“When he was here
alive, Eileen,
There was a word you
might have said;
So never mind what I
have been,
Or anything, for
you are dead.
“And after this
when I am there
Where he is, you’ll
be dying still.
Your eyes are dead, and your black hair,
The rest of you be what
it will.
“’Twas all
to save him? Never mind,
Eileen. You saved
him. You are strong.
I’d hardly wonder
if your kind
Paid everything, for
you live long.
“You last, I mean.
That’s what I mean.
I mean you last as long
as lies.
You might have said that word, Eileen,
And you might have your
hair and eyes.
“And what you
see might be Lisette,
Instead of this that
has no name.
Your silence I
can feel it yet,
Alive and in me, like
a flame.
“Where might I
be with him to-day,
Could he have known
before he heard?
But no your
silence had its way,
Without a weapon or
a word.
“Because a word
was never told,
I’m going as a
worn toy goes.
And you are dead; and
you’ll be old;
And I forgive you, I
suppose.
“I’ll soon
be changing as all do,
To something we have
always been;
And you’ll be
old... He liked you, too.
I might have killed
you then, Eileen.
“I think he liked
as much of you
As had a reason to be seen,
As much as God made
black and blue.
He liked your hair and
eyes, Eileen.”