A few days after Stella had returned
home from her visit to her aunt in Roseland, she and
her mother went to call on Penloe; for Mrs. Wheelwright
was as anxious to see such an original man, as Stella
was to set her eyes on a face that had such a beautiful
expression.
As we have said, Penloe was living
all alone, his mother’s work being for the present
in Chicago.
When Penloe came to the door he received
Stella in such an agreeable way as to make her feel
perfectly at ease.
Taking his hand, she said: “Penloe,
this is my mother, Mrs. Wheelwright; my name is Stella.”
With the same grace and ease did he
welcome Mrs. Wheelwright, and the two ladies had not
sat in his library more than five minutes before they
felt as if they had known Penloe all their lives, and
they seemed to have a consciousness as if Penloe had
known them always. And as wave after wave of
thought came to their minds, Penloe met it and gave
them just what information and truth each one needed
in chaste and polished language; and yet there was
no effort at studied phrases on his part, for it was
his natural mode of expression. When talking on
certain subjects and to an interested listener, his
discourse seemed like a string of sapphires, diamonds,
pearls, and rubies.
Stella and her mother had sat there
looking into those deep, luminous, spiritual orbs,
while the conversationalist was interesting them, so
that two hours had flown before they thought an hour
had passed.
As they were about to leave Penloe
saw Stella’s longing, wistful eyes glancing
over the rows of books. He anticipated the wish
by saying: “Stella, any book or books you
see here you are at liberty to take home.”
If Penloe had made her a present of
a thousand dollars in actual gold coin, she could
not have felt as grateful as she did when he gave her
the use of his whole library. It was like pouring
water on thirsty land. Stella was thirsting for
information on so many subjects, and now her wish
was gratified. She had the opportunity of getting
the reading matter she longed for so much, but did
not have the means to purchase. And, above all,
when Penloe told her he would be pleased to help her
in any line of thought she might wish to investigate,
it seemed to her as if her happiness was complete.
Her eyes and her hand expressed it all on taking leave
of Penloe.
The ladies said little in going home.
It seemed mutually understood that they would not
give expression to their thoughts till they were home
and sitting together in the evening.
When Stella entered the house she
had in her possession three of Penloe’s books.
One was “Macomber’s Oriental Customs,”
another “Woman’s Freedom in Tiestan”
by Burnette, and the third was “Woman’s
Bondages” by Stuart.
After supper was over and the dishes
washed and put away, Stella and her mother sat down
and Stella said somewhat abruptly: “Mother,
sometimes I wish I had never seen Penloe.”
Her mother was not very much surprised to hear her
express herself in that way, for she had observed that
Stella’s mind was somewhat agitated.
Her mother said: “Why, dear, what do you
mean?”
Stella said: “Mother, I
mean this: that I can never be contented and
happy in the society of any young man other than Penloe.
How can I?”
It was a very hard question for her
mother to answer, who knew full well that Penloe had
unintentionally made an impression on her daughter’s
heart that time could never efface, and she had refrained
from saying much in praise of Penloe, for she knew
that it would only be adding fuel to a very great
flame, which it would be impossible for Stella to
quench. She knew that Stella had seen in Penloe
a young man greatly beyond her expectations; even
beyond her ideal. Penloe lived in a world that
Stella had only just a faint conception of. It
was his intellect, his exceptionally fine personality,
manifested in such a fine, manly form she admired.
But, above all, Stella could see that he had emptied
himself of all save love. And that was so broad,
so deep, so far reaching, so universal in its sympathies,
that it stirred her whole nature.
Mrs. Wheelwright said: “I
think my daughter has lost something.”
“Yes,” said Stella, “I
lost it when Penloe delivered his sermon on that Sunday
at church, for I saw in him more than I ever dreamed
of seeing in any man, and when I went up and thanked
him for his address, and those discerning spiritual
eyes of his looked so deeply and searchingly into
mine, that he read my secret.”
