There was nothing to counterbalance
the terrors of childhood in Hagworth Street.
Outside the hope of one day being able to do as she
liked, Jenny had no ideals.Worse, she had no
fairyland.Soon she would be given at school
a bald narrative of Cinderella or Red Riding Hood,
where every word above a monosyllable would be divided
in such a way that hyphens would always seem of greater
importance than elves.
About this time Jenny’s greatest
joy was music, and in connection with this an incident
occurred which, though she never remembered it herself,
had yet such a tremendous importance in some of its
side-issues as to deserve record.
It was a fine day in early summer.
All the morning, Jenny, on account of household duties,
had been kept indoors, and, some impulse of freedom
stirring in her young heart, she slipped out alone
into the sunlit street.Somewhere close at hand
a piano-organ was playing the intermezzo from “Cavalleria,”
and the child tripped towards the sound.Soon
she came upon the player, and stood, finger in mouth,
abashed for a moment, but the Italian beamed at her-an
honest smile of welcome, for she was obviously no
bringer of pence.Wooed by his friendliness, Jenny
began to dance in perfect time, marking with little
feet the slow rhythm of the tune.
In scarlet serge dress and cap of
scarlet stockinette, she danced to the tinsel melody.
Unhampered by anything save the need for self-expression,
she expressed the joyousness of a London morning as
her feet took the paving-stones all dappled and flecked
with shadows of the tall plane tree at the end of
Hagworth Street.She was a dainty child, with
silvery curls and almond eyes where laughter rippled
in a blue so deep you would have vowed they were brown.
The scarlet of her dress, through long use, had taken
on the soft texture of a pastel.
Picture her, then, dancing alone in
the quiet Islington street to this faded tune of Italy,
as presently down the street that seemed stained with
the warmth of alien suns shuffled an old man.
He stopped to regard the dancing child over the crook
of his ebony walking-stick.
“Aren’t you Mrs. Raeburn’s little
girl?” he asked.
Jenny melted into shyness, lost nearly
all her beauty, and became bunched and ordinary for
a moment.
“Yes,” she whispered.
“Humph!” grunted the old
man, and solemnly presented the organ grinder with
a halfpenny.
Ruby O’Connor’s voice rang out down the
street.
“Come back directly, you limb!”
she called.Jenny looked irresolute, but presently
decided to obey.
That same evening the old man tapped at the kitchen
door.
“Come in,” said Mrs. Raeburn.
“Is that you, Mr. Vergoe?Something gone
wrong with your gas again?I do wish Charlie would
remember to mend it.”
“No, there’s nothing the
matter with the gas,” explained the lodger.
(For Mr. Vergoe was the lodger of Number Seventeen.)
“Only I think that child of yours’ll make
a dancer some day.”
“Make a what?” said the mother.
“A dancer.I was watching
her this morning.Wonderful notion of time.
You ought to have her trained, so to speak.”
“My good gracious, whatever for?”
“The stage, of course.”
“No, thank you.
I don’t want none of my children gadding round
theaters.”
“But you like a good play yourself?”
“That’s quite another
kettle of fish.Thank you all the same, Mr. Vergoe,
Jenny’ll not go on to the stage.”
“You’re making a great
mistake,” he insisted.“And I suppose
I know something about dancing, or ought to, as it
were.”
“I have my own ideas what’s good for Jenny.”
“But ain’t she going to have a say in
the matter, so to speak?”
“My dear man, she isn’t seven yet.”
“None too early to start dancing.”
“I’d rather not, thank
you, and please don’t start putting fancies in
the child’s head.”
“Of course, I shouldn’t.Of course
not.That ain’t to be thought of.”
But the very next day Mr. Walter Vergoe
invited Jenny to come and see some pretty picture-books,
and Jenny, with much finger and pinafore sucking and
buried cheeks, followed him through the door near which
she had always been commanded not to loiter.
“Come in, my dear, and look
at Mr. Vergoe’s pretty pictures.Don’t
be shy.Here’s a bag of lollipops,”
he said, holding up a pennyworth of bull’s-eyes.
On the jolly June morning the room
where the old clown had elected to spend his frequently
postponed retirement was exceedingly pleasant.
