THE PARTING OF THE WAYS.
John Ames was seated beneath the verandah
at Cogill’s Hotel with a blue official document
in his hand and a very disgusted look upon his face.
The former accounted for the latter
inasmuch as it was the direct cause thereof.
In cold official terminology it regretted the necessity
of abridging the period of his leave, and in terse
official terminology requested that he would be good
enough to return to his post with all possible dispatch.
He looked up from his third reading of this abominable document, and his
brows were knitted in a frown. He looked at the thick plumbago hedge
opposite, spangled with its pale blue blossoms, at the smooth red stems of the
tall firs, up again at the deep blue of the cloudless sky overhead, then down
once more upon the detestable missive, and said:
“Damn!”
John Ames was not addicted to the
use of strong language. Now, however, he reckoned
the occasion justified it.
“With all possible dispatch.”
That would mean taking his departure that night that very night. And here
he was, ready and waiting to do the usual escort duty, this time for a long day
out on the bicycle. If he were to start that night it would mean exactly
halving that long day. With a savage closing of the hand he crushed the
official letter into a blue ball, and once more ejaculated
“Damn!”
“Sssh!”
Thereat he started. Nidia Commerell
was standing in the doorway right beside him, drawing
on a pair of suede gloves, her blue eyes dancing with
mirth. She was clad in a bicycle skirt and light
blouse, and wore a plain white sailor hat.
“Sssh! You using naughty swear words?
I am surprised at you!”
The smile which rippled brightly from
the mobile lips showed, however, that the surprise,
if any, was not of a derogatory nature. John
Ames laughed ruefully.
“I’m sorry. But
really it was under great provocation. I’ve
received marching orders.”
“No? Not really? Oh, how disgusting!”
The utterance was quick. His
eyes were full upon her face. How would she
receive the communication? Was that really a
flash of consternation, of regret, that swept over
it?
“When must you go?” she
continued, still, it seemed to him, speaking rather
quickly.
“I ought to start by to-night’s
train” then, breaking off “Where
is Mrs Bateman? Is she ready?”
“We shall have to go without
her. She can’t come says she’s
getting headachy.”
“Oh, I’m so sorry!”
Nidia had to turn away her head to
avoid a splutter outright. Never had she heard
words intended to be sympathetic uttered in tones of
more jubilant relief. To herself she said:
“You are a sad tarradiddler, John Ames.”
To him she said, “Yes; it’s a pity, isn’t
it?” He, for his part, was thinking that this
time the official order need not be interpreted too
literally. It had plainly intimated that a state
of things had transpired which necessitated the presence
of every official at his post, but this time the state
of things could dispense with his adjusting hand for
twenty-four hours longer. “With all possible
dispatch.” Well, to start that night under
the circumstances would not be possible, under others
it would. Throughout the whole day Nidia would
be alone with him, and he meant that day to be one
that he should remember.
They started. At first the exhilarating
spin along the smooth fir-shaded road, together with
the consciousness that the day was only beginning,
caused him partly to forget that most unwelcome recall.
They had arranged to use by-roads where the riding
was good, and, taking the train at Mowbray, proceed
to Cape Town, and ride out thence as far beyond Camp’s
Bay as they felt inclined. Now, as they spun
along through the sunlit air, between leafy gardens
radiant with bright flowers and the piping of gladsome
birds, the noble mountain wall away on the left towering
majestic though not stern and forbidding, its cliffs
softened in the summer haze, its slopes silvered with
the beautiful wattle, and great seas of verdure the
bright green of oak foliage throwing out in relief
the darker pine and blue eucalyptus surging
up against its mighty base, the very contrast afforded
by this glorious scene of well-nigh Paradisical beauty,
and the mental vision of a hot steamy wilderness,
not unpicturesque, but depressing in the sense of
remote loneliness conveyed, was borne forcibly home
to the mind of one of them. It was a question
of hours, and all would have fled. He grew silent.
Depression had reasserted itself.
Yet, was it merely a sense of the
external contrast which was afflicting him?
He had traversed this very scene before, and not once
or even twice only. He had always admired it,
but listlessly. But now? The magic wand
had been waved over the whole. But why transform
the ordinary and mundane into a paradise for one who
was to be suffered but one glimpse therein, and now
was to be cast forth? A paradise ah
yes; but a fool’s paradise, he told himself
bitterly.
