I
The old House of Heritage stood just
below the downs, in the few meadows that were all
that was left of a great estate. The house itself
was of stone, very firmly and gravely built; and roofed
with thin slabs of stone, small at the roof-ridge,
and increasing in size towards the eaves. Inside,
there were a few low panelled rooms opening on a large
central hall; there was little furniture, and that
of a sturdy and solid kind but the house
needed nothing else, and had all the beauty that came
of a simple austerity.
Old Mistress Alison, who abode there,
was aged and poor. She had but one house-servant,
a serious and honest maid, whose only pride was to
keep the place sweet, and save her mistress from all
care. But Mistress Alison was not to be dismayed
by poverty; she was a tranquil and loving woman, who
had never married; but who, as if to compensate her
for the absence of nearer ties, had a simple and wholesome
love of all created things. She was infirm now,
but was quite content, when it was fine, to sit for
long hours idle for very love, and look about her
with a peaceful and smiling air; she prayed much, or
rather held a sweet converse in her heart with God;
she thought little of her latter end, which she knew
could not be long delayed, but was content to leave
it in the hands of the Father, sure that He, who had
made the world so beautiful and so full of love, would
comfort her when she came to enter in at the dark
gate.
There was also an old and silent man
who looked after the cattle and the few hens that
the household kept; at the back of the house was a
thatched timbered grange, where he laid his tools;
but he spent his time mostly in the garden, which
sloped down to the fishpond, and was all bordered
with box; here was a pleasant homely scent, on hot
days, of the good herbs that shed their rich smell
in the sun; and here the flies, that sate in the leaves,
would buzz at the sound of a footfall, and then be
still again, cleaning their hands together in their
busy manner.
The only other member of the quiet
household was the boy Paul, who was distantly akin
to Mistress Alison. He had neither father nor
mother, and had lived at Heritage all of his life that
he could remember; he was a slender, serious boy,
with delicate features, and large grey eyes that looked
as if they held a secret; but if they had, it was
a secret of his forefathers; for the boy had led a
most quiet and innocent life; he had been taught to
read in a fashion, but he had no schooling; sometimes
a neighbouring goodwife would say to Mistress Alison
that the boy should be sent to school, and Mistress
Alison would open her peaceful eyes and say, “Nay,
Paul is not like other boys he would get
all the hurt and none of the good of school; when
there is work for him he will do it but
I am not for making all toil alike. Paul shall
grow up like the lilies of the field. God made
not all things to be busy.” And the goodwife
would shake her head and wonder; for it was not easy
to answer Mistress Alison, who indeed was often right
in the end.
So Paul grew up as he would; sometimes
he would help the old gardener, when there was work
to be done; for he loved to serve others, and was
content with toil if it was sweetened with love; but
often he rambled by himself for hours together; he
cared little for company, because the earth was to
him full of wonder and of sweet sights and sounds.
He loved to climb the down, and lie feasting his eyes
on the rich plain, spread out like a map; the farms
in their closes, the villages from which went up the
smoke at evening, the distant blue hills, like the
hills of heaven, the winding river, and the lake that
lay in the winter twilight like a shield of silver.
He loved to see the sun flash on the windows of the
houses so distant that they could not themselves be
seen, but only sparkled like stars. He loved
to loiter on the edge of the steep hanging woods in
summer, to listen to the humming of the flies deep
in the brake, and to catch a sight of lonely flowers;
he loved the scent of the wind blowing softly out
of the copse, and he wondered what the trees said to
each other, when they stood still and happy in the
heat of midday. He loved, too, the silent night,
full of stars, when the wood that topped the hill
lay black against the sky. The whole world seemed
to him to be full of a mysterious and beautiful life
of which he could never quite catch the secret; these
innocent flowers, these dreaming trees seemed, as
it were, to hold him smiling at arm’s length,
while they guarded their joy from him. The birds
and the beasts seemed to him to have less of this
quiet joy, for they were fearful and careful, working
hard to find a living, and dreading the sight of man;
but sometimes in the fragrant eventide the nightingale
would say a little of what was in her heart.
“Yes,” Paul would say to himself, “it
is like that.”
One other chief delight the boy had;
he knew the magic of sound, which spoke to his heart
in a way that it speaks to but few; the sounds of
the earth gave up their sweets to him; the musical
fluting of owls, the liquid notes of the cuckoo, the
thin pipe of dancing flies, the mournful creaking
of the cider-press, the horn of the oxherd wound far
off on the hill, the tinkling of sheep-bells of
all these he knew the notes; and not only these, but
the rhythmical swing of the scythes sweeping through
the grass, the flails heard through the hot air from
the barn, the clinking of the anvil in the village
forge, the bubble of the stream through the weir all
these had a tale to tell him. Sometimes, for
days together, he would hum to himself a few notes
that pleased him by their sweet cadence, and he would
string together some simple words to them, and sing
them to himself with gentle content. The song
of the reapers on the upland, or the rude chanting
in the little church had a magical charm for him; and
Mistress Alison would hear the boy, in his room overhead,
singing softly to himself for very gladness of heart,
like a little bird of the dawn, or tapping out some
tripping beat of time; when she would wonder and speak
to God of what was in her heart.
As Paul grew older he was
now about sixteen a change came slowly
over his mind; he began to have moods of a silent discontent,
a longing for something far away, a desire of he knew
not what. His old dreams began to fade, though
they visited him from time to time; but he began to
care less for the silent beautiful life of the earth,
and to take more thought of men. He had never
felt much about himself before; but one day, lying
beside a woodland pool at the feet of the down, he
caught a sight of his own face; and when he smiled
at it, it seemed to smile back at him; he began to
wonder what the world was like, and what all the busy
people that lived therein said and thought; he began
to wish to have a friend, that he might tell him what
was in his heart and yet he knew not what
it was that he would say. He began, too, to wonder
how people regarded him the people who
had before been but to him a distant part of the shows
of the world. Once he came in upon Mistress Alison,
who sate talking with a gossip of hers; when he entered,
there was a sudden silence, and a glance passed between
the two; and Paul divined that they had been speaking
of himself, and desired to know what they had said.
One day the old gardener, in a more
talkative mood than was his wont, told him a tale
of one who had visited the Wishing Well that lay a
few miles away, and, praying for riches, had found
the next day, in digging, an old urn of pottery, full
of ancient coins. Paul was very urgent to know
about the well, and the old man told him that it must
be visited at noonday and alone. That he that
would have his wish must throw a gift into the water,
and drink of the well, and then, turning to the sun,
must wish his wish aloud. Paul asked him many
more questions, but the old man would say no more.
So Paul determined that he would visit the place for
himself.
The next day he set off. He took
with him one of his few possessions, a little silver
coin that a parson hard by had given him. He went
his way quickly among the pleasant fields, making
towards the great bulk of Blackdown beacon, where
the hills swelled up into a steep bluff, with a white
road, cut in the chalk, winding steeply up their green
smooth sides. It was a fresh morning with a few
white clouds racing merrily overhead, the shadows
of which fell every now and then upon the down and
ran swiftly over it, like a flood of shade leaping
down the sides. There were few people to be seen
anywhere; the fields were full of grass, with large
daisies and high red sorrel. By midday he was
beneath the front of Blackdown, and here he asked at
a cottage of a good-natured woman, that was bustling
in and out, the way to the well. She answered
him very kindly and described the path it
was not many yards away and then asked
where he came from, saying briskly, “And what
would you wish for? I should have thought you
had all you could desire.” “Why,
I hardly know,” said Paul, smiling. “It
seems that I desire a thousand things, and can scarcely
give a name to one.” “That is ever
the way,” said the woman, “but the day
will come when you will be content with one.”
Paul did not understand what she meant, but thanked
her and went on his way; and wondered that she stood
so long looking after him.
At last he came to the spring.
It was a pool in a field, ringed round by alders.
Paul thought he had never seen a fairer place.
There grew a number of great kingcups round the brim,
with their flowers like glistening gold, and with
cool thick stalks and fresh leaves. Inside the
ring of flowers the pool looked strangely deep and
black; but looking into it you could see the sand
leaping at the bottom in three or four cones; and
to the left the water bubbled away in a channel covered
with water-plants. Paul could see that there was
an abundance of little things at the bottom, half
covered with sand coins, flowers, even
little jars which he knew to be the gifts
of wishers. So he flung his own coin in the pool,
and saw it slide hither and thither, glancing in the
light, till it settled at the dark bottom. Then
he dipped and drank, turned to the sun, and closing
his eyes, said out loud, “Give me what I desire.”
And this he repeated three times, to be sure that
he was heard. Then he opened his eyes again,
and for a moment the place looked different, with a
strange grey light. But there was no answer to
his prayer in heaven or earth, and the very sky seemed
to wear a quiet smile.
Paul waited a little, half expecting
some answer; but presently he turned his back upon
the pool and walked slowly away; the down lay on one
side of him, looking solemn and dark over the trees
which grew very plentifully; Paul thought that he
would like to walk upon the down; so he went up a
little leafy lane that seemed to lead to it.
Suddenly, as he passed a small thicket, a voice hailed
him; it was a rich and cheerful voice, and it came
from under the trees. He turned in the direction
of the voice, which seemed to be but a few yards off,
and saw, sitting on a green bank under the shade, two
figures. One was a man of middle age, dressed
lightly as though for travelling, and Paul thought
somewhat fantastically. His hat had a flower stuck
in the band. But Paul thought little of the dress,
because the face of the man attracted him; he was
sunburnt and strong-looking, and Paul at first thought
he must be a soldier; he had a short beard, and his
hair was grown rather long; his face was deeply lined,
but there was something wonderfully good-natured,
friendly, and kind about his whole expression.
He was smiling, and his smile showed small white teeth;
and Paul felt in a moment that he could trust him,
and that the man was friendly disposed to himself
and all the world; friendly, not in a servile way,
as one who wished to please, but in a sort of prodigal,
royal way, as one who had great gifts to bestow, and
was liberal of them, and looked to be made welcome.
The other figure was that of a boy rather older than
himself, with a merry ugly face, who in looking at
Paul, seemed yet to keep a sidelong and deferential
glance at the older man, as though admiring him, and
desiring to do as he did in all things.
“Where go you, pretty boy, alone
in the noon-tide?” said the man.
Paul stopped and listened, and for
a moment could not answer. Then he said, “I
am going to the down, sir, and I have been” he
hesitated for a moment “I have been
to the Wishing Well.”
“The Wishing Well?” said
the man gravely. “I did not know there was
one hereabouts. I thought that every one in this
happy valley had been too well content and
what did you wish for, if I may ask?”
Paul was silent and grew red; and
then he said, “Oh, just for my heart’s
desire.”
“That is either a very cautious
or a very beautiful answer,” said the man, “and
it gives me a lesson in manners; but will you not sit
a little with us in the shade? and you
shall hear a concert of music such as I dare say you
shall hardly hear out of France or Italy. Do
you practise music, child, the divine gift?”
“I love it a little,” said Paul, “but
I have no skill.”
“Yet you look to me like one
who might have skill,” said the man; “you
have the air of it you look as though you
listened, and as though you dreamed pleasant dreams.
But, Jack,” he said, turning to his boy, “what
shall we give our friend? shall he have
the ‘Song of the Rose’ first?”
