CHAPTER I
He thought he had already, poor
John Berridge, tasted in their fulness the sweets
of success; but nothing yet had been more charming
to him than when the young Lord, as he irresistibly
and, for greater certitude, quite correctly figured
him, fairly sought out, in Paris, the new literary
star that had begun to hang, with a fresh red light,
over the vast, even though rather confused, Anglo-Saxon
horizon; positively approaching that celebrity with
a shy and artless appeal. The young Lord invoked
on this occasion the celebrity’s prized judgment
of a special literary case; and Berridge could take
the whole manner of it for one of the “quaintest”
little acts displayed to his amused eyes, up to now,
on the stage of European society albeit
these eyes were quite aware, in general, of missing
everywhere no more of the human scene than possible,
and of having of late been particularly awake to the
large extensions of it spread before him (since so
he could but fondly read his fate) under the omen
of his prodigious “hit.” It was because
of his hit that he was having rare opportunities of
which he was so honestly and humbly proposing, as
he would have said, to make the most: it was because
every one in the world (so far had the thing gone)
was reading “The Heart of Gold” as just
a slightly too fat volume, or sitting out the same
as just a fifth-act too long play, that he found himself
floated on a tide he would scarce have dared to show
his favourite hero sustained by, found a hundred agreeable
and interesting things happen to him which were all,
one way or another, affluents of the golden stream.
The great renewed resonance renewed
by the incredible luck of the play was
always in his ears without so much as a conscious turn
of his head to listen; so that the queer world of
his fame was not the mere usual field of the Anglo-Saxon
boom, but positively the bottom of the whole theatric
sea, unplumbed source of the wave that had borne him
in the course of a year or two over German, French,
Italian, Russian, Scandinavian foot-lights. Paris
itself really appeared for the hour the centre of
his cyclone, with reports and “returns,”
to say nothing of agents and emissaries, converging
from the minor capitals; though his impatience was
scarce the less keen to get back to London, where his
work had had no such critical excoriation to survive,
no such lesson of anguish to learn, as it had received
at the hand of supreme authority, of that French authority
which was in such a matter the only one to be artistically
reckoned with. If his spirit indeed had had to
reckon with it his fourth act practically hadn’t:
it continued to make him blush every night for the
public more even than the inimitable feuilleton
had made him blush for himself.
This had figured, however, after all,
the one bad drop in his cup; so that, for the rest,
his high-water mark might well have been, that evening
at Gloriani’s studio, the approach of his odd
and charming applicant, vaguely introduced at the
latter’s very own request by their hostess,
who, with an honest, helpless, genial gesture, washed
her fat begemmed hands of the name and identity of
either, but left the fresh, fair, ever so habitually
assured, yet ever so easily awkward Englishman with
his plea to put forth. There was that in this
pleasant personage which could still make Berridge
wonder what conception of profit from him might have,
all incalculably, taken form in such a head these
being truly the last intrenchments of our hero’s
modesty. He wondered, the splendid young man,
he wondered awfully, he wondered (it was unmistakable)
quite nervously, he wondered, to John’s ardent
and acute imagination, quite beautifully, if the author
of “The Heart of Gold” would mind just
looking at a book by a friend of his, a great friend,
which he himself believed rather clever, and had in
fact found very charming, but as to which if
it really wouldn’t bore Mr. Berridge he
should so like the verdict of some one who knew.
His friend was awfully ambitious, and he thought there
was something in it with all of which might
he send the book to any address?
Berridge thought of many things while
the young Lord thus charged upon him, and it was odd
that no one of them was any question of the possible
worth of the offered achievement which,
for that matter, was certain to be of the quality
of all the books, to say nothing of the plays,
and the projects for plays, with which, for some time
past, he had seen his daily post-bag distended.
He had made out, on looking at these things, no difference
at all from one to the other. Here, however, was
something more something that made his
fellow-guest’s overture independently
interesting and, as he might imagine, important.
He smiled, he was friendly and vague; said “A
work of fiction, I suppose?” and that he didn’t
pretend ever to pronounce, that he in fact quite hated,
always, to have to, not “knowing,” as
he felt, any better than any one else; but would gladly
look at anything, under that demur, if it would give
any pleasure. Perhaps the very brightest and
most diamond-like twinkle he had yet seen the star
of his renown emit was just the light brought into
his young Lord’s eyes by this so easy consent
to oblige. It was easy because the presence before
him was from moment to moment, referring itself back
to some recent observation or memory; something caught
somewhere, within a few weeks or months, as he had
moved about, and that seemed to flutter forth at this
stir of the folded leaves of his recent experience
very much as a gathered, faded flower, placed there
for “pressing,” might drop from between
the pages of a volume opened at hazard.
