This night is my departing night,
For here nae longer must I stay;
There’s neither friend nor foe of mine
But wishes me away.
What I have done through lack of wit,
I never, never can recall:
I hope ye’re all my friends as yet.
Good night, and joy be with you all.
Armstrong’s Good
Night
The storm had blown over, but heavy
flakes of cloud still cumbered the air, and gusts
of wind portended that it might gather again.
Henry Ward took this opportunity of
giving his first dinner party. He said it was
a necessary return for the civilities they had received;
and to Averil’s representation that it transgressed
the system of rigid economy that so much tormented
her, he replied by referring her to Mrs. Pugh for
lessons in the combination of style and inexpensiveness.
Averil had almost refused, but the
lady herself proffered her instructions, and reluctance
was of no avail; nothing but demonstrations from which
her conscience shrank, could have served to defend
her from the officious interference so eagerly and
thankfully encouraged by the master of the house.
Vainly did she protest against pretension, and quote
the example of the Grange; she found herself compelled
to sacrifice the children’s lessons to learn
of Mrs. Pugh to make the paper flowers that, with
bonbons and sweetmeats, were to save the expense
of good food on the dinner-table, and which she feared
would be despised by Miss May, nay, perhaps laughed
over with ‘Mr. Tom!’
She hated the whole concern, even
the invitation to Dr. and Miss May, knowing that it
was sent in formal vanity, accepted in pure good-nature,
would bring them into society they did not like, and
expose her brother’s bad taste. Only one
thing could have added to her dislike, namely that
which all Stoneborough perceived excepting herself
and Leonard that this dinner was intended
as a step in Henry’s courtship, and possibly
as an encouragement of Harvey Anderson’s liking
for herself. Averil held her head so high, and
was so little popular, that no one of less assurance
than Mrs. Ledwich herself would have dared approach
her with personal gossip; and even Mrs. Ledwich was
silent here; so that Averil, too young and innocent
to connect second marriages with recent widowhood,
drew no conclusions from Henry’s restless eagerness
that his household should present the most imposing
appearance.
While the bill of fare was worrying
Averil, Leonard was told by Aubrey, that his father
had brought home a fossil Tower of Babel, dug up with
some earth out of a new well, three miles off, with
tidings of other unheard-of treasures, and a walk
was projected in quest of them, in which Leonard was
invited to join. He gladly came to the early
dinner, where he met reduced numbers the
Ernescliffes being at Maplewood, Tom at Cambridge,
and Harry in the Channel fleet; and as usual, he felt
the difference between the perfect understanding and
friendship in the one home, and the dread of dangerous
subjects in the other. The expedition had all
the charms of the Coombe times; and the geological
discoveries were so numerous and precious, that the
load became sufficient to break down the finders,
and Ethel engaged a market-woman to bring the baskets
in her cart the next morning.
That morning a note from Richard begged
Ethel to come early to Cocksmoor to see Granny Hall,
who was dying. Thus left to their own devices,
Aubrey and Gertrude conscientiously went through some
of their studies; then proceeded to unpack their treasury
of fossils, and endeavour to sort out Leonard’s
share, as to which doubts arose. Daisy proposed
to carry the specimens at once to Bankside, where she
wanted to see Leonard’s prime echinus; and Aubrey
readily agreed, neither of the young heads having
learnt the undesirableness of a morning visit in a
house preparing for a dinner-party too big for it.
However, Leonard made them extremely
welcome. It was too foggy a day for rifle practice,
and all the best plate and china were in the school-room,
his only place of refuge; Ave was fluttering about
in hopes of getting everything done before Mrs. Pugh
could take it out of her hands, and the energies of
the household were spent on laying out the dining-table.
