That afternoon we built the lean-to.
I had had some fair ideas about building a lean-to,
but Doloria was in possession of a practical knowledge
gathered on camping trips that she and Echochee had
made for these, I judged, constituted one
of her chief recreations since childhood. She
knew how to twist ropes of bark for tying the poles,
and how to interlay the palm fronds so they would
neither leak nor be lifted by the wind. She took
the keenest pleasure in it, too, and I can safely
say that never in my life have I enjoyed building anything
as much as that lean-to. When it was finished
I stepped back and, in a burst of admiration, cried:
“It’s a palace? I can’t ever
get along without you!”
A wave of color came into her face,
as instantaneous as I believe it was unexpected, though
she said in a matter of fact tone:
“There are other little things
to be done, but we’ll finish them to-morrow.”
“It’s already the coziest
place in the world,” I insisted. “Now
I’m going to cut that path, and then we’ll
have” but I checked myself
and looked at her in some concern. She had worked
over hard for me I had not realized it
while we were busy; so now I begged: “Won’t
you let me cook the dinner? I’m afraid
you’re about dead!”
“Oh, really I’m not.
But I’m hungry and so are you, and”
a little curve came into the corners of her mouth
that was very tantalizing, “I think I’d
better cook it.”
“I was hoping you would,”
I admitted shamelessly, “even if you are tired.”
“Purely a selfish decision on
my part, I assure you,” she smiled. “I
haven’t forgotten the breakfast you attempted.”
“Very well. I’ll
cut you a nice straight path for a nice big feed!”
“And don’t leave anything
in it, will you, Chancellor! It would be dreadful
to come running to you in the dark, and stumble and and
bump my nose!”
“Dreadful!” I cried. “It would
be the end of the world!”
“Or the end of you,” she
laughed. “Now get to work, and then you
can build the kitchen fire. Don’t you think
we might have dinner a little earlier to-night?”
With this she left me; but how sweetly
confidential and domestic that had sounded: “Don’t
you think we might have dinner a little earlier to-night?”
I found her again, sitting on a fallen
log and gazing wistfully across the prairie toward
the east, not back in the direction of Efaw Kotee’s
den, and I felt that she was thinking of Azuria her
Azuria. What visions its existence must have
opened to her, whose life had been always passionate
after dreams and utterly bored with realities!
Yet what were her dreams?
She saw me and arose slowly, passing
one hand across her eyes as if brushing away the fancies;
then I watched an expression almost of tenderness
as she came up to me.
“It isn’t quite fair to
interrupt,” I said, “when you were having
such a peaceful time of it; but the fire’s ready,
and our supply of buttonwood shrinks.”
“Was I having such a peaceful
time of it?” she asked, wonderingly. “Perhaps
it might have been if I knew Echochee and your man
are safe. Anyway, I’m glad the fire’s
ready; I’ve been expecting you to call me.”
“I wish I could give you the
same assurance about them that I feel myself.
Try to think I’m right, won’t you?”
“Yes, really I will, good Chancellor,”
she smiled.
On the way back we passed my pool,
where she kneeled ingenuously to bathe her hands and
arms, as chastely innocent as a mermaid.
“Have you such a thing as a
towel?” she laughed. “Mine are in
the tent!”
I got it, and walked slowly on.
And I realized again, what I had once before noted,
that overly refined proprieties I do not
mean proprieties of the essential kind cannot
endure between man and maid cast alone in a wilderness.
They become frail, insipid; and mar, rather than perfect,
the harmony of existence. Contraversely, their
absence adds a deeper luster, strikes the tuning-fork
that hums with the true note of life. Sorry the
man who does not feel a sympathetic vibration!
A woman is not exactly at her best when bathing her
face above a porcelain bowl, and to be the constant,
daily witness of such ablutions would, in my limited
experience, engender a slight unrest among the tuneful
Nine. Yet let her gracefully lean above a woodland
pool, roll back her sleeves and open the collar of
her shooting shirt, and she becomes a personification
of glory to him who waits near the fire he has built
for their evening meal. But she must have looked
danger in the face with him, slept near him beneath
the stars; knowing, should she be affrighted in the
night, that her call will bring his reassuring answer,
but also knowing that the voice is all that will ever
come unbidden to her side. And thus is the Cave-man
in him gloriously aroused to guard her from Nature’s
wild, while the poetry of their intercourse guards
her from himself. What more beautiful existence
than to live alone in a forest with the girl you love!
I thought that after dinner it might
be well to sit again beside the fort where we could
watch the prairie. There is a comforting sense
of security that comes to one at nightfall when one
has looked in all directions and found all things
well. So for a while she left me to the orgy
of washing dishes, but when I had turned the last plate
top down upon our kitchen log to dry, I saw her returning.
She came humming a tune, a catchy
tune I recognized it at once that
the mandolins had tinkled in the Havana cafe, and from
the mischievous curves about the corners of her mouth
I knew that her mood was adorable. So I caught
up the tune, whistling softly, and crossed to her holding
out my hands.
