Called upon to describe Aunt Sophy
you would have to coin a term or fall back on the
dictionary definition of a spinster. “An
unmarried woman,” states that worthy work, baldly,
“especially when no longer young.”
That, to the world, was Sophy Decker. Unmarried,
certainly. And most certainly no longer young.
In figure she was, at fifty, what is known in the
corset ads as a “stylish stout.” Well
dressed in blue serge, with broad-toed health shoes
and a small, astute hat. The blue serge was practical
common sense. The health shoes were comfort.
The hat was strictly business. Sophy Decker made
and sold hats, both astute and ingenuous, to the female
population of Chippewa, Wisconsin. Chippewa’s
East-End set bought the knowing type of hat, and the
mill hands and hired girls bought the naïve ones.
But whether lumpy or possessed of that indefinable
thing known as line, Sophy Decker’s hats were
honest hats.
The world is full of Aunt Sophys,
unsung. Plump, ruddy, capable women of middle
age. Unwed, and rather looked down upon by a family
of married sisters and tolerant, good-humoured brothers-in-law,
and careless nieces and nephews.
“Poor Aunt Soph,” with
a significant half smile. “She’s such
a good old thing. And she’s had so little
in life, really.”
She was, undoubtedly, a good old thing Aunt
Soph. Forever sending a spray of sweeping black
paradise, like a jet of liquid velvet, to this pert
little niece in Seattle; or taking Adele, sister Flora’s
daughter, to Chicago or New York, as a treat, on one
of her buying trips. Burdening herself, on her
business visits to these cities, with a dozen foolish
shopping commissions for the idle women folk of her
family. Hearing without partisanship her sisters’
complaints about their husbands, and her sisters’
husbands’ complaints about their wives.
It was always the same.
“I’m telling you this,
Sophy. I wouldn’t breathe it to another
living soul. But I honestly think, sometimes,
that if it weren’t for the children ”
There is no knowing why they confided
these things to Sophy instead of to each other, these
wedded sisters of hers. Perhaps they held for
each other an unuttered distrust or jealousy.
Perhaps, in making a confidante of Sophy, there was
something of the satisfaction that comes of dropping
a surreptitious stone down a deep well and hearing
it plunk, safe in the knowledge that it has struck
no one and that it cannot rebound, lying there in
the soft darkness. Sometimes they would end by
saying, “But you don’t know what it is,
Sophy. You can’t. I’m sure I
don’t know why I’m telling you all this.”
But when Sophy answered, sagely, “I
know; I know” they paid little heed,
once having unburdened themselves. The curious
part of it is that she did know. She knew as
a woman of fifty must know who, all her life, has
given and given and in return has received nothing.
Sophy Decker had never used the word inhibition in
her life. I doubt if she knew what it meant.
When you are busy copying French models for the fall
trade you have little time or taste for Freud.
She only knew (without in the least knowing she knew)
that in giving of her goods, of her affections, of
her time, of her energy, she found a certain relief.
Her own people would have been shocked if you had
told them that there was about this old maid aunt
something rather splendidly Rabelaisian. Without
being at all what is known as a masculine woman she
had, somehow, acquired the man’s viewpoint,
his shrewd value sense. She ate a good deal, and
enjoyed her food. She did not care for those
queer little stories that married women sometimes
tell, with narrowed eyes, but she was strangely tolerant
of what is known as sin. So simple and direct
she was that you wondered how she prospered in a line
so subtle as the millinery business.
You might have got a fairly true characterization
of Sophy Decker from one of fifty people: from
a dapper salesman in a New York or Chicago wholesale
millinery house; from Otis Cowan, cashier of the First
National Bank of Chippewa; from Julia Gold, her head
milliner and trimmer; from almost any one, in fact,
except a member of her own family. They knew
her least of all, as is often true of one’s own
people. Her three married sisters Grace
in Seattle, Ella in Chicago, and Flora in Chippewa regarded
her with a rather affectionate disapproval from the
snug safety of their own conjugal ingle-nooks.
“I don’t know. There’s
something well common about Sophy,”
Flora confided to Ella. Flora, on shopping bent
and Sophy, seeking hats, had made the five-hour run
from Chippewa to Chicago together. “She
talks to everybody. You should have heard her
with the porter on our train. Chums! And
when the conductor took our tickets it was a social
occasion. You know how packed the seven fifty-two
is. Every seat in the parlour car taken.
And Sophy asking the coloured porter about how his
wife was getting along she called him William and
if they were going to send her west, and all about
her. I wish she wouldn’t.”
Aunt Sophy undeniably had a habit
of regarding people as human beings. You found
her talking to chambermaids and delivery boys, and
elevator starters, and gas collectors, and hotel clerks all
that aloof, unapproachable, superior crew. Under
her benign volubility they bloomed and spread and
took on colour as do those tight little Japanese paper
water-flowers when you cast them into a bowl.
