The bachelor, among his various occupations,
found in the old church a constant source of interest
and amusement. Taking that pride in it which
men conceive for the wonders of their own little world,
he had made its history his study; and many a summer
day within its walls, and many a winter’s night
beside the parsonage fire, had found the bachelor
still poring over, and adding to, his goodly store
of tale and legend.
As he was not one of those rough spirits
who would strip fair Truth of every little shadowy
vestment in which time and teeming fancies love to
array her and some of which become her pleasantly
enough, serving, like the waters of her well, to add
new graces to the charms they half conceal and half
suggest, and to awaken interest and pursuit rather
than languor and indifference as, unlike
this stern and obdurate class, he loved to see the
goddess crowned with those garlands of wild flowers
which tradition wreathes for her gentle wearing, and
which are often freshest in their homeliest shapes he
trod with a light step and bore with a light hand
upon the dust of centuries, unwilling to demolish
any of the airy shrines that had been raised above
it, if any good feeling or affection of the human
heart were hiding thereabouts. Thus, in the case
of an ancient coffin of rough stone, supposed, for
many generations, to contain the bones of a certain
baron, who, after ravaging, with cut, and thrust,
and plunder, in foreign lands, came back with a penitent
and sorrowing heart to die at home, but which had
been lately shown by learned antiquaries to be no such
thing, as the baron in question (so they contended)
had died hard in battle, gnashing his teeth and cursing
with his latest breath the bachelor stoutly
maintained that the old tale was the true one; that
the baron, repenting him of the evil, had done great
charities and meekly given up the ghost; and that,
if ever baron went to heaven, that baron was then
at peace. In like manner, when the aforesaid
antiquaries did argue and contend that a certain secret
vault was not the tomb of a grey-haired lady who had
been hanged and drawn and quartered by glorious Queen
Bess for succouring a wretched priest who fainted
of thirst and hunger at her door, the bachelor did
solemnly maintain, against all comers, that the church
was hallowed by the said poor lady’s ashes; that
her remains had been collected in the night from four
of the city’s gates, and thither in secret brought,
and there deposited; and the bachelor did further
(being highly excited at such times) deny the glory
of Queen Bess, and assert the immeasurably greater
glory of the meanest woman in her realm, who had a
merciful and tender heart. As to the assertion
that the flat stone near the door was not the grave
of the miser who had disowned his only child and left
a sum of money to the church to buy a peal of bells,
the bachelor did readily admit the same, and that
the place had given birth to no such man. In
a word, he would have had every stone, and plate of
brass, the monument only of deeds whose memory should
survive. All others he was willing to forget.
They might be buried in consecrated ground, but he
would have had them buried deep, and never brought
to light again.
It was from the lips of such a tutor,
that the child learnt her easy task. Already
impressed, beyond all telling, by the silent building
and the peaceful beauty of the spot in which it stood majestic
age surrounded by perpetual youth it seemed
to her, when she heard these things, sacred to all
goodness and virtue. It was another world, where
sin and sorrow never came; a tranquil place of rest,
where nothing evil entered.
When the bachelor had given her in
connection with almost every tomb and flat grave-stone
some history of its own, he took her down into the
old crypt, now a mere dull vault, and showed her how
it had been lighted up in the time of the monks, and
how, amid lamps depending from the roof, and swinging
censers exhaling scented odours, and habits glittering
with gold and silver, and pictures, and precious stuffs,
and jewels all flashing and glistening through the
low arches, the chaunt of aged voices had been many
a time heard there, at midnight, in old days, while
hooded figures knelt and prayed around, and told their
rosaries of beads. Thence, he took her above
ground again, and showed her, high up in the old walls,
small galleries, where the nuns had been wont to glide
along dimly seen in their dark dresses so
far off or to pause like gloomy shadows,
listening to the prayers. He showed her too,
how the warriors, whose figures rested on the tombs,
had worn those rotting scraps of armour up above how
this had been a helmet, and that a shield, and that
a gauntlet and how they had wielded the
great two-handed swords, and beaten men down, with
yonder iron mace. All that he told the child
she treasured in her mind; and sometimes, when she
awoke at night from dreams of those old times, and
rising from her bed looked out at the dark church,
she almost hoped to see the windows lighted up, and
hear the organ’s swell, and sound of voices,
on the rushing wind.
The old sexton soon got better, and
was about again. From him the child learnt many
other things, though of a different kind. He
was not able to work, but one day there was a grave
to be made, and he came to overlook the man who dug
it. He was in a talkative mood; and the child,
at first standing by his side, and afterwards sitting
on the grass at his feet, with her thoughtful face
raised towards his, began to converse with him.