The sun streamed in through the big bay-window:
the sparrows cheeped and twittered outside, and on
the window-sill a box of round-faced pansies danced
in the merry June breeze.The walls were hung
with silhouettes of the great dead and tinsel pictures
of bygone dramas and harlequinades and tragedies.
There were daguerreotypes of beauties in crinolines,
of ruddy-cheeked actors and apple-faced old actresses.
There was a pinchbeck crown and scepter hung below
a small sword with guard of cut steel.There
were framed letters and testimonials on paper gradually
rusting, written with ink that was every day losing
more and more of its ancient blackness.There
were steel engravings of this or that pillared Theatre
Royal, stuck round with menus of long-digested
suppers; and on the mantlepiece was a row of champagne
corks whose glad explosions happened years ago.
There was a rosewood piano, whose ivory keys were
the color of coffee, whose fretwork displayed a pleated
silk that once was crimson as wine.But the most
remarkable thing in the room was a clown’s dress
hanging below a wreath of sausages from a hook on the
door.It used, in the days of the clown’s
activity, to hang thus in his dressing-room, and when
he came out of the stage door for the last time and
went home to stewed tripe and cockles with two old
friends, he took the dress with him in a brown-paper
parcel and hung it up after supper.It confronted
him now like a disembodied joy whose race was over.
Rheumatic were the knees that once upon a time were
bent in the wide laugh of welcome, while in the corner
a red-hot poker’s vermilion fire was harmless
forevermore.Dreaming on winter eves near Christmas
time, Mr. Vergoe would think of those ample pockets
that once held inexhaustible supplies of crackers.
Dreaming on winter eves by the fireside, he would
hear out of the past the laughter of children and the
flutter of the footlights, and would murmur to himself
in whistling accents:“Here we are again.”
There he was again, indeed, an old
man by a dying fire, sitting among the ashes of burnt-out
jollities.
But on the morning of Jenny’s
visit the clown was very much awake.For all
Mrs. Raeburn’s exhortations not to put fancies
in the child’s head, Mr. Vergoe was very sure
in his own mind of Jenny’s ultimate destiny.
He was not concerned with the propriety of Clapton
aunts, with the respectability of drapers’ wives.
He was not haunted by the severe ghost of Frederick
Horner, the chemist.As he watched Jenny dancing
to the sugared melodies of “Cavalleria,”
he beheld an artist in the making:that was enough
for Mr. Vergoe.He owed no obligations to anything
except Art, and no responsibleness to anybody except
the public.
“Here’s a lot of pretty things, ain’t
there, my dear?”
“Yes,” Jenny agreed, with eyes buried
deep in a scarlet sleeve.
“Come along now and sit on this
chair, which belonged, so they say, so they told me
in Red Lion Court where I bought it, to the great Joseph
Grimaldi.But then, you never heard of Grimaldi.
Ah, well, he must have been a very wonderful clown,
by all accounts, though I never saw him myself.
Perhaps you don’t even know what a clown is?
Do you?What’s a clown, my dear?”
“I dunno.”
“Well, he’s a figure of
fun, so to speak, a clown is.He’s a cove
dressed all in white with a white face.”
“Was it a clown in Punch and Judy?”
“That’s right.That’s
it.My stars and garters, if you ain’t a
knowing one.Well, I was a clown once.”
“When you was a little boy?”
“No, when I was a man, as you might say.”
“Are clowns good?” inquired Jenny.
“Good as gold-so
to speak-good as gold, clowns are.
A bit high-spirited when they come on in the harlequinade,
but all in good part.I suppose, taking him all
round, you wouldn’t find a better fellow than
a clown.Only a bit high-spirited, I’d have
you understand.’Oh, what a lark,’
that’s their motto, as it were.”
Ensconced in the great Grimaldi’s
chair, Jenny regarded the ancient Mischief with wondering
glances and, as she sucked one of his lollipops, thoroughly
approved of him.
“Look at this pretty lady,”
he said, placing before her a colored print of some
famous Columbine of the past.
“Why is she on her toes?” asked Jenny.
“Light as a fairy, she was,”
commented Mr. Vergoe, with a bouquet of admiration
in his voice.
“Is she trying to reach on to
the mantlepiece?” Jenny wanted to know.
“My stars and garters, not she!
