“And
Mario can soothe with a tenor note
The
souls in purgatory.”
“Non ti scordar di mi!”
The voice rang out with passionate stealthy sweetness,
finding its way into far recesses of human feeling.
Women of perfect poise and with the confident look
of luxury and social fame dropped their eyes abstractedly
on the opera-glasses lying in their laps, or the programmes
they mechanically fingered, and recalled, they knew
not why for what had it to do with this
musical narration of a tragic Italian tale! the
days when, in the first flush of their wedded life,
they had set a seal of devotion and loyalty and love
upon their arms, which, long ago, had gone to the
limbo of lost jewels, with the chaste, fresh desires
of worshipping hearts. Young egotists, supremely
happy and defiant in the pride of the fact that they
loved each other, and that it mattered little what
the rest of the world enjoyed, suffered, and endured these
were suddenly arrested in their buoyant and solitary
flight, and stirred restlessly in their seats.
Old men whose days of work were over; who no longer
marshalled their legions, or moved at a nod great
ships upon the waters in masterful manoeuvres; whose
voices were heard no more in chambers of legislation,
lashing partisan feeling to a height of cruelty or
lulling a storm among rebellious followers; whose
intellects no longer devised vast schemes of finance,
or applied secrets of science to transform industry these
heard the enthralling cry of a soul with the darkness
of eternal loss gathering upon it, and drew back within
themselves; for they too had cried like this one time
or another in their lives. Stricken, they had
cried out, and ambition had fled away, leaving behind
only the habit of living, and of work and duty.
As Hylda, in the Duchess of Snowdon’s
box, listened with a face which showed nothing of
what she felt, and looking straight at the stage before
her, the words of a poem she had learned but yesterday
came to her mind, and wove themselves into the music
thrilling from the voice in the stage prison:
“And what is our failure here but
a triumph’s evidence
For the fulness of the days?
Have we withered or agonised?
Why else was the pause prolonged
but that singing might issue
thence?
Why rushed the discords in,
but that harmony should be prized?”
“And what is our failure here
but a triumph’s evidence?” Was it then
so? The long weeks which had passed since that
night at Hamley, when she had told Eglington the truth
about so many things, had brought no peace, no understanding,
no good news from anywhere. The morning after
she had spoken with heart laid bare. Eglington
had essayed to have a reconciliation; but he had come
as the martyr, as one injured. His egotism at
such a time, joined to his attempt to make light of
things, of treating what had happened as a mere “moment
of exasperation,” as “one of those episodes
inseparable from the lives of the high-spirited,”
only made her heart sink and grow cold, almost as insensible
as the flesh under a spray of ether. He had been
neither wise nor patient. She had not slept after
that bitter, terrible scene, and the morning had found
her like one battered by winter seas, every nerve desperately
alert to pain, yet tears swimming at her heart and
ready to spring to her eyes at a touch of the real
thing, the true note and she knew so well
what the true thing was! Their great moment had
passed, had left her withdrawn into herself, firmly,
yet without heart, performing the daily duties of
life, gay before the world, the delightful hostess,
the necessary and graceful figure at so many functions.
Even as Soolsby had done, who went
no further than to tell Eglington his dark tale, and
told no one else, withholding it from “Our Man”;
as Sybil Lady Eglington had shrunk when she had been
faced by her obvious duty, so Hylda hesitated, but
from better reason than either. To do right in
the matter was to strike her husband it
must be a blow now, since her voice had failed.
To do right was to put in the ancient home and house
of Eglington one whom he with anger and
without any apparent desire to have her altogether
for himself, all the riches of her life and love had
dared to say commanded her sympathy and interest, not
because he was a man dispossessed of his rights, but
because he was a man possessed of that to which he
had no right. The insult had stung her, had driven
her back into a reserve, out of which she seemed unable
to emerge. How could she compel Eglington to
do right in this thing do right by his
own father’s son?
Meanwhile, that father’s son
was once more imperilling his life, once more putting
England’s prestige in the balance in the Soudan,
from which he had already been delivered twice as
though by miracles. Since he had gone, months
before, there had been little news; but there had been
much public anxiety; and she knew only too well that
there had been ‘pourparlers’ with
foreign ministers, from which no action came safe-guarding
David.
