After Mr. Proctor had come and was
gone, and Mrs. Proctor was gone with him, Hugh began
to wonder why Tooke had never paid the visit he had
promised. Several boys had called; some to thank
Hugh for balls that he had quilted; some to see how
he got on; and some to bring him Crofton news.
Mr. Tooke had fastened his horse up at the door, in
passing, and stepped in for a few minutes, two or
three times a week: but it was now within six
days of the holidays, and the one Hugh most wished
to see had not appeared. His uncle observed his
wistful look when the door-bell rang, and drew his
conclusions. He said, on the Wednesday before
the breaking-up, that he was going to drive past the
Crofton school; that it was such a fine day that he
thought Hugh might go with him, and perhaps they might
persuade some one to come home to dinner with them.
Hugh had never enjoyed the open air
more than during this drive. He had yet much
to learn about the country, and it was all as beautiful
as it was new. His uncle pointed out to him the
fieldfares wheeling in flocks over the fallows; and
the rabbits in the warren, scampering away with their
little white tails turned up; and the robin hopping
in the frosty pathway; and the wild-ducks splashing
among the reeds in the marshes. They saw the
cottagers’ children trying to collect snow enough
from the small remains of the drifts to make snow-balls,
and obliged to throw away the dirty snow that would
melt, and would not bind. As they left the road,
and turned through a copse, because Mr. Shaw had business
with Mr. Sullivan’s gamekeeper, a pheasant flew
out, whirring, from some ferns and brambles, and showed
its long tail-feathers before it disappeared over
the hedge. All these sights were new to Hugh:
and all, after pain and confinement, looked beautiful
and gay.
Mr. Shaw could not stop for Hugh to
get out at Crofton; so, when his arrival was seen,
the boys were allowed to go out of bounds, as far as
the gig, to speak to their school-fellow. Mr.
Shaw asked Tooke to mount, and go home with them for
the day; and Tooke was so pleased, so agreeably
surprised to see Hugh look quite well and merry, that
he willingly ran off to ask leave, and to wash his
face, and change his jacket. When he had jumped
in, and Hugh had bidden the rest good-bye, a sudden
shyness came over his poor conscious visitor:
and it was not lessened by Mr. Shaw telling Tooke
that he did not do credit to Crofton air, so
puny as he seemed: and that he looked at that
moment more like one that had had a bad accident than
Hugh did. When Mr. Shaw perceived how the boy’s
eyes filled with tears in an instant, he probably thought
within himself that Tooke was sadly weak-spirited,
and altogether more delicate than he had been aware
of.
Hugh was full of questions about Crofton
matters, however; and long before they reached Mr.
Shaw’s, they were chattering as busily as possible.
But then it was all spoiled to Tooke again by seeing
Hugh lifted out, and his crutches brought to him,
and Agnes ready to take his hat and cloak, instead
of his being able to run about, doing everything for
himself.
The sofa had been left in Hugh’s
room, and there was a fire there every afternoon,
for him and Agnes, that their aunt might have the parlour
to herself till tea-time. The three young people
went therefore to this room after dinner. Agnes
felt a little uncomfortable, as she always did when
any Crofton boys came. They had so much to say
to each other of things that she did not understand,
and so very little to say to her, that she continually
felt as if she was in the way. When she proposed,
as usual, that Hugh should go through his exercises
in walking and running (for she was indefatigable
in helping him to learn to walk well, and superintended
his practice every afternoon), he refused hastily and
rather rudely. Of course, she could not know that
he had a reason for wishing not to show off his lameness
before Tooke; and she thought him unkind. He
might indeed have remembered to ask her before to say
nothing this afternoon about his exercises. She
took out her work, and sat down at some distance from
the boys; but they did not get on. It was very
awkward. At last, the boys’ eyes met, and
they saw that they should like to talk freely, if
they could.
“Agnes,” said Hugh, “cannot
you go somewhere, and leave us alone?”
“I hardly know where I can go,”
replied Agnes. “I must not disturb aunt;
and there is no fire anywhere else.”
“O, I am sure aunt wont mind,
for this one afternoon. You can be as still as
a mouse; and she can doze away, as if nobody was there.”
“I can be as still as a mouse
here,” observed Agnes. “I can take
my work to that farthest window; and if you whisper,
I shall not hear a word you say. Or, if I do
hear a word, I will tell you directly. And you
will let me come, now and then, and warm myself, if
I find I cannot hold my needle any longer.”
“No, no; that wont do.
We can’t talk so. Do just go, and see whether
aunt cannot let you be there for this one afternoon.”
Agnes did not like to refuse anything
to Hugh: but she hesitated to take such a bold
step as this. In his eagerness, Hugh requested
the same favour of Tooke; but Tooke, more anxious
than even Agnes to oblige, had not courage for such
an errand. Hugh snatched his crutches, and declared
he would go himself. But now Agnes gave way.
She gathered up her work, and left the room.
Hugh little imagined where she went, this cold, darkening
December afternoon. She went to her own room,
put on her cloak, and walked up and down till tea
was ready, without fire or candle, and not very happy
in her mind.
