“And which is Lucy’s? Can
it be
That puny fop, armed cap-a-pie,
Who loves in the saloon to show
The arms that never knew a foe.” Scott.
“My lady’s compliments,
ma’am, and she would he much obliged if you
would remain till she comes home,” was Coombe’s
reception of Alison. “She is gone to Avoncester
with Master Temple and Master Francis.”
“Gone to Avoncester!”
exclaimed Rachel, who had walked from church to Myrtlewood
with Alison.
“Mamma is gone to meet the Major!”
cried three of the lesser boys, rushing upon them
in full cry; then Leoline, facing round, “Not
the major, he is lieutenant-colonel now Colonel
Keith, hurrah!”
“What what do you
mean? Speak rationally, Leoline, if you can.”
“My lady sent a note to the
Homestead this morning,” explained Coombe.
“She heard this morning that Colonel Keith intended
to arrive to-day, and took the young gentlemen with
her to meet him.”
Rachel could hardly refrain from manifesting
her displeasure, and bluntly asked what time Lady
Temple was likely to be at home.
“It depended,” Coombe
said, “upon the train; it was not certain whether
Colonel Keith would come by the twelve or the two o’clock
train.”
And Rachel was going to turn sharply
round, and dash home with the tidings, when Alison
arrested her with the question
“And who is Colonel Keith?”
Rachel was too much wrapped up in
her own view to hear the trembling of the voice, and
answered, “Colonel Keith! why, the Major!
You have not been here so long without hearing of
the Major?”
“Yes, but I did not know.
Who is he?” And a more observant person would
have seen the governess’s gasping effort to veil
her eagerness under her wonted self-control.
“Don’t you know who the
Major is?” shouted Leoline. “He is
our military secretary.”
“That’s the sum total
of my knowledge,” said Rachel, “I don’t
understand his influence, nor know where he was picked
up.”
“Nor his regiment?”
“He is not a regimental officer;
he is on our staff,” said Leoline, whose imagination
could not attain to an earlier condition than “on
our staff.”
“I shall go home, then,”
said Rachel, “and see if there is any explanation
there.”
“I shall ask the Major not to
let Aunt Rachel come here,” observed Hubert,
as she departed; it was well it was not before.
“Leoline,” anxiously asked
Alison, “can you tell me the Major’s name?”
“Colonel Keith Lieutenant-Colonel
Keith,” was all the answer.
“I meant his Christian name, my dear.”
“Only little boys have Christian
names!” they returned, and Alison was forced
to do her best to tame herself and them to the duties
of the long day of anticipation so joyous on their
part, so full of confusion and bewildered anxiety
on her own. She looked in vain, half stealthily,
as often before, for a recent Army List or Peerage.
Long ago she had lost the Honourable Colin A. Keith
from among the officers of the th Highlanders,
and though in the last Peerage she had laid hands on
he was still among the surviving sons of the late
Lord Keith, of Gowanbrae, the date had not gone back
far enough to establish that he had not died in the
Indian war. It was fear that predominated with
her, there were many moments when she would have given
worlds to be secure that the newcomer was not the
man she thought of, who, whether constant or inconstant,
could bring nothing but pain and disturbance to the
calm tenour of her sister’s life. Everything
was an oppression to her; the children, in their wild,
joyous spirits and gladsome inattention, tried her
patience almost beyond her powers; the charge of the
younger ones in their mother’s absence was burthensome,
and the delay in returning to her sister became well-nigh
intolerable, when she figured to herself Rachel Curtis
going down to Ermine with the tidings of Colonel Keith’s
arrival, and her own discontent at his influence with
her cousin. Would that she had spoken a word
of warning; yet that might have been merely mischievous,
for the subject was surely too delicate for Rachel
to broach with so recent a friend. But Rachel
had bad taste for anything! That the little boys
did not find Miss Williams very cross that day was
an effect of the long habit of self-control, and she
could hardly sit still under the additional fret,
when, just as tea was spread for the school-room party,
in walked Miss Rachel, and sat herself down, in spite
of Hubert, who made up a most coaxing, entreating face,
as he said, “Please, Aunt Rachel, doesn’t
Aunt Grace want you very much!”
“Not at all. Why, Hubert?”
“Oh, if you would only go away,
and not spoil our fun when the Major comes.”