Mrs. Wheelwright went to Stella and
pressed her to herself, and kissed her many times.
After awhile Stella said:
“Mother, what I want to find
in a man is true companionship. Now, look at
the young men in Orangeville. There are a very
few that are kind, steady young men, but then not
one of them would be any companion to me. I don’t
want to listen to horse talk, or cattle talk, or hog
talk, or some old back East yarns all the time.
They all live in the social and domestic world; there
is nothing intellectual about them; they are not moved
by any broad, grand, sweeping, noble impulses.
Their ranch, their home, and the excitement of their
barterings and dickerings, and the doings of a few
of their neighbors constitute the world they live in.
And most of them think all that a woman is good for,
is to cook, wash, and raise babies. And mother,
I told you what kind of young men I met in Roseland;
now, they are a sample of the top notch of society.
All that many of them want is just the use of a young
lady as a toy. And when they use up the flower,
like the bee, they go to another. As for real
manly worth, interesting, intelligent companionship,
it is badly wanting in many of them. Some very
few are much better than the rest.
“You know, dear mother, it is
not that I want to know a man as a man, but it is
natural that I should want and love an interesting
male companion. When I think what Penloe is,
and then think how little and insignificant I am,
a mere child beside him, and only about four years
difference in our ages, it makes me feel discouraged.”
“Penloe’s talk this afternoon,”
said her mother, “shows that he does not look
at it in that way. Don’t you remember his
saying, ’I have traveled much, been among people
of royalty, title and nobility, have lived among the
rich, and great society leaders, also among great politicians,
learned men, spiritual giants, business people, also
among the poor, also the illiterate, the abandoned,
the offscouring, and the outcasts of society; and
I have yet to see the person that is not as good as
I.’ So you see he thinks that you are just
as good as he. Now, dear, don’t be discouraged
in the least. I know just how my daughter feels;
she wants Penloe as her life companion and wishes
she could be to Penloe what he is to her. Stella,
dear, calm your mind and remember that if Penloe is
for you, you need not have the least anxiety about
the matter; for there is no power in the universe
that can hinder your being made one. But if he
is not for you, then it does not matter how good or
great, how grand or noble he may be, how intellectually
brilliant he may shine, he should be the last man
in the world you should think of as a life companion.
For if there is anything that is true it is those lines
of Emerson:
“’Whate’er in Nature
is thine own,
Floating in air or pent in
stone,
Will rive the hills and swim
the sea,
And like thy shadow follow
thee.’
“Also remember the saying, ‘My own will
come to me.’”
Nothing more was said. Stella
commenced reading “Woman’s Freedom in
Tiestan,” by Burnette. It occupied most
of her spare time the next day, and she finished it
before supper, so that evening after supper Stella
said: “O, mother, I have finished reading
‘Woman’s Freedom in Tiestan.’
It is most interesting. Tiestan is a place little
known to the Western world, very few travelers having
ever visited the country. I want to read a little
of it to you.”
Her mother replied: “I
shall be delighted to have you,” for she always
interested herself in anything her daughter was pleased
with, so that she might be her companion and confidant
when needed.
Stella opened at page 79, and read, as follows:
“When the traveler arrives in
the city of Semhee, which is the most important in
the country of Tiestan, his guide asks him whether
he would like to go to the Menegam, which means Foreigners’
Home, or to the Eshandam, which means Natives’
Home. I told my guide I would go to the Menegam,
which would be conducted after the manners and customs
of the other parts of the Orient, which I had visited.