“Well?”
He started. The query had come
from Nidia, and was uttered artlessly, innocently,
but with a spice of mischief.
“Yes? I was wondering?” she went
on.
“What were you wondering?”
“Oh, nothing! Only er as
it is rather er slow for me,
don’t you think so supposing you
give me an inkling of the problem that is absorbing
you so profoundly? You haven’t said a word
for at least ten minutes. And I like talking.”
“I am so sorry. Yes; I
might have remembered that. How shall I earn
forgiveness?”
“By telling me exactly what
you were thinking about, absolutely and without reservations.
On no other conditions, mind.”
“Oh, only what a nuisance it
is being called away just now.”
The tone was meant to be offhand,
but the quick ear of Nidia was not so easy to deceive.
When John Ames did look down into the bright laughing
face it had taken an expression of sympathy, that with
a quick bound of the heart he read for one that was
almost tender.
“Yes. It is horrid!”
she agreed. “You had a long time to run
yet, hadn’t you?”
“Nearly a month.”
“I call it perfectly abominable.
Can’t you tell them it is absolutely impossible
to come back just now, that er in
short, on no account can you?”
He looked at her. “Do
you wish it?” was on his lips; but he
left the words unsaid. He shook his head sadly.
“I’m afraid it can’t
be done. You see, I am entirely at their beck
and call. And then, from what they say, I believe
they really do want me.”
“Yes; I was forgetting that.
It is something, after all, to be of some use, as
I was telling you the other night; do you remember?”
Did he remember? Was there one
word she had ever said to him one look
she had ever given him that he did not remember,
that he had not thought of, and weighed, and pondered
over, in the dark silent hours of the night, and in
the fresh, but far from silent, hours of early morning?
No, indeed; not one.
“I remember every single word
you have ever said to me,” he answered gravely,
with his full straight glance meeting hers. And
then it was Nidia Commerell’s turn to subside
into silence, for there struck across her mind, in
all its force, the badinage she had exchanged with
her friend in the privacy of their chamber.
If he had never before, as she defined it, “hung
out the signals,” John Ames was beginning to
do so now of that she felt very sure; yet
somehow the thought, unlike in other cases, inspired
in her no derision, but a quickened beating of the
heart, and even a little pain, though why the latter
she could not have told.
“Come,” she said suddenly,
consulting her watch, “we must put on some pace
or we shall miss the train. We have some way
to go yet.”
On over the breezy flat of the Rondebosch
camp-ground and between long rows of cool firs meeting
overhead; then a sharp turn and a spin of straight
road; and in spite of the recurring impediments of
a stupidly driven van drawn right across the way,
and a long double file of khaki-clad mounted infantry
crossing at right angles and a foot’s pace,
they reached the station in time, but only just.
Then, as Nidia, laughing and panting with the hurry
of exertion she had been subjected to, flung herself
down upon the cushion of the compartment, and her
escort, having seen the bicycles safely stowed, at
considerable risk to life and limb, thanks to a now
fast-moving train, clambered in after her, both felt
that the spell which had been moving them to grave
and serious talk was broken between them for
the present.
But later when the midday
glow had somewhat lost its force, when the golden
lights of afternoon were painting with an even more
vivid green the vernal slopes piling up to the great
crags overhanging Camp’s Bay, the same seriousness
would recur, would somehow intrude and force its way
in. They had left their bicycles at the inn where
they had lunched, and had half strolled, half scrambled
down to the place they now were in a snug
resting-place indeed, if somewhat hard, being an immense
rock, flat-topped and solid. Overhead, two other
boulders meeting, formed a sort of cave, affording
a welcome shelter from the yet oppressive sun.
Beneath, the ocean swell was raving with hoarse sullen
murmur among the iron rocks, dark with trailing masses
of seaweed, which seemed as a setting designed to
throw into more gorgeous relief the vivid, dazzling
blue of each little inlet. Before, the vast sheeny
ocean plain, billowing to the ruffle of the soft south
wind.
“Really, you are incorrigible,”
said Nidia at last, breaking the silence. “What
shall I do to make you talk?”
“Yes; I am very slow to-day I
sorrowfully admit it,” he answered, with a laugh
which somehow or other lacked the ring of merriment.
“I know,” went on Nidia.
“I must start discussing the Raid. There!
You will have to be interesting then.”
