Cecilia softly dropped her father’s
arm, and went into the house. The exceeding pallor
of Beauchamp’s face haunted her in her room.
She heard the controversy proceeding below, and an
exclamation of Blackburn Tuckham’s: ’Immorality
of meat-eating? What nonsense are they up to
now?’
Beauchamp was inaudible, save in a
word or two. As usual, he was the solitary minority.
But how mournfully changed he was!
She had not noticed it, agitated by her own emotions
as she had been, and at one time three parts frozen.
He was the ghost of the Nevil Beauchamp who had sprung
on the deck of the Esperanza out of Lieutenant Wilmore’s
boat, that sunny breezy day which was the bright first
chapter of her new life of her late life,
as it seemed to her now, for she was dead to it, and
another creature, the coldest of the women of earth.
She felt sensibly cold, coveted warmth, flung a shawl
on her shoulders, and sat in a corner of her room,
hidden and shivering beside the open window, till
long after the gentlemen had ceased to speak.
How much he must have suffered of
late! The room she had looked to as a refuge
from Nevil was now her stronghold against the man whom
she had incredibly accepted. She remained there,
the victim of a heart malady, under the term of headache.
Feeling entrapped, she considered that she must have
been encircled and betrayed. She looked back on
herself as a giddy figure falling into a pit:
and in the pit she lay.
And how vile to have suspected of
unfaithfulness and sordidness the generous and stedfast
man of earth! He never abandoned a common friendship.
His love of his country was love still, whatever the
form it had taken. His childlike reliance on
effort and outspeaking, for which men laughed at him,
was beautiful.
Where am I? she cried amid her melting
images of him, all dominated by his wan features.
She was bound fast, imprisoned and a slave. Even
Mr. Austin had conspired against him: for only
she read Nevil justly. His defence of Dr. Shrapnel
filled her with an envy that no longer maligned the
object of it, but was humble, and like the desire of
the sick to creep into sunshine.
The only worthy thing she could think
of doing was (it must be mentioned for a revelation
of her fallen state, and, moreover, she was not lusty
of health at the moment) to abjure meat. The body
loathed it, and consequently the mind of the invalided
lady shrank away in horror of the bleeding joints,
and the increasingly fierce scramble of Christian souls
for the dismembered animals: she saw the innocent
pasturing beasts, she saw the act of slaughter.
She had actually sweeping before her sight a spectacle
of the ludicrous-terrific, in the shape of an entire
community pursuing countless herds of poor scampering
animal life for blood: she, meanwhile, with Nevil
and Dr. Shrapnel, stood apart contemning. For
whoso would not partake of flesh in this kingdom of
roast beef must be of the sparse number of Nevil’s
execrated minority in politics.
The example will show that she touched
the borders of delirium. Physically, the doctor
pronounces her bilious. She was in earnest so
far as to send down to the library for medical books,
and books upon diet. These, however, did not
plead for the beasts. They treated the subject
without question of man’s taking that which he
has conquered. Poets and philosophers did the
same. Again she beheld Nevil Beauchamp solitary
in the adverse rank to the world; to his
countrymen especially. But that it was no material
cause which had wasted his cheeks and lined his forehead,
she was sure: and to starve with him, to embark
with him in his little boat on the seas he whipped
to frenzy, would have been a dream of bliss, had she
dared to contemplate herself in a dream as his companion.
It was not to be thought of.
No: but this was, and to be thought
of seriously: Cecilia had said to herself for
consolation that Beauchamp was no spiritual guide;
he had her heart within her to plead for him, and
the reflection came to her, like a bubble up from
the heart, that most of our spiritual guides neglect
the root to trim the flower: and thence, turning
sharply on herself, she obtained a sudden view of
her allurement and her sin in worshipping herself,
and recognized that the aim at an ideal life closely
approaches, or easily inclines, to self-worship; to
which the lady was woman and artist enough to have
had no objection, but that therein visibly she discerned
the retributive vain longings, in the guise of high
individual superiority and distinction, that had thwarted
her with Nevil Beauchamp, never permitting her to love
single-mindedly or whole-heartedly, but always in
reclaiming her rights and sighing for the loss of
her ideal; adoring her own image, in fact, when she
pretended to cherish, and regret that she could not
sufficiently cherish, the finer elements of nature.
