“THE BATTLE CRY OF FREEDOM”
Slowly Jasmine returned to her boudoir.
Laying the sjambok on the table among the books in
delicate bindings and the bowls of flowers, she stood
and looked at it with confused senses for a long time.
At last a wan smile stole to her lips, but it did
not reach her eyes. They remained absorbed and
searching, and were made painfully sad by the wide,
dark lines under them. Her fair skin was fairer
than ever, but it was delicately faded, giving her
a look of pensiveness, while yet there was that in
her carriage and at her mouth which suggested strength
and will and new forces at work in her. She carried
her head, weighted by its splendour of golden hair,
as an Eastern woman carries a goulah of water.
There was something pathetic yet self-reliant in the
whole figure. The passion slumbering in the eyes,
however, might at any moment burst forth in some wild
relinquishment of control and self-restraint.
“He did what I should have liked
to do,” she said aloud. “We are not
so different, after all. He is primitive at bottom,
and so am I. He gets carried away by his emotions,
and so do I.”
She took up the whip, examined it,
felt its weight, and drew it with a swift jerk through
the air.
“I did not even shrink when
Krool came stumbling down the stairs, with this cutting
his flesh,” she said to herself. “Somehow
it all seemed natural and right. What has come
to me? Are all my finer senses dead? Am
I just one of the crude human things who lived a million
years ago, and who lives again as crude as those;
with only the outer things changed? Then I wore
the skins of wild animals, and now I do the same,
just the same; with what we call more taste perhaps,
because we have ceased to see the beauty in the natural
thing.”
She touched the little band of grey
fur at the sleeve of her clinging velvet gown.
“Just a little distance away that
is all.”
Suddenly a light flashed up in her
eyes, and her face flushed as though some one had
angered her. She seized the whip again. “Yes,
I could have seen him whipped to death before my eyes the
coward, the abject coward. He did not speak for
me; he did not defend me; he did not deny. He
let Ian think death was too kind to him.
How dared he hurt me so! ... Death is so easy
a way out, but he would not have taken it. No,
no, no, it was not suicide; some one killed him.
He could never have taken his own life never.
He had not the courage.... No; he died of poison
or was strangled. Who did it? Who did it?
Was it Rudyard? Was it...? Oh, it wears
me out thinking, thinking, thinking!”
She sat down and buried her face in
her hands. “I am doomed doomed,”
she moaned. “I was doomed from the start.
It must always have been so, whatever I did.
I would do it again, whatever I did; I know I would
do it again, being what I was. It was in my veins,
in my blood from the start, from the very first days
of my life.”
All at once there flashed through
her mind again, as on that night so many centuries
ago, when she had slept the last sleep of her life
as it was, Swinburne’s lines on Baudelaire:
“There is no help for these
things, none to mend and none to mar; Not all our
songs, oh, friend, can make death clear Or make life
durable....”
“‘There is no help for
these things,’” she repeated with a sigh
which seemed to tear her heart in twain. “All
gone all. What is there left to do?
If death could make it better for any one, how easy!
But everything would be known somehow the
world would know, and every one would suffer more.
Not now no, not now. I must live on,
but not here. I must go away. I must find
a place to go where Rudyard will not come. There
is no place so far but it is not far enough. I
am twenty-five, and all is over all is
done for me. I have nothing that I want to keep,
there is nothing that I want to do except to go to
go and to be alone. Alone, always alone now.
It is either that, or be Jezebel, or ”
The door opened, and the servant brought
a card to her. “His Excellency, the Moravian
ambassador,” the footman said.
“Monsieur Mennaval?” she
asked, mechanically, as though scarcely realizing
what he had said.
“Yes, ma’am, Mr. Mennaval.”
“Please say I am indisposed,
and am sorry I cannot receive him to-day,” she
said.
“Very good, ma’am.”
The footman turned to go, then came back.
“Shall I tell the maid you want
her?” he asked, respectfully.
“No, why should you?” she asked.
“I thought you looked a bit
queer, ma’am,” he responded, hastily.
“I beg your pardon, ma’am.”
She rewarded him with a smile.
“Thank you, James, I think I should like her
after all. Ask her to come at once.”
When he had gone she leaned back and
shut her eyes. For a moment she was perfectly
motionless, then she sat up again and looked at the
card in her hand.