The boy at this word drew a little
metal pipe out of his doublet, and put it to his lips;
and the man reached out his hand and took up a small
lute which lay on the bank beside him. He held
up a warning finger to the boy. “Remember,”
he said, “that you come in at the fifth chord,
together with the voice not before.”
He struck four simple chords on the lute, very gently,
and with a sort of dainty preciseness; and then at
the same moment the little pipe and his own voice
began; the pipe played a simple descant in quicker
time, with two notes to each note of the song, and
the man in a brisk and simple way, as it were at the
edge of his lips, sang a very sweet little country
song, in a quiet homely measure.
There seemed to Paul to be nothing
short of magic about it. There was a beautiful
restraint about the voice, which gave him a sense both
of power and feeling held back; but it brought before
him a sudden picture of a garden, and the sweet life
of the flowers and little trees, taking what came,
sunshine and rain, and just living and smiling, breathing
fragrant breath from morning to night, and sleeping
a light sleep till they should waken to another tranquil
day. He listened as if spellbound. There
were but three verses, and though he could not remember
the words, it seemed as though the rose spoke and
told her dreams.
He could have listened for ever; but
the voice made a sudden stop, not prolonging the last
note, but keeping very closely to the time; the pipe
played a little run, like an echo of the song, the
man struck a brisk chord on the lute and
all was over. “Bravely played, Jack!”
said the singer; “no musician could have played
it better. You remembered what I told you, to
keep each note separate, and have no gliding.
This song must trip from beginning to end, like a brisk
bird that hops on the grass.” Then he turned
to Paul and, with a smile, said, “Reverend sir,
how does my song please you?”
“I never heard anything more
beautiful,” said Paul simply. “I cannot
say it, but it was like a door opened;” and he
looked at the minstrel with intent eyes; “may
I hear it again?” “Boy,” said the
singer gravely, “I had rather have such a look
as you gave me during the song than a golden crown.
You will not understand what I say, but you paid me
the homage of the pure heart, the best reward that
the minstrel desires.”
Then he conferred with the other boy
in a low tone, and struck a very sad yet strong chord
upon his lute; and then, with a grave face, he sang
what to Paul seemed like a dirge for a dead hero who
had done with mortal things, and whose death seemed
more a triumph than a sorrow. When he had sung
the first verse, the pipe came softly and sadly in,
like the voice of grief that could not be controlled,
the weeping of those on whom lay the shadow of loss.
To Paul, in a dim way for he was but a
child the song seemed the voice of the world,
lamenting its noblest, yet triumphing in their greatness,
and desirous to follow in their steps. It brought
before him all the natural sorrows of death, the call
to quit the sweet and pleasant things of the world a
call that could not be denied, and that was in itself
indeed stronger and even sweeter than the delights
which it bade its listeners leave. And Paul seemed
to walk in some stately procession of men far off
and ancient, who followed a great king to the grave,
and whose hearts were too full of wonder to think
yet what they had lost. It was an uplifting sadness;
and when the sterner strain came to an end, Paul said
very quietly, putting into words the thoughts of his
full heart, “I did not think that death could
be so beautiful.” And the minstrel smiled,
but Paul saw that his eyes were full of tears.
Then all at once the minstrel struck
the lute swiftly and largely, and sang a song of those
that march to victory, not elated nor excited, but
strong to dare and to do; and Paul felt his heart beat
within him, and he longed to be of the company.
After he had sung this to an end, there was a silence,
and the minstrel said to Paul, yet as though half
speaking to himself, “There, my son, I have given
you a specimen of my art; and I think from your look
that you might be of the number of those that make
these rich jewels that men call songs; and should you
try to do so, be mindful of these two things:
let them be perfect first. You will make many
that are not perfect. In some the soul will be
wanting; in others the body, in a manner of speaking,
will be amiss; for they are living things, these songs,
and he that makes them is a kind of god. Well,
if you cannot mend one, throw it aside and think no
more of it. Do not save it because it has some
gracious touch, for in this are the masters of the
craft different from the mere makers of songs.
The master will have nothing but what is perfect within
and without, while the lesser craftsman will save a
poor song for the sake of a fine line or phrase.
“And next, you must do it for
the love of your art, and not for the praise it wins
you. That is a poisoned wine, of which if you
drink, you will never know the pure and high tranquillity
of spirit that befits a master. The master may
be discouraged and troubled oft, but he must have
in his soul a blessed peace, and know the worth and
beauty of what he does; for there is nothing nobler
than to make beautiful things, and to enlighten the
generous heart. Fighting is a fair trade, and
though it is noble in much, yet its end is to destroy;
but the master of song mars nought, but makes joy; and
that is the end of my sermon for the time. And
now,” he added briskly, “I must be going,
for I have far to fare; but I shall pass by this way
again, and shall inquire of your welfare; tell me
your name and where you live.” So Paul
told him, and then added timidly enough that he would
fain know how to begin to practise his art. “Silence!”
said the minstrel, rather fiercely; “that is
an evil and timorous thought. If you are worthy,
you will find the way.” And so in the hot
afternoon he said farewell, and walked lightly off.
And Paul stood in wonder and hope, and saw the two
figures leave the flat, take to the down, and wind
up the steep road, ever growing smaller, till they
topped the ridge, where they seemed to stand a moment
larger than human; and presently they were lost from
view.
So Paul made his way home; and when
he pushed the gate of Heritage open, he wondered to
think that he could recollect nothing of the road
he had traversed. He went up to the house and
entered the hall. There sate Mistress Alison,
reading in a little book. She closed it as he
came in, and looked at him with a smile. Paul
went up to her and said, “Mother” (so
he was used to call her), “I have heard songs
to-day such as I never dreamt of, and I pray you to
let me learn the art of making music; I must be a
minstrel.” “‘Must’ is a grave
word, dear heart,” said Mistress Alison, looking
somewhat serious; “but let me hear your story
first.” So Paul told of his meeting with
the minstrel. Mistress Alison sate musing a long
time, smiling when she met Paul’s eye, till
he said at last, “Will you not speak, mother?”
“I know,” she said at last, “whom
you have met, dear child that is Mark, the
great minstrel. He travels about the land, for
he is a restless man, though the king himself would
have him dwell in his court, and make music for him.
Yet I have looked for this day, though it has come
when I did not expect it. And now I must tell
you a story, Paul, in my turn. Many years ago
there was a boy like you, and he loved music too and
the making of songs, and he grew to great skill therein.
But it was at last his ruin, for he got to love riotous
company and feasting too well; and so his skill forsook
him, as it does those that live not cleanly and nobly.
And he married a young wife, having won her by his
songs, and a child was born to them. But the minstrel
fell sick and presently died, and his last prayer
was that his son might not know the temptation of
song. And his wife lingered a little, but she
soon pined away, for her heart was broken within her;
and she too died. And now, Paul, listen, for
the truth must be told you are that child,
the son of sorrow and tears. And here you have
lived with me all your life; but because the tale
was a sad one, I have forborne to tell it you.
I have waited and wondered to see whether the gift
of the father is given to the son; and sometimes I
have thought it might be yours, and sometimes I have
doubted. And now, child, we will talk of this
no more to-day, for it is ill to decide in haste.
Think well over what I have said, and see if it makes
a difference in your wishes. I have told you
all the tale.”
Now the story that Mistress Alison
had told him dwelt very much in Paul’s mind
that night; but it seemed to him strange and far off,
and he did not doubt what the end should be.
It was as though the sight of the minstrel, his songs
and words, had opened a window in his mind, and that
he saw out of it a strange and enchanted country, of
woods and streams, with a light of evening over it,
bounded by far-off hills, all blue and faint, among
which some beautiful thing was hidden for him to find;
it seemed to call him softly to come; the trees smiled
upon him, the voice of the streams bade him make haste it
all waited for him, like a country waiting for its
lord to come and take possession.
Then it seemed to him that his soul
slipped like a bird from the window, and rising in
the air over that magical land, beat its wings softly
in the pale heaven; and then like a dove that knows,
by some inborn mysterious art, which way its path
lies, his spirit paused upon the breeze, and then
sailed out across the tree-tops. Whither?
Paul knew not. And so at last he slipped into
a quiet sleep.
He woke in the morning all of a sudden,
with a kind of tranquil joy and purpose; and when
he was dressed, and gone into the hall, he found Mistress
Alison sitting in her chair beside the table laid for
their meal. She was silent and looked troubled,
and Paul went up softly to her, and kissed her and
said, “I have chosen.” She did not
need to ask him what he had chosen, but put her arm
about him and said, “Then, dear Paul, be content and
we will have one more day together, the last of the
old days; and to-morrow shall the new life begin.”
So the two passed a long and quiet
day together. For to the wise and loving-hearted
woman this was the last of sweet days, and her soul
went out to the past with a great hunger of love; but
she stilled it as was her wont, saying to herself
that this dear passage of life had hitherto only been
like the clear trickling of a woodland spring, while
the love of the Father’s heart was as it were
a great river of love marching softly to a wide sea,
on which river the very world itself floated like
a flower-bloom between widening banks.
And indeed if any had watched them
that day, it would have seemed that she was the serener;
for the thought of the life that lay before him worked
like wine in the heart of Paul, and he could only by
an effort bring himself back to loving looks and offices
of tenderness. They spent the whole day together,
for the most part in a peaceful silence; and at last
the sun went down, and a cool breeze came up out of
the west, laden with scent from miles and miles of
grass and flowers, which seemed to bear with it the
fragrant breath of myriads of sweet living things.
Then they ate together what was the
last meal they were to take thus alone. And at
last Mistress Alison would have Paul go to rest.
And so she took his hand in hers, and said, “Dear
child, the good years are over now; but you will not
forget them; only lean upon the Father, for He is
very strong; and remember that though the voice of
melody is sweet, yet the loving heart is deeper yet.”
And then Paul suddenly broke out into a passion of
weeping, and kissed his old friend on hand and cheek
and lips; and then he burst away, ashamed, if the truth
be told, that his love was not deeper than he found
it to be.
He slept a light sleep that night,
his head pillowed on his hand, with many strange dreams
ranging through his head. Among other fancies,
some sweet, some dark, he heard a delicate passage
of melody played, it seemed to him, by three silver-sounding
flutes, so delicate that he could hardly contain himself
for gladness; but among his sadder dreams was one
of a little man habited like a minstrel who played
an ugly enchanted kind of melody on a stringed lute,
and smiled a treacherous smile at him; Paul woke in
a sort of fever of the spirit; and rising from his
bed, felt the floor cool to his feet, and drew his
curtain aside; in a tender radiance of dawn he saw
the barn, deep in shadow, in the little garden; and
over them a little wood-end that he knew well by day a
simple place enough but now it had a sort
of magical dreaming air; the mist lay softly about
it like the breath of sleep; and the trees, stretching
wistfully their leafy arms, seemed to him to be full
of silent prayer, or to be hiding within them some
divine secret that might not be shown to mortal eyes.
He looked long at this; and presently went back to
his bed, and shivered in a delicious warmth, while
outside, very gradually, came the peaceful stir of
morning. A bird or two fluted drowsily in the
bushes; then another further away would join his slender
song; a cock crew cheerily in a distant grange, and
soon it was broad day. Presently the house began
to be softly astir; and the faint fragrance of an early
kindled fire of wood stole into the room. Then,
worn out by his long vigil, he fell asleep again;
and soon waking, knew it to be later than was his
wont, and dressed with haste. He came down, and
heard voices in the hall; he went in, and there saw
Mistress Alison in her chair; and on the hearth, talking
gaily and cheerily, stood Mark the minstrel. They
made a pause when he came in. Mark extended his
hand, which Paul took with a kind of reverence.