He had seen him before, this splendid
and sympathetic person whose flattering
appeal was by no means all that made him sympathetic;
he had met him, had noted, had wondered about him,
had in fact imaginatively, intellectually, so to speak,
quite yearned over him, in some conjunction lately,
though ever so fleet-ingly, apprehended: which
circumstance constituted precisely an association as
tormenting, for the few minutes, as it was vague,
and set him to sounding, intensely and vainly, the
face that itself figured everything agreeable except
recognition. He couldn’t remember, and the
young man didn’t; distinctly, yes, they had
been in presence, during the previous winter, by some
chance of travel, through Sicily, through Italy, through
the south of France, but his Seigneurie so
Berridge liked exotically to phrase it had
then (in ignorance of the present reasons) not noticed
him. It was positive for the man of established
identity, all the while too, and through the perfect
lucidity of his sense of achievement in an air “conducting”
nothing but the loudest bang, that this was fundamentally
much less remarkable than the fact of his being made
up to in such a quarter now. That was the disservice,
in a manner, of one’s having so much imagination:
the mysterious values of other types kept looming
larger before you than the doubtless often higher but
comparatively familiar ones of your own, and if you
had anything of the artist’s real feeling for
life the attraction and amusement of possibilities
so projected were worth more to you, in nineteen moods
out of twenty, than the sufficiency, the serenity,
the felicity, whatever it might be, of your stale
personal certitudes. You were intellectually,
you were “artistically” rather abject,
in fine, if your curiosity (in the grand sense of
the term) wasn’t worth more to you than your
dignity. What was your dignity, “anyway,”
but just the consistency of your curiosity, and what
moments were ever so ignoble for you as, under the
blighting breath of the false gods, stupid conventions,
traditions, examples, your lapses from that consistency?
His Seigneurie, at all events, delightfully,
hadn’t the least real idea of what any John Berridge
was talking about, and the latter felt that if he
had been less beautifully witless, and thereby less
true to his right figure, it might scarce have been
forgiven him.
His right figure was that of life
in irreflective joy and at the highest thinkable level
of prepared security and unconscious insolence.
What was the pale page of fiction compared with the
intimately personal adventure that, in almost any
direction, he would have been all so stupidly, all
so gallantly, all so instinctively and, by every presumption,
so prevailingly ready for? Berridge would have
given six months’ “royalties” for
even an hour of his looser dormant consciousness since
one was oneself, after all, no worm, but an heir of
all the ages too and yet without being
able to supply chapter and verse for the felt, the
huge difference. His Seigneurie was tall
and straight, but so, thank goodness, was the author
of “The Heart of Gold,” who had no such
vulgar “mug” either; and there was no intrinsic
inferiority in being a bit inordinately, and so it
might have seemed a bit strikingly, black-browed instead
of being fair as the morning. Again while his
new friend delivered himself our own tried in vain
to place him; he indulged in plenty of pleasant, if
rather restlessly headlong sound, the confessed incoherence
of a happy mortal who had always many things “on,”
and who, while waiting at any moment for connections
and consummations, had fallen into the way of talking,
as they said, all artlessly, and a trifle more betrayingly,
against time. He would always be having appointments,
and somehow of a high “romantic” order,
to keep, and the imperfect punctualities of others
to wait for though who would be of a quality
to make such a pampered personage wait very much our
young analyst could only enjoy asking himself.
There were women who might be of a quality half
a dozen of those perhaps, of those alone, about the
world; our friend was as sure of this, by the end of
four minutes, as if he knew all about it.
After saying he would send him the
book the young Lord indeed dropped that subject; he
had asked where he might send it, and had had an “Oh,
I shall remember!” on John’s mention of
an hotel; but he had made no further dash into literature,
and it was ten to one that this would be the last
the distinguished author might hear of the volume.
Such again was a note of these high existences that
made one content to ask of them no whit of other consistency
than that of carrying off the particular occasion,
whatever it might be, in a dazzle of amiability and
felicity and leaving that as a sufficient trace
of their passage. Sought and achieved consistency
was but an angular, a secondary motion; compared with
the air of complete freedom it might have an effect
of deformity. There was no placing this figure
of radiant ease, for Berridge, in any relation that
didn’t appear not good enough that
is among the relations that hadn’t been too
good for Berridge himself. He was all right where
he was; the great Gloriani somehow made that law;
his house, with his supreme artistic position, was
good enough for any one, and to-night in especial
there were charming people, more charming than our
friend could recall from any other scene, as the natural
train or circle, as he might say, of such a presence.
For an instant he thought he had got the face as a
specimen of imperturbability watched, with wonder,
across the hushed rattle of roulette at Monte-Carlo;
but this quickly became as improbable as any question
of a vulgar table d’hote, or a steam-boat
deck, or a herd of fellow-pilgrims cicerone-led, or
even an opera-box serving, during a performance, for
frame of a type observed from the stalls. One
placed young gods and goddesses only when one placed
them on Olympus, and it met the case, always, that
they were of Olympian race, and that they glimmered
for one, at the best, through their silver cloud, like
the visiting apparitions in an epic.