It was clearly impossible to take Gertrude anywhere
but into the drawing-room, which was in demi-toilette
state, the lustres released from their veils, the
gayer cushions taken out of their hiding-places, and
the brown holland covers half off. This was
the only tranquil spot, and so poor little Mab thought,
forbidden ground though it was. Even in her
own home, the school-room, a strange man had twice
trod upon her toes; so no wonder, when she saw her
own master and his friends in the drawing-room, that
she ventured in, and leaping on a velvet cushion she
had never seen before, and had never been ordered
off, she there curled herself up and went to sleep,
unseen by Leonard, who was in eager controversy upon
the specimens, which Gertrude, as she unpacked, set
down on floor, chair, or ottoman, unaware of the offence
she was committing. So, unmolested, the young
geologists talked, named, and sorted the specimens,
till the clock striking the half-hour, warned the
Mays that they must return; and Leonard let them out
at the window, and crossed the lawn to the side gate
with them to save the distance.
He had just returned, and was kneeling
on the floor hastily collecting the fossils, when
the door opened, and Henry Ward, coming home to inspect
the preparations, beheld the drawing-room bestrewn
with the rough stones that he had proscribed, and
Mab, not only in the room, but reposing in the centre
of the most magnificent cushion in the house!
His first movement of indignation
was to seize the dog with no gentle hand. She
whined loudly; and Leonard, whom he had not seen, shouted
angrily, ‘Let her alone;’ then, at another
cry from her, finding his advance to her rescue impeded
by a barricade of the crowded and disarranged furniture,
he grew mad with passion, and launched the stone in
his hand, a long sharp-pointed belemnite. It
did not strike Henry, but a sound proclaimed the mischief,
as it fell back from the surface of the mirror, making
a huge star of cracks, unmarked by Leonard, who, pushing
sofa and ottoman to the right and left, thundered up
to his brother, and with uplifted hand demanded what
he meant by his cruelty.
‘Is is this defiance?’
stammered Henry, pointing to the disordered room.
‘Look here, Averil,’ as
she appeared at the sounds, ’do you defend this
boy now he has very nearly killed me?’
‘Killed you!’ and Leonard
laughed angrily; but when Henry held up the elf-bolt,
and he saw its sharp point, he was shocked, and he
saw horror in Averil’s face.
‘I see,’ he said gravely.
‘It was a mercy I did not!’ and he paused.
’I did not know what I was about when you were
misusing my dog, Henry. Shake hands; I am sorry
for it.’
But Henry had been very much frightened
as well as angered, and thought, perhaps, it was a
moment to pursue his advantage.
‘You treat things lightly,’
he said, not accepting the hand.
‘See what you have done.’
‘I am glad it was not your head,’
said Leonard. ’What does it cost?
I’ll pay.’
‘More than your keep for a year,’
moaned Henry, as he sighed over the long limbs of
the starfish-like fracture.
’Well, I will give up anything
you like, if you will only not be sulky about it,
Henry. It was unlucky, and I’m sorry for
it; I can’t say more!’
‘But I can,’ said Henry
with angry dignity, re-inforced by the sight of the
seamed reflection of his visage in the shivered glass.
’I tell you, Leonard, there’s no having
you in the house; you defy my authority, you insult
my friends, you waste and destroy more than you are
worth, and you are absolutely dangerous. I would
as soon have a wild beast about the place. If
you don’t get the Randall next week, and get
off to the University, to old Axworthy’s office
you go at once.’
‘Very well, I will,’ said
Leonard, turning to collect the fossils, as if he
had done with the subject.
‘Henry, Henry, what are you saying?’ cried
the sister.
‘Not a word, Ave,’ said
Leonard. ’I had rather break stones on
the road than live where my keep is grudged, and there’s
not spirit enough to get over a moment’s fright.’
‘It is not any one individual
thing,’ began Henry, in a tone of annoyance,
‘but your whole course ’
There he paused, perceiving that Leonard
paid no attention to his words, continuing quietly
to replace the furniture and collect the fossils,
as it no one else were in the room, after which he
carried the basket up-stairs.
Averil hurried after him. ’Leonard!
oh, why don’t you explain? Why don’t
you tell him how the stones came there?’
Leonard shook his head sternly.
‘Don’t you mean to do anything?’
‘Nothing.’
‘But you wanted another year before trying for
the scholarship.’
‘Yes; I have no chance there.’
‘He will not do it! He cannot mean it!’
