From the time Manson, as a barefooted
boy, caught trout in Ragged Brook, until the winter
of ’62, when, a sturdy young man of eighteen,
he had fallen deeply in love with Liddy Camp, a few
changes had taken place in Southton. Three different
principals had been in charge of the academy, one
of these, a Mr. Snow, being very capable and universally
popular. Later, when Mr. Webber succeeded to
that position, the question of popularity may have
been considered an open one. We must do him the
justice to say he was efficient, however, and if he
had an exaggerated idea of his own importance, it
was inherited, and a failing that neither time nor
experience could eradicate.
The two worthy dominies continued
to try to convert sinners by exhaustive arguments
on predestination and infant damnation, but strange
to say, made little progress. A few of the good
townspeople who were not members of either church,
as well as some that were, had been for many years
reading and thinking for themselves, and had come to
realize that the dry bones of Calvinistic argument
had lost their force, and that the Supreme Being was
not the merciless God the churches had for years depicted
him, but rather a Father whose love and mercy was infinite.
The then ultra-liberal Unitarian idea had begun to
spread and a few who had outgrown the orthodox religion
organized a Unitarian Society, and built a modest
church to worship in. Among these pioneers in
thought were Loring Camp and Jesse Olney, the latter
the author of some of the best school-books then used;
a deep thinker and a leader in town affairs.
There were other thinking men, of course, who were
prominent in this new movement, but, as this simple
story is not an historical narrative, their names
need not be mentioned. This new church and its
followers of course incurred the condemnation of the
other two, especially the one led by Parson Jotham,
who exhausted all argument and invective to convince
his hearers that Unitarianism and sin were synonymous
terms, and that all the new church followers were
surely slated for the fiery furnace. So vigorous
were his utterances in this connection, and so explicit
his description of the fire that is never quenched
and the torture that never ends, that it was said
some of his hearers could smell brimstone and discern
a blue halo about his venerable white head. One
of his favorite arguments was to describe the intense
joy those who were saved through his scheme of salvation
would feel when they came to look over the heavenly
walls and see the writhing agony of all sinners in
the burning lake below. When his eloquence reached
this climax he would cease pounding his open Bible
and glare over the top of his tall pulpit at the assembled
congregation, in the hope, perhaps, of discovering
among them some Unitarian sinner who could thus be
made to realize his doom.
In justice to Parson Jotham it must
be said that his intentions were of the best, no doubt,
but his estimate of the motive forces of human action
was too narrow. He believed the only way to win
people from vice to virtue and good conduct was to
scare them into it.
In spite of all the denunciations
of the other two churches, the new one, though feeble
at first, slowly increased its following. To this
one with their respective parents, came Liddy and
Manson. While perhaps not mature enough to understand
the wide distinction between Unitarianism and Calvinism,
they realized a little of the inexpressible horror
of Rev. Mr. Jotham’s theories of infant damnation
and the like, and were glad to hear no more of them.
Like many other young people to-day, they accepted
their parents’ opinions on all such matters as
best and wisest.
They were not regular in their church
attendance, either, for Liddy could not always leave
her invalid mother, and occasionally she and Manson
found a drive in the summer’s woods or a visit
to the top of Blue Hill more alluring than even the
Unitarian church. Of similar tastes in that respect,
and both ardent admirers of nature, and loving fields
and flowers, birds and brooks, as the lovers of nature
do, they often worshipped in that broad church.
Manson especially, who had from childhood spent countless
hours alone in the forests or roaming over the hills
or along the streams, had learned all the lessons there
taught, and now found Liddy a wonderfully sympathetic
and sweet companion. To spend a few quiet hours
on pleasant Sundays in showing her some pretty cascade
where the foam-flecks floated around and around in
the pool below; or a dark gorge, where the roots of
the trees along its bank grew out and over the rocks
like the arms of fabled gnomes, was a supreme delight
to him. He knew where every bed of trailing arbutus
for miles around could be found; where sweet flag
and checkerberries grew; where all the shady glens
and pretty grottoes were, and to show her all these
charming places and unfold to her his quaint and peculiar
ideas about nature and all things that pertain to
the woods and mountains delighted his heart.
Since the evening when she had given
him the wise advice not to cross bridges till he came
to them, they had grown nearer together in thought
and feeling, and whether in summer, when they drove
in shady woods or visited a beautiful waterfall, where
the rising mist seemed full of rainbows when the sun
shone through it; or in winter, when they went sleighing
over the hills, after an ice storm, and were breathless
with admiration at the wondrous vision, no words or
declaration of love had as yet passed his lips.
