We have been building a home for the
last fifteen years, but it begins to look now as though
it will not be finished for many years to come.
This is not because the contractors are slow, or the
materials scarce, or because we keep changing our
minds. Rather it is because it takes years to
build a home, whereas a house can be builded in a few
months.
Mother and I started this home-building
job on June 28th, 1906. I was twenty-five years
of age; and she-well, it is sufficient for
the purposes of this record to say that she was a
few years younger. I was just closing my career
as police reporter for the Detroit “Free Press,”
when we were married. Up to a few months before
our wedding, my hours had been from three o’clock,
in the afternoon, until three o’clock in the
morning, every day of the week except Friday.
Those are not fit hours for a married man-especially
a young married man. So it was fortunate for
me that my managing editor thought I might have possibilities
as a special writer, and relieved me from night duty.
It was then we began to plan the home
we should build. It was to be a hall of contentment
and the abiding place of joy and beauty. And it
was all going to be done on the splendid salary of
twenty-eight dollars a week. That sum doesn’t
sound like much now, but to us, in January, 1906,
it was independence. The foundation of our first
home was something less than five hundred dollars,
out of which was also to come the extravagance of
a two-weeks’ honeymoon trip.
Fortunately for all of us, life does
not break its sad news in advance. Dreams are
free, and in their flights of fancy young folks may
be as extravagant as they wish. There may be
breakers ahead, and trials, days of discouragement
and despair, but life tells us nothing of them to
spoil our dreaming.
We knew the sort of home we wanted,
but we were willing to begin humbly. This was
not because we were averse to starting at the top.
Both Mother and I had then, and have now, a fondness
for the best things of life. We should have liked
a grand piano, and a self-making ice box, and a servant,
and an automobile right off! But less than five
hundred dollars capital and twenty-eight dollars a
week salary do not provide those things.
What we could have would be
a comfortable flat, and some nice furniture.
We’d pay cash for all we could, and buy the remainder
of the necessary things on time. We had found
a wonderful, brand-new flat which we could rent for
twenty-five dollars a month. It had hardwood floors,
steam heat, two big bedrooms, a fine living room with
a gas grate, a hot-water heater for the bath, and
everything modern and convenient. To-day the
landlord would ask ninety dollars a month for that
place and tell you he was losing money at that.
With the rent paid, we should have
eighty-seven dollars a month left to live on.
The grocery bill, at that time, would not run more
than twenty dollars a month; telephone, gas, and electric
light would not exceed ten dollars a month; the milkman
and the paper boy would take but little, and in winter
time a ton of coal per month would be sufficient.
Oh, we should have plenty of money, and could easily
afford to pledge twenty dollars a month to pay for
necessary furniture.
It will be noticed that into our dreaming
came no physician, no dentist, no expenses bobbing
up from unexpected sources. Not a single bill
collector called at the front door of our dream castle
to ask for money which we did not have.
If older and wiser heads suggested
the possibility of danger, we produced our plans on
paper, and asked them from whence could trouble come?
To-day we understand the depth of the kindly smile
which our protests always evoked. They were letting
the dreamers dream.
At last the furniture was bought on
the installment plan and the new flat was being put
in order. It called for a few more pieces of
furniture than we had figured on, and the debt, in
consequence, was greater; but that meant merely a
few months more to make payments.
It was fine furniture, too! Of
course it has long since ceased to serve us; but never
in this world shall that dining set be duplicated!
For perfection of finish and loveliness of design,
that first oak dining table will linger in our memories
for life. The one we now have cost more than
all the money we spent for all the furniture with which
we began housekeeping; and yet, figuring according
to the joy it has brought to us, it is poor in comparison.
And so it was, too, with the mahogany
settee, upholstered in green plush, and the beveled
glass dresser, and the living-room chairs. We
used to make evening trips over to that flat merely
for the joy of admiring these things-our
things; the first we had ever possessed.
Then came the night of June 27th.
We had both looked forward to that wonderful honeymoon
trip up the lakes to Mackinac Island, and tomorrow
we were to start. But right then I am sure that
both Mother and I wished we might call it off.
