Through the passing of two years Osmonde’s
foot did not press English soil again, and his
existence during that period was more vivid and changeful
than it had ever been before. He saw Ramillies
follow Blenheim, great Marlborough attain the height
of renown, and French Louis’s arrogant ambitions
end in downfall and defeat. Life in both camp
and Court he knew at its highest tension, brilliant
scenes he beheld, strange ones, wicked ones, and lived
a life so eventful and full of motion and excitement
that there were few men who through its picturesque
adventures would have been like to hold in mind one
image and one thought. Yet this he did, telling
himself that ’twas the thought which held him,
not he the thought, it having been proven in the past
’twas one which would not have released him from
its dominion even had he been inclined to withdraw
himself from it. And this he was not. Nature
had so built him, that on the day when he had found
himself saying, “In two years’ time I
will come back to Gloucestershire and see what time
has wrought,” he had reached a point from which
there was no retreating. Through many an hour
in time past there had been turmoil in his mind, but
in a measure, at least, this ended the uncertainties,
and was no rash outburst but a resolve. It had
not been made lightly, but had been like a plant which
had grown from a seed, long hidden in dark earth and
slowly fructifying till at last summer rain and warming
sun had caused it to burst forth from its prison,
a thing promising full fruit and flower. For
long he had not even known the seed was in the soil;
he had felt its stirrings before he had believed in
its existence, and then one day the earth had broke
and he had seen its life and known what its strength
might be. ’Twould be of wondrous strength,
he knew, and of wondrous beauty if no frost should
blight nor storm uproot it.
In its freedom from all tendency to
plaything-sentiments and trivial romances, his youth
had been unlike the youth of other men. Being
man and young, he had known temptation, but had disdained
it; being also proud and perhaps haughty in his fastidiousness,
and being strong, he had thrust base and light things
aside. He had held in his brain a fancy from
his boyhood, and singularly enough it had but grown
stronger and become more fully formed with his own
strength and increase of years. ’Twas a
strange fancy indeed to fit the time he lived in, but
’twas his choice. The woman whose eyes held
the answer to the question his own soul asked, and
whose being asked the question to which his own replied,
would bring great and deep joy to him - others
did not count in his existence - and for
her he had waited and longed, sometimes so fiercely,
that he wondered if he was in the wrong and but following
a haunting, mocking dream.
“You are an epicure, Osmonde,”
his Grace of Marlborough said more than once, for
he had watched and studied him closely. “Not
an anchorite but an epicure.”
“Yes,” answered Osmonde,
“perhaps ’tis that. Any man can love
a score of women - most men do - but
there are few who can love but one, as I shall, if - ”
and the words came slowly - “if I ever
find her.”
“You may not,” remarked his Grace.
“I may not,” said Osmonde, and he smiled
his faint, grim smile.
He could not have sworn when he returned
to the Continent that he had found her absolutely
at last. Her body he had found, but herself he
had not approached nearly enough to know. But
this thing he realised, that even in the mad stories
he had heard, when they had been divested of their
madness, the chief figure in them had always stood
out an honest, strong, fair thing, dwarfed by no petty
feminine weakness, nor follies, nor spites. Rules
she broke, decorums she defied, but in such manner
as hurt none but herself. She played no tricks
and laid no plots for vengeance, as she might well
have done; she but went her daring, lawless way, with
her head up and her great eyes wide open; and ’twas
her fearless frankness and just, clear wit which moved
him more than aught else, since ’twas they which
made him feel that ’twas not alone her splendid
body commanded love, but a spirit which might mate
with a strong man’s and be companion to his
own. His theories of womankind, which were indeed
curiously in advance of his age, were such as demanded
great things, and not alone demanded, but also gave
them.
“A man and woman should not
seem beings of a different race - the one
all strength, the other all weakness,” was his
thought. “They should gaze into each other’s
eyes with honest, tender human passion, which is surely
a great thing, as nature made it. Each should
know the other’s love, and strength, and honour
may be trusted through death - or life - themselves.
’Tis not a woman’s love is won by pretty
gallantries, nor a man’s by flattering weak
surrender. Love grows from a greater thing, and
should be as compelling - even in the higher,
finer thing which thinks - as is the roar
of the lion in the jungle to his mate, and her glad
cry which answers him.”