Then, when I had become accustomed to the ways and
manners of the people of Tiestan, I would go to the
Eshandam. Now, while it is very true that very
few travelers from the Western world have ever visited
Tiestan, yet the travel from the other parts of the
Orient is great and the people of Tiestan are familiar
with the ideas of the Western world, through the Oriental
travelers. They also have many of the modern improvements
from thence, which they have purchased from Bombay
and Calcutta. After making the necessary arrangements
for a week’s stay at the Menegam, I took a walk
through some of the most important streets of the city
of Semhee. The first impression which a traveler
received in making a tour through the city is from
the fine physique of the girls and women. One
is struck with their independence, graceful carriage,
and, as they only wear two or three garments, it is
self evident that they are not dependent on corsets
or waist stiffening for their erect bearing. I
noticed there were very few doctors, and what few
there were of the medical profession were equally
divided between the sexes, there being three women
and three men doctors. The city educates them
and pays them to keep the people well. More than
two-thirds of the people they heal without medicine.
The profession of dentistry is represented by four
women and four men. They receive their education
at the public expense, and their business is to keep
the teeth of the people sound, and put in new ones
where required. Even the judges, lawyers, and
city officials are equally divided between the sexes.
I noticed the same rule prevailed in merchandise,
hairdressing, and all kinds of business. There
was not a single employment that was distinctively
male or female, for no distinction was made between
them. The same custom prevailed in all kinds
of ball games and sports.
“Another impression one quickly
notices is that the extremes of riches and poverty
are not seen among the people, for there are no very
rich or very poor; everyone having all the necessary
comforts of life and many of its luxuries.
“After staying a week at the
Menegam, I felt I was prepared to adopt the customs
of the people of Tiestan; so I engaged a room and board
at the Eshandam, or Natives’ Home. Most
of those who stop at the Eshandam are natives who
live in the province of Tiestan, they having come to
Semhee either on business or pleasure. Only two
meals a day are served: Breakfast from 7.30 to
9 a.m., and dinner from the hours of 1 to 3 p.m.
“I arrived in time for dinner.
Persons staying at the Eshandam are all looked upon
while there as members of one family, and it becomes
the duty of the manager to see that all persons sitting
at the same table have been introduced. It would
be considered a breach of etiquette to eat the meal
quickly and in silence. I never was in a hotel
dining room where there seemed to be so much freedom
and enjoyment among the guests while taking their
meals. Everyone has plenty of time to eat his
meal leisurely. Most of the guests coming from
the different parts of the province of Tiestan, and
being well informed, and all able to converse in two
languages, and all having their minds free from uncertain
business enterprises, made their conversation very
interesting and elevating, and their company a pleasure
to enjoy. Meat is never seen on the table.
They would feel indignant and be as much disgusted
if meat were set before them, as we would be to have
a cooked baby brought to the table. Eggs are
used in some of their cooking; they are also served
in various ways. Their bread and pastry cannot
be excelled anywhere. The dessert consists of
a large variety of nuts, confectionery, and fruits.
From two to five o’clock guests are entertained
with music in the beautiful hotel gardens, where fountains
are playing, sending water out in the form of leaves,
umbrellas, hats, rings, and other interesting forms.
After the music is over some indulge in games, others
read or write, others chat. In the evening for
those who wish to attend are classes for literature,
science, and spiritual philosophy. It is the
business of the hotel to supply all the wants of its
patrons; to see that the intellectual and spiritual
natures are fed as well as to see to the wants of
the body. The reason that the people in the city
of Semhee have so much time, is that all labor and
business is performed in six hours. Six hours
make a day’s work. No one is idle, every
well person is busy at some productive employment.
At the hotel they have no such room as ‘Ladies’
Parlor,’ the parlor being equally for the use
of both sexes, for the ladies are willing that the
men hear any subject they are talking to each other
about. No one smokes in that country. The
bedrooms have two doors. One door leads from
the hallway into the bedroom, the other leads from
the bedroom into the bath department, which was twelve
feet wide and was as long as the row of bedrooms.
Opposite each room was a bath-tub and a large movable
basin, so that a guest could take a sponge bath or
immerse himself.