“M. Mennaval M.
Mennaval,” she said, with a note so cynical that
it betrayed more than her previous emotion, to such
a point of despair her mind had come.
M. Mennaval had played his part, had
done his service, had called out from her every resource
of coquetry and lure; and with wonderful art she had
cajoled him till he had yielded to influence, and Ian
had turned the key in the international lock.
M. Mennaval had been used with great skill to help
the man who was now gone from her forever, whom perhaps
she would never see again; and who wanted never to
see her again, never in all time or space. M.
Mennaval had played his game for his own desire, and
he had lost; but what had she gained where M. Mennaval
had lost? She had gained that which now Ian despised,
which he would willingly, so far as she was concerned,
reject with contempt.... And yet, and yet, while
Ian lived he must still be grateful to her that, by
whatever means, she had helped him to do what meant
so much to England. Yes, he could not wholly
dismiss her from his mind; he must still say, “This
she did for me this thing, in itself not
commendable, she did for me; and I took it for my
country.”
Her eyes were open, and her garden
had been invaded by those revolutionaries of life
and time, Nemesis, Penalty, Remorse. They marauded
every sacred and secret corner of her mind and soul.
They came with whips to scourge her. Nothing
was private to her inner self now. Everything
was arrayed against her. All life doubled backwards
on her, blocking her path.
M. Mennaval what did she
care for him! Yet here he was at her door asking
payment for the merchandise he had sold to her:
his judgment, his reputation as a diplomatist, his
freedom, the respect of the world for how
could the world respect a man at whom it laughed, a
man who had hoped to be given the key to a secret
door in a secret garden!
As Jasmine sat looking at the card,
the footman entered again with a note.
“His Excellency’s compliments,”
he said, and withdrew.
She opened the letter hesitatingly,
held it in her hand for a moment without reading it,
then, with an impulsive effort, did so. When she
had finished, she gave a cry of anger and struck her
tiny clinched hand upon her knee.
The note ran:
“Chere amie, you have
so much indisposition in these days. It is all
too vexing to your friends. The world will be
surprised, if you allow a migraine to come between
us. Indeed, it will be shocked. The world
understands always so imperfectly, and I have no gift
of explanation. Of course, I know the war has
upset many, but I thought you could not be upset so
easily no, it cannot be the war; so I must
try and think what it is. If I cannot think by
tomorrow at five o’clock, I will call again
to ask you. Perhaps the migraine will be better.
But, if you will that migraine to be far away, it
will fly, and then I shall be near. Is it not
so? You will tell me to-morrow at five, will you
not, belle amie?
“A toi, M. M.”
The words scorched her eyes.
They angered her, scourged her. One of life’s
Revolutionaries was insolently ravaging the secret
place where her pride dwelt. Pride what
pride had she now? Where was the room for pride
or vanity? ... And all the time she saw the face
of a dead man down by the river a face
now beneath the sod. It flashed before her eyes
at moments when she least could bear it, to agitate
her soul.
M. Mennaval how dare he
write to her so! “Chere amie”
and “A toi” how strange
the words looked now, how repulsive and strange!
It did not seem possible that once before he had
written such words to her. But never before had
these epithets or others been accompanied by such
meaning as his other words conveyed.
“I will not see him to-morrow.
I will not see him ever again, if I can help it,”
she said bitterly, and trembling with agitation.
“I shall go where I shall not be found.
I will go to-night.”
The door opened. Her maid entered.
“You wanted me, madame?” asked the
girl, in some excitement and very pale.
“Yes, what is the matter?
Why so agitated?” Jasmine asked.
The maid’s eyes were on the
sjambok. She pointed to it. “It was
that, madame. We are all agitated.
It was terrible. One had never seen anything
like that before in one’s life, madame never.
It was like the days yes, of slavery.
It was like the galleys of Toulon in the old days.
It was ”
“There, don’t be so eloquent,
Lablanche. What do you know of the galleys of
Toulon or the days of slavery?”
“Madame, I have heard, I have read, I ”
“Yes, but did you love Krool so?”
The girl straightened herself with
dramatic indignation. “Madame, that man,
that creature, that toad!”
“Then why so exercised?