And therefore, at last he had said
to himself that this beauteous, strong, wild thing
surely might be she who would answer him one day,
and he held his thoughts of her in check no more, nor
avoided the speech he heard of her, and indeed, with
adroitness which never betrayed itself through his
reserve of bearing, at times encouraged it; and in
a locked drawer in his apartments, wheresoever he travelled,
there lay always the picture with the stormy, yearning
eyes.
From young Tantillion he could, without
any apparent approach at questioning, hear such details
of Gloucestershire life in the neighbourhood of Wildairs
as made him feel that he was not far separated from
that which his mind dwelt on. Little Lady Betty,
having entered the world of fashion, was more voluminous
in her correspondence than ever, the more especially
as young Langton appeared to her a very pretty fellow,
and he being Tom’s confidant, was likely to hear
her letters read, or at least be given extracts from
them. Her caustic condemnation of the fantastical
Mistress Clo had gradually lapsed into a doubtful
wonder, which later became open amaze not untinged
with a pretty spitefulness and resentment.
“’Tis indeed a strange
thing, and one to make one suspicious of her, Thomas,”
she wrote, “with all her bold ways, to suddenly
put on such decorum. We are all sure ’tis
from some cunning motive, and wait to find out what
she will be at next. At first none believed she
would hold out or would know how to behave herself,
but Lud! if you could see her I am sure, Tom, both
you and Mr. Langton would be disgusted by her majestic
airs. Being dressed in woman’s clothing
she is taller than ever, and so holds her chin and
her eyes that it makes any modist woman mad.
If she was a Duchess at Court she could not be more
stately than she now pretends she is (for of course
it is pretence, as anyone knows). She has had
the vile cunningness to stop her bad langwidg, as
if she had never swore an oath in her life (such deseatfulness!).
And none can tell where she hath learned her manners,
for if you will beleave the thing, ’tis said
she never makes a blunder, but can sweep a great curtsey
and sail about a saloon full of company as if she was
bred to it, and can dance a minuet and bear herself
at a feast in a way to surprise you. Lady Maddon
says that women who are very vile and undeserving
are sometimes wickedly clever, and can pick up modist
women’s manners wondrously, but they always break
out before long and are more indecent than ever; and
you may mark my Lady Maddon’s words, she says
this one will do the same, but first she is playing
a part and restraining herself that she may deseave
some poor gentleman and trap him into marrying her.
It makes Lady Maddon fall into a passion to talk of
her, and she will flush quite red and talk so fast,
but indeed after I see the creature or hear some new
story of her impudent victories, I fall into a passion
myself - for, Tom, no human being can
put her in her place.”
It must be confessed that the attitude
of the recipient of these letters was by no means
a respectful one, they being read and re-read with
broad grins and frequent outbursts of roaring laughter,
ending in derisive or admiring comments, even Bob
Langton, who had no objection to pretty Lady Betty’s
oglings and summing of him as a dangerous beau, breaking
forth into gleeful grinning himself.
“Hang me if some great nobleman
won’t marry her,” cried Tom, “and
a fine lady she’ll make, too! Egad, it
almost frightens one, for all the joke of it, to think
of a woman who can do such things - to be
a madder romp than any and suddenly to will that she
will change in such a way, and hold herself firm and
be beat by naught. ’Tis scarce human.
Bet says that her kinsman, my Lord Twemlow, has took
her in hand and is as proud of her and as fidgety
as some match-making mother. And the county people
who would not have spoke to her a year ago, have begun
to visit Wildairs and invite her to their houses,
for all the men are wild after her, and the best way
to make an entertainment a fine thing is to let it
be known that she will grace it. Even Sir Jeof
and his cronies are taken in because they shine in
her glory and are made decent by it.”
“They say, too,” cried
Bob Langton, “that she makes them all behave
themselves, telling them that unless their manners
are decent they cannot follow her to the fine houses
she is bid to - and she puts them through
a drill and cuts off their drink and their cursings
and wicked stories. And Gloucestershire and Warwickshire
and Worcestershire are all agog with it!”
“And they follow her like slaves,”
added Tantillion, in an ecstacy, “and stand
about with their mouths open to stare at her swimming
though her minuets with bowing worshippers, and oh!
