Beginning with the awful moment when
she first realized her danger and the necessity for
immediate flight, she lived over every perilous instant,
her nerves straining, her breath bated as if she were
experiencing it all once more. The horror of
it! Her own hopeless, helpless condition!
But finally, because her trouble was new and her body
and mind, though worn with excitement, were healthy
and young, she sank into a deep sleep, without having
decided at all what she should do.
At last she woke from a terrible dream,
in which the hand of her pursuer was upon her, and
her preserver was in the dark distance. With that
strange insistence which torments the victim of such
dreams, she was obliged to lie still and imagine it
out, again and again, until the face and voice of
the young man grew very real in the darkness, and she
longed inexpressibly for the comfort of his presence
once more.
At length she shook off these pursuing
thoughts and deliberately roused herself to plan her
future.
The first necessity, she decided,
was to change her appearance so far as possible, so
that if news of her escape, with full description,
had been telegraphed, she might evade notice.
To that end, she arose in the early dawning of a gray
and misty morning, and arranged her hair as she had
never worn it before, in two braids and wound closely
about her head. It was neat, and appropriate
to the vocation which she had decided upon, and it
made more difference in her appearance than any other
thing she could have done. All the soft, fluffy
fulness of rippling hair that had framed her face
was drawn close to her head, and the smooth bands gave
her the simplicity and severity of a saint in some
old picture. She pinned up her gown until it
did not show below the long black coat, and folded
a white linen handkerchief about her throat over the
delicate lace and garniture of the modish waist.
Then she looked dubiously at the hat.
With a girl’s instinct, her
first thought was for her borrowed plumage. A
fine mist was slanting down and had fretted the window-pane
until there was nothing visible but dull gray shadows
of a world that flew monotonously by. With sudden
remembrance, she opened the suit-case and took out
the folded black hat, shook it into shape, and put
it on. It was mannish, of course, but girls often
wore such hats.
As she surveyed herself in the long
mirror of her door, the slow color stole into her
cheeks. Yet the costume was not unbecoming, nor
unusual. She looked like a simple schoolgirl,
or a young business woman going to her day’s
work.
But she looked at the fashionable
proportions of the other hat with something like alarm.
How could she protect it? She did not for a moment
think of abandoning it, for it was her earnest desire
to return it at once, unharmed, to its kind purloiner.
She summoned the newsboy and purchased
three thick newspapers. From these, with the
aid of a few pins, she made a large package of the
hat. To be sure, it did not look like a hat when
it was done, but that was all the better. The
feathers were upheld and packed softly about with bits
of paper crushed together to make a springy cushion,
and the whole built out and then covered over with
paper. She reflected that girls who wore their
hair wound about their heads and covered by plain felt
hats would not be unlikely to carry large newspaper-wrapped
packages through the city streets.
She decided to go barehanded, and
put the white kid gloves in the suit-case, but she
took off her beautiful rings, and hid them safely
inside her dress.
When the porter came to announce that
her breakfast was waiting in the dining-car, he looked
at her almost with a start, but she answered his look
with a pleasant, “Good morning. You see
I’m fixed for a damp day.”
“Yes, miss,” said the
man deferentially. “It’s a nasty day
outside. I ’spect Chicago’ll be mighty
wet. De wind’s off de lake, and de rain’s
comin’ from all way ’twoncet.”
She sacrificed one of her precious
quarters to get rid of the attentive porter, and started
off with a brisk step down the long platform to the
station. It was part of her plan to get out of
the neighborhood as quickly as possible, so she followed
the stream of people who instead of going into the
waiting-room veered off to the street door and out
into the great, wet, noisy world. With the same
reasoning, she followed a group of people into a car,
which presently brought her into the neighborhood of
the large stores, as she had hoped it would. It
was with relief that she recognized the name on one
of the stores as being of world-wide reputation.
Well for her that she was an experienced
shopper. She went straight to the millinery department
and arranged to have the hat boxed and sent to the
address Dunham had given her. Her gentle voice
and handsome rain-coat proclaimed her a lady and commanded
deference and respectful attention. As she walked
away, she had an odd feeling of having communicated
with her one friend and preserver.
It had cost less to express the hat
than she had feared, yet her stock of money was woefully
small. Some kind of a dress she must have, and
a wrap, that she might be disguised, but what could
she buy and yet have something left for food?
There was no telling how long it would be before she
could replenish her purse. Life must be reduced
to its lowest terms. True, she had jewelry which
might be sold, but that would scarcely be safe, for
if she were watched, she might easily be identified
by it. What did the very poor do, who were yet
respectable?
The ready-made coats and skirts were
entirely beyond her means, even those that had been
marked down. With a hopeless feeling, she walked
aimlessly down between the tables of goods. The
suit-case weighed like lead, and she put it on the
floor to rest her aching arms. Lifting her eyes,
she saw a sign over a table-“Linene
Skirts, 75 cts. and $1.00.”
Here was a ray of hope. She turned
eagerly to examine them. Piles of sombre skirts,
blue and black and tan. They were stout and coarse
and scant, and not of the latest cut, but what mattered
it? She decided on a seventy-five cent black
one. It seemed pitiful to have to economize in
a matter of twenty-five cents, when she had been used
to counting her money by dollars, yet there was a
feeling of exultation at having gotten for that price
any skirt at all that would do. A dim memory of
what she had read about ten-cent lodging-houses, where
human beings were herded like cattle, hovered over
her.