Were you so pained at his punishment? Were all
the household so pained?”
“Every one hated him, madame,”
said the girl, with energy.
“Then let me hear no more of
this impudent nonsense,” Jasmine said, with
decision.
“Oh, madame, to speak
to me like this!” Tears were ready to do needful
service.
“Do you wish to remain with me, Lablanche?”
“Ah, madame, but yes ”
“Then my head aches, and I don’t
want you to make it worse.... And, see, Lablanche,
there is that grey walking-suit; also the mauve dressing-gown,
made by Loison; take them, if you can make them fit
you; and be good.”
“Madame, how kind ah, no one is like
you, madame!”
“Well, we shall see about that
quite soon. Put out at once every gown of mine
for me to see, and have trunks ready to pack immediately;
but only three trunks, not more.”
“Madame is going away?”
“Do as I say, Lablanche.
We go to-night. The grey gown and the mauve dressing-gown
that Loison made, you will look well in them.
Quick, now, please.”
In a flutter Lablanche left the room, her eyes gleaming.
She had had her mind on the grey suit
for some time, but the mauve dressing-gown as well it
was too good to be true.
She almost ran into Lady Tynemouth’s
arms as the door opened. With a swift apology
she sped away, after closing the door upon the visitor.
Jasmine rose and embraced her friend,
and Lady Tynemouth subsided into a chair with a sigh.
“My dear Jasmine, you look so
frail,” she said. “A short time ago
I feared you were going to blossom into too ripe fruit,
now you look almost a little pinched. But it
quite becomes you, mignonne quite.
You have dark lines under your eyes, and that transparency
of skin it is quite too fetching.
Are you glad to see me?”
“I would have seen no one to-day,
no one, except you or Rudyard.”
“Love and duty,” said
Lady Tynemouth, laughing, yet acutely alive to the
something so terribly wrong, of which she had spoken
to Ian Stafford.
“Why is it my duty to see you,
Alice?” asked Jasmine, with the dry glint in
her tone which had made her conversation so pleasing
to men.
“You clever girl, how you turn
the tables on me,” her friend replied, and then,
seeing the sjambok on the table, took it up. “What
is this formidable instrument? Are you flagellating
the saints?”
“Not the saints, Alice.”
“You don’t mean to say you are going to
scourge yourself?”
Then they both smiled and
both immediately sighed. Lady Tynemouth’s
sympathy was deeply roused for Jasmine, and she meant
to try and win her confidence and to help her in her
trouble, if she could; but she was full of something
else at this particular moment, and she was not completely
conscious of the agony before her.
“Have you been using this sjambok
on Mennaval?” she asked with an attempt at lightness.
“I saw him leaving as I came in. He looked
rather dejected or stormy, I don’t
quite know which.”
“Does it matter which? I didn’t see
Mennaval today.”
“Then no wonder he looked dejected
and stormy. But what is the history of this instrument
of torture?” she asked, holding up the sjambok
again.
“Krool.”
“Krool! Jasmine, you surely don’t
mean to say that you ”
“Not I it was Rudyard. Krool
was insolent a half-caste, you know.”
“Krool why, yes,
it was he I saw being helped into a cab by a policeman
just down there in Piccadilly. You don’t
mean that Rudyard ”
She pushed the sjambok away from her.
“Yes terribly.”
“Then I suppose the insolence was terrible enough
to justify it.”
“Quite, I think.” Jasmine’s
voice was calm.
“But of course it is not usual in
these parts.”
“Rudyard is not usual in these
parts, or Krool either. It was a touch of the
Vaal.”
Lady Tynemouth gave a little shudder.
“I hope it won’t become fashionable.
We are altogether too sensational nowadays. But,
seriously, Jasmine, you are not well. You must
do something. You must have a change.”
“I am going to do something to have
a change.”
“That’s good. Where are you going,
dear?”
“South.... And how are you getting on with
your hospital-ship?”
Lady Tynemouth threw up her hands.
“Jasmine, I’m in despair. I had set
my heart upon it. I thought I could do it easily,
and I haven’t done it, after trying as hard
as can be. Everything has gone wrong, and now
Tynie cables I mustn’t go to South Africa.
Fancy a husband forbidding a wife to come to him.”
“Well, perhaps it’s better
than a husband forbidding his wife to leave him.”