It wasn’t idle curiosity in her. She was
interested. You found yourself confiding to her
your innermost longings, your secret tribulations,
under the encouragement of her sympathetic, “You
don’t say!” Perhaps it was as well that
sister Flora was in ignorance of the fact that the
men millinery salesmen at Danowitz & Danowitz, Importers,
always called Miss Decker Aunt Soph, as, with one
arm flung about her plump blue serge shoulder, they
revealed to her the picture of their girl in the back
flap of their bill-folder.
Flora, with a firm grip on Chippewa
society, as represented by the East-End set, did not
find her position enhanced by a sister in the millinery
business in Elm Street.
“Of course it’s wonderful
that she’s self-supporting and successful and
all,” she told her husband. “But it’s
not so pleasant for Adele, now that she’s growing
up, having all the girls she knows buying their hats
of her aunt. Not that I but you know
how it is.”
H. Charnsworth Baldwin said yes, he
knew. But perhaps you, until you are made more
intimately acquainted with Chippewa, Wisconsin; with
the Decker girls of twenty years ago; with Flora’s
husband, H. Charnsworth Baldwin; and with their children
Adele and Eugene, may feel a little natural bewilderment.
The Deckers had lived in a sagging
old frame house (from which the original paint had
long ago peeled in great scrofulous patches) on an
unimportant street in Chippewa. There was a worm-eaten
russet apple tree in the yard; an untidy tangle of
wild-cucumber vine over the front porch; and an uncut
brush of sunburnt grass and weeds all about. From
May until September you never passed the Decker place
without hearing the plunketty-plink of a mandolin
from somewhere behind the vines, accompanied by a
murmur of young voices, laughter, and the creak-creak
of the hard-worked and protesting hammock hooks.
Flora, Ella, and Grace Decker had more beaux and fewer
clothes than any other girls in Chippewa. In
a town full of pretty young things they were, undoubtedly,
the prettiest; and in a family of pretty sisters (Sophy
always excepted) Flora was the acknowledged beauty.
She was the kind of girl whose nose never turns red
on a frosty morning. A little, white, exquisite
nose, purest example of the degree of perfection which
may be attained by that vulgarest of features.
Under her great gray eyes were faint violet shadows
which gave her a look of almost poignant wistfulness.
If there is a less hackneyed way to describe her head
on its slender throat than to say it was like a lovely
flower on its stalk, you are free to use it.
Her slow, sweet smile gave the beholder an actual physical
pang. Only her family knew she was lazy as a
behemoth, untidy about her person, and as sentimental
as a hungry shark. The strange and cruel part
of it was that, in some grotesque, exaggerated way,
as a cartoon may be like a photograph, Sophy resembled
Flora. It was as though Nature, in prankish mood,
had given a cabbage the colour and texture of a rose,
with none of its fragile reticence and grace.
It was a manless household. Mrs.
Decker, vague, garrulous, and given to ice-wool shawls,
referred to her dead husband, in frequent reminiscence,
as poor Mr. Decker. Mrs. Decker dragged one leg
as she walked rheumatism, or a spinal affection.
Small wonder, then, that Sophy, the plain, with a
gift for hat-making, a knack at eggless cake-baking,
and a genius for turning a sleeve so that last year’s
style met this year’s without a struggle, contributed
nothing to the sag in the centre of the old twine
hammock on the front porch.
That the three girls should marry
well, and Sophy not at all, was as inevitable as the
sequence of the seasons. Ella and Grace did not
manage badly, considering that they had only their
girlish prettiness and the twine hammock to work with.
But Flora, with her beauty, captured H. Charnsworth
Baldwin. Chippewa gasped. H. Charnsworth
Baldwin drove a skittish mare to a high-wheeled yellow
runabout (this was twenty years ago); had his clothes
made at Proctor Brothers in Milwaukee, and talked
about a game called golf. It was he who advocated
laying out a section of land for what he called links,
and erecting a club house thereon.
“The section of the bluff overlooking
the river,” he explained, “is full of
natural hazards, besides having a really fine view.”
Chippewa or that comfortable,
middle-class section of it which got its exercise
walking home to dinner from the store at noon, and
cutting the grass evenings after supper laughed
as it read this interview in the Chippewa Eagle.
“A golf course,” they
repeated to one another, grinning. “Conklin’s
cow pasture, up the river. It’s full of
natural wait a minute what was? oh,
yeh, here it is hazards. Full of natural
hazards. Say, couldn’t you die!”
For H. Charnsworth Baldwin had been
little Henry Baldwin before he went East to college.
