your way, I should
be so glad.”
“You shall not be in my way.
Come, then. But first you must eat and drink.”
Though Nina declared that she could not eat a morsel,
and wanted no drink but water, Rebecca tended upon
her, bringing the food and wine that were in truth
so much needed. “And now, dear, I will help
you to bed. You are yet cold, and there you will
be warm.”
“But when shall I see him?”
“Nay, how can I tell? But,
Nina, I will not keep him from you. He shall
come to you here when he chooses if you
choose it also.”
“I do choose it I
do choose it,” said Nina, sobbing in her weakness
conscious of her weakness.
While Rebecca was yet assisting Nina the
Jewess kneeling as the Christian sat on the bedside there
came a low rap at the door, and Rebecca was summoned
away. “I shall be but a moment,” she
said, and she ran down to the front door.
“Is she here?” said Anton, hoarsely.
“Yes, she is here.”
“The Lord be thanked! And can I not see
her?”
“You cannot see her now, Anton. She is
very weary, and all but in bed.”
“To-morrow I may come?”
“Yes, to-morrow.”
“And, tell me, how did you find her? Where
did you find her?”
“To-morrow Anton, you shall
be told whatever there is to tell.
For to-night, is it not enough for you to know that
she is with me? She will share my bed, and I
will be as a sister to her.”
Then Anton spoke a word of warm blessing
to his friend, and went his way home.