Summer drew to an end, and early autumn:
it was past Michaelmas, but the harvest was late that
year, and a few of our fields were still uncleared.
Mr. Linton and his daughter would frequently walk out
among the reapers; at the carrying of the last sheaves
they stayed till dusk, and the evening happening to
be chill and damp, my master caught a bad cold, that
settled obstinately on his lungs, and confined him
indoors throughout the whole of the winter, nearly
without intermission.
Poor Cathy, frightened from her little
romance, had been considerably sadder and duller since
its abandonment; and her father insisted on her reading
less, and taking more exercise. She had his companionship
no longer; I esteemed it a duty to supply its lack,
as much as possible, with mine: an inefficient
substitute; for I could only spare two or three hours,
from my numerous diurnal occupations, to follow her
footsteps, and then my society was obviously less
desirable than his.
On an afternoon in October, or the
beginning of November a fresh watery afternoon,
when the turf and paths were rustling with moist, withered
leaves, and the cold blue sky was half hidden by clouds dark
grey streamers, rapidly mounting from the west, and
boding abundant rain I requested my young
lady to forego her ramble, because I was certain of
showers. She refused; and I unwillingly donned
a cloak, and took my umbrella to accompany her on
a stroll to the bottom of the park: a formal
walk which she generally affected if low-spirited and
that she invariably was when Mr. Edgar had been worse
than ordinary, a thing never known from his confession,
but guessed both by her and me from his increased
silence and the melancholy of his countenance.
She went sadly on: there was no running or bounding
now, though the chill wind might well have tempted
her to race. And often, from the side of my eye,
I could detect her raising a hand, and brushing something
off her cheek. I gazed round for a means of
diverting her thoughts. On one side of the road
rose a high, rough bank, where hazels and stunted oaks,
with their roots half exposed, held uncertain tenure:
the soil was too loose for the latter; and strong
winds had blown some nearly horizontal. In summer
Miss Catherine delighted to climb along these trunks,
and sit in the branches, swinging twenty feet above
the ground; and I, pleased with her agility and her
light, childish heart, still considered it proper to
scold every time I caught her at such an elevation,
but so that she knew there was no necessity for descending.
From dinner to tea she would lie in her breeze-rocked
cradle, doing nothing except singing old songs my
nursery lore to herself, or watching the
birds, joint tenants, feed and entice their young
ones to fly: or nestling with closed lids, half
thinking, half dreaming, happier than words can express.
‘Look, Miss!’ I exclaimed,
pointing to a nook under the roots of one twisted
tree. ’Winter is not here yet. There’s
a little flower up yonder, the last bud from the multitude
of bluebells that clouded those turf steps in July
with a lilac mist. Will you clamber up, and pluck
it to show to papa?’ Cathy stared a long time
at the lonely blossom trembling in its earthy shelter,
and replied, at length ’No, I’ll
not touch it: but it looks melancholy, does it
not, Ellen?’
‘Yes,’ I observed, ’about
as starved and suckless as you: your cheeks are
bloodless; let us take hold of hands and run.
You’re so low, I daresay I shall keep up with
you.’
‘No,’ she repeated, and
continued sauntering on, pausing at intervals to muse
over a bit of moss, or a tuft of blanched grass, or
a fungus spreading its bright orange among the heaps
of brown foliage; and, ever and anon, her hand was
lifted to her averted face.
‘Catherine, why are you crying,
love?’ I asked, approaching and putting my arm
over her shoulder. ’You mustn’t cry
because papa has a cold; be thankful it is nothing
worse.’
She now put no further restraint on
her tears; her breath was stifled by sobs.
‘Oh, it will be something worse,’
she said. ’And what shall I do when papa
and you leave me, and I am by myself? I can’t
forget your words, Ellen; they are always in my ear.
How life will be changed, how dreary the world will
be, when papa and you are dead.’
‘None can tell whether you won’t
die before us,’ I replied. ’It’s
wrong to anticipate evil. We’ll hope there
are years and years to come before any of us go:
master is young, and I am strong, and hardly forty-five.
