When she returned that evening from
a christening dinner, which she had been unable to
avoid attending, mademoiselle heard talking in her
room. She thought that there was someone with
Germinie, and, marveling thereat, she opened the door.
In the dim light shed by an untrimmed, smoking candle
she saw nothing at first; but, upon looking more closely,
she discovered her maid lying in a heap at the foot
of the bed.
Germinie was talking in her sleep.
She was talking with a strange accent that caused
emotion, almost fear. The vague solemnity of supernatural
things, a breath from regions beyond this life, arose
in the room, with those words of sleep, involuntary,
fugitive words, palpitating, half-spoken, as if a
soul without a body were wandering about a dead man’s
lips. The voice was slow and deep, and had a far-off
sound, with long pauses of heavy breathing, and words
breathed forth like sighs, with now and then a vibrating,
painful note that went to the heart, a
voice laden with mystery and with the nervous tremor
of the darkness, in which the sleeper seemed to be
groping for souvenirs of the past and passing her
hand over faces. “Oh! she loved me dearly,”
mademoiselle heard her say. “And if he
had not died we should be very happy now, shouldn’t
we? No! no! But it’s done, worse luck,
and I don’t want to tell of it.”
The words were followed by a nervous
contraction of her features as if she sought to seize
her secret on the edge of her lips and force it back.
Mademoiselle, with something very
like terror, leaned over the poor, forlorn body, powerless
to direct its own acts, to which the past returned
as a ghost returns to a deserted house. She listened
to the confessions that were all ready to rush forth
but were instinctively checked, to the unconscious
mind that spoke without restraint, to the voice that
did not hear itself. A sensation of horror came
over her: she felt as if she were beside a dead
body haunted by a dream.
After a pause of some duration, and
what seemed to be a sort of conflict between the things
that were present in her mind, Germinie apparently
turned her attention to the circumstances of her present
life. The words that escaped her, disjointed,
incoherent words, were, as far as mademoiselle could
understand them, addressed to some person by way of
reproach. And as she talked on, her language became
as unrecognizable as her voice, which had taken on
the tone and accent of the dreamer. It rose above
the woman, above her ordinary style, above her daily
expressions. It was the language of the people,
purified and transfigured by passion. Germinie
accentuated words according to their orthography;
she uttered them with all their eloquence. The
sentences came from her mouth with their proper rhythm,
their heart-rending pathos and their tears, as from
the mouth of an admirable actress. There were
bursts of tenderness, interlarded with shrieks; then
there were outbreaks of rebellion, fierce bursts of
passion, and the most extraordinary, biting, implacable
irony, always merging into a paroxysm of nervous laughter
that repeated the same result and prolonged it from
echo to echo. Mademoiselle was confounded, stupefied,
and listened as at the theatre. Never had she
heard disdain hurled down from so lofty a height,
contempt so tear itself to tatters and gush forth in
laughter, a woman’s words express such a fierce
thirst for vengeance against a man. She ransacked
her memory: such play of feature, such intonations,
such a dramatic and heart-rending voice as that voice
of a consumptive coughing away her life, she could
not remember since the days of Mademoiselle Rachel.
At last Germinie awoke abruptly, her
eyes filled with the tears of her dream, and jumped
down from the bed, seeing that her mistress had returned.
“Thanks,” said mademoiselle, “don’t
disturb yourself! Wallow about on my bed all
you please!”
“Oh! mademoiselle,” said
Germinie, “I wasn’t lying where you put
your head. I have made it nice and warm for your
feet.”
“Indeed! Suppose you tell
me what you’ve been dreaming? There was
a man in it you were having a dispute with
him
“Dream?” said Germinie, “I don’t
remember.”
She silently set about undressing
her mistress, trying to recall her dream. When
she had put her in bed, she said, drawing near to her:
“Ah! mademoiselle, won’t you give me a
fortnight, for once, to go home? I remember now.”