What was this ideal she had complained of losing?
It was a broken mirror: she could think of it
in no other form.
Dr. Shrapnel’s ‘Ego-Ego’
yelped and gave chase to her through the pure beatitudes
of her earlier days down to her present regrets.
It hunted all the saints in the calendar till their
haloes top-sided on their heads-her favourite St.
Francis of Assisi excepted.
The doctor was called up from Bevisham
next day, and pronounced her bilious. He was
humorous over Captain Beauchamp, who had gone to the
parents of the dead girl, and gathered the information
that they were a consumptive family, to vindicate
Dr. Shrapnel. ’The very family to require
strong nourishment,’ said the doctor.
Cecilia did not rest in her sick-room
before, hunting through one book and another, she
had found arguments on the contrary side; a waste of
labour that heaped oppression on her chest, as with
the world’s weight. Apparently one had
only to be in Beauchamp’s track to experience
that. She horrified her father by asking questions
about consumption. Homoeopathy, hydropathy, the
revolutionaries of medicine attracted her. Blackburn
Tuckham, a model for an elected lover who is not beloved,
promised to procure all sorts of treatises for her:
no man could have been so deferential to a diseased
mind. Beyond calling her by her Christian name,
he did nothing to distress her with the broad aspect
of their new relations together. He and Mr. Austin
departed from Mount Laurels, leaving her to sink into
an agreeable stupor, like one deposited on a mudbank
after buffeting the waves. She learnt that her
father had seen Captain Baskelett, and remembered,
marvelling, how her personal dread of an interview,
that threatened to compromise her ideal of her feminine
and peculiar dignity, had assisted to precipitate her
where she now lay helpless, almost inanimate.
She was unaware of the passage of
time save when her father spoke of a marriage-day.
It told her that she lived and was moving. The
fear of death is not stronger in us, nor the desire
to put it off, than Cecilia’s shunning of such
a day. The naming of it numbed her blood like
a snakebite. Yet she openly acknowledged her engagement;
and, happily for Tuckham, his visits, both in London
and at Mount Laurels, were few and short, and he inflicted
no foretaste of her coming subjection to him to alarm
her.
Under her air of calm abstraction
she watched him rigorously for some sign of his ownership
that should tempt her to revolt from her pledge, or
at least dream of breaking loose: the dream would
have sufficed. He was never intrusive, never
pressing. He did not vex, because he absolutely
trusted to the noble loyalty which made her admit to
herself that she belonged irrevocably to him, while
her thoughts were upon Beauchamp. With a respectful
gravity he submitted to her perusal a collection of
treatises on diet, classed pro and con., and paged
and pencil-marked to simplify her study of the question.
They sketched in company; she played music to him,
he read poetry to her, and read it well. He seemed
to feel the beauty of it sensitively, as she did critically.
In other days the positions had been reversed.
He invariably talked of Beauchamp with kindness, deploring
only that he should be squandering his money on workmen’s
halls and other hazy projects down in Bevisham.
’Lydiard tells me he has a very
sound idea of the value of money, and has actually
made money by cattle breeding; but he has flung ten
thousand pounds on a single building outside the town,
and he’ll have to endow it to support it a
Club to educate Radicals. The fact is, he wants
to jam the business of two or three centuries into
a life-time. These men of their so-called progress
are like the majority of religious minds: they
can’t believe without seeing and touching.
That is to say, they don’t believe in the abstract
at all, but they go to work blindly by agitating,
and proselytizing, and persecuting to get together
a mass they can believe in. You see it in their
way of arguing; it’s half done with the fist.