My mother lived till eighty, a canty dame to the
last. And suppose Mr. Linton were spared till
he saw sixty, that would be more years than you have
counted, Miss. And would it not be foolish to
mourn a calamity above twenty years beforehand?’
‘But Aunt Isabella was younger
than papa,’ she remarked, gazing up with timid
hope to seek further consolation.
‘Aunt Isabella had not you and
me to nurse her,’ I replied. ’She
wasn’t as happy as Master: she hadn’t
as much to live for. All you need do, is to
wait well on your father, and cheer him by letting
him see you cheerful; and avoid giving him anxiety
on any subject: mind that, Cathy! I’ll
not disguise but you might kill him if you were wild
and reckless, and cherished a foolish, fanciful affection
for the son of a person who would be glad to have
him in his grave; and allowed him to discover that
you fretted over the separation he has judged it expedient
to make.’
‘I fret about nothing on earth
except papa’s illness,’ answered my companion.
’I care for nothing in comparison with papa.
And I’ll never never oh,
never, while I have my senses, do an act or say a word
to vex him. I love him better than myself, Ellen;
and I know it by this: I pray every night that
I may live after him; because I would rather be miserable
than that he should be: that proves I love him
better than myself.’
‘Good words,’ I replied.
’But deeds must prove it also; and after he
is well, remember you don’t forget resolutions
formed in the hour of fear.’
As we talked, we neared a door that
opened on the road; and my young lady, lightening
into sunshine again, climbed up and seated herself
on the top of the wall, reaching over to gather some
hips that bloomed scarlet on the summit branches of
the wild-rose trees shadowing the highway side:
the lower fruit had disappeared, but only birds could
touch the upper, except from Cathy’s present
station. In stretching to pull them, her hat
fell off; and as the door was locked, she proposed
scrambling down to recover it. I bid her be cautious
lest she got a fall, and she nimbly disappeared.
But the return was no such easy matter: the
stones were smooth and neatly cemented, and the rose-bushes
and black-berry stragglers could yield no assistance
in re-ascending. I, like a fool, didn’t
recollect that, till I heard her laughing and exclaiming ’Ellen!
you’ll have to fetch the key, or else I must
run round to the porter’s lodge. I can’t
scale the ramparts on this side!’
‘Stay where you are,’
I answered; ’I have my bundle of keys in my pocket:
perhaps I may manage to open it; if not, I’ll
go.’
Catherine amused herself with dancing
to and fro before the door, while I tried all the
large keys in succession. I had applied the last,
and found that none would do; so, repeating my desire
that she would remain there, I was about to hurry
home as fast as I could, when an approaching sound
arrested me. It was the trot of a horse; Cathy’s
dance stopped also.
‘Who is that?’ I whispered.
‘Ellen, I wish you could open
the door,’ whispered back my companion, anxiously.
‘Ho, Miss Linton!’ cried
a deep voice (the rider’s), ’I’m
glad to meet you. Don’t be in haste to
enter, for I have an explanation to ask and obtain.’
‘I sha’n’t speak
to you, Mr. Heathcliff,’ answered Catherine.
’Papa says you are a wicked man, and you hate
both him and me; and Ellen says the same.’
‘That is nothing to the purpose,’
said Heathcliff. (He it was.) ’I don’t
hate my son, I suppose; and it is concerning him that
I demand your attention. Yes; you have cause
to blush. Two or three months since, were you
not in the habit of writing to Linton? making love
in play, eh? You deserved, both of you, flogging
for that! You especially, the elder; and less
sensitive, as it turns out. I’ve got your
letters, and if you give me any pertness I’ll
send them to your father. I presume you grew
weary of the amusement and dropped it, didn’t
you? Well, you dropped Linton with it into a
Slough of Despond. He was in earnest: in
love, really. As true as I live, he’s
dying for you; breaking his heart at your fickleness:
not figuratively, but actually. Though Hareton
has made him a standing jest for six weeks, and I
have used more serious measures, and attempted to
frighten him out of his idiotcy, he gets worse daily;
and he’ll be under the sod before summer, unless
you restore him!’