It seemed so foolish to go away from such a beautiful
flat and such lovely furniture.
The honeymoon trip lasted two weeks;
and one day, at Mackinac Island, I found Mother in
tears.
“What the matter?” I asked.
“I want to go home!” she
said. “I know I am silly and foolish, but
I want to get back to our own house and our own furniture,
and arrange our wedding presents, and hang the curtains,
and put that set of Haviland china in the cabinet!”
So back we came to begin our home-building in earnest.
The rent and the furniture installments
came due regularly, just as we had expected.
So did the gas and electric light and telephone bills.
But, somehow or other, our dream figures and the actual
realities did not balance. There never was a
month when there was as much left of our eighty-seven
dollars as we had figured there should have been.
For one thing, I was taken ill.
That brought the doctor into the house; and since
then we have always had him to reckon with and to settle
with. Then there was an insurance policy to keep
up. In our dream days, the possibility of my
dying sometime had never entered our heads; but now
it was an awful reality. And that quarterly premium
developed a distressing habit of falling due at the
most inopportune times. Just when we thought
we should have at least twenty dollars for ourselves,
in would come the little yellow slip informing us
that the thirty days’ grace expired on the fifth.
But the home-of-our-own was still
in our dreams. We were happy, but we were going
to be still happier. If ever we could get rid
of those furniture installments we could start saving
for the kind of home we wanted.
Then, one evening, Mother whispered
the happiest message a wife ever tells a husband.
We were no longer to live merely for ourselves; there
was to be another soon, who should bind us closer together
and fill our lives with gladness.
But-and many a night we sat for hours and planned and talked
and wondered-how
were we to meet the expense? There was nothing
in the savings bank, and much was needed there.
Mother had cherished for years her ideas for her baby’s
outfit. They would cost money; and I would be
no miserly father, either! My child should have
the best of everything, somehow. It was up to
me to get it, somehow, to.... If only that furniture
were paid for!
Then a curious event occurred.
I owed little bills amounting to about twenty-one
dollars. This sum included the gas, electric light,
and telephone bills, on which an added sum was charged
if unpaid before the tenth of the month. I had
no money to meet them. I was worried and discouraged.
To borrow that sum would have been easy, but to pay
it back would have been difficult.
That very morning, into the office
came the press agent of a local theatre, accompanied
by Mr. Henry Dixey, the well-known actor. Mr.
Dixey wanted two lyrics for songs. He had the
ideas which he wished expressed in rhyme, and wondered
whether or not I would attempt them. I promised
him that I would, and on the spot he handed me twenty-five
dollars in cash to bind the bargain. If those
songs proved successful I should have more.
The way out had been provided!
From Mr. Dixey’s point of view, those songs
were not a success; but from mine they were, for they
bridged me over a chasm I had thought I could not
leap. I never heard from that pair of songs afterward;
but neither Mother nor I will ever forget the day
they were written.
It meant more than the mere paying
of bills, too. It taught us to have faith-faith
in ourselves and faith in the future. There is
always a way out of the difficulties. Even though
we cannot see or guess what that way is to be, it
will be provided. Since then we have gone together
through many dark days and cruel hurts and bitter disappointments,
but always to come out stronger for the test.
The next few months were devoted to
preparations for the baby, and our financial reckonings
had to be readjusted. I had to find ways of making
a little more money. I was not after much money,
but I must have more. All I had to sell was what
I could write. Where was a quick market for a
poor newspaper man’s wares?
My experience with Mr. Dixey turned
me to the vaudeville stage. I could write playlets,
I thought. So while Mother was busy sewing at
nights I devoted myself to writing. And at last
the first sketch was finished. At the Temple
Theatre that week was the popular character actor,
William H. Thompson. To him I showed the manuscript
of the sketch, which was called “The Matchmaker.”
Mr. Thompson took it on Tuesday; and on Friday he sent
word that he wished to see me. Into his dressing-room
I went, almost afraid to face him.
“It’s a bully little sketch,”
said he, as I sat on his trunk, “and I’d
like to buy it from you. I can’t pay as
much as I should like; but if you care to let me have
it I’ll give you two hundred and fifty dollars-one
hundred and fifty dollars now, and the remaining hundred
next week.”
