Mr Dombey’s offices were in
a court where there was an old-established stall of
choice fruit at the corner: where perambulating
merchants, of both sexes, offered for sale at any
time between the hours of ten and five, slippers,
pocket-books, sponges, dogs’ collars, and Windsor
soap; and sometimes a pointer or an oil-painting.
The pointer always came that way,
with a view to the Stock Exchange, where a sporting
taste (originating generally in bets of new hats)
is much in vogue. The other commodities were addressed
to the general public; but they were never offered
by the vendors to Mr Dombey. When he appeared,
the dealers in those wares fell off respectfully.
The principal slipper and dogs’ collar man who
considered himself a public character, and whose portrait
was screwed on to an artist’s door in Cheapside threw
up his forefinger to the brim of his hat as Mr Dombey
went by. The ticket-porter, if he were not absent
on a job, always ran officiously before, to open Mr
Dombey’s office door as wide as possible, and
hold it open, with his hat off, while he entered.
The clerks within were not a whit
behind-hand in their demonstrations of respect.
A solemn hush prevailed, as Mr Dombey passed through
the outer office. The wit of the Counting-House
became in a moment as mute as the row of leathern
fire-buckets hanging up behind him. Such vapid
and flat daylight as filtered through the ground-glass
windows and skylights, leaving a black sediment upon
the panes, showed the books and papers, and the figures
bending over them, enveloped in a studious gloom, and
as much abstracted in appearance, from the world without,
as if they were assembled at the bottom of the sea;
while a mouldy little strong room in the obscure perspective,
where a shaded lamp was always burning, might have
represented the cavern of some ocean monster, looking
on with a red eye at these mysteries of the deep.
When Perch the messenger, whose place
was on a little bracket, like a timepiece, saw Mr
Dombey come in or rather when he felt that
he was coming, for he had usually an instinctive sense
of his approach he hurried into Mr Dombey’s
room, stirred the fire, carried fresh coals from the
bowels of the coal-box, hung the newspaper to air upon
the fender, put the chair ready, and the screen in
its place, and was round upon his heel on the instant
of Mr Dombey’s entrance, to take his great-coat
and hat, and hang them up. Then Perch took the
newspaper, and gave it a turn or two in his hands
before the fire, and laid it, deferentially, at Mr
Dombey’s elbow. And so little objection
had Perch to being deferential in the last degree,
that if he might have laid himself at Mr Dombey’s
feet, or might have called him by some such title
as used to be bestowed upon the Caliph Haroun Alraschid,
he would have been all the better pleased.
As this honour would have been an
innovation and an experiment, Perch was fain to content
himself by expressing as well as he could, in his
manner, You are the light of my Eyes. You are
the Breath of my Soul. You are the commander
of the Faithful Perch! With this imperfect happiness
to cheer him, he would shut the door softly, walk away
on tiptoe, and leave his great chief to be stared
at, through a dome-shaped window in the leads, by
ugly chimney-pots and backs of houses, and especially
by the bold window of a hair-cutting saloon on a first
floor, where a waxen effigy, bald as a Mussulman in
the morning, and covered, after eleven o’clock
in the day, with luxuriant hair and whiskers in the
latest Christian fashion, showed him the wrong side
of its head for ever.
Between Mr Dombey and the common world,
as it was accessible through the medium of the outer
office to which Mr Dombey’s presence
in his own room may be said to have struck like damp,
or cold air there were two degrees of descent.
Mr Carker in his own office was the first step; Mr
Morfin, in his own office, was the second. Each
of these gentlemen occupied a little chamber like
a bath-room, opening from the passage outside Mr Dombey’s
door. Mr Carker, as Grand Vizier, inhabited the
room that was nearest to the Sultan. Mr Morfin,
as an officer of inferior state, inhabited the room
that was nearest to the clerks.