Lydiard tells me he left him last in a horrible despondency
about progress. Ha! ha! Beauchamp’s
no Radical. He hasn’t forgiven the Countess
of Romfrey for marrying above her rank. He may
be a bit of a Republican: but really in this country
Republicans are fighting with the shadow of an old
hat and a cockhorse. I beg to state that I have
a reverence for constituted authority: I speak
of what those fellows are contending with.’
‘Right,’ said Colonel
Halkett. ’But “the shadow of an old
hat and a cockhorse”: what does that mean?’
‘That’s what our Republicans are hitting
at, sir.’
‘Ah! so; yes,’ quoth the
colonel. ’And I say this to Nevil Beauchamp,
that what we’ve grown up well with, powerfully
with, it’s base ingratitude and dangerous folly
to throw over.’
He blamed Beauchamp for ingratitude
to the countess, who had, he affirmed of his own knowledge,
married Lord Romfrey to protect Beauchamp’s
interests.
A curious comment on this allegation
was furnished by the announcement of the earl’s
expectations of a son and heir. The earl wrote
to Colonel Halkett from Romfrey Castle inviting him
to come and spend some time there.
‘Now, that’s brave news!’ the colonel
exclaimed.
He proposed a cruise round by the
Cornish coast to the Severn, and so to Romfrey Castle,
to squeeze the old lord’s hand and congratulate
him with all his heart. Cecilia was glad to acquiesce,
for an expedition of any description was a lull in
the storm that hummed about her ears in the peace
of home, where her father would perpetually speak of
the day to be fixed. Sailing the sea on a cruise
was like the gazing at wonderful colours of a Western
sky: an oblivion of earthly dates and obligations.
What mattered it that there were gales in August?
She loved the sea, and the stinging salt spray, and
circling gull and plunging gannet, the sun on the
waves, and the torn cloud. The revelling libertine
open sea wedded her to Beauchamp in that veiled cold
spiritual manner she could muse on as a circumstance
out of her life.
Fair companies of racing yachts were
left behind. The gales of August mattered frightfully
to poor Blackburn Tuckham, who was to be dropped at
a town in South Wales, and descended greenish to his
cabin as soon as they had crashed on the first wall-waves
of the chalk-race, a throw beyond the peaked cliffs
edged with cormorants, and were really tasting sea.
Cecilia reclined on deck, wrapped in shawl and waterproof.
As the Alpine climber claims the upper air, she had
the wild sea to herself through her love of it; quite
to herself. It was delicious to look round and
ahead, and the perturbation was just enough to preserve
her from thoughts too deep inward in a scene where
the ghost of Nevil was abroad.
The hard dry gale increased.
Her father, stretched beside her, drew her attention
to a small cutter under double-reefed main-sail and
small jib on the Esperanza’s weather bow a
gallant boat carefully handled. She watched it
with some anxiety, but the Esperanza was bound for
a Devon bay, and bore away from the black Dorsetshire
headland, leaving the little cutter to run into haven
if she pleased. The passing her was no event. In
a representation of the common events befalling us
in these times, upon an appreciation of which this
history depends, one turns at whiles a languishing
glance toward the vast potential mood, pluperfect
tense. For Nevil Beauchamp was on board the cutter,
steering her, with Dr. Shrapnel and Lydiard in the
well, and if an accident had happened to cutter or
schooner, what else might not have happened? Cecilia
gathered it from Mrs. Wardour-Devereux, whom, to her
surprise and pleasure, she found at Romfrey Castle.
Her friend Louise received a letter from Mr. Lydiard,
containing a literary amateur seaman’s log of
a cruise of a fifteen-ton cutter in a gale, and a
pure literary sketch of Beauchamp standing drenched
at the helm from five in the morning up to nine at
night, munching a biscuit for nourishment. The
beautiful widow prepared the way for what was very
soon to be publicly known concerning herself by reading
out this passage of her correspondent’s letter
in the breakfast room.
