“Bridgeport! Change cars
for the Naugatuck Railroad!” shouted the conductor
of the New York and Boston Express Train, on the evening
of May 27th, 1858. Indeed, he does it every night
(Sundays excepted), for that matter; but as this story
refers especially to Mr. J. Edward Johnson, who was
a passenger on that train, on the aforesaid evening,
I make special mention of the fact. Mr. Johnson,
carpet-bag in hand, jumped upon the platform, entered
the office, purchased a ticket for Waterbury, and
was soon whirling in the Naugatuck train towards his
destination.
On reaching Waterbury, in the soft
spring twilight, Mr. Johnson walked up and down in
front of the station, curiously scanning the faces
of the assembled crowd. Presently he noticed
a gentleman who was performing the same operation
upon the faces of the alighting passengers. Throwing
himself directly in the way of the latter, the two
exchanged a steady gaze.
“Is your name Billings?”
“Is your name Johnson?” were simultaneous
questions, followed by the simultaneous exclamations “Ned!”
“Enos!”
Then there was a crushing grasp of
hands, repeated after a pause, in testimony of ancient
friendship, and Mr. Billings, returning to practical
life, asked
“Is that all your baggage?
Come, I have a buggy here: Eunice has heard the
whistle, and she’ll be impatient to welcome you.”
The impatience of Eunice (Mrs. Billings,
of course,) was not of long duration, for in five
minutes thereafter she stood at the door of her husband’s
chocolate-colored villa, receiving his friend.
While these three persons are comfortably
seated at the tea-table, enjoying their waffles, cold
tongue, and canned peaches, and asking and answering
questions helter-skelter in the delightful confusion
of reunion after long separation, let us briefly inform
the reader who and what they are.
Mr. Enos Billings, then, was part
owner of a manufactory of metal buttons, forty years
old, of middling height, ordinarily quiet and rather
shy, but with a large share of latent warmth and enthusiasm
in his nature. His hair was brown, slightly streaked
with gray, his eyes a soft, dark hazel, forehead square,
eyebrows straight, nose of no very marked character,
and a mouth moderately full, with a tendency to twitch
a little at the corners. His voice was undertoned,
but mellow and agreeable.
Mrs. Eunice Billings, of nearly equal
age, was a good specimen of the wide-awake New-England
woman. Her face had a piquant smartness of expression,
which might have been refined into a sharp edge, but
for her natural hearty good-humor. Her head was
smoothly formed, her face a full oval, her hair and
eyes blond and blue in a strong light, but brown and
steel-gray at other times, and her complexion of that
ripe fairness into which a ruddier color will sometimes
fade. Her form, neither plump nor square, had
yet a firm, elastic compactness, and her slightest
movement conveyed a certain impression of decision
and self-reliance.
As for J. Edward Johnson, it is enough
to say that he was a tall, thin gentleman of forty-five,
with an aquiline nose, narrow face, and military whiskers,
which swooped upwards and met under his nose in a
glossy black mustache. His complexion was dark,
from the bronzing of fifteen summers in New Orleans.
He was a member of a wholesale hardware firm in that
city, and had now revisited his native North for the
first time since his departure. A year before,
some letters relating to invoices of metal buttons
signed, “Foster, Kirkup, & Co., per Enos Billings,”
had accidentally revealed to him the whereabouts of
the old friend of his youth, with whom we now find
him domiciled. The first thing he did, after
attending to some necessary business matters in New
York, was to take the train for Waterbury.
“Enos,” said he, as he
stretched out his hand for the third cup of tea (which
he had taken only for the purpose of prolonging the
pleasant table-chat), “I wonder which of us
is most changed.”
“You, of course,” said
Mr. Billings, “with your brown face and big
mustache. Your own brother wouldn’t have
known you if he had seen you last, as I did, with
smooth cheeks and hair of unmerciful length. Why,
not even your voice is the same!”
“That is easily accounted for,”
replied Mr. Johnson. “But in your case,
Enos, I am puzzled to find where the difference lies.
Your features seem to be but little changed, now that
I can examine them at leisure; yet it is not the same
face. But, really, I never looked at you for so
long a time, in those days. I beg pardon; you
used to be so so remarkably shy.”
Mr. Billings blushed slightly, and
seemed at a loss what to answer.
His wife, however, burst into a merry laugh, exclaiming
“Oh, that was before the days of the A. C!”
He, catching the infection, laughed
also; in fact Mr. Johnson laughed, but without knowing
why.
“The ’A. C.’!”
said Mr. Billings. “Bless me, Eunice! how
long it is since we have talked of that summer!
I had almost forgotten that there ever was an A. C.”
“Enos, could you ever forget
Abel Mallory and the beer? or that scene
between Hollins and Shelldrake? or”
(here she blushed the least bit) “your
own fit of candor?” And she laughed again, more
heartily than ever.
“What a precious lot of fools,
to be sure!” exclaimed her husband.
Mr. Johnson, meanwhile, though enjoying
the cheerful humor of his hosts, was not a little
puzzled with regard to its cause.
“What is the A. C.?” he ventured to ask.
Mr. and Mrs. Billings looked at each other, and smiled
without replying.
“Really, Ned,” said the
former, finally, “the answer to your question
involves the whole story.”
“Then why not tell him the whole story, Enos?”
remarked his wife.
“You know I’ve never told
it yet, and it’s rather a hard thing to do,
seeing that I’m one of the heroes of the farce for
it wasn’t even genteel comedy, Ned,” said
Mr. Billings. “However,” he continued,
“absurd as the story may seem, it’s the
only key to the change in my life, and I must run
the risk of being laughed at.”
“I’ll help you through,
Enos,” said his wife, encouragingly; “and
besides, my rôle in the farce was no better than yours.
Let us resuscitate, for to-night only, the constitution
of the A. C.”
“Upon my word, a capital idea!
But we shall have to initiate Ned.”
Mr. Johnson merrily agreeing, he was
blindfolded and conducted into another room.
A heavy arm-chair, rolling on casters, struck his legs
in the rear, and he sank into it with lamb-like resignation.
“Open your mouth!” was
the command, given with mock solemnity.
He obeyed.
“Now shut it!”
And his lips closed upon a cigar,
while at the same time the handkerchief was whisked
away from his eyes. He found himself in Mr. Billing’s
library.
“Your nose betrays your taste,
Mr. Johnson,” said the lady, “and I am
not hard-hearted enough to deprive you of the indulgence.
Here are matches.”
“Well,” said he, acting
upon the hint, “if the remainder of the ceremonies
are equally agreeable, I should like to be a permanent
member of your order.”
By this time Mr. and Mrs. Billings,
having between them lighted the lamp, stirred up the
coal in the grate, closed the doors, and taken possession
of comfortable chairs, the latter proclaimed
“The Chapter (isn’t that
what you call it?) will now be held!”
“Was it in ’43 when you left home, Ned?”
asked Mr. B.
“Yes.”
“Well, the A. C. culminated
in ’45. You remember something of the society
of Norridgeport, the last winter you were there?
Abel Mallory, for instance?”
“Let me think a moment,”
said Mr. Johnson reflectively. “Really,
it seems like looking back a hundred years. Mallory wasn’t
that the sentimental young man, with wispy hair, a
tallowy skin, and big, sweaty hands, who used to be
spouting Carlyle on the ‘reading evenings’
at Shelldrake’s? Yes, to be sure; and there
was Hollins, with his clerical face and infidel talk, and
Pauline Ringtop, who used to say, ’The Beautiful
is the Good.’ I can still hear her shrill
voice, singing, ‘Would that I were beautiful,
would that I were fair!’”
There was a hearty chorus of laughter
at poor Miss Ringtop’s expense. It harmed
no one, however; for the tar-weed was already thick
over her Californian grave.
“Oh, I see,” said Mr.
