The following nights proved still
more cruel. The murderers had wished to pass
this part of the twenty-four hours together, so as
to be able to defend themselves against the drowned
man, and by a strange effect, since they had been
doing so, they shuddered the more. They were
exasperated, and their nerves so irritated, that they
underwent atrocious attacks of suffering and terror,
at the exchange of a simple word or look. At
the slightest conversation between them, at the least
talk, they had alone, they began raving, and were ready
to draw blood.
The sort of remorse Laurent experienced
was purely physical. His body, his irritated
nerves and trembling frame alone were afraid of the
drowned man. His conscience was for nothing in
his terror. He did not feel the least regret
at having killed Camille. When he was calm, when
the spectre did not happen to be there, he would have
committed the murder over again, had he thought his
interests absolutely required it.
During the daytime he laughed at himself
for his fright, making up his mind to be stronger,
and he harshly rebuked Therese, whom he accused of
troubling him. According to what he said, it was
Therese who shuddered, it was Therese alone who brought
on the frightful scenes, at night, in the bedroom.
And, as soon as night came, as soon as he found himself
shut in with his wife, icy perspiration pearled on
his skin, and his frame shook with childish terror.
He thus underwent intermittent nervous
attacks that returned nightly, and threw his senses
into confusion while showing him the hideous green
face of his victim. These attacks resembled the
accesses of some frightful illness, a sort of hysteria
of murder. The name of illness, of nervous affection,
was really the only one to give to the terror that
Laurent experienced. His face became convulsed,
his limbs rigid, his nerves could be seen knotting
beneath his skin. The body suffered horribly,
while the spirit remained absent. The wretch felt
no repentance. His passion for Therese had conveyed
a frightful evil to him, and that was all.
Therese also found herself a prey
to these heavy shocks. But, in her terror, she
showed herself a woman: she felt vague remorse,
unavowed regret. She, at times, had an inclination
to cast herself on her knees and beseech the spectre
of Camille to pardon her, while swearing to appease
it by repentance. Maybe Laurent perceived these
acts of cowardice on the part of Therese, for when
they were agitated by the common terror, he laid the
blame on her, and treated her with brutality.
On the first nights, they were unable
to go to bed. They waited for daylight, seated
before the fire, or pacing to and fro as on the evening
of the wedding-day. The thought of lying down,
side by side, on the bed, caused them a sort of terrifying
repugnance. By tacit consent, they avoided kissing
one another, and they did not even look at their couch,
which Therese tumbled about in the morning.
When overcome with fatigue, they slept
for an hour or two in the armchairs, to awaken with
a start, under the influence of the sinister denouement
of some nightmare. On awakening, with limbs stiff
and tired, shivering all over with discomfort and
cold, their faces marbled with livid blotches, they
contemplated one another in bewilderment astonished
to see themselves there. And they displayed strange
bashfulness towards each other, ashamed at showing
their disgust and terror.
But they struggled against sleep as
much as they could. They seated themselves, one
on each side of the chimney, and talked of a thousand
trifles, being very careful not to let the conversation
drop. There was a broad space between them in
front of the fire. When they turned their heads,
they imagined that Camille had drawn a chair there,
and occupied this space, warming his feet in a lugubrious,
bantering fashion. This vision, which they had
seen on the evening of the wedding-day, returned each
night.
And this corpse taking a mute, but
jeering part, in their interviews, this horribly disfigured
body ever remaining there, overwhelmed them with continued
anxiety. Not daring to move, they half blinded
themselves staring at the scorching flames, and, when
unable to resist any longer, they cast a timid glance
aside, their eyes irritated by the glowing coal, created
the vision, and conveyed to it a reddish glow.
Laurent, in the end, refused to remain
seated any longer, without avowing the cause of this
whim to Therese. The latter understood that he
must see Camille as she saw him; and, in her turn,
she declared that the heat made her feel ill, and
that she would be more comfortable a few steps away
from the chimney. Pushing back her armchair to
the foot of the bed, she remained there overcome,
while her husband resumed his walk in the room.
From time to time, he opened the window, allowing the
icy air of the cold January night to fill the apartment,
and this calmed his fever.
For a week, the newly-married couple
passed the nights in this fashion, dozing and getting
a little rest in the daytime, Therese behind the counter
in the shop, Laurent in his office. At night they
belonged to pain and fear. And the strangest
part of the whole business was the attitude they maintained
towards each other. They did not utter one word
of love, but feigned to have forgotten the past; and
seemed to accept, to tolerate one another like sick
people, feeling secret pity for their mutual sufferings.