Ten years later H. Charnsworth, in knickerbockers and
gay-topped stockings, was winning the cup in the men’s
tournament played on the Chippewa golf-club course,
overlooking the river. And his name, in stout
gold letters, blinked at you from the plate-glass windows
of the office at the corner of Elm and Winnebago:
Northern Lumber
and land company.
H. Charnsworth Baldwin,
Près.
Two blocks farther down Elm Street
was another sign, not so glittering, which read:
Miss Sophy
Decker
Millinery
Sophy’s hat-making, in the beginning,
had been done at home. She had always made her
sisters’ hats, and her own, of course, and an
occasional hat for a girl friend. After her sisters
had married Sophy found herself in possession of a
rather bewildering amount of spare time. The hat
trade grew so that sometimes there were six rather
botchy little bonnets all done up in yellow paper
pyramids with a pin at the top, awaiting their future
wearers. After her mother’s death Sophy
still stayed on in the old house. She took a
course in millinery in Milwaukee, came home, stuck
up a home-made sign in the parlour window (the untidy
cucumber vines came down), and began her hat-making
in earnest. In five years she had opened a shop
on a side street near Elm; had painted the old house,
installed new plumbing, built a warty stucco porch,
and transformed the weedy, grass-tangled yard into
an orderly stretch of green lawn and bright flower-beds.
In ten years she was in Elm Street, and the Chippewa
Eagle ran a half column twice a year describing
her spring and fall openings. On these occasions
Aunt Sophy, in black satin, and marcel wave, and her
most relentless corsets was, in all the superficial
things, not a pleat, or fold, or line, or wave behind
her city colleagues. She had all the catch phrases:
“This is awfully good this year.”
“Here’s a sweet thing.
A Mornet model.... Well, but my dear, it’s
the style the line you’re
paying for, not the material.”
“I’ve got the very thing
for you. I had you in mind when I bought it.
Now don’t say you can’t wear henna.
Wait till you see it on.”
When she stood behind you as you sat,
uncrowned and expectant before the mirror, she would
poise the hat four inches above your head, holding
it in the tips of her fingers, a precious, fragile
thing. Your fascinated eyes were held by it,
and your breath as well. Then down it descended,
slowly, slowly. A quick pressure. Her fingers
firm against your temples. A little sigh of relieved
suspense.
“That’s wonderful on you!...
You don’t! Oh, my dear! But that’s
because you’re not used to it. You know
how you said, for years, you had to have a brim, and
couldn’t possibly wear a turban, with your nose,
until I proved to you that if the head-size was only
big ... Well, perhaps this needs just a lit-tle
lift here. Ju-u-ust a nip. There! That
does it.”
And that did it. Not that Sophy
Decker ever tried to sell you a hat against your judgment,
taste, or will. She was too wise a psychologist
and too shrewd a business woman for that. She
preferred that you go out of her shop hatless rather
than with an unbecoming hat. But whether you
bought or not you took with you out of Sophy Decker’s
shop something more precious than any hatbox ever
contained. Just to hear her admonishing a customer,
her good-natured face all aglow:
“My dear, always put on your
hat before you get into your dress. I do.
You can get your arms above your head, and set it right.
I put on my hat and veil as soon’s I get my
hair combed.”
In your mind’s eye you saw her,
a stout, well-stayed figure in tight brassiere and
scant petticoat, bare-armed and bare-bosomed, in smart
hat and veil, attired as though for the street from
the neck up and for the bedroom from the shoulders
down.
The East-End set bought Sophy Decker’s
hats because they were modish and expensive hats.
But she managed, miraculously, to gain a large and
lucrative following among the paper-mill girls and
factory hands as well. You would have thought
that any attempt to hold both these opposites would
cause her to lose one or the other. Aunt Sophy
said, frankly, that of the two, she would have preferred
to lose her smart trade.
“The mill girls come in with
their money in their hands, you might say. They
get good wages and they want to spend them. I
wouldn’t try to sell them one of those little
plain model hats. They wouldn’t understand
’em, or like them. And if I told them the
price they’d think I was trying to cheat them.
They want a velvet hat with something good and solid
on it. Their fathers wouldn’t prefer caviar
to pork roast, would they? It’s the same
idea.”
Her shop windows reflected her business
acumen. One was chastely, severely elegant, holding
a single hat poised on a slender stick. In the
other were a dozen honest arrangements of velvet and
satin and plumes.
At the spring opening she always displayed
one of those little toques completely covered
with violets. No one ever bought a hat like that.
No one ever will. That violet-covered toque is
a symbol.
“I don’t expect ’em
to buy it,” Sophy Decker explained. “But
everybody feels there should be a hat like that at
a spring opening. It’s like a fruit centre-piece
at a family dinner. Nobody ever eats it but it
has to be there.”