“Jasmine, I believe you would joke if you were
dying.”
“I am dying.”
There was that in the tone of Jasmine’s
voice which gave her friend a start. She eyed
her suddenly with a great anxiety.
“And I’m not jesting,”
Jasmine added, with a forced smile. “But
tell me what has gone wrong with all your plans.
You don’t mind what Tynemouth says. Of
course you will do as you like.”
“Of course; but still Tynie
has never ‘issued instructions’ before,
and if there was any time I ought to humour him it
is now. He’s so intense about the war!
But I can’t explain everything on paper to him,
so I’ve written to say I’m going to South
Africa to explain, and that I’ll come back by
the next boat, if my reasons are not convincing.”
In other circumstances Jasmine would
have laughed. “He will find you convincing,”
she said, meaningly.
“I said if he found my reasons convincing.”
“You will be the only reason to him.”
“My dear Jasmine, you are really
becoming sentimental. Tynie would blush to discover
himself being silly over me. We get on so well
because we left our emotions behind us when we married.”
“Yours, I know, you left on the Zambesi,”
said Jasmine, deliberately.
A dull fire came into Lady Tynemouth’s
eyes, and for an instant there was danger of Jasmine
losing a friend she much needed; but Lady Tynemouth
had a big heart, and she knew that her friend was in
a mood when anything was possible, or everything impossible.
So she only smiled, and said, easily:
“Dearest Jasmine, that umbrella episode which
made me love Ian Stafford for ever and ever without
even amen came after I was married, and so your pin
doesn’t prick, not a weeny bit. No, it
isn’t Tynie that makes me sad. It’s
the Climbers who won’t pay.”
“The Climbers? You want money for ”
“Yes, the hospital-ship; and
I thought they’d jump at it; but they’ve
all been jumping in other directions. I asked
the Steuvenfeldts, the Boulters, the Felix Fowles,
the Brutons, the Sheltons, and that fellow Mackerel,
who has so much money he doesn’t know what to
do with it and twenty others; and Mackerel was the
only one who would give me anything at all large.
He gave me ten thousand pounds. But I want fifty fifty,
my beloved. I’m simply broken-hearted.
It would do so much good, and I could manage the thing
so well, and I could get other splendid people to
help me to manage it there’s Effie
Lyndhall and Mary Meacham. The Mackerel wanted
to come along, too, but I told him he could come out
and fetch us back that there mustn’t
be any scandal while the war was on. I laugh,
my dear, but I could cry my eyes out. I want something
to do I’ve always wanted something
to do. I’ve always been sick of an idle
life, but I wouldn’t do a hundred things I might
have done. This thing I can do, however, and,
if I did it, some of my debt to the world would be
paid. It seems to me that these last fifteen years
in England have been awful. We are all restless;
we all have been going, going nowhere;
we have all been doing, doing nothing; we
have all been thinking, thinking, thinking of
ourselves. And I’ve been a playbody like
the rest; I’ve gone with the Climbers because
they could do things for me; I’ve wanted more
and more of everything more gadding, more
pleasure, more excitement. It’s been like
a brass-band playing all the time, my life this past
ten years. I’m sick of it. It’s
only some big thing that can take me out of it.
I’ve got to make some great plunge, or in a
few years more I’ll be a middle-aged peeress
with nothing left but a double chin, a tongue for
gossip, and a string of pearls. There must be
a bouleversement of things as they are, or good-bye
to everything except emptiness. Don’t you
see, Jasmine, dearest?”
“Yes yes, I see.”
Jasmine got up, went to her desk, opened a drawer,
took out a book, and began to write hastily. “Go
on,” she said as she wrote; “I can hear
what you are saying.”
“But are you really interested?”
“Even Tynemouth would find you interesting and
convincing. Go on.”
“I haven’t anything more
to say, except that nothing lies between me and flagellation
and the sack cloth,” she toyed with
the sjambok “except the Climbers;
and they have failed me. They won’t play or
pay.”
Jasmine rose from the desk and came
forward with a paper in her hand. “No,
they have not failed you, Alice,” she said, gently.
“The Climbers seldom really disappoint you.