I tried to appear indifferent, but
the heart of me was almost bursting with excitement.
It meant that the furniture bill was as good as paid!
And there would be money in the bank for the first
time since we were married! The deal was made,
and I left the theatre with the largest sum of money
I had ever made all at once. Later someone said
to me that I was foolish to sell that sketch outright
for so little money.
“Foolish!” said I.
“That two hundred and fifty dollars looked bigger
to me than the promise of a thousand some day in the
future!”
Once more the way out had been provided.
And then came the baby-a
glorious little girl-and the home had begun
to be worth-while. There was a new charm to the
walls and halls. The oak table and the green
plush settee took on a new glory.
I was the usual proud father, with
added variations of my own. One of my pet illusions
was that none, save Mother and me, was to be trusted
to hold our little one. When others would
take her, I stood guard to catch her if in some careless
moment they should let her fall.
As she grew older, my collars became
finger-marked where her little hands had touched them.
We had pictures on our walls, of course, and trinkets
on the mantelpiece, and a large glass mirror which
had been one of our wedding gifts. These things
had become commonplace to us-until the
baby began to notice them! Night after night,
I would take her in my arms and show her the sheep
in one of the pictures, and talk to her about them,
and she would coo delightedly. The trinkets on
the mantelpiece became dearer to us because she loved
to handle them. The home was being sanctified
by her presence. We had come into a new realm
of happiness.
But a home cannot be builded always
on happiness. We were to learn that through bitter
experience. We had seen white crepe on other doors,
without ever thinking that some day it might flutter
on our own. We had witnessed sorrow, but had
never suffered it. Our home had welcomed many
a gay and smiling visitor; but there was a grim and
sinister one to come, against whom no door can be
barred.
After thirteen months of perfect happiness,
its planning and dreaming, the baby was taken from
us.
The blow fell without warning.
I left home that morning, with Mother and the baby
waving their usual farewells to me from the window.
Early that afternoon, contrary to my usual custom,
I decided to go home in advance of my regular time.
I had no reason for doing this, aside from a strange
unwillingness to continue at work. I recalled
later that I cleaned up my desk and put away a number
of things, as though I were going away for some time.
I never before had done that, and nothing had occurred
which might make me think I should not be back at
my desk as usual.
When I reached home the baby was suffering
from a slight fever, and Mother already had called
the doctor in. He diagnosed it as only a slight
disturbance. During dinner, I thought baby’s
breathing was not as regular as it should be, and
I summoned the doctor immediately. Her condition
grew rapidly worse, and a second physician was called;
but it was not in human skill to save her. At
eleven o’clock that night she was taken from
us.
It is needless to dwell here upon
the agony of that first dark time through which we
passed. That such a blow could leave loveliness
in its path, and add a touch of beauty to our dwelling
place, seemed unbelievable at the time. Yet to-day
our first baby still lives with us, as wonderful as
she was in those glad thirteen months. She has
not grown older, as have we, but smiles that same
sweet baby smile of hers upon us as of old. We
can talk of her now bravely and proudly; and we have
come to understand that it was a privilege to have
had her, even for those brief thirteen months.
To have joys in common is the dream
of man and wife. We had supposed that love was
based on mutual happiness. And Mother and
I had been happy together; we had been walking arm
in arm under blue skies, and we knew how much we meant
to each other. But just how much we needed
each other neither of us really knew-until
we had to share a common sorrow.
To be partners in a sacred memory
is a divine bond. To be partners in a little
mound, in one of God’s silent gardens, is the
closest relationship which man and woman can know
on this earth. Our lives had been happy before;
now they had been made beautiful.
So it was with the home. It began
to mean more to us, as we began each to mean more
to the other. The bedroom in which our baby fell
asleep seemed glorified. Of course there were
the lonely days and weeks and months when everything
we touched or saw brought back the memory of her.
I came home many an evening to find on Mother’s
face the mark of tears; and I knew she had been living
over by herself the sorrow of it all.