This was brief and beautiful indeed
till something happened that gave it, for Berridge,
on the spot, a prodigious extension an extension
really as prodigious, after a little, as if he had
suddenly seen the silver clouds multiply and then
the whole of Olympus presently open. Music, breaking
upon the large air, enjoined immediate attention, and
in a moment he was listening, with the rest of the
company, to an eminent tenor, who stood by the piano;
and was aware, with it, that his Englishman had turned
away and that in the vast, rich, tapestried room where,
in spite of figures and objects so numerous, clear
spaces, wide vistas, and, as they might be called,
becoming situations abounded, there had been from
elsewhere, at the signal of unmistakable song, a rapid
accession of guests. At first he but took this
in, and the way that several young women, for whom
seats had been found, looked charming in the rapt
attitude; while even the men, mostly standing and grouped,
“composed,” in their stillness, scarce
less impressively, under the sway of the divine voice.
It ruled the scene, to the last intensity, and yet
our young man’s fine sense found still a resource
in the range of the eyes, without sound or motion,
while all the rest of consciousness was held down
as by a hand mailed in silver. It was better,
in this way, than the opera John alertly
thought of that: the composition sung might be
Wagnerian, but no Tristram, no Iseult, no Parsifal
and, no Kundry of them all could ever show, could
ever “act” to the music, as our friend
had thus the power of seeing his dear contemporaries
of either sex (armoured they so otherwise than
in cheap Teutonic tinsel!) just continuously and inscrutably
sit to it.
It made, the whole thing together,
an enchantment amid which he had in truth, at a given
moment, ceased to distinguish parts so that
he was himself certainly at last soaring as high as
the singer’s voice and forgetting, in a lost
gaze at the splendid ceiling, everything of the occasion
but what his intelligence poured into it. This,
as happened, was a flight so sublime that by the time
he had dropped his eyes again a cluster of persons
near the main door had just parted to give way to a
belated lady who slipped in, through the gap made for
her, and stood for some minutes full in his view.
It was a proof of the perfect hush that no one stirred
to offer her a seat, and her entrance, in her high
grace, had yet been so noiseless that she could remain
at once immensely exposed and completely unabashed.
For Berridge, once more, if the scenic show before
him so melted into the music, here precisely might
have been the heroine herself advancing to the foot-lights
at her cue. The interest deepened to a thrill,
and everything, at the touch of his recognition of
this personage, absolutely the most beautiful woman
now present, fell exquisitely together and gave him
what he had been wanting from the moment of his taking
in his young Englishman.
It was there, the missing connection:
her arrival had on the instant lighted it by a flash.
Olympian herself, supremely, divinely Olympian, she
had arrived, could only have arrived, for the
one person present of really equal race, our young
man’s late converser, whose flattering
demonstration might now stand for one of the odd extravagant
forms taken by nervous impatience. This charming,
this dazzling woman had been one member of the couple
disturbed, to his intimate conviction, the autumn
previous, on his being pushed by the officials, at
the last moment, into a compartment of the train that
was to take him from Cremona to Mantua where,
failing a stop, he had had to keep his place.
The other member, by whose felt but unseized identity
he had been haunted, was the unconsciously insolent
form of guaranteed happiness he had just been engaged
with. The sense of the admirable intimacy that,
having taken its precautions, had not reckoned with
his irruption this image had remained with
him; to say nothing of the interest of aspect of the
associated figures, so stamped somehow with rarity,
so beautifully distinct from the common occupants
of padded corners, and yet on the subject of whom,
for the romantic structure he was immediately to raise,
he had not had a scrap of evidence.
If he had imputed to them conditions
it was all his own doing: it came from his inveterate
habit of abysmal imputation, the snatching of the
ell wherever the inch peeped out, without which where
would have been the tolerability of life? It
didn’t matter now what he had imputed and
he always held that his expenses of imputation were,
at the worst, a compliment to those inspiring them.
It only mattered that each of the pair had been then
what he really saw each now full, that is,
of the pride of their youth and beauty and fortune
and freedom, though at the same time particularly
preoccupied: preoccupied, that is, with the affairs,
and above all with the passions, of Olympus. Who
had they been, and what? Whence had they come,
whither were they bound, what tie united them, what
adventure engaged, what felicity, tempered by what
peril, magnificently, dramatically attended?
These had been his questions, all so inevitable and
so impertinent, at the time, and to the exclusion of
any scruples over his not postulating an inane honeymoon,
his not taking the “tie,” as he should
doubtless properly have done, for the mere blest matrimonial;
and he now retracted not one of them, flushing as they
did before him again with their old momentary life.
To feel his two friends renewedly in presence friends
of the fleeting hour though they had but been, and
with whom he had exchanged no sign save the vaguest
of salutes on finally relieving them of his company was
only to be conscious that he hadn’t, on the
spot, done them, so to speak, half justice, and that,
for his superior entertainment, there would be ever
so much more of them to come.