“That’s ruled out,”
he replied, the point being that from the very first
days of their acquaintance the Raid was a topic he
had resolutely declined to argue or to express any
opinion upon. “Besides, it’s such
a threadbare subject. You are right, though.
I am treating you very badly. In fact, it is
not fair, and I am haunted by a shrivelling conviction
that you are sorry you came out to-day, and at this
moment are heartily wishing yourself at home.
Am I not right?”
“No; quite wrong. I have,
you know, a great respect for your convictions at
times, but for this last one I have nothing but contempt;
yes, contempt profound contempt. There!
Will that satisfy you?”
Her tone was decisive, without being
vehement. In it in the glance of
her eyes he detected a ring of sympathy, of feeling. Could she read his
inner thoughts, he wondered, that each hour of this day as it wore away did but
tighten the grip of the bitter desolating pain that had closed around his heart?
He watched her as she reclined there, the very embodiment of dainty and graceful
ease. He noted the stirring of each little wave of gold-brown hair as it
caressed her forehead to the breath of the soft sea wind; the quick lifting of
the lashes revealing the deep blue of the soulful eyes, so free and frank and
fearless as they met his; the rich tint of the smooth skin, glowing with the
kiss of the air and sun; every curve, too, of the mobile expressive lips; and
the self-restraint he was forced to put upon himself became something
superhuman. And it was their last day together! She, for her part,
was thinking, John Ames is a fool, but the most self-controlled fool I ever
met. How I shall miss him! Yes, indeed, how I shall miss him! Aloud
she said
“I wonder when we shall be going up-country?”
“Never, I predict,” was the somewhat decisive
rejoinder.
Nidia raised herself on one elbow.
“You seem pretty certain as to that,”
she said, “so certain that I begin to think the
wish is father to the thought.”
“Thank you.”
“There, there, don’t be
cross. I am only teasing you. I can be
an awful tease at times, can’t I? Ask
Susie if I can’t if you haven’t
found it out already, that is.”
The mischief had all left her voice,
the laughing eyes were soft and sympathetic again.
He laughed, too, but somewhat sadly.
“Because things up there are
not over bright, and are likely to be less so.
The cattle is all dying off from this new disease rinderpest.
The natives have never been thoroughly conquered,
and there are still plenty of them. The loss
of their cattle will make them desperate, and therefore
dangerous. The outlook is gloomy all round.”
“Oh, but you will be able to
put things right when you get back.”
John Ames stared, as well he might.
Either she meant what she said or she did not.
In the first event, she had a higher opinion of him
than ever he had dreamed; in the second, the remark
was silly to the last degree; and silliness was a
fault, any trace of which he had not as yet discovered
in Nidia Commerell.
“You cannot really mean that,”
he said. “If so, you must be under an
entire misconception as to my position. I am
only one of several. We each of us try to do
our best, but none of us can do anything very great.”
Listening intently, Nidia was saying to herself, How true he rings!
Note. The swagger and egotism of the up-to-date Apollo is conspicuously
absent here. Then, aloud
“No; I was not chaffing.
I believe you can do a great deal. Remember,
we have been very much together of late, and I rather
pride myself upon a faculty for character reading.”
The delicate insinuation of flattery
in her tone constituted the last straw. John
Ames felt his resolution growing very weak. Passionate
words of adoration rose to his lips when
A screech and chatter of child voices
and scurrying feet, right behind the rock under whose
shadow the two were resting, then the sound of scrambling,
and their resting-place was theirs no more. A
round half-dozen uproarious infants were spreading
themselves over the rock slabs around, their shrill
shrieks of glee hardly arrested, as with a start they
discovered the presence of others upon their new playground.
And that they were there to stay they speedily made
known by dint of yelling response to the calls of
the parent-bird, whose own voice drew nearer around
the rock.
The spell was broken. At that
moment John Ames would have given anything to have
seen the rocks below swept by a sudden tidal wave.
The spell was broken. The moment had come and
gone, and he was aware, as by an intuitive flash,
that it would not come again.
Nidia rose. Did she welcome
the fortuitous relief or not? he wondered, as he glanced
at her keenly.
“Let us stroll quietly back,”
she said. “We shall get no more peace
with that nursery romping round us. Besides,
it’s time we thought of beginning the return
ride.
“What an ideal day it has been!”
resumed Nidia, when the ground became even enough
to carry on conversation with any degree of facility.
