Another of those horrible, red mornings,
with a brass circle of horizon flaming all around
in the most extraordinary fireworks topped by an azure
zenith, found them still crawling south-westwards making
perhaps a mile an hour.
Disjointed words and sentences kept
framing themselves in the man’s mind; above
all, a sentence he had read long ago in Greek, somewhere.
Where had he read that? Oh, in Xenophon, of course.
In The Retreat of the Ten Thousand. The Master
gulped it aloud, in a dead voice:
“Most terrible of all is the
desert for it is full-of a great want.”
After a while he knew that he was trying to laugh.
“A great want!” he repeated. “A
great ”
Presently it was night again.
The Master’s mind cleared.
Yes, there was the woman, lying in the sand near him.
But where was the date-stick basket? Where was
the last of the food? He tried to think.
He could remember nothing. But
reason told him they must have eaten the last of the
food and thrown the basket away. His shoulders
felt strangely light. What was this? The
water-bag was gone, too?
But that did not matter. There
had been only a little of that chemicalized water
left, anyhow. Perhaps they had drunk it all, or
bathed their faces and necks with it. Who could
tell? The water-sack was gone; that was all he
knew.
A great fear stabbed him. The
water-jar! Was that still on his back? As
he felt the pull of a thong, and dragged the jar around
so that he could blink at it, a wonderful relief for
a moment deadened his pain.
“Allah iselmak!”
he croaked, blessing the scant water the jar still
held. He realized the woman was looking at him.
“Water!” he whispered. “Let
us drink again and go on!”
She nodded silently. He loosed
the thong, took the jar and peered into its neck,
gauging the small amount of water still there.
Then he held it to her lips.
She seemed to be drinking, but only
seemed. Frowning, as she finished, he once more
squinted into the jar with bleared eyes. His voice
was even, dull, ominous as he accused:
“You drank nothing. You
are trying to save water for me!”
She shook her head in negation, but
he penetrated the lie. His teeth gleamed through
his stubble of beard, and his eyes glinted redly under
the hood of his ragged burnous as he cried:
“Will you drink?”
“I tell you I have drunk!”
Slowly he tilted the jar toward the thirsty sands.
“Drink, now, or I pour all this on the ground!”
Beaten, she extended a quivering hand.
They shared the last of the water. The man took
less than a third. Then they set out again on
the endless road of pain.
Was it that same day, or the next,
that the man fell and could not rise again? The
woman did not know. Something had got into her
brain and was dancing there and would not stop; something
blent of sun and glare, sand, mirage, torturing thirst.
There was a little gray scorpion, too but
no, that had been crushed to a pulp by the man’s
heel. Or had it not? Well
The man! Was there a man?
Where was he? Here, of course, on the baked earth.
As she cradled his head up into her
lap and drew the shelter of her burnous over it, she
became rational again. Her hot, dry hand caressed
his face. After a while he was blinking up at
her.
“Bara Miyan! Violator of
the salt!” he croaked, and struck at her feebly.
And after another time, she perceived that they were
staggering on and on once more.
The woman wondered what had happened
to her head, now that the sun had bored quite through.
Surely that must make a difference, must it not?
A jackal barked. But this, they knew, must be
illusion.
No jackals lived so far from any habitation
of mankind. The man blinked into the glare, across
which sand-devils of whirlwinds were once more gyrating
over a whiteness ending in dunes that seemed to be
peppered with camel-grass.
Another mirage! Grass could grow
only near the coast. And now that they had both
been tortured to death by Jannati Shahr men and been
flung into Jehannum, how could there be any coast?
It seemed so preposterous.
It was all so very simple that the
man laughed silently.
Where had that woman gone to?
Why, he thought there surely had been a woman with
him! But now he stood all alone. This was
very strange.
“I must remember to ask them
if there wasn’t a woman,” thought he.
“This is an extraordinary place! People
come and go in such a manner!”
The man felt a dull irritation, and
smeared the sand out of his eyes. How had that
sand got there? Naturally, from having laid on
one of those dunes. There seemed to be no particular
reason for lying on a dune, under the fire-box of
an engine, so the man sat up and kept blinking and
rubbing his eyes.
“This is the best mirage, yet,”
he reflected. “The palms look real.
And the water it sparkles. Those white
blotches one would say they were houses!”
Indifferent, yet interested, too,
in the appearance of reality, the man remained sitting
on the dune, squinting from under his torn burnous.
The mirage took form as a line of
dazzling white houses along a sea of cobalt and indigo.
And to add to the reality of the mirage, some miles
away, he could see two boats with sails all green and
blue from the reflection of the luster of the water.
The man’s eyes fell. He
studied his feet. They were naked, now, cut to
the bone, caked with blood and sand. Odd, that
they did not hurt. Where were his babooches?
He seemed to remember something about having taken
some ragged ones from the feet of some woman or other,
a very long time ago, and having bound his own upon
her mangled feet.
“I’ll ask the people in
those houses, down there,” thought he; and on
hands and knees started to crawl down the slope of
the dunes toward the dazzling white things that looked
like houses.
Something echoed at the back of his brain:
“You must ask her if this
is real! Unless you both see it, you must not
go!”
He paused. “There was a
woman, then!” he gasped. “But where
is she now?”
Realization that she had disappeared
sobered him. He got up, groped with emaciated
hands before his face as he turned back away from the
white houses and stumbled eastward.
All at once he saw something white
lying on the sand, under a cooking glare of sunlight.
Memory returned. He fell on his knees beside the
woman and caught her up in quivering arms.
After a while, he noticed there was
blood on her left arm. Blood, in the bend of
the elbow, coagulated there.
This puzzled him. All he could
think was that she might have cut herself on her jambiyeh,
when she had fallen. He did not know then, nor
did he ever know, that he himself had fallen at this
spot; that she had thought him dying; that she had
tried to cut her arm and give him her blood to drink;
that she had fainted in the effort. Some last
remnants of strength welled up in him. He stooped,
got her across his shoulder, struggled to his feet
and went staggering up the dune.
Here he paused, swaying drunkenly.
Strange! The very same mirage
presented itself to his eyes blue sails,
turquoise sea, feathery palms, white houses.
“By God!” he croaked.
“Mirages they don’t last, this
way! That’s real that’s
real water, by the living God!”
Up from dark profundities of tortured
memory arose the cry of Xenophon’s bold Greeks
when, after their long torment, they had of a sudden
fronted blue water. At sight of the little British
consular station of Batn el Hayil, on the Gulf of
Farsan:
“Thalassa!” he
cried. “Thalassa, thalassa!” (The
sea, the sea!)