Growing wise with experience, she
discovered that she could get a black sateen shirt-waist
for fifty cents. Rubbers and a cotton umbrella
took another dollar and a half. She must save
at least a dollar to send back the suit-case by express.
A bargain-table of odds and ends of
woollen jackets, golf vests, and old fashioned blouse
sweaters, selling off at a dollar apiece, solved the
problem of a wrap. She selected a dark blouse,
of an ugly, purply blue, but thick and warm.
Then with her precious packages she asked a pleasant-faced
saleswoman if there were any place near where she could
slip on a walking skirt she had just bought to save
her other skirt from the muddy streets. She was
ushered into a little fitting-room near by. It
was only about four feet square, with one chair and
a tiny table, but it looked like a palace to the girl
in her need, and as she fastened the door and looked
at the bare painted walls that reached but a foot or
so above her head and had no ceiling, she wished with
all her heart that such a refuge as this might be
her own somewhere in the great, wide, fearful world.
Rapidly she slipped off her fine,
silk-lined cloth garments, and put on the stiff sateen
waist and the coarse black skirt. Then she surveyed
herself, and was not ill pleased. There was a
striking lack of collar and belt. She sought
out a black necktie and pinned it about her waist,
and then, with a protesting frown, she deliberately
tore a strip from the edge of one of the fine hem-stitched
handkerchiefs, and folded it in about her neck in
a turn-over collar. The result was quite startling
and unfamiliar. The gown, the hair, the hat,
and the neat collar gave her the look of a young nurse-girl
or upper servant. On the whole, the disguise could
not have been better. She added the blue woollen
blouse, and felt certain that even her most intimate
friends would not recognize her. She folded the
rain-coat, and placed it smoothly in the suit-case,
then with dismay remembered that she had nothing in
which to put her own cloth dress, save the few inadequate
paper wrappings that had come about her simple purchases.
Vainly she tried to reduce the dress to a bundle that
would be covered by the papers. It was of no
use. She looked down at the suit-case. There
was room for the dress in there, but she wanted to
send Mr. Dunham’s property back at once.
She might leave the dress in the store, but some detective
with an accurate description of that dress might be
watching, find it, and trace her. Besides, she
shrank from leaving her garments about in public places.
If there had been any bridge near at hand where she
might unobserved throw the dress into a dark river,
or a consuming fire where she might dispose of it,
she would have done it. But whatever she was
to do with it must be done at once. Her destiny
must be settled before the darkness came down.
She folded the dress smoothly and laid it in the suit-case,
under the rain-coat.
She sat down at a writing-desk, in
the waiting-room, and wrote: “I am safe,
and I thank you.” Then she paused an instant,
and with nervous haste wrote “Mary” underneath.
She opened the suit-case and pinned the paper to the
lapel of the evening coat. Just three dollars
and sixty-seven cents she had left in her pocket-book
after paying the expressage on the suit-case.
She felt doubtful whether she might
not have done wrong about thus sending her dress back,
but what else could she have done? If she had
bought a box in which to put it, she would have had
to carry it with her, and perhaps the dress might
have been found during her absence from her room, and
she suspected because of it. At any rate, it
was too late now, and she felt sure the young man
would understand. She hoped it would not inconvenience
him especially to get rid of it. Surely he could
give it to some charitable organization without much
trouble.
At her first waking, in the early
gray hours of the morning, she had looked her predicament
calmly in the face. It was entirely likely that
it would continue indefinitely; it might be, throughout
her whole life. She could now see no way of help
for herself. Time might, perhaps, give her a
friend who would assist her, or a way might open back
into her old life in some unthought-of manner, but
for a time there must be hiding and a way found to
earn her living.
She had gone carefully over her own
accomplishments. Her musical attainments, which
would naturally have been the first thought, were out
of the question. Her skill as a musician was so
great, and so well known by her enemy, that she would
probably be traced by it at once. As she looked
back at the hour spent at Mrs. Bowman’s piano,
she shuddered at the realization that it might have
been her undoing, had it chanced that her enemy passed
the house, with a suspicion that she was inside.
She would never dare to seek a position as accompanist,
and she knew how futile it would be for her to attempt
to teach music in an unknown city, among strangers.
She might starve to death before a single pupil appeared.
Besides, that too would put her in a position where
she would be more easily found. The same arguments
were true if she were to attempt to take a position
as teacher or governess, although she was thoroughly
competent to do so. Rapidly rejecting all the
natural resources which under ordinary circumstances
she would have used to maintain herself, she determined
to change her station entirely, at least for the present.
She would have chosen to do something in a little,
quiet hired room somewhere, sewing or decorating or
something of the sort, but that too would be hopelessly
out of her reach, without friends to aid her.
A servant’s place in some one’s home was
the only thing possible that presented itself to her
mind. She could not cook, nor do general housework,
but she thought she could fill the place of waitress.
With a brave face, but a shrinking
heart, she stepped into a drug-store and looked up
in the directory the addresses of several employment
agencies.