Meanwhile the boys basked before a
glowing fire. Tooke began directly to open his
full heart.
“Was that true that your sister
said at dinner, about your always longing so to come
to Crofton?”
“Yes.”
“How sorry you must be that
you came! How you must wish you had never seen
me!”
“I knew there would be things
to bear, whenever I came; and particularly while I
was the youngest. Your father told me that:
and one of the things that made me want to come more
than ever was his telling me how you bore things when
you were the youngest being set on the top
of that wall, and so on.”
“Indeed, indeed, I never meant
to hurt you when I pulled your foot. I
suppose you are quite sure that it was I that gave
the first pull? Are you?”
“Why, yes; I am sure of that;
and so are you: but I know very well that you
meant no harm; and that is the reason I would not tell.
After what you did about the sponge, I could not think
you meant any harm to me.”
Tooke could not remember anything
about a sponge; and when he was told, he thought nothing
of it. He went on
“Do you think you shall never
tell anybody, as long as you live, who pulled you
first?”
“Never,” said Hugh, “unless
I tell it in my sleep; and that is not likely, for
I never think about it in the daytime, or
scarcely ever; and when I can run about again, I dare
say I shall never think of it at all.”
“But will you ever run about?”
“O yes! finely, you will see.
I shall begin first with a little stick-leg, very
light. Mother is going to send some for me to
try. When I am a man, I shall have one that will
look like a real foot; but that will not be so light
as the one you will see me with after the holidays.
But you do not half know what I can do now, with my
crutches. Here, I will show you.”
As he flourished about, and played
antics, Agnes heard the pit-pat of his crutches, and
she thought she might as well have been there, if they
had told all their secrets, and had got to play.
But the noise did not last long, for Hugh’s
performances did not make Tooke very merry; and the
boys sat down quietly again.
“Now, I’ll tell you what,”
said Tooke. “I am a bigger and stronger
boy than you, without considering this accident.
I’ll take care of you all the time you are at
Crofton: and always afterwards, if I can.
Mind you that. If anybody teases you, you call
me, that’s all. Say you will.”
“Why,” said Hugh, “I
had rather take care of myself. I had rather make
no difference between you and everybody else.”
“There now! You don’t forgive me,
after all.”
“I do, upon my word,
I do. But why should I make any difference between
you and the rest, when you did not mean me any harm, any
more than they? Besides, it might make people
suspect.”
“Well, let them. Sometimes
I wish,” continued Tooke, twisting himself about
in the uneasiness of his mind, “sometimes I wish
that everybody knew now. They say murderers cannot
keep their secret. They are sure to tell, when
they cannot bear it any longer.”
“That is because of their consciences,”
said Hugh. “But you are not guilty of anything,
you know. I am sure I can keep a secret easily
enough, when I am not to blame in it.”
“Yes? you have shown that. But-
“Come! don’t let us talk
any more about that. Only just this.
Has anybody accused you? Because I must know, I
must be on my guard.”
“Nobody has said a word, because
my father put us all upon honour never to mention
it: but I always feel as if all their eyes were
upon me all day, and sometimes in the night.”
“Nonsense! I don’t
believe anybody has pitched on you particularly.
And when school opens again, all their eyes will be
on me, to see how I manage. But I don’t
mean to mind that. Anybody may stare that likes.”
Hugh sighed, however, after saying
this; and Tooke was silent. At length he declared,
“Whatever you say against it,
I shall always take your part: and you have only
to ask me, and I will always run anywhere, and do anything
for you. Mind you that.”
“Thank you,” said Hugh.
“Now tell me about the new usher; for I dare
say you know more than the other boys do. Holt
and I shall be under him altogether, I suppose.”
“Yes: and you will be well
off, by what I hear. He is as little like Mr.
Carnaby as need be.”
All the rest of the afternoon was
taken up with stories of Mr. Carnaby and other ushers,
so that the boys were surprised when the maid came
to tell them that tea was ready.
Agnes was making tea. Hugh was
so eager to repeat to his uncle some of the good stories
that he had just heard, that he did not observe, as
his aunt did, how red his sister’s fingers were,
and how she shivered still.
“My dear,” said Mrs. Shaw,
“you have let these boys keep you away from
the fire.”
“Yes, aunt. Never mind!
I shall be warm enough presently.”
“But you should not allow it,
Agnes. How are they ever to learn manners, if
they are not made to give way to young ladies while
they are young? Boys are sure to be rude enough,
at any rate. Their sisters should know better
than to spoil them.”
While poor Agnes’ hardships
were ending with a lecture, Hugh was chattering away,
not at all aware that he had treated his sister much
as Phil had treated him on his going to Crofton.
If any one had told him that he was tyrannical, he
would have been as much surprised as he had been at
Phil’s tyranny over him. He did not know
indeed that his sister had been in the cold and in
the dark; but he might have felt that he had used
her with a roughness which is more painful to a loving
heart than cold and darkness are to the body.