Availing himself of his latch-key,
Ferrars re-entered his home unnoticed. He went
at once to his library, and locked the door of the
apartment. There sitting before his desk, he buried
his face in his hands and remained in that posture
for a considerable time.
They were tumultuous and awful thoughts
that passed over his brain. The dreams of a life
were dissipated, and he had to encounter the stern
reality of his position and that was Ruin.
He was without hope and without resource. His
debts were vast; his patrimony was a fable; and the
mysterious inheritance of his wife had been tampered
with. The elder Ferrars had left an insolvent
estate; he had supported his son liberally, but latterly
from his son’s own resources. The father
had made himself the principal trustee of the son’s
marriage settlement. His colleague, a relative
of the heiress, had died, and care was taken that
no one should be substituted in his stead. All
this had been discovered by Ferrars on his father’s
death, but ambition, and the excitement of a life
of blended elation and peril, had sustained him under
the concussion. One by one every chance had vanished:
first his private means and then his public prospects;
he had lost office, and now he was about to lose parliament.
His whole position, so long, and carefully, and skilfully
built up, seemed to dissolve and dissipate into insignificant
fragments. And now he had to break the situation
to his wife. She was to become the unprepared
partner of the secret which had gnawed at his heart
for years, during which to her his mien had often
been smiling and always serene. Mrs. Ferrars was
at home, and alone, in her luxurious boudoir, and
he went to her at once. After years of dissimulation,
now that all was over, Ferrars could not bear the
suspense of four-and-twenty hours.
It was difficult to bring her into
a mood of mind capable of comprehending a tithe of
of what she had to learn; and yet the darkest part
of the tale she was never to know. Mrs. Ferrars,
though singularly intuitive, shrank from controversy,
and settled everything by contradiction and assertion.
She maintained for a long time that what her husband
communicated to her could not be; that it was absurd
and even impossible. After a while, she talked
of selling her diamonds and reducing her equipage,
sacrificing which she assumed would put everything
right. And when she found her husband still grave
and still intimating that the sacrifices must be beyond
all this, and that they must prepare for the life
and habits of another social sphere, she became violent,
and wept and declared her wrongs; that she had been
deceived and outraged and infamously treated.
Remembering how long and with what
apparent serenity in her presence he had endured his
secret woes, and how one of the principal objects of
his life had ever been to guard her even from a shade
of solicitude, even the restrained Ferrars was affected;
his countenance changed and his eyes became suffused.
When she observed this, she suddenly threw her arms
round his neck and with many embraces, amid sighs and
tears, exclaimed, “O William! if we love each
other, what does anything signify?”
And what could anything signify under
such circumstances and on such conditions? As
Ferrars pressed his beautiful wife to his heart, he
remembered only his early love, which seemed entirely
to revive. Unconsciously to himself, too, he
was greatly relieved by this burst of tenderness on
her part, for the prospect of this interview had been
most distressful to him. “My darling,”
he said, “ours is not a case of common imprudence
or misfortune. We are the victims of a revolution,
and we must bear our lot as becomes us under such
circumstances. Individual misfortunes are merged
in the greater catastrophe of the country.”
“That is the true view,”
said his wife; “and, after all, the poor King
of France is much worse off than we are. However,
I cannot now buy the Duchesse of Sèvres’
lace, which I had promised her to do. It is rather
awkward. However, the best way always is to speak
the truth. I must tell the duchess I am powerless,
and that we are the victims of a revolution, like
herself.”
Then they began to talk quite cosily
together over their prospects, he sitting on the sofa
by her side and holding her hand. Mrs. Ferrars
would not hear of retiring to the continent.
“No,” she said, with all her sanguine
vein returning, “you always used to say I brought
you luck, and I will bring you luck yet. There
must be a reaction. The wheel will turn and bring
round our friends again. Do not let us then be
out of the way. Your claims are immense.
They must do something for you. They ought to
give you India, and if we only set our mind upon it,
we shall get it. Depend upon it, things are not
so bad as they seem. What appear to be calamities
are often the sources of fortune. I would much
sooner that you should be Governor-General than a
cabinet minister. That odious House of Commons
is very wearisome. I am not sure any constitution
can bear it very long. I am not sure whether I
would not prefer being Governor-General of India even
to being Prime-Minister.”