’I do then. I will get
my own living, and not be a burthen, where my brother
cannot forgive a broken glass or a moment’s fright,’
said Leonard; and she felt that his calm resentment
was worse than his violence.
‘He will be cooler, and then ’
’I will have no more said to
him. It is plain that we cannot live together,
and there’s an end of it. Don’t cry,
or you won’t be fit to be seen.’
‘I won’t come down to dinner.’
‘Yes, you will. Let us have no more about
it. Some one wants you.’
‘Please, ma’am, the fish is come.’
’Sister, sister, come and see
how I have done up the macaroons in green leaves.’
’Sister, sister, do come and
reach me down some calycanthus out of the greenhouse!’
‘I will,’ said Leonard,
descending; and for the rest of the day he was an
efficient assistant in the decorations, and the past
adventure was only apparent in the shattered glass,
and the stern ceremonious courtesy of the younger
brother towards the elder.
Averil hurried about, devoid of all
her former interest in so doing things for herself
as to save interference; and when Mrs. Ledwich and
Mrs. Pugh walked in, overflowing with suggestions,
she let them have their way, and toiled under them
with the sensation of being like ’dumb driven
cattle.’ If Leonard were to be an exile,
what mattered it to her who ruled, or what appearance
things made?
Only when she went to her own room
to dress, had she a moment to realize the catastrophe,
its consequences, and the means of averting them.
So appalled was she, that she sat with her hair on
her shoulders as if spell-bound, till the first ring
at the door aroused her to speed and consternation,
perhaps a little lessened by one of her sisters rushing
in to say that it was Mrs. Ledwich and Mrs. Pugh, and
that Henry was still in the cellar, decanting the
wine.
Long before the hosts were ready,
Dr. May and Ethel had likewise arrived, and became
cognizant of the fracture of the mirror, for, though
the nucleus was concealed by a large photograph stuck
into the frame, one long crack extended even to the
opposite corner. The two ladies were not slow
to relate all that they knew; and while the aunt dismayed
Ethel by her story, the niece, with much anxiety, asked
Dr. May how it was that these dear, nice, superior
young people should have such unfortunate tempers was
it from any error in management? So earnest was
her manner, so inquiring her look, that Dr. May suspected
that she was feeling for his opinion on personal grounds,
and tried to avert the danger by talking of the excellence
of the parents, but he was recalled from his eulogium
on poor Mrs. Ward.
’Oh yes! one felt for them so
very much, and they are so religious, so well principled,
and all that one could wish; but family dissension
is so dreadful. I am very little used to young
men or boys, and I never knew anything like this.’
‘The lads are too nearly of an age,’ said
the Doctor.
‘And would such things be likely to happen among
any brothers?’
‘I should trust not!’ said the Doctor
emphatically.
’I should so like to know in
confidence which you think likely to be most to blame.’
Never was the Doctor more glad that
Averil made her appearance! He carefully avoided
getting near Mrs. Pugh for the rest of the evening,
but he could not help observing that she was less gracious
than usual to the master of the house; while she summoned
Leonard to her side to ask about the volunteer proceedings,
and formed her immediate court of Harvey Anderson
and Mr. Scudamour.
The dinner went on fairly, though
heavily. Averil, in her one great trouble, lost
the sense of the minor offences that would have distressed
her pride and her taste had she been able to attend
to them, and forgot the dulness of the scene in her
anxiety to seek sympathy and counsel in the only quarter
where she cared for it. She went mechanically
through her duties as lady of the house, talking commonplace
subjects dreamily to Dr. May, and scarcely even giving
herself the trouble to be brief with Mr. Anderson,
who was on her other side at dinner.
In the drawing-room, she left the
other ladies to their own devices in her eagerness
to secure a few minutes with Ethel May, and disabuse
her of whatever Mrs. Ledwich or Mrs. Pugh might have
said. Ethel had been more hopeful before she
heard the true version; she had hitherto allowed much
for Mrs. Ledwich’s embellishments; and she was
shocked and took shame to her own guiltless head for
Gertrude’s thoughtlessness.
