On the following afternoon Lamberti
waited for Cecilia at the Villa Madama, and she came
not long after him, with Petersen. He had been
to the Palazzo Massimo in the evening, and a glance
and a sign had explained to her that all was well.
Then they had sat together awhile, talking in a low
tone, while the Countess read the newspaper. When
Lamberti had given Guido’s brave message, they
had looked earnestly at each other, and had agreed
to tell her mother the truth at once, and to meet
on the morrow at the villa, which was Cecilia’s
own house, after all. For they felt that they
must be really alone together, to say the only words
that really mattered.
The head gardener had admitted Lamberti
to the close garden, by the outer steps, but had not
let him into the house, as he had received no orders.
When Cecilia came, he accompanied her with the keys
and opened wide the doors of the great hall.
Cecilia and Lamberti did not look at each other while
they waited, and when the man was gone away Cecilia
told Petersen to sit down in the court of honour on
the other side of the little palace. Petersen
went meekly away and left the two to themselves.
They walked very slowly along the
path towards the fountain, and past it, to the parapet
at the other end, where they had talked long ago.
But as they passed the bench, they glanced at it quietly,
and saw that it was still in its place. Cecilia
had not been at the villa since the afternoon before
Guido fell ill, and Lamberti had never come there since
the garden party in May.
They stood still before the low wall
and looked across the shoulder of the hill. Saving
commonplace words at meeting, they had not spoken yet.
Cecilia broke the silence at last, looking straight
before her, her lids low, her face quiet, almost as
if she were in a dream.
“Have we done all that we could
do, all that we ought to do for him?” she asked.
“Are you sure?”
“We can do nothing more,” Lamberti answered
gravely.
“Tell me again what he said. I want the
very words.”
“He said, ’Tell her that
it would be a little hard for me to talk with her
now, but that she must not think I am not glad that
she is going to marry my best friend.’
He said those words, and he said he would write to
you from the Tyrol. He leaves to-morrow night.”
“He has been very generous,” Cecilia said
softly.
“Yes. He will be your best friend, as he
is mine.”
She knew that it was true.
“We have done what we can,”
Lamberti continued presently. “He has given
all he has, and we have given him what we could.
The rest is ours.”
He took her hand and drew her gently, turning back
towards the fountain.
“It was like this in the dream,”
she said, scarcely breathing the words as she walked
beside him.
They stood still before the falling
water, quite alone and out of sight of every one,
in the softening light, and suddenly the girl’s
heart beat hard, and the man’s face grew pale,
and they were facing each other, hands in hands, look
in look, thought in thought, soul in soul; and they
remembered that day when each had learned the other’s
secret in the shadowy staircase of the palace, and
each dreamt again of a meeting long ago in the House
of the Vestals; but only the girl knew what she
had felt of mingled joy and regret when she had sat
alone at night weeping on the steps of the Temple.
There was no veil between them now,
as their eyes drew them closer together by slow and
delicious degrees. It was the first time, though
every instant was full of memories, all ending where
this was to begin. Their lips had never met,
yet the thrill of life meeting life and the blinding
delight of each in the other were long familiar, as
from ages, while fresh and untasted still as the bloom
on a flower at dawn.
Then, when they had kissed once, they
sat down in the old place, wondering what words would
come, and whether they should ever need words at all
after that. And somehow, Cecilia thought of her
three questions, and they all were answered as youth
answers them, in one way and with one word; and the
answer seemed so full of meaning, and of faith and
hope and charity, that the questions need never be
asked again, nor any others like them, to the end
of her life; nor did she believe that she could ever
trouble her brain again about Thus spake Zarathushthra,
and the Man who had killed God, and the overcoming
of Pity, and the Eternal Return, and all those terrible
and wonderful things that live in Nietzsche’s
mazy web, waiting to torment and devour the poor human
moth that tries to fly upward.
But as for Kant’s Categorical
Imperative, in order to act in such a manner that
the reasons for her actions might be considered a universal
law, it was only necessary to realise how very much
she loved the man she had chosen, and how very much
he loved her; for how indeed could it then be possible
not to live so as to deserve to be happy?
She had thought of these things during
the night and had fallen asleep very happy in realising
the perfect simplicity of all science, philosophy,
and transcendental reasoning, and vaguely wondering
why every one could not solve the problems of the
universe as she had.
“Is it all quite true?”
she asked now, with a little fluttering wonder.
“Shall I wake and hear the door shutting, and
be alone, and frightened as I used to be?”
Lamberti smiled.
“I should have waked already,”
he said, “when we were standing there by the
fountain. I always did when I dreamt of you.”
“So did I. Do you think we really
met in our dreams?” She blushed faintly.
“Do you know that you have not
told me once to-day that you care for me, ever so
little?” he asked.
“I have told you much more than
that, a thousand times over, in a thousand ways.”
“I wonder whether we really met!”