Then Mistress Alison, with her sweet old smile, said
to Paul, “So you made a pilgrimage to the Well
of the Heart’s Desire, dear Paul? Well,
you have your wish, and very soon; for here is a master
for you, if you will serve him.” “Not
a light service, Paul,” said Mark gravely, “but
a true one. I can take you with me when you may
go, for my boy Jack is fallen sick with a stroke of
the sun, and must bide at home awhile.”
They looked at Paul, to see what he would say.
“Oh, I will go gladly,” he said, “if
I may.” And then he felt he had not spoken
lovingly; so he kissed Mistress Alison, who smiled,
but somewhat sadly, and said, “Yes, Paul I
understand.”
So when the meal was over, Paul’s
small baggage was made ready, and he kissed Mistress
Alison and then she said to Mark with a
sudden look, “You will take care of him?”
“Oh, he shall be safe with me,” said Mark,
“and if he be apt and faithful, he shall learn
his trade, as few can learn it.” And then
Paul said his good-bye, and walked away with Mark;
and his heart was so full of gladness that he stepped
out lightly and blithely, and hardly looked back.
But at the turn of the road he stopped, while Mark
seemed to consider him gravely. The three that
were to abide, Mistress Alison, and the maid, and the
old gardener, stood at the door and waved their hands;
the old house seemed to look fondly out of its windows
at him, as though it had a heart; and the very trees
seemed to wave him a soft farewell. Paul waved
his hand too, and a tear came into his eyes; but he
was eager to be gone; and indeed, in his heart, he
felt almost jealous of even the gentle grasp of his
home upon his heart. And so Mark and Paul set
out for the south.
II
Of the life that Paul lived with Mark
I must not here tell; but before he grew to full manhood
he had learned his art well. Mark was a strict
master, but not impatient. The only thing that
angered him was carelessness or listlessness; and
Paul was an apt and untiring pupil, and learnt so
easily and deftly that Mark was often astonished.
“How did you learn that?” he said one
day suddenly to Paul when the boy was practising on
the lute, and played a strange soft cadence, of a kind
that Mark had never heard. The boy was startled
by the question, for he had not thought that Mark
was listening to him. He looked up with a blush
and turned his eyes on Mark. “Is it not
right?” he said. “I did not learn
it; it comes from somewhere in my mind.”
Paul learnt to play several instruments,
both wind and string. Sometimes he loved one
sort the best, sometimes the other. The wind
instruments of wood had to him a kind of soft magic,
like the voice of a gentle spirit, a spirit that dwelt
in lonely unvisited places, and communed more with
things of earth than the hearts of men. In the
flutes and bassoons seemed to him to dwell the voices
of airs that murmured in the thickets, the soft gliding
of streams, the crooning of serene birds, the peace
of noonday, the welling of clear springs, the beauty
of little waves, the bright thoughts of stars.
Sometimes in certain modes, they could be sad, but
it was the sadness of lonely homeless things, old
dreaming spirits of wind and wave, not the sadness
of such things as had known love and lost what they
had loved, but the melancholy of such forlorn beings
as by their nature were shut out from the love that
dwells about the firelit hearth and the old roofs
of homesteads. It was the sadness of the wind
that wails in desolate places, knowing that it is
lonely, but not knowing what it desires; or the soft
sighing of trees that murmur all together in a forest,
dreaming each its own dream, but with no thought of
comradeship or desire.
The metal instruments, out of which
the cunning breath could draw bright music, seemed
to him soulless too in a sort, but shrill and enlivening.
These clarions and trumpets spoke to him of brisk morning
winds, or the cold sharp plunge of green waves that
leap in triumph upon rocks. To such sounds he
fancied warriors marching out at morning, with the
joy of fight in their hearts, meaning to deal great
blows, to slay and be slain, and hardly thinking of
what would come after, so sharp and swift an eagerness
of spirit held them; but these instruments he loved
less.
Best of all he loved the resounding
strings that could be twanged by the quill, or swept
into a heavenly melody by the finger-tips, or throb
beneath the strongly drawn bow. In all of these
lay the secrets of the heart; in these Paul heard
speak the bright dreams of the child, the vague hopes
of growing boy or girl, the passionate desires of
love, the silent loyalty of equal friendship, the dreariness
of the dejected spirit, whose hopes have set like
the sun smouldering to his fall, the rebellious grief
of the heart that loses what it loves, the darkening
fears that begin to roll about the ageing mind, like
clouds that weep on mountain tops, and the despair
of sinners, finding the evil too strong.
Best of all it was when all these
instruments could conspire together to weave a sudden
dream of beauty that seemed to guard a secret.
What was the secret? It seemed so near to Paul
sometimes, as if he were like a man very near the
edge of some mountain from which he may peep into
an unknown valley. Sometimes it was far away.
But it was there, he doubted not, though it hid itself.
It was like a dance of fairies in a forest glade,
which a man could half discern through the screening
leaves; but, when he gains the place, he sees nothing
but tall flowers with drooping bells, bushes set with
buds, large-leaved herbs, all with a silent, secret,
smiling air, as though they said, “We have seen,
we could tell.”
Paul seemed very near this baffling
secret at times; in the dewy silence of mornings,
just before the sun comes up, when familiar woods
and trees stand in a sort of musing happiness; at night
when the sky is thickly sown with stars, or when the
moon rises in a soft hush and silvers the sleeping
pool; or when the sun goes down in a rich pomp, trailing
a great glow of splendour with him among cloudy islands,
all flushed with fiery red. When the sun withdrew
himself thus, flying and flaring to the west, behind
the boughs of leafless trees, what was the hidden
secret presence that stood there as it were finger
on lip, inviting yet denying? Paul knew within
himself that if he could but say or sing this, the
world would never forget. But he could not yet.
Then, too, Paul learned the magic
of words, the melodious accent of letters, sometimes
so sweet, sometimes so harsh; then the growing phrase,
the word that beckons as it were other words to join
it trippingly; the thought that draws the blood to
the brain, and sets the heart beating swiftly he
learned the words that sound like far-off bells, or
that wake a gentle echo in the spirit, the words that
burn into the heart, and make the hearer ashamed of
all that is hard and low. But he learned, too,
that the craftsman in words must not build up his
song word by word, as a man fetches bricks to make
a wall; but that he must see the whole thought clear
first, in a kind of divine flash, so that when he
turns for words to write it, he finds them piled to
his hand.
All these things Paul learnt, and
day by day he suffered all the sweet surprises and
joys of art. There were days that were not so,
when the strings jangled aimlessly, and seemed to
have no soul in them; days when it appeared that the
cloud could not lift, as though light and music together
were dead in the world but these days were
few; and Paul growing active and strong, caring little
what he ate and drank, tasting no wine, because it
fevered him at first, and then left him ill at ease,
knowing no evil or luxurious thoughts, sleeping lightly
and hardly, found his spirits very pure and plentiful;
or if he was sad, it was a clear sadness that had
something beautiful within it, and dwelt not on any
past grossness of his own, but upon the thought that
all beautiful things can but live for a time, and must
then be laid away in the darkness and in the cold.
So Paul grew up knowing neither friendship
nor love, only stirred at the sight of a beautiful
face, a shapely hand, or a slender form; by a grateful
wonder for what was so fair; untainted by any desire
to master it, or make it his own; living only for
his art, and with a sort of blind devotion to Mark,
whom he soon excelled, though he knew it not.
Mark once said to him, when Paul had made a song of
some old forgotten sorrow, “How do you know
all this, boy? You have not suffered, you have
not lived!” “Oh,” said Paul gaily,
knowing it to be praise, “my heart tells me
it is so.”
Paul, too, as he grew to manhood,
found himself with a voice that was not loud, but
true a voice that thrilled those who heard
it through and through; but it seemed strange that
he felt not what he made other men feel; rather his
music was like a still pool that can reflect all that
is above it, the sombre tree, the birds that fly over,
the starry silence of the night, the angry redness
of the dawn.
It was on one of his journeys with
Mark that the news of Mistress Alison’s death
reached him. Mark told him very carefully and
tenderly, and while he repeated the three or four
broken words in which Mistress Alison had tried to
send a last message to Paul for the end
had come very suddenly Mark himself found
his voice falter, and his eyes fill with tears.
Paul had, at that sight, cried a little; but his life
at the House of Heritage seemed to have faded swiftly
out of his thoughts; he was living very intently in
the present, scaling, as it were, day by day, with
earnest effort, the steep ladder of song. He
thought a little upon Mistress Alison, and on all her
love and goodness: but it was with a tranquil
sorrow, and not with the grief and pain of loss.
Mark was very gentle with him for awhile; and this
indeed did shame Paul a little, to find himself being
used so lovingly for a sorrow which he was hardly
feeling. But he said to himself that sorrow must
come unbidden, and that it was no sorrow that was made
with labour and intention. He was a little angered
with himself for his dullness but then
song was so beautiful, that he could think of nothing
else; he was dazzled.
A little while after, Mark asked him
whether, as they were near at hand, he would turn
aside to see Mistress Alison’s grave. And
Paul said, “No; I would rather feel it were
all as it used to be!” and then seeing
that Mark looked surprised and almost grieved, Paul,
with the gentle hypocrisy of childhood, said, “I
cannot bear it yet,” which made Mark silent,
and he said no more, but used Paul more gently than
ever.
One day Mark said to him, very gravely,
as if he had long been pondering the matter, “It
is time for me to take another pupil, Paul. I
have taught you all I know; indeed you have learned
far more than I can teach.” Then he told
him that he had arranged all things meetly. That
there was a certain Duke who lacked a minstrel, and
that Paul should go and abide with him. That
he should have his room at the castle, and should
be held in great honour, making music only when he
would. And then Mark would have added some words
of love, for he loved Paul as a son. But Paul
seemed to have no hunger in his heart, no thought
of the days they had spent together; so Mark said them
not. But he added very gently, “And one
thing, Paul, I must tell you. You will be a great
master indeed you are so already and
I can tell you nothing about the art that you do not
know. But one thing I will tell you that
you have a human heart within you that is not yet awake:
and when it awakes, it will be very strong; so that
a great combat, I think, lies before you. See
that it overcome you not!” And Paul said wondering,
“Oh, I have a heart, but it is altogether given
to song.” And so Mark was silent.
Then Paul went to the Duke’s
Castle of Wresting and abode with him year after year.
Here, too, he made no friend; he was gracious with
all, and of a lofty courtesy, so that he was had in
reverence; and he made such music that the tears would
come into the eyes of those who heard him, and they
would look at each other, and wonder how Paul could
thus tell the secret hopes of the heart. There
were many women in the castle, great ladies, young
maidens, and those that attended on them. Some
of these would have proffered love to Paul, but their
glances fell before a certain cold, virginal, almost
affronted look, that he turned to meet any smile or
gesture that seemed to hold in it any personal claim,
or to offer any gift but that of an equal and serene
friendship. As a maiden of the castle once said,
provoked by his coldness, “Sir Paul seems to
have everything to say to all of us, but nothing to
any one of us.” He was kind to all with
a sort of great and distant courtesy that was too
secure even to condescend. And so the years passed
away.