The two Baldwin children Adele
and Eugene found Aunt Sophy’s shop
a treasure trove. Adele, during her doll days,
possessed such boxes of satin and velvet scraps, and
bits of lace, and ribbon and jet as to make her the
envy of all her playmates. She used to crawl about
the floor of the shop workroom and under the table
and chairs like a little scavenger.
“What in the world do you do
with all that truck, child?” asked Aunt Sophy.
“You must have barrels of it.”
Adele stuffed another wisp of tulle
into the pocket of her pinafore. “I keep
it,” she said.
When she was ten Adele had said to
her mother, “Why do you always say ’Poor
Sophy’?”
“Because Aunt Sophy’s
had so little in life. She never has married,
and has always worked.”
Adele considered that. “If
you don’t get married do they say you’re
poor?”
“Well yes ”
“Then I’ll get married,”
announced Adele. A small, dark, eerie child,
skinny and rather foreign looking.
The boy, Eugene, had the beauty which
should have been the girl’s. Very tall,
very blond, with the straight nose and wistful eyes
of the Flora of twenty years ago. “If only
Adele could have had his looks,” his mother
used to say. “They’re wasted on a
man. He doesn’t need them but a girl does.
Adele will have to be well-dressed and interesting.
And that’s such hard work.”
Flora said she worshipped her children.
And she actually sometimes still coquetted heavily
with her husband. At twenty she had been addicted
to baby talk when endeavouring to coax something out
of someone. Her admirers had found it irresistible.
At forty it was awful. Her selfishness was colossal.
She affected a semi-invalidism and for fifteen years
had spent one day a week in bed. She took no exercise
and a great deal of baking soda and tried to fight
her fat with baths. Fifteen or twenty years had
worked a startling change in the two sisters, Flora
the beautiful, and Sophy the plain. It was more
than a mere physical change. It was a spiritual
thing, though neither knew nor marked it. Each
had taken on weight, the one, solidly, comfortably;
the other, flabbily, unhealthily. With the encroaching
fat Flora’s small, delicate features seemed,
somehow, to disappear in her face, so that you saw
it as a large white surface bearing indentations,
ridges, and hollows like one of those enlarged photographs
of the moon’s surface as seen through a telescope.
A self-centred face, and misleadingly placid.
Aunt Sophy’s large, plain features, plumply
padded now, impressed you as indicating strength,
courage, and a great human understanding.
From her husband and her children
Flora exacted service that would have chafed a galley-slave
into rebellion. She loved to lie in bed, in a
lavender bed-jacket with ribbons, and be read to by
Adele or Eugene, or her husband. They all hated
it.
“She just wants to be waited
on, and petted, and admired,” Adele had stormed
one day, in open rebellion, to her Aunt Sophy.
“She uses it as an excuse for everything and
has, ever since ’Gene and I were children.
She’s as strong as an ox.” Not a very
ladylike or daughterly speech, but shockingly true.
Years before a generous but misguided
woman friend, coming in to call, had been ushered
in to where Mrs. Baldwin lay propped up in a nest of
pillows.
“Well, I don’t blame you,”
the caller had gushed. “If I looked the
way you do in bed I’d stay there forever.
Don’t tell me you’re sick, with all that
lovely colour!”
Flora Baldwin had rolled her eyes
ceilingward. “Nobody ever gives me credit
for all my suffering and ill-health. And just
because all my blood is in my cheeks.”
Flora was ambitious, socially, but
too lazy to make the effort necessary for success
in that direction.
“I love my family,” she
would say. “They fill my life. After
all, that’s a profession in itself being
a wife and mother.”
She showed her devotion by taking
no interest whatever in her husband’s land schemes;
by forbidding Eugene to play football at school for
fear he might be injured; by impressing Adele with
the necessity for vivacity and modishness because
of what she called her unfortunate lack of beauty.
“I don’t understand it,”
she used to say in the child’s very presence.
“Her father’s handsome enough, goodness
knows; and I wasn’t such a fright when I was
a girl. And look at her! Little, dark, skinny
thing.”
The boy Eugene grew up a very silent,
handsome shy young fellow. The girl dark, voluble,
and rather interesting. The husband, more and
more immersed in his business, was absent from home
for long periods; irritable after some of these home-comings;
boisterously high-spirited following other trips.
Now growling about household expenses and unpaid bills;
now urging the purchase of some almost prohibitive
luxury. Any one but a nagging, self-absorbed,
and vain woman such as Flora would have marked these
unmistakable signs. But Flora was a taker, not
a giver. She thought herself affectionate because
she craved affection unduly. She thought herself
a fond mother because she insisted on having her children
with her, under her thumb, marking their devotion as
a prisoner marks time with his feet, stupidly, shufflingly,
advancing not a step.