Many a human being has realised the
apathy, the partial paralysis of the will, succeeding
a great struggle, which has exhausted the vital forces.
Many a general who has fought a desperate and victorious
fight after a long campaign, and amid all the anxieties
and miseries of war, has failed to follow up his advantage,
from a sudden lesion of the power for action in him.
He has stepped from the iron routine of daily effort
into a sudden freedom, and his faculties have failed
him, the iron of his will has vanished. So it
was with Hylda. She waited for she knew not what.
Was it some dim hope that Eglington might see the right
as she saw it? That he might realise how unreal
was this life they were living, outwardly peaceful
and understanding, deluding the world, but inwardly
a place of tears. How she dreaded the night and
its recurrent tears, and the hours when she could
not sleep, and waited for the joyless morning, as
one lost on the moor, blanched with cold, waits for
the sun-rise! Night after night at a certain
hour the hour when she went to bed at last
after that poignant revelation to Eglington she
wept, as she had wept then, heart-broken tears of
disappointment, disillusion, loneliness; tears for
the bitter pity of it all; for the wasting and wasted
opportunities; for the common aim never understood
or planned together; for the precious hours lived
in an air of artificial happiness and social excitement;
for a perfect understanding missed; for the touch
which no longer thrilled.
But the end of it all must come.
She was looking frail and delicate, and her beauty,
newly refined, and with a fresh charm, as of mystery
or pain, was touched by feverishness. An old impatience
once hers was vanished, and Kate Heaver would have
given a month’s wages for one of those flashes
of petulance of other days ever followed by a smile.
Now the smile was all too often there, the patient
smile which comes to those who have suffered.
Hardness she felt at times, where Eglington was concerned,
for he seemed to need her now not at all, to be self-contained,
self-dependent almost arrogantly so; but
she did not show it, and she was outwardly patient.
In his heart of hearts Eglington believed
that she loved him, that her interest in David was
only part of her idealistic temperament the
admiration of a woman for a man of altruistic aims;
but his hatred of David, of what David was, and of
his irrefutable claims, reacted on her. Perverseness
and his unhealthy belief that he would master her in
the end, that she would one day break down and come
to him, willing to take his view in all things, and
to be his slave all this drove him farther
and farther on a fatal, ever-broadening path.
Success had spoiled him. He applied
his gifts in politics, daringly unscrupulous, superficially
persuasive, intellectually insinuating, to his wife;
and she, who had been captured once by all these things,
was not to be captured again. She knew what alone
could capture her; and, as she sat and watched the
singers on the stage now, the divine notes of that
searching melody still lingering in her heart, there
came a sudden wonder whether Eglington’s heart
could not be wakened. She knew that it never
had been, that he had never known love, the transfiguring
and reclaiming passion. No, no, surely it could
not be too late her marriage with him had
only come too soon! He had ridden over her without
mercy; he had robbed her of her rightful share of the
beautiful and the good; he had never loved her; but
if love came to him, if he could but once realise
how much there was of what he had missed! If he
did not save himself and her what
would be the end? She felt the cords drawing
her elsewhere; the lure of a voice she had heard in
an Egyptian garden was in her ears. One night
at Hamley, in an abandonment of grief-life hurt her
so she had remembered the prophecy she had
once made that she would speak to David, and that
he would hear; and she had risen from her seat, impelled
by a strange new feeling, and had cried: “Speak!
speak to me!” As plainly as she had ever heard
anything in her life, she had heard his voice speak
to her a message that sank into the innermost recesses
of her being, and she had been more patient afterwards.
She had no doubt whatever; she had spoken to him,
and he had answered; but the answer was one which
all the world might have heard.
Down deep in her nature was an inalienable
loyalty, was a simple, old-fashioned feeling that
“they two,” she and Eglington, should cleave
unto each other till death should part. He had
done much to shatter that feeling; but now, as she
listened to Mario’s voice, centuries of predisposition
worked in her, and a great pity awoke in her heart.
Could she not save him, win him, wake him, cure him
of the disease of Self?
The thought brought a light to her
eyes which had not been there for many a day.