III
It was nearly noon at the Castle of
Wresting, and the whole house was deserted, for the
Duke had ridden out at daybreak to the hunt; and all
that could find a horse to ride had gone with him;
and, for it was not far afield, all else that could
walk had gone afoot. So bright and cheerful a
day was it that the Duchess had sent out her pavilion
to be pitched in a lawn in the wood, and the Duke
with his friends were to dine there; none were left
in the castle save a few of the elder serving-maids,
and the old porter, who was lame. About midday,
however, it seemed that one had been left; for Paul,
now a tall man, strongly built and comely, yet with
a somewhat dreamful air, as though he pondered difficult
things within himself, and a troubled brow, under
which looked out large and gentle eyes, came with a
quick step down a stairway. He turned neither
to right nor left, but passed through the porter’s
lodge. Here the road from the town came up into
the castle on the left, cut steeply in the hill, and
you could see the red roofs laid out like a map beneath,
with the church and the bridge; to the right ran a
little terrace under the wall. Paul came through
the lodge, nodding gravely to the porter, who returned
his salute with a kind of reverence; then he walked
on to the terrace, and stood for a moment leaning
against the low wall that bounded it; below him lay
for miles the great wood of Wresting, now all ablaze
with the brave gold of autumn leaves; here was a great
tract of beeches all rusty red; there was the pale
gold of elms. The forest lay in the plain, here
and there broken by clearings or open glades; in one
or two places could be seen the roofs of villages,
with the tower of a church rising gravely among trees.
On the horizon ran a blue line of downs, pure and
fine above the fretted gold of the forest. The
air was very still, with a fresh sparkle in it, and
the sun shone bright in a cloudless heaven; it was
a day when the heaviest heart grows light, and when
it seems the bravest thing that can be designed to
be alive.
Once or twice, as Paul leaned to look,
there came from the wood, very far away, the faint
notes of a horn; he smiled to hear it, and it seemed
as though some merry thought came into his head, for
he beat cheerfully with his fingers on the parapet.
Presently he seemed to bethink himself, and then walked
briskly to the end of the terrace, where was a little
door in the wall; he pushed this open, and found himself
at the head of a flight of stone steps, with low walls
on either hand, that ran turning and twisting according
to the slope of the hill, down into the wood.
Paul went lightly down the steps;
once or twice he turned and looked up at the grey
walls and towers of the castle, rising from the steep
green turf at their foot, above the great leafless
trees for the trees on the slope lost their
leaves first in the wind. The sight pleased him,
for he smiled again. Then he stood for a moment,
lower down, to watch the great limbs and roots of
a huge beech that seemed to cling to the slope for
fear of slipping downwards. He came presently
to a little tower at the bottom that guarded the steps.
The door was locked; he knocked, and there came out
an old woman with a merry wrinkled face, who opened
it for him with a key, saying, “Do you go to
the hunt, Sir Paul?” “Nay,” he said,
smiling, “only to walk a little alone in the
wood.” “To make music, perhaps?”
said the old woman shyly. “Perhaps,”
said Paul, smiling, “if the music come but
it will not always come for the wishing.”
As Paul walked in the deep places
of the wood, little by little his fresh holiday mood
died away, and there crept upon him a shadow of thought
that had of late been no stranger to him. He asked
himself, with some bitterness, what his life was tending
to. There was no loss of skill in his art; indeed
it was easier to him than ever; he had a rich and
prodigal store of music in him, music both of word
and sound, that came at his call. But the zest
was leaving him. He had attained to his utmost
desire, and in his art there was nothing more to conquer.
But as he looked round about him and saw all the beautiful
chains of love multiplying themselves about those among
whom he lived, he began to wonder whether he was not
after all missing life itself. He saw children
born, he saw them growing up; then they, too, found
their own path of love, they married, or were given
in marriage; presently they had children of their
own; and even death itself, that carried well-loved
souls into the dark world, seemed to forge new chains
of faith and loyalty. All this he could say and
did say in his music. He knew it, he divined
it by some magical instinct; he could put into words
and sounds the secrets that others could not utter and
there his art stopped. It could not bring him
within the charmed circle nay, it seemed
to him that it was even like a fence that kept him
outside. He looked forward to a time when his
art of itself must fade, when other minstrels should
arise with new secrets of power; and what would become
of him then?
He had by this time walked very far
into the wood, and as he came down through a little
rise, covered with leafy thickets, he saw before him
a green track, that wound away among the trees.
He followed it listlessly. The track led him
through a beech wood; the smooth and shapely stems,
that stood free of undergrowth, thickly roofed over
by firm and glossy autumn foliage, with the rusty
fallen floor of last year’s leaves underfoot,
brought back to him his delight in the sweet and fresh
world so beautiful, whatever the restless
human heart desired in its presence.
He became presently aware that he
was approaching some dwelling, he knew not what; and
then the trees grew thinner; and in a minute he was
out in a little forest clearing, where stood, in a
small and seemly garden, enclosed with hedges and
low walls and a moat, a forest lodge, a long low ancient
building, ending in a stone tower.
The place had a singular charm.
The ancient battlemented house, overgrown with ivy,
the walls green and grey with lichens, seemed to have
sprung as naturally out of the soil as the trees among
which it stood, and to have become one with the place.
He lingered for a moment on the edge of the moat,
looking at a little tower that rose out of the pool,
mirrored softly in the open spaces of the water, among
the lily-leaves. The whole place seemed to have
a wonderful peace about it; there was no sound but
the whisper of leaves, and the doves crooning, in
their high branching fastnesses, a song of peace.
As Paul stood thus and looked upon
the garden, a door opened, and there came out a lady,
not old, but well advanced in years, with a shrewd
and kindly face; and then Paul felt a sort of shame
within him, for standing and spying at what was not
his own; and he would have hurried away, but the lady
waved her hand to him with a courtly air, as though
inviting him to approach. So he came forward,
and crossing the moat by a little bridge that was
hard by, he met her at the gate. He doffed his
hat, and said a few words asking pardon for thus intruding
on a private place, but she gave him a swift smile
and said, “Sir Paul, no more of this you
are known to me, though you know me not. I have
been at the Duke’s as a guest; I have heard you
sing indeed,” she added smiling, “I
have been honoured by having been made known to the
prince of musical men but he hath forgotten
my poor self; I am the Lady Beckwith, who welcomes
you to her poor house the Isle of Thorns,
as they call it and will deem it an honour
that you should set foot therein; though I think that
you came not for my sake.”
“Alas, madam, no,” said
Paul, smiling too. “I did but walk solitary
in the forest; I am lacking in courtesy, I fear; I
knew not that there was a house here, but it pleased
me to see it lie like a jewel in the wood.”
“You knew not it was here, or
you would have shunned it!” said the Lady Beckwith
with a smile. “Well, I live here solitary
enough with my daughters my husband is
long since dead but to-day we must have
a guest you will enter and tarry with us
a little?”
“Yes, very willingly,”
said Paul, who, like many men that care not much for
company, was tenderly courteous when there was no escape.
So after some further passages of courtesy, they went
within.
The Lady Beckwith led him into a fair
tapestried room, and bade him be seated, while she
went to call upon her servants to make ready refreshments
for him. Paul seated himself in an oak chair and
looked around him. The place was but scantily
furnished, but Paul had pleasure in looking upon the
old solid furniture, which reminded him of the House
of Heritage and of his far-off boyhood. He was
pleased, too, with the tapestry, which represented
a wood of walnut-trees, and a man that sate looking
upon a stream as though he listened; and then Paul
discerned the figure of a brave bird wrought among
the leaves, that seemed to sing; while he looked,
he heard the faint sound in a room above of some one
moving; then a lute was touched, and then there rose
a soft voice, very pure and clear, that sang a short
song of long sweet notes, with a descant on the lute,
ending in a high drawn-out note, that went to Paul’s
heart like wine poured forth, and seemed to fill the
room with a kind of delicate fragrance.
Presently the Lady Beckwith returned;
and they sate and talked awhile, till there came suddenly
into the room a maiden that seemed to Paul like a
rose; she came almost eagerly forward; and Paul knew
in his mind that it was she that had sung; and there
passed through his heart a feeling he had never known
before; it was as though it were a string that thrilled
with a kind of delicious pain at being bidden by the
touch of a finger to utter its voice.
“This is my daughter Margaret,”
said the Lady Beckwith; “she knows your fame
in song, but she has never had the fortune to hear
you sing, and she loves song herself.”
“And does more than love it,”
said Paul almost tremblingly, feeling the eyes of
the maiden set upon his face; “for I heard but
now a lute touched, and a voice that sang a melody
I know not, as few that I know could have sung it.”
The maiden stood smiling at him, and
then Paul saw that she carried a lute in her hand;
and she said eagerly, “Will you not sing to us,
Sir Paul?”
“Nay,” said the Lady Beckwith,
smiling, “but this is beyond courtesy!
It is to ask a prince to our house, and beg for the
jewels that he wears.”
The maiden blushed rosy red, and put
the lute by; but Paul stretched out his hand for it.
“I will sing most willingly,” he said.
“What is my life for, but to make music for
those who would hear?”
He touched a few chords to see that
the lute was well tuned; and the lute obeyed his touch
like a living thing; and then Paul sang a song of
springtime that made the hearts of the pair dance with
joy. When he had finished, he smiled, meeting
the smiles of both; and said, “And now we will
have a sad song for those are ever the sweetest joy
needs not to be made sweet.”
So he sang a sorrowful song that he
had made one winter day, when he had found the body
of a little bird that had died of the frost and the
hard silence of the unfriendly earth a song
of sweet things broken and good times gone by; and
before he had finished he had brought the tears to
the eyes of the pair. The Lady Beckwith brushed
them aside but the girl sate watching him,
her hands together, and a kind of worship in her face,
with the bright tears, trembling on her cheeks.
And Paul thought he had never seen a fairer thing;
but wishing to dry the tears, he made a little merry
song, like the song of gnats that dance up and down
in the sun, and love their silly play so
that the two smiled again.
Then they thanked him very urgently,
and Margaret said, “If only dear Helen could
hear this”; and the Lady Beckwith said, “Helen
is my other daughter, and she lies abed, and may not
come forth.”
Then they put food before him; and
they ate together, Margaret serving him with meat
and wine; and Paul would have forbidden it, but the
Lady Beckwith said, “That is the way of our house and
you are our guest and must be content for
Margaret loves to serve you.” The girl
said little, but as she moved about softly and deftly,
with the fragrance of youth about her, Paul had a
desire to draw her to him, that made him ashamed and
ill at ease. So the hours sped swiftly. The
maiden talked little, but the Lady Beckwith had much
matter for little speech; she asked Paul many questions,
and told him something of her own life, and how, while
the good Sir Harry, her husband, lived, she had been
much with the world, but now lived a quiet life, “Like
a wrinkled apple-tree behind a house,” she added
with a smile, “guarding my fruit, till it be
plucked from the bough.” And she went on
to say that though she had feared, when she entered
the quiet life, the days would hang heavy, yet there
never seemed time enough for all the small businesses
that she was fain to do.