Roxholm - nay, I should say Osmonde; but
how can a man remember you are Duke instead of Marquis? - ’tis
told that in the field in her woman’s hat and
hunting-coat she is handsomer than ever. Even
my Lord Dunstanwolde has rode to the meet to behold
her, and admires her as far as a sober elderly gentleman
can.”
That my Lord Dunstanwolde admired
her, Osmonde knew. His rare letters told a grave
and dignified gentleman’s version of the story
and spoke of it with kindly courtesy and pleasure
in it. It had proved that the change which had
come over her had been the result of no caprice or
mischievous spirit but of a reasonable intention, to
which she had been faithful with such consistency
of behaviour as filled the gossips and onlookers with
amazement.
“’Tis my belief,”
said the kindly nobleman, “that being in truth
a noble creature, though bred so wildly, the time
came when she realised herself a woman, and both wit
and heart told her that ’twas more honourable
to live a woman’s life and not a madcap boy’s.
And her intellect being of such vigour and fineness,
she can execute what her thought conceives.”
Among the gentlemen who were her courtiers
there was much talk of the fashionable rake Sir John
Oxon, who, having appeared at her birthnight supper,
had become madly enamoured of her, and had stayed in
the country at Eldershawe Park and laid siege to her
with all his forces and with much fervour of feeling
besides. ’Twas a thing well known that
this successful rake had never lost his heart to a
woman in his life before, and that his victims had
all been snared by a part played to villanous perfection;
but ’twas plain enough that at last he had met
a woman who had set that which he called his soul
on fire. He could not tear himself away from
the country, though the gayeties of the town were
at their highest. When in her presence his burning
blue eyes followed her every movement, and when she
treated him disdainfully he turned pale.
“But she leaves him no room
for boasting,” related young Tantillion.
“He may worship as any man may, but she shows
no mercy to any, and him she treats with open scorn
when he languishes. He grows thin and pale and
is half-crazed with his passion for her.”
There is no man who has given himself
up to a growing passion and has not yet revealed it,
who does not pass through many an hour of unrest.
How could it be otherwise? In his absence from
the object of his feeling every man who lives is his
possible rival, every woman his possible enemy, every
event a possible obstacle in the way to that he yearns
for. And from this situation there is nothing
which can save a man. He need not be a boy or
a fool to be tormented despite himself; the wisest
and gravest are victims to these fits of heat and cold
if they have modesty and know somewhat of the game
of chance called Life. What may not happen to
a castle left undefended; what may not be filched
from coffers left unlocked? This is the history
of a man who, despite the lavishness of Fortune and
the gifts she had poured forth before him, was of
a stately humility. That he was a Duke and of
great estate, that he had already been caressed by
the hand of Fame and had been born more stalwart and
beautiful than nine men of ten, did not, to his mind,
make sure for him the love of any woman whom he had
not served and won. He was of no meek spirit,
but he had too much wit and too great knowledge of
the chances of warfare not to know that in love’s
campaign, as in any other, a man must be on the field
if he would wield his sword.
So my lord Duke had his days of fret
and restlessness as less fortunate men have them,
and being held on the Continent by duties he had undertaken
in calmer moments, lay sometimes awake at night reproaching
himself that he had left England. Such hours do
not make a man grow cooler, and by the time the second
year had ripened, the months were long indeed.
Well as he had thought he knew himself, there were
times when the growth of this passion which possessed
him awaked in him somewhat of wonder. ’Twas
for one with whom he had yet never exchanged word
or glance, a creature whose wild youth seemed sometimes
a century away from him. There had been so many
others who had crossed his path - great beauties
and small ones - but only to this one had
his being cried out aloud.
“It has begun,” he had
said to himself. “I have heard them tell
of it - of how one woman’s face came
back to a man again and again, of how her eyes would
look into his and would not leave him or let him rest.
It has begun for me, too.”
He had grave duties to perform, affairs
of serious import to arrange, interviews to hold with
great personages and small, and though none might
read it in his bearing he found himself ever beholding
this face, ever followed by the eyes which would not
leave him and which, had they done so, would have
left him to the dark. Yet this was hid within
his own breast and was his own strange secret which
he gave himself up to dwell upon but when he was alone.