Out of the deeps of her soul this mist of a pure selflessness
rose, the spirit of that idealism which was the real
chord of sympathy between her and Egypt.
Yes, she would, this once again, try
to win the heart of this man; and so reach what was
deeper than heart, and so also give him that without
which his life must be a failure in the end, as Sybil
Eglington had said. How often had those bitter
anguished words of his mother rung in her ears “So
brilliant and unscrupulous, like yourself; but, oh,
so sure of winning a great place in the world... so
calculating and determined and ambitious!” They
came to her now, flashed between the eager solicitous
eyes of her mind and the scene of a perfect and everlasting
reconciliation which it conjured up flashed
and were gone; for her will rose up and blurred them
into mist; and other words of that true palimpsest
of Sybil Eglington’s broken life came instead:
“And though he loves me little, as he loves
you little too, yet he is my son, and for what he
is we are both responsible one way or another.”
As the mother, so the wife. She said to herself
now in sad paraphrase, “And though he loves
me little, yet he is my husband, and for what he is
it may be that I am in some sense responsible.”
Yet he is my husband! All that it was came to
her; the closed door, the drawn blinds; the intimacy
which shut them away from all the world; the things
said which can only be said without desecration between
two honest souls who love each other; and that sweet
isolation which makes marriage a separate world, with
its own sacred revelation. This she had known;
this had been; and though the image of the sacred
thing had been defaced, yet the shrine was not destroyed.
For she believed that each had kept
the letter of the law; that, whatever his faults,
he had turned his face to no other woman. If she
had not made his heart captive and drawn him by an
ever-shortening cord of attraction, yet she was sure
that none other had any influence over him, that,
as he had looked at her in those short-lived days of
his first devotion, he looked at no other. The
way was clear yet. There was nothing irretrievable,
nothing irrevocable, which would for ever stain the
memory and tarnish the gold of life when the perfect
love should be minted. Whatever faults of mind
or disposition or character were his or
hers there were no sins against the pledges
they had made, nor the bond into which they had entered.
Life would need no sponge. Memory might still
live on without a wound or a cowl of shame.
It was all part of the music to which
she listened, and she was almost oblivious of the
brilliant throng, the crowded boxes, or of the Duchess
of Snowdon sitting near her strangely still, now and
again scanning the beautiful face beside her with
a reflective look. The Duchess loved the girl she
was but a girl, after all as she had never
loved any of her sex; it had come to be the last real
interest of her life. To her eyes, dimmed with
much seeing, blurred by a garish kaleidoscope of fashionable
life, there had come a look which was like the ghost
of a look she had, how many decades ago.
Presently, as she saw Hylda’s
eyes withdraw from the stage, and look at her with
a strange, soft moisture and a new light in them, she
laid her fan confidently on her friend’s knee,
and said in her abrupt whimsical voice: “You
like it, my darling; your eyes are as big as saucers.
You look as if you’d been seeing things, not
things on that silly stage, but what Verdi felt when
he wrote the piece, or something of more account than
that.”
“Yes, I’ve been seeing
things,” Hylda answered with a smile which came
from a new-born purpose, the dream of an idealist.
“I’ve been seeing things that Verdi did
not see, and of more account, too.... Do you
suppose the House is up yet?”
A strange look flashed into the Duchess’s
eyes, which had been watching her with as much pity
as interest. Hylda had not been near the House
of Commons this session, though she had read the reports
with her usual care. She had shunned the place.
“Why, did you expect Eglington?”
the Duchess asked idly, yet she was watchful too,
alert for every movement in this life where the footsteps
of happiness were falling by the edge of a precipice,
over which she would not allow herself to look.
She knew that Hylda did not expect Eglington, for
the decision to come to the opera was taken at the
last moment.
“Of course not he
doesn’t know we are here. But if it wasn’t
too late, I thought I’d go down and drive him
home.”
The Duchess veiled her look.
Here was some new development in the history which
had been torturing her old eyes, which had given her
and Lord Windlehurst as many anxious moments as they
had known in many a day, and had formed them into
a vigilance committee of two, who waited for the critical
hour when they should be needed.
“We’ll go at once if you
like,” she replied. “The opera will
be over soon. We sent word to Windlehurst to
join us, you remember, but he won’t come now;
it’s too late. So, we’ll go, if you
like.”