‘Oh no!’ said Averil,
’there was nothing that any one need have minded,
if Henry had waited for explanation! And now,
will you get Dr. May to speak to him? If he
only knew how people would think of his treating Leonard
so, I am sure he would not do it.’
‘He cannot!’ said Ethel.
’Don’t you know what he thinks of it himself?
He said to papa last year that your father would as
soon have sent Leonard to the hulks as to the Vintry
Mill.’
’Oh, I am so glad some one heard
him. He would care about having that cast up
against him, if he cared for nothing else.’
’It must have been a mere threat.
Leonard surely has only to ask his pardon.’
‘No, indeed, not again, Miss
May!’ said Averil. ’Leonard asked
once, and was refused, and cannot ask again.
No, the only difficulty is whether he ought not to
keep to his word, and go to the mill if he does not
get the Randall.’
‘Did he say he would?’
’Of course he did, when Henry
threatened him with it, and talked of the burden of
his maintenance! He said, “Very well, I
will,” and he means it!’
’He will not mean it when the
spirit of repentance has had time to waken.’
‘He will take nothing that is
grudged him,’ said Averil. ’Oh! is
it not hard that I cannot get at my own money, and
send him at once to Cambridge, and never ask Henry
for another farthing?’
’Nay, Averil; I think you can
do a better part by trying to make them forgive one
another.’
Averil had no notion of Leonard’s
again abasing himself, and though she might try to
bring Henry to reason by reproaches, she would not
persuade. She wished her guest had been the sympathizing
Mary rather than Miss May, who was sure to take the
part of the elder and the authority. Repentance!
Forgiveness! If Miss May should work on Leonard
to sue for pardon and toleration, and Mrs. Pugh should
intercede with Henry to take him into favour, she had
rather he were at the Vintry Mill at once in his dignity,
and Henry be left to his disgrace.
Ethel thought of Dr. Spencer’s
words on the beach at Coombe, ’Never threaten
Providence!’ She longed to repeat them to Leonard,
as she watched his stern determined face, and the
elaborately quiet motions that spoke of a fixed resentful
purpose; but to her disappointment and misgiving,
he gave her no opportunity, and for the first time
since their sea-side intercourse, held aloof from
her.
Nor did she see him again during the
week that intervened before the decision of the scholarship,
though three days of it were holidays. Aubrey,
whom she desired to bring him in after the rifle drill,
reported that he pronounced himself sorry to refuse,
but too busy to come in, and he seemed to be cramming
with fiery vehemence for the mere chance of success.
The chance was small. The only
hope lay in the possibility of some hindrance preventing
the return of either Forder or Folliot; and in the
meantime the Mays anxiously thought over Leonard’s
prospects. His remaining at home was evidently
too great a trial for both brothers, and without a
scholarship he could not go to the University.
The evils of the alternative offered by his brother
were duly weighed by the Doctor and Ethel with an
attempt to be impartial.
Mr. Axworthy, though the mill was
the centre of his business, was in fact a corn merchant
of considerable wealth, and with opportunities of
extending his connection much farther. Had his
personal character been otherwise, Dr. May thought
a young man could not have a better opening than a
seat in his office, and the future power of taking
shares in his trade; there need be no loss of position,
and there was great likelihood both of prosperity
and the means of extensive usefulness.
Ethel sighed at the thought of the
higher aspirations that she had fostered till her
own mind was set on them.
‘Nay,’ said the Doctor,
’depend upon it, the desk is admirable training
for good soldiers of the Church. See the fearful
evil that befalls great schemes intrusted to people
who cannot deal with money matters; and see, on the
other hand, what our merchants and men of business
have done for the Church, and do not scorn “the
receipt of custom."’
‘But the man, papa!’
’Yes, there lies the hitch!
If Leonard fails, I can lay things before Henry,
such as perhaps he may be too young to know, and which
must change his purpose.’
Mr. Axworthy’s career during
his youth and early manhood was guessed at rather
than known, but even since his return and occupation
of the Vintry Mill, his vicious habits had scandalized
the neighbourhood, and though the more flagrant of
these had been discontinued as he advanced in age,
there was no reason to hope that he had so much ’left
off his sins, as that his sins had left him off.’