When he awakened in the morning he lay and thought
of it and counted that a day had passed and another
begun, and found himself pondering, as all those in
his case do, on the events of the future and the incidents
which would lead him to them. At night, sometimes
in long rides or walks he took alone, he lived these
incidents through and imagined he beheld her as she
would look when they first met, as she would look
when he told her his purpose in coming to her.
If he pleased her, his fancy pictured him the warm
flash of her large eye, the smile of her mouth, half-proud,
half-tender, a look which even when but imagined made
his pulses beat.
“I do not know her face well
enough,” he said, “to picture all the
beauteous changes of it, but there will sure be a thousand
which a man might spend a life of love in studying.”
Among the many who passed hours in
his company at this time, there was but one who guessed,
even distantly, at what lay at the root of his being,
and this was the man who, being in a measure of like
nature with his own, had been in the same way possessed
when deep passion came to him.
At this period his Grace of Marlborough
already felt the tossings of the rising storm in England,
and the emotions which his Duchess’s letters
aroused within him, her anger at the intrigues about
her, her tigress love for and belief in him, her determination
to defend and uphold him with all the powers of her
life and strength and imperial spirit, were, it is
probable, moving and stimulating things which put
him in the mood to be keen of sight and sympathy.
“There dwells some constant
thought in your mind, my lord Duke,” he said,
on a night in which they sate together alone.
“Is it a new one?”
“No,” Osmonde answered;
“’twould perhaps not be so constant if
it were. It is an old thought which has taken
a new form. In times past” - his
voice involuntarily falling a tone - “I
did not realise its presence.”
The short silence which fell was broken
by the Duke and with some suddenness.
“Is it one of which you would rid yourself?”
he asked.
“No, your Grace.”
“Tis well,” gravely, “You could
not - if you would.”
He asked no further question, but
went on as if in deep thought, rather reflecting aloud.
“There are times,” he
said, “when to some it is easy and natural to
say that such fevers are folly and unreasonableness - but
even to those so slightly built by nature, and of
memories so poor, such times do not come, nor can
be dreamed of, when they are passing through
the furnace fires. They come after - or
before.”
Osmonde did not speak. He raised
his eyes and met those of his illustrious companion
squarely, and for a short space each looked into the
soul of the other, it so seemed, though not a word
was spoke.
“You did not say the thing before,”
the Duke commented at last. “You will not
say it after.”
“No, I shall not,” answered
Osmonde, and somewhat later he added, with flushed
cheek, “I thank your Grace for your comprehension
of an unspoken thing.”
Distant as he was from Gloucestershire
there seemed a smiling fortune in the chances by which
his thought was fed. What time had wrought he
heard as time went on - that her graces but
developed with opportunity, that her wit matched her
beauty, that those who talked gossip asked each other
in these days, not what disgrace would be her downfall,
but what gentleman of those who surrounded her, paying
court, would be most likely to be smiled upon at last.
From young Tantillion he heard such things, from talkative
young officers back after leave of absence, and more
than once from ladies who, travelling from England
to reach foreign gayeties, brought with them the latest
talk of the country as well as of the town.
From the old Lady Storms, whom he
encountered in Vienna, he heard more than from any
other. She had crossed the Channel with her Chaplain,
her spaniel, her toady, and her parrot, in search
of enlivenment for her declining years, and hearing
that her Apollo Belvidere was within reach, sent a
message saying she would coax him to come and make
love to an old woman, who adored him as no young one
could, and whose time hung heavy on her hands.
He went to her because she was a kindly,
witty old woman, and had always avowed an affection
for him, and when he arrived at her lodgings he found
her ready to talk by the hour. All the gossip
of the Court she knew, all the marriages being made
or broken off, all the public stories of her Grace
of Marlborough’s bullyings of her Majesty and
revilings of Mrs. Masham, and many which were spiced
by being private and new. And as she chattered
over her dish of chocolate and my lord Duke listened
with the respect due her years, he knew full well that
her stories would not be brought to a close without
reaching Gloucestershire at last - or Warwickshire
or Worcester, or even Berks or Wilts, where she would
have heard some romance she would repeat to him; for
in truth it ever seemed that it must befall so when
he met and talked with man or woman who had come lately
from England, Ireland, or Wales.
And so it did befall, but this time
’twas neither Gloucestershire, Worcester, Warwick,
nor Berks she had visited or entertained guests from,
but plain, lively town gossip she repeated apropos
of Sir John Oxon, whose fortunes seemed in evil case.