She’s dancing-toe-dancing, as they
call it.”
“I don’t dance like that,” said
Jenny.
“Of course you don’t,
but you could with practice.With practice, I
wouldn’t say as you mightn’t be as light
as a pancake, so to speak.”
“I can stand on my toes,” declared Jenny
proudly.
“Can you now?” said Mr. Vergoe admiringly.
“To reach fings off of the table.”
“Ah, but then you’d be
holding on to it, eh?Tight as wax, you’d
be holding on to it.That won’t do, that
won’t.You must be able to dance all over
the room on your toes.”
“Can you?”
“Not now, my dear, not now.
I could once, though.But I never cared for playing
Harlequin.”
“Eh?”
“That’s a fellow you haven’t met
yet.”
“Is he good?”
“Good-in a manner
of speaking-but an awkward sort of a laddie
with his saber and all.But no malice at bottom,
I’m sure of that.”
“Can I be a C’mbine?”
“Why not?” exclaimed the
old man.“Why not?” And he thumped
the table to mark the question’s emphasis.
Jenny became very thoughtful and wished
she had a petticoat all silver and pink, like the
pretty lady on her toes.
“Would I be pretty?” she asked at length.
“Wonderfully pretty, I should say.”
“Would all the people say-’pretty
Jenny’?”
“No more wouldn’t that surprise me,”
declared Mr. Vergoe.
“Would I be good?”
The old man looked puzzled.
“There’s nothing against
it,” he affirmed.“Nothing, in a manner
of speaking; but there, what some call good, others
don’t, and I can’t say as I’ve troubled
much which way it was, so to speak, as long as they
was good pals and jolly companions everyone.”
“What’s pals?”
“Ah, there you’ve put
your finger on it-as it were-what’s
a pal?Well, I should say he was a hearty fellow-in
a manner of speaking-a fellow as would
come down handsome on Treasury night when you hadn’t
paid your landlady the week before.A pal wouldn’t
ever crab your business, wouldn’t stare too
hard if you happened to use his grease.A pal
wouldn’t let you sleep over the train-call on
a Sunday morning.A pal wouldn’t make love
to your girl on a wet, foggy afternoon in Blackburn
or Warrington.What’s pals?Pals are
fellows who stand on the prompt side of life-so
to speak-and stick there to the Ring Down.”
All of which may or may not be an
excellent definition of “paliness,” but
left Jenny, if possible, more completely ignorant of
the meaning of a pal than she was when Mr. Vergoe
set out to answer her inquiry.
“What’s pals?” she reiterated therefore.
“Not quite clear in your little
head yet-as it were-well, I should
say, we’re pals, me and you.”
“Are pals good?”
“The best.The very, very
best.Now you just listen to me for a minute.
My granddaughter, Miss Lilli Vergoe, that is, she’s
wonderfully fond of the old man, that is your humble.
Now next time she comes round to see him, I’ll
send up the call-boy-as it might be.”
Hereupon Mr. Vergoe closed his left
eye, put his forefinger very close to the other eye,
and shook it knowingly several times.
“Now you’d better go on
or there’ll be a stage wait, and get back to
ma as quick as you like.”
Jenny prepared to obey.
“Wait a minute, though, wait
a minute,” and the old man fumbled in a drawer
from which at last he extracted a cracker.“See
that?That’s a cracker, that is.Sometimes
one or two used to get hidden in my pockets on last
nights, and-well, I used to keep ’em
as a recollection of good times, so to speak.
This one was Exeter, not so very long ago neither.
Now you hook on to that end and I’ll hook on
to this, and, when I say ‘three,’ pull
as hard as you like.”The antagonists faced
each other.The cracker came in half with the
larger portion in Jenny’s hand, but the powder
had long ago lost all power of report.Age and
damp had subdued its ferocity.
“A wrong ’un,” muttered
the old man regretfully.“Too bad, too bad!
Well, accidents will happen-as it were.
Come along, open your half.”
Jenny produced a compact cylinder of mauve paper.
“Is it a sweet?” she wondered.
“No, it’s a cap.
By gum, it’s a cap.Don’t tear it.
Steady!Careful does it.”