When the day began to fall, and the
shadows of the trees out of the forest began to draw
nearer across the lawn, Paul rose and said, “Come,
I will sing you a song of farewell and thanks for this
day of pleasure,” and he made them a cheerful
ditty; and so took his leave, the Lady Beckwith saying
that they would speak of his visit for many days and
that she hoped that if his fancy led him again through
the wood, he would come to them; “For you will
find an open door, and a warm hearth, and friends
who look for you.” So Paul went, and walked
through the low red sunset with a secret joy in his
heart; and never had he sung so merrily as he sang
that night in the hall of the Duke; so that the Duke
said smiling that they must often go a-hunting, and
leave Sir Paul behind, for that seemed to fill him
to the brim with divine melody.
Now Paul that night, before he laid
him down to sleep, stood awhile, and made a prayer
in his heart. It must be said that as a child
he had prayed night and morning, in simple words that
Mistress Alison had taught him, but in the years when
he was with Mark the custom had died away; for Mark
prayed not, and indeed had almost an enmity to churches
and to priests, saying that they made men bound who
would otherwise be free; and he had said to Paul once
that he prayed the best who lived nobly and generously,
and made most perfect whatever gift he had; who was
kind and courteous, and used all men the same, whether
old or young, great or little; adding, “That
is my creed, and not the creed of the priests but
I would not have you take it from me thus a
man may not borrow the secret of another’s heart,
and wear it for his own. All faiths are good
that make a man live cleanly and lovingly and laboriously;
and just as all men like not the same music, so all
men are not suited with the same faith; we all tend
to the same place, but by different ways; and each
man should find the nearest way for him.”
Paul, after that, had followed his own heart in the
matter; and it led him not wholly in the way of the
priests, but not against them, as it led Mark.
Paul took some delight in the ordered solemnities of
the Church, the dark coolness of the arched aisles,
the holy smell he felt there the nearer
to God. And to be near to God was what Paul desired;
but he gave up praying at formal seasons, and spoke
with God in his heart, as a man might speak to his
friend, whenever he was moved to speak; he asked His
aid before the making of a song; he told Him when
he was disheartened, or when he desired what he ought
not; he spoke to Him when he had done anything of
which he was ashamed; and he told Him of his dreams
and of his joys. Sometimes he would speak thus
for half a day together, and feel a quiet comfort,
like a strong arm round him; but sometimes he would
be silent for a long while.
Now this night he spoke in his heart
to God, and told Him of the sweet and beautiful hope
that had come to him, and asked Him to make known
to him whether it was His will that he should put forth
his hand, and gather the flower of the wood for
he could not even in his secret heart bring himself
that night to speak, even to God, directly about the
maiden; but, in a kind of soft reverence, he used gentle
similitudes. And then he leaned from his
window, and strove to send his spirit out like a bird
over the sleeping wood, to light upon the tower; and
then his thought leapt further, and he seemed to see
the glimmering maiden chamber where she slept, breathing
evenly. But even in thought this seemed to him
too near, as though the vision were lacking in that
awful reverence, which is the herald of love.
So he thought that his spirit should sit, like a white
bird, on the battlement, and send out a quiet song.
And then he fell asleep, and slept
dreamlessly till the day came in through the casements;
when he sprang up, and joy darted into his heart,
as when a servitor fills a cup to the brim with rosy
and bubbling wine.
Now that day, and the next, and for
several days, Paul thought of little else but the
house in the wood and the maiden that dwelt there.
Even while he read or wrote, pictures would flash before
his eye. He saw Margaret stand before him, with
the lute in her hand; or he would see her as she had
moved about serving him, or he would see her as she
had sate to hear him sing, or as she had stood at the
door as he went forth and all with a sweet
hunger of the heart; till it seemed to him that this
was the only true thing that the world held, and he
would be amazed that he had missed it for so long.
That he was in the same world with her; that the air
that passed over the house in the wood was presently
borne to the castle; that they two looked upon the
same sky, and the same stars this was all
to him like a delicate madness that wrought within
his brain. And yet he could not bring himself
to go thither. The greater his longing, the more
he felt unable to go without a cause; and yet the
thought that there might be other men that visited
the Lady Beckwith, and had more of the courtly and
desirable arts of life than he, was like a bitter draught and
so the days went on; and never had he made richer
music; it seemed to rush from his brain like the water
of a full spring.
A few days after, there was a feast
at the castle and many were bidden; and Paul thought
in his heart that the Lady Beckwith would perhaps
be there. So he made a very tender song of love
to sing, the song of a heart that loves and dares
not fully speak.
When the hour drew on for the banquet,
he attired himself with a care which he half despised,
and when the great bell of the castle rang, he went
down his turret stairs with a light step. The
custom was for the guests to assemble in the great
hall of the castle; but they of the Duke’s household,
of whom Paul was one, gathered in a little chamber
off the hall. Then, when the Duke and Duchess
with their children came from their rooms, they passed
through this chamber into the hall, the household
following. When the Duke entered the hall, the
minstrels in the gallery played a merry tune, and
the guests stood up; then the Duke would go to his
place and bow to the guests, the household moving
to their places; then the music would cease, and the
choir sang a grace, all standing. Paul’s
place was an honourable one, but he sate with his
back to the hall; and this night, as soon as he entered
the hall, and while the grace was sung, he searched
with his eyes up and down the great tables, but he
could not see her whom he desired to see, and the
joy died out of his heart. Now though the Lords
and Knights of the castle honoured Paul because he
was honoured by the Duke, they had little ease with
him; so to-night, when Paul took his place, a Knight
that sate next him, a shrewd and somewhat malicious
man, who loved the talk of the Court, and turned all
things into a jest, said, “How now, Sir Paul?
You entered to-night full of joy; but now you are
like one that had expected to see a welcome guest and
saw him not.” Then Paul was vexed that
his thoughts should be so easily read, and said with
a forced smile, “Nay, Sir Edwin, we musical men
are the slaves of our moods; there would be no music
else; we have not the bold and stubborn hearts of
warriors born.” And at this there was a
smile, for Sir Edwin was not held to be foremost in
warlike exercise. But having thus said, Paul
never dared turn his head. And the banquet seemed
a tedious and hateful thing to him.
But at last it wore to an end, and
healths had been drunk, and grace was sung; and then
they withdrew to the Presence Chamber, where the Duke
and Duchess sate upon chairs of state under a canopy,
and the guests sate down on seats and benches.
And presently the Duke sent courteous word to Paul
that if he would sing they would gladly hear him.
So Paul rose in his place and made obeisance, and then
moved to a dais which was set at the end of the chamber;
and a page brought him his lute. But Paul first
made a signal to the musicians who were set aloft
in a gallery, and they played a low descant; and Paul
sang them a war-song with all his might, his voice
ringing through the room. Then, as the voice
made an end, there was a short silence, such as those
who have sung or spoken from a full heart best love
to hear for each such moment of silence
is like a rich jewel of praise and then
a loud cry of applause, which was hushed in a moment
because of the presence of the Duke.
Then Paul made a bow, and stood carelessly
regarding the crowd; for from long use he felt no
uneasiness to stand before many eyes; and just as
he fell to touching his lute, his eye fell on a group
in a corner; the Lady Beckwith sate there, and beside
her Margaret; behind whom sate a young Knight, Sir
Richard de Benoit by name, the fairest and goodliest
of all in the castle, whom Paul loved well; and he
leaned over and said some words in the maiden’s
ear, who looked round shyly at him with a little smile.
Then Paul put out all his art, as
though to recover a thing that he had nearly lost.
He struck a sweet chord on the lute, and the talk all
died away and left an utter silence; and Paul, looking
at but one face, and as though he spoke but to one
ear, sang his song of love. It was like a spell
of magic; men and women turned to each other and felt
the love of their youth rise in their hearts as sweet
as ever. The Duke where he sate laid a hand upon
the Duchess’ hand and smiled. They that
were old, and had lost what they loved, were moved
to weeping and the young men and maidens
looked upon the ground, or at the singer, and felt
the hot blood rise in their cheeks. And Paul,
exulting in his heart, felt that he swayed the souls
of those that heard him, as the wind sways a field
of wheat, that bends all one way before it. Then
again came the silence, when the voice ceased; a silence
into which the last chords of the lute sank, like stones
dropped into a still water. And Paul bowed again,
and stepped down from the dais and then
with slow steps he moved to where the Lady Beckwith
sate, and bowing to her, took the chair beside her.
Then came a tumbler and played many
agile tricks before them; and then a company of mummers,
with the heads of birds and beasts, danced and sported.
But the Lady Beckwith said, “Sir Paul, I will
tell you a tale. A bird of the forest alighted
at our window-sill some days ago, and sang very sweetly
to us and we spread crumbs and made it a
little feast; and it seemed to trust us, but presently
it spread its wings and flew away, and it comes not
again. Tell us, what shall we do to tempt the
wild bird back?” And Paul, smiling in her face,
said, “Oh, madam, the bird will return; but
he leads, maybe, a toilsome life, gathering berries,
and doing small businesses. The birds, which seem
so free, live a life of labour; and they may not always
follow their hearts. But be sure that your bird
knows his friends; and some day, when he has opportunity,
he will alight again. To him his songs seem but
a small gift, a shallow twittering that can hardly
please.” “Nay,” said the Lady
Beckwith, “but this was a nightingale that knew
the power of song, and could touch all hearts except
his own; and thus, finding love so simple a thing
to win, doubtless holds it light.” “Nay,”
said Paul, “he holds it not light; it is too
heavy for him; he knows it too well to trifle with
it.”
Then finding that the rest were silent,
they too were silent. And so they held broken
discourse; and ever the young Knight spoke in Margaret’s
ear, so that Paul was much distraught, but dared not
seem to intervene, or to speak with the maiden, when
he had held aloof so long.
Presently the Lady Beckwith said she
had a boon to ask, and that she would drop her parables.
And she said that her daughter Helen, that was sick,
had been very envious of them, because she had not
heard his songs, but only a soft echo of them through
the chamber floor. “And perhaps, Sir Paul,”
she said, “if you will not come for friendship,
you will come for mercy; and sing to my poor child,
who has but few joys, a song or twain.”
Then Paul’s heart danced within him, and he
said, “I will come to-morrow.” And
soon after that the Duke went out and the guests dispersed;
and then Paul greeted the Lady Margaret, and said
a few words to her; but he could not please himself
in what he said; and that night he slept little, partly
for thinking of what he might have said: but
still more for thinking that he would see her on the
morrow.
So when the morning came, Paul went
very swiftly through the forest to the Isle of Thorns.
It was now turning fast to winter, and the trees had
shed their leaves. The forest was all soft and
brown, and the sky was a pearly grey sheet of high
cloud; but a joy as of spring was in Paul’s
heart, and he smiled and sang as he went, though he
fell at times into sudden silences of wonder and delight.
When he arrived, the Lady Beckwith greeted him very
lovingly, and presently led him into a small chamber
that seemed to be an oratory. Here was a little
altar very seemly draped, with stools for kneeling,
and a chair or two. Near the altar, at the side,
was a little door in the wall behind a hanging; the
Lady Beckwith pulled the hanging aside, and bade Paul
to follow; he found himself in a small arched recess,
lit by a single window of coloured glass, that was
screened from a larger room, of which it was a part,
by a curtain. The Lady Beckwith bade Paul be
seated, and passed beyond the curtain for an instant.