“The first thing every well
person does on rising in the morning is to go into
the bath department and take a cold bath. On my
right was a newly married couple whom I had the pleasure
of conversing with at the dinner yesterday, and on
my left was a young lady and her mother with whom
I had the pleasure of enjoying a conversation in the
hotel gardens the day before. I exchanged greetings
with all of them in the bath department, and the feeling
was exactly the same as if we all had been dressed
and met at the breakfast. As my room was about
the center of the row I could look each way, and perhaps
there were over twenty persons of both sexes and all
ages taking their bath. On the door leading from
the bedroom to the bath department was a writing in
hieroglyphics illuminated and framed, which when deciphered
read: ’Sex is an illusion, illusion is
a bondage, break the bondage and be free. The
truth shall make you free.’
“After we had taken our baths
those who wished were shown into the room for devotion.
When I had entered the room and had sat for a few minutes
I began to realize what a sacred, peaceful influence
was in the place. It seemed to come up from the
floor, down from the ceiling, and out from the walls,
and from everything in the room. No talking is
allowed in the room. It is used only for devotion.
I performed my devotions and gave the room my hearty
benedictions. I noticed that the forms of devotion
were not all the same, some using one kind of form
and some another, but they all led to the same goal.
The devotions were all carried on in silence.
They consisted first of all of breathing exercises;
then bringing the mind to a state of calmness, by
repeating mentally, looking to the East, ’May
all beings be happy. May all beings be peaceful.
May all beings be blissful.’ Then looking
to the South, repeat the same; then looking to the
West, repeat the same, and looking to the North, repeat
the same. After which some of them say mentally:
’Help me to meditate upon the glory of Him who
projected this universe. May He enlighten my
mind.’ Then they pray in silence for light
and knowledge; also they repeat in silence: ’May
I this day live without discontent, without self-seeking,
and without anxiety.’ Then follow concentration
and meditation.
“After the devotional exercises
we had breakfast. I cannot help remarking that
the mind is in a better condition spiritually for
performing and enjoying sacred devotions before breakfast
than it is after it. To have family prayers after
breakfast, as many do in the Western world, hinders
the freedom and adaptation that the Orientals
have in their devotion. In the Western world many
are present out of respect or rule, having no sympathy
with the devotions, sending out antagonistic aura
which neutralizes the effect of worship, and makes
it cold, formal, flat, dead, and dull, for there is
not the right concentrated spiritual thought in the
room, which is very essential for profitable spiritual
exercises.
“On leaving the devotional room
for breakfast, I could not help thinking what a fine
preparation for the day! With such a commencement
as that, no wonder the day’s work is done well,
without friction and in perfect harmony.
“The people in Semhee being
of a social nature and free from all conventionalities
of modern society, it was not long before I made the
acquaintance of many very interesting families.
“I received an invitation to
make my home with one of them during my stay in the
city of Semhee, which I was glad to accept. I
found the life in the home to be very much like that
in the hotel, so far as bathing, devotions, and meals
were concerned. One evening a young lady called
at the house to see a young man who is a son of my
host. The young lady stayed about two hours,
making herself very agreeable to the young man, and
upon taking her leave she invited him to accompany
her the next evening to a concert. He accepted.
The next evening she came and called for him, took
him to the concert and saw him home. It seemed
she had been very friendly with him for about two
months. The following Sunday afternoon the young
lady called for the young man and took him to the
park, and as I was informed afterwards when the two
were in a very secluded place, surrounded by shrubbery,
she, in a very pretty way, told him that the more
she was with him and the more she saw of him, the more
she felt impressed that she loved him, and had found
in him a true companion, and wished to know how he
felt towards her. As he was in exactly the same
state of mind towards her as she was towards him, they
were engaged to be married. I became interested
in this couple, and observed that sometimes the young
lady would call and see him and take him out, and
sometimes the young man would call and see the young
lady and take her out. I do not wish to give
the reader the impression that the young ladies of
Tiestan always commence the courtship, for it is as
customary for a young man to commence a courtship as
for a young lady. The privilege and pleasure
of commencing a courtship belongs as much to one sex
as the other.