Billings, “you still remember the absurdities
of those days. In fact, I think you partially
saw through them then. But I was younger, and
far from being so clear-headed, and I looked upon those
evenings at Shelldrake’s as being equal, at least,
to the symposia of Plato. Something in Mallory
always repelled me. I detested the sight of his
thick nose, with the flaring nostrils, and his coarse,
half-formed lips, of the bluish color of raw corned-beef.
But I looked upon these feelings as unreasonable prejudices,
and strove to conquer them, seeing the admiration
which he received from others. He was an oracle
on the subject of ‘Nature.’ Having
eaten nothing for two years, except Graham bread,
vegetables without salt, and fruits, fresh or dried,
he considered himself to have attained an antediluvian
purity of health or that he would attain
it, so soon as two pimples on his left temple should
have healed. These pimples he looked upon as the
last feeble stand made by the pernicious juices left
from the meat he had formerly eaten and the coffee
he had drunk. His theory was, that through a body
so purged and purified none but true and natural impulses
could find access to the soul. Such, indeed,
was the theory we all held. A Return to Nature
was the near Millennium, the dawn of which we already
beheld in the sky. To be sure there was a difference
in our individual views as to how this should be achieved,
but we were all agreed as to what the result should
be.
“I can laugh over those days
now, Ned; but they were really happy while they lasted.
We were the salt of the earth; we were lifted above
those grovelling instincts which we saw manifested
in the lives of others. Each contributed his
share of gas to inflate the painted balloon to which
we all clung, in the expectation that it would presently
soar with us to the stars. But it only went up
over the out-houses, dodged backwards and forwards
two or three times, and finally flopped down with
us into a swamp.”
“And that balloon was the A. C.?” suggested
Mr. Johnson.
“As President of this Chapter,
I prohibit questions,” said Eunice. “And,
Enos, don’t send up your balloon until the proper
time. Don’t anticipate the programme, or
the performance will be spoiled.”
“I had almost forgotten that
Ned is so much in the dark,” her obedient husband
answered. “You can have but a slight notion,”
he continued, turning to his friend, “of the
extent to which this sentimental, or transcendental,
element in the little circle at Shelldrake’s
increased after you left Norridgeport. We read
the ‘Dial,’ and Emerson; we believed in
Alcott as the ‘purple Plato’ of modern
times; we took psychological works out of the library,
and would listen for hours to Hollins while he read
Schelling or Fichte, and then go home with a misty
impression of having imbibed infinite wisdom.
It was, perhaps, a natural, though very eccentric
rebound from the hard, practical, unimaginative New-England
mind which surrounded us; yet I look back upon it
with a kind of wonder. I was then, as you know,
unformed mentally, and might have been so still, but
for the experiences of the A. C.”
Mr. Johnson shifted his position,
a little impatiently. Eunice looked at him with
laughing eyes, and shook her finger with a mock threat.
“Shelldrake,” continued
Mr. Billings, without noticing this by-play, “was
a man of more pretence than real cultivation, as I
afterwards discovered. He was in good circumstances,
and always glad to receive us at his house, as this
made him, virtually, the chief of our tribe, and the
outlay for refreshments involved only the apples from
his own orchard and water from his well. There
was an entire absence of conventionality at our meetings,
and this, compared with the somewhat stiff society
of the village, was really an attraction. There
was a mystic bond of union in our ideas: we discussed
life, love, religion, and the future state, not only
with the utmost candor, but with a warmth of feeling
which, in many of us, was genuine. Even I (and
you know how painfully shy and bashful I was) felt
myself more at home there than in my father’s
house; and if I didn’t talk much, I had a pleasant
feeling of being in harmony with those who did.
“Well, ’twas in the early
part of ’45 I think in April, when
we were all gathered together, discussing, as usual,
the possibility of leading a life in accordance with
Nature. Abel Mallory was there, and Hollins,
and Miss Ringtop, and Faith Levis, with her knitting, and
also Eunice Hazleton, a lady whom you have never seen,
but you may take my wife at her representative ”
“Stick to the programme, Enos,”
interrupted Mrs. Billings.
“Eunice Hazleton, then.
I wish I could recollect some of the speeches made
on that occasion. Abel had but one pimple on his
temple (there was a purple spot where the other had
been), and was estimating that in two or three months
more he would be a true, unspoiled man. His complexion,
nevertheless, was more clammy and whey-like than ever.
“‘Yes,’ said he,
’I also am an Arcadian! This false dual
existence which I have been leading will soon be merged
in the unity of Nature. Our lives must conform
to her sacred law. Why can’t we strip off
these hollow Shams,’ (he made great use of that
word,) ’and be our true selves, pure, perfect,
and divine?’
“Miss Ringtop heaved a sigh,
and repeated a stanza from her favorite poet:
“’Ah, when wrecked
are my desires
On the everlasting Never,
And my heart with all its fires
Out forever,
In the cradle of Creation
Finds the soul resuscitation!
“Shelldrake, however, turning to his wife, said
“’Elviry, how many up-stairs
rooms is there in that house down on the Sound?’
“’Four, besides
three small ones under the roof. Why, what made
you think of that, Jesse?’ said she.
“‘I’ve got an idea,
while Abel’s been talking,’ he answered.
’We’ve taken a house for the summer, down
the other side of Bridgeport, right on the water,
where there’s good fishing and a fine view of
the Sound. Now, there’s room enough for
all of us at least all that can make it
suit to go. Abel, you and Enos, and Pauline and
Eunice might fix matters so that we could all take
the place in partnership, and pass the summer together,
living a true and beautiful life in the bosom of Nature.
There we shall be perfectly free and untrammelled
by the chains which still hang around us in Norridgeport.
You know how often we have wanted to be set on some
island in the Pacific Ocean, where we could build up
a true society, right from the start. Now, here’s
a chance to try the experiment for a few months, anyhow.’
“Eunice clapped her hands (yes, you did!) and
cried out
“‘Splendid! Arcadian! I’ll
give up my school for the summer.’
“Miss Ringtop gave her opinion in another quotation:
“’The rainbow
hues of the Ideal
Condense to gems, and form the Real!’
“Abel Mallory, of course, did
not need to have the proposal repeated. He was
ready for any thing which promised indulgence, and
the indulgence of his sentimental tastes. I will
do the fellow the justice to say that he was not a
hypocrite. He firmly believed both in himself
and his ideas especially the former.
He pushed both hands through the long wisps of his
drab-colored hair, and threw his head back until his
wide nostrils resembled a double door to his brain.
“‘Oh Nature!’ he
said, ’you have found your lost children!
We shall obey your neglected laws! we shall hearken
to your divine whispers I we shall bring you back
from your ignominious exile, and place you on your
ancestral throne!’
“‘Let us do it!’ was the general
cry.
“A sudden enthusiasm fired us,
and we grasped each other’s hands in the hearty
impulse of the moment. My own private intention
to make a summer trip to the White Mountains had been
relinquished the moment I heard Eunice give in her
adhesion. I may as well confess, at once, that
I was desperately in love, and afraid to speak to
her.
“By the time Mrs. Sheldrake
brought in the apples and water we were discussing
the plan as a settled thing. Hollins had an engagement
to deliver Temperance lectures in Ohio during the
summer, but decided to postpone his departure until
August, so that he might, at least, spend two months
with us. Faith Levis couldn’t go at
which, I think, we were all secretly glad. Some
three or four others were in the same case, and the
company was finally arranged to consist of the Shelldrakes,
Hollins, Mallory, Eunice, Miss Ringtop, and myself.
We did not give much thought, either to the preparations
in advance, or to our mode of life when settled there.
We were to live near to Nature: that was the main
thing.
“‘What shall we call the place?’
asked Eunice.
“‘Arcadia!’ said Abel Mallory, rolling
up his large green eyes.
“‘Then,’ said Hollins, ‘let
us constitute ourselves the Arcadian Club!’”
“Aha!” interrupted Mr. Johnson, “I
see! The A. C.!”
“Yes, you can see the A. C.
now,” said Mrs. Billings; “but to understand
it fully, you should have had a share in those Arcadian
experiences.”
“I am all the more interested in hearing them
described. Go on, Enos.”