For once Rachel did laugh, but she
did not take the hint, and Alison obtained only the
satisfaction of hearing that she had at least not been
in Mackarel Lane. The wheels sounded on the gravel,
out rushed the boys; Alison and Rachel sat in strange,
absolute silence, each forgetful of the other, neither
guarding her own looks, nor remarking her companion’s.
Alison’s lips were parted by intense listening;
Rachel’s teeth were set to receive her enemy.
There was a chorus of voices in the hall, and something
about tea and coming in warned both to gather up their
looks before Lady Temple had opened the door, and brought
in upon them not one foe, but two! Was Rachel
seeing double? Hardly that, for one was tall,
bald, and bearded, not dangerously young, but on that
very account the more dangerously good-looking; and
the other was almost a boy, slim and light, just of
the empty young officer type. Here, too, was
Fanny, flushed, excited, prettier and brighter than
Rachel had seen her at all, waving an introduction
with head and hand; and the boys hanging round the
Major with deafening exclamations of welcome, in which
they were speedily joined by the nursery detachment.
Those greetings, those observations on growth and
looks, those glad, eager questions and answers, were
like the welcome of an integral part of the family;
it was far more intimate and familiar than had been
possible with the Curtises after the long separation,
and it was enough to have made the two spectators
feel out of place, if such a sensation had been within
Rachel’s capacity, or if Alison had not been
engaged with the tea. Lady Temple made a few
explanations, sotto voce, to Alison, whom
she always treated as though in dread of not being
sufficiently considerate. “I do hope the
children have been good; I knew you would not mind;
I could not wait to see you, or I should have been
too late to meet the train, and then he would have
come by the coach; and it is such a raw east wind.
He must be careful in this climate.”
“How warm and sunshiny it has
been all day,” said Rachel, by way of opposition
to some distant echo of this whisper.
“Sunshiny, but treacherous,”
answered Colonel Keith; “there are cold gusts
round corners. This must be a very sheltered nook
of the coast.”
“Quite a different zone from Avoncester,”
said the youth.
“Yes, delightful. I told
you it was just what would suit you,” added
Fanny, to the colonel.
“Some winds are very cold here,”
interposed Rachel. “I always pity people
who are imposed upon to think it a Mentone near home.
They are choking our churchyard.”
“Very inconsiderate of them,” muttered
the young man.
“But what made you come home so late, Fanny?”
said Rachel.
Alison suspected a slight look of
wonder on the part of both the officers at hearing
their general’s wife thus called to account;
but Fanny, taking it as a matter of course, answered,
“We found that the-th was at Avoncester.
I had no idea of it, and they did not know I was here;
so I went to call upon Mrs. Hammond, and Colonel Keith
went to look for Alick, and we have brought him home
to dine.”
Fanny took it for granted that Rachel
must know who Alick was, but she was far from doing
so, though she remembered that the th had
been her uncle’s regiment, and had been under
Sir Stephen Temple’s command in India at the
time of the mutiny. The thought of Fanny’s
lapsing into military society was shocking to her.
The boys were vociferating about boats, ponies, and
all that had been deferred till the Major’s arrival,
and he was answering them kindly, but hushing the extra
outcry less by word than sign, and his own lowered
voice and polished manner a manner that
excessively chafed her as a sort of insult to the blunt,
rapid ways that she considered as sincere and unaffected,
a silkiness that no doubt had worked on the honest,
simple general, as it was now working on the weak
young widow. Anything was better than leaving
her to such influence, and in pursuance of the intention
that Rachel had already announced at home, she invited
herself to stay to dinner; and Fanny eagerly thanked
her, for making it a little less dull for Colonel Keith
and Alick. It was so good to come down and help.
Certainly Fanny was an innocent creature, provided
she was not spoilt, and it was a duty to guard her
innocence.
Alison Williams escaped to her home,
sure of nothing but that her sister must not be allowed
to share her uncertainties; and Lady Temple and her
guests sat down to dinner. Rachel meant to have
sat at the bottom and carved, as belonging to the
house; but Fanny motioned the Colonel to the place,
observing, “It is so natural to see you there!
One only wants poor Captain Dent at the other end.
Do you know whether he has his leave?”
Wherewith commenced a discussion of
military friends who had been heard of
from Australia, who had been met in England, who was
promoted, who married, who retired, &c., and all the
quarters of the-th since its return from India two
years ago; Fanny eagerly asking questions and making
remarks, quite at home and all animation, absolutely
a different being from the subdued, meek little creature
that Rachel had hitherto seen. Attempts were
made to include Miss Curtis in the conversation by
addressing anecdotes to her, and asking if she knew
the places named; but she had been to none, and the
three old friends quickly fell into the swing of talk
about what interested them. Once, however, she
came down on them with, “What conclusion have
you formed upon female emigration?”