Sometimes Sophy the clear-eyed and
level-headed, seeing this state of affairs, tried
to stop it.
“You expect too much of your
husband and children,” she said one day, bluntly,
to her sister.
“I!” Flora’s dimpled
hands had flown to her breast like a wounded thing.
“I! You’re crazy! There isn’t
a more devoted wife and mother in the world.
That’s the trouble. I love them too much.”
“Well, then,” grimly,
“stop it for a change. That’s half
Eugene’s nervousness your fussing
over him. He’s eighteen. Give him a
chance. You’re weakening him. And
stop dinning that society stuff into Adele’s
ears. She’s got brains, that child.
Why, just yesterday, in the workroom she got hold
of some satin and a shape and turned out a little turban
that Angie Hatton ”
“Do you mean to tell me that
Angie Hatton saw my Adele working in your shop!
Now, look here, Sophy. You’re earning your
living, and it’s to your credit. You’re
my sister. But I won’t have Adele associated
in the minds of my friends with your hat store, understand.
I won’t have it. That isn’t what
I sent her away to an expensive school for. To
have her come back and sit around a millinery workshop
with a lot of little, cheap, shoddy sewing girls!
Now understand, I won’t have it! You don’t
know what it is to be a mother. You don’t
know what it is to have suffered. If you had
brought two children into the world ”
So then, it had come about, during
the years between their childhood and their youth,
that Aunt Sophy received the burden of their confidences,
their griefs, their perplexities. She seemed,
somehow, to understand in some miraculous way, and
to make the burden a welcome one.
“Well, now, you tell Aunt Sophy
all about it. Stop crying, Della. How can
Aunt Sophy hear when you’re crying! That’s
my baby. Now, then.”
This when they were children.
But with the years the habit clung and became fixed.
There was something about Aunt Sophy’s house the
old frame house with the warty stucco porch.
For that matter, there was something about the very
shop downtown, with its workroom in the rear, that
had a cozy, homelike quality never possessed by the
big Baldwin house. H. Charnsworth Baldwin had
built a large brick mansion, in the Tudor style, on
a bluff overlooking the Fox River, in the best residential
section of Chippewa. It was expensively and correctly
furnished. The hall consol alone was enough to
strike a preliminary chill to your heart.
The millinery workroom, winter days,
was always bright and warm and snug. The air
was a little close, perhaps, and heavy, but with a
not unpleasant smell of dyes, and stuffs, and velvet,
and glue, and steam, and flatiron, and a certain heady
scent that Julia Gold, the head trimmer, always used.
There was a sociable cat, white with a dark gray patch
on his throat and a swipe of it across one flank that
spoiled him for style and beauty but made him a comfortable-looking
cat to have around. Sometimes, on very cold days,
or in the rush reason, the girls would not go home
to dinner or supper, but would bring their lunches
and cook coffee over a little gas heater in the corner.
Julia Gold, especially, drank quantities of coffee.
Aunt Sophy had hired her from Chicago. She had
been with her for five years. She said Julia was
the best trimmer she had ever had. Aunt Sophy
often took her to New York or Chicago on her buying
trips. Julia had not much genius for original
design, or she would never have been content to be
head milliner in a small-town shop. But she could
copy a fifty-dollar model from memory down to the
last detail of crown and brim. It was a gift that
made her invaluable.
The boy, Eugene, used to like to look
at Julia Gold. Her hair was very black and her
face was very white, and her eyebrows met in a thick,
dark line. Her face, as she bent over her work,
was sullen and brooding, but when she lifted her head
suddenly, in conversation, you were startled by a
vivid flash of teeth, and eyes, and smile. Her
voice was deep and low. She made you a little
uncomfortable. Her eyes seemed always to be asking
something. Around the work table, mornings she
used to relate the dream she had had the night before.
In these dreams she was always being pursued by a
lover. “And then I woke up, screaming.”
Neither she nor the sewing girls knew what she was
revealing in these confidences of hers. But Aunt
Sophy, the shrewd, somehow sensed it.
“You’re alone too much,
evenings. That’s what comes of living in
a boarding house. You come over to me for a week.
The change will do you good, and it’ll be nice
for me, too, having somebody to keep me company.”
Julia often came for a week or ten
days at a time. Julia, about the house after
supper, was given to those vivid splashy kimonos
with big flowers embroidered on them. They made
her hair look blacker and her skin whiter by contrast.
Sometimes Eugene or Adele or both would drop in and
the four would play bridge. Aunt Sophy played
a shrewd and canny game, Adele a rather brilliant
one, Julia a wild and disastrous hand, always, and
Eugene so badly that only Julia would take him on as
a partner. Mrs. Baldwin never knew about these
evenings.