“One afternoon I was walking
along the banks of the beautiful river which flows
through the suburbs of the city of Semhee, and saw
a number of boys and girls, also men and women, all
enjoying themselves swimming. They would swim
awhile and then come out, stand or sit on the bank
of the river for another while. Sometimes there
would be seen several hundred persons of all ages
on the banks of the river. They no more thought
about their respective natures than they did about
the number of hairs on their head. Among those
I saw on the banks of the river was this very young
man and young lady who were engaged to be married.
They were standing up side by side ready to take a
plunge in the river, and in they went and swam about
very gracefully. While they were in the water
they both saw me standing on the bank opposite to where
they had stood on the other. They swam to where
I was, and came out of the water to me, and we had
a little chat.
“If the young lady was invited
to stay over night at the young man’s house,
she would take her bath with the other members of the
family in the morning, and if the young man received
an invitation to stay all night at the home of the
young lady, he, in the morning, would take his bath
with the members of her family.
“About a month after the engagement
the two were married. The city Semhee employs
four persons who can perform the marriage ceremony,
two men and two women. They were married at the
home of the young man. A lady came to perform
the ceremony. She told the couple to stand up
and take hands, and then she asked the young man calling
him by name if he would have this woman calling
her by name to be his wife, and he answered,
‘Yes.’ Then she asked the young lady calling
her by her name would she have this man calling
him by his name as her husband, and she
answered, ‘Yes.’ Then she said:
’In the presence of these witnesses I declare
you to be man and wife.’ The two then signed
a document stating they were man and wife, which was
put on record, and that ended the ceremony. They
were very happy, for each one found in the other a
true, loving companion, and they were one intellectually
and spiritually.
“As women are engaged in the
professions, in business, and perform all kinds of
service as men do, receiving the same compensation,
they are just as financially independent as men are,
and, therefore, have no other motive for marrying
than that of true, pure love, finding in each other
a true intellectual and spiritual companion. Of
children they have few, for they believe in quality,
and not quantity.
“The intellectual and spiritual
life predominates over the animal in all its inhabitants.
Do not think from what I have written about the ladies
of Tiestan that they are masculine women. Far
from it. They are just as sweet, pretty, entertaining,
attractive, and graceful as any women to be found
in the world. Yes, far more so, for their hours
of duty are short. They have no care, anxiety
or sickness to speak of, and their environments are
such as to bring to the surface all that is pure, good,
noble, and sweet; and, above all, the traveler finds
the ladies of Semhee to be real, genuine, and
sincere in character.”
When Stella had finished reading her
selection from Burnette’s book, her mother had
a big laugh, and asked her if she wanted to go to Semhee.
“No, mother, it is not Semhee
I wish to visit just now, though some day I certainly
would like to see the city of Semhee and meet the
accomplished, enlightened, and free women of Tiestan.
What I do want to see is the women of this country,
where there is so much boast of liberty and freedom,
free themselves from the awful bondage of sex superstition,
and all other bondages that have been heaped upon them
by people of the Dark Ages because they are women.
Even those who talk so much about woman’s rights,
are in bondage up to their necks. Look at Laura
Stevenson in Orangeville; a fine bright young girl,
who makes a hobby of woman’s rights, and yet
see the bondage she is in. A fine young man whom
she was supposed to respect very much, lay sick in
his cabin all alone, and with all her talk about her
independence and freedom, she never went to see him
because he was alone and there was no woman there.
She being a young woman, thought it would not be proper
for her to do it. Laura Stevenson’s independence
and liberty consist in having her own way in a few
things. She does not know what freedom is.
Her freedom is all sham, and with no reality in it.
Then there is Nora Parks, who is supposed to be advanced,
and talks much on woman’s freedom; but watch
her how very particular she is in her conduct with
young men who are good, lest she should excite the
jealousy of her husband. Therefore, she is not
free, but in bondage to his foolish, uncalled for jealous
feelings. Talk about women being free, they don’t
know anything about freedom, for they are all in bondage
of some kind or other.”
