Silently we made our way toward the
edge of the thicket where it faced upon the open valley.
All about me I could hear the tinkling and crashing
of fairy crystal walls, the ruins of that vision house
I had builded in my soul. At the edge of the
thicket we crouched low, waiting and looking out over
the valley, two savages, laired, suspicious.
Almost as we paused I saw coming forward
the stooping figure of an Indian trailer, half naked,
beleggined, moccasined, following our fresh tracks
at a trot. I covered him with the little silver
bead, minded to end his quest. But before I could
estimate his errand, or prepare to receive him, closely
in case he proved an enemy, I saw approaching around
a little point of timber other men, white men, a half
dozen of them, one a tall man in dusty garments, with
boots, and hat, and gloves.
And then I saw her, my promised wife,
leave my side, and limp and stagger forward, her arms
outstretched. I saw the yoke of submission, the
covenant of society, once more accepted.
“Father!” she cried.
They gathered about us. I saw
him look down at her with half horror on his face.
Then I noticed that she was, clad in fringed skins,
that her head covering was a bit of hide, that her
hair was burned yellow at the ends, that her foot
coverings were uncouth, that her hands and arms were
brown, where not stained red by the blood in which
they had dabbled. I looked down also at myself,
and saw then that I was tall, brown, gaunt, bearded,
ragged, my clothing of wool well-nigh gone, my limbs
wound in puttee bands of hide, my hands large, horny,
blackened, rough. I reeked with grime. I
was a savage new drawn from my cave. I dragged
behind me the great grizzled hide of the dead bear,
clutched in one hairy hand. And somber and sullen
as any savage, brutal and silent in resentment at
being disturbed, I stared at them.
“Who are you?” demanded
the tall man of me sternly; but still I did not answer.
The girl’s hands tugged at his shoulders.
“It is my friend,” she said. “He
saved me. It is Mr. John Cowles, father, of the
Virginia Cowles family. He has come to see you ”
But he did not hear her, or show that he heard.
His arm about her, supporting her as she limped, he
turned back down the valley, and we others followed
slowly.
Presently he came to the rude shelter
which had been our home. Without speaking he
walked about the camp, pushed open the door of the
little ragged tepee and looked within. The floor
was very narrow. There was one meager bed of
hides. There was one fire.
“Come with me,” he said
at length to me. And so I followed him apart,
where a little thicket gave us more privacy.
His was a strong face, keen under
heavy gray brows, with hair that rose stiff and gray
over a high forehead, so that he seemed like some Osage
chief, taller by a third than most men, and naturally
a commander among others.
“You are John Cowles, sir, then?”
he said to me at length, quietly. “Lieutenant
Belknap told me something of this when he came in with
his men from the East.” I nodded and waited.
“Are you aware, sir, of the
seriousness of what you have done?” he broke
out. “Why did you not come on to the settlements?
What reason was there for you not coming back at once
to the valley of the Platte here you are,
a hundred miles out of your way, where a man of any
intelligence, it seems to me, would naturally have
turned back to the great trail. Hundreds of wagons
pass there every day. There is a stage line with
daily coaches, stations, houses. A telegraph line
runs from one end of the valley to the other.
You could not have missed all this had you struck
south. A fool would have known that. But
you took my girl ” he choked up,
and pointed to me, ragged and uncouth.
“Good God! Colonel Meriwether,”
I cried out at length, “you are not regretting
that I brought her through?”
“Almost, sir,” he said,
setting his lips together. “Almost!”
“Do you regret then that she
brought me through that I owe my life to
her?”
“Almost, sir,” he repeated. “I
almost regret it.”
“Then go back leave
us report us dead!” I broke out, savagely.
It was moments before I could accept this old life
again offered me.
“She is a splendid girl, a noble
being,” I said to him, slowly, at last.
“She saved me when I was sick and unable to travel.
There is nothing I could do that would pay the debt
I owe to her. She is a noble woman, a princess
among women, body and soul.”
“She is like her mother,”
said he, quietly. “She was too good for
this. Sir, you have done my family a grievous
wrong. You have ruined my daughter’s life.”
Now at last I could talk. I struck
my hand hard on his shoulder and looked him full in
the eye. “Colonel Meriwether,” I said
to him, “I am ashamed of you.”
“What do you mean?” He
frowned sternly and shook off my hand.
“I brought her through,”
I said, “and if it would do any good, I would
lie down here and die for her. If what I say is
not true, draw up your men for a firing squad and
let us end it. I don’t care to go back to
Laramie.”
“What good would that do?”
said he. “It’s the girl’s name
that’s compromised, man! Why, the news
of this is all over the country the wires
have carried it both sides of the mountains; the papers
are full of it in the East. You have been gone
nearly three months together, and all the world knows
it. Don’t you suppose all the world will
talk? Did I not see ”
he motioned his hand toward our encampment.
He babbled of such things, small,
unimportant, to me, late from large things in life.
I interrupted long enough to tell him briefly of our
journey, of our hardships, of what we had gone through,
of how my sickness had rendered it impossible for
us to return at once, of how we had wandered, with
what little judgment remained to us, how we had lived
in the meantime.
He shook his head. “I know men,”
said he.
“Yes,” said I, “I
would have been no man worth the name had I not loved
your daughter. And I admit to you that I shall
never love another woman, not in all my life.”
In answer he flung down on the ground
in front of me something that he carried the
scroll of our covenant, signed by my name and in part
by hers.
“What does this mean?” he asked.
“It means,” said I, “what
it says; that here or anywhere, in sickness or in
health, in adversity or prosperity, until I lie down
to die and she beside me in her time, we two are in
the eye of God married; and in the eye of man would
have been, here or wherever else we might be.”