‘Yes, the fellow’s a sailor!’ said
Lord Romfrey.
The countess rose from her chair and walked out.
‘Now, was that abuse of the
fellow?’ the old lord asked Colonel Halkett.
’I said he was a sailor, I said nothing else.
He is a sailor, and he’s fit for nothing else,
and no ship will he get unless he bends his neck never
‘s nearer it.’
He hesitated a moment, and went after his wife.
Cecilia sat with the countess, in
the afternoon, at a window overlooking the swelling
woods of Romfrey. She praised the loveliness of
the view.
‘It is fire to me,’ said Rosamund.
Cecilia looked at her, startled. Rosamund said
no more.
She was an excellent hostess, nevertheless,
unpretending and simple in company; and only when
it chanced that Beauchamp’s name was mentioned
did she cast that quick supplicating nervous glance
at the earl, with a shadow of an elevation of her
shoulders, as if in apprehension of mordant pain.
We will make no mystery about it.
I would I could. Those happy tales of mystery
are as much my envy as the popular narratives of the
deeds of bread and cheese people, for they both create
a tide-way in the attentive mind; the mysterious pricking
our credulous flesh to creep, the familiar urging
our obese imagination to constitutional exercise.
And oh, the refreshment there is in dealing with characters
either contemptibly beneath us or supernaturally above!
My way is like a Rhone island in the summer drought,
stony, unattractive and difficult between the two
forceful streams of the unreal and the over-real, which
delight mankind honour to the conjurors!
My people conquer nothing, win none; they are actual,
yet uncommon. It is the clock-work of the brain
that they are directed to set in motion, and poor
troop of actors to vacant benches! the
conscience residing in thoughtfulness which they would
appeal to; and if you are there impervious to them,
we are lost: back I go to my wilderness, where,
as you perceive, I have contracted the habit of listening
to my own voice more than is good: The burden
of a child in her bosom had come upon Rosamund with
the visage of the Angel of Death fronting her in her
path. She believed that she would die; but like
much that we call belief, there was a kernel of doubt
in it, which was lively when her frame was enlivened,
and she then thought of the giving birth to this unloved
child, which was to disinherit the man she loved, in
whose interest solely (so she could presume to think,
because it had been her motive reason) she had married
the earl. She had no wish to be a mother; but
that prospect, and the dread attaching to it at her
time of life, she could have submitted to for Lord
Romfrey’s sake. It struck her like a scoffer’s
blow that she, the one woman on earth loving Nevil,
should have become the instrument for dispossessing
him. The revulsion of her feelings enlightened
her so far as to suggest, without enabling her to
fathom him, that instead of having cleverly swayed
Lord Romfrey, she had been his dupe, or a blind accomplice;
and though she was too humane a woman to think of
punishing him, she had so much to forgive that the
trifles daily and at any instant added to the load,
flushed her resentment, like fresh lights showing
new features and gigantic outlines. Nevil’s
loss of Cecilia she had anticipated; she had heard
of it when she was lying in physical and mental apathy
at Steynham. Lord Romfrey had repeated to her
the nature of his replies to the searching parental
questions of Colonel Halkett, and having foreseen it
all, and what was more, foretold it, she was not aroused
from her torpor. Latterly, with the return of
her natural strength, she had shown herself incapable
of hearing her husband speak of Nevil; nor was the
earl tardy in taking the hint to spare the mother
of his child allusions that vexed her. Now and
then they occurred perforce. The presence of Cecilia
exasperated Rosamund’s peculiar sensitiveness.
It required Louise Wardour-Devereux’s apologies
and interpretations to account for what appeared to
Cecilia strangely ill-conditioned, if not insane, in
Lady Romfrey’s behaviour. The most astonishing
thing to hear was, that Lady Romfrey had paid Mrs.