Mrs. Wheelwright said: “Stella,
among the many fine thoughts which Burnette brings
out in the description of the women of Semhee, that
is a great one which shows woman to be financially
independent of man, previous to marriage and after
marriage, too. Therefore, she can have no
other motive for marrying a man than that of mating
herself to a true companion. When that is done
the two act as one light, whose rays reach out and
shine on all around them. Blessed is such a life.”
“Mother,” said Stella,
“I do not fully understand the meaning of the
writing on the bedroom door, which Burnette describes.
You remember that part which reads: ‘Sex
is an illusion.’ I understand too well the
meaning of being in bondage to sex, but that sex is
an illusion I do not see the meaning of, because we
know that sex is real and has its use and purpose.”
“I cannot enlighten you, my
dear,” said her mother. “You will
have to ask Penloe when you return the books.”
“Well, mother,” said Stella,
“I am going to put some of my theories into
practice. I say my theories, but I do not exactly
mean that; but I am going to put some advanced ideas
into practice in regard to woman’s freedom.
I will now tell you one of them, and another later
on.
“Mother,” continued Stella,
“when a man lives alone and a woman wishes to
go to his house to see him, she has to take another
woman with her because it is not thought proper for
a woman to be seen going alone calling at a house,
particularly where a young man lives by himself.
But if a woman lives alone and a man wants to see
her he does not get some other man to go with him.
No, he goes alone, and it is thought all right.
Now, mother, I will be free, and, therefore, when I
return the books to Penloe I will go alone.”
“All right, my dear,”
said her mother. “I am glad, Stella, you
have the courage to practise your convictions.
This talk of woman’s rights and freedom we hear
so much about and woman’s liberty that we read
of in the newspapers, is just so much evasion.
A woman who may have known a good man for several
years dare not call on him if he lives alone.
One ounce of practice, Stella, is worth a thousand
tons of big talk. Go ahead, my daughter, I am
proud of you,” said Mrs. Wheelwright.
The week after Stella went to the
house of Penloe to return the books. Penloe was
in his library writing. When he heard a knock
he arose and went to the door in a mechanical kind
of way, his mind being more on the subject of his
writing than upon who might be at the door. When
he opened the door Stella said:
“Good morning, Penloe; I have come to return
your books.”
Stella’s voice seemed to recall
Penloe to where he was, and to notice who had come
to see him.
In a soft, musical voice, he said:
“Glad to see you, Stella; walk in,” giving
her his hand, and Stella was shown in to the library.
When she was seated Penloe said:
“Excuse me for a minute or two,” and Stella
was pleased to do so, for she wanted to be in the room
alone and take notes. But no sooner had Penloe
left the room when a different state of mind came
over her, and she did not feel like giving her attention
to anything in the room. For such a wave of peace
came over her mind as she had never experienced before,
so that the room seemed to be full of peace.
It was not a dead, sleepy peace, nor a dreamy peace,
but a peace that was refreshing, strengthening, and
was exactly what her mind needed. She sat in
perfect bliss drinking in all she could, when Penloe
came into the room. He seemed to her to be all
peace. This delightful condition put her mind
in a state of equipoise, such as she had never felt
before; for it was a peace that was tinged with a Divine
quality; and it was about to awaken her more than ever
to the possibilities of the real world, the Divine
world, the spiritual world, the world whose realization
so far she had not a knowledge of. For her supreme
life was in her intellectual tastes and in her deep,
loving, true nature, which loved to see what was fitting,
right, and just, actually lived; possessing at the
same time the boldness and courage to be a pioneer
of advanced thought, and, above all, she loved to live
her ideas.
On returning to the room Penloe opened
the conversation by saying: “Well, Stella,
could you find anything interesting in the books?”