“The proposition was adopted.
We called ourselves The Arcadian Club; but in order
to avoid gossip, and the usual ridicule, to which we
were all more or less sensitive, in case our plan
should become generally known, it was agreed that
the initials only should be used. Besides, there
was an agreeable air of mystery about it: we
thought of Delphi, and Eleusis, and Samothrace:
we should discover that Truth which the dim eyes of
worldly men and women were unable to see, and the day
of disclosure would be the day of Triumph. In
one sense we were truly Arcadians: no suspicion
of impropriety, I verily believe, entered any of our
minds. In our aspirations after what we called
a truer life there was no material taint. We
were fools, if you choose, but as far as possible from
being sinners. Besides, the characters of Mr.
and Mrs. Shelldrake, who naturally became the heads
of our proposed community were sufficient to preserve
us from slander or suspicion, if even our designs had
been publicly announced.
“I won’t bore you with
an account of our preparations. In fact, there
was very little to be done. Mr. Shelldrake succeeded
in hiring the house, with most of its furniture, so
that but a few articles had to be supplied. My
trunk contained more books than boots, more blank paper
than linen.
“‘Two shirts will be enough,’
said Abel: ’you can wash one of them any
day, and dry it in the sun.’
“The supplies consisted mostly
of flour, potatoes, and sugar. There was a vegetable-garden
in good condition, Mr. Shelldrake said, which would
be our principal dependence.
“‘Besides, the clams!’ I exclaimed
unthinkingly.
“‘Oh, yes!’ said
Eunice, ’we can have chowder-parties: that
will be delightful!’
“‘Clams! chowder! oh,
worse than flesh!’ groaned Abel. ’Will
you reverence Nature by outraging her first laws?’
“I had made a great mistake,
and felt very foolish. Eunice and I looked at
each other, for the first time.”
“Speak for yourself only, Enos,”
gently interpolated his wife.
“It was a lovely afternoon in
the beginning of June when we first approached Arcadia.
We had taken two double teams at Bridgeport, and drove
slowly forward to our destination, followed by a cart
containing our trunks and a few household articles.
It was a bright, balmy day: the wheat-fields
were rich and green, the clover showed faint streaks
of ruby mist along slopes leaning southward, and the
meadows were yellow with buttercups. Now and
then we caught glimpses of the Sound, and, far beyond
it, the dim Long Island shore. Every old white
farmhouse, with its gray-walled garden, its clumps
of lilacs, viburnums, and early roses, offered us
a picture of pastoral simplicity and repose. We
passed them, one by one, in the happiest mood, enjoying
the earth around us, the sky above, and ourselves
most of all.
“The scenery, however, gradually
became more rough and broken. Knobs of gray gneiss,
crowned by mournful cedars, intrenched upon the arable
land, and the dark-blue gleam of water appeared through
the trees. Our road, which had been approaching
the Sound, now skirted the head of a deep, irregular
inlet, beyond which extended a beautiful promontory,
thickly studded with cedars, and with scattering groups
of elm, oak and maple trees. Towards the end
of the promontory stood a house, with white walls
shining against the blue line of the Sound.
“‘There is Arcadia, at last!’ exclaimed
Mr. Shelldrake.
“A general outcry of delight
greeted the announcement. And, indeed, the loveliness
of the picture surpassed our most poetic anticipations.
The low sun was throwing exquisite lights across the
point, painting the slopes of grass of golden green,
and giving a pearly softness to the gray rocks.
In the back-ground was drawn the far-off water-line,
over which a few specks of sail glimmered against
the sky. Miss Ringtop, who, with Eunice, Mallory,
and myself, occupied one carriage, expressed her ‘gushing’
feelings in the usual manner:
“’Where the turf
is softest, greenest,
Doth an angel thrust me on,
Where the landscape lies serenest,
In the journey of the sun!’
“‘Don’t, Pauline!’
said Eunice; ’I never like to hear poetry flourished
in the face of Nature. This landscape surpasses
any poem in the world. Let us enjoy the best
thing we have, rather than the next best.’
“‘Ah, yes!’ sighed Miss Ringtop,
’’tis true!
“‘They sing to
the ear; this sings to the eye!’
“Thenceforward, to the house,
all was childish joy and jubilee. All minor personal
répugnances were smoothed over in the general
exultation. Even Abel Mallory became agreeable;
and Hollins, sitting beside Mrs. Shelldrake on the
back seat of the foremost carriage, shouted to us,
in boyish lightness of heart.
“Passing the head of the inlet,
we left the country-road, and entered, through a gate
in the tottering stone wall, on our summer domain.
A track, open to the field on one side, led us past
a clump of deciduous trees, between pastures broken
by cedared knolls of rock, down the centre of the
peninsula, to the house. It was quite an old
frame-building, two stories high, with a gambrel roof
and tall chimneys. Two slim Lombardy poplars
and a broad-leaved catalpa shaded the southern side,
and a kitchen-garden, divided in the centre by a double
row of untrimmed currant-bushes, flanked it on the
east. For flowers, there were masses of blue
flags and coarse tawny-red lilies, besides a huge
trumpet-vine which swung its pendent arms from one
of the gables. In front of the house a natural
lawn of mingled turf and rock sloped steeply down
to the water, which was not more than two hundred yards
distant. To the west was another and broader inlet
of the Sound, out of which our Arcadian promontory
rose bluff and bold, crowned with a thick fringe of
pines. It was really a lovely spot which Shelldrake
had chosen so secluded, while almost surrounded
by the winged and moving life of the Sound, so simple,
so pastoral and home-like. No one doubted the
success of our experiment, for that evening at least.
“Perkins Brown, Shelldrake’s
boy-of-all-work, awaited us at the door. He had
been sent on two or three days in advance, to take
charge of the house, and seemed to have had enough
of hermit-life, for he hailed us with a wild whoop,
throwing his straw hat half-way up one of the poplars.
Perkins was a boy of fifteen, the child of poor parents,
who were satisfied to get him off their hands, regardless
as to what humanitarian theories might be tested upon
him. As the Arcadian Club recognized no such
thing as caste, he was always admitted to our meetings,
and understood just enough of our conversation to excite
a silly ambition in his slow mind. His animal
nature was predominant, and this led him to be deceitful.
At that time, however, we all looked upon him as a
proper young Arcadian, and hoped that he would develop
into a second Abel Mallory.
“After our effects had been
deposited on the stoop, and the carriages had driven
away, we proceeded to apportion the rooms, and take
possession. On the first floor there were three
rooms, two of which would serve us as dining and drawing
rooms, leaving the third for the Shelldrakes.
As neither Eunice and Miss Ringtop, nor Hollins and
Abel showed any disposition to room together, I quietly
gave up to them the four rooms in the second story,
and installed myself in one of the attic chambers.
Here I could hear the music of the rain close above
my head, and through the little gable window, as I
lay in bed, watch the colors of the morning gradually
steal over the distant shores. The end was, we
were all satisfied.
“‘Now for our first meal
in Arcadia!’ was the next cry. Mrs. Shelldrake,
like a prudent housekeeper, marched off to the kitchen,
where Perkins had already kindled a fire. We
looked in at the door, but thought it best to allow
her undisputed sway in such a narrow realm. Eunice
was unpacking some loaves of bread and paper bags
of crackers; and Miss Ringtop, smiling through her
ropy curls, as much as to say, ’You see, I
also can perform the coarser tasks of life!’
occupied herself with plates and cups. We men,
therefore, walked out to the garden, which we found
in a promising condition. The usual vegetables
had been planted and were growing finely, for the
season was yet scarcely warm enough for the weeds
to make much headway. Radishes, young onions,
and lettuce formed our contribution to the table.
The Shelldrakes, I should explain, had not yet advanced
to the antediluvian point, in diet: nor, indeed,
had either Eunice or myself. We acknowledged the
fascination of tea, we saw a very mitigated evil in
milk and butter, and we were conscious of stifled
longings after the abomination of meat. Only Mallory,
Hollins, and Miss Ringtop had reached that loftiest
round on the ladder of progress where the material
nature loosens the last fetter of the spiritual.
