The days that followed passed in a
blur. Fred Starratt went through the motions
of living, but they were only motions. Between
the intervals of legal adjustments, court examinations,
and formal red tape he would lie upon his narrow bed
at the hotel reading his wife’s message that
sharp-edged message which had shorn him of his strength as
if to dull further his blunted sensibilities.
In all this time he saw only Watson. He did not
ask for Hilmer or Helen. But one day the attorney
said to him:
“Your wife is still ill, otherwise ”
“Yes, yes ... of course,” Fred assented,
dismissing the subject with an impatient shrug.
Finally, on a certain afternoon at
about two o’clock, Watson came in quite unexpectedly.
“I think by to-night everything
will be settled. ... What can I do for you? ...
Perhaps you would like to go to your apartment and
get some things together... Or see a friend...
Just say the word.” Fred roused himself.
A fleeting rebellion flickered and died. He wanted
nothing ... least of all to so much as see his former
dwelling place. He made only one request.
“If you’re passing that
dance hall where they arrested me you know,
near Jackson Street drop in and ask for
a girl called Ginger. I’d like to see her.”
Watson smiled widely...
The girl Ginger came that very afternoon.
She was dressed very quietly in black, with only a
faint trace of make-up on her cheeks. Almost
anyone would have mistaken her for a drab little shopgirl.
Fred felt awkward in her presence.
“I’m going away to-night for
some time,” he said, when she had seated herself.
“And I wanted to thank you for your interest
when
She shook her head. “That
wasn’t anything,” she answered.
He wondered what next to say.
It was she who spoke finally.
“I suppose you got out of your
mess all right,” she half queried.
He opened his cigarette case and offered
her a smoke. She declined.
“Well, not altogether...
My friend Hilmer worked a compromise... I’m
going to a place to sober up.” He laughed
bitterly.
She folded her hands. “One
of those private sanitariums, I suppose, where rich
guys bluff it out until everything blows over.”
“No, you’re wrong again...
I’m going summering in a state hospital.”
Her hands, suddenly unclasped, lifted
and fell in startled flight. “An insane
asylum?” she gasped. He leaned forward.
“Why do you say that?”
“Because it’s the only
place in this state where they send drunks...
I know plenty who’ve been through that game...
You can’t tell me anything about that.”
He stared at her in silence and presently she said:
“What are they doing to you,
anyway? Railroading you? I don’t believe
you know where you are going.”
He shrugged wearily. “No;
you’re right. And I don’t much care.”
“Why didn’t you send for
me?” she demanded. “That night when
they got you I told you I had a pull... I’m
not a Hilmer, but I can work a few people myself...
I haven’t always been a cheap skate. There
was a time when I had them fighting over me.
And that wasn’t so long ago, either...
I’m still young younger than a lot
that get by. But, anyway, I’ve got a lot
of old-memory stuff up my sleeve that can make some
people step about pretty lively... There’s
more than one man in this town who would just as soon
I kept my mouth shut... I could even run Hilmer
around the ring once or twice if I wanted to.”
He felt a bit tremulous, but he put
a tight rein upon his emotions.
“It’s very good of you,”
he said, “but, really, I couldn’t quite
have that, you know... I don’t mean to
be ungrateful or unkind, but there are some things
that
She laughed. “Oh yes, I
know... You feel that way now, of course...
You’re a gentleman; I understand that...
And I haven’t run up against many gentlemen
in my day... Oh, there were a lot who had plenty
of money and they were polite enough when it didn’t
matter ... but ... Well, I know the real thing
when I see it... You’re going to that hell
hole, too, just for that very reason... Because
you haven’t got the face to be nasty...”
He crumpled the unlighted cigarette
in his hand and flung it from him.
“What do you know about me?” he asked.
“Women aren’t fools!”
she retorted. “And least of all women like
me! ... I wish to God I’d known you sooner!”
He watched the quivering revelations
run in startled flight across her face, hiding themselves
as swiftly behind the dull shadows of indifference.
For a moment the room seemed flooded in a truant flash
of sunshine. She seemed at once incredibly old
and as incredibly touched with a vagrant youth.
How eagerly she must have given herself! How
eagerly she could give herself again!
He rose in his seat, confused.
She seemed to have taken it for a sign of dismissal,
for she followed his example.
“Maybe it isn’t too late,”
she faltered. “Maybe I could work that pull
I’ve got ... if you want me to.”
He shook his head. “It’s
out of my hands,” he answered. She moved
to the door, as if to place a proper distance between
them.