“It’s a corking fox-trot,”
I said, for the moment stopping our orchestra.
“Let’s dance it!”
But she drew back, laughing outright.
“I don’t know how!”
“Don’t dance?” I must have looked
my amazement, for she answered:
“I’ve often danced, all
alone, when I just couldn’t help it; but there
hasn’t been any one to teach me your kind!”
“I will,” I cried delightedly. “We’ll
begin with that fox-trot!”
“We’d look awfully silly,”
she replied. “Besides, the name of your
dance is atrocious.”
I felt rather thankful that I hadn’t suggested
the shimmy.
“That may get you out of it
now,” I announced, “but when we reach the
yacht I’m going to teach you ten hours a day.
Understand? ten hours a day!”
Again came the tantalizing expression,
as she daintily caught her skirt and made me a royal
curtsey, saying:
“It’s beyond all measure
charming of you, Chancellor. But shall I be so
difficult?”
“Don’t joke about a wonderful
prospect,” I answered. “You’re
difficult because of your grace, not the lack of it if
that’s what you mean!” But from her indifferent
way of dismissing the subject I judged it was not
what she had meant, at all.
The sun must have set while we were
encircling my pool. Then we passed on into a
still denser growth, following a crooked path that
led to the fort entering a mysterious shadow-land
that twilights have the trick of producing when overhead
foliage shuts out the afterglow and the serene forest
gloom is painted in tones of gray. The soft earth
we trod was dark, and the water lay phantom-like in
its black bowl. Except for the few times I held
aside a swinging wildwood vine for her to pass, we
might have been two drifting spirits so
quietly did we move, and so unknowingly were we affected
by the hour, the place.
At the edge of our forest, where that
long ago prairie fire had blighted a grove of palm
trees that subsequently fell upon each other like an
entangled pile of jackstraws, she took my hand to get
across and, freed from the clinging shadows, we ran
out beneath the sky then gasped in amazement
at its splendor.
It was not a sunset, not an afterglow
in the usual sense of afterglows, but a sky of deep,
smouldering red equally distributed from horizon to
horizon; as though everywhere below the world a conflagration
raged. I could not at first speak for the grandeur
of it, and when I turned to her words were again checked
by the look upon her face. For this dull, permeating
glow this enchantment from the heavens touched
her brow, her cheeks, her parted lips, with a light
that aroused in me a thousand devils and a thousand
gods; it lingered over her hair as if striving to
concentrate itself into a halo there; and in her eyes
that gazed afar were suggested the awakening of deeper
fires, of wilder mysteries.
“God, what a sky,” I at
last exclaimed, through sheer panic at the imminence
of crying aloud my love for her.
“What a sky, O God,” she
whispered, delicately turning my profane outburst
to a sigh of thankfulness.
But, better than she, I knew the meaning
of that sky. I knew that down over the western
edge of the world blazed a huge funeral pyre on which
my past was being changed to harmless ashes; while
in the east flames were already lighted beneath the
on-coming crucible of destiny, from whose purifying
heat a new love arose. Farther into obscurity
would sink the one; up and on would come the other;
and so the sky was now roseate unto its zenith, reflecting
the glory of these miracles. I followed the look
of her eyes and saw, high against the red, a lone crane
flying majestically homeward to the seclusion of his
swamp; and it typified my own belated heart that,
without questioning the whence or why, unerringly
obeyed a silent voice which called it to another sanctuary.
I wanted to tell her this, but dared
not. And so we stood, spellbound, while the night
brought out the blue and the young moon
changed from red to silver and the stars
came down to take their places. Then slowly we
passed on and sat by the fort, leaning our backs against
it; in meditation looking across the prairie that
had become so changed a place to us.
The night grew sweet with the purity
of untouched wilderness as, shoulder to shoulder,
we sat talking in low tones of Smilax and Echochee.
She had wondered about them no few times that day,
and now I, too, felt some concern. Yet the Everglades
lay far eastward and, for any reason giving up Big
Cove, I knew he would plunge as deeply into it as
his pursuers dared follow. To-morrow would be
time enough to worry, I assured her, so we talked
about Monsieur, the Azurian throne, and I
could not help it of another Chancellor
who would build her kitchen fires. But I tried
to keep all bitterness from my words. In the vague
light I could see that her face was serious, and very
tender. Then for a time we sat without speaking.
Perhaps it was the place, the charm;
perhaps a magic was working stronger than I knew;
but words came to my lips that I stubbornly refused
to speak. I fought against them; they, too, fought
with grim insistence; so as a compromise, looking
straight ahead and pretending to jest even while I
accused, I said:
“You’ve been listening!”
“Listening?” Her eyes
opened prettily, alert as they always were to parry
banter with banter.
“Yes, listening at
the keyhole like a common gossip. A nice pastime
for a Princess, surely!”
“At the keyhole?”