Devereux a visit at her Surrey house unexpectedly
one Sunday in the London season, for the purpose, as
it became evident, of meeting Mr. Blackburn Tuckham:
and how she could have known that Mr. Tuckham would
be there, Mrs. Devereux could not tell, for it was,
Louise assured Cecilia, purely by chance that he and
Mr. Lydiard were present: but the countess obtained
an interview with him alone, and Mr. Tuckham came
from it declaring it to have been more terrible than
any he had ever been called upon to endure. The
object of the countess was to persuade him to renounce
his bride.
Louise replied to the natural inquiry ’Upon
what plea?’ with a significant evasiveness.
She put her arms round Cecilia’s neck: ’I
trust you are not unhappy. You will get no release
from him.’
‘I am not unhappy,’ said
Cecilia, musically clear to convince her friend.
She was indeed glad to feel the stout
chains of her anchor restraining her when Lady Romfrey
talked of Nevil; they were like the safety of marriage
without the dreaded ceremony, and with solitude to
let her weep. Bound thus to a weaker man than
Blackburn Tuckham, though he had been more warmly
esteemed, her fancy would have drifted away over the
deeps, perhaps her cherished loyalty would have drowned
in her tears for Lady Romfrey tasked it
very severely: but he from whom she could hope
for no release, gave her some of the firmness which
her nature craved in this trial.
From saying quietly to her: ‘I
thought once you loved him,’ when alluding to
Nevil, Lady Romfrey passed to mournful exclamations,
and by degrees on to direct entreaties. She related
the whole story of Renee in England, and appeared
distressed with a desperate wonderment at Cecilia’s
mildness after hearing it. Her hearer would have
imagined that she had no moral sense, if it had not
been so perceptible that the poor lady’s mind
was distempered on the one subject of Nevil Beauchamp.
Cecilia’s high conception of duty, wherein she
was a peerless flower of our English civilization,
was incommunicable: she could practise, not explain
it. She bowed to Lady Romfrey’s praises
of Nevil, suffered her hands to be wrung, her heart
to be touched, all but an avowal of her love of him
to be wrested from her, and not the less did she retain
her cold resolution to marry to please her father
and fulfil her pledge. In truth, it was too late
to speak of Renee to her now. It did not beseem
Cecilia to remember that she had ever been a victim
of jealousy; and while confessing to many errors,
because she felt them, and gained a necessary strength
from them in the comfort of the consciousness
of pain, for example, which she sorely needed, that
the pain in her own breast might deaden her to Nevil’s
jealousy, the meanest of the errors of a lofty soul,
yielded no extract beyond the bare humiliation proper
to an acknowledgement that it had existed: so
she discarded the recollection of the passion which
had wrought the mischief. Since we cannot have
a peerless flower of civilization without artificial
aid, it may be understood how it was that Cecilia
could extinguish some lights in her mind and kindle
others, and wherefore what it was not natural for
her to do, she did. She had, briefly, a certain
control of herself.
Our common readings in the fictitious
romances which mark out a plot and measure their characters
to fit into it, had made Rosamund hopeful of the effect
of that story of Renee. A wooden young woman,
or a galvanized (sweet to the writer, either of them,
as to the reader so moveable they are!)
would have seen her business at this point, and have
glided melting to reconciliation and the chamber where
romantic fiction ends joyously. Rosamund had
counted on it.
She looked intently at Cecilia.
’He is ruined, wasted, ill, unloved; he has
lost you I am the cause!’ she cried
in a convulsion of grief.
‘Dear Lady Romfrey!’ Cecilia
would have consoled her. ’There is nothing
to lead us to suppose that Nevil is unwell, and you
are not to blame for anything: how can you be?’
’I spoke falsely of Dr. Shrapnel;
I am the cause. It lies on me! it pursues me.