I saw his face pale; but a somber
flame came into his eyes. “And you say
this you, after all I know regarding
you!”
Again I felt that old chill of terror
and self-reproach strike to my heart. I saw my
guilt once more, horrible as though an actual presence.
I remembered what Ellen Meriwether had said to me regarding
any other or earlier covenant. I recalled my
troth, plighted earlier, before I had ever seen her, my
faith, pledged in another world. So, seeing myself
utterly ruined in my own sight and his and hers, I
turned to him at length, with no pride in my bearing.
“So I presume Gordon Orme has
told you,” I said to him. “You know
of Grace Sheraton, back there?”
His lips but closed the tighter.
“Have you told her have you told this
to my girl?” he asked, finally.
“Draw up your file!” I
cried, springing to my feet. “Execute me!
I deserve it. No, I have not told her. I
planned to do so I should never have allowed
her to sign her name there before I had told her everything been
fair to her as I could. But her accident left
her weak I could not tell her a
thousand things delayed it. Yes, it was my fault.”
He looked me over with contempt.
“You are not fit to touch the shoe on my girl’s
foot,” he said slowly. “But now, since
this thing has begun, since you have thus involved
her and compromised her, and as I imagine in some
foul way have engaged her affections now,
I say, it must go on. When we get to Laramie,
by God! sir, you shall marry that girl. And then
out you go, and never see her face again. She
is too good for you, but where you can be of use to
her, for this reason, you shall be used.”
I seated myself, my head in my hands,
and pondered. He was commanding me to do that
which was my dearest wish in life. But he was
commanding me to complete my own folly. “Colonel
Meriwether,” said I to him, finally, “if
it would do her any good I would give up my life for
her. But her father can neither tell me how nor
when my marriage ceremony runs; nor can he tell me
when to leave the side of the woman who is my wife.
I am subject to the orders of no man in the world.”
“You refuse to do what you have
planned to do? Sir, that shows you as you are.
You proposed to to live with her here, but
not be bound to her elsewhere!”
“It is not true!” I said
to him in somber anger. “I proposed to put
before her the fact of my own weakness, of my own self-deception,
which also was deception of her. I propose to
do that now.”
“If you did, she would refuse to look at you
again.”
“I know it, but it must be done. I must
take my chances.”
“And your chances mean this
alternative either that my girl’s
reputation shall be ruined all over the country all
through the Army, where she is known and loved or
else that her heart must be broken. This is what
it means, Mr. Cowles. This is what you have brought
to my family.”
“Yes,” I said to him, slowly, “this
is what I have brought.”
“Then which do you choose, sir?” he demanded
of me.
“I choose to break her heart!”
I answered. “Because that is the truth,
and that is right. I only know one way to ride,
and that is straight.”
He smiled at me coldly in his frosty
beard. “That sounds well from you!”
he said bitterly. “Ellen!” he raised
his voice. “Ellen, I say, come here at
once!”
It was my ear which first heard the
rustling of her footsteps at the edge of the thicket
as she approached. She came before us slowly,
halting, leaning on her crutch. A soft flush shone
through the brown upon her cheeks.
I shall not forget in all my life
the picture of her as she stood. Neither shall
I forget the change which came across her face as she
saw us sitting there silent, cold, staring at her.
Then, lovable in her rags, beautiful in her savagery,
the gentleness of generations of culture in all her
mien in spite of her rude surroundings, she stepped
up and laid her hand upon her father’s shoulder,
one finger half pointing at the ragged scroll of hide
which lay upon the ground before us. I loved
her ah, how I loved her then!
“I signed that, father,”
she said gently. “I was going to sign it,
little by little, a letter each week. We were
engaged nothing more. But here or
anywhere, some time, I intend to marry Mr. Cowles.
This I have promised of my own free will. He
has been both man and gentleman, father. I love
him.”
I heard the groan which came from
his throat. She sprang back. “What
is it?” she said. The old fire of her disposition
again broke out.
“What!” she cried.
“You object? Listen, I will sign my name
now I will finish it give me give
me ” She sought about on the ground
for something which would leave a mark. “I
say I have not been his, but will be, father as
I like, when I like now, this very night
if I choose forever! He has done everything
for me I trust him I know he
is a man of honor, that he ” Her voice
broke as she looked at my face.
“But what what is
it?” she demanded, brokenly, in her own eyes
something of the horror which sat in mine. I say
I see her picture now, tall, straight, sweet, her
hands on her lifting bosom, eagerness and anxiety
fighting on her face.
“Ellen, child, Mr. Cowles has something to tell
you.”
Then some one, in a voice which sounded
like mine, but was not mine, told her told
her the truth, which sounded so like a lie. Some
one, myself, yet not myself, went on, cruelly, blackening
all the sweet blue sky for her. Some one I
suppose it was myself, late free felt the
damp of an iron yoke upon his neck.
I saw her knees sink beneath her,
but she shrank back when I would have reached out
an arm as of old.
“I hate that woman!” she
blazed. “Suppose she does love you do
I not love you more? Let her lose some
one must lose!” But at the next moment her anger
had changed to doubt, to horror. I saw her face
change, saw her hand drop to her side.
“It is not that you loved another
girl,” she whispered, “but that you have
deceived me here, when I was in your
power. Oh, it was not right! How could you!
Oh, how could you!”
Then once more she changed. The
flame of her thoroughbred soul came back to her.
Her courage saved her from shame. Her face flushed,
she stood straight. “I hate you!”
she cried to me. “Go! I will never
see you any more.”
Still the bright sun shone on.
A little bird trilled in the thicket near.