“’His sister she
went beyond the seas,
And died an old
maid among black savagees.’
“That’s the most remarkable
instance of female emigration on record, isn’t
it?” observed Alick.
“What; her dying an old maid?”
said Colonel Keith. “I am not sure.
Wholesale exportations of wives are spoiling the
market.”
“I did not mean marriage,”
said Rachel, stoutly. “I am particularly
anxious to know whether there is a field open to independent
female labour.”
“All the superior young women
seemed to turn nurserymaids,” said the Colonel.
“Oh,” interposed Fanny,
“do you remember that nice girl of ours who
would marry that Orderly-Sergeant O’Donoghoe?
I have had a letter from her in such distress.”
“Of course, the natural termination,”
said Alick, in his lazy voice.
“And I thought you would tell
me how to manage sending her some help,” proceeded
Fanny.
“I could have helped you, Fanny. Won’t
an order do it?”
“Not quite,” said Fanny,
a shade of a smile playing on her lip. “It
is whether to send it through one of the officers
or not. If Captain Lee is with the regiment,
I know he would take care of it for her.”
So they plunged into another regiment,
and Rachel decided that nothing was so wearisome as
to hear triflers talk shop.
There was no opportunity of calling
Fanny to order after dinner, for she went off on her
progress to all the seven cribs, and was only just
returning from them when the gentlemen came in, and
then she made room for the younger beside her on the
sofa, saying, “Now, Alick, I do so want to hear
about poor, dear little Bessie;” and they began
so low and confidentially, that Rachel wondered if
her alarms wore to be transfered from the bearded
colonel to the dapper boy, or if, in very truth, she
must deem poor Fanny a general coquette. Besides,
a man must be contemptible who wore gloves at so small
a party, when she did not.
She had been whiling away the time
of Fanny’s absence by looking over the books
on the table, and she did not regard the present company
sufficiently to desist on their account. Colonel
Keith began to turn over some numbers of the “Traveller”
that lay near him, and presently looked up, and said,
“Do you know who is the writer of this?”
“What is it? Ah! one of
the Invalid’s essays. They strike every
one; but I fancy the authorship is a great secret.”
“You do not know it?”
“No, I wish I did. Which
of them are you reading? ‘Country Walks.’
That is not one that I care about, it is a mere hash
of old recollections; but there are some very sensible
and superior ones, so that I have heard it sometimes
doubted whether they are man’s or woman’s
writing. For my part, I think them too earnest
to be a man’s; men always play with their subject.”
“Oh, yes,” said Fanny,
“I am sure only a lady could have written anything
so sweet as that about flowers in a sick-room; it so
put me in mind of the lovely flowers you used to bring
me one at a time, when I was ill at Cape Town.”
There was no more sense to be had
after those three once fell upon their reminiscences.
That night, after having betrayed
her wakefulness by a movement in her bed, Alison Williams
heard her sister’s voice, low and steady, saying,
“Ailie, dear, be it what it may, guessing is
worse than certainty.”
“Oh, Ermine, I hoped I
know nothing I have nothing to tell.”
“You dread something,”
said Ermine; “you have been striving for unconcern
all the evening, my poor dear, but surely you know,
Ailie, that nothing is so bad while we share it.”
“And I have frightened you about nothing.”
“Nothing! nothing about Edward?”
“Oh, no, no!”
“And no one has made you uncomfortable?”
“No.”
“Then there is only one thing
that it can be, Ailie, and you need not fear to tell
me that. I always knew that if he lived I must
be prepared for it, and you would not have hesitated
to tell me of his death.”
“It is not that, indeed it is
not, Ermine, it is only this that I found
to-day that Lady Temple’s major has the same
name.”
“But you said she was come home. You must
have seen him.”
“Yes, but I should not know
him. I had only seen him once, remember, twelve
years ago, and when I durst not look at him.”
“At least,” said Ermine, quickly, “you
can tell me what you saw to-day.”
“A Scotch face, bald head, dark beard, grizzled
hair.”
“Yes I am grey, and he was five
years older; but he used not to have a Scotch face.
Can you tell me about his eyes?”
“Dark,” I think.