“Hasn’t it?”
“M’yes. Very `ideal,’
in that like other ideals it doesn’t last.
An ideal is like a wine-glass, sooner or later destined
to be shattered.”
“That’s quite true.
I wonder are there any exceptions to the rule?”
“Safely, no. People set
one up for themselves and adore it; then crash bang!
some fine day they knock it down, and it shatters into
smithereens. Then there is a pedestal empty a
pedestal to let.”
“And up goes another image,
with like result,” laughed the girl.
“Precisely. But how cynical
we are becoming. By the way, to go back to what
I was saying a little while ago, you will probably
not be coming up-country at all. Then we shall
never see each other again.”
“Even then, why should we not?”
“Why? Why, because the
chance that that made us meet now is not
likely to recur. That sort of blessed luck is
not apt to duplicate in this vale of woe. Not
much.”
She smiled, softly, tenderly.
The self-contained John Ames was waxing vehement.
His words were tumbling over each other. He
could hardly get them out quick enough.
“And would you mind so very much if it did not?”
“Yes.”
“So would I.”
Then silence for a few moments.
They were walking along a high-road. At very
short intervals the ubiquitous cyclist singly
or in pairs shot noiselessly by, or here
and there a coloured pedestrian, seated by the roadside,
eyed them indifferently.
“Why should we lose sight of
each other?” said John Ames at length.
“Do you know this time we have had
together has been has been one that I could
never have dreamed of as within the bounds of possibility.”
“We have had a good time, haven’t
we?” assented Nidia, demurely, though conscious
of a quickening pulse. “And now, I don’t
mind telling you something because I have
failed to discover one atom of conceit in your composition so
I don’t mind telling you
“What?”
The interruption was startling.
The voice was dry, the face stony. Had he but
known it the interrupter was going up many degrees
in the speaker’s estimation.
“Only that I shall miss you
dreadfully when you are gone.”
Nidias mischievous demureness simply bubbled with enjoyment at the look of
relief which came over the others features. She continued
“As you say, why should
we lose sight of each other? You may write to
me occasionally when you can spare the time
required for the saving of your country from all the
ills that threaten it. But let’s
see, I oh, well, never mind I
was going to say something, but I won’t.
And now we must not be serious any more.
We have had a lovely day, the loveliest day we could
possibly have had, and we are going to have a lovely
ride back. Here we are at the hotel again.”
The significance of the tone, the
veiled emphasis which underlay the remark, was not
lost upon the listener. John Ames was one who
knew when to let well alone. Patience, tact,
a judicious mind, were all among his qualifications
for his responsible and difficult post. Should
they fail him in a matter where private feeling, however
deep, was concerned? So he acquiesced.
Nidia, for her part, was conscious
of mingled feelings. She did not know whether
to be glad or not that they had been summarily interrupted;
on the whole, she thought she was glad. On the
other hand, she had not exaggerated in saying she
would miss him dreadfully, and already she had some
idea as to how she would miss him. Here was a
man who was outside her experience, who represented
an entirely new phase of character. With her,
too, this time that they had spent so much together
stood forth.
But although no more was said during
their homeward ride of a nature to trench on grave
matters, the tone between both of them was one that
seemed unconsciously to breathe of confidence and rest.
The deep murmur of the ocean swell had sunk its hoarse
raving as it lapped the rocks below the skirting road;
the golden glory of the heaving waters had turned
to a deeper sapphire blue suffused with pink as the
sun sank behind the rampart crags, and already two
or three stars, twinkling forth, seemed to rest upon,
then hover over, the rock crest of the great Lion
Mountain, heaving up, a majestic sentinel, over the
liquid plain. Yes; both were content, for in
the hearts of both still rang the gladness and the
quietude of a very conscious refrain: “We
shall meet again, soon.”
Thus the parting of the ways.
But before they should meet again what?
In that surrounding of peace and evening calm, small
wonder that no suggestion should find place as to
a very different surrounding, where, far to the north,
from the drear mountain wilderness, even at that moment,
thundered forth as another Voice from Sinai
of old a dire and terrible voice telling
of scourge and of war a voice, indeed, of
woe and of wrath, sounding its dread tocsin o’er
an entire land.
“Burned is the earth, Gloom
in the skies Nation’s new birth Manhood
arise!”