She half rose, but the door of the
box opened, and Lord Windlehurst looked in quizzically.
There was a smile on his face.
“I’m late, I know; but
you’ll forgive me you’ll forgive
me, dear lady,” he added to Hylda, “for
I’ve been listening to your husband making a
smashing speech for a bad cause.”
Hylda smiled. “Then I must
go and congratulate him,” she answered, and
withdrew her hand from that of Lord Windlehurst, who
seemed to hold it longer than usual, and pressed it
in a fatherly way.
“I’m afraid the House
is up,” he rejoined, as Hylda turned for her
opera-cloak; “and I saw Eglington leave Palace
Yard as I came away.” He gave a swift,
ominous glance towards the Duchess, which Hylda caught,
and she looked at each keenly.
“It’s seldom I sit in
the Peers’ Gallery,” continued Windlehurst;
“I don’t like going back to the old place
much. It seems empty and hollow. But I wouldn’t
have missed Eglington’s fighting speech for a
good deal.”
“What was it about?” asked
Hylda as they left the box. She had a sudden
throb of the heart. Was it the one great question,
that which had been like a gulf of fire between them?
“Oh, Turkey the unpardonable
Turk,” answered Windlehurst. “As good
a defence of a bad case as I ever heard.”
“Yes, Eglington would do that
well,” said the Duchess enigmatically, drawing
her cloak around her and adjusting her hair. Hylda
looked at her sharply, and Lord Windlehurst slyly,
but the Duchess seemed oblivious of having said anything
out of the way, and added: “It’s a
gift seeing all that can be said for a bad cause,
and saying it, and so making the other side make their
case so strong that the verdict has to be just.”
“Dear Duchess, it doesn’t
always work out that way,” rejoined Windlehurst
with a dry laugh. “Sometimes the devil’s
advocate wins.”
“You are not very complimentary
to my husband,” retorted Hylda, looking him
in the eyes, for she was not always sure when he was
trying to baffle her.
“I’m not so sure of that.
He hasn’t won his case yet. He has only
staved off the great attack. It’s coming soon.”
“What is the great attack?
What has the Government, or the Foreign Office, done
or left undone?”
“Well, my dear ”
Suddenly Lord Windlehurst remembered himself, stopped,
put up his eyeglass, and with great interest seemed
to watch a gay group of people opposite; for the subject
of attack was Egypt and the Government’s conduct
in not helping David, in view not alone of his present
danger, but of the position of England in the country,
on which depended the security of her highway to the
East. Windlehurst was a good actor, and he had
broken off his words as though the group he was now
watching had suddenly claimed his attention. “Well,
well, Duchess,” he said reflectively, “I
see a new nine days’ wonder yonder.”
Then, in response to a reminder from Hylda, he continued:
“Ah, yes, the attack! Oh, Persia Persia,
and our feeble diplomacy, my dear lady, though you
mustn’t take that as my opinion, opponent as
I am. That’s the charge, Persia and
her cats.”
The Duchess breathed a sigh of relief;
for she knew what Windlehurst had been going to say,
and she shrank from seeing what she felt she would
see, if Egypt and Claridge Pasha’s name were
mentioned. That night at Harnley had burnt a
thought into her mind which she did not like.
Not that she had any pity for Eglington; her thought
was all for this girl she loved. No happiness
lay in the land of Egypt for her, whatever her unhappiness
here; and she knew that Hylda must be more unhappy
still before she was ever happy again, if that might
be. There was that concerning Eglington which
Hylda did not know, yet which she must know one day and
then! But why were Hylda’s eyes so much
brighter and softer and deeper to-night? There
was something expectant, hopeful, brooding in them.
They belonged not to the life moving round her, but
were shining in a land of their own, a land of promise.
By an instinct in each of them they stood listening
for a moment to the last strains of the opera.
The light leaped higher in Hylda’s eyes.
“Beautiful oh, so
beautiful!” she said, her hand touching the Duchess’s
arm.
The Duchess gave the slim warm fingers
a spasmodic little squeeze. “Yes, darling,
beautiful,” she rejoined; and then the crowd
began to pour out behind them.