It was on one of these occasions that
Aunt Sophy, coming unexpectedly into the living room
from the kitchen where she and Adele were foraging
for refreshments after the game, beheld Julia Gold
and Eugene, arms clasped about each other, cheek to
cheek. They started up as she came in and faced
her, the woman defiantly, the boy bravely. Julia
Gold was thirty (with reservations) at that time,
and the boy not quite twenty-one.
“How long?” said Aunt
Sophy, quietly. She had a mayonnaise spoon and
a leaf of lettuce in her hand at the time, and still
she did not look comic.
“I’m crazy about her,”
said Eugene. “We’re crazy about each
other. We’re going to be married.”
Aunt Sophy listened for the reassuring
sound of Adele’s spoons and plates in the kitchen.
She came forward. “Now, listen ”
she began.
“I love him,” said Julia
Gold, dramatically. “I love him!”
Except that it was very white and,
somehow, old looking, Aunt Sophy’s face was
as benign as always. “Now, look here, Julia,
my girl. That isn’t love and you know it.
I’m an old maid, but I know what love is when
I see it. I’m ashamed of you, Julia.
Sensible woman like you. Hugging and kissing
a boy like that, and old enough to be his mother,
pretty near.”
“Now, look here, Aunt Soph!
I’m fond of you but if you’re going to
talk that way Why, she’s wonderful.
She’s taught me what it means to really ”
“Oh, my land!” Aunt Sophy
sat down, looking, suddenly, very sick and old.
And then, from the kitchen, Adele’s
clear young voice: “Heh! What’s
the idea! I’m not going to do all the work.
Where’s everybody?”
Aunt Sophy started up again.
She came up to them and put a hand a capable,
firm, steadying hand on the arm of each. The woman
drew back but the boy did not.
“Will you promise me not to
do anything for a week? Just a week! Will
you promise me? Will you?”
“Are you going to tell Father?”
“Not for a week if you’ll
promise not to see each other in that week. No,
I don’t want to send you away, Julia, I don’t
want to You’re not a bad girl.
It’s just he’s never had at
home they never gave him a chance. Just a week,
Julia. Just a week, Eugene. We can talk things
over then.”
Adele’s footsteps coming from the kitchen.
“Quick!”
“I promise,” said Eugene. Julia said
nothing.
“Well, really,” said Adele,
from the doorway, “you’re a nervy lot,
sitting around while I slave in the kitchen. ’Gene,
see if you can open the olives with this fool can
opener. I tried.”
There is no knowing what she expected
to do in that week, Aunt Sophy; what miracle she meant
to perform. She had no plan in her mind.
Just hope. She looked strangely shrunken and
old, suddenly. But when, three days later, the
news came that America was to go into the war she knew
that her prayers were answered.
Flora was beside herself. “Eugene
won’t have to go. He isn’t quite
twenty-one, thank God! And by the time he is it
will be over. Surely.” She was almost
hysterical.
Eugene was in the room. Aunt
Sophy looked at him and he looked at Aunt Sophy.
In her eyes was a question. In his was the answer.
They said nothing. The next day Eugene enlisted.
In three days he was gone. Flora took to her
bed. Next day Adele, a faint, unwonted colour
marking her cheeks, walked into her mother’s
bedroom and stood at the side of the recumbent figure.
Her father, his hands clasped behind him, was pacing
up and down, now and then kicking a cushion that had
fallen to the floor. He was chewing a dead cigar,
one side of his face twisted curiously over the cylinder
in his mouth so that he had a sinister and crafty
look.
“Charnsworth, won’t you
please stop ramping up and down like that! My
nerves are killing me. I can’t help it if
the war has done something or other to your business.
I’m sure no wife could have been more economical
than I have. Nothing matters but Eugene, anyway.
How could he do such a thing! I’ve given
my whole life to my children ”
H. Charnsworth kicked the cushion
again so that it struck the wall at the opposite side
of the room. Flora drew her breath in between
her teeth as though a knife had entered her heart.
Adele still stood at the side of the
bed, looking at her mother. Her hands were clasped
behind her, too. In that moment, as she stood
there, she resembled her mother and her father so
startlingly and simultaneously that the two, had they
been less absorbed in their own affairs, must have
marked it.
The girl’s head came up, stiffly.
“Listen. I’m going to marry Daniel
Oakley.”
Daniel Oakley was fifty, and a friend
of her father’s. For years he had been
coming to the house and for years she had ridiculed
him. She and Eugene had called him Sturdy Oak
because he was always talking about his strength and
endurance, his walks, his golf, his rugged health;
pounding his chest meanwhile and planting his feet
far apart. He and Baldwin had had business relations
as well as friendly ones.