The gentleman last mentioned was a
cheerful-looking, hazel-eyed elderly bachelor:
gravely attired, as to his upper man, in black; and
as to his legs, in pepper-and-salt colour. His
dark hair was just touched here and there with specks
of gray, as though the tread of Time had splashed
it; and his whiskers were already white. He had
a mighty respect for Mr Dombey, and rendered him due
homage; but as he was of a genial temper himself,
and never wholly at his ease in that stately presence,
he was disquieted by no jealousy of the many conferences
enjoyed by Mr Carker, and felt a secret satisfaction
in having duties to discharge, which rarely exposed
him to be singled out for such distinction. He
was a great musical amateur in his way after
business; and had a paternal affection for his violoncello,
which was once in every week transported from Islington,
his place of abode, to a certain club-room hard by
the Bank, where quartettes of the most tormenting
and excruciating nature were executed every Wednesday
evening by a private party.
Mr Carker was a gentleman thirty-eight
or forty years old, of a florid complexion, and with
two unbroken rows of glistening teeth, whose regularity
and whiteness were quite distressing. It was impossible
to escape the observation of them, for he showed them
whenever he spoke; and bore so wide a smile upon his
countenance (a smile, however, very rarely, indeed,
extending beyond his mouth), that there was something
in it like the snarl of a cat. He affected a
stiff white cravat, after the example of his principal,
and was always closely buttoned up and tightly dressed.
His manner towards Mr Dombey was deeply conceived and
perfectly expressed. He was familiar with him,
in the very extremity of his sense of the distance
between them. ’Mr Dombey, to a man in your
position from a man in mine, there is no show of subservience
compatible with the transaction of business between
us, that I should think sufficient. I frankly
tell you, Sir, I give it up altogether. I feel
that I could not satisfy my own mind; and Heaven knows,
Mr Dombey, you can afford to dispense with the endeavour.’
If he had carried these words about with him printed
on a placard, and had constantly offered it to Mr Dombey’s
perusal on the breast of his coat, he could not have
been more explicit than he was.
This was Carker the Manager.
Mr Carker the Junior, Walter’s friend, was his
brother; two or three years older than he, but widely
removed in station. The younger brother’s
post was on the top of the official ladder; the elder
brother’s at the bottom. The elder brother
never gained a stave, or raised his foot to mount
one. Young men passed above his head, and rose
and rose; but he was always at the bottom. He
was quite resigned to occupy that low condition:
never complained of it: and certainly never hoped
to escape from it.
‘How do you do this morning?’
said Mr Carker the Manager, entering Mr Dombey’s
room soon after his arrival one day: with a bundle
of papers in his hand.
‘How do you do, Carker?’ said Mr Dombey.
‘Coolish!’ observed Carker, stirring the
fire.
‘Rather,’ said Mr Dombey.
‘Any news of the young gentleman
who is so important to us all?’ asked Carker,
with his whole regiment of teeth on parade.
‘Yes not direct news I
hear he’s very well,’ said Mr Dombey.
Who had come from Brighton over-night. But no
one knew It.
‘Very well, and becoming a great
scholar, no doubt?’ observed the Manager.
‘I hope so,’ returned Mr Dombey.
‘Egad!’ said Mr Carker, shaking his head,
‘Time flies!’
‘I think so, sometimes,’ returned Mr Dombey,
glancing at his newspaper.
‘Oh! You! You have
no reason to think so,’ observed Carker.
’One who sits on such an elevation as yours,
and can sit there, unmoved, in all seasons hasn’t
much reason to know anything about the flight of time.
It’s men like myself, who are low down and are
not superior in circumstances, and who inherit new
masters in the course of Time, that have cause to
look about us. I shall have a rising sun to worship,
soon.’
‘Time enough, time enough, Carker!’
said Mr Dombey, rising from his chair, and standing
with his back to the fire. ’Have you anything
there for me?’
‘I don’t know that I need
trouble you,’ returned Carker, turning over
the papers in his hand. ‘You have a committee
today at three, you know.’
