IN the good days, just after we all
left college, Ned Halidon and I used to listen, laughing
and smoking, while Paul Ambrose set forth his plans.
They were immense, these plans, involving,
as it sometimes seemed, the ultimate aesthetic redemption
of the whole human race; and provisionally restoring
the sense of beauty to those unhappy millions of our
fellow country-men who, as Ambrose movingly pointed
out, now live and die in surroundings of unperceived
and unmitigated ugliness.
“I want to bring the poor starved
wretches back to their lost inheritance, to the divine
past they’ve thrown away I want to
make ’em hate ugliness so that they’ll
smash nearly everything in sight,” he would
passionately exclaim, stretching his arms across the
shabby black-walnut writing-table and shaking his
thin consumptive fist in the fact of all the accumulated
ugliness in the world.
“You might set the example by
smashing that table,” I once suggested with
youthful brutality; and Paul, pulling himself up, cast
a surprised glance at me, and then looked slowly about
the parental library, in which we sat.
His parents were dead, and he had
inherited the house in Seventeenth Street, where his
grandfather Ambrose had lived in a setting of black
walnut and pier glasses, giving Madeira dinners, and
saying to his guests, as they rejoined the ladies
across a florid waste of Aubusson carpet: “This,
sir, is Dabney’s first study for the Niagara the
Grecian Slave in the bay window was executed for me
in Rome twenty years ago by my old friend Ezra Stimpson ”
by token of which he passed for a Maecenas in the
New York of the ‘forties,’ and a poem had
once been published in the Keepsake or the Book of
Beauty “On a picture in the possession of Jonathan
Ambrose, Esqre.”
Since then the house had remained
unchanged. Paul’s father, a frugal liver
and hard-headed manipulator of investments, did not
inherit old Jonathan’s artistic sensibilities,
and was content to live and die in the unmodified
black walnut and red rep of his predecessor. It
was only in Paul that the grandfather’s aesthetic
faculty revived, and Mrs. Ambrose used often to say
to her husband, as they watched the little pale-browed
boy poring over an old number of the Art Journal:
“Paul will know how to appreciate your father’s
treasures.”
In recognition of these transmitted
gifts Paul, on leaving Harvard, was sent to Paris
with a tutor, and established in a studio in which
nothing was ever done. He could not paint, and
recognized the fact early enough to save himself much
wasted labor and his friends many painful efforts
in dissimulation. But he brought back a touching
enthusiasm for the forms of beauty which an old civilization
had revealed to him and an apostolic ardour in the
cause of their dissemination.
He had paused in his harangue to take
in my ill-timed parenthesis, and the color mounted
slowly to his thin cheek-bones.
“It is an ugly room,”
he owned, as though he had noticed the library for
the first time.
The desk was carved at the angles
with the heads of helmeted knights with long black-walnut
moustaches. The red cloth top was worn thread-bare,
and patterned like a map with islands and peninsulas
of ink; and in its centre throned a massive bronze
inkstand representing a Syrian maiden slumbering by
a well beneath a palm-tree.
“The fact is,” I said,
walking home that evening with Ned Halidon, “old
Paul will never do anything, for the simple reason
that he’s too stingy.”
Ned, who was an idealist, shook his
handsome head. “It’s not that, my
dear fellow. He simply doesn’t see things
when they’re too close to him. I’m
glad you woke him up to that desk.”
The next time I dined with Paul he
said, when we entered the library, and I had gently
rejected one of his cheap cigars in favour of a superior
article of my own: “Look here, I’ve
been looking round for a decent writing-table.
I don’t care, as a rule, to turn out old things,
especially when they’ve done good service, but
I see now that this is too monstrous ”
“For an apostle of beauty to
write his evangel on,” I agreed, “it is
a little inappropriate, except as an awful warning.”
Paul colored. “Well, but,
my dear fellow, I’d no idea how much a table
of this kind costs. I find I can’t get anything
decent the plainest mahogany under
a hundred and fifty.” He hung his head,
and pretended not to notice that I was taking out
my own cigar.
“Well, what’s a hundred
and fifty to you?” I rejoined. “You
talk as if you had to live on a book-keeper’s
salary, with a large family to support.”
He smiled nervously and twirled the
ring on his thin finger. “I know I
know that’s all very well. But
for twenty tables that I don’t buy I
can send some fellow abroad and unseal his eyes.”
“Oh, hang it, do both!”
I exclaimed impatiently; but the writing-table was
never bought. The library remained as it was,
and so did the contention between Halidon and myself,
as to whether this inconsistent acceptance of his
surroundings was due, on our friend’s part, to
a congenital inability to put his hand in his pocket,
or to a real unconsciousness of the ugliness that
happened to fall inside his point of vision.
“But he owned that the table was ugly,”
I agreed.
“Yes, but not till you’d
called his attention to the fact; and I’ll wager
he became unconscious of it again as soon as your back
was turned.”
“Not before he’d had time
to look at a lot of others, and make up his mind that
he couldn’t afford to buy one.”
“That was just his excuse.