“What does your wife think about it?”
He shrugged.
“You won’t like what I’m
going to say,” she flung out, defiantly.
“But that night when I saw your wife I
knew.”
“Knew what?”
“That she wasn’t playing
fair...” Her face was lighted with a primitive
malevolence. “She isn’t straight!”
He tried to pull himself up in prideful
refutation, but the effort failed. He was turning
away defeated when a knock sounded on the door.
Watson entered. Ginger drew herself flatly against
the wall. The attorney gave a significant glance
in her direction as he said to Starratt:
“Your wife is waiting in the
hall ... just around the corner. I thought it
best to ...”
Ginger came forward quickly.
“Good-by!” she said, hurriedly.
He put out a hand to her. She
moved a little nearer and, suddenly, quite suddenly,
she kissed him. He drew back a little, and presently
she was gone...
He looked up to find Helen standing
before him. She was a little pale and her lips
more scarlet than ever, and her thick, black eyebrows
sharply defined. He had never seen her look so
disagreeably handsome.
“That woman who just went out,”
she began, coolly, “she’s the same one
who
“Yes,” he interrupted, crisply.
“Who is she?”
He looked at her steadily; she did not flinch.
“A friend of mine.”
Her lip curled disdainfully. “Oh!”
she said, and she sat down.
Toward evening they came for him,
or rather Watson did, with a taxicab.
“Everything has gone nicely,”
Watson explained, pridefully. “You certainly
were lucky in having Hilmer for a friend ... no humiliation,
no publicity.”
Fred, standing before the bureau mirror,
brushed his hair. “Where are you taking
me now?” he inquired.
“To the detention hospital...
You’ll stay there a week or so for observation...
It’s a mere form.”
“And from there?”
“To the state hospital at Fairview.”
Fred Starratt flung down the brush.
“Why don’t you call it by its right name?
... I’m told it’s an insane asylum.”
Watson stared and then came forward
with a little threatening gesture. “You
better not start any rough-house, Starratt at
the eleventh hour!” he admonished, with a significant
warmth.
Fred turned slowly, breaking into
a laugh. “Rough-house?” he echoed.
“Don’t be afraid. ... I’ve got
to the curious stage now. I want to see the whole
picture.” He reached for his hat. “I’m
ready ... let’s go.”
A half hour later Fred Starratt was
booked at the detention hospital. They took away
his clothes and gave him a towel and a nightgown and
led him to a bathroom... Presently he was shown
to his cell-like room. Overhead the fading day
filtered in ghostly fashion through a skylight; an
iron bed stood against the wall. There was not
another stick of furniture in sight.
He crawled into his bed and the attendant
left him, switching on an electric light from the
outside. A nurse with supper followed shortly a
bowl of thin soup and two slices of dry bread.
Fred Starratt lifted the bowl to his lips and drank
a few mouthfuls. The stuff was without flavor,
but it quenched his burning thirst... After a
while he broke the bread into small bits not
only because he was hungry, but because he was determined
to eat this bitter meal to the last crumb. When
he had finished he felt mysteriously sealed to indifference.
The nurse came in for the tray and
he asked her to switch off the light. He lay
for hours, open-eyed, in the gloom, while wraithlike
memories materialized and vanished as mysteriously.
Somehow the incidents of his life nearest in point
of time seemed the remotest. Only his youth lay
within easy reach, and his childhood nearest of all.
He was traveling back ... back ... perhaps in the end
oblivion would wrap him in its healing
mantle and he would wait to be made perfect and
whole again in the flaming crucible of a new
birth... Gradually the mists of remembrance
faded, lost their outline ... became confused, and
he slept.
He awoke with a shiver. A piercing
scream was curdling the silence. From the other
side of the thin partition came shrieks, curses, mad
laughter. He heard the heavy tramp of attendants
in the hallway ... doors quickly opened and slammed
shut. ... There followed the sounds of scuffling,
the reeling impact of several bodies against the wall
... then blows of shuddering softness, one last shriek
... dead silence!
He sat up in bed alive
and quivering. Was this the rebirth that the
swooning hours had held in store for him? ...
Quickly life came flooding back. Indifference
fell from him. In one blinding flash his new
condition was revealed. His life had been a futile
compromise. He had sowed passivity and he had
reaped a barren harvest of negative virtues.
He would compromise again, and he would be passive
again, and he would bow his neck to authority ...
but from this moment on he would wither the cold fruits
of such enforced planting in a steadily rising flame
of understanding. He knew now the meaning of the
word “revelation.”