In five years’ time he had squandered all his
inheritance, and now was in such straits through his
creditors that it seemed plain his days of fashionable
wild living and popularity would soon be over, and
his poor mother was using all her wits to find him
a young lady with a fortune.
“And in truth she found him
one, two years ago,” her Ladyship added, “a
West Indian heiress, but at that time he was dangling
after the wild Gloucestershire beauty and was mad
for her. What was her name? I forget it,
though I should not. But she was disdainful and
treated him so scornfully that at last they quarrelled - or
’twas thought so - for he left the
country and hath not been near her for months.
Good Lord!” of a sudden; “is not my Lord
Dunstanwolde your Grace’s distant kinsman?”
“My father’s cousin twice
removed, your Ladyship,” answered Osmonde, wondering
somewhat at the irrelevance of the question.
“Then you will be related to
the fantastic young lady too,” she said, “if
his lordship is successful in his elderly suit.”
“His lordship?” queried
Osmonde; “his lordship of Dunstanwolde?”
“Yes,” said the old woman,
in great good humour, “for he is more in love
than all the rest. Faith, a man must be in love
if he will hear ‘No’ twice said to him
when he is sixty-five and then go back to kneel and
plead again.”
My lord Duke rose from his seat to
set upon the table near by his chocolate-cup.
Months later he remembered how mad the tale had seemed
to him, and that there had been in his mind no shadow
of belief in it; even that an hour after it had, in
sooth, passed from his memory and been forgotten.
“’Tis a strange rumour,
your Ladyship,” he said. “For myself
I do not credit it, knowing of my lord’s early
loss and his years of mourning through it.”
“’Tis for that reason
all the neighbourhood is agog,” answered my lady.
“But ’tis for that reason I give it credit.
These men who have worshipped a woman once can do
it again. And this one - Lud! they say,
she is a witch and no man resists her.”
A few days later came a letter from
my Lord Dunstanwolde himself, who had not writ from
England for some time, and in the midst of his epistle,
which treated with a lettered man’s thoughtful
interest of the news of both town and country, of
Court and State, playhouse and club, there was reference
to Gloucestershire and Mistress Clorinda of Wildairs
Hall.
“In one of our past talks, Gerald,”
he wrote, “you said you thought often of the
changes time might work in such a creature. You
are given to speculative thought and spoke of the
wrong the past had done her, and of your wonder if
the strength of her character and the clearness of
her mind might not reveal to her what the untoward
circumstances of her life had hidden, and also lead
her to make changes none had believed possible.
Your fancies were bolder than mine. You are a
stronger man than I, Gerald, though a so much younger
one; you have a greater spirit and a far greater brain,
and your reason led you to see possibilities I could
not picture. In truth, in those days I regarded
the young lady with some fear and distaste, being myself
sober and elderly. But ’tis you who were
right. The change in her is indeed a wondrous
one, but that I most marvel at is that I mark in her
a curious gentleness, which grows. She hath taken
under protection her sister Mistress Anne, a humble
creature whose existence none have seemed previously
aware of. The poor gentlewoman is timid and uncomely,
but Mistress Clorinda shows an affection for her she
hath shown to none other. But yesterday she said
to me a novel thing in speaking of her - and
her deep eyes, which can flash forth such lightnings,
were soft as if dew were hid in them - ’Why
was all given to me,’ saith she, ’and
naught to her? Since Nature was not fair, then
let me try to be so. She is good, she is innocent,
she is helpless. I would learn of her. Innocence
one cannot learn, and helpless I shall never be, yet
would I learn of her.’ She hath a great,
strange spirit, Gerald, and strange fearlessness of
thought. What other woman dare arraign Nature’s
self, and command mankind to retrieve her cruelties?”
Having finished his reading, my lord
Duke turned to his window and looked out upon the
night, which was lit to silver by the moon, which
flooded the broad square before him and the park beyond
it till ’twas lost in the darkness of the trees.
“No other woman - none,”
he said - and such a tumult shook his soul
that of a sudden he stretched forth his arms unknowing
of the movement and spoke as though to one close at
hand. “Great God!” he said, low and
passionate, “you call me, you call me! Let
me but look into your eyes - but answer me
with yours - and all of Life is ours!”