They looked down upon us, and we meekly admitted their
right to do so.
“Our board, that evening, was
really tempting. The absence of meat was compensated
to us by the crisp and racy onions, and I craved only
a little salt, which had been interdicted, as a most
pernicious substance. I sat at one corner of
the table, beside Perkins Brown, who took an opportunity,
while the others were engaged in conversation, to jog
my elbow gently. As I turned towards him, he
said nothing, but dropped his eyes significantly.
The little rascal had the lid of a blacking-box, filled
with salt, upon his knee, and was privately seasoning
his onions and radishes.
I blushed at the thought of my hypocrisy,
but the onions were so much better that I couldn’t
help dipping into the lid with him.
“‘Oh,’ said Eunice,
’we must send for some oil and vinegar!
This lettuce is very nice.’
“‘Oil and vinegar?’ exclaimed Abel.
“‘Why, yes,’ said she, innocently:
‘they are both vegetable substances.’
“Abel at first looked rather
foolish, but quickly recovering himself, said
“’All vegetable substances
are not proper for food: you would not taste
the poison-oak, or sit under the upas-tree of Java.’
“‘Well, Abel,’ Eunice
rejoined, ’how are we to distinguish what is
best for us? How are we to know what vegetables
to choose, or what animal and mineral substances to
avoid?’
“‘I will tell you,’
he answered, with a lofty air. ‘See here!’
pointing to his temple, where the second pimple either
from the change of air, or because, in the excitement
of the last few days, he had forgotten it was
actually healed. ’My blood is at last pure.
The struggle between the natural and the unnatural
is over, and I am beyond the depraved influences of
my former taste. My instincts are now, therefore,
entirely pure also. What is good for man to eat,
that I shall have a natural desire to eat: what
is bad will be naturally repelled. How does the
cow distinguish between the wholesome and the poisonous
herbs of the meadow? And is man less than a cow,
that he cannot cultivate his instincts to an equal
point? Let me walk through the woods and I can
tell you every berry and root which God designed for
food, though I know not its name, and have never seen
it before. I shall make use of my time, during
our sojourn here, to test, by my purified instinct,
every substance, animal, mineral, and vegetable, upon
which the human race subsists, and to create a catalogue
of the True Food of Man!’
“Abel was eloquent on this theme,
and he silenced not only Eunice, but the rest of us.
Indeed, as we were all half infected with the same
delusions, it was not easy to answer his sophistries.
“After supper was over, the
prospect of cleaning the dishes and putting things
in order was not so agreeable; but Mrs. Shelldrake
and Perkins undertook the work, and we did not think
it necessary to interfere with them. Half an
hour afterwards, when the full moon had risen, we took
our chairs upon the sloop, to enjoy the calm, silver
night, the soft sea-air, and our summer’s residence
in anticipatory talk.
“‘My friends,’ said
Hollins (and his hobby, as you may remember, Ned,
was the organization of Society, rather than those
reforms which apply directly to the Individual), ’my
friends, I think we are sufficiently advanced in progressive
ideas to establish our little Arcadian community upon
what I consider the true basis: not Law, nor Custom,
but the uncorrupted impulses of our nature. What
Abel said in regard to dietetic reform is true; but
that alone will not regenerate the race. We must
rise superior to those conventional ideas of Duty whereby
Life is warped and crippled. Life must not be
a prison, where each one must come and go, work, eat,
and sleep, as the jailer commands. Labor must
not be a necessity, but a spontaneous joy. ’Tis
true, but little labor is required of us here:
let us, therefore, have no set tasks, no fixed rules,
but each one work, rest, eat, sleep, talk or be silent,
as his own nature prompts.’
“Perkins, sitting on the steps,
gave a suppressed chuckle, which I think no one heard
but myself. I was vexed with his levity, but,
nevertheless, gave him a warning nudge with my toe,
in payment for the surreptitious salt.
“‘That’s just the
notion I had, when I first talked of our coming here,’
said Shelldrake. ’Here we’re alone
and unhindered; and if the plan shouldn’t happen
to work well (I don’t see why it shouldn’t
though), no harm will be done. I’ve had
a deal of hard work in my life, and I’ve been
badgered and bullied so much by your strait-laced professors,
that I’m glad to get away from the world for
a spell, and talk and do rationally, without being
laughed at.’
“‘Yes,’ answered
Hollins, ’and if we succeed, as I feel we shall,
for I think I know the hearts of all of us here, this
may be the commencement of a new Epoch for the world.
We may become the turning-point between two dispensations:
behind us every thing false and unnatural, before us
every thing true, beautiful, and good.’
“‘Ah,’ sighed Miss
Ringtop, ’it reminds me of Gamaliel J. Gawthrop’s
beautiful lines:
“’Unrobed man is
lying hoary
In the distance, gray and dead;
There no wreaths of godless glory
To his mist-like tresses wed,
And the foot-fall of the Ages
Reigns supreme, with noiseless tread.’
“‘I am willing to try
the experiment,’ said I, on being appealed to
by Hollins; ’but don’t you think we had
better observe some kind of order, even in yielding
every thing to impulse? Shouldn’t there
be, at least, a platform, as the politicians call
it an agreement by which we shall all be
bound, and which we can afterwards exhibit as the basis
of our success?’
“He meditated a few moments, and then answered
“’I think not. It
resembles too much the thing we are trying to overthrow.
Can you bind a man’s belief by making him sign
certain articles of Faith? No: his thought
will be free, in spite of it; and I would have Action Life as
free as Thought. Our platform to adopt
your image has but one plank: Truth.
Let each only be true to himself: Be himself,
act himself, or herself with the uttermost candor.
We can all agree upon that.’
“The agreement was accordingly
made. And certainly no happier or more hopeful
human beings went to bed in all New England that night.
“I arose with the sun, went
into the garden, and commenced weeding, intending
to do my quota of work before breakfast, and then devote
the day to reading and conversation. I was presently
joined by Shelldrake and Mallory, and between us we
finished the onions and radishes, stuck the peas,
and cleaned the alleys. Perkins, after milking
the cow and turning her out to pasture, assisted Mrs.
Shelldrake in the kitchen. At breakfast we were
joined by Hollins, who made no excuse for his easy
morning habits; nor was one expected. I may as
well tell you now, though, that his natural instincts
never led him to work. After a week, when a second
crop of weeds was coming on, Mallory fell off also,
and thenceforth Shelldrake and myself had the entire
charge of the garden. Perkins did the rougher
work, and was always on hand when he was wanted.
Very soon, however, I noticed that he was in the habit
of disappearing for two or three hours in the afternoon.
“Our meals preserved the same
Spartan simplicity. Eunice, however, carried
her point in regard to the salad; for Abel, after tasting
and finding it very palatable, decided that oil and
vinegar might be classed in the catalogue of True
Food. Indeed, his long abstinence from piquant
flavors gave him such an appetite for it that our supply
of lettuce was soon exhausted. An embarrassing
accident also favored us with the use of salt.
Perkins happening to move his knee at the moment I
was dipping an onion into the blacking-box lid, our
supply was knocked upon the floor. He picked
it up, and we both hoped the accident might pass unnoticed.
But Abel, stretching his long neck across the corner
of the table, caught a glimpse of what was going on.
“‘What’s that?’ he asked.
“‘Oh, it’s it’s
only,’ said I, seeking for a synonyme, ’only
chloride of sodium!’
“‘Chloride of sodium! what do you do with
it?’
“‘Eat it with onions,’
said I, boldly: ’it’s a chemical substance,
but I believe it is found in some plants.’
“Eunice, who knew something
of chemistry (she taught a class, though you wouldn’t
think it), grew red with suppressed fun, but the others
were as ignorant as Abel Mallory himself.
“‘Let me taste it,’ said he, stretching
out an onion.