“They were very dark blue, almost
black. Time and climate must have left them alone.
You may know him by those eyes, Ailie. And you
could not make out anything about him?”
“No, not even his Christian
name nor his regiment. I had only the little
ones and Miss Rachel to ask, and they knew nothing.
I wanted to keep this from you till I was sure, but
you always find me out.”
“Do you think I couldn’t
see the misery you were in all the evening, poor child?
But now you have had it out, sleep, and don’t
be distressed.”
“But, Ermine, if you ”
“My dear, I am thankful that
nothing is amiss with you or Edward. For the
rest, there is nothing but patience. Now, not
another word; you must not lose your sleep, nor take
away my chance of any.”
How much the sisters slept they did
not confide to one another, but when they rose, Alison
shook her head at her sister’s heavy eyelids,
and Ermine retorted with a reproachful smile at certain
dark tokens of sleeplessness under Alison’s
eyes.
“No, not the flowered flimsiness,
please,” she said, in the course of her toilette,
“let me have the respectable grey silk.”
And next she asked for a drawer, whence she chose
a little Nuremberg horn brooch for her neck.
“I know it is very silly,” she said, “but
I can’t quite help it. Only one question,
Ailie, that I thought of too late. Did he hear
your name?”
“I think not, Lady Temple named
nobody. But why did you not ask me last night?”
“I thought beginning to talk
again would destroy your chance of sleep, and we had
resolved to stop.”
“And, Ermine, if it be, what shall I do?”
“Do as you feel right at the
moment,” said Ermine, after a moment’s
pause. “I cannot tell how it may be.
I have been thinking over what you told me about the
Major and Lady Temple.”
“Oh, Ermine, what a reproof
this is for that bit of gossip.”
“Not at all, my dear, the warning
may be all the better for me,” said Ermine,
with a voice less steady than her words. “It
is not what, under the circumstances, I could think
likely in the Colin whom I knew; but were it indeed
so, then, Ailie, you had better say nothing about me,
unless he found you out. We would get employment
elsewhere.”
“And I must leave you to the suspense all day.”
“Much better so. The worst
thing we could do would be to go on talking about
it. It is far better for me to be left with my
dear little unconscious companion.”
Alison tried to comfort herself with
this belief through the long hours of the morning,
during which she only heard that mamma and Colonel
Keith were gone to the Homestead, and she saw no one
till she came forth with her troop to the midday meal.
And there, at sight of Lady Temple’s
content and calm, satisfied look, as though she were
once more in an accustomed atmosphere, and felt herself
and the boys protected, and of the Colonel’s
courteous attention to her and affectionate authority
towards her sons, it was an absolute pang to recognise
the hue of eye described by Ermine; but still Alison
tried to think them generic Keith eyes, till at length,
amid the merry chatter of her pupils, came an appeal
to “Miss Williams,” and then came a look
that thrilled through her, the same glance that she
had met for one terrible moment twelve years before,
and renewing the same longing to shrink from all sight
or sound. How she kept her seat and continued
to attend to the children she never knew, but the voices
sounded like a distant Babel; and she did not know
whether she were most relieved, disappointed, or indignant
when she left the dining-room to take the boys for
their walk. Oh, that Ermine could be hid from
all knowledge of what would be so much harder to bear
than the death in which she had long believed!
Harder to bear? Yes, Ermine had
already been passing through a heart sickness that
made the morning like an age. Her resolute will
had struggled hard for composure, cheerfulness, and
occupation; but the little watchful niece had seen
through the endeavour, and had made her own to the
sleepless night and the headache. The usual remedy
was a drive in a wheeled chair, and Rose was so urgent
to be allowed to go and order one, that Ermine at
last yielded, partly because she had hardly energy
enough to turn her refusal graciously, partly because
she would not feel herself staying at home for the
vague hope and when the child was out of sight, she
had the comfort of clasping her hands, and ceasing
to restrain her countenance, while she murmured, “Oh,
Colin, Colin, are you what you were twelve years back?
Is this all dream, all delusion, and waste of feeling,
while you are lying in your Indian grave, more mine
than you can ever be living be as it may,
“’Calm
me, my God, and keep me calm
While these hot breezes blow;
Be like the night dew’s
cooling balm
Upon earth’s fevered brow.
Calm me, my God, and keep me calm,
Soft resting on Thy breast;
Soothe me with holy hymn and psalm,
And bid my spirit rest.’”