The room within seemed dark, but there came from it
a waft of the fragrance of flowers; and Paul heard
low voices talking together, and knew that Margaret
spake; in a moment she appeared at the entrance, and
greeted him with a very sweet and simple smile, but
laid her finger on her lips; and so slipped back into
the room again, but left Paul’s heart beating
strangely and fiercely. Then the Lady Beckwith
returned, and said in a whisper to Paul that it was
a day of suffering for Helen, and that she could not
bear the light. So she seated herself near him,
and Paul touched his lute, and sang songs, five or
six, gentle songs of happy untroubled things, like
the voices of streams that murmur to themselves when
the woods are all asleep; and between the songs he
spoke not, but played airily and wistfully upon his
lute; and for all that it seemed so simple, he had
never put more art into what he played and sang.
And at last he made the music die away to a very soft
close, like an evening wind that rustles away across
a woodland, and moves to the shining west. And
looking at the Lady Beckwith, he saw that she had
passed, on the wings of song, into old forgotten dreams,
and sate smiling to herself, her eyes brimming with
tears. And then he rose, and saying that he would
not be tedious, put the lute aside, and they went
out quietly together. And the Lady Beckwith took
his hand in both her own and said, “Sir Paul,
you are a great magician I could not believe
that you could have so charmed an old and sad-hearted
woman. You have the key of the door of the land
of dreams; and think not that I am ungrateful; that
you, for whose songs princes contend in vain, should
deign to come and sing to a maiden that is sick how
shall I repay it?” “Oh, I am richly repaid,”
said Paul, “the guerdon of the singer is the
incense of a glad heart and you may give
me a little love if you can, for I am a lonely man.”
Then they smiled at each other, the smile that makes
a compact without words.
Then they went down together, and
there was a simple meal set out; and they ate together
like old and secure friends, speaking little; but
the Lady Beckwith told him somewhat of her daughter
Helen, how she had been fair and strong till her fifteenth
year; and that since that time, for five weary years,
she had suffered under a strange and wasting disease
that nothing could amend. “But she is patient
and cheerful beneath it, or I think my heart would
break; but I know,” she added, and
her mouth quivered as she spoke, “that she can
hardly see another spring, and I would have her last
days to be sweet. I doubt not,” she went
on, “the good and wise purposes of God, and I
think that He often sends His bright angels to comfort
her for she is never sad and
when you sing as you sang just now, I seem to understand,
and my heart says that it is well.”
While they spoke the Lady Margaret
came into the room, with a sudden radiance; and coming
to Paul she kneeled down beside him, and kissed his
hand suddenly, and said, “Helen thanks you, and
I thank you, Sir Paul, for giving her such joy as
you could hardly believe.”
There came a kind of mist over Paul’s
eyes, to feel the touch of the lips that he loved
so well upon his hand; but at the same time it appeared
to him like a kind of sin that he who seemed to himself,
in that moment, so stained and hard, should have reverence
done him by one so pure. So he raised her up,
and said, “Nay, this is not meet”; and
he would have said many other words that rushed together
in his mind, but he could not frame them right.
But presently the Lady Beckwith excused herself and
went; and then Paul for a sweet hour sate, and talked
low and softly to the maiden, and threw such worship
into his voice that she was amazed. But he said
no word of love. And she told him of their simple
life, and how her sister suffered. And then Paul
feared to stay longer, and went with a mighty and tumultuous
joy in his heart.
Then for many days Paul went thus
to the Isle of Thorns and the Lady Margaret
threw aside her fear of him, and would greet him like
a brother. Sometimes he would find her waiting
for him at the gate, and then the air was suddenly
full of a holy radiance. And the Lady Beckwith,
too, began to use him like a son; but the Lady Helen
he never saw only once or twice he heard
her soft voice speak in the dark room. And Paul
made new songs for her, but all the time it was for
Margaret that he sang.
And they at the castle wondered why
Sir Paul, who used formerly to sit so much in his
chamber, now went so much abroad. But he guarded
his secret, and they knew not whither he went; only
he saw once, from looks that passed between two of
the maidens, that they spoke of him; and this in times
past might have made him ashamed, but now his heart
was too high, and he cared not.
There came a day when Paul, finding
himself alone with the Lady Beckwith, opened his heart
suddenly to her; but he was checked, as it were, by
a sudden hand, for there came into her face a sad and
troubled look, as though she blamed herself for something.
Then she said to him, faltering, that she knew not
what to say, for she could not read her daughter’s
heart “and I think, Sir Paul,”
she added, “that she hath no thought of love love
of the sort of which you speak. Nay, the maiden
loves you well, like a dear brother; she smiles at
your approach, and runs to meet you when she hears
your step at the door”; and then seeing a look
of pain and terror in the face of Paul, she said,
“Nay, dear Paul, I know not. God knows how
gladly I would have it so, but hearts are very strangely
made; yet you shall speak if you will, and I will
give you my prayers.” And then she stooped
to Paul, and kissed his brow, and said, “There
is a mother’s kiss, for you are the son of my
heart, whatever befall.”
So presently the maiden came in, and
Paul asked her to walk a little with him in the garden,
and she went smiling; and then he could find no words
at all to tell her what was in his heart, till she
said, laughing, that he looked strangely, and that
it seemed he had nought to say. So Paul took
her hand, and told her all his love; and she looked
upon him, smiling very quietly, neither trembling nor
amazed, and said that she would be his wife if so
he willed it, and that it was a great honour; “and
then,” she added, “you need not go from
us, but you can sing to Helen every day.”
Then he kissed her; and there came into his heart
a great wave of tenderness, and he thanked God very
humbly for so great a gift. Yet he somehow felt
in his heart that he was not yet content, and that
this was not how he had thought it would fall out;
but he also told himself that he would yet win the
maiden’s closer love, for he saw that she loved
not as he loved. Then after a little talk they
went together and told the Lady Beckwith, and she
blessed them; but Paul could see that neither was she
content, but that she looked at Margaret with a questioning
and wondering look.
Then there followed very sweet days.
It was soon in the springtime of the year; the earth
was awaking softly from her long sleep, and was by
gentle degrees arraying herself for her summer pomp.
The primroses put out yellow stars about the tree
roots; the hyacinths carpeted the woods with blue,
and sent their sweet breath down the glade; and Paul
felt strange desires stir in his heart, and rise like
birds upon the air; and when he walked with the Lady
Margaret among the copses, or rested awhile upon green
banks, where the birds sang hidden in the thickets,
his heart made continual melody, and rose in a stream
of praise to God. But they spoke little of love;
at times Paul would try to say something of what was
in his mind; but the Lady Margaret heard him, sedately
smiling, as though she were pleased that she could
give him this joy, but as though she understood not
what he said. She loved to hear of Paul’s
life, and the places he had visited. And Paul,
for all his joy, felt that in his love he was, as
it were, voyaging on a strange and fair sea alone,
and as though the maiden stood upon the shore and
waved her hand to him. When he kissed her or took
her hand in his own, she yielded to him gently and
lovingly, like a child; and it was then that Paul
felt most alone. But none the less was he happy,
and day after day was lit for him with a golden light.
IV
One day there came a messenger for
Paul, and brought him news that made him wonder:
the House of Heritage had fallen, on Mistress Alison’s
death, to a distant kinsman of her own and of his.
This man, who was without wife or child, had lived
there solitary, and it seemed that he was now dead;
and he had left in his will that if Sir Paul should
wish to redeem the house and land for a price, he should
have the first choice to do so, seeing his boyhood
had been spent there. Now Paul was rich, for
he had received many great gifts and had spent little;
and there came into his heart a great and loving desire
to possess the old house. He told the Lady Beckwith
and Margaret of this, and they both advised him to
go and see it. So Paul asked leave of the Duke,
and told him his business. Then the Duke said
very graciously that Paul had served him well, and
that he would buy the house at his own charges, and
give it to Paul as a gift; but he added that this was
a gift for past service, and that he would in no way
bind Paul; but he hoped that Paul would still abide
in the castle, at least for a part of the year, and
make music for them. “For indeed,”
said the Duke very royally, “it were not meet
that so divine a power should be buried in a rustic
grange, but it should abide where it can give delight.
Indeed, Sir Paul, it is not only delight! but through
your music there flows a certain holy and ennobling
grace into the hearts of all who attentively hear
you, and tames our wild and brutish natures into something
worthier and more seemly.” Then Paul thanked
the Duke very tenderly, and said that he would not
leave him.
So Paul journeyed alone with an old
man-at-arms, whom the Duke sent with him for his honour
and security; and when he arrived at the place, he
lodged at the inn. He found the House of Heritage
very desolate, inhabited only by the ancient maid
of Mistress Alison, now grown old and infirm.
So Paul purchased the house and land at the Duke’s
charges, and caused it to be repaired, within and without,
and hired a gardener to dress and keep the ground.
He was very impatient to be gone, but the matter could
not be speedily settled; and though he desired to
return to Wresting, and to see Margaret, of whom he
thought night and day, yet he found a great spring
of tenderness rise up in his heart at the sight of
the old rooms, in which little had been changed.
The thought of his lonely and innocent boyhood came
back to him, and he visited all his ancient haunts,
the fields, the wood, and the down. He thought
much, too, of Mistress Alison and her wise and gracious
ways; indeed, sitting alone, as he often did in the
old room at evening, it seemed to him almost as though
she sate and watched him, and was pleased to know
that he was famous, and happy in his love; so that
it appeared to him as though she gave him a benediction
from some far-off and holy place, where she abode and
was well satisfied.
Then at last he was able to return;
but he had been nearly six weeks away. He had
moved into the house and lived there; and it had filled
him with a kind of solemn happiness to picture how
he would some day, when he was free, live there with
Margaret for his wife; and perhaps there would be
children too, making the house sweet with their laughter
and innocent games children who should look
at him with eyes like their mother’s. Long
hours would pass thus while he sate holding a book
or his lute between his hands, the time streaming past
in a happy tide of thoughts.
But the last night was sad, for he
had gone early to his bed, as he was to start betimes
in the morning; and he dreamed that he had gone through
the wood to the Isle of Thorns, and had seen the house
stand empty and shuttered close, with no signs of
life about it. In his dream he went and beat
upon the door, and heard his knocks echo in the hall;
and just as he was about to beat again, it was opened
to him by an old small woman, that looked thin and
sad, with grey hair and many wrinkles, whom he did
not know. He had thrust past her, though she
seemed to have wished to stay him; and pushing on,
had found Margaret sitting in the hall, who had looked
up at him, and then covered her face with her hands,
and he had seen a look of anguish upon her face.
Then the dream had slipped from him, and he dreamed
again that he was in a lonely place, a bleak mountain-top,
with a wide plain spread out beneath; and he had watched
the flight of two white birds, which seemed to rise
from the rocks near him, and fly swiftly away, beating
their wings in the waste of air.
He woke troubled, and found the dawn
peeping through the chinks of the shutter; and soon
he heard the tramping of horses without, and knew
that he must rise and go. And the thought of the
dream dwelt heavily with him; but presently, riding
in the cool air, it seemed to him that his fears were
foolish; and his love came back to him, so that he
said the name Margaret over many times to himself,
like a charm, and sent his thoughts forward, imagining
how Margaret, newly risen, would be moving about the
quiet house, perhaps expecting him. And then
he sang a little to himself, and was pleased to see
the old man-at-arms smile wearily as he rode beside
him.