CHAPTER II
It might already have been coming
indeed, with an immense stride, when, scarce more
than ten minutes later, he was aware that the distinguished
stranger had brought the Princess straight across the
room to speak to him. He had failed in the interval
of any glimpse of their closer meeting; for the great
tenor had sung another song and then stopped, immediately
on which Madame Gloriani had made his pulse quicken
to a different, if not to a finer, throb by hovering
before him once more with the man in the world he
most admired, as it were, looking at him over her
shoulder. The man in the world he most admired,
the greatest then of contemporary Dramatists and
bearing, independently, the name inscribed if not
in deepest incision at least in thickest gilding on
the rich recreative roll this prodigious
personage was actually to suffer “presentation”
to him at the good lady’s generous but ineffectual
hands, and had in fact the next instant, left alone
with him, bowed, in formal salutation, the massive,
curly, witty head, so “romantic” yet so
modern, so “artistic” and ironic yet somehow
so civic, so Gallic yet somehow so cosmic, his personal
vision of which had not hitherto transcended that
of the possessor of a signed and framed photograph
in a consecrated quarter of a writing-table.
It was positive, however, that poor
John was afterward to remember of this conjunction
nothing whatever but the fact of the great man’s
looking at him very hard, straight in the eyes, and
of his not having himself scrupled to do as much,
and with a confessed intensity of appetite. It
was improbable, he was to recognise, that they had,
for the few minutes, only stared and grimaced, like
pitted boxers or wrestlers; but what had abode with
him later on, none the less, was just the cherished
memory of his not having so lost presence of mind as
to fail of feeding on his impression. It was
precious and precarious, that was perhaps all there
would be of it; and his subsequent consciousness was
quite to cherish this queer view of the silence, neither
awkward nor empty nor harsh, but on the contrary quite
charged and brimming, that represented for him his
use, his unforgettable enjoyment in fact, of his opportunity.
Had nothing passed in words? Well, no misery of
murmured “homage,” thank goodness; though
something must have been said, certainly, to lead
up, as they put it at the theatre, to John’s
having asked the head of the profession, before they
separated, if he by chance knew who the so radiantly
handsome young woman might be, the one who had so
lately come in and who wore the pale yellow dress,
of the strange tone, and the magnificent pearls.
They must have separated soon, it was further to have
been noted; since it was before the advance of the
pair, their wonderful dazzling charge upon him, that
he had distinctly seen the great man, at a distance
again, block out from his sight the harmony of the
faded gold and the pearls to speak only
of that and plant himself there (the mere
high Atlas-back of renown to Berridge now) as for
communion with them. He had blocked everything
out, to this tune, effectually; with nothing of the
matter left for our friend meanwhile but that, as
he had said, the beautiful lady was the Princess.
What Princess, or the Princess of what? our
young man had afterward wondered; his companion’s
reply having lost itself in the prelude of an outburst
by another vocalist who had approached the piano.
It was after these things that she
so incredibly came to him, attended by her adorer since
he took it for absolute that the young Lord was her
adorer, as who indeed mightn’t be? and
scarce waiting, in her bright simplicity, for any
form of introduction. It may thus be said in a
word that this was the manner in which she made our
hero’s acquaintance, a satisfaction that she
on the spot described to him as really wanting of
late to her felicity. “I’ve read everything,
you know, and ’The Heart of Gold’ three
times”: she put it all immediately on that
ground, while the young Lord now smiled, beside her,
as if it were quite the sort of thing he had done
too; and while, further, the author of the work yielded
to the consciousness that whereas in general he had
come at last scarce to be able to bear the iteration
of those words, which affected him as a mere vain
vocal convulsion, so not a breath of this association
now attended them, so such a person as the Princess
could make of them what she would.
Unless it was to be really what he
would! this occurred to him in the very
thick of the prodigy, no single shade of possibility
of which was less prodigious than any other.
It was a declaration, simply, the admirable young
woman was treating him to, a profession of “artistic
sympathy” for she was in a moment
to use this very term that made for them a large,
clear, common ether, an element all uplifted and rare,
of which they could equally partake.
If she was Olympian as
in her rich and regular young beauty, that of some
divine Greek mask over-painted say by Titian, she more
and more appeared to him this offered air
was that of the gods themselves: she might have
been, with her long rustle across the room, Artemis
decorated, hung with pearls, for her worshippers, yet
disconcerting them by having, under an impulse just
faintly fierce, snatched the cup of gold from Hebe.
It was to him, John Berridge, she thus publicly offered
it; and it was his over-topping confrere of
shortly before who was the worshipper most disconcerted.
John had happened to catch, even at its distance,
after these friends had joined him, the momentary deep,
grave estimate, in the great Dramatist’s salient
watching eyes, of the Princess’s so singular
performance: the touch perhaps this, in the whole
business, that made Berridge’s sense of it most
sharp. The sense of it as prodigy didn’t
in the least entail his feeling abject any
more, that is, than in the due dazzled degree; for
surely there would have been supreme wonder in the
eagerness of her exchange of mature glory for thin
notoriety, hadn’t it still exceeded everything
that an Olympian of such race should have found herself
bothered, as they said, to “read” at all and
most of all to read three times!