“I handed him the box-lid, which
still contained a portion of its contents. He
dipped the onion, bit off a piece, and chewed it gravely.
“‘Why,’ said he,
turning to me, ‘it’s very much like salt.’
“Perkins burst into a spluttering
yell, which discharged an onion-top he had just put
between his teeth across the table; Eunice and I gave
way at the same moment; and the others, catching the
joke, joined us. But while we were laughing,
Abel was finishing his onion, and the result was that
Salt was added to the True Food, and thereafter appeared
regularly on the table.
“The forenoons we usually spent
in reading and writing, each in his or her chamber.
(Oh, the journals, Ned! but you shall not
see mine.) After a midday meal, I cannot
call it dinner, we sat upon the stoop,
listening while one of us read aloud, or strolled down
the shores on either side, or, when the sun was not
too warm, got into a boat, and rowed or floated lazily
around the promontory.
“One afternoon, as I was sauntering
off, past the garden, towards the eastern inlet, I
noticed Perkins slipping along behind the cedar knobs,
towards the little woodland at the end of our domain.
Curious to find out the cause of his mysterious disappearances,
I followed cautiously. From the edge of the wood
I saw him enter a little gap between the rocks, which
led down to the water. Presently a thread of blue
smoke stole up. Quietly creeping along, I got
upon the nearer bluff and looked down. There
was a sort of hearth built up at the base of the rock,
with a brisk little fire burning upon it, but Perkins
had disappeared. I stretched myself out upon
the moss, in the shade, and waited. In about
half an hour up came Perkins, with a large fish in
one hand and a lump of clay in the other. I now
understood the mystery. He carefully imbedded
the fish in a thin layer of clay, placed it on the
coals, and then went down to the shore to wash his
hands. On his return he found me watching the
fire.
“‘Ho, ho, Mr. Enos!’
said he, ’you’ve found me out; But you
won’t say nothin’. Gosh! you like
it as well I do. Look ’ee there!’ breaking
open the clay, from which arose ’a steam of
rich distilled perfumes,’ ’and,
I say, I’ve got the box-lid with that ’ere
stuff in it, ho! ho!’ and
the scamp roared again.
“Out of a hole in the rock he
brought salt and the end of a loaf, and between us
we finished the fish. Before long, I got into
the habit of disappearing in the afternoon.
“Now and then we took walks,
alone or collectively, to the nearest village, or
even to Bridgeport, for the papers or a late book.
The few purchases we required were made at such times,
and sent down in a cart, or, if not too heavy, carried
by Perkins in a basket. I noticed that Abel,
whenever we had occasion to visit a grocery, would
go sniffing around, alternately attracted or repelled
by the various articles: now turning away with
a shudder from a ham, now inhaling, with
a fearful delight and uncertainty, the odor of smoked
herrings. ’I think herrings must feed on
sea-weed,’ said he, ’there is such a vegetable
attraction about them.’ After his violent
vegetarian harangues, however, he hesitated about
adding them to his catalogue.
“But, one day, as we were passing
through the village, he was reminded by the sign of
‘Warter crackers’ in the window
of an obscure grocery that he required a supply of
these articles, and we therefore entered. There
was a splendid Rhode Island cheese on the counter,
from which the shop-mistress was just cutting a slice
for a customer. Abel leaned over it, inhaling
the rich, pungent fragrance.
“‘Enos,’ said he
to me, between his sniffs, ’this impresses me
like flowers like marigolds. It must
be really yes, the vegetable
element is predominant. My instinct towards it
is so strong that I cannot be mistaken. May I
taste it, ma’am?’
“The woman sliced off a thin
corner, and presented it to him on the knife.
“‘Delicious!’ he
exclaimed; ’I am right, this is the
True Food. Give me two pounds and
the crackers, ma’am.’
“I turned away, quite as much
disgusted as amused with this charlatanism. And
yet I verily believe the fellow was sincere self-deluded
only. I had by this time lost my faith in him,
though not in the great Arcadian principles. On
reaching home, after an hour’s walk, I found
our household in unusual commotion. Abel was
writhing in intense pain: he had eaten the whole
two pounds of cheese, on his way home! His stomach,
so weakened by years of unhealthy abstinence from
true nourishment, was now terribly tortured by this
sudden stimulus. Mrs. Shelldrake, fortunately,
had some mustard among her stores, and could therefore
administer a timely emetic. His life was saved,
but he was very ill for two or three days. Hollins
did not fail to take advantage of this circumstance
to overthrow the authority which Abel had gradually
acquired on the subject of food. He was so arrogant
in his nature that he could not tolerate the same quality
in another, even where their views coincided.
“By this time several weeks
had passed away. It was the beginning of July,
and the long summer heats had come. I was driven
out of my attic during the middle hours of the day,
and the others found it pleasanter on the doubly shaded
stoop than in their chambers. We were thus thrown
more together than usual a circumstance
which made our life more monotonous to the others,
as I could see; but to myself, who could at last talk
to Eunice, and who was happy at the very sight of her,
this ‘heated term’ seemed borrowed from
Elysium.
“I read aloud, and the sound
of my own voice gave me confidence; many passages
suggested discussions, in which I took a part; and
you may judge, Ned, how fast I got on, from the fact
that I ventured to tell Eunice of my fish-bakes with
Perkins, and invite her to join them. After that,
she also often disappeared from sight for an hour or
two in the afternoon.”
“Oh, Mr.
Johnson,” interrupted Mrs. Billings, “it
wasn’t for the fish!”
“Of course not,” said her husband; “it
was for my sake.”
“No, you need not think it was
for you. Enos,” she added, perceiving the
feminine dilemma into which she had been led, “all
this is not necessary to the story.”
“Stop!” he answered.
“The A. C. has been revived for this night only.
Do you remember our platform, or rather no-platform?
I must follow my impulses, and say whatever comes
uppermost.”
“Right, Enos,” said Mr.
Johnson; “I, as temporary Arcadian, take the
same ground. My instinct tells me that you, Mrs.
Billings, must permit the confession.”
She submitted with a good grace, and
her husband continued:
“I said that our lazy life during
the hot weather had become a little monotonous.
The Arcadian plan had worked tolerably well, on the
whole, for there was very little for any one to do Mrs.
Shelldrake and Perkins Brown excepted. Our conversation,
however, lacked spirit and variety. We were,
perhaps unconsciously, a little tired of hearing and
assenting to the same sentiments. But one evening,
about this time, Hollins struck upon a variation,
the consequences of which he little foresaw. We
had been reading one of Bulwer’s works (the weather
was too hot for Psychology), and came upon this paragraph,
or something like it:
“’Ah, Behind the Veil!
We see the summer smile of the Earth enamelled
meadow and limpid stream, but what hides
she in her sunless heart? Caverns of serpents,
or grottoes of priceless gems? Youth, whose soul
sits on thy countenance, thyself wearing no mask, strive
not to lift the masks of others! Be content with
what thou seest; and wait until Time and Experience
shall teach thee to find jealousy behind the sweet
smile, and hatred under the honeyed word!’
“This seemed to us a dark and
bitter reflection; but one or another of us recalled
some illustration of human hypocrisy, and the evidences,
by the simple fact of repetition, gradually led to
a division of opinion Hollins, Shelldrake,
and Miss Ringtop on the dark side, and the rest of
us on the bright. The last, however, contented
herself with quoting from her favorite poet, Gamaliel
J. Gawthrop:
“’I look beyond thy
brow’s concealment!
I see thy spirit’s dark revealment!
Thy inner self betrayed I see:
Thy coward, craven, shivering me!’
“‘We think we know one
another,’ exclaimed Hollins; ’but do we?
We see the faults of others, their weaknesses, their
disagreeable qualities, and we keep silent. How
much we should gain, were candor as universal as concealment!
Then each one, seeing himself as others see him, would
truly know himself. How much misunderstanding
might be avoided how much hidden shame
be removed hopeless, because unspoken, love
made glad honest admiration cheer its object uttered
sympathy mitigate misfortune in short,
how much brighter and happier the world would become
if each one expressed, everywhere and at all times,
his true and entire feeling! Why, even Evil would
lose half its power!’