“Interesting, Penloe,”
said Stella. “Why, I have had a very rich
treat in the perusal of them. I felt as if I
could not put them down till I had finished them,
for they contain just the light I have been seeking,
and now they have become a part of my own mentality.
But I wish you would explain the meaning of the expression,
‘Sex is an illusion.’”
“Why, certainly, Stella, I will
be glad to do so, for if there is anything that appears
real it is what is known as sex, the qualities of
male and female, we see in all nature. It is said
to exist in some precious stones, and we know it exists
in the vegetable world, and in all animal life.
And if there is anything that is real to a boy or girl,
it is that he or she is a boy or girl, and if there
is anything that is real to a man or a woman, it is
that he or she is a man or woman. So strongly
has this thought become the life thought of the human
race, that the members of each sex look upon themselves
as being just what their material forms stand for.
That is, a woman believes that she will be a purified
woman through all eternity, that the woman is permanent,
real, immortal, and that she will continue on, as a
woman, with her womanly traits of character greatly
expanded. While man thinks that as a man he is
real, permanent, and immortal; that he will continue
his existence as a man through all eternity, and that
he will always be known as a man, and always look
upon woman as woman. Any thought contrary to
the reality of sex, the masses in the Western world
will not accept, for they live in a sex world, and
at present do not wish to rise above it, for they
are in bondage to the reality of sex. In the
prehistoric period of humanity there lived a race of
gods, that is, a race whose members were intellectual
and spiritual giants, many of them spending their
whole life in thought, living on a very meagre diet,
needing very little in the way of clothing and shelter,
having no material desires or ambitions to gratify.
They, therefore, had an abundance of time for searching
for and investigating spiritual truths. They
were fitted by nature and by their environments for
that life, and they were gifted with revelations of
the unseen.
“They were called seers or sages,
because they could see spiritual truths which others
could not, and it was at this period and through one
of these seers that a voice spoke, ’That which
exists is one, men call it by various names.’
That was the conclusion that many other eminent seers
and sages had come to. For they saw that there
was one great Infinite Life Force manifesting itself
in all and through all. That there is a correlation
of spiritual forces, and that all the various phenomena
are the one manifestation of this Infinite Life, which
is called by some God, by others Lord, by others Brahma,
by others Jéhovah, by others Allah, the meaning of
them all being exactly the same as that expressed
in the Bible by the name of God, in whom we live, move,
and breathe and have our being; that we are the manifestation
of Him. In short, our real entity, our real life,
our real self (the Atman), our soul (the Purusa) is
Spirit eternal and immortal. Now the life of the
Spirit has no sex in it, but the spirit manifests itself
in these various forms of male and female. The
sexual form is only the instrument, not the Being.
For the Being is not sex, and, therefore, there is
nothing connected with sex, that is spiritual and eternal.
It belongs to the external world and the material
plane, and is, therefore, a temporary manifestation
suitable to the earth plane. It becomes necessary,
in order to get a true conception of what we really
are (that we are spiritual beings, being neither male
nor female) that we get away from the illusion of
sex, and not be in bondage to it. But the man
must look upon the woman as a spiritual being and
not think of her only for what her material form stands
for. If he does he is under an illusion, being
in bondage to her body, which becomes a barrier to
realizing the Divine within, and if the woman looks
upon the material form of the man as being the man
and that for which he stands, then she is under an
illusion and is in bondage to his material form, looking
upon his male body as the all of man. And such
a thought becomes a hindrance to her realizing her
Divine nature.
“Remember, Stella, that sex
is only apparent, not real. It belongs to the
phenomenal world.”
Stella said: “To accept
the idea you have just advanced I shall have to begin
and lay a new foundation to build upon, for you have
swept away many things I considered truths.”
Penloe said: “Stella, you
are merely casting off old garments that you have
outgrown, and you are now ready for a new robe that
fits you. But remember never to quarrel with
the old clothes you once wore. They have served
their purpose and should always be respected.”