Now, the man who did the sexton’s
duty was a little older than he, though much more
active. But he was deaf; and when the sexton
(who peradventure, on a pinch, might have walked a
mile with great difficulty in half-a-dozen hours)
exchanged a remark with him about his work, the child
could not help noticing that he did so with an impatient
kind of pity for his infirmity, as if he were himself
the strongest and heartiest man alive.
‘I’m sorry to see there
is this to do,’ said the child when she approached.
‘I heard of no one having died.’
‘She lived in another hamlet,
my dear,’ returned the sexton. ’Three
mile away.’
‘Was she young?’
‘Ye-yes’ said the sexton;
not more than sixty-four, I think. David, was
she more than sixty-four?’
David, who was digging hard, heard
nothing of the question. The sexton, as he could
not reach to touch him with his crutch, and was too
infirm to rise without assistance, called his attention
by throwing a little mould upon his red nightcap.
‘What’s the matter now?’ said David,
looking up.
‘How old was Becky Morgan?’ asked the
sexton.
‘Becky Morgan?’ repeated David.
‘Yes,’ replied the sexton;
adding in a half compassionate, half irritable tone,
which the old man couldn’t hear, ’you’re
getting very deaf, Davy, very deaf to be sure!’
The old man stopped in his work, and
cleansing his spade with a piece of slate he had by
him for the purpose and scraping off, in
the process, the essence of Heaven knows how many
Becky Morgans set himself to consider the
subject.
‘Let me think’ quoth he.
’I saw last night what they had put upon the
coffin was it seventy-nine?’
‘No, no,’ said the sexton.
‘Ah yes, it was though,’
returned the old man with a sigh. ’For
I remember thinking she was very near our age.
Yes, it was seventy-nine.’
‘Are you sure you didn’t
mistake a figure, Davy?’ asked the sexton, with
signs of some emotion.
‘What?’ said the old man. ‘Say
that again.’
‘He’s very deaf.
He’s very deaf indeed,’ cried the sexton
petulantly; ‘are you sure you’re right
about the figures?’
‘Oh quite,’ replied the old man.
‘Why not?’
‘He’s exceedingly deaf,’
muttered the sexton to himself. ’I think
he’s getting foolish.’
The child rather wondered what had
led him to this belief, as, to say the truth, the
old man seemed quite as sharp as he, and was infinitely
more robust. As the sexton said nothing more
just then, however, she forgot it for the time, and
spoke again.
‘You were telling me,’
she said, ’about your gardening. Do you
ever plant things here?’
‘In the churchyard?’ returned the sexton,
‘Not I.’
‘I have seen some flowers and
little shrubs about,’ the child rejoined; ’there
are some over there, you see. I thought they
were of your rearing, though indeed they grow but
poorly.’
‘They grow as Heaven wills,’
said the old man; ’and it kindly ordains that
they shall never flourish here.’
‘I do not understand you.’
‘Why, this it is,’ said
the sexton. ’They mark the graves of those
who had very tender, loving friends.’
‘I was sure they did!’
the child exclaimed. ’I am very glad to
know they do!’
‘Aye,’ returned the old
man, ’but stay. Look at them. See
how they hang their heads, and droop, and wither.
Do you guess the reason?’
‘No,’ the child replied.
’Because the memory of those
who lie below, passes away so soon. At first
they tend them, morning, noon, and night; they soon
begin to come less frequently; from once a day, to
once a week; from once a week to once a month; then,
at long and uncertain intervals; then, not at all.
Such tokens seldom flourish long. I have known
the briefest summer flowers outlive them.’
‘I grieve to hear it,’ said the child.
‘Ah! so say the gentlefolks
who come down here to look about them,’ returned
the old man, shaking his head, ’but I say otherwise.
“It’s a pretty custom you have in this
part of the country,” they say to me sometimes,
“to plant the graves, but it’s melancholy
to see these things all withering or dead.”
I crave their pardon and tell them that, as I take
it, ’tis a good sign for the happiness of the
living. And so it is. It’s nature.’
’Perhaps the mourners learn
to look to the blue sky by day, and to the stars by
night, and to think that the dead are there, and not
in graves,’ said the child in an earnest voice.
‘Perhaps so,’ replied
the old man doubtfully. ‘It may be.’
‘Whether it be as I believe
it is, or no,’ thought the child within herself,
’I’ll make this place my garden.