His great-nephew, who lived with him and assisted
in his business, was a dashing sporting young man
of no good character, known to be often intoxicated,
and concerned in much low dissipation, and as dangerous
an associate as could be conceived for a high-spirited
lad like Leonard. Dr. May could not believe
that any provocation of temper, any motive of economy,
any desire to be rid of encumbrances to his courtship,
could induce a man with so much good in him, as there
certainly was in Henry Ward, to expose his orphan
brother to such temptations; and he only reserved his
remonstrance in the trust that it would not be needed,
and the desire to offer some better alternative of
present relief.
One of the examiners was Norman’s
old school and college friend, Charles Cheviot, now
a clergyman and an under-master at one of the great
schools recently opened for the middle classes, where
he was meeting with great success, and was considered
a capital judge of boys’ characters. He
was the guest of the Mays during the examination; and
though his shy formal manner, and convulsive efforts
at young lady talk, greatly affronted Gertrude, the
brothers liked him.
He was in consternation at the decline
of Stoneborough school since Mr. Wilmot had ceased
to be an under-master; the whole tone of the school
had degenerated, and it was no wonder that the Government
inquiries were ominously directed in that quarter.
Scholarship was at a low ebb, Dr. Hoxton seemed to
have lost what power of teaching he had ever possessed,
and as Dr. May observed, the poor old school was going
to the dogs. But even in the present state of
things, Leonard had no chance of excelling his competitors.
His study, like theirs, had been mere task-work,
and though he showed more native power than the rest,
yet perhaps this had made the mere learning by rote
even more difficult to an active mind full of inquiry.
He was a whole year younger than any other who touched
the foremost ranks, two years younger than several;
and though he now and then showed a feverish spark
of genius, reminding Mr. Cheviot of Norman in his
famous examination, it was not sustained there
were will and force, but not scholarship and
besides, there was a wide blurred spot in his memory,
as though all the brain-work of the quarter before
his illness had been confused, and had not yet become
clear. There was every likelihood that a few
years would make him superior to the chosen Randall
scholar, but at present his utmost efforts did not
even place him among the seven whose names appeared
honourably in the newspaper. It was a failure;
but Mr. Cheviot had become much interested in the
boy for his own sake, as well as from what he heard
from the Mays, and he strongly advised that Leonard
should at Easter obtain employment for a couple of
years at the school in which he himself was concerned.
He would thus be maintaining himself, and pursuing
his own studies under good direction, so as to have
every probability of success in getting an open scholarship
at one of the Universities.
Nothing could be better, and there
was a perfect jubilee among the Mays at the proposal.
Aubrey was despatched as soon as breakfast was over
to bring Leonard to talk it over, and Dr. May undertook
to propound it to Henry on meeting him at the hospital;
but Aubrey came back looking very blank Leonard
had started of his own accord that morning to announce
to his uncle his acceptance of a clerk’s desk
at the Vintry Mill!
Averil followed upon Aubrey’s
footsteps, and arrived while the schoolroom was ringing
with notes of vexation and consternation. She
was all upon the defensive. She said that not
a word had passed on the subject since the dinner-party,
and there had not been a shadow of a dispute between
the brothers; in fact, she evidently was delighted
with Leonard’s dignified position and strength
of determination, and thought this expedition to the
Vintry Mill a signal victory.
When she heard what the Mays had to
propose, she was enchanted, she had no doubt of Henry’s
willing consent, and felt that Leonard’s triumph
and independence were secured without the sacrifice
of prospects, which she had begun to regard as a considerable
price for his dignity.
But Dr. May was not so successful
with Henry Ward. He did not want to disoblige
his uncle, who had taken a fancy to Leonard, and might
do much for the family; he thought his father would
have changed his views of the uncle and nephew had
he known them better, he would not accept the opinion
of a stranger against people of his own family, and
he had always understood the position of an usher
to be most wretched, nor would he perceive the vast
difference between the staff of the middle school
and of the private commercial academy. He evidently
was pleased to stand upon his rights, to disappoint
Dr. May, and perhaps to gratify his jealousy by denying
his brother a superior education.