I learned how much braver the woman
has to be than the man. I could go into town,
where there was the contagion of good cheer; and where
my work absorbed my thoughts and helped to shut out
grief. But not so with Mother! She must
live day by day and hour by hour amid the scenes of
her anguish. No matter where she turned, something
reminded her of the joy we had known and lost.
Even the striking clock called back to her mind the
hour when something should have been done for the baby.
“I must have another
little girl,” she sobbed night after night.
“I must have another little girl!”
And once more the way out was provided.
We heard of a little girl who was to be put out for
adoption; she was of good but unfortunate parents.
We proposed to adopt her.
I have heard many arguments against
adopting children, but I have never heard a good one.
Even the infant doomed to die could enrich, if only
for a few weeks, the lives of a childless couple, and
they would be happier for the rest of their days in
the knowledge that they had tried to do something
worthy in this world and had made comfortable the brief
life of a little one.
“What if the child should turn
out wrong?” I hear often from the lips of men
and women.
“What of that?” I reply.
“You can at least be happy in the thought that
you have tried to do something for another.”
To childless couples everywhere I
would say with all the force I can employ, adopt
a baby! If you would make glorious the home
you are building; if you would fill its rooms with
laughter and contentment; if you would make your house
more than a place in which to eat and sleep; if you
would fill it with happy memories and come yourselves
into a closer and more perfect union, adopt a baby!
Then, in a year or two, adopt another. He who
spends money on a little child is investing it to
real purpose; and the dividends it pays in pride and
happiness and contentment are beyond computation.
Marjorie came to us when she was three
years old. She bubbled over with mirth and laughter
and soothed the ache in our hearts. She filled
the little niches and comers of our lives with her
sweetness, and became not only ours in name, but ours
also in love and its actualities.
There were those who suggested that
we were too young to adopt a child. They told
us that the other children would undoubtedly be sent
to us as time went on. I have neither the space
here nor the inclination to list the imaginary difficulties
outlined to us as the possibilities of adoption.
But Mother and I talked it all over
one evening. And we decided that we needed Marjorie,
and Marjorie needed us. As to the financial side
of the question, I smiled.
“I never heard of anyone going
to the poorhouse, or into bankruptcy,” I said,
“because of the money spent on a child.
I fancy I can pay the bills.”
That settled it. The next evening
when I came home, down the stairway leading to our
flat came the cry, “Hello, Daddy!” from
one of the sweetest little faces I have ever seen.
And from that day, until God needed her more and called
her home, that “Hello, Daddy” greeted me
and made every care worth while.
The little home had begun to grow
in beauty once more. That first shopping tour
for Marjorie stands out as an epoch in our lives.
I am not of the right sex to describe it. Marjorie
came to us with only such clothing as a poor mother
could provide. She must be outfitted anew from
head to toe, and she was. The next evening, when
she greeted me, she was the proud possessor of more
lovely things than she had ever known before.
But, beautiful as the little face appeared to me then,
more beautiful was the look in Mother’s face.
There had come into her eyes a look of happiness which
had been absent for many months. I learned then,
and I state it now as a positive fact, that a woman’s
greatest happiness comes from dressing a little girl.
Mothers may like pretty clothes for themselves; but
to put pretty things on a little girl is an infinitely
greater pleasure. More than once Mother went down-town
for something for herself-only to return
without it, but with something for Marjorie!
We pledged to ourselves at the very
beginning that we would make Marjorie ours; not only
to ourselves but to others. Our friends were
asked never to refer in her presence to the fact that
she was adopted. As far as we were concerned
it was dismissed from our minds. She was three
years old when she was born to us, and from then on
we were her father and her mother. To many who
knew her and loved her, this article will be the first
intimation they ever have received that Marjorie was
not our own flesh and blood. It was her pride
and boast that she was like her mother, but had her
father’s eyes. Both her mother and I have
smiled hundreds of times, as people meeting her for
the first time would say, “Anyone would know
she belonged to you. She looks exactly like you!”
Marjorie made a difference in our
way of living. A second-story flat, comfortable
though it was, was not a good place to bring up a little
girl. More than ever, we needed a home of our
own. But to need and to provide are two different
propositions. We needed a back yard; but back
yards are expensive; and though newspapermen may make
good husbands they seldom make “good money.”