With the turn the matter took as an
effect of this meeting, Berridge was more than once
to find himself almost ashamed for her since
it seemed never to occur to her to be so for herself:
he was jealous of the type where she might have been
taken as insolently careless of it; his advantage
(unless indeed it had been his ruin) being that he
could inordinately reflect upon it, could wander off
thereby into kinds of licence of which she was incapable.
He hadn’t, for himself, waited till now to be
sure of what he would do were he an Olympian:
he would leave his own stuff snugly unread, to begin
with; that would be a beautiful start for an Olympian
career. He should have been as unable to write
those works in short as to make anything else of them;
and he should have had no more arithmetic for computing
fingers than any perfect-headed marble Apollo mutilated
at the wrists. He should have consented to know
but the grand personal adventure on the grand personal
basis: nothing short of this, no poor cognisance
of confusable, pettifogging things, the sphere of
earth-grubbing questions and two-penny issues, would
begin to be, on any side, Olympian enough.
Even the great Dramatist, with his
tempered and tested steel and his immense “assured”
position, even he was not Olympian: the look,
full of the torment of earth, with which he had seen
the Princess turn her back, and for such a purpose,
on the prized privilege of his notice, testified sufficiently
to that. Still, comparatively, it was to be said,
the question of a personal relation with an authority
so eminent on the subject of the passions to
say nothing of the rest of his charm might
have had for an ardent young woman (and the Princess
was unmistakably ardent) the absolute attraction of
romance: unless, again, prodigy of prodigies,
she were looking for her romance very particularly
elsewhere. Yet where could she have been looking
for it, Berridge was to ask himself with private intensity,
in a manner to leave her so at her ease for appearing
to offer him everything? so free
to be quite divinely gentle with him, to hover there
before him in all her mild, bright, smooth sublimity
and to say: “I should be so very grateful
if you’d come to see me.”
There succeeded this a space of time
of which he was afterward to lose all account, was
never to recover the history; his only coherent view
of it being that an interruption, some incident that
kept them a while separate, had then taken place,
yet that during their separation, of half an hour
or whatever, they had still somehow not lost sight
of each other, but had found their eyes meeting, in
deep communion, all across the great peopled room;
meeting and wanting to meet, wanting it
was the most extraordinary thing in the world for
the suppression of stages, for confessed precipitate
intensity to use together every instant
of the hour that might be left them. Yet to use
it for what? unless, like beautiful fabulous
figures in some old-world legend, for the frankest
and almost the crudest avowal of the impression they
had made on each other. He couldn’t have
named, later on, any other person she had during this
space been engaged with, any more than he was to remember
in the least what he had himself ostensibly done,
who had spoken to him, whom he had spoken to, or whether
he hadn’t just stood and publicly gaped or languished.
Ah, Olympians were unconventional
indeed that was a part of their high bravery
and privilege; but what it also appeared to attest
in this wondrous manner was that they could communicate
to their chosen in three minutes, by the mere light
of their eyes, the same shining cynicism. He
was to wonder of course, tinglingly enough, whether
he had really made an ass of himself, and there was
this amount of evidence for it that there certainly
had been a series of moments each one of which
glowed with the lucid sense that, as she couldn’t
like him as much as that either for his acted
clap-trap or for his printed verbiage, what it must
come to was that she liked him, and to such a tune,
just for himself and quite after no other fashion
than that in which every goddess in the calendar had,
when you came to look, sooner or later liked some
prepossessing young shepherd. The question would
thus have been, for him, with a still sharper eventual
ache, of whether he positively had, as an effect
of the miracle, been petrified, before fifty pair of
eyes, to the posture of a prepossessing shepherd and
would perhaps have left him under the shadow of some
such imputable fatuity if his consciousness hadn’t,
at a given moment, cleared up to still stranger things.
The agent of the change was, as quite
congruously happened, none other than the shining
youth whom he now seemed to himself to have been thinking
of for ever so long, for a much longer time than he
had ever in his life spent at an evening party, as
the young Lord: which personage suddenly stood
before him again, holding him up an odd object and
smiling, as if in reference to it, with a gladness
that at once struck our friend as almost too absurd
for belief. The object was incongruous by reason
of its being, to a second and less preoccupied glance,
a book; and what had befallen Berridge within twenty
minutes was that they the Princess and
he, that is had got such millions of miles,
or at least such thousands of years, away from those
platitudes. The book, he found himself assuming,
could only be his book (it seemed also to have
a tawdry red cover); and there came to him memories,
dreadfully false notes sounded so straight again by
his new acquaintance, of certain altogether different
persons who at certain altogether different parties
had flourished volumes before him very much with that
insinuating gesture, that arch expression, and that
fell intention. The meaning of these things of
all possible breaks of the charm at such an hour! was
that he should “signature” the ugly thing,
and with a characteristic quotation or sentiment:
that was the way people simpered and squirmed, the
way they mouthed and beckoned, when animated by such
purposes; and it already, on the spot, almost broke
his heart to see such a type as that of the young
Lord brought, by the vulgarest of fashions, so low.
