Why had he gone? That was the
question that vexed Muriel’s soul through the
long hours that followed her return to the Residency.
Lying sleepless on her bed, she racked her weary brain
for an answer to the riddle, but found none.
Her brief doubt regarding him had long since fled.
She knew with absolute certainty that it was Nick and
no other who had yelled those furious words, who had
made that panther-spring, who had leaned over her
and withdrawn the revolver from her hold, telling
her softly not to cry. But why had he gone just
then when she needed him most?
Surely by now her message had reached
him! Surely he knew that she wanted him, that
she had lowered what he had termed her miserable little
rag of pride to tell him so! Then why was he tormenting
her thus playing with her as a cat might
play with a mouse? Was he taking his revenge
for all the bitter scorn she had flung at him in the
past? Did he think to wring from her some more
definite appeal? Ah, that was it! Like a
searchlight flashing inwards, she remembered her promise
to him uttered long ago against her will his
answering oath. And she knew that he meant to
hold her to that promise that he would exact
the very uttermost sacrifice that it entailed; and
then perchance she shivered at the unendurable
thought he would laugh his baffling, enigmatical
laugh, and go his way.
But this was unbearable, impossible.
She would sooner die than suffer it. She would
sooner yes, she would almost sooner break
her promise.
And then, to save her from distraction,
the other side of the picture presented itself, that
reverse side which he had once tauntingly advised
her to study. If he truly loved her, he would
not treat her thus. It would not gratify him
to see her in the dust. If he still cared, as
Daisy had assured her he did, it would not be his pleasure
to make her suffer. But then again oh,
torturing question! had that been so, would
he have gone at that critical moment, would he have
left her, when a look, a touch, would have sufficed
to establish complete understanding?
Drearily the hours dragged away.
The heat was great, and just before daybreak a thunder-storm
rolled up, but spent itself without a drop of rain.
It put the finishing touches to Muriel’s restlessness.
She rose and dressed, to sit by her window with her
torturing thoughts for company, and awaited the day.
With the passing of the storm a slight
draught that was like a shudder moved the scorched
leaves of the acacias in the compound, quivered
a little, and ceased. Then came the dawn, revealing
mass upon mass of piled cloud hanging low over the
earth. The breaking of the monsoon was drawing
very near. There could be no lifting of the atmosphere,
no relief, until it came.
She leaned her aching head against
the window-frame in a maze of weariness unutterable.
Her heart was too heavy for prayer.
Minutes passed. The daylight
grew and swiftly overspread all things. The leaden
silence began to be pierced here and there by the barking
of a dog, the crowing of a cock, the scolding of a
parrot. Somewhere, either in the compound or
close to it, some one began to whistle a
soft, tentative whistle, like a young blackbird trying
its notes.
Muriel remained motionless, scarcely
heeding while it wove itself into the background of
her thoughts. She was in fact hardly aware of
it, till suddenly, with a great thrill of astonishment
that shook her from head to foot, a wild suspicion
seized her, and she started up, listening intently.
The fitful notes were resolving into a melody a
waltz she knew, alluring, enchanting, compelling the
waltz that had filled in the dreadful silences on
that night long ago when she had fought so desperately
hard for her freedom and had prevailed at last.
But stay! Had she prevailed? Had she not
rather been a captive in spite of it all ever since?
On and on went the haunting waltz-refrain,
now near, now far, now summoning, now eluding.
She stood gripping the curtain till she could bear
it no longer, and then with a great sob she mustered
her resolution; she stepped out upon the verandah,
and passed down between shrivelled trailing roses
to the garden below.
The tune ceased quite suddenly, and
she found herself moving through a silence that could
be felt. But she would not turn back then.
She would not let herself be discouraged. She
had been frightened so often when there had been no
need for fear.
On she pressed to the end of the path
till she stood by the high fence that bordered the
road. She could see no one. The garden lay
absolutely deserted. She paused, hesitating, bewildered.
At the same instant from the other
side of the fence, almost as if rising from the ground
at her feet, a careless voice began to hum a
cracked, tuneless, unmistakable voice, that sent the
blood to her heart with a force that nearly suffocated
her.