Three days after he rode into the
Castle of Wresting at sundown, and was greeted very
lovingly; the Duke would not let him sing that night,
though Paul said he was willing; but after dinner he
asked him many questions of how he had fared.
And Paul hoped that he might have heard some talk
of the Lady Margaret. But none spoke of her, and
he dared not ask. One thing that he noticed was
that at dinner the young Sir Richard de Benoit sate
opposite him, looking very pale; and Paul, more than
once, looking up suddenly, saw that the Knight was
regarding him very fixedly, as though he were questioning
of somewhat; and that each time Sir Richard dropped
his eyes as though he were ashamed. After dinner
was over, and Paul had been discharged by the Duke,
he had gone back into the hall to see if he could
have speech of Sir Richard, and ask if anything ailed
him; but he found him not.
Then on the morrow, as soon as he
might, he made haste to go down to the Isle of Thorns.
As he was crossing a glade, not far from the house,
he saw to his surprise, far down the glade, a figure
riding on a horse, who seemed for a moment to be Sir
Richard himself. He stood awhile to consider,
and then, going down the glade, he cried out to him.
Sir Richard, who was on a white horse, drew rein, and
turned with his hand upon the loins of the horse;
and then he turned again, and, urging the horse forward,
disappeared within the wood. There came, as it
were, a chill into Paul’s heart that he should
be thus unkindly used; and he vexed his brain to think
in what he could have offended the Knight; but he
quickly returned to his thoughts of love; so he made
haste, and soon came down to the place.
Now, when he came near, he thought
for a moment of his dream; and shrank back from stepping
out of the trees at the corner whence he could see
the house; but chiding himself for his vain terrors,
he went swiftly out, and saw the house stand as before,
with the trees all delicate green behind it, and the
smoke ascending quietly from the chimneys.
Then he made haste; and for
he was now used to enter unbidden went
straight into the house; the hall and the parlours
were all empty; so that he called upon the servants;
an old serving-maid came forth, and then Paul knew
in a moment that all was not well. He looked at
her for a moment, and a question seemed to be choked
in his throat; and then he said swiftly, “Is
the Lady Beckwith within?” The old serving-maid
said gravely, “She is with the Lady Helen, who
is very sick.” Then Sir Paul bade her tell
the Lady Beckwith that he was in the house; and as
he stood waiting, there came a kind of shame into his
heart, that what he had heard was so much less than
what he had for an instant feared; and while he strove
to be more truly sorry, the Lady Beckwith stood before
him, very pale. She began to speak at once, and
in a low and hurried voice told him of Helen’s
illness, and how that there was little to hope; and
then she put her hand on Paul’s arm, and said,
“My son, why did you leave us?” adding
hastily, “Nay, it could not have been otherwise.”
And Paul, looking upon her face, divined in some sudden
way that she had not told him all that was in her mind.
So he said, “Dear mother, you know the cause
of that but tell me all, for I see there
is more behind.” Then the Lady Beckwith
put her face in her hands, and saying, “Yes,
dear Paul, there is more,” fell to weeping secretly.
While they thus stood together and Paul
was aware of a deadly fear that clutched at his heart
and made all his limbs weak the Lady Margaret
came suddenly into the room, looking so pale and worn
that Paul for a moment did not recognise her.
But he put out his arms, and took a step towards her;
then he saw that she had not known he was in the house;
for she turned first red and then very pale, and stepped
backwards; and it went to Paul’s heart like the
stabbing of a sharp knife, that she looked at him with
a look in which there was shame mingled with a certain
fear.
Now while Paul stood amazed and almost
stupefied with what he saw, the Lady Beckwith said
quickly and almost sternly to Margaret, “Go
back to Helen she may not be left alone.”
Margaret slipped from the room; and the Lady Beckwith
pointed swiftly to a chair, and herself sate down.
Then she said, “Dear Paul, I have dreaded this
moment and the sight of you for some days and
though I should wish to take thought of what I am
to say to you, and to say it carefully, it makes an
ill matter worse to dally with it so I will
even tell you at once. You must know that some
three days after you left us, the young Knight Sir
Richard de Benoit fell from his horse, when riding
in the wood hard by this house, and was grievously
hurt by the fall. They carried him in here and
we tended him. I had much upon my hands, for dear
Helen was in great suffering; and so it fell out that
Margaret was often with the Knight who,
indeed, is a noble and generous youth, very pure and
innocent of heart and oh, Paul, though it
pierces my heart to say it, he loves her and
I think that she loves him too. It is a strange
and terrible thing, this love! it is like the sword
that the Lord Christ said that He came to bring on
earth, for it divides loving households that were
else at one together; and now I must say more the
maiden knew not before what love was; she had read
of it in the old books; and when you came into this
quiet house, bringing with you all the magic of song,
and the might of a gentle and noble spirit, and offered
her love, she took it gladly and sweetly, not knowing
what it was that you gave; but I have watched my child
from her youth up, and the love that she gave you
was the love that she would have given to a brother she
admired you and reverenced you. She knew that
maidens were asked and given in marriage, and she took
your love, as a child might take a rich jewel, and
love the giver of it. And, indeed, she would
have wedded you, and might have learned to love you
in the other way. But God willed it otherwise;
and seeing the young Knight, it was as though a door
was opened in her spirit, and she came out into another
place. I am sure that no word of love has passed
between them; but it has leaped from heart to heart
like a swift fire; and all this I saw too late; but
seeing it, I told Sir Richard how matters stood; and
he is an honourable youth; for from that moment he
sought how he might be taken hence, and made reasons
to see no more of the maid. But his misery I
could see; and she is no less miserable; for she has
a very pure and simple spirit, and has fought a hard
conflict with herself; yet will she hold to her word.
“And now, dear Paul, judge between
us, for the matter lies in your hands. She is
yours, if you claim her; but her heart cannot be yours
awhile, though you may win it yet. It is true
that both knights and maidens have wedded, loving
another; yet they have learned to love each other,
and have lived comfortably and happily; but whether,
knowing what I have been forced to tell you, you can
be content that things should be as before, I know
not.”
Then the Lady Beckwith made a pause,
and beat her hands together, watching Paul’s
face; Paul sate very still and pale, all the light
gone out of his eyes, with his lips pressed close together.
And at the sight of him the tears came into Lady Beckwith’s
eyes, and she could not stay them. And Paul,
looking darkly on her, strove to pity her, but could
not; and clasping the arms of his chair, said hoarsely,
“I cannot let her go.” So they sate
awhile in silence; and then Paul rose and said, “Dear
lady, you have done well to tell me this I
know deep down in my heart what a brave and noble
thing you have done: but I cannot yet believe
it I will see the Lady Margaret and question
her of the matter.” Then the lady said,
“Nay, dear Paul, you will not you
think that you would do so; but you could not speak
with her face to face of such a matter, and she could
not answer you. You must think of it alone, and
to-morrow you must tell me what you decide; and whichever
way you decide it, I will help you as far as I can.”
And then she said, “You will pity me a little,
dear Paul, for I had rather have had a hand cut off
than have spoken with you thus.” And these
simple words brought Paul a little to himself, and
he rose from his place and kissed the Lady Beckwith’s
hand, and said, “Dear mother, you have done
well; but my sorrow is greater than I can bear.”
And at that the Lady Beckwith wept afresh; but Paul
went out in a stony silence, hardly knowing what he
did.
Then it seemed to Paul as though he
went down into deep waters indeed, which passed cold
and silent, in horror and bitterness, over his soul.
He did not contend or cry out; but he knew that the
light had fallen out of his life, and had left him
dark and dead.
So he went slowly back to the castle
through the wood, hating his life and all that he
was; once or twice he felt a kind of passion rise
within him, and he said to himself, “She is pledged
to me, and she shall be mine.” And then
there smote upon him the thought that in thinking
thus he was rather brute than man. And he fell
at last into an agony of prayer that God would lead
him to the light, and show him what he should do.
When he reached the castle he put a strong constraint
upon himself; he went down to the hall; he even sang;
but it was like a dream; he seemed to be out of the
body, and as it were to see himself standing, and
to hear the words falling from his own lips.
The Duke courteously praised him, and said that he
was well content to hear his minstrel again.
As he left the hall, he passed through
a little ante-room, that was hung with arras, on the
way to his chamber; and there he saw sitting on a
bench, close to the door that led to the turret stair,
the young Knight, Sir Richard; and there rose in his
heart a passion of anger, so strong that he felt as
though a hand were laid upon his heart, crushing it.
And he stood still, and looked upon the Knight, who
raised so pale and haggard a face upon him, that Paul,
in spite of his own misery, saw before him a soul
as much or more vexed than his own; and then the anger
died out of his heart, and left in him only the sense
of the bitter fellowship of suffering; the Knight rose
to his feet, and they stood for a moment looking at
each other; and then the Knight said, pale to the
lips, “Sir Paul, we are glad to welcome you
back I have heard of the Duke’s gift,
and rejoice that your inheritance should thus return
to you.” And Paul bowed and said, “Ay,
it is a great gift; but it seems that in finding it
I have lost a greater.” And then, seeing
the Knight grow paler still, if that were possible,
he said, “Sir Richard, let me tell you a parable;
there was a little bird of the wood that came to my
window, and made me glad so that I thought
of no other thing but my wild bird, that trusted me:
and while I was absent, one hath whispered it away,
and it will not return.” And Sir Richard
said, “Nay, Sir Paul, you are in this unjust.
What if the wild bird hath seen its mate? And,
for you know not the other side of the parable, its
mate hath hid itself in the wood, and the wild bird
will return to you, if you bid it come.”
Then Sir Paul, knowing that the Knight
had done worthily and like a true knight, said, “Sir
Richard, I am unjust; but you will pardon me, for
my heart is very sore.” And so Paul passed
on to his chamber; and that night was a very bitter
one, for he went down into the sad valley into which
men must needs descend, and he saw no light there.
And once in the night he rose dry-eyed and fevered
from his bed, and twitching the curtain aside, saw
the forest lie sleeping in the cold light of the moon;
and his thought went out to the Isle of Thorns, and
he saw the four hearts that were made desolate; and
he questioned in his heart why God had made the hard
and grievous thing that men call love.
Then he went back and fell into a sort of weary sleep; and waking therefrom,
he felt a strange and terrible blackness seize upon his spirit, so that he could
hear his own heart beat furious and thick in the darkness; and he prayed that
God would release him from the prison of the world. But while he lay, he
heard the feet of a horse clatter on the pavement, it being now near the dawn;
and presently there came a page fumbling to the door, who bore a letter from the
Lady Beckwith, and it ran:
"I would not write to you thus,
dear Paul, unless my need were urgent; but the
dear Helen is near her end, and has prayed me
many times that, if it were possible, you should come
and sing to her for she fears to go into
the dark, and says that your voice can give her
strength and hope. Now if it be possible,
come; but if you say nay to my messenger, I shall
well understand it. But the dear one hath done
you no hurt, and for the love of the God who
made us, come and comfort us from
her who loves you as a son, these."
Then Paul when he had read, pondered
for awhile; and then he said to the page, “Say
that I will come.” So he arrayed himself
with haste, and went swiftly through the silent wood,
looking neither to left or to right, but only to the
path at his feet. And presently he came to the
Isle of Thorns; it lay in a sort of low silver mist,
the house pushing through it, as a rock out of the
sea. And then a sudden chill came over Paul,
and the very marrow of his bones shuddered; for he
knew in his heart that this was nothing but the presaging
of death; and he thought that the dreadful angel stood
waiting at the door, and that presently the spirit
of one that lay within must arise, leaving the poor
body behind, and go with the angel.