Let me give to the poor as I may, and feel for the
poor, as I do, to get nearer to Nevil I
cannot have peace! His heart has turned from
me. He despises me. If I had spoken to Lord
Romfrey at Steynham, as he commanded me, you and he Oh!
cowardice: he is right, cowardice is the chief
evil in the world. He is ill; he is desperately
ill; he will die.’
‘Have you heard he is very ill, Lady Romfrey?’
‘No! no!’ Rosamund exclaimed; ‘it
is by not hearing that I know it!’
With the assistance of Louise Devereux,
Cecilia gradually awakened to what was going on in
the house. There had been a correspondence between
Miss Denham and the countess. Letters from Bevisham
had suddenly ceased. Presumably the earl had
stopped them: and if so it must have been for
a tragic reason.
Cecilia hinted some blame of Lord Romfrey to her father.
He pressed her hand and said:
’You don’t know what that man suffers.
Romfrey is fond of Nevil too, but he must guard his
wife; and the fact is Nevil is down with fever.
It ’s in the papers now; he may be able to conceal
it, and I hope he will. There’ll be a crisis,
and then he can tell her good news a little
illness and all right now! Of course,’
the colonel continued buoyantly, ’Nevil will
recover; he’s a tough wiry young fellow, but
poor Romfrey’s fears are natural enough about
the countess. Her mind seems to be haunted by
the doctor there Shrapnel, I mean; and
she’s exciteable to a degree that threatens the
worst in case of any accident in Bevisham.’
‘Is it not a kind of cowardice to conceal it?’
Cecilia suggested.
‘It saves her from fretting,’ said the
colonel.
’But she is fretting! If
Lord Romfrey would confide in her and trust to her
courage, papa, it would be best.’
Colonel Halkett thought that Lord Romfrey was the
judge.
Cecilia wished to leave a place where
this visible torture of a human soul was proceeding,
and to no purpose. She pointed out to her father,
by a variety of signs, that Lady Romfrey either knew
or suspected the state of affairs in Bevisham, and
repeated her remarks upon Nevil’s illness.
But Colonel Halkett was restrained from departing by
the earl’s constant request to him to stay.
Old friendship demanded it of him. He began to
share his daughter’s feelings at the sight of
Lady Romfrey. She was outwardly patient and submissive;
by nature she was a strong healthy woman; and she
attended to all her husband’s prescriptions for
the regulating of her habits, walked with him, lay
down for the afternoon’s rest, appeared amused
when he laboured to that effect, and did her utmost
to subdue the worm devouring her heart but the hours
of the delivery of the letter-post were fatal to her.
Her woeful: ’No letter for me!’ was
piteous. When that was heard no longer, her silence
and famished gaze chilled Cecilia. At night Rosamund
eyed her husband expressionlessly, with her head leaning
back in her chair, to the sorrow of the ladies beholding
her. Ultimately the contagion of her settled
misery took hold of Cecilia. Colonel Halkett was
induced by his daughter and Mrs. Devereux to endeavour
to combat a system that threatened consequences worse
than those it was planned to avert. He by this
time was aware of the serious character of the malady
which had prostrated Nevil. Lord Romfrey had
directed his own medical man to go down to Bevisham,
and Dr. Gannet’s report of Nevil was grave.
The colonel made light of it to his daughter, after
the fashion he condemned in Lord Romfrey, to whom
however he spoke earnestly of the necessity for partially
taking his wife into his confidence to the extent of
letting her know that a slight fever was running its
course with Nevil.
‘There will be no slight fever
in my wife’s blood,’ said the earl.
’I stand to weather the cape or run to wreck,
and it won’t do to be taking in reefs on a lee-shore.
You don’t see what frets her, colonel. For
years she has been bent on Nevil’s marriage.
It’s off: but if you catch Cecilia by the
hand and bring her to us I swear she loves
the fellow! that’s the medicine for
my wife. Say: will you do it? Tell Lady
Romfrey it shall be done. We shall stand upright
again!’