The thing is, you must know how to talk to them, to
say the right thing, the flattering, the tactful, and
the nice sentimental thing, they mostly
have middle-class sentimentality and then
you get what you want. As you do now. There....”
She placed in her friend’s hand
a long, narrow slip of paper. Lady Tynemouth
looked astonished, gazed hard at the paper, then sprang
to her feet, pale and agitated.
“Jasmine you this sixty
thousand pounds!” she cried. “A cheque
for sixty thousand pounds Jasmine!”
There was a strange brilliance in
Jasmine’s eyes, a hectic flush on her cheek.
“It must not be cashed for forty-eight
hours; but after that the money will be there.”
Lady Tynemouth caught Jasmine’s
shoulders in her trembling yet strong fingers, and
looked into the wild eyes with searching inquiry and
solicitude.
“But, Jasmine, it isn’t
possible. Will Rudyard can you afford
it?”
“That will not be Rudyard’s
money which you will get. It will be all my own.”
“But you yourself are not rich.
Sixty thousand pounds why?”
“It is because it is a sacrifice
to me that I give it; because it is my own; because
it is two-thirds of what I possess. And if all
is needed before we have finished, then all shall
go.”
Alice Tynemouth still held the shoulders,
still gazed into the eyes which burned and shone,
which seemed to look beyond this room into some world
of the soul or imagination. “Jasmine, you
are not crazy, are you?” she asked, excitedly.
“You will not repent of this? It is not
a sudden impulse?”
“Yes, it is a sudden impulse;
it came to me all at once. But when it came I
knew it was the right thing, the only thing to do.
I will not repent of it. Have no fear. It
is final. It is sure. It means that, like
you, I have found a rope to drag myself out of this
stream which sweeps me on to the rapids.”
“Jasmine, do you mean that you
will that you are coming, too?”
“Yes, I am going with you.
We will do it together. You shall lead, and I
shall help. I have a gift for organization.
My grandfather? he ”
“All the world knows that.
If you have anything of his gift, we shall not fail.
We shall feel that we are doing something for our
country and, oh, so much for ourselves!
And we shall be near our men. Tynie and Ruddy
Byng will be out there, and we shall be ready for
anything if necessary. But Rudyard, will he approve?”
She held up the cheque.
Jasmine made a passionate gesture.
“There are times when we must do what something
in us tells us to do, no matter what the consequences.
I am myself. I am not a slave. If I take
my own way in the pleasures of life, why should I
not take it in the duties and the business of life?”
Her eyes took on a look of abstraction,
and her small hand closed on the large, capable hand
of her friend. “Isn’t work the secret
of life? My grandfather used to say it was.
Always, always, he used to say to me, ’Do something,
Jasmine. Find a work to do, and do it. Make
the world look at you, not for what you seem to be,
but for what you do. Work cures nearly every
illness and nearly every trouble’ that
is what he said. And I must work or go mad.
I tell you I must work, Alice. We will work together
out there where great battles will be fought.”
A sob caught her in the throat, and
Alice Tynemouth wrapped her round with tender arms.
“It will do you good, darling,” she said,
softly. “It will help you through through
it all, whatever it is.”
For an instant Jasmine felt that she
must empty out her heart; tell the inner tale of her
struggle; but the instant of weakness passed as suddenly
as it came, and she only said repeating
Alice Tynemouth’s words: “Yes, through
it all, through it all, whatever it is.”
Then she added: “I want to do something
big. I can, I can. I want to get out of
this into the open world. I want to fight.
I want to balance things somehow inside
myself....”
All at once she became very quiet.
“But we must do business like business people.
This money: there must be a small committee of
business men, who ”
Alice Tynemouth finished the sentence
for her. “Who are not Climbers?”
“Yes. But the whole organization
must be done by ourselves all the practical,
unfinancial work. The committee will only be like
careful trustees.”
There was a new light in Jasmine’s
eyes. She felt for the moment that life did not
end in a cul de sac. She knew that
now she had found a way for Rudyard and herself to
separate without disgrace, without humiliation to
him. She could see a few steps ahead. When
she gave Lablanche instructions to put out her clothes
a little while before, she did not know what she was
going to do; but now she knew. She knew how she
could make it easier for Rudyard when the inevitable
hour came, and it was here which
should see the end of their life together. He
need not now sacrifice himself so much for her sake.