‘How can you lie so glaringly
to the poor child?’ I called from the inside.
’Pray ride on! How can you deliberately
get up such paltry falsehoods? Miss Cathy, I’ll
knock the lock off with a stone: you won’t
believe that vile nonsense. You can feel in yourself
it is impossible that a person should die for love
of a stranger.’
‘I was not aware there were
eavesdroppers,’ muttered the detected villain.
’Worthy Mrs. Dean, I like you, but I don’t
like your double-dealing,’ he added aloud.
’How could you lie so glaringly as to
affirm I hated the “poor child”? and invent
bugbear stories to terrify her from my door-stones?
Catherine Linton (the very name warms me), my bonny
lass, I shall be from home all this week; go and see
if have not spoken truth: do, there’s a
darling! Just imagine your father in my place,
and Linton in yours; then think how you would value
your careless lover if he refused to stir a step to
comfort you, when your father himself entreated him;
and don’t, from pure stupidity, fall into the
same error. I swear, on my salvation, he’s
going to his grave, and none but you can save him!’
The lock gave way and I issued out.
‘I swear Linton is dying,’
repeated Heathcliff, looking hard at me. ’And
grief and disappointment are hastening his death.
Nelly, if you won’t let her go, you can walk
over yourself. But I shall not return till this
time next week; and I think your master himself would
scarcely object to her visiting her cousin.’
‘Come in,’ said I, taking
Cathy by the arm and half forcing her to re-enter;
for she lingered, viewing with troubled eyes the features
of the speaker, too stern to express his inward deceit.
He pushed his horse close, and, bending
down, observed ’Miss Catherine, I’ll
own to you that I have little patience with Linton;
and Hareton and Joseph have less. I’ll
own that he’s with a harsh set. He pines
for kindness, as well as love; and a kind word from
you would be his best medicine. Don’t
mind Mrs. Dean’s cruel cautions; but be generous,
and contrive to see him. He dreams of you day
and night, and cannot be persuaded that you don’t
hate him, since you neither write nor call.’
I closed the door, and rolled a stone
to assist the loosened lock in holding it; and spreading
my umbrella, I drew my charge underneath: for
the rain began to drive through the moaning branches
of the trees, and warned us to avoid delay.
Our hurry prevented any comment on the encounter with
Heathcliff, as we stretched towards home; but I divined
instinctively that Catherine’s heart was clouded
now in double darkness. Her features were so
sad, they did not seem hers: she evidently regarded
what she had heard as every syllable true.
The master had retired to rest before
we came in. Cathy stole to his room to inquire
how he was; he had fallen asleep. She returned,
and asked me to sit with her in the library.
We took our tea together; and afterwards she lay
down on the rug, and told me not to talk, for she was
weary. I got a book, and pretended to read.
As soon as she supposed me absorbed in my occupation,
she recommenced her silent weeping: it appeared,
at present, her favourite diversion. I suffered
her to enjoy it a while; then I expostulated:
deriding and ridiculing all Mr. Heathcliff’s
assertions about his son, as if I were certain she
would coincide. Alas! I hadn’t skill
to counteract the effect his account had produced:
it was just what he intended.
‘You may be right, Ellen,’
she answered; ’but I shall never feel at ease
till I know. And I must tell Linton it is not
my fault that I don’t write, and convince him
that I shall not change.’
What use were anger and protestations
against her silly credulity? We parted that
night hostile; but next day beheld me on
the road to Wuthering Heights, by the side of my wilful
young mistress’s pony. I couldn’t
bear to witness her sorrow: to see her pale, dejected
countenance, and heavy eyes: and I yielded, in
the faint hope that Linton himself might prove, by
his reception of us, how little of the tale was founded
on fact.