Their carriages were at the door.
Lord Windlehurst put Hylda in. “The House
is up,” he said. “You are going on
somewhere?”
“No home,”
she said, and smiled into his old, kind, questioning
eyes. “Home!”
“Home!” he murmured significantly
as he turned towards the Duchess and her carriage.
“Home!” he repeated, and shook his head
sadly.
“Shall I drive you to your house?” the
Duchess asked.
“No, I’ll go with you
to your door, and walk back to my cell. Home!”
he growled to the footman, with a sardonic note in
the voice.
As they drove away, the Duchess turned
to him abruptly. “What did you mean by
your look when you said you had seen Eglington drive
away from the House?”
“Well, my dear Betty, she the
fly-away drives him home now. It has
come to that.”
“To her house Windlehurst, oh, Windlehurst!”
She sank back in the cushions, and
gave what was as near a sob as she had given in many
a day. Windlehurst took her hand. “No,
not so bad as that yet. She drove him to his
club. Don’t fret, my dear Betty.”
Home! Hylda watched the shops,
the houses, the squares, as she passed westward, her
mind dwelling almost happily on the new determination
to which she had come. It was not love that was
moving her, not love for him, but a deeper thing.
He had brutally killed love the full life
of it those months ago; but there was a
deep thing working in her which was as near nobility
as the human mind can feel. Not in a long time
had she neared her home with such expectation and longing.
Often on the doorstep she had shut her eyes to the
light and warmth and elegance of it, because of that
which she did not see. Now, with a thrill of
pleasure, she saw its doors open. It was possible
Eglington might have come home already. Lord
Windlehurst had said that he had left the House.
She did not ask if he was in it had not
been her custom for a long time and servants
were curious people; but she looked at the hall-table.
Yes, there was a hat which had evidently just been
placed there, and gloves, and a stick. He was
at home, then.
She hurried to her room, dropped her
opera-cloak on a chair, looked at herself in the glass,
a little fluttered and critical, and then crossed
the hallway to Eglington’s bedroom. She
listened for a moment. There was no sound.
She turned the handle of the door softly, and opened
it. A light was burning low, but the room was
empty. It was as she thought, he was in his study,
where he spent hours sometimes after he came home,
reading official papers. She went up the stairs,
at first swiftly, then more slowly, then with almost
lagging feet. Why did she hesitate? Why
should a woman falter in going to her husband to
her own one man of all the world? Was it not,
should it not be, ever the open door between them?
Confidence confidence could she
not have it, could she not get it now at last?
She had paused; but now she moved on with quicker step,
purpose in her face, her eyes softly lighted.
Suddenly she saw on the floor an opened
letter. She picked it up, and, as she did so,
involuntarily observed the writing. Almost mechanically
she glanced at the contents. Her heart stood still.
The first words scorched her eyes.
“Eglington Harry,
dearest,” it said, “you shall not go to
sleep
to-night without a word from me.
This will make you think of me
when....”
Frozen, struck as by a mortal blow,
Hylda looked at the signature. She knew it the
cleverest, the most beautiful adventuress which the
aristocracy and society had produced. She trembled
from head to foot, and for a moment it seemed that
she must fall. But she steadied herself and walked
firmly to Eglington’s door. Turning the
handle softly, she stepped inside.
He did not hear her. He was leaning
over a box of papers, and they rustled loudly under
his hand. He was humming to himself that song
she heard an hour ago in Il Trovatore, that song
of passion and love and tragedy. It sent a wave
of fresh feeling over her. She could not go on could
not face him, and say what she must say. She turned
and passed swiftly from the room, leaving the door
open, and hurried down the staircase. Eglington
heard now, and wheeled round. He saw the open
door, listened to the rustle of her skirts, knew that
she had been there. He smiled, and said to himself:
“She came to me, as I said she
would. I shall master her the full
surrender, and then life will be easy then.”
Hylda hurried down the staircase to
her room, saw Kate Heaver waiting, beckoned to her,
caught up her opera-cloak, and together they passed
down the staircase to the front door. Heaver rang
a bell, a footman appeared, and, at a word, called
a cab. A minute later they were ready:
“Snowdon House,” Hylda
said; and they passed into the night.