One evening Mother announced to me
that she had seen the house we ought to have.
It had just been completed, had everything in it her
heart had wished for, and could be bought for forty-two
hundred dollars. The price was just forty-two
hundred dollars more than I had!
All I did have was the wish to own
a home of my own. But four years of our married
life had gone, and I was no nearer the first payment
on a house than when we began as man and wife.
However, I investigated and found that I could get
this particular house by paying five hundred dollars
down and agreeing to pay thirty-five a month on the
balance. I could swing thirty-five a month, but
the five hundred was a high barrier.
Then I made my first wise business
move. I went to Julius Haass, president of the
Wayne County and Home Savings Bank, who always had
been my friend, and explained to him my difficulties.
He loaned me that five hundred dollars for the first
payment-I to pay it back twenty-five dollars
monthly-and the house was ours.
We had become land owners overnight.
My income had increased, of course; but so had my
liabilities. The first few years of that new house
taxed our ingenuity more than once. We spent
now and then, not money which we had, but money which
we were going to get; but it was buying happiness.
If ever a couple have found real happiness in this
world we found it under the roof of that Leicester
Court home.
There nearly all that has brought
joy and peace and contentment into our lives was born
to us. It was from there I began to progress;
it was there my publishers found me; and it was there
little Bud was born to us. We are out of it now.
We left it for a big reason; but we drive by it often
just to see it; for it is still ours in the precious
memory of the years we spent within its walls.
Still, in the beginning, it was just
a house! It had no associations and no history.
It had been built to sell. The people who paid
for its construction saw in its growing walls and
rooftree only the few hundred dollars they hoped to
gain. It was left to us to change that house
into a home. It sounds preachy, I know, to
say that all buildings depend for their real beauty
upon the spirit of the people who inhabit them.
But it is true.
As the weeks and months slipped by,
the new house began to soften and mellow under Mother’s
gentle touches. The living-room assumed an air
of comfort; my books now had a real corner of their
own; the guest-chamber-or, rather, the
little spare-room-already had entertained
its transient tenants; and as our friends came and
went the walls caught something from them all, to
remind us of their presence.
I took to gardening. The grounds
were small, but they were large enough to teach me
the joy of an intimate friendship with growing things.
To-day, in my somewhat larger garden, I have more than
one hundred and fifty rosebushes, and twenty or thirty
peony clumps, and I know their names and their habits.
The garden has become a part of the home. It is
not yet the garden I dream of, nor even the garden
which I think it will be next year; but it is the
place where play divides the ground with beauty.
What Bud doesn’t require for a baseball diamond
the roses possess.
Early one morning in July, Bud came
to us. Immediately, the character of that front
bedroom was changed. It was no longer just “our
bedroom;” it was “the room where Bud was
born.” Of all the rooms in all the houses
of all the world, there is none so gloriously treasured
in the memories of man and woman as those wherein
their children have come to birth.
I have had many fine things happen
to me: Friends have borne me high on kindly shoulders;
out of the depths of their generous hearts they have
given me honors which I have not deserved; I have more
than once come home proud in the possession of some
new joy, or of some task accomplished; but I have
never known, and never shall know, a thrill of happiness
to equal that which followed good old Doctor Gordon’s
brief announcement: “It’s a Boy!”
“It’s a Boy!” All
that day and the next I fairly shouted it to friends
and strangers. To Marjorie’s sweetness,
and to the radiant loveliness of the little baby which
was ours for so brief a time, had been added the strength
and roguishness of a boy.
The next five years saw the walls
of our home change in character. Finger marks
and hammer marks began to appear. When Bud had
reached the stage where he could walk, calamity began
to follow in his trail. Once he tugged at a table
cover and the open bottle of ink fell upon the rug.
There was a great splotch of ink forever to be visible
to all who entered that living-room! Yet even
that black stain became in time a part of us.
We grew even to boast of it. We pointed it out
to new acquaintances as the place where Bud spilled
the ink. It was an evidence of his health and
his natural tendencies. It proved to all the world
that in Bud we had a real boy; an honest-to-goodness
boy who could spill ink-and would,
if you didn’t keep a close watch on him.