“There seemed to be so much
practical wisdom in these views that we were all dazzled
and half-convinced at the start. So, when Hollins,
turning towards me, as he continued, exclaimed ’Come,
why should not this candor be adopted in our Arcadia?
Will any one will you, Enos commence
at once by telling me now to my face my
principal faults?’ I answered after a moment’s
reflection ’You have a great deal
of intellectual arrogance, and you are, physically,
very indolent’
“He did not flinch from the
self-invited test, though he looked a little surprised.
“‘Well put,’ said
he, ’though I do not say that you are entirely
correct. Now, what are my merits?’
“‘You are clear-sighted,’
I answered, ’an earnest seeker after truth,
and courageous in the avowal of your thoughts.’
“This restored the balance,
and we soon began to confess our own private faults
and weaknesses. Though the confessions did not
go very deep, no one betraying anything
we did not all know already, yet they were
sufficient to strength Hollins in his new idea, and
it was unanimously resolved that Candor should thenceforth
be the main charm of our Arcadian life. It was
the very thing I wanted, in order to make a
certain communication to Eunice; but I should probably
never have reached the point, had not the same candor
been exercised towards me, from a quarter where I
least expected it.
“The next day, Abel, who had
resumed his researches after the True Food, came home
to supper with a healthier color than I had before
seen on his face.
“‘Do you know,’
said he, looking shyly at Hollins, ’that I begin
to think Beer must be a natural beverage? There
was an auction in the village to-day, as I passed
through, and I stopped at a cake-stand to get a glass
of water, as it was very hot. There was no water only
beer: so I thought I would try a glass, simply
as an experiment. Really, the flavor was very
agreeable. And it occurred to me, on the way home,
that all the elements contained in beer are vegetable.
Besides, fermentation is a natural process. I
think the question has never been properly tested
before.’
“‘But the alcohol!’ exclaimed Hollins.
“’I could not distinguish
any, either by taste or smell. I know that chemical
analysis is said to show it; but may not the alcohol
be created, somehow, during the analysis?’
“‘Abel,’ said Hollins,
in a fresh burst of candor, ’you will never be
a Reformer, until you possess some of the commonest
elements of knowledge.’
“The rest of us were much diverted:
it was a pleasant relief to our monotonous amiability.
“Abel, however, had a stubborn
streak in his character. The next day he sent
Perkins Brown to Bridgeport for a dozen bottles of
‘Beer.’ Perkins, either intentionally
or by mistake, (I always suspected the former,) brought
pint-bottles of Scotch ale, which he placed in the
coolest part of the cellar. The evening happened
to be exceedingly hot and sultry, and, as we were
all fanning ourselves and talking languidly, Abel
bethought him of his beer. In his thirst, he drank
the contents of the first bottle, almost at a single
draught.
“‘The effect of beer,’
said he, ’depends, I think, on the commixture
of the nourishing principle of the grain with the
cooling properties of the water. Perhaps, hereafter,
a liquid food of the same character may be invented,
which shall save us from mastication and all the diseases
of the teeth.’
“Hollins and Shelldrake, at
his invitation, divided a bottle between them, and
he took a second. The potent beverage was not
long in acting on a brain so unaccustomed to its influence.
He grew unusually talkative and sentimental, in a
few minutes.
“‘Oh, sing, somebody!’
he sighed in a hoarse rapture: ’the night
was made for Song.’
“Miss Ringtop, nothing loath,
immediately commenced, ’When stars are in the
quiet skies;’ but scarcely had she finished the
first verse before Abel interrupted her.
“‘Candor’s the order of the day,
isn’t it?’ he asked.
“‘Yes!’ ‘Yes!’ two or
three answered.
“‘Well then,’ said
he, ’candidly, Pauline, you’ve got the
darn’dest squeaky voice’
“Miss Ringtop gave a faint little scream of
horror.
“‘Oh, never mind!’
he continued. ’We act according to impulse,
don’t we? And I’ve the impulse to
swear; and it’s right. Let Nature have her
way. Listen! Damn, damn, damn, damn!
I never knew it was so easy. Why, there’s
a pleasure in it! Try it, Pauline! try it on me!’
“‘Oh-ooh!’ was all Miss Ringtop
could utter.
“‘Abel! Abel!’ exclaimed Hollins,
‘the beer has got into your head.’
“‘No, it isn’t Beer, it’s
Candor!’ said Abel. ’It’s your
own proposal, Hollins. Suppose it’s evil
to swear: isn’t it better I should express
it, and be done with it, than keep it bottled up to
ferment in my mind? Oh, you’re a precious,
consistent old humbug, you are!’
“And therewith he jumped off
the stoop, and went dancing awkwardly down towards
the water, singing in a most unmelodious voice, ’’Tis
home where’er the heart is.’
“‘Oh, he may fall into
the water!’ exclaimed Eunice, in alarm.
“‘He’s not fool
enough to do that,’ said Shelldrake. ’His
head is a little light, that’s all. The
air will cool him down presently.’
“But she arose and followed
him, not satisfied with this assurance. Miss
Ringtop sat rigidly still. She would have received
with composure the news of his drowning.
“As Eunice’s white dress
disappeared among the cedars crowning the shore, I
sprang up and ran after her. I knew that Abel
was not intoxicated, but simply excited, and I had
no fear on his account: I obeyed an involuntary
impulse. On approaching the water, I heard their
voices hers in friendly persuasion, his
in sentimental entreaty, then the sound
of oars in the row-locks. Looking out from the
last clump of cedars, I saw them seated in the boat,
Eunice at the stern, while Abel, facing her, just
dipped an oar now and then to keep from drifting with
the tide. She had found him already in the boat,
which was loosely chained to a stone. Stepping
on one of the forward thwarts in her eagerness to
persuade him to return, he sprang past her, jerked
away the chain, and pushed off before she could escape.
She would have fallen, but he caught her and placed
her in the stern, and then seated himself at the oars.
She must have been somewhat alarmed, but there was
only indignation in her voice. All this had transpired
before my arrival, and the first words I heard bound
me to the spot and kept me silent.
“‘Abel, what does this mean?’ she
asked
“‘It means Fate Destiny!’
he exclaimed, rather wildly. ’Ah, Eunice,
ask the night, and the moon, ask the impulse
which told you to follow me! Let us be candid
like the old Arcadians we imitate. Eunice, we
know that we love each other: why should we conceal
it any longer? The Angel of Love comes down from
the stars on his azure wings, and whispers to our
hearts. Let us confess to each other! The
female heart should not be timid, in this pure and
beautiful atmosphere of Love which we breathe.
Come, Eunice! we are alone: let your heart speak
to me!’
“Ned, if you’ve ever been
in love, (we’ll talk of that after a while,)
you will easily understand what tortures I endured,
in thus hearing him speak. That he should
love Eunice! It was a profanation to her, an
outrage to me. Yet the assurance with which he
spoke! Could she love this conceited, ridiculous,
repulsive fellow, after all? I almost gasped
for breath, as I clinched the prickly boughs of the
cedars in my hands, and set my teeth, waiting to hear
her answer.
“‘I will not hear such
language! Take me back to the shore!’ she
said, in very short, decided tones.
“‘Oh, Eunice,’ he
groaned, (and now, I think he was perfectly sober,)
’don’t you love me, indeed? I love
you, from my heart I do: yes, I love
you. Tell me how you feel towards me.’
“‘Abel,’ said she,
earnestly, ’I feel towards you only as a friend;
and if you wish me to retain a friendly interest in
you, you must never again talk in this manner.
I do not love you, and I never shall. Let me
go back to the house.’
“His head dropped upon his breast,
but he rowed back to the shore, drew the bow upon
the rocks, and assisted her to land. Then, sitting
down, he groaned forth
“‘Oh, Eunice, you have
broken my heart!’ and putting his big hands to
his face, began to cry.