He had vowed to himself that none should until the
time came when he had more than mere love to offer.
Since all his acts and words showed her so plainly
what his feelings were, she began to realize what
it must all mean in the end, and that in due time he
would ask her the one important question that contains
the joy or sorrow of a woman’s life. As
this belief began to grow upon her it caused her many
hours of serious thought, and had she not discovered
in her own heart an answering throb of love it is
certain she was far too honorable to have allowed
his attentions to continue.
How the townspeople viewed the affair
may be gathered from a remark made by Aunt Sally Hart,
the village gossip, one Sunday at church.
“They tell me,” she said,
“that young Manson’s keeping stiddy company
with Liddy Camp, and they’re likely to make a
match. Wonder if they’ll go to live on
his father’s farm, or what he will do?”
As Aunt Sally was an estimable lady
of uncertain age, who, never having had a love affair
of her own, felt a keen interest in those of others,
and as she occupied a place in Southton akin to the
“personal mention” column of a modern
society newspaper, it may be said her remark was a
sufficient reflex of public opinion.
When there were any social gatherings
where they were invited, he was by tacit consent considered
as her proper and accepted escort. At the academy
she had never been in the habit of discussing her private
affairs with her mates, and so perhaps was spared what
might have become an annoyance. While she listened
to much gossip, she seldom repeated it, and, by reason
of a certain dignified reticence among even her most
intimate schoolgirl friends, no one felt free to tell
her of the opinions current among them regarding herself
and Manson. For this reason a little deviation
from the usual rule, made one day by her nearest friend,
Emily Hobart, came with all the greater force.
“Do you know,” said Emily,
when they were alone, “it is common talk here
in school that you and Charlie Manson are engaged?
Oh, you need not blush so,” she continued, as
she saw the color rise in Liddy’s face, “everybody
says so and believes it, too. Shall I congratulate
you?”
This did not please Liddy at all.
“I wish everybody would mind
their own business,” she said with a snap, “and
leave me to mind mine.”
“Oh, fiddlesticks,” continued
Emily; “what do you care? He is a nice
fellow, and comes of a good family. We have all
noticed that he has no eyes for any other girl but
you, and never had. They say he fell in love
with you when you wore short dresses.”
When Liddy went home that night she
held a communion with herself. So everybody believed
it, did they? And she, in spite of her invariable
reticence, was being gossiped about, was she?
“I’ve a good mind never to set foot in
the academy again,” she said to herself.
For a solitary hour she was miserable,
and then the reaction came. She began to think
it all over, and all the years she had known him from
his boyhood passed in review. And in all those
years there was not one unsightly fact, or one hour,
or one word she could wish were blotted out.
And they said he had loved her from the days of short
dresses! Well, what if he had? It was no
disgrace. Then pride came in and she began to
feel thankful he had, and as the recollection of it
all came crowding into her thoughts and surging through
her heart, she arose and looked into her mirror.
She saw the reflection of a sweet face with flushing
cheeks, red lips, bright eyes, and-was it
possible! a faint glistening of moisture on her eyelashes!
“Pshaw,” she said to herself
as she turned away, “I believe I am losing my
senses.”
The next two days at school she barely
nodded to him each day. “At least he shall
not see it,” she thought.
When the next Sunday eve came she
dressed herself with unusual care, and as it was a
cold night she piled the parlor fireplace full of wood
and started it early.
Then she sat down to wait. The
time of his usual coming passed, but there was no
knock at the door. The hall clock with slow and
solemn tick marked one hour of waiting, and still
he did not come. She arose and added fuel to
the fire, and then, taking a book, tried to read.
It was of no use, she could not fix her mind upon
anything, and she laid the book down and, crossing
the room, looked out of the window. How cheerless
the snowclad dooryard, and what a cold glitter the
stars seemed to have! She sat down again and
watched the fire. The tall clock just outside
the parlor door seemed to say: “Never-never-never!”
She arose and shut the door, for every
one of those slow and solemn beats was like a blow
upon her aching heart. Then she seated herself
again by the dying fire, and as she gazed at the fading
embers a little realization of what woman’s
love and woman’s waiting means came to her.
When the room had grown chill, she lighted her lamp
and retired to her chamber.
“I have never realized it before,”
she said, as she looked at the sad, sweet face in
the mirror. And that night it was long ere slumber
came to her pillow.