Then came the toy period of our development.
The once tidy house became a place where angels would
have feared to tread in the dark. Building blocks
and trains of cars and fire engines and a rocking horse
were everywhere, to trip the feet of the unwary.
Mother scolded about it, at times; and I fear I myself
have muttered harsh things when, late at night, I
have entered the house only to stumble against the
tin sides of an express wagon.
But I have come to see that toys in
a house are its real adornments. There is no
pleasanter sight within the front door of any man’s
castle than the strewn and disordered evidences that
children there abide. The house seems unfurnished
without them.
This chaos still exists in our house
to-day. Mother says I encourage it. Perhaps
I do. I know that I dread the coming day when
the home shall become neat and orderly and silent
and precise. What is more, I live in horror of
the day when I shall have to sit down to a meal and
not send a certain little fellow away from the table
to wash his hands. That has become a part of
the ceremonial of my life. When the evening comes
that he will appear for dinner, clean and immaculate,
his shirt buttoned properly and his hair nicely brushed,
perhaps Mother will be proud of him; but as for me,
there will be a lump in my throat-for I
shall know that he has grown up.
Financially, we were progressing.
We had a little more “to do with,” as
Mother expressed it; but sorrow and grief and anxiety
were not through with us.
We were not to be one hundred per
cent happy. No one ever is. Marjorie was
stricken with typhoid fever, and for fourteen weeks
we fought that battle; saw her sink almost into the
very arms of death; and watched her pale and wasted
body day by day, until at last the fever broke and
she was spared to us.
Another bedroom assumed a new meaning
to us both. We knew it as it was in the dark
hours of night; we saw the morning sun break through
its windows. It was the first room I visited
in the morning and the last I went to every night.
Coming home, I never stopped in hall or living-room,
but hurried straight to her. All there was in
that home then was Marjorie’s room! We
lived our lives within it. And gradually, her
strength returned and we were happy again.
But only for a brief time....
Early the following summer I was called home by Doctor
Johnson. When I reached there, he met me at the
front door, smiling as though to reassure me.
“You and Bud are going to get
out,” said he. “Marjorie has scarlet
fever.”
Bud had already been sent to his aunt
Florence’s. I was to gather what clothing
I should need for six weeks, and depart.
If I had been fond of that home before,
I grew fonder of it as the days went by. I think
I never knew how much I valued it until I was shut
out from it. I could see Mother and Marjorie
through the window, but I was not to enter. And
I grew hungry for a sight of the walls with their
finger marks, and of the ink spot on the rug.
We had been six years in the building of that home.
Somehow, a part of us had been woven into every nook
and corner of it.
But Marjorie was not thriving.
Her cheeks were pale and slightly flushed. The
removal of tonsils didn’t help. Followed
a visit to my dentist. Perhaps a tooth was spreading
poison through her system. He looked at her,
and after a few minutes took me alone into his private
office.
“I’m sorry, Eddie,”
he said. “I am afraid it isn’t teeth.
You have a long, hard fight to make-if
it is what I think it is.”
Tuberculosis had entered our home.
It had come by way of typhoid and scarlet fevers.
The specialist confirmed Doctor Oakman’s suspicions,
and our battle began. The little home could serve
us no longer. It was not the place for such a
fight for life as we were to make. Marjorie must
have a wide-open sleeping porch; and the house lacked
that, nor could one be built upon it.
And so we found our present home.
It was for sale at a price I thought then I should
never be able to pay. We could have it by making
a down payment of seventy-five hundred dollars, the
balance to be covered by a mortgage. But I neither
had that much, nor owned securities for even a small
fraction of it.
But I did have a friend: a rich,
but generous friend! I told him what I wanted;
and he seemed more grieved at my burden than concerned
with my request. He talked only of Marjorie and
her chances; he put his arm about my shoulders, and
I knew he was with me.
“What do you need?” he asked.
“Seventy-five hundred dollars in cash.”
He smiled.
“Have a lawyer examine the abstract
to the property, and if it is all right come back
to me.”
In two days I was back. The title
to the house was clear. He smiled again, and
handed me his check for the amount, with not a scratch
of the paper between us.