Stella said: “Penloe, the
truth you have advanced regarding sex will take me
some time to fully digest.”
“Certainly,” said Penloe,
“but it will not be long before you will comprehend
it fully in all its relativity and make it a part of
your own mentality.”
Stella said: “Have you
any reading matter to lend me which touches on this
subject, Penloe?”
“Yes,” said Penloe, “here
are some lectures by the Swami Vivekanada; one is
‘The Real and the Apparent Man,’ another
is ‘Reincarnation,’ and two lectures on
the ‘Cosmos.’ And here are also two
books for you to read.”
Stella was delighted to receive the
lectures and books. After thanking Penloe she
gave him her hand, and said: “I must go,
now.”
Penloe held her hand, and said:
“Stella, I see you are very fond of books, and
they are a very great help, and I prize my library
very, very much; but remember, Stella, the whole library
of the universe is within you. Stella, accept
a suggestion from one who is your true friend.
Be much in prayer; let your prayer be for light and
knowledge; meditate much on Divine things; and you
will be surprised how a flood of light will sweep
over you at times. Pray that the Divine, which
was manifested in such a degree in Jesus, may be manifested
in you.” Pressing her hand, he said:
“God bless you, Stella, and may you ever feel
the presence of your own Divine nature.”
Stella will never forget that warm
hand grasp and those spiritual words. For it
seemed to her at that very moment that that spiritual
fire, which was always burning with such a glow in
Penloe and shining so brightly through his angelic
face, had caused the spark which had been growing
brighter and stronger within her, to burst into a flame,
and what sweet season of soul experience did she realize
on her way home.
Stella had much to think about that
evening. She said little to her parents; her
mind was so pre-occupied she could not give attention
to much else. She realized she must make the
matter thoroughly clear to herself so as to have all
her thoughts and ideas harmonize, before communicating
them even to her parents. She did not even look
into the literature which Penloe had lent her that
evening. She felt like retiring and thinking.
When she laid her head on the pillow that night it
seemed as if it was not to sleep; it was to think.
The leaven was working in Stella’s mind.
The truths which she had just received were powerful;
it seemed as if she could not get away from them, even
if she wished, for truths possess us, we do not possess
them. Nothing in the universe is more powerful
than truth.
After the first wave of the novelty,
the beauty, the grandeur and the thrilling depth of
the truth had subsided only temporarily (to be superseded
by a far more powerful wave of the same character),
there came over Stella’s mind during this lull,
a strong feeling of attachment to some of the old
ideas she had held. It was very easy for her to
let some of her garments drop from her mental form,
and be clothed with new ones, but there were some
that seemed rather hard to loosen; and which were
they? One was this: While it cannot be said
that Stella was vain or self-conceited, there was
that strong attachment to the personal I, which is
generally seen in positive dominant characters in the
Western world. And as a woman she had everything
to make her feel proud of her form and beauty, with
a graceful carriage, combined with a bright mind and
noble purpose. She had realized her power over
the opposite sex. Her dominant thought had been,
that as a woman she was going to lead her sisters
out of bondage; that because she was a woman she had
a right to vote; because she was a woman she should
not be in bondage to forms, ceremonies, and customs;
because she was a woman she should not be a slave
to sex superstition. But now all this had been
swept away, and it was hard for her to let go all
the grand thoughts she had entertained about woman
as woman. But, blessed, noble, courageous girl,
she said: “I will follow truth whithersoever
it may lead,” and she inscribed truth on her
banner, saying, “That will I follow.”
So she let the last of her old garments
drop from her, saying: “I will clothe myself
with the garment of truth.” The battle had
now been fought and the victory won; and now a wave
came sweeping over her mind, more powerful, with more
beauty, with greater grandeur, penetrating far deeper,
stirring the very depths of her nature, and she felt
such freedom as she had never realized in her life
before. With this rock, the corner-stone of truth,
she commenced to lay a foundation which is eternal
and immortal.