She was proceeding warily now; her mind, as in a game
of hide-and-seek, was on tiptoe, in expectation of
discovering me at every step.
“Yes,” I repeated.
“And you heard my heart admitting that it’s
happy to’ve found something it was
hungry for.”
For the briefest instant I thought
a tremor ran through her shoulder, as if a little
chilly sensation had rippled her nerves. But it
was a silly idea, because she lightly replied:
“Corn cakes, maybe. It
ought to feel quite stuffed after the seven you had
for dinner.”
“Six,” I corrected.
“Seven,” she insisted.
“But I know!”
“So do I,” she laughed,
“that you stole one from my plate when you thought
I wasn’t looking.”
“I needed that one.”
“I never doubted it,” she agreed.
Wild words again sprang to my lips,
but this time I ruthlessly strangled them. Yet
I wanted to say: “I took from you because
you stole from me!” And I wanted to ask O,
shades of suffering Dante, how I longed to ask! if
her dear heart were hungering, too, that she should
have needed my own to feed it! if that
were her excuse for thievery!
But already I had overstepped my resolution,
although not feeling desperately contrite about it
after the sleight-of-hand way that a declaration of
love had been changed into the accusation of filching
a corn cake. Yet it had been a narrow escape
and I thanked my gods for the chance of pulling up,
of again getting the right perspective.
To tell her anything at all before
Echochee came would be the act of an utterly selfish
cad, for if she did not want my love and
there was little enough reason to suppose that she
did her position would be intolerable.
In such an eventuality never again could we sit beside
the fort on nights like this, no longer would she
want a cleared path leading to her bailiwick.
We would be as two estranged creatures doomed to live
near yet apart; each a daily witness of the other’s
unhappiness; neither able by word or deed to give
relief. Ah, I was glad she did not even suspect
that I cared a whit for her! I lit my pipe and
in moody silence smoked.
A pipe stem is a safe thing for man
to grip his teeth upon when silence is a virtue.
Here in our forest I was master, the undisputed superior
force; and I wondered with a fascinating wonder how
that ancestor, who climbed down from his tree at nightfall,
would have been greeting her! I visualized his
cunning face, now peering at me through the ages, leering
at me with bared tusks, bidding me take what was my
own by right of might! I felt the savage splendor
of it. The wildness of this place, its solitude,
its distance from mankind, supported me. The cry
of a night bird out on the prairie told that it, too,
was preying, or being preyed upon; and, as if being
stirred by this, a panther sent his wail across the
night. I listened for a mate to answer, but she
did not. A large, whitish moth flying out of
the shadows passed clumsily within a few inches of
my face, its wings swishing as a bird’s; and
it, too, was without a mate.
Then, as in the following silence
I continued to listen, some far off words came back
to me. They came as the scent of lavender comes
when rain is pattering on the shingles, and some one
opens the old trunk that, ever since you can remember,
has stood back under the rafters of the sloping roof;
the hallowed old trunk where a veil of yellowing lace
is stored a piece of white satin, a blue
or gray faded uniform, and maybe a wee shoe, and a
lock of hair. Every one who has leaned above
that trunk and thank God they are legion! has
also listened to a voice coming faintly through the
past. And so words out of a lesser past now came
to me, as they were meant to be written on a torn wine
card: “I am in danger!”
She had been in danger of a brute,
and had offered the safety of her keeping to me.
And the vision of my savage ancestor, though retreating
sullenly, faded into nothing. Then I felt her
body press against me softly and, looking down, I
saw that she had fallen asleep, with her head precious,
trusting thing resting against my shoulder.
For an hour I sat motionless, fearing
to awake her. Finally one of my legs went to
sleep, and soon my other leg. Yet it was a welcome
discomfort because endured for her. And I suppose
the numbness must eventually have crept the length
of my body, for, I, too, slept; awaking, I did not
know how much later, to find her gone.
Then I stumbled back to my lean-to,
but did not go inside. This was not the night,
nor mine the mood, to shut high heaven from my eyes,
my thoughts, the lambent flame of my love? So
I chose the open, and lay on my back gazing up into
the silhouetted palm fronds, catching glimpses of
a star that here or there peeped through at me, steeping
my thoughts in solitude.
For it was that hushed hour of betwixt
and between, when crickets, tree-toads and other little
creatures of the darkness have wearied themselves
to rest; yet also before the daylight life has stirred
from its own deep sleep. The silent hour, this
is; the one hour in the round of time when nature
seems to be absolutely poised in breathless space;
when the pendulum of night hangs dead, and dawn is
still a great way over the hill. I shared its
mysticism, feeling also a rich contentment that she,
too, was lying near me somewhere in this same solitude;
dreaming, with her cheek upon her arm; her hair kissed
by the same dew that cooled my face. I could
not, of course, reach out my hand and touch her, but
the path led straight; and along this now my heart
went begging impoverished rascal!
He went on tiptoe, begging; while I continued to watch
for the elusive star, and my soul looked into the
level eyes of God.