It will be no harm at least to work here day by day,
and pleasant thoughts will come of it, I am sure.’
Her glowing cheek and moistened eye
passed unnoticed by the sexton, who turned towards
old David, and called him by his name. It was
plain that Becky Morgan’s age still troubled
him; though why, the child could scarcely understand.
The second or third repetition of
his name attracted the old man’s attention.
Pausing from his work, he leant on his spade, and
put his hand to his dull ear.
‘Did you call?’ he said.
‘I have been thinking, Davy,’
replied the sexton, ‘that she,’ he pointed
to the grave, ‘must have been a deal older than
you or me.’
‘Seventy-nine,’ answered
the old man with a shake of the head, ’I tell
you that I saw it.’
‘Saw it?’ replied the
sexton; ’aye, but, Davy, women don’t always
tell the truth about their age.’
‘That’s true indeed,’
said the other old man, with a sudden sparkle in his
eye. ‘She might have been older.’
’I’m sure she must have
been. Why, only think how old she looked.
You and I seemed but boys to her.’
‘She did look old,’ rejoined
David. ‘You’re right. She did
look old.’
’Call to mind how old she looked
for many a long, long year, and say if she could be
but seventy-nine at last only our age,’
said the sexton.
‘Five year older at the very least!’ cried
the other.
‘Five!’ retorted the sexton.
’Ten. Good eighty-nine. I call to
mind the time her daughter died. She was eighty-nine
if she was a day, and tries to pass upon us now, for
ten year younger. Oh! human vanity!’
The other old man was not behindhand
with some moral reflections on this fruitful theme,
and both adduced a mass of evidence, of such weight
as to render it doubtful not whether the
deceased was of the age suggested, but whether she
had not almost reached the patriarchal term of a hundred.
When they had settled this question to their mutual
satisfaction, the sexton, with his friend’s assistance,
rose to go.
‘It’s chilly, sitting
here, and I must be careful till the summer,’
he said, as he prepared to limp away.
‘What?’ asked old David.
‘He’s very deaf, poor
fellow!’ cried the sexton. ‘Good-bye!’
‘Ah!’ said old David, looking after him.
’He’s failing very fast. He ages
every day.’
And so they parted; each persuaded
that the other had less life in him than himself;
and both greatly consoled and comforted by the little
fiction they had agreed upon, respecting Becky Morgan,
whose decease was no longer a precedent of uncomfortable
application, and would be no business of theirs for
half a score of years to come.
The child remained, for some minutes,
watching the deaf old man as he threw out the earth
with his shovel, and, often stopping to cough and
fetch his breath, still muttered to himself, with a
kind of sober chuckle, that the sexton was wearing
fast. At length she turned away, and walking
thoughtfully through the churchyard, came unexpectedly
upon the schoolmaster, who was sitting on a green
grave in the sun, reading.
‘Nell here?’ he said cheerfully,
as he closed his book. ’It does me good
to see you in the air and light. I feared you
were again in the church, where you so often are.’
‘Feared!’ replied the
child, sitting down beside him. ’Is it
not a good place?’
‘Yes, yes,’ said the schoolmaster.
’But you must be gay sometimes nay,
don’t shake your head and smile so sadly.’
’Not sadly, if you knew my heart.
Do not look at me as if you thought me sorrowful.
There is not a happier creature on earth, than I am
now.’
Full of grateful tenderness, the child
took his hand, and folded it between her own.
‘It’s God’s will!’ she said,
when they had been silent for some time.
‘What?’
‘All this,’ she rejoined;
’all this about us. But which of us is
sad now? You see that I am smiling.’
‘And so am I,’ said the
schoolmaster; ’smiling to think how often we
shall laugh in this same place. Were you not
talking yonder?’
’Yes,’the child rejoined.
‘Of something that has made you sorrowful?’
There was a long pause.
‘What was it?’ said the
schoolmaster, tenderly. ’Come. Tell
me what it was.’
‘I rather grieve I
do rather grieve to think,’ said the child,
bursting into tears, ’that those who die about
us, are so soon forgotten.’
‘And do you think,’ said
the schoolmaster, marking the glance she had thrown
around, ’that an unvisited grave, a withered
tree, a faded flower or two, are tokens of forgetfulness
or cold neglect? Do you think there are no deeds,
far away from here, in which these dead may be best
remembered? Nell, Nell, there may be people busy
in the world, at this instant, in whose good actions
and good thoughts these very graves neglected
as they look to us are the chief instruments.’
‘Tell me no more,’ said
the child quickly. ’Tell me no more.