Yet in spite of this ebullition, which
had greatly exasperated Dr. May, there was every probability
that Henry’s consent might be wrung out or dispensed
with, and plans of attack were being arranged at the
tea-table, when a new obstacle in the shape of a note
from Leonard himself.
’My Dear Aubrey,
’I am very much obliged to Dr.
May and Mr. Cheviot for their kind intentions; but
I have quite settled with Mr. Axworthy, and I enter
on my new duties next week. I am sorry to leave
our corps, but it is too far off, and I must enter
the Whitford one.
’Yours,
‘L.
A. Ward.’
‘The boy is mad with pride and temper,’
said the Doctor.
‘And his sister has made him so,’ added
Ethel.
‘Shall I run down to Bankside
and tell him it is all bosh?’ said Aubrey, jumping
up.
‘I don’t think that is
quite possible under Henry’s very nose,’
said Ethel. ’Perhaps they will all be
tamer by to-morrow, now they have blown their trumpets;
but I am very much vexed.’
‘And really,’ added Mr.
Cheviot, ’if he is so wrong-headed, I begin to
doubt if I could recommend him.’
‘You do not know how he has
been galled and irritated,’ said the general
voice.
‘I wonder what Mrs. Pugh thinks
of it,’ presently observed the Doctor.
‘Ah!’ said Ethel, ‘Mrs. Pugh is
reading “John of Anjou".’
‘Indeed!’ said the Doctor;
’I suspected the wind was getting into that
quarter. Master Henry does not know his own interest:
she was sure to take part with a handsome lad.’
‘Why have you never got Mrs.
Pugh to speak for him?’ said Mary. ’I
am sure she would.’
’O, Mary! simple Mary, you to
be Ave’s friend, and not know that her interposition
is the only thing wanting to complete the frenzy of
the other two!’
Ethel said little more that evening,
she was too much grieved and too anxious. She
was extremely disappointed in Leonard, and almost
hopeless as to his future. She saw but one chance
of preventing his seeking this place of temptation,
and that was in the exertion of her personal influence.
His avoidance of her showed that he dreaded it, but
one attempt must be made. All night was spent
in broken dreams of just failing to meet him, or of
being unable to utter what was on her tongue; and
in her waking moments she almost reproached herself
for the discovery how near her heart he was, and how
much pleasure his devotion had given her.
Nothing but resolution on her own
part could bring about a meeting, and she was resolute.
She stormed the castle in person, and told Averil
she must speak to Leonard. Ave was on her side
now, and answered with tears in her eyes that she
should be most grateful to have Leonard persuaded
out of this dreadful plan, and put in the way of excelling
as he ought to do; she never thought it would come
to this.
‘No,’ thought Ethel; ’people
blow sparks without thinking they may burn a house
down.’
Ave conducted her to the summer-house,
where Leonard was packing up his fossils. He
met them with a face resolutely bent on brightness.
’I am to take all my household gods,’
he said, as he shook hands with Ethel.
‘I see,’ said Ethel, gravely;
and as Averil was already falling out of hearing,
she added, ’I thought you were entirely breaking
with your old life.’
‘No, indeed,’ said Leonard,
turning to walk with her in the paths; ’I am
leaving the place where it is most impossible to live
in.’
‘This has been a place of great,
over-great trial, I know,’ said Ethel, ‘but
I do not ask you to stay in it.’
‘My word is my word,’
said Leonard, snapping little boughs off the laurels
as he walked.
‘A hasty word ought not to be kept.’
His face looked rigid, and he answered not.
‘Leonard,’ she said, ’I
have been very unhappy about you, for I see you doing
wilfully wrong, and entering a place of temptation
in a dangerous spirit.’
‘I have given my word,’ repeated Leonard.
’O, Leonard, it is pride that
is speaking, not the love of truth and constancy.’
‘I never defend myself,’ said Leonard.
Ethel felt deeply the obduracy and
pride of these answers; her eyes filled with tears,
and her hopes failed.