“Nick!” she said, almost in a whisper.
He did not hear her evidently.
His humming continued with unabated liveliness.
“Nick!” she said again.
Still no result. There was nothing
in the least dramatic in the situation. It might
almost have been described as ludicrous, but the white-faced
woman in the compound did not find it so.
She waited till he had come to a suitable
stopping place, and then, before he could renew the
melody, she rapped with nervous force upon the fence.
There fell a most unexpected silence.
She broke it with words imploring,
almost agonised. “Nick! Nick!
Come and speak to me for Heaven’s
sake!”
His flippant voice greeted her at
once in a tone of cheerful inquiry. “That
you, Muriel?”
Her agitation began to subside of
itself. Nothing could have been more casual than
his question. “Yes,” she said in reply.
“Why are you out there? Why don’t
you come in?”
“My dear girl, at
this hour!” There was shocked reproof in the
ejaculation. Nick was evidently scandalised at
the suggestion.
Muriel lost her patience forthwith.
Was it for this that she had spent all those miserable
hours of fruitless heart-searching? His trifling
was worse than ridiculous. It was insufferable.
“You are to come in at once,”
she said, in a tone of authority.
“What for?” said Nick.
“Because because ”
She hesitated, and stopped, her face burning.
“Because ” said Nick encouragingly.
“Oh, don’t be absurd!”
she exclaimed in desperation. “How can I
possibly talk to you there?”
“It depends upon what you want
to say,” said Nick. “If it is something
particularly private ” He paused.
“Well?” she said.
“You can always come to me,
you know,” he pointed out. “But I
shouldn’t do that, if I were you. It would
be neither dignified nor proper. And a girl in
your position, dearest Muriel, cannot be too discreet.
It is the greatest mistake in the world to act upon
impulse. Let me entreat you to do nothing headlong.
Take another year or so to think things over.
There are so many nice men to choose from, and this
absurd infatuation of yours cannot possibly last.”
“Don’t, Nick!” Muriel’s
voice held a curious mixture of mirth and sadness.
“It it isn’t a bit funny to
talk like that. It isn’t even particularly
kind.”
“Ye gods!” said Nick. “Who
wants to be kind?”
“Not you, evidently,”
she told him with a hint of bitterness. “You
only aim at being intelligent.”
“Well, you’ll admit I
hit the mark sometimes,” he rejoined. “I’m
like a rat, eh? Clever but loathsome.”
She uttered a quivering laugh.
“No, you are much more like an eagle, waiting
to strike. Why don’t you, I wonder, and and
take what you want?”
Nick’s answering laugh had a
mocking note in it. “Oh, I can play Animal
Grab as well as anybody better than most,”
he said modestly. “But I don’t chance
to regard this as a suitable occasion for displaying
my skill. Uninteresting for you, of course, but
then you are fond of running away when there is no
one after you. It’s been your favourite
pastime for almost as long as I have known you.”
The sudden silence with which this
airy remark was received had in it something tragic.
Muriel had sunk down on a garden-bench close at hand,
lacking the strength to go away. It was exactly
what she had expected. He meant to take his revenge
in his own peculiar fashion. She had laid herself
open to this, and mercilessly, unerringly, he had
availed himself of the opportunity to wound. She
might have known! She might have known!
Had he not done it again and again? Oh, she had
been a fool a fool to call him
back!
Through the wild hurry of her thoughts
his voice pierced once more. It had an odd inflection
that was curiously like a note of concern.
“I say, Muriel, are you crying?”
“Crying!” She pulled herself together
hastily. “No! Why should I?”
“I can tell you why you shouldn’t,”
he answered whimsically. “No one ever ought
to cry before breakfast. It’s shocking for
the appetite and may ruin the complexion for the rest
of the day. Besides, you’ve
nothing to cry for.”
“Oh, don’t be absurd!”
she flung back again almost fiercely. “I’m
not crying!”
“Quite sure?” said Nick.
“Absolutely certain,” she declared.
“All right then,” he rejoined.
“That being so, you had better dry your eyes
very carefully, for I am coming to see for myself.”