‘I’m afraid that’s
impossible, Romfrey,’ said the colonel.
’Play at it, then! Let
her think it. You’re helping me treat an
invalid. Colonel! my old friend! You save
my house and name if you do that. It’s
a hand round a candle in a burst of wind. There’s
Nevil dragged by a woman into one of their reeking
hovels so that Miss Denham at Shrapnel’s
writes to Lady Romfrey because the woman’s
drunken husband voted for him at the Election, and
was kicked out of employment, and fell upon the gin-bottle,
and the brats of the den died starving, and the man
sickened of a fever; and Nevil goes in and sits with
him! Out of that tangle of folly is my house
to be struck down? It looks as if the fellow
with his infernal “humanity,” were the
bad genius of an old nurse’s tale. He’s
a good fellow, colonel, he means well. This fever
will cure him, they say it sobers like bloodletting.
He’s a gallant fellow; you know that. He
fought to the skeleton in our last big war. On
my soul, I believe he’s good for a husband.
Frenchwoman or not, that affair’s over.
He shall have Steynham and Holdesbury. Can I say
more? Now, colonel, you go in to the countess.
Grasp my hand. Give me that help, and God bless
you! You light up my old days. She’s
a noble woman: I would not change her against
the best in the land. She has this craze about
Nevil. I suppose she’ll never get over it.
But there it is: and we must feed her with the
spoon.’
Colonel Halkett argued stutteringly
with the powerful man: ’It’s the
truth she ought to hear, Romfrey; indeed it is, if
you ’ll believe me. It ‘s his life
she is fearing for. She knows half.’
’She knows positively nothing,
colonel. Miss Denham’s first letter spoke
of the fellow’s having headaches, and staggering.
He was out on a cruise, and saw your schooner pass,
and put into some port, and began falling right and
left, and they got him back to Shrapnel’s:
and here it is that if you go to him you’ll
save him, and if you go to my wife you’ll save
her: and there you have it: and I ask my
old friend, I beg him to go to them both.’
’But you can’t surely
expect me to force my daughter’s inclinations,
my dear Romfrey?’
‘Cecilia loves the fellow!’
‘She is engaged to Mr. Tuckham.’
‘I’ll see the man Tuckham.’
‘Really, my dear lord!’
’Play at it, Halkett, play at
it! Tide us over this! Talk to her:
hint it and nod it. We have to round November.
I could strangle the world till that month’s
past. You’ll own,’ he added mildly
after his thunder, ’I’m not much of the
despot Nevil calls me. She has not a wish I don’t
supply. I’m at her beck, and everything
that’s mine. She’s a brave good woman.
I don’t complain. I run my chance.
But if we lose the child good night!
Boy or girl! boy!’
Lord Romfrey flung an arm up.
The child of his old age lived for him already:
he gave it all the life he had. This miracle,
this young son springing up on an earth decaying and
dark, absorbed him. This reviver of his ancient
line must not be lost. Perish every consideration
to avert it! He was ready to fear, love, or hate
terribly, according to the prospects of his child.
Colonel Halkett was obliged to enter
into a consultation, of a shadowy sort, with his daughter,
whose only advice was that they should leave the castle.
The penetrable gloom there, and the growing apprehension
concerning the countess and Nevil, tore her to pieces.
Even if she could have conspired with the earl to
hoodwink his wife, her strong sense told her it would
be fruitless, besides base. Father and daughter
had to make the stand against Lord Romfrey. He
saw their departure from the castle gates, and kissed
his hand to Cecilia, courteously, without a smile.
‘He may well praise the countess,
papa,’ said Cecilia, while they were looking
back at the castle and the moveless flag that hung
in folds by the mast above it. ’She has
given me her promise to avoid questioning him and
to accept his view of her duty. She said to me
that if Nevil should die she...’
Cecilia herself broke down, and gave
way to sobs in her father’s arms.