At this announcement Flora screamed
and sat up in bed. H. Charnsworth stopped short
in his pacing and regarded his daughter with a queer
look; a concentrated look, as though what she had said
had set in motion a whole maze of mental machinery
within his brain.
“When did he ask you?”
“He’s asked me a dozen
times. But it’s different now. All
the men will be going to war. There won’t
be any left. Look at England and France.
I’m not going to be left.” She turned
squarely toward her father, her young face set and
hard. “You know what I mean. You know
what I mean.”
Flora, sitting up in bed, was sobbing.
“I think you might have told your mother, Adele.
What are children coming to! You stand there and
say, ‘I’m going to marry Daniel Oakley.’
Oh, I am so faint ... all of a sudden ... get
the spirits of ammonia....”
Adele turned and walked out of the
room. She was married six weeks later. They
had a regular pre-war wedding veil, flowers,
dinner, and all. Aunt Sophy arranged the folds
of her gown and draped her veil. The girl stood
looking at herself in the mirror, a curious half-smile
twisting her lips. She seemed slighter and darker
than ever.
“In all this white, and my veil,
I look just like a fly in a quart of milk,”
she said, with a laugh. Then, suddenly, she turned
to her aunt who stood behind her and clung to her,
holding her tight, tight. “I can’t!”
she gasped. “I can’t! I can’t!”
Aunt Sophy held her off and looked
at her, her eyes searching the girl.
“What do you mean, Della?
Are you just nervous or do you mean you don’t
want to marry him? Do you mean that? Then
what are you marrying for? Tell me! Tell
your Aunt Sophy.”
But Adele was straightening herself
and pulling out the crushed folds of her veil.
“To pay the mortgage on the old homestead, of
course. Just like the girl in the play.”
She laughed a little. But Aunt Sophy did not
laugh.
“Now look here, Delia. If you’re ”
But there was a knock at the door.
Adele caught up her flowers. “It’s
all right,” she said.
Aunt Sophy stood with her back against
the door. “If it’s money,” she
said. “It is! It is, isn’t it!
Listen. I’ve got money saved. It was
for you children. I’ve always been afraid.
I knew he was sailing pretty close, with his speculations
and all, since the war. He can have it all.
It isn’t too late yet. Adele! Della,
my baby.”
“Don’t, Aunt Sophy.
It wouldn’t be enough, anyway. Daniel has
been wonderful, really. Don’t look like
that. I’d have hated being poor, anyway.
Never could have got used to it. It is ridiculous,
though, isn’t it? Like one of those melodramas,
or a cheap movie. I don’t mind. I’m
lucky, really, when you come to think of it. A
plain little black thing like me.”
“But your mother ”
“Mother doesn’t know a thing.”
Flora wept mistily all through the
ceremony but Adele was composed enough for two.
When, scarcely a month later, Baldwin
came to Sophy Decker, his face drawn and queer, Sophy
knew.
“How much?” she said.
“Thirty thousand will cover it. If you’ve
got more than that ”
“I thought Oakley Adele said ”
“He did, but he won’t
any more, and this thing’s got to be met.
It’s this damned war that’s done it.
I’d have been all right. People got scared.
They wanted their money. They wanted it in cash.”
“Speculating with it, were you?”
“Oh, well, a woman doesn’t understand
these business deals.”
“No, naturally,” said Aunt Sophy, “a
butterfly like me.”
“Sophy, for God’s sake
don’t joke now. I tell you this will cover
it, and everything will be all right. If I had
anybody else to go to for the money I wouldn’t
ask you. But you’ll get it back. You
know that.”
Aunt Sophy got up, heavily, and went
over to her desk. “It was for the children,
anyway. They won’t need it now.”
He looked up at that. Something
in her voice. “Who won’t? Why
won’t they?”
“I don’t know what made me say that.
I had a dream.”
“Eugene?”
“Yes.”
“Oh, well, we’re all nervous.
Flora has dreams every night and presentiments every
fifteen minutes. Now, look here, Sophy. About
this money. You’ll never know how grateful
I am. Flora doesn’t understand these things
but I can talk to you. It’s like this ”
“I might as well be honest about
it,” Sophy interrupted. “I’m
doing it, not for you, but for Flora, and Delia and
Eugene. Flora has lived such a sheltered life.
I sometimes wonder if she ever really knew any of you.
Her husband, or her children. I sometimes have
the feeling that Delia and Eugene are my children were
my children.”
When he came home that night Baldwin
told his wife that old Soph was getting queer.
“She talks about the children being hers,”
he said.
“Oh, well, she’s awfully
fond of them,” Flora explained. “And
she’s lived her little narrow life, with nothing
to bother her but her hats and her house. She
doesn’t know what it means to suffer as a mother
suffers poor Sophy.”
