Jupillon promised Germinie not to
go to the ball again. But he was just beginning
to make a name for himself at La Brididi, among the
low haunts near the barrier, the Boule-Noire,
the Reine-Blanche and the Ermitage.
He had become one of the dancers who make the guests
leave their seats, who keep a whole roomful of people
hanging on the soles of their boots as they toss them
two inches above their heads, and whom the fair dancers
of the locality invite to dance with them and sometimes
pay for their refreshment to that end. The ball
to him was not a ball simply; it was a stage, an audience,
popularity, applause, the flattering murmur of his
name among the groups of people, an ovation accorded
to saltatory glory in the glare of the reverberators.
On Sunday he did not go to the Boule-Noire;
but on the following Thursday he went there again;
and Germinie, seeing plainly enough that she could
not prevent him from going, decided to follow him and
to stay there as long as he did. Sitting at a
table in the background, in the least brilliantly
lighted corner of the ball-room, she would follow him
eagerly with her eyes throughout the whole contra-dance;
and when it was at an end, if he held back, she would
go and seize him, take him almost by force from the
hands and caresses of the women who persisted in trying
to pull him back, to detain him by wicked wiles.
As they soon came to know her, the
insulting remarks in her neighborhood ceased to be
vague and indistinct and muttered under the breath,
as at the first ball. The words were thrown in
her face, the laughter spoke aloud. She was obliged
to pass her three hours amid a chorus of derision
that pointed its finger at her, called her by name
and cast her age in her face. At every turn she
was forced to submit to the appellation of: old
woman! which the young hussies spat at her over
their shoulders as they passed. But they did
at least look at her; often, however, dancing women
invited by Jupillon to drink, and brought by him to
the table at which Germinie was, would sit with their
elbows on the table and their cheeks resting on their
hands, drinking the bowl of mulled wine for which
she paid, apparently unaware that there was another
woman there, crowding into her place as if it were
unoccupied, and making no reply when she spoke to
them. Germinie could have killed these creatures
whom Jupillon forced her to entertain and who despised
her so utterly that they did not even notice her presence.
The time arrived, when, having endured
all she could endure and being sickened by the humiliation
she was forced to swallow, she conceived the idea
of dancing herself. She saw no other way to avoid
leaving her lover to others, to keep him by her all
the evening, and perhaps to bind him more closely
to her by her success, if she had any chance of succeeding.
Throughout a whole month she worked, in secret, to
learn to dance. She rehearsed the figures and
the steps. She forced her body into unnatural
attitudes, she wore herself out trying to master the
contortions and the manipulations of the skirt that
she saw were applauded. At the end of the month
she made the venture; but everything tended to disconcert
her and added to her awkwardness; the hostility that
she could feel in the atmosphere, the smiles of astonishment
and pity that played about the lips of the spectators
when she took her place in the dancers’ enclosure.
She was so absurd and so laughed at, that she had
not the courage to make a second attempt. She
buried herself gloomily in her dark corner, only leaving
it to hunt up Jupillon and carry him off, with the
mute violence of a wife dragging her husband out of
the wineshop and leading him home by the arm.
It was soon rumored in the street
that Germinie went to these balls, that she never
missed one of them. The fruit woman, at whose
shop Adele had already held forth, sent her son “to
see;” he returned with a confirmation of the
rumor, and told of all the petty annoyances to which
Germinie was subjected, but which did not keep her
from returning. Thereafter there was no more
doubt in the quarter as to the relations between mademoiselle’s
servant and Jupillon relations which some
charitable souls had hitherto persisted in denying.
The scandal burst out, and in a week the poor girl,
berated by all the slanderous tongues in the quarter,
baptized and saluted by the vilest names in the language
of the streets, fell at a blow from the most emphatically
expressed esteem to the most brutally advertised contempt.
Thus far her pride and
it was very great had procured for her the
respect and consideration which is bestowed, in the
lorette quarters, upon a servant who honestly
serves a virtuous mistress. She had become accustomed
to respect and deference and attention. She stood
apart from her comrades. Her unassailable probity,
her conduct, as to which not a word could be said,
her confidential relations with mademoiselle, which
caused her mistress’s honorable character to
be reflected upon her, led the shopkeeper to treat
her on a different footing from the other maids.
They addressed her, cap in hand; they always called
her Mademoiselle Germinie. They hurried
to wait upon her; they offered her the only chair
in the shop when she had to wait. Even when she
contended over prices they were still polite with
her and never called her haggler. Jests
that were somewhat too broad were cut short when she
appeared. She was invited to the great banquets,
to family parties, and consulted upon business matters.
Everything changed as soon as her
relations with Jupillon and her assiduous attendance
at the Boule-Noire were known. The quarter
took its revenge for having respected her. The
brazen-faced maids in the house accosted her as one
of their own kind. One, whose lover was at Mazas,
called her: “My dear.” The men
accosted her familiarly, and with all the intimacy
of thee and thou in glance and gesture and tone and
touch. The very children on the sidewalk, who
were formerly trained to courtesy politely to her,
ran away from her as from a person of whom they had
been told to be afraid. She felt that she was
being maligned behind her back, handed over to the
devil. She could not take a step without walking
through scorn and receiving a blow from her shame upon
the cheek.
It was a horrible affliction to her.
She suffered as if her honor were being torn from
her, shred by shred, and dragged in the gutter.
But the more she suffered, the closer she pressed
her love to her heart and clung to him. She bore
him no ill-will, she uttered no word of reproach to
him. She attached herself to him by all the tears
he caused her pride to shed. And now, in the
street through which she passed but a short time ago,
proudly and with head erect, she could be seen, bent
double as if crouching over her fault, hurrying furtively
along, with oblique glances, dreading to be recognized,
quickening her pace in front of the shops that swept
their slanders out upon her heels.