She wanted to be alone, and, as if
divining her thought, Lady Tynemouth embraced her,
and a moment later there was no sound in the room save
the ticking of the clock and the crackle of the fire.
How silent it was! The world
seemed very far away. Peace seemed to have taken
possession of the place, and Jasmine’s stillness
as she sat by the fire staring into the embers was
a part of it. So lost was she that she was not
conscious of an opening door and of a footstep.
She was roused by a low voice.
“Jasmine!”
She did not start. It was as
though there had come a call, for which she had waited
long, and she appeared to respond slowly to it, as
one would to a summons to the scaffold. There
was no outward agitation now, there was only a cold
stillness which seemed little to belong to the dainty
figure which had ever been more like a decoration than
a living utility in the scheme of things. The
crisis had come which she had dreaded yet invited that
talk which they two must have before they went their
different ways. She had never looked Rudyard in
the eyes direct since the day when Adrian Fellowes
died. They had met, but never quite alone; always
with some one present, either the servants or some
other. Now they were face to face.
On Rudyard’s lips was a faint
smile, but it lacked the old bonhomie which was part
of his natural equipment; and there were still sharp,
haggard traces of the agitation which had accompanied
the expulsion of Krool.
For an instant the idea possessed
her that she would tell him everything there was to
tell, and face the consequences, no matter what they
might be. It was not in her nature to do things
by halves, and since catastrophe was come, her will
was to drink the whole cup to the dregs. She
did not want to spare herself. Behind it all lay
something of that terrible wilfulness which had controlled
her life so far. It was the unlovely soul of
a great pride. She did not want to be forgiven
for anything. She did not want to be condoned.
There was a spirit of defiance which refused to accept
favours, preferring punishment to the pity or the
pardon which stooped to make it easier for her.
It was a dangerous pride, and in the mood of it she
might throw away everything, with an abandonment and
recklessness only known to such passionate natures.
The mood came on her all at once as
she stood and looked at Rudyard. She read, or
she thought she read in his eyes, in his smile, the
superior spirit condescending to magnanimity, to compassion;
and her whole nature was instantly up in arms.
She almost longed on the instant to strip herself
bare, as it were, and let him see her as she really
was, or as, in her despair, she thought she really
was. The mood in which she had talked to Lady
Tynemouth was gone, and in its place a spirit of revolt
was at work. A certain sullenness which Rudyard
and no one else had ever seen came into her eyes,
and her lips became white with an ominous determination.
She forgot him and all that he would suffer if she
told him the whole truth; and the whole truth would,
in her passion, become far more than the truth:
she was again the egoist, the centre of the universe.
What happened to her was the only thing which mattered
in all the world. So it had ever been; and her
beauty and her wit and her youth and the habit of
being spoiled had made it all possible, without those
rebuffs and that confusion which fate provides sooner
or later for the egoist.
“Well,” she said, sharply,
“say what you wish to say. You have wanted
to say it badly. I am ready.”
He was stunned by what seemed to him
the anger and the repugnance in her tone.
“You remember you asked me to
come, Jasmine, when you took the sjambok from me.”
He nodded towards the table where
it lay, then went forward and picked it up, his face
hardening as he did so.
Like a pendulum her mood swung back.
By accident he had said the one thing which could
have moved her, changed her at the moment. The
savage side of him appealed to her. What he lacked
in brilliance and the lighter gifts of raillery and
eloquence and mental give-and-take, he had balanced
by his natural forces from the power-house,
as she had called it long ago. Pity, solicitude,
the forced smile, magnanimity, she did not want in
this black mood. They would have made her cruelly
audacious, and her temper would have known no license;
but now, suddenly, she had a vision of him as he stamped
down the staircase, his coat off, laying the sjambok
on the shoulders of the man who had injured her so,
who hated her so, and had done so over all the years.
It appealed to her.
In her heart of hearts she was sure
he had done it directly or indirectly for her sake;
and that was infinitely more to her than that he should
stoop from the heights to pick her up. He was
what he was because Heaven had made him so; and she
was what she was because Heaven had forgotten to make
her otherwise; and he could not know or understand
how she came to do things that he would not do.
But she could know and understand why his hand fell
on Krool like that of Cain on Abel. She softened,
changed at once.