“Um,” Baldwin grunted.
When the official notification of
Eugene’s death came from the War Department
Aunt Sophy was so calm that it might have appeared
that Flora had been right. She took to her bed
now in earnest, did Flora, and they thought that her
grief would end in madness. Sophy neglected everything
to give comfort to the stricken two.
“How can you sit there like
that!” Flora would rail. “How can
you sit there like that! Even if you weren’t
his mother surely you must feel something.”
“It’s the way he died that comforts me,”
said Aunt Sophy.
“What difference does that make! What difference
does that make!”
This is the letter that made a difference
to Aunt Sophy. You will have to read it to understand,
though you are likely to skip letters on the printed
page. You must not skip this.
American red
cross
(Croix Rouge
Américaine)
My
dear Mrs.
Baldwin:
I am sure you must have been officially
notified, by now, by the U.S. War Dept.
of the death of your son Lieut. Eugene H. Baldwin.
But I want to write you what I can of his last hours.
I was with him much of that time as his nurse.
I’m sure it must mean much to a mother
to hear from a woman who was privileged to be
with her boy at the last.
Your son was brought to our hospital
one night badly gassed from the fighting in the
Argonne Forest. Ordinarily we do not receive
gassed patients, as they are sent to a special hospital
near here. But two nights before the Germans wrecked
this hospital, so many gassed patients have come
to us.
Your son was put in the officers’
ward where the doctors who examined him told
me there was absolutely no hope for him, as he
had inhaled the gas so much that it was only a matter
of a few hours. I could scarcely believe
that a man so big and strong as he was could
not pull through.
The first bad attack he had, losing
his breath and nearly choking, rather frightened
him, although the doctor and I were both with
him. He held my hand tightly in his, begging me
not to leave him, and repeating, over and over,
that it was good to have a woman near. He
was propped high in bed and put his head on my
shoulder while I fanned him until he breathed more
easily. I stayed with him all that night,
though I was not on duty. You see, his eyes
also were badly burned. But before he died
he was able to see very well. I stayed with him
every minute of that night and have never seen
a finer character than he showed during all that
dreadful fight for life. He had several
bad sinking attacks that night and came through each
one simply because of his great will power and
fighting spirit. After each attack he would
grip my hand and say, “Well, we made it
that time, didn’t we, nurse? And if you’ll
only stay with me we’ll win this fight.”
At intervals during the night I gave him sips
of black coffee which was all he could swallow.
Each time I gave it to him he would ask me if I had
had some. That was only one instance of his thoughtfulness
even in his suffering. Toward morning he
asked me if he was going to die. I could
not tell him the truth. He needed all his
strength. I told him he had one chance in a thousand.
He seemed to become very strong then, and sitting
bolt upright in bed and shaking his fist, he
said: “Then by the Lord I’ll fight
for it!” We kept him alive for three days, and
actually thought we had won when on the third
day....
But even in your sorrow
you must be very proud to have been
the mother of such a
son....
I am a Wisconsin girl Madison.
When this is over and I come
home will you let me
see you so that I may tell you more than
I can possibly write?
Marian
King.
It was in March, six months later,
that Marian King came. They had hoped for it,
but never expected it. And she came. Four
people were waiting in the living room of the big
Baldwin house overlooking the river. Flora and
her husband, Adele and Aunt Sophy. They sat, waiting.
Now and then Adele would rise, nervously, and go to
the window that faced the street. Flora was weeping
with audible sniffs. Baldwin sat in his chair
frowning a little, a dead cigar in one corner of his
mouth. Only Aunt Sophy sat quietly, waiting.
There was little conversation.
None in the last five minutes. Flora broke the
silence, dabbing at her face with her handkerchief
as she spoke.
“Sophy, how can you sit there
like that? Not that I don’t envy you.
I do. I remember I used to feel sorry for you.
I used to say, ’Poor Sophy.’ But
you unmarried ones are the happiest, after all.
It’s the married woman who drinks the cup to
the last bitter drop. There you sit, Sophy, fifty
years old, and life hasn’t even touched you.
You don’t know how cruel life is.”
Suddenly, “There!” said
Adele. The other three in the room stood up and
faced the door. The sound of a motor stopping
outside. Daniel Oakley’s hearty voice:
“Well, it only took us five minutes from the
station. Pretty good.”
Footsteps down the hall. Marian
King stood in the doorway. They faced her, the
four Baldwin and Adele and Flora and Sophy.
Marian King stood a moment, uncertainly, her eyes
upon them. She looked at the two older women
with swift, appraising glance. Then she came into
the room, quickly, and put her two hands on Aunt Sophy’s
shoulders and looked into her eyes straight and sure.
“You must be a very proud woman,”
she said. “You ought to be a very proud
woman.”