I suggested something of that sort to him.
“The important thing is to get
the house,” he said. “When that is
done and you have the deed to it and the papers all
fixed up, you come back and we’ll fix up our
little matter.” And that is how it was done.
So into our present home we moved.
We had a bigger and a better and a costlier dwelling
place. We were climbing upward. But we were
also beginning once more with just a house. Just
a house-but founded on a mighty purpose!
It was to become home to us, even more dearly loved
than the one we were leaving.
For four years it has grown in our
affections. Hope has been ours. We have
lived and laughed and sung and progressed....
But we have also wept and grieved.
Twice the doctor had said we were
to conquer. Then came last spring and the end
of hope. Week after week, Marjorie saw the sunbeams
filter through the windows of her open porch; near
by, a pair of robins built their nest; she watched
them and knew them and named them. We planned
great things together and great journeys we should
make. That they were not to be she never knew....
And then she fell asleep....
Her little life had fulfilled its
mission. She had brought joy and beauty and faith
into our hearts; she had comforted us in our hours
of loneliness and despair; she had been the little
cheerful builder of our home-and perhaps
God needed her.
She continued to sleep for three days,
only for those three days her sun porch was a bower
of roses. On Memorial Day, Mother and I stood
once more together beside a little mound where God
had led us. Late that afternoon we returned to
the home to which Marjorie had taken us. It had
grown more lovely with the beauty which has been ours,
because of her.
The home is not yet completed.
We still cherish our dreams of what it is to be.
We would change this and that. But, after all,
what the home is to be is not within our power to
say. We hope to go forward together, building
and changing and improving it. To-morrow shall
see something that was not there yesterday. But
through sun and shade, through trial and through days
of ease and of peace, it is our hope that something
of our best shall still remain. Whatever happens,
it is our hope that what may be “just a house”
to many shall be to us the home we have been building
for the last fifteen years.
HOME
By Edgar A. Guest
It takes a heap o’ livin’
in a house t’ make it home,
A heap o’ sun an’ shadder,
an’ ye sometimes have t’ roam
Afore ye really ‘preciate the things
ye lef’ behind,
An’ hunger fer ’em somehow,
with ’em allus on yer mind.
It don’t make any differunce how
rich ye get t’ be,
How much yer chairs an’ tables cost,
how great yer luxury;
It ain’t home t’ ye, though
it be the palace of a king,
Until somehow yer soul is sort o’
wrapped round everything.
Home ain’t a place that gold can
buy or get up in a minute;
Afore it’s home there’s got
t’ be a heap o’ livin’ in it;
Within the walls there’s got t’
be some babies born, and then
Right there ye’ve got t’ bring
’em up t’ women good, an’ men;
And gradjerly, as time goes on, ye find
ye wouldn’t part
With anything they ever used-they’ve
grown into yer heart:
The old high chairs, the playthings, too,
the little shoes they wore
Ye hoard; an’ if ye could ye’d
keep the thumbmarks on the door.
Ye’ve got t’ weep t’
make it home, ye’ve got t’ sit an’
sigh
An’ watch beside a loved one’s
bed, an’ know that Death is nigh;
An’ in the stillness o’ the
night t’ see Death’s angel come,
An’ close the eyes o’ her
that smiled, an’ leave her sweet voice dumb.
Fer these are scenes that grip the heart,
an’ when yer tears are dried,
Ye find the home is dearer than it was,
an’ sanctified;
An’ tuggin’ at ye always are
the pleasant memories
O’ her that was an’ is no
more-ye can’t escape from these.
Ye’ve got t’ sing an’
dance fer years, ye’ve got t’ romp
an’ play,
An’ learn t’ love the things
ye have by usin’ ’em each day;
Even the roses ’round the porch
must blossom year by year
Afore they ‘come a part o’
ye, suggestin’ someone dear
Who used t’ love ’em long
ago, an’ trained ’em jes’ t’
run
The way they do, so’s they would
get the early mornin’ sun;
Ye’ve got t’ love each brick
an’ stone from cellar up t’ dome:
It takes a heap o’ livin’
in a house t’ make it home.