Perhaps Leonard saw the pain he was
giving, for he softened, and said, ’Miss May,
I have thought it over, and I cannot go back.
I know I was carried away by passion at the first
moment, and I was willing to make amends. I
was rejected, as you know. Was it fit that we
should go on living together?’
‘I do not ask you to live together.’
’When he reproached me with
the cost of my maintenance, and threatened me with
the mill if I lost the scholarship, which he knew I
could not get, I said I would abide by those words.
I do abide by them.’
’There is no reason that you
should. Why should you give up all your best
and highest hopes, because you cannot forgive your
brother?’
’Miss May, if I lived with you
and the Doctor, I could have such aims. Henry
has taken care to make them sacrilege for me.
I shall never be fit now, and there’s an end
of it.’
‘You might ’
’No, no, no! A school,
indeed! I should be dismissed for licking the
boys before a week was out! Besides, I want the
readiest way to get on in the world; I must take care
of my sisters; I don’t trust one moment to Henry’s
affection for any of them. This is no home for
me, and it soon may be no home for them!’ and
the boy’s eyes were full of tears, though his
voice struggled for firmness and indifference.
‘I am very sorry for you, Leonard,’
said Ethel, much more affectionately, as she felt
herself nearer her friend of Coombe. ’I
am glad you have some better motives, but I do not
see how you will be more able to help them in this
way.’
‘I shall be near them,’
said Leonard; ’I can watch over them. And
if if it is true what they say
about Henry and Mrs. Pugh then they could
have a cottage near the mill, and I could live with
them. Don’t you see, Miss May?’
’Yes; but I question whether,
on further acquaintance, you will wish for your sisters
to be with their relations there. The other course
would put you in the way of a better atmosphere for
them.’
‘But not for six years,’
said Leonard. ’No, Miss May; to show you
it is not what you think in me, I will tell you that
I had resolved the last thing to ask Henry’s
pardon for my share in this unhappy half-year; but
this is the only resource for me or my sisters, and
my mind is made up.’
’O, Leonard, are you not deceiving
yourself? Are the grapes ever so sour, or the
nightshade below so sweet, as when the fox has leapt
too short, and is too proud to climb?’
‘Nightshade! Why, pray?’
’My father would tell you; I
know he thinks your cousin no safe companion.’
‘I know that already, but I can keep out of
his way.’
‘Then this is the end of it,’
said Ethel, feeling only half justified in going so
far, ‘the end of all we thought and talked of
at Coombe!’
There was a struggle in the boy’s
face, and she did not know whether she had touched
or angered him. ‘I can’t help it,’
he said, as if he would have recalled his former hardness;
but then softening, ’No, Miss May, why should
it be? A man can do his duty in any state of
life.’
’In any state of life where
God has placed him; but how when it is his own self-will?’
‘There are times when one must judge for one’s
self.’
’Very well, then, I have done,
Leonard. If you can conscientiously feel that
you are acting for the best, and not to gratify your
pride, then I can only say I hope you will be helped
through the course you have chosen. Good-bye.’
‘But Miss May though
I cannot take your advice ’ he hesitated,
’this is not giving me up?’
‘Never, while you let me esteem you.’
‘Thank you,’ he said,
brightening, ’that is something to keep my head
above water, even if this place were all you think
it.’
‘My father thinks,’ said Ethel.
‘I am engaged now; I cannot
go back,’ said Leonard. ’Thank you.
Miss May.’
‘Thank you for listening patiently,’
said Ethel. ‘Good-bye.’
‘And and,’
he added earnestly, following her back to the house,
’you do not think the Coombe days cancelled?’
‘If you mean my hopes of you,’
said Ethel, with a swelling heart, ’as long
as you do your duty for for the
highest reason, they will only take another course,
and I will try to think it the right one.’
Ethel had mentally made this interview
the test of her regard for Leonard. She had
failed, and so had her test; her influence had not
succeeded, but it had not snapped; the boy, in all
his wilfulness, had been too much for her, and she
could no longer condemn and throw him off!
Oh! why will not the rights and wrongs
of this world be more clearly divided!