This state of quick displeasure in Berridge, however,
was founded on a deeper question the question
of how in the world he was to remain for himself a
prepossessing shepherd if he should consent to come
back to these base actualities. It was true that
even while this wonderment held him, his aggressor’s
perfect good conscience had placed the matter in a
slightly different light.
“By an extraordinary chance
I’ve found a copy of my friend’s novel
on one of the tables here I see by the
inscription that she has presented it to Gloriani.
So if you’d like to glance at it !”
And the young Lord, in the pride of his association
with the eminent thing, held it out to Berridge as
artlessly as if it had been a striking natural specimen
of some sort, a rosy round apple grown in his own orchard,
or an exceptional precious stone, to be admired for
its weight and lustre. Berridge accepted the
offer mechanically relieved at the prompt
fading of his worst fear, yet feeling in himself a
tell-tale facial blankness for the still absolutely
anomalous character of his friend’s appeal.
He was even tempted for a moment to lay the volume
down without looking at it only with some
extemporised promise to borrow it of their host and
take it home, to give himself to it at an easier moment.
Then the very expression of his fellow-guests own
countenance determined in him a different and a still
more dreadful view; in fact an immediate collapse
of the dream in which he had for the splendid previous
space of time been living. The young Lord himself,
in his radiant costly barbarism, figured far better
than John Berridge could do the prepossessing shepherd,
the beautiful mythological mortal “distinguished”
by a goddess; for our hero now saw that his whole
manner of dealing with his ridiculous tribute was
marked exactly by the grand simplicity, the prehistoric
good faith, as one might call it, of far-off romantic
and “plastic” creatures, figures of exquisite
Arcadian stamp, glorified rustics like those of the
train of peasants in “A Winter’s Tale,”
who thought nothing of such treasure-trove, on a Claude
Lorrain sea-strand, as a royal infant wrapped in purple:
something in that fabulous style of exhibition appearing
exactly what his present demonstration might have
been prompted by. “The Top of the Tree,
by Amy Evans” scarce credible words
floating before Berridge after he had with an anguish
of effort dropped his eyes on the importunate title-page represented
an object as alien to the careless grace of goddess-haunted
Arcady as a washed-up “kodak” from a wrecked
ship might have been to the appreciation of some islander
of wholly unvisited seas. Nothing could have been
more in the tone of an islander deplorably diverted
from his native interests and dignities than the glibness
with which John’s own child of nature went on.
“It’s her pen-name, Amy Evans” he
couldn’t have said it otherwise had he been
a blue-chinned penny-a-liner; yet marking it with a
disconnectedness of intelligence that kept up all the
poetry of his own situation and only crashed into
that of other persons. The reference put the
author of “The Heart of Gold” quite into
his place, but left the speaker absolutely
free of Arcady. “Thanks awfully” Berridge
somehow clutched at that, to keep everything from
swimming. “Yes, I should like to look at
it,” he managed, horribly grimacing now, he believed,
to say; and there was in fact a strange short interlude
after this in which he scarce knew what had become
of any one or of anything; in which he only seemed
to himself to stand alone in a desolate place where
even its desolation didn’t save him from having
to stare at the greyest of printed pages. Nothing
here helped anything else, since the stamped greyness
didn’t even in itself make it impossible his
eyes should follow such sentences as: “The
loveliness of the face, which was that of the glorious
period in which Pheidias reigned supreme, and which
owed its most exquisite note to that shell-like curl
of the upper lip which always somehow recalls for
us the smile with which windblown Astarte must have
risen from the salt sea to which she owed her birth
and her terrible moods; or it was too much for all
the passionate woman in her, and she let herself go,
over the flowering land that had been, but was no
longer their love, with an effect of blighting desolation
that might have proceeded from one of the more physical,
though not more awful, convulsions of nature.”
He seemed to know later on that other
and much more natural things had occurred; as that,
for instance, with now at last a definite intermission
of the rare music that for a long time past, save at
the briefest intervals, had kept all participants
ostensibly attentive and motionless, and that in spite
of its high quality and the supposed privilege of
listening to it he had allowed himself not to catch
a note of, there was a great rustling and shifting
and vociferous drop to a lower plane, more marked
still with the quick clearance of a way to supper
and a lively dispersal of most of the guests.