Mr. Vergoe was tremendously excited
by the prospect.At last between them they unrolled
a gilded paper crown, which he placed round Jenny’s
curls.
“There you are,” he observed
proudly.“Fairy Queen as large as life and
twice as natural.Now all you want is a wand with
a gold star on the end of it, and there’s nothing
you couldn’t do, in a manner of speaking.
Now pop off to ma and show her your crown.”
He held her for a moment up to the glass, in which
Jenny regarded herself with a new interest, and when
he set her down again she went out of the room with
the careful step of one who has imagined greatness.
Downstairs she was greeted by her
mother with exclamations of astonishment.
“Whatever have you got on your head?”
“A crown.”
“Who gave it you, for Heaven’s sake?”
“The lodger.”
“Mr. Vergoe?”
Jenny nodded.
“I may wear it, mayn’t I, mother?”
“Yes, I suppose so,” said
Mrs. Raeburn grudgingly.“But don’t
get putting it in your mouth.”
“There’s a Miss Vain,” said Ruby.
“I’m not.”
“Peacocks like looking-glasses,” nagged
Ruby.
“I isn’t a peacock.I’s a queen.”
“There’s a sauce!Whoever heard?”
commented Ruby.
The clown’s sentimental and
pleasantly rhetorical descriptions had no direct influence
on the child’s mind.But when his granddaughter,
Miss Lilli Vergoe, all chiffon and ostrich plumes,
took her upon a peau de soie lap, and clasped
her rosy cheeks to a frangipani breast, Jenny thought
she had never experienced any sensation half so delicious.
Amid the heavy glooms and fusty smells
of the old house in Hagworth Street, Miss Lilli Vergoe
blossomed like an exotic flower, or rather, in Jenny’s
own simile, like lather.Her china-blue eyes were
amazingly attractive.Her honey-colored hair
and Dresden cheeks fascinated the impressionable child
with all the wonder of an expensive doll.There
was no part of her that was not soft and beautiful
to stroke.She woke in Jenny a cooing affection
such as had never been by her bestowed upon a living
soul.
Moreover, what Mr. Vergoe talked about,
Lilli showed her how to achieve; so that, unknown
to Mrs. Raeburn, Jenny slowly acquired that ambition
for public appreciation which makes the actress.
Terpischore herself, carrying credentials from Apollo,
would not have been a more powerful mistress than
Lilli Vergoe, a second line girl in the Corps de
Ballet of the Orient Palace of Varieties.
Under her tuition Jenny learned a hundred airs and
graces, which, when re-enacted in the kitchen of Number
Seventeen, either caused a command to cease fidgeting
or an invitation to look at the comical child.
She learned, too, more than mere airs
and graces.She was grounded very thoroughly
in primary technique, so that, as time went on, she
could step passably well upon her toes and achieve
the “splits” and “strides”
and “handsprings” of a more acrobatic mode.
Therefore, though in the September
just before her seventh birthday Mrs. Raeburn decided
it was time to begin Jenny’s education, it is
very obvious that Jenny’s education was really
begun on the sunlit morning when Mr. Vergoe saw her
dancing to a sugared melody from “Cavalleria.”
School, however, meant for Jenny not
so much the acquirement of elementary knowledge, the
ability to distinguish a cow from a sheep, as an opportunity
to exhibit more satisfactory attainments she had developed
from the instigation of Miss Lilli Vergoe.Neither
her mother nor Ruby nor Alfie nor Edie nor anyone
in the household had been a perfect audience.
Her schoolfellows, on the other hand, marveled with
delighted respect at her pas seuls upon the
asphalt playground of the board school and clapped
and jumped their praise.
Jenny had no idea of the stage at
present.She had never yet been inside a theater;
and was still far from any conception of art as a profession.
It merely happened that she could dance, that dancing
pleased her, and, less important, that it made her
popular with innumerable little girls of her own age,
and even older.
By some instinct of advisable concealment,
she kept this habit of publicity a secret from her
family.Edie, to be sure, was aware of it, and
warned her once or twice of the immorality of showing
off; but Edie was too indolent to go into the matter
more deeply and too conscious of her own comparative
greatness through seniority to spend much time in
the guardianship of a younger sister.
So for a year Jenny practiced and
became daily more proficient, and danced every morning
to school.