In the high chamber where Helen lay
burnt a light behind a curtain; and Paul saw a form
pass slowly to and fro. And he would fain have
pitied the two who must lose her whom they loved; but
there passed over his spirit a sort of bitter wind;
and he could feel no pity for any soul but his own,
and his heart was dry as dust; he felt in his mind
nothing but a kind of dumb wonder as to why he had
troubled himself to come.
There must have been, he saw, a servant
bidden to await his coming, because, as his feet sounded
on the flags, the door was opened to him; and in a
moment he was within the hall. At the well-known
sights and scents of the place, the scene of his greatest
happiness, the old aching came back into his stony
heart, and grief, that was like a sharp sword, thrust
through him. Suddenly, as he stood, a door opened,
and Margaret came into the hall; she saw him in a moment;
and he divined that she had not known he was within,
but had meant only to pass through; for she stopped
short as though irresolute, and looked at him with
a wild and imploring gaze, like a forest thing caught
in a trap.
In a moment there flowed into Paul’s
heart a great pity and tenderness, and a strength
so wonderful that he knew it was not his own, but
the immortal strength of God. And he stepped forward,
forgetting all his own pain and misery, and said, “Margaret,
dear one, dear sister, what is the shadow that hath
fallen between us at this time? I would not,”
he went on, “speak of ourselves at such an hour
as this; but I see that there is somewhat we
minstrels have a power to look in the heart of those
we love and I think it is this that
you can love me, dear one, as a brother, and not as
a lover. Well, I am content, and so it shall
be. I love you too well, little one, to desire
any love but what you can give me so brother
and sister we will be.” Then he saw a light
come into her face, and she murmured words of sorrow
that he could not hear; but he put his arm about her
as a brother might, and kissed her cheek. And
then she put her hands upon his shoulder, and her
face upon them, and broke out into a passion of weeping.
And Paul, saying “Even so,” kissed and
comforted her, as one might comfort a child, till
she looked up, as if to inquire somewhat of him.
And he said smiling, “So this is my dear sister
indeed yes, I will be content with that and
now take me to the dear Helen, that I may see if my
art can comfort her.” Then it was very
sweet to Paul’s sore heart that she drew her
arm within his own and led him up from the room.
Then there came in haste the Lady Beckwith down to
meet them, with a look of pain upon her face; and
Paul said, still smiling, “We are brother and
sister henceforth.” Then the Lady Beckwith
smiled too out of her grief and said, “Oh, it
is well.”
Then they passed together through
the oratory and entered the chamber of death.
And then Paul saw a heavenly sight. The room was
a large one, dim and dark. In a chair near the
fire, all in white, sate a maiden like a lily so
frail and delicate that she seemed like a pure spirit,
not a thing of earth. She sate with a hand upraised
between her and the fire; and when Paul came in, she
looked at him with a smile in which appeared nothing
but a noble patience, as though she had waited long;
but she did not speak. Then they drew a chair
for Paul, and he took his lute, and sang soft and
low, a song of one who sinks into sweet dreams, when
the sounds of day are hushed and presently
he made an end. Then she made a sign that Paul
should approach, and he went to her, and kneeled beside
her, and kissed her hand. And Margaret came out
of the dark, and put her hand on Paul’s shoulder
saying, “This is our brother.” And
Helen smiled in Paul’s face and something,
a kind of heavenly peace and love, seemed to pass
from her eyes and settle in Paul’s heart; and
it was told him in that hour, he knew not how, that
this was his bride whom he had loved, and that he
had loved Margaret for her sake; and that moment seemed
to Paul to be worth all his life that had gone before,
and all that should go after. So he knelt in
the silence; and then in a moment, he knew not where
or whence, the whole air seemed full of a heavenly
music about them, such music as he had never dreamed
of, the very soul and essence of the music of earth.
But Helen laid her head back, and, smiling still,
she died. And Paul laid her hand down.
Then without a word he rose, and went
from the chamber; and he stepped out into the garden,
and paced there wondering; he saw the trees stand
silent in their sleep, and the flowers like stars in
their dewy beds. And he knew that God was very
near him; he put all his burdens and sorrows, his
art, and all himself within the mighty hands; and
he knew that he could never doubt again of the eternal
goodness and the faithful tender love of the Father.
And all the while the dawn slowly brightened over
the wood, and came up very slowly and graciously out
of the east. Then Paul gave word that he must
return to the castle, but would come back soon.
And as he mounted the steps, he saw that there was
a man pacing on the terrace above, and knew that it
was the Knight Richard, whom he sought. So he
went up on the terrace, and there he saw the young
Knight looking out over the forest; Paul went softly
up to him and laid his hand upon his shoulder, and
the Knight turned upon him a haggard and restless
eye. Then Paul said, “Sir Richard, I come
from the Isle of Thorns but I have more
to say to you. You are a noble Knight and have
done very worthily and I yield to you with
all my heart the dear Margaret, for we are brother
and sister, and nought else, now and henceforth.”
Then Sir Richard, as though he hardly heard him aright,
stood looking upon his face; and Paul took his hand
very gently in both his own, and said, “Yes,
it is even so and we will be brothers too.”
Then he went within the castle and lying
down in his chamber he slept peacefully like a little
child.
V
Many years have passed since that
day. First Sir Richard wedded the Lady Margaret,
and dwelt at the Isle of Thorns. A boy was born
to them, whom they named Paul, and a daughter whom
they called Helen. And Paul was much with them,
and had great content. He made, men said, sweeter
music than ever he had done, in those days. Then
the Duke died; and Paul, though his skill failed not,
and though the King himself would have had him to
his Court, went back to the House of Heritage, and
there dwelt alone, a grave and kindly man, very simple
of speech, and loving to walk and sit alone. And
Sir Richard and the Lady Margaret bought an estate
hard by and dwelt there.
Now Paul would make no more music,
save that he sometimes played a little on the lute
for the pleasure of the Lady Margaret; but he took
into his house a boy whom he taught the art; and when
he was trained and gone into the world, to make music
of his own, Paul took another so that as
the years went on, he had sent out a number of his
disciples to be minstrels; so his art was not lost;
and one of these, who was a very gracious child named
Percival, he loved better than the rest, because he
saw in him that he had a love for the art more than
for all the rewards of art. And once when they
sate together, the boy Percival said, “Dear
sir, may I ask you a question?” “A dozen,
if it be your will,” said Paul, smiling; “but,
dear child, I know not if I can answer it.”
Then the boy said, “Why do you not make more
music, dear sir? for it seems to me like a well that
holds its waters close and deep, and will not give
them forth.” Then Paul said, smiling, “Nay,
I have given men music of the best. But there
are two reasons why I make no more; and I will tell
you them, if you can understand them. The first
is that many years ago I heard a music that shamed
me; and that sealed the well.” Then the
boy said, musing, “Tell me the name of the musician,
dear Sir Paul, for I have heard that you were ever
the first.” Then Paul said, “Nay,
I know not the name of the maker of it.”
Then the boy said, smiling, “Then, dear sir,
it must have been the music of the angels.”
And Paul said, “Ay, it was that.”
Then the boy was silent, and sate in awe, while Paul
mused, touching his lute softly. Then he roused
himself and said, “And the second reason, dear
child, is this. There comes a time to all that
make whether it be books or music
or pictures when they can make no new thing,
but go on in the old manner, working with the fingers
of age the dreams of youth. And to me this seems
as it were a profane and unholy thing, that a man
should use so divine an art thus unworthily; it is
as though a host should set stale wine before his guests,
and put into it some drug which should deceive their
taste; and I think that those who do this do it for
two reasons: either they hanker for the praise
thereof, and cannot do without the honour and
that is unworthy or they do it because
they have formed the habit of it, and have nought
to fill their vacant hours and that is unworthy
too. So hearing the divine music of which I spoke
but now, I knew that I could attain no further; and
that there was a sweet plenty of music in the hand
of God, and that He would give it as men needed it;
but that my own work was done. For each man must
decide for himself when to make an end. And further,
dear child, mark this! The peril for us and for
all that follow art is to grow so much absorbed in
our handiwork, so vain of it, that we think there
is nought else in the world. Into that error
I fell, and therein abode. But we are in this
world like little children at school. God has
many fair things to teach us, but we grow to love
our play, and to think of nought else, so that the
holy lessons fall on unheeding ears; but now I have
put aside my play, and sit awhile listening to the
voice of God, and to all that He may teach me; and
the lesson is hard to spell; but I wait upon Him humbly
and quietly, till He call me hence. And now we
have talked enough, and we will go back to our music;
and you shall play me that passage over, for you played
it not deftly enough before.”
Now it happened that a few days later
Paul in his sleep dreamed a dream; and when he woke,
he could scarce contain his joy; and the boy Percival,
seeing him in the morning, marvelled at the radiance
that appeared in his face; and a little later Paul
bade him go across the fields to the Lady Margaret’s
house, and to bid her come to him, if she would, for
he had something that he must tell her, and he might
not go abroad. So Percival told the Lady Margaret;
and she wondered at the message, and asked if Sir
Paul was sick. And the boy said, “No, I
never saw him so full of joy so that I am
afraid.”
Then the Lady Margaret went to the
House of Heritage; and Paul came to greet her at the
door, and brought her in, and sate for awhile in silence,
looking on her face. The Lady Margaret was now
a very comely and sedate lady, and had held her son’s
child in her arms; and Paul was a grey-haired man;
yet in his eyes she was still the maiden he had known.
Then Paul, speaking very softly, said, “Dear
Margaret, I have bidden you come hither, for I think
I am called hence; and when I depart, and I know not
when it may be, I would close my eyes in the dear
house where I was nurtured.” Then she looked
at him with a sudden fear, but he went on, “Dear
one, I have dreamed very oft of late of Helen she
stands smiling in a glory, and looks upon me.
But this last night I saw more. I know not if
I slept or waked, but I heard a high and heavenly
music; and then I saw Helen stand, but she stood not
alone; she held by the hand a child, who smiled upon
me; and the child was like herself; but I presently
discerned that the child had a look of myself as well;
and she loosed the child’s hand from her own,
and the child ran to me and kissed me; and Helen seemed
to beckon me; and then I passed into sleep again.
But now I see the truth. The love that I bear
her hath begotten, I think, a child of the spirit that
hath never known a mortal birth; and the twain wait
for me.” And Margaret, knowing not what
to say, but feeling that he had seen somewhat high
and heavenly, sate in silence; and presently Paul,
breaking out of a muse, began to talk of the sweet
days of their youth, and of the tender mercies of
God. But while he spoke, he suddenly broke off,
and held up his hand; and there came a waft of music
upon the air. And Paul smiled like a tired child,
and lay back in his chair; and as he did so a string
of the lute that lay beside him broke with a sweet
sharp sound. And the Lady Margaret fell upon her
knees beside him, and took his hand; and then she
seemed to see a cloudy gate, and two that stood together a
fair woman and a child; and up to the gate, out of
a cloud, came swiftly a man, like one that reaches
his home at last; and the three went in at the gate
together, hand in hand; and then the music
came once again, and died upon the air.