‘And one at three, three-quarters,’ added
Mr Dombey.
‘Catch you forgetting anything!’
exclaimed Carker, still turning over his papers.
’If Mr Paul inherits your memory, he’ll
be a troublesome customer in the House. One of
you is enough.’
‘You have an accurate memory
of your own,’ said Mr Dombey.
‘Oh! I!’ returned
the manager. ‘It’s the only capital
of a man like me.’
Mr Dombey did not look less pompous
or at all displeased, as he stood leaning against
the chimney-piece, surveying his (of course unconscious)
clerk, from head to foot. The stiffness and nicety
of Mr Carker’s dress, and a certain arrogance
of manner, either natural to him or imitated from
a pattern not far off, gave great additional effect
to his humility. He seemed a man who would contend
against the power that vanquished him, if he could,
but who was utterly borne down by the greatness and
superiority of Mr Dombey.
‘Is Morfin here?’ asked
Mr Dombey after a short pause, during which Mr Carker
had been fluttering his papers, and muttering little
abstracts of their contents to himself.
‘Morfin’s here,’
he answered, looking up with his widest and almost
sudden smile; ’humming musical recollections of
his last night’s quartette party, I suppose through
the walls between us, and driving me half mad.
I wish he’d make a bonfire of his violoncello,
and burn his music-books in it.’
‘You respect nobody, Carker, I think,’
said Mr Dombey.
‘No?’ inquired Carker,
with another wide and most feline show of his teeth.
‘Well! Not many people, I believe.
I wouldn’t answer perhaps,’ he murmured,
as if he were only thinking it, ‘for more than
one.’
A dangerous quality, if real; and
a not less dangerous one, if feigned. But Mr
Dombey hardly seemed to think so, as he still stood
with his back to the fire, drawn up to his full height,
and looking at his head-clerk with a dignified composure,
in which there seemed to lurk a stronger latent sense
of power than usual.
‘Talking of Morfin,’ resumed
Mr Carker, taking out one paper from the rest, ’he
reports a junior dead in the agency at Barbados, and
proposes to reserve a passage in the Son and Heir she’ll
sail in a month or so for the successor.
You don’t care who goes, I suppose? We have
nobody of that sort here.’
Mr Dombey shook his head with supreme indifference.
‘It’s no very precious
appointment,’ observed Mr Carker, taking up a
pen, with which to endorse a memorandum on the back
of the paper. ’I hope he may bestow it
on some orphan nephew of a musical friend. It
may perhaps stop his fiddle-playing, if he has a gift
that way. Who’s that? Come in!’
‘I beg your pardon, Mr Carker.
I didn’t know you were here, Sir,’ answered
Walter; appearing with some letters in his hand, unopened,
and newly arrived. ‘Mr Carker the junior,
Sir ’
At the mention of this name, Mr Carker
the Manager was or affected to be, touched to the
quick with shame and humiliation. He cast his
eyes full on Mr Dombey with an altered and apologetic
look, abased them on the ground, and remained for
a moment without speaking.
‘I thought, Sir,’ he said
suddenly and angrily, turning on Walter, ’that
you had been before requested not to drag Mr Carker
the Junior into your conversation.’
‘I beg your pardon,’ returned
Walter. ’I was only going to say that Mr
Carker the Junior had told me he believed you were
gone out, or I should not have knocked at the door
when you were engaged with Mr Dombey. These are
letters for Mr Dombey, Sir.’
‘Very well, Sir,’ returned
Mr Carker the Manager, plucking them sharply from
his hand. ‘Go about your business.’
But in taking them with so little
ceremony, Mr Carker dropped one on the floor, and
did not see what he had done; neither did Mr Dombey
observe the letter lying near his feet. Walter
hesitated for a moment, thinking that one or other
of them would notice it; but finding that neither did,
he stopped, came back, picked it up, and laid it himself
on Mr Dombey’s desk. The letters were post-letters;
and it happened that the one in question was Mrs Pipchin’s
regular report, directed as usual for Mrs
Pipchin was but an indifferent penwoman by
Florence. Mr Dombey, having his attention silently
called to this letter by Walter, started, and looked
fiercely at him, as if he believed that he had purposely
selected it from all the rest.
