While the servants talked in the kitchen
the master had been sitting quietly in the darkening
study. All without and within the man was eddying,
swirling blackness. Heat beat and glowed upon
his forehead, like the radiation from molten metal;
there was a winnowing and fanning as of giant wings
or leaping of furnace-fires. The blood in his
throbbing temples sang a dull, tuneless song.
But presently he became aware of another kind of singing.
It was a little hissing voice that
came from the inside of the oak-and-silver cellaret.
And it sang a song that the man who sat near had never
heard before.
“Why think of the sharp lancet
or the keen razor, why long for the swift dismissing
pang of the fragrant acid, or the leap down upon the
railway-track under the crushing, pulping iron wheels?”
sang the little voice. “I can give you
Forgetfulness. I can bring you Death. Not
that death of the body which, for all you know, may
mean a keener, more perfect capability to live and
suffer on the part of the Soul, stripped from the
earthly husk that has burdened and deadened it.
The Death that is Death in Life.... Here am I,
ready to be your minister. Drink deep, and die!”
The man who heard lifted his white,
wild, desperate face. The song came more clearly.
“Wronged, outraged, betrayed
of the God you blindly believed in and the man and
the woman who had your passionate love, your absolute
faith, have your revenge upon the One as
upon those two others. Degrade, cast down, deface,
the image of your Maker in you. Hurl back every
gift of His, prostitute and debase every faculty.
Cease to believe, denying His Being with the Will
He forged and freed. Your Body, is it not your
own, to do with as you choose? Your Soul, is
it not your helpless prisoner, while you keep it in
its cage of clay? Revenge, revenge, through the
body and the soul, upon Him who has mocked you!
Do you not hear Him laugh as you sit there desolate
in the darkness poor, broken reed that thought
itself an oak of might alone, while your
brother kisses the sweet lips that were yours.
David and Mildred are laughing too, at you. Hasten
to efface every memory of the lying kisses she has
given you upon the bosoms of the Daughters of Pleasure!
Love, revel, drink! Drink, I say, and you will
be able to laugh at the One and the two....”
The little hissing voice drove Saxham
mad. He leaped up, frenzied, oversetting the
chair. He tore open and threw wide the doors of
the oak-and-silver cellaret, and sought in it with
shaking hands. He found a bottle of champagne
and the brandy-decanter, and a long tumbler, and knocked
off the wired neck of the bottle against the chimneypiece,
and crashed the foaming wine into the crystal, and
filled up the glass with brandy, and tossed off the
stinging, bubbling, hissing mixture, and laughed as
he set the tumbler down.
The thing inside the oak-and-silver cellaret laughed
too.
The hall-door shut heavily as Tait
and the women in the kitchen sat and listened.
They had not spoken since the crash of the falling
chair in the room overhead. The area-door was
open to the hot, sickly night air of London in midsummer.
Tait slid noiselessly out and listened as his master
hailed a passing hansom and jumped lightly in.
The flaps banged together, the driver pulled open
the roof-trap and leaned down to catch the shouted
address. Tait’s sharp ear caught it too,
and the knowing grin that decorated the features of
the cabman was reflected upon his decent smug countenance.
His tongue was in his cheek as he returned to the kitchen.
For his master had given the direction of a house of
ill-fame.
Thenceforwards the door would have
shut for ever upon the strenuous, honourable, cleanly,
useful life of Owen Saxham, were it not that the For
Ever of humanity means only a little space of years
with God sometimes only a little space
of hours. Saxham did not need the evidence of
the shower of cheques from people who hated paying,
the request from the Committee of his Club that he
would resign membership, the averted faces of his
acquaintances, the elaborate cordiality of his friends,
to tell him what he knew already. As the astute
Tait had said, as Society knew already, he was a ruined
man. He had made money, but the enormous expenses
of the Defence swallowed up thousands. By bringing
an action against the Treasury he might have recovered
a portion of the costs so he was told,
but he had had enough of Law. He resigned his
post at the Hospital, in spite of a thinly-worded
remonstrance from the Senior Physician. He dismissed
his servants generously. He disposed of his lease
and furniture and other property through a firm of
auctioneers who robbed him, and sold what stocks he
had not realised upon, and wrote a farewell letter
to his mother, and sailed for South Africa. Thenceforwards
he was to build his nest with the birds of night,
and rise from the stertorous sleep that is born of
drunkenness only to drink himself drunk again.
From assiduous letter-writing friends
David heard reports of his brother that grieved him
deeply. He told these things to Mildred, and they
shook their heads over them and sighed together.
Poor Owen! It was most fortunate for his family
that the Jury had taken so lenient a view of the case
... otherwise ...! They were quite certain in
their own minds that poor Owen had been culpable,
if not guilty. They were married six months later.
The Directoire hats were out of date, of course,
but Louis Quinze, with Watteau trimmings suited the
six bridesmaids marvellously, and the “Non
Angli sed Angeli” choir rendered
the Anthem and the “Voice that Breathed”
to perfection.
And Mildred, who never omitted her
nightly prayers, made a special petition for the reformation
of poor misguided Owen upon her wedding-night.
“Because we are so happy,”
she told David, who had found her kneeling, white
and exquisitely virginal in her lace and cambric draperies
by the bedside. “And he must be
so miserable. And you know, though I never really
cared for him, he was perfectly devoted to me.”
“Who could help it?” cooed
enamoured David, and knelt and kissed his bride’s
white feet. The white feet would show no ugly
stains, although to reach the bridal bed, towards
which her husband now drew her, they must tread upon
his brother’s bleeding heart.