“She turned, placed one hand
on his shoulder, and said in a calm, but kind tone
“‘I am very sorry, Abel, but I cannot
help it.’
“I slipped aside, that she might
not see me, and we returned by separate paths.
“I slept very little that night.
The conviction which I chased away from my mind as
often as it returned, that our Arcadian experiment
was taking a ridiculous and at the same time impracticable
development, became clearer and stronger. I felt
sure that our little community could not hold together
much longer without an explosion. I had a presentiment
that Eunice shared my impressions. My feelings
towards her had reached that crisis where a declaration
was imperative: but how to make it? It was
a terrible struggle between my shyness and my affection.
There was another circumstance in connection with
this subject, which troubled me not a little.
Miss Ringtop evidently sought my company, and made
me, as much as possible, the recipient of her sentimental
outpourings. I was not bold enough to repel her indeed
I had none of that tact which is so useful in such
emergencies, and she seemed to misinterpret
my submission. Not only was her conversation
pointedly directed to me, but she looked at me, when
singing, (especially, ’Thou, thou, reign’st
in this bosom!’) in a way that made me feel
very uncomfortable. What if Eunice should suspect
an attachment towards her, on my part. What if oh,
horror! I had unconsciously said or done
something to impress Miss Ringtop herself with the
same conviction? I shuddered as the thought crossed
my mind. One thing was very certain: this
suspense was not to be endured much longer.
“We had an unusually silent
breakfast the next morning. Abel scarcely spoke,
which the others attributed to a natural feeling of
shame, after his display of the previous evening.
Hollins and Shelldrake discussed Temperance, with
a special view to his edification, and Miss Ringtop
favored us with several quotations about ’the
maddening bowl,’ but he paid no attention
to them. Eunice was pale and thoughtful.
I had no doubt in my mind, that she was already contemplating
a removal from Arcadia. Perkins, whose perceptive
faculties were by no means dull, whispered to me,
‘Shan’t I bring up some porgies for supper?’
but I shook my head. I was busy with other thoughts,
and did not join him in the wood, that day.
“The forenoon was overcast,
with frequent showers. Each one occupied his
or her room until dinner-time, when we met again with
something of the old geniality. There was an
evident effort to restore our former flow of good
feeling. Abel’s experience with the beer
was freely discussed. He insisted strongly that
he had not been laboring under its effects, and proposed
a mutual test. He, Shelldrake, and Hollins were
to drink it in equal measures, and compare observations
as to their physical sensations. The others agreed, quite
willingly, I thought, but I refused.
I had determined to make a desperate attempt at candor,
and Abel’s fate was fresh before my eyes.
“My nervous agitation increased
during the day, and after sunset, fearing lest I should
betray my excitement in some way, I walked down to
the end of the promontory, and took a seat on the rocks.
The sky had cleared, and the air was deliciously cool
and sweet. The Sound was spread out before me
like a sea, for the Long Island shore was veiled in
a silvery mist. My mind was soothed and calmed
by the influences of the scene, until the moon arose.
Moonlight, you know, disturbs at least,
when one is in love. (Ah, Ned, I see you understand
it!) I felt blissfully miserable, ready to cry with
joy at the knowledge that I loved, and with fear and
vexation at my cowardice, at the same time.
“Suddenly I heard a rustling
beside me. Every nerve in my body tingled, and
I turned my head, with a beating and expectant heart.
Pshaw! It was Miss Ringtop, who spread her blue
dress on the rock beside me, and shook back her long
curls, and sighed, as she gazed at the silver path
of the moon on the water.
“‘Oh, how delicious!’
she cried. ’How it seems to set the spirit
free, and we wander off on the wings of Fancy to other
spheres!’
“‘Yes,’ said I,
‘It is very beautiful, but sad, when one is alone.’
“I was thinking of Eunice.
“‘How inadequate,’
she continued, ’is language to express the emotions
which such a scene calls up in the bosom! Poetry
alone is the voice of the spiritual world, and we,
who are not poets, must borrow the language of the
gifted sons of Song. Oh, Enos, I wish you
were a poet! But you feel poetry, I know
you do. I have seen it in your eyes, when I quoted
the burning lines of Adeliza Kelley, or the soul-breathings
of Gamaliel J. Gawthrop. In him, particularly,
I find the voice of my own nature. Do you know
his ‘Night-Whispers?’ How it embodies the
feelings of such a scene as this!
“Star-drooping bowers
bending down the spaces,
And moonlit glories sweep star-footed on;
And pale, sweet rivers, in their shining
races,
Are ever gliding through the moonlit places,
With silver ripples on their tranced faces,
And forests clasp their dusky hands, with low
and sullen moan!’
“‘Ah!’ she continued,
as I made no reply, ’this is an hour for the
soul to unveil its most secret chambers! Do you
not think, Enos, that love rises superior to all conventionalities?
that those whose souls are in unison should be allowed
to reveal themselves to each other, regardless of
the world’s opinions?’
“‘Yes!’ said I, earnestly.
“‘Enos, do you understand
me?’ she asked, in a tender voice almost
a whisper.
“‘Yes,’ said I,
with a blushing confidence of my own passion.
“‘Then,’ she whispered,
’our hearts are wholly in unison. I know
you are true, Enos. I know your noble nature,
and I will never doubt you. This is indeed happiness!’
“And therewith she laid her
head on my shoulder, and sighed
“’Life remits his tortures
cruel,
Love illumes his fairest fuel,
When the hearts that once were dual
Meet as one, in sweet renewal!’
“‘Miss Ringtop!’
I cried, starting away from her, in alarm, ’you
don’t mean that that ’
“I could not finish the sentence.
“‘Yes, Enos, dear Enos! henceforth
we belong to each other.’
“The painful embarrassment I
felt, as her true meaning shot through my mind, surpassed
anything I had imagined, or experienced in anticipation,
when planning how I should declare myself to Eunice.
Miss Ringtop was at least ten years older than I,
far from handsome (but you remember her face,) and
so affectedly sentimental, that I, sentimental as I
was then, was sick of hearing her talk. Her hallucination
was so monstrous, and gave me such a shock of desperate
alarm, that I spoke, on the impulse of the moment,
with great energy, without regarding how her feelings
might be wounded.
“‘You mistake!’
I exclaimed. ’I didn’t mean that, I
didn’t understand you. Don’t talk
to me that way, don’t look at me in
that way, Miss Ringtop! We were never meant for
each other I wasn’t You’re
so much older I mean different. It
can’t be no, it can never be!
Let us go back to the house: the night is cold.’
“I rose hastily to my feet.
She murmured something, what, I did not
stay to hear, but, plunging through the
cedars, was hurrying with all speed to the house,
when, half-way up the lawn, beside one of the rocky
knobs, I met Eunice, who was apparently on her way
to join us.
“In my excited mood, after the
ordeal through which I had passed, everything seemed
easy. My usual timidity was blown to the four
winds. I went directly to her, took her hand,
and said
“’Eunice, the others are
driving me mad with their candor; will you let me
be candid, too?’
“‘I think you are always candid, Enos,’
she answered.
“Even then, if I had hesitated,
I should have been lost. But I went on, without
pausing
“’Eunice, I love you I
have loved you since we first met. I came here
that I might be near you; but I must leave you forever,
and to-night, unless you can trust your life in my
keeping. God help me, since we have been together
I have lost my faith in almost everything but you.
Pardon me, if I am impetuous different from
what I have seemed. I have struggled so hard
to speak! I have been a coward, Eunice, because
of my love. But now I have spoken, from my heart
of hearts. Look at me: I can bear it now.
Read the truth in my eyes, before you answer.’
“I felt her hand tremble while
I spoke. As she turned towards me her face, which
had been averted, the moon shone full upon it, and
I saw that tears were upon her cheeks. What was
said whether anything was said I
cannot tell. I felt the blessed fact, and that
was enough. That was the dawning of the true
Arcadia.”