‘You can leave the room, Sir!’ said Mr
Dombey, haughtily.
He crushed the letter in his hand;
and having watched Walter out at the door, put it
in his pocket without breaking the seal.
‘These continual references
to Mr Carker the Junior,’ Mr Carker the Manager
began, as soon as they were alone, ’are, to a
man in my position, uttered before one in yours, so
unspeakably distressing ’
‘Nonsense, Carker,’ Mr
Dombey interrupted. ‘You are too sensitive.’
‘I am sensitive,’ he returned.
’If one in your position could by any possibility
imagine yourself in my place: which you cannot:
you would be so too.’
As Mr Dombey’s thoughts were
evidently pursuing some other subject, his discreet
ally broke off here, and stood with his teeth ready
to present to him, when he should look up.
‘You want somebody to send to
the West Indies, you were saying,’ observed
Mr Dombey, hurriedly.
‘Yes,’ replied Carker.
‘Send young Gay.’
‘Good, very good indeed.
Nothing easier,’ said Mr Carker, without any
show of surprise, and taking up the pen to re-endorse
the letter, as coolly as he had done before. ‘"Send
young Gay."’
‘Call him back,’ said Mr Dombey.
Mr Carker was quick to do so, and Walter was quick
to return.
‘Gay,’ said Mr Dombey,
turning a little to look at him over his shoulder.
’Here is a
‘An opening,’ said Mr Carker, with his
mouth stretched to the utmost.
‘In the West Indies. At
Barbados. I am going to send you,’ said
Mr Dombey, scorning to embellish the bare truth, ’to
fill a junior situation in the counting-house at Barbados.
Let your Uncle know from me, that I have chosen you
to go to the West Indies.’
Walter’s breath was so completely
taken away by his astonishment, that he could hardly
find enough for the repetition of the words ’West
Indies.’
‘Somebody must go,’ said
Mr Dombey, ’and you are young and healthy, and
your Uncle’s circumstances are not good.
Tell your Uncle that you are appointed. You will
not go yet. There will be an interval of a month or
two perhaps.’
‘Shall I remain there, Sir?’ inquired
Walter.
‘Will you remain there, Sir!’
repeated Mr Dombey, turning a little more round towards
him. ‘What do you mean? What does he
mean, Carker?’
‘Live there, Sir,’ faltered Walter.
‘Certainly,’ returned Mr Dombey.
Walter bowed.
‘That’s all,’ said
Mr Dombey, resuming his letters. ’You will
explain to him in good time about the usual outfit
and so forth, Carker, of course. He needn’t
wait, Carker.’
‘You needn’t wait, Gay,’ observed
Mr Carker: bare to the gums.
‘Unless,’ said Mr Dombey,
stopping in his reading without looking off the letter,
and seeming to listen. ‘Unless he has anything
to say.’
‘No, Sir,’ returned Walter,
agitated and confused, and almost stunned, as an infinite
variety of pictures presented themselves to his mind;
among which Captain Cuttle, in his glazed hat, transfixed
with astonishment at Mrs MacStinger’s, and his
uncle bemoaning his loss in the little back parlour,
held prominent places. ’I hardly know I I
am much obliged, Sir.’
‘He needn’t wait, Carker,’ said
Mr Dombey.
And as Mr Carker again echoed the
words, and also collected his papers as if he were
going away too, Walter felt that his lingering any
longer would be an unpardonable intrusion especially
as he had nothing to say and therefore
walked out quite confounded.
Going along the passage, with the
mingled consciousness and helplessness of a dream,
he heard Mr Dombey’s door shut again, as Mr Carker
came out: and immediately afterwards that gentleman
called to him.
‘Bring your friend Mr Carker
the Junior to my room, Sir, if you please.’
Walter went to the outer office and
apprised Mr Carker the Junior of his errand, who accordingly
came out from behind a partition where he sat alone
in one corner, and returned with him to the room of
Mr Carker the Manager.
That gentleman was standing with his
back to the fire, and his hands under his coat-tails,
looking over his white cravat, as unpromisingly as
Mr Dombey himself could have looked. He received
them without any change in his attitude or softening
of his harsh and black expression: merely signing
to Walter to close the door.
‘John Carker,’ said the
Manager, when this was done, turning suddenly upon
his brother, with his two rows of teeth bristling as
if he would have bitten him, ’what is the league
between you and this young man, in virtue of which
I am haunted and hunted by the mention of your name?
Is it not enough for you, John Carker, that I am your
near relation, and can’t detach myself from
that ’
‘Say disgrace, James,’
interposed the other in a low voice, finding that
he stammered for a word. ‘You mean it, and
have reason, say disgrace.’
‘From that disgrace,’
assented his brother with keen emphasis, ’but
is the fact to be blurted out and trumpeted, and proclaimed
continually in the presence of the very House!
In moments of confidence too? Do you think your
name is calculated to harmonise in this place with
trust and confidence, John Carker?’
‘No,’ returned the other.
‘No, James. God knows I have no such thought.’
‘What is your thought, then?’
said his brother, ’and why do you thrust yourself
in my way? Haven’t you injured me enough
already?’
‘I have never injured you, James, wilfully.’
‘You are my brother,’ said the Manager.
‘That’s injury enough.’
‘I wish I could undo it, James.’
‘I wish you could and would.’
During this conversation, Walter had
looked from one brother to the other, with pain and
amazement. He who was the Senior in years, and
Junior in the House, stood, with his eyes cast upon
the ground, and his head bowed, humbly listening to
the reproaches of the other. Though these were
rendered very bitter by the tone and look with which
they were accompanied, and by the presence of Walter
whom they so much surprised and shocked, he entered
no other protest against them than by slightly raising
his right hand in a deprecatory manner, as if he would
have said, ‘Spare me!’ So, had they been
blows, and he a brave man, under strong constraint,
and weakened by bodily suffering, he might have stood
before the executioner.
Generous and quick in all his emotions,
and regarding himself as the innocent occasion of
these taunts, Walter now struck in, with all the earnestness
he felt.
‘Mr Carker,’ he said,
addressing himself to the Manager. ’Indeed,
indeed, this is my fault solely. In a kind of
heedlessness, for which I cannot blame myself enough,
I have, I have no doubt, mentioned Mr Carker the Junior
much oftener than was necessary; and have allowed his
name sometimes to slip through my lips, when it was
against your expressed wish. But it has been
my own mistake, Sir. We have never exchanged one
word upon the subject very few, indeed,
on any subject. And it has not been,’ added
Walter, after a moment’s pause, ’all heedlessness
on my part, Sir; for I have felt an interest in Mr
Carker ever since I have been here, and have hardly
been able to help speaking of him sometimes, when
I have thought of him so much!’
Walter said this from his soul, and
with the very breath of honour. For he looked
upon the bowed head, and the downcast eyes, and upraised
hand, and thought, ’I have felt it; and why
should I not avow it in behalf of this unfriended,
broken man!’
Mr Carker the Manager looked at him,
as he spoke, and when he had finished speaking, with
a smile that seemed to divide his face into two parts.
‘You are an excitable youth,
Gay,’ he said; ’and should endeavour to
cool down a little now, for it would be unwise to encourage
feverish predispositions. Be as cool as you can,
Gay. Be as cool as you can. You might have
asked Mr John Carker himself (if you have not done
so) whether he claims to be, or is, an object of such
strong interest.’
‘James, do me justice,’
said his brother. ’I have claimed nothing;
and I claim nothing. Believe me, on my
‘Honour?’ said his brother,
with another smile, as he warmed himself before the
fire.
‘On my Me on my fallen
life!’ returned the other, in the same low voice,
but with a deeper stress on his words than he had yet
seemed capable of giving them. ’Believe
me, I have held myself aloof, and kept alone.
This has been unsought by me. I have avoided him
and everyone.
‘Indeed, you have avoided me,
Mr Carker,’ said Walter, with the tears rising
to his eyes; so true was his compassion. ’I
know it, to my disappointment and regret. When
I first came here, and ever since, I am sure I have
tried to be as much your friend, as one of my age could
presume to be; but it has been of no use.
‘And observe,’ said the
Manager, taking him up quickly, ’it will be of
still less use, Gay, if you persist in forcing Mr John
Carker’s name on people’s attention.
That is not the way to befriend Mr John Carker.
Ask him if he thinks it is.’
‘It is no service to me,’
said the brother. ’It only leads to such
a conversation as the present, which I need not say
I could have well spared. No one can be a better
friend to me:’ he spoke here very distinctly,
as if he would impress it upon Walter: ’than
in forgetting me, and leaving me to go my way, unquestioned
and unnoticed.’
‘Your memory not being retentive,
Gay, of what you are told by others,’ said Mr
Carker the Manager, warming himself with great and
increased satisfaction, ’I thought it well that
you should be told this from the best authority,’
nodding towards his brother. ’You are not
likely to forget it now, I hope. That’s
all, Gay. You can go.
Walter passed out at the door, and
was about to close it after him, when, hearing the
voices of the brothers again, and also the mention
of his own name, he stood irresolutely, with his hand
upon the lock, and the door ajar, uncertain whether
to return or go away. In this position he could
not help overhearing what followed.
‘Think of me more leniently,
if you can, James,’ said John Carker, ’when
I tell you I have had how could I help having,
with my history, written here’ striking
himself upon the breast ’my whole
heart awakened by my observation of that boy, Walter
Gay. I saw in him when he first came here, almost
my other self.’
‘Your other self!’ repeated the Manager,
disdainfully.
’Not as I am, but as I was when
I first came here too; as sanguine, giddy, youthful,
inexperienced; flushed with the same restless and
adventurous fancies; and full of the same qualities,
fraught with the same capacity of leading on to good
or evil.’
‘I hope not,’ said his
brother, with some hidden and sarcastic meaning in
his tone.
’You strike me sharply; and
your hand is steady, and your thrust is very deep,’
returned the other, speaking (or so Walter thought)
as if some cruel weapon actually stabbed him as he
spoke. ’I imagined all this when he was
a boy. I believed it. It was a truth to me.
I saw him lightly walking on the edge of an unseen
gulf where so many others walk with equal gaiety,
and from which ’
‘The old excuse,’ interrupted
his brother, as he stirred the fire. ’So
many. Go on. Say, so many fall.’
‘From which one traveller
fell,’ returned the other, ’who set forward,
on his way, a boy like him, and missed his footing
more and more, and slipped a little and a little lower;
and went on stumbling still, until he fell headlong
and found himself below a shattered man. Think
what I suffered, when I watched that boy.’
‘You have only yourself to thank
for it,’ returned the brother.
‘Only myself,’ he assented
with a sigh. ’I don’t seek to divide
the blame or shame.’
‘You have divided the shame,’
James Carker muttered through his teeth. And,
through so many and such close teeth, he could mutter
well.
‘Ah, James,’ returned
his brother, speaking for the first time in an accent
of reproach, and seeming, by the sound of his voice,
to have covered his face with his hands, ’I
have been, since then, a useful foil to you.
You have trodden on me freely in your climbing up.
Don’t spurn me with your heel!’
A silence ensued. After a time,
Mr Carker the Manager was heard rustling among his
papers, as if he had resolved to bring the interview
to a conclusion. At the same time his brother
withdrew nearer to the door.
‘That’s all,’ he
said. ’I watched him with such trembling
and such fear, as was some little punishment to me,
until he passed the place where I first fell; and
then, though I had been his father, I believe I never
could have thanked God more devoutly. I didn’t
dare to warn him, and advise him; but if I had seen
direct cause, I would have shown him my example.
I was afraid to be seen speaking with him, lest it
should be thought I did him harm, and tempted him
to evil, and corrupted him: or lest I really
should. There may be such contagion in me; I don’t
know. Piece out my history, in connexion with
young Walter Gay, and what he has made me feel; and
think of me more leniently, James, if you can.
With these words he came out to where
Walter was standing. He turned a little paler
when he saw him there, and paler yet when Walter caught
him by the hand, and said in a whisper:
’Mr Carker, pray let me thank
you! Let me say how much I feel for you!
How sorry I am, to have been the unhappy cause of all
this! How I almost look upon you now as my protector
and guardian! How very, very much, I feel obliged
to you and pity you!’ said Walter, squeezing
both his hands, and hardly knowing, in his agitation,
what he did or said.
Mr Morfin’s room being close
at hand and empty, and the door wide open, they moved
thither by one accord: the passage being seldom
free from someone passing to or fro. When they
were there, and Walter saw in Mr Carker’s face
some traces of the emotion within, he almost felt as
if he had never seen the face before; it was so greatly
changed.
‘Walter,’ he said, laying
his hand on his shoulder. ’I am far removed
from you, and may I ever be. Do you know what
I am?’
‘What you are!’ appeared
to hang on Walter’s lips, as he regarded him
attentively.
‘It was begun,’ said Carker,
’before my twenty-first birthday led
up to, long before, but not begun till near that time.
I had robbed them when I came of age. I robbed
them afterwards. Before my twenty-second birthday,
it was all found out; and then, Walter, from all men’s
society, I died.’
Again his last few words hung trembling
upon Walter’s lips, but he could neither utter
them, nor any of his own.
’The House was very good to
me. May Heaven reward the old man for his forbearance!
This one, too, his son, who was then newly in the Firm,
where I had held great trust! I was called into
that room which is now his I have never
entered it since and came out, what you
know me. For many years I sat in my present seat,
alone as now, but then a known and recognised example
to the rest. They were all merciful to me, and
I lived. Time has altered that part of my poor
expiation; and I think, except the three heads of
the House, there is no one here who knows my story
rightly. Before the little boy grows up, and has
it told to him, my corner may be vacant. I would
rather that it might be so! This is the only
change to me since that day, when I left all youth,
and hope, and good men’s company, behind me
in that room. God bless you, Walter! Keep
you, and all dear to you, in honesty, or strike them
dead!’
Some recollection of his trembling
from head to foot, as if with excessive cold, and
of his bursting into tears, was all that Walter could
add to this, when he tried to recall exactly what had
passed between them.
When Walter saw him next, he was bending
over his desk in his old silent, drooping, humbled
way. Then, observing him at his work, and feeling
how resolved he evidently was that no further intercourse
should arise between them, and thinking again and
again on all he had seen and heard that morning in
so short a time, in connexion with the history of
both the Carkers, Walter could hardly believe that
he was under orders for the West Indies, and would
soon be lost to Uncle Sol, and Captain Cuttle, and
to glimpses few and far between of Florence Dombey no,
he meant Paul and to all he loved, and
liked, and looked for, in his daily life.
But it was true, and the news had
already penetrated to the outer office; for while
he sat with a heavy heart, pondering on these things,
and resting his head upon his arm, Perch the messenger,
descending from his mahogany bracket, and jogging
his elbow, begged his pardon, but wished to say in
his ear, Did he think he could arrange to send home
to England a jar of preserved Ginger, cheap, for Mrs
Perch’s own eating, in the course of her recovery
from her next confinement?