Hadn’t he made out, through the queer glare
of appearances, though they yet somehow all came to
him as confused and unreal, that the Princess was no
longer there, wasn’t even only crowded out of
his range by the immediate multiplication of her court,
the obsequious court that the change of pitch had
at once permitted to close round her; that Gloriani
had offered her his arm, in a gallant official way,
as to the greatest lady present, and that he was left
with half a dozen persons more knowing than the others,
who had promptly taken, singly or in couples, to a
closer inspection of the fine small scattered treasures
of the studio?
He himself stood there, rueful and
stricken, nursing a silly red-bound book under his
arm very much as if he might have been holding on tight
to an upright stake, or to the nearest piece of furniture,
during some impression of a sharp earthquake-shock
or of an attack of dyspeptic dizziness; albeit indeed
that he wasn’t conscious of this absurd, this
instinctive nervous clutch till the thing that was
to be more wonderful than any yet suddenly flared
up for him the sight of the Princess again
on the threshold of the room, poised there an instant,
in her exquisite grace, for recovery of some one or
of something, and then, at recognition of him, coming
straight to him across the empty place as if he alone,
and nobody and nothing else, were what she incredibly
wanted. She was there, she was radiantly at
him, as if she had known and loved him for ten years ten
years during which, however, she had never quite been
able, in spite of undiscouraged attempts, to cure him,
as goddesses had to cure shepherds, of his
mere mortal shyness.
“Ah no, not that one!”
she said at once, with her divine familiarity; for
she had in the flash of an eye “spotted”
the particular literary production he seemed so very
fondly to have possessed himself of and against which
all the Amy Evans in her, as she would doubtless have
put it, clearly wished on the spot to discriminate.
She pulled it away from him; he let it go; he scarce
knew what was happening only made out that
she distinguished the right one, the one that should
have been shown him, as blue or green or purple, and
intimated that her other friend, her fellow-Olympian,
as Berridge had thought of him from the first, really
did too clumsily bungle matters, poor dear, with his
officiousness over the red one! She went on really
as if she had come for that, some such rectification,
some such eagerness of reunion with dear Mr. Berridge,
some talk, after all the tiresome music, of questions
really urgent; while, thanks to the supreme strangeness
of it, the high tide of golden fable floated him afresh,
and her pretext and her plea, the queerness of her
offered motive, melted away after the fashion of the
enveloping clouds that do their office in epics and
idylls. “You didn’t perhaps know
I’m Amy Evans,” she smiled, “or even
perhaps that I write in English which I
love, I assure you, as much as you can yourself do,
and which gives one (doesn’t it? for who should
know if not you?) the biggest of publics. I ’just
love’ don’t they say? your
American millions; and all the more that they really
take me for Amy Evans, as I’ve just wanted
to be taken, to be loved too for myself, don’t
you know? that they haven’t seemed
to try at all to ‘go behind’ (don’t
you say?) my poor dear little nom de guerre.
But it’s the new one, my last, ‘The Velvet
Glove,’ that I should like you to judge me by if
such a corvée isn’t too horrible for you
to think of; though I admit it’s a move straight
in the romantic direction since after all
(for I might as well make a clean breast of it) it’s
dear old discredited romance that I’m most in
sympathy with. I’ll send you ’The
Velvet Glove’ to-morrow, if you can find
half an hour for it; and then and then !”
She paused as for the positive bright glory of her
meaning.
It could only be so extraordinary,
her meaning, whatever it was, that the need in him
that would whatever it was again! meet
it most absolutely formed the syllables on his lips
as: “Will you be very, very kind
to me?”
“Ah ‘kind,’ dear
Mr. Berridge? ‘Kind,’” she splendidly
laughed, “is nothing to what !”
But she pulled herself up again an instant. “Well,
to what I want to be! Just see,”
she said, “how I want to be!” It was exactly,
he felt, what he couldn’t but see in
spite of books and publics and pen-names, in spite
of the really “decadent” perversity, recalling
that of the most irresponsibly insolent of the old
Romans and Byzantines, that could lead a creature
so formed for living and breathing her Romance, and
so committed, up to the eyes, to the constant fact
of her personal immersion in it and genius for it,
the dreadful amateurish dance of ungrammatically scribbling
it, with editions and advertisements and reviews and
royalties and every other futile item: since
what was more of the deep essence of throbbing intercourse
itself than this very act of her having broken away
from people, in the other room, to whom he was as
nought, of her having, with her crânerie of
audacity and indifference, just turned her back on
them all as soon as she had begun to miss him?
What was more of it than her having forbidden them,
by a sufficient curt ring of her own supremely silver
tone, to attempt to check or criticise her freedom,
than her having looked him up, at his distance, under
all the noses he had put out of joint, so as to let
them think whatever they might not of herself
(much she troubled to care!) but of the new champion
to be reckoned with, the invincible young lion of
the day? What was more of it in short than her
having perhaps even positively snubbed for him the
great mystified Sculptor and the great bewildered
Dramatist, treated to this queer experience for the
first time of their lives?
It all came back again to the really
great ease of really great ladies, and to the perfect
facility of everything when once they were great enough.