Mrs. Billings, who had been silent
during this recital, took her husband’s hand
and smiled. Mr. Johnson felt a dull pang about
the region of his heart. If he had a secret,
however, I do not feel justified in betraying it.
“It was late,” Mr. Billings
continued, “before we returned to the house.
I had a special dread of again encountering Miss Ringtop,
but she was wandering up and down the bluff, under
the pines, singing, ’The dream is past.’
There was a sound of loud voices, as we approached
the stoop. Hollins, Shelldrake and his wife,
and Abel Mallory were sitting together near the door.
Perkins Brown, as usual, was crouched on the lowest
step, with one leg over the other, and rubbing the
top of his boot with a vigor which betrayed to me
some secret mirth. He looked up at me from under
his straw hat with the grin of a malicious Puck, glanced
towards the group, and made a curious gesture with
his thumb. There were several empty pint-bottles
on the stoop.
“‘Now, are you sure you
can bear the test?’ we heard Hollins ask, as
we approached.
“‘Bear it? Why to
be sure!’ replied Shelldrake; ’if I couldn’t
bear it, or if you couldn’t, your theory’s
done for. Try! I can stand it as long as
you can.’
“‘Well, then,’ said
Hollins, ’I think you are a very ordinary man.
I derive no intellectual benefit from my intercourse
with you, but your house is convenient to me.
I’m under no obligations for your hospitality,
however, because my company is an advantage to you.
Indeed if I were treated according to my deserts,
you couldn’t do enough for me.’
“Mrs. Shelldrake was up in arms.
“‘Indeed,’ she exclaimed,
’I think you get as good as you deserve, and
more too.’
“‘Elvira,’ said
he, with a benevolent condescension, ’I have
no doubt you think so, for your mind belongs to the
lowest and most material sphere. You have your
place in Nature, and you fill it; but it is not for
you to judge of intelligences which move only on the
upper planes.’
“‘Hollins,’ said
Shelldrake, ’Elviry’s a good wife and a
sensible woman, and I won’t allow you to turn
up your nose at her.’
“‘I am not surprised,’
he answered, ’that you should fail to stand the
test. I didn’t expect it.’
“‘Let me try it on you!’
cried Shelldrake. ’You, now, have some
intellect, I don’t deny that, but
not so much, by a long shot, as you think you have.
Besides that, you’re awfully selfish in your
opinions. You won’t admit that anybody
can be right who differs from you. You’ve
sponged on me for a long time; but I suppose I’ve
learned something from you, so we’ll call it
even. I think, however, that what you call acting
according to impulse is simply an excuse to cover your
own laziness.’
“‘Gosh! that’s it!’
interrupted Perkins, jumping up; then, recollecting
himself, he sank down on the steps again, and shook
with a suppressed ‘Ho! ho! ho!’
“Hollins, however, drew himself
up with an exasperated air.
“‘Shelldrake,’ said
he, ’I pity you. I always knew your ignorance,
but I thought you honest in your human character.
I never suspected you of envy and malice. However,
the true Reformer must expect to be misunderstood
and misrepresented by meaner minds. That love
which I bear to all creatures teaches me to forgive
you. Without such love, all plans of progress
must fail. Is it not so, Abel?’
“Shelldrake could only ejaculate
the words, ‘Pity!’ ‘Forgive?’
in his most contemptuous tone; while Mrs. Shelldrake,
rocking violently in her chair, gave utterance to
that peculiar clucking, ‘TS, TS, TS, TS,’
whereby certain women express emotions too deep for
words.
“Abel, roused by Hollins’s
question, answered, with a sudden energy
“’Love! there is no love
in the world. Where will you find it? Tell
me, and I’ll go there. Love! I’d
like to see it! If all human hearts were like
mine, we might have an Arcadia; but most men have no
hearts. The world is a miserable, hollow, deceitful
shell of vanity and hypocrisy. No: let us
give up. We were born before our time: this
age is not worthy of us.’
“Hollins stared at the speaker
in utter amazement. Shelldrake gave a long whistle,
and finally gasped out
“‘Well, what next?’
“None of us were prepared for
such a sudden and complete wreck of our Arcadian scheme.
The foundations had been sapped before, it is true;
but we had not perceived it; and now, in two short
days, the whole edifice tumbled about our ears.
Though it was inevitable, we felt a shock of sorrow,
and a silence fell upon us. Only that scamp of
a Perkins Brown, chuckling and rubbing his boot, really
rejoiced. I could have kicked him.
“We all went to bed, feeling
that the charm of our Arcadian life was over.
I was so full of the new happiness of love that I was
scarcely conscious of regret. I seemed to have
leaped at once into responsible manhood, and a glad
rush of courage filled me at the knowledge that my
own heart was a better oracle than those now
so shamefully overthrown on whom I had
so long implicitly relied. In the first revulsion
of feeling, I was perhaps unjust to my associates.
I see now, more clearly, the causes of those vagaries,
which originated in a genuine aspiration, and failed
from an ignorance of the true nature of Man, quite
as much as from the egotism of the individuals.
Other attempts at reorganizing Society were made about
the same time by men of culture and experience, but
in the A. C. we had neither. Our leaders had
caught a few half-truths, which, in their minds, were
speedily warped into errors. I can laugh over
the absurdities I helped to perpetrate, but I must
confess that the experiences of those few weeks went
far towards making a man of me.”
“Did the A. C. break up at once?” asked
Mr. Johnson.
“Not precisely; though Eunice
and I left the house within two days, as we had agreed.
We were not married immediately, however. Three
long years years of hope and mutual encouragement passed
away before that happy consummation. Before our
departure, Hollins had fallen into his old manner,
convinced, apparently, that Candor must be postponed
to a better age of the world. But the quarrel
rankled in Shelldrake’s mind, and especially
in that of his wife. I could see by her looks
and little fidgety ways that his further stay would
be very uncomfortable. Abel Mallory, finding
himself gaining in weight and improving in color, had
no thought of returning. The day previous, as
I afterwards learned, he had discovered Perkins Brown’s
secret kitchen in the woods.
“‘Golly!’ said that
youth, in describing the circumstance to me, ’I
had to ketch two porgies that day.’
“Miss Ringtop, who must have
suspected the new relation between Eunice and myself,
was for the most part rigidly silent. If she quoted,
it was from the darkest and dreariest utterances of
her favorite Gamaliel.
“What happened after our departure
I learned from Perkins, on the return of the Shelldrakes
to Norridgeport, in September. Mrs. Shelldrake
stoutly persisted in refusing to make Hollins’s
bed, or to wash his shirts. Her brain was dull,
to be sure; but she was therefore all the more stubborn
in her resentment. He bore this state of things
for about a week, when his engagements to lecture
in Ohio suddenly called him away. Abel and Miss
Ringtop were left to wander about the promontory in
company, and to exchange lamentations on the hollowness
of human hopes or the pleasures of despair. Whether
it was owing to that attraction of sex which would
make any man and any woman, thrown together on a desert
island, finally become mates, or whether she skilfully
ministered to Abel’s sentimental vanity, I will
not undertake to decide: but the fact is, they
were actually betrothed, on leaving Arcadia. I
think he would willingly have retreated, after his
return to the world; but that was not so easy.
Miss Ringtop held him with an inexorable clutch.
They were not married, however, until just before
his departure for California, whither she afterwards
followed him. She died in less than a year, and
left him free.”
“And what became of the other
Arcadians?” asked Mr. Johnson.
“The Shelldrakes are still living
in Norridgeport. They have become Spiritualists,
I understand, and cultivate Mediums. Hollins,
when I last heard of him, was a Deputy-Surveyor in
the New York Custom-House. Perkins Brown is our
butcher here in Waterbury, and he often asks me ’Do
you take chloride of soda on your beefsteaks?’
He is as fat as a prize ox, and the father of five
children.”
“Enos!” exclaimed Mrs.
Billings, looking at the clock, “it’s nearly
midnight! Mr. Johnson must be very tired, after
such a long story.
“The Chapter of the A. C. is hereby closed!”