“Yes, I remember,” she
said. “I’ve been upset. Krool
was insolent, and I ordered him to go. He would
not.”
“I’ve been a fool to keep
him all these years. I didn’t know what
he was a traitor, the slimmest of the slim,
a real Hottentot-Boer. I was pigheaded about
him, because he seemed to care so much about me.
That counts for much with the most of us.”
“Alice Tynemouth saw a policeman
help him into a cab in Piccadilly and take him away.
Will there be trouble?”
A grim look crossed his face.
“I think not,” he responded. “There
are reasons. He has been stealing information
for years, and sending it to Kruger, he and ”
He stopped short, and into his face
came a look of sullen reticence.
“Yes, he and and
some one else? Who else?” Her face was white.
She had a sudden intuition.
He met her eyes. “Adrian
Fellowes what Fellowes knew, Krool knew,
and one way or another, by one means or another, Fellowes
knew a great deal.”
The knowledge of Adrian Fellowes’
treachery and its full significance had hardly come
home to him, even when he punished Krool, so shaken
was he by the fact that the half-caste had been false
to him. Afterwards, however, as the Partners
all talked together up-stairs, the enormity of the
dead man’s crime had fastened on him, and his
brain had been stunned by the terrible thought that
directly or indirectly Jasmine had abetted the crime.
Things he had talked over with her, and with no one
else, had got to Kruger’s knowledge, as the information
from South Africa showed. She had at least been
indiscreet, had talked to Fellowes with some freedom
or he could not have known what he did. But directly,
knowingly abetted Fellowes? Of course, she had
not done that; but her foolish confidences had abetted
treachery, had wronged him, had helped to destroy
his plans, had injured England.
He had savagely punished Krool for
insolence to her and for his treachery, but a new
feeling had grown up in him in the last half-hour.
Under the open taunts of his colleagues, a deep resentment
had taken possession of him that his work, so hard
to do, so important and critical, should have been
circumvented by the indiscretions of his wife.
Upon her now this announcement came
with crushing force. Adrian Fellowes had gained
from her she knew it all too well now that
which had injured her husband; from which, at any
rate, he ought to have been immune. Her face
flushed with a resentment far greater than that of
Rudyard’s, and it was heightened by a humiliation
which overwhelmed her. She had been but a tool
in every sense, she, Jasmine Byng, one who ruled,
had been used like a she could not form
the comparison in her mind by a dependent,
a hanger-on of her husband’s bounty; and it was
through her, originally, that he had been given a real
chance in life by Rudyard.
“I am sorry,” she said,
calmly, as soon as she could get her voice. “I
was the means of your employing him.”
“That did not matter,”
he said, rather nervously. “There was no
harm in that, unless you knew his character before
he came to me.”
“You think I did?”
“I cannot think so. It would have been
too ruthless too wicked.”
She saw his suffering, and it touched
her. “Of course I did not know that he
could do such a thing so shameless.
He was a low coward. He did not deserve decent
burial,” she added. “He had good fortune
to die as he did.”
“How did he die?” Rudyard
asked her, with a face so unlike what it had always
been, so changed by agitation, that it scarcely seemed
his. His eyes were fixed on hers.
She met them resolutely. Did
he ask her in order to see if she had any suspicion
of himself? Had he done it? If he had, there
would be some mitigation of her suffering. Or
was it Ian Stafford who had done it? One or the
other but which?
“He died without being made
to suffer,” she said. “Most people
who do wrong have to suffer.”
“But they live on,” he said, bitterly.
“That is no great advantage
unless you want to live,” she replied. “Do
you know how he died?” she added, after a moment,
with sharp scrutiny.
He shook his head and returned her
scrutiny with added poignancy. “It does
not matter. He ceases to do any more harm.
He did enough.”
“Yes, quite enough,” she
said, with a withered look, and going over to her
writing-table, stood looking at him questioningly.
He did not speak again, however.
Presently she said, very quietly, “I am going
away.”
“I do not understand.”
“I am going to work.”
“I understand still less.”
She took from the writing-table her
cheque-book, and handed it to him. He looked
at it, and read the counterfoil of the cheque she had
given to Alice Tynemouth.
He was bewildered. “What does this mean?”
he asked.