That might become the delicious thing to him,
he more and more felt, as soon as it should be supremely
attested; it was ground he had ventured on, scenically,
representation-ally, in the artistic sphere, but without
ever dreaming he should “realise” it thus
in the social. Handsomely, gallantly just now,
moreover, he didn’t so much as let it occur
to him that the social experience would perhaps on
some future occasion richly profit further scenic
efforts; he only lost himself in the consciousness
of all she invited him to believe. It took licence,
this consciousness, the next moment, for a tremendous
further throb, from what she had gone on to say to
him in so many words though indeed the
words were nothing and it was all a matter but of the
implication that glimmered through them: “Do
you want very much your supper here?”
And then while he felt himself glare, for charmed response,
almost to the point of his tears rising with it:
“Because if you don’t !”
“Because if I don’t ?”
She had paused, not from the faintest shade of timidity,
but clearly for the pleasure of making him press.
“Why shouldn’t we go together,
letting me drive you home?”
“You’ll come home with
me?” gasped John Berridge while the perspiration
on his brow might have been the morning dew on a high
lawn of Mount Ida.
“No you had better
come with me. That’s what I mean;
but I certainly will come to you with pleasure some
time if you’ll let me.”
She made no more than that of the
most fatuous of freedoms, as he felt directly he had
spoken that it might have seemed to her; and before
he had even time to welcome the relief of not having
then himself, for beastly contrition, to make more
of it, she had simply mentioned, with her affectionate
ease, that she wanted to get away, that of the bores
there she might easily, after a little, have too much,
and that if he’d but say the word they’d
nip straight out together by an independent door and
be sure to find her motor in the court. What word
he had found to say, he was afterward to reflect,
must have little enough mattered; for he was to have
kept, of what then occurred, but a single other impression,
that of her great fragrant rustle beside him over the
rest of the ample room and toward their nearest and
friendliest resource, the door by which he had come
in and which gave directly upon a staircase.
This independent image was just that of the only other
of his fellow-guests with whom he had been closely
concerned; he had thought of him rather indeed, up
to that moment, as the Princess’s fellow-Olympian but
a new momentary vision of him seemed now to qualify
it.
The young Lord had reappeared within
a minute on the threshold, that of the passage from
the supper-room, lately crossed by the Princess herself,
and Berridge felt him there, saw him there, wondered
about him there, all, for the first minute, without
so much as a straight look at him. He would have
come to learn the reason of his friend’s extraordinary
public demonstration having more right to
his curiosity, or his anxiety or whatever, than any
one else; he would be taking in the remarkable appearances
that thus completed it, and would perhaps be showing
quite a different face for them, at the point they
had reached, than any that would have hitherto consorted
with the beautiful security of his own position.
So much, on our own young man’s part, for this
first flush of a presumption that he might have stirred
the germs of ire in a celestial breast; so much for
the moment during which nothing would have induced
him to betray, to a possibly rueful member of an old
aristocracy, a vulgar elation or a tickled, unaccustomed
glee. His inevitable second thought was, however,
it has to be confessed, another matter, which took
a different turn for, frankly, all the conscious
conqueror in him, as Amy Evans would again have said,
couldn’t forego a probably supreme consecration.
He treated himself to no prolonged reach of vision,
but there was something he nevertheless fully measured
for five seconds the sharp truth of the
fact, namely, of how the interested observer in the
doorway must really have felt about him. Rather
disconcertingly, hereupon, the sharp truth proved to
be that the most amused, quite the most encouraging
and the least invidious of smiles graced the young
Lord’s handsome countenance forming,
in short, his final contribution to a display of high
social candour unprecedented in our hero’s experience.
No, he wasn’t jealous, didn’t do John Berridge
the honour to be, to the extent of the least glimmer
of a spark of it, but was so happy to see his immortal
mistress do what she liked that he could positively
beam at the odd circumstance of her almost lavishing
public caresses on a gentleman not, after all, of negligible
importance.
CHAPTER III
Well, it was all confounding enough,
but this indication in particular would have jostled
our friend’s grasp of the presented cup had he
had, during the next ten minutes, more independence
of thought. That, however, was out of the question
when one positively felt, as with a pang somewhere
deep within, or even with a smothered cry for alarm,
one’s whole sense of proportion shattered at
a blow and ceasing to serve. “Not straight,
and not too fast, shall we?” was the ineffable
young woman’s appeal to him, a few minutes later,
beneath the wide glass porch-cover that sheltered
their brief wait for their chariot of fire. It
was there even as she spoke; the capped charioteer,
with a great clean curve, drew up at the steps of
the porch, and the Princess’s footman, before
rejoining him in front, held open the door of the car.
She got in, and Berridge was the next instant beside
her; he could only say: “As you like, Princess where
you will; certainly let us prolong it; let us prolong
everything; don’t let us have it over strange
and beautiful as it can only be! a moment
sooner than we must.” So he spoke, in the