Both hoped to conceal their disgust
and fear, and neither seemed to think of the peculiar
nights they passed, which should have enlightened
them as to the real state of their beings. When
they sat up until morning, barely exchanging a word,
turning pale at the least sound, they looked as if
they thought all newly-married folk conducted themselves
in the same way, during the first days of their marriage.
This was the clumsy hypocrisy of two fools.
They were soon so overcome by weariness
that they one night decided to lie on the bed.
They did not undress, but threw themselves, as they
were, on the quilt, fearing lest their bare skins should
touch, for they fancied they would receive a painful
shock at the least contact. Then, when they had
slept thus, in an anxious sleep, for two nights, they
risked removing their clothes, and slipping between
the sheets. But they remained apart, and took
all sorts of precautions so as not to come together.
Therese got into bed first, and lay
down close to the wall. Laurent waited until
she had made herself quite comfortable, and then ventured
to stretch himself out at the opposite edge of the
mattress, so that there was a broad space between
them. It was there that the corpse of Camille
lay.
When the two murderers were extended
under the same sheet, and had closed their eyes, they
fancied they felt the damp corpse of their victim,
lying in the middle of the bed, and turning their flesh
icy cold. It was like a vile obstacle separating
them. They were seized with fever and delirium,
and this obstacle, in their minds, became material.
They touched the corpse, they saw it spread out, like
a greenish and dissolved shred of something, and they
inhaled the infectious odour of this lump of human
putrefaction. All their senses were in a state
of hallucination, conveying intolerable acuteness
to their sensations.
The presence of this filthy bedfellow
kept them motionless, silent, abstracted with anguish.
Laurent, at times, thought of taking Therese violently
in his arms; but he dared not move. He said to
himself that he could not extend his hand, without
getting it full of the soft flesh of Camille.
Next he fancied that the drowned man came to sleep
between them so as to prevent them clasping one another,
and he ended by understanding that Camille was jealous.
Nevertheless, ever and anon, they
sought to exchange a timid kiss, to see what would
happen. The young man jeered at his wife, and
ordered her to embrace him. But their lips were
so cold that it seemed as if the dead man had got
between their mouths. Both felt disgusted.
Therese shuddered with horror, and Laurent who heard
her teeth chattering, railed at her:
“Why are you trembling?”
he exclaimed. “Are you afraid of Camille?
Ah! the poor man is as dead as a doornail at this
moment.”
Both avoided saying what made them
shudder. When an hallucination brought the countenance
of the drowned man before Therese, she closed her
eyes, keeping her terror to herself, not daring to
speak to her husband of her vision, lest she should
bring on a still more terrible crisis. And it
was just the same with Laurent. When driven to
extremities, he, in a fit of despair, accused Therese
of being afraid of Camille. The name, uttered
aloud, occasioned additional anguish. The murderer
raved.
“Yes, yes,” he stammered,
addressing the young woman, “you are afraid of
Camille. I can see that plain enough! You
are a silly thing, you have no pluck at all.
Look here! just go to sleep quietly. Do you think
your husband will come and pull you out of bed by
the heels, because I happen to be sleeping with you?”
This idea that the drowned man might
come and pull them out of bed by the heels, made the
hair of Laurent stand on end, and he continued with
greater violence, while still in the utmost terror
himself.
“I shall have to take you some
night to the cemetery. We will open the coffin
Camille is in, and you will see what he looks like!
Then you will perhaps cease being afraid. Go
on, he doesn’t know we threw him in the water.”
Therese with her head under the bedclothes,
was uttering smothered groans.
“We threw him into the water,
because he was in our way,” resumed her husband.
“And we’ll throw him in again, will we
not? Don’t act like a child. Show
a little strength. It’s silly to trouble
our happiness. You see, my dear, when we are
dead and underground, we shall be neither less nor
more happy, because we cast an idiot in the Seine,
and we shall have freely enjoyed our love which will
have been an advantage. Come, give me a kiss.”
The young woman kissed him, but she
was icy cold, and half crazy, while he shuddered as
much as she did.
For a fortnight Laurent was asking
himself how he could kill Camille again. He had
flung him in the water; and yet he was not dead enough,
because he came every night to sleep in the bed of
Therese. While the murderers thought that having
committed the crime, they could love one another in
peace, their resuscitated victim arrived to make their
touch like ice. Therese was not a widow.
Laurent found that he was mated to a woman who already
had a drowned man for husband.