“It is for a hospital-ship.”
“Sixty thousand pounds! Why, it is nearly
all you have.”
“It is two-thirds of what I have.”
“Why in God’s name, why?”
“To buy my freedom,” she answered, bitterly.
“From what?”
“From you.”
He staggered back and leaned heavily against a bookcase.
“Freedom from me!” he exclaimed, hoarsely.
He had had terribly bitter and revengeful
feelings during the last hour, but all at once his
real self emerged, the thing that was deepest in him.
“Freedom from me? Has it come to that?”
“Yes, absolutely. Do you
remember the day you first said to me that something
was wrong with it all, the day that Ian
Stafford dined after his return from abroad?
Well, it has been all wrong cruelly wrong.
We haven’t made the best of things together,
when everything was with us to do so. I have
spoiled it all. It hasn’t been what you
expected.”
“Nor what you expected?” he asked, sharply.
“Nor what I expected; but you are not to blame
for that.”
Suddenly all he had ever felt for
her swept through his being, and sullenness fled away.
“You have ceased to love me, then.... See,
that is the one thing that matters, Jasmine.
All else disappears beside that. Do you love
me? Do you love me still? Do you love me,
Jasmine? Answer that.”
He looked like the ghost of his old
dead self, pleading to be recognized.
His misery oppressed her. “What
does one know of one’s self in the midst of
all this of everything that has nothing
to do with love?” she asked.
What she might have said in the dark
mood which was coming on her again it is hard to say,
but from beneath the window of the room which looked
on Park Lane, there came the voice of a street-minstrel,
singing to a travelling piano, played by sympathetic
fingers, the song:
“She is far from the land where
her young hero sleeps, And lovers around her are sighing ”
The simple pathos of the song had
nothing to do with her own experience or her own case,
but the flood of it swept through her veins like tears.
She sank into a chair and listened for a moment with
eyes shining, then she sprang up in an agitation which
made her tremble and her face go white.
“No, no, no, Rudyard, I do not
love you,” she said, swiftly. “And
because I do not love you, I will not stay. I
never loved you, never truly loved you at any time.
I never knew myself that is all that I
can say. I never was awake till now. I never
was wholly awake till I saw you driving Krool into
the street with the sjambok.”
She flung up her hands. “For
God’s sake, let me be truthful at last.
I don’t want to hurt you I have hurt
you enough, but I do not love you; and I must go.
I am going with Alice Tynemouth. We are going
together to do something. Maybe I shall learn
what will make life possible.”
He reached out his arms towards her
with a sudden tenderness.
“No, no, no, do not touch me,”
she cried. “Do not come near me. I
must be alone now, and from now on and on....
You do not understand, but I must be alone. I
must work it out alone, whatever it is.”
She got up with a quick energy, and
went over to the writing-table again. “It
may take every penny I have got, but I shall do it,
because it is the thing I feel I must do.”
“You have millions, Jasmine,”
he said, in a low, appealing voice.
She looked at him almost fiercely
again. “No, I have what is my own, my very
own, and no more,” she responded, bitterly.
“You will do your work, and I will do mine.
You will stay here. There will be no scandal,
because I shall be going with Alice Tynemouth, and
the world will not misunderstand.”
“There will be no scandal, because
I am going, too,” he said, firmly.
“No, no, you cannot, must not, go,” she
urged.
“I am going to South Africa
in two days,” he replied. “Stafford
was going with me, but he cannot go for a week or
so. He will help you, I am sure, with forming
your committee and arranging, if you will insist on
doing this thing. He is still up-stairs there
with the rest of them. I will get him down now,
I ”
“Ian Stafford is here in
this house?” she asked, with staring eyes.
What inconceivable irony it all was! She could
have shrieked with that laughter which is more painful
far than tears.
“Yes, he is up-stairs.
I made him come and help us he knows the
international game. He will help you, too.
He is a good friend you will know how good
some day.”
She went white and leaned against the table.
“No, I shall not need him,” she said.
“We have formed our committee.”
“But when I am gone, he can advise you, he can ”
“Oh oh!” she murmured, and
swayed forward, fainting.
He caught her and lowered her gently into a chair.
“You are only mad,” he
whispered to ears which heard not as he bent over
her. “You will be sane some day.”