He’d rather be thought mean than insensible
to ugliness. But the truth is that he doesn’t
mind the table and is used to it. He knows his
way about the drawers.”
“But he could get another with
the same number of drawers.”
“Too much trouble,” argued Halidon.
“Too much money,” I persisted.
“Oh, hang it, now, if he were
mean would he have founded three travelling scholarships
and be planning this big Academy of Arts?”
“Well, he’s mean to himself, at any rate.”
“Yes; and magnificently, royally
generous to all the world besides!” Halidon
exclaimed with one of his great flushes of enthusiasm.
But if, on the whole, the last word
remained with Halidon, and Ambrose’s personal
chariness seemed a trifling foible compared to his
altruistic breadth of intention, yet neither of us
could help observing, as time went on, that the habit
of thrift was beginning to impede the execution of
his schemes of art-philanthropy. The three travelling
scholarships had been founded in the first blaze of
his ardour, and before the personal management of
his property had awakened in him the sleeping instincts
of parsimony. But as his capital accumulated,
and problems of investment and considerations of interest
began to encroach upon his visionary hours, we saw
a gradual arrest in the practical development of his
plan.
“For every thousand dollars
he talks of spending on his work, I believe he knocks
off a cigar, or buys one less newspaper,” Halidon
grumbled affectionately; “but after all,”
he went on, with one of the quick revivals of optimism
that gave a perpetual freshness to his spirit, “after
all, it makes one admire him all the more when one
sees such a nature condemned to be at war with the
petty inherited instinct of greed.”
Still, I could see it was a disappointment
to Halidon that the great project of the Academy of
Arts should languish on paper long after all its details
had been discussed and settled to the satisfaction
of the projector, and of the expert advisers he had
called in council.
“He’s quite right to do
nothing in a hurry to take advice and compare
ideas and points of view to collect and
classify his material in advance,” Halidon argued,
in answer to a taunt of mine about Paul’s perpetually
reiterated plea that he was still waiting for So-and-so’s
report; “but now that the plan’s mature and
such a plan! You’ll grant it’s
magnificent? I should think he’d burn
to see it carried out, instead of pottering over it
till his enthusiasm cools and the whole business turns
stale on his hands.”
That summer Ambrose went to Europe,
and spent his holiday in a frugal walking-tour through
Brittany. When he came back he seemed refreshed
by his respite from business cares and from the interminable
revision of his cherished scheme; while contact with
the concrete manifestations of beauty had, as usual,
renewed his flagging ardour.
“By Jove,” he cried, “whenever
I indulged my unworthy eyes in a long gaze at one
of those big things picture or church or
statue I kept saying to myself: ’You
lucky devil, you, to be able to provide such a sight
as that for eyes that can make some good use of it!
Isn’t it better to give fifty fellows a chance
to paint or carve or build, than to be able to daub
canvas or punch clay in a corner all by yourself?’”
“Well,” I said, when he
had worked off his first ebullition, “when is
the foundation stone to be laid?”
His excitement dropped. “The foundation
stone ?”
“When are you going to touch
the electric button that sets the thing going?”
Paul, with his hands in his sagging
pockets, began to pace the library hearth-rug I
can see him now, setting his shabby red slippers between
its ramified cabbages.
“My dear fellow, there are one
or two points to be considered still one
or two new suggestions I picked up over there ”
I sat silent, and he paused before
me, flushing to the roots of his thin hair. “You
think I’ve had time enough that I
ought to have put the thing through before this?
I suppose you’re right; I can see that even
Ned Halidon thinks so; and he has always understood
my difficulties better than you have.”
This insinuation exasperated me.
“Ned would have put it through years ago!”
I broke out.
Paul pulled at his straggling moustache.
“You mean he has more executive capacity?
More no, it’s not that; he’s
not afraid to spend money, and I am!” he suddenly
exclaimed.
He had never before alluded to this
weakness to either of us, and I sat abashed, suffering
from his evident distress. But he remained planted
before me, his little legs wide apart, his eyes fixed
on mine in an agony of voluntary self-exposure.
“That’s my trouble, and
I know it. Big sums frighten me I can’t
look them in the face. By George, I wish Ned
had the carrying out of this scheme I wish
he could spend my money for me!” His face was
lit by the reflection of a passing thought. “Do
you know, I shouldn’t wonder if I dropped out
of the running before either of you chaps, and in case
I do I’ve half a mind to leave everything in
trust to Halidon, and let him put the job through
for me.”
“Much better have your own fun
with it,” I retorted; but he shook his head,
saying with a sigh as he turned away: “It’s
not fun to me that’s the worst
of it.”
Halidon, to whom I could not help
repeating our talk, was amused and touched by his
friend’s thought.
“Heaven knows what will become
of the scheme, if Paul doesn’t live to carry
it out. There are a lot of hungry Ambrose cousins
who will make one gulp of his money, and never give
a dollar to the work. Jove, it would be
a fine thing to have the carrying out of such a plan but
he’ll do it yet, you’ll see he’ll
do it yet!” cried Ned, his old faith in his
friend flaming up again through the wet blanket of
fact.