I feel, I know it. How could I be unmindful
of it, when I thought of you?’
‘There is nothing,’ cried
her friend, ’no, nothing innocent or good, that
dies, and is forgotten. Let us hold to that faith,
or none. An infant, a prattling child, dying
in its cradle, will live again in the better thoughts
of those who loved it, and will play its part, through
them, in the redeeming actions of the world, though
its body be burnt to ashes or drowned in the deepest
sea. There is not an angel added to the Host
of Heaven but does its blessed work on earth in those
that loved it here. Forgotten! oh, if the good
deeds of human creatures could be traced to their
source, how beautiful would even death appear; for
how much charity, mercy, and purified affection, would
be seen to have their growth in dusty graves!’
‘Yes,’ said the child,
’it is the truth; I know it is. Who should
feel its force so much as I, in whom your little scholar
lives again! Dear, dear, good friend, if you
knew the comfort you have given me!’
The poor schoolmaster made her no
answer, but bent over her in silence; for his heart
was full.
They were yet seated in the same place,
when the grandfather approached. Before they
had spoken many words together, the church clock struck
the hour of school, and their friend withdrew.
‘A good man,’ said the
grandfather, looking after him; ’a kind man.
Surely he will never harm us, Nell. We are safe
here, at last, eh? We will never go away from
here?’
The child shook her head and smiled.
‘She needs rest,’ said
the old man, patting her cheek; ’too pale too
pale. She is not like what she was.’
When?’ asked the child.
‘Ha!’ said the old man,
’to be sure when? How many weeks
ago? Could I count them on my fingers?
Let them rest though; they’re better gone.’
‘Much better, dear,’ replied the child.
’We will forget them; or, if we ever call them
to mind, it shall be only as some uneasy dream that
has passed away.’
‘Hush!’ said the old man,
motioning hastily to her with his hand and looking
over his shoulder; ’no more talk of the dream,
and all the miseries it brought. There are no
dreams here. ’Tis a quiet place, and they
keep away. Let us never think about them, lest
they should pursue us again. Sunken eyes and
hollow cheeks wet, cold, and famine and
horrors before them all, that were even worse we
must forget such things if we would be tranquil here.’
‘Thank Heaven!’ inwardly
exclaimed the child, ’for this most happy change!’
‘I will be patient,’ said
the old man, ’humble, very thankful, and obedient,
if you will let me stay. But do not hide from
me; do not steal away alone; let me keep beside you.
Indeed, I will be very true and faithful, Nell.’
‘I steal away alone! why that,’
replied the child, with assumed gaiety, ’would
be a pleasant jest indeed. See here, dear grandfather,
we’ll make this place our garden why
not! It is a very good one and to-morrow
we’ll begin, and work together, side by side.’
‘It is a brave thought!’
cried her grandfather. ’Mind, darling we
begin to-morrow!’
Who so delighted as the old man, when
they next day began their labour! Who so unconscious
of all associations connected with the spot, as he!
They plucked the long grass and nettles from the tombs,
thinned the poor shrubs and roots, made the turf smooth,
and cleared it of the leaves and weeds. They
were yet in the ardour of their work, when the child,
raising her head from the ground over which she bent,
observed that the bachelor was sitting on the stile
close by, watching them in silence.
‘A kind office,’ said
the little gentleman, nodding to Nell as she curtseyed
to him. ‘Have you done all that, this morning?’
‘It is very little, sir,’
returned the child, with downcast eyes, ’to
what we mean to do.’
‘Good work, good work,’
said the bachelor. ’But do you only labour
at the graves of children, and young people?’
‘We shall come to the others
in good time, sir,’ replied Nell, turning her
head aside, and speaking softly.
It was a slight incident, and might
have been design or accident, or the child’s
unconscious sympathy with youth. But it seemed
to strike upon her grandfather, though he had not
noticed it before. He looked in @ hurried manner
at the graves, then anxiously at the child, then pressed
her to his side, and bade her stop to rest. Something
he had long forgotten, appeared to struggle faintly
in his mind. It did not pass away, as weightier
things had done; but came uppermost again, and yet
again, and many times that day, and often afterwards.
Once, while they were yet at work, the child, seeing
that he often turned and looked uneasily at her, as
though he were trying to resolve some painful doubts
or collect some scattered thoughts, urged him to tell
the reason. But he said it was nothing nothing and,
laying her head upon his arm, patted her fair cheek
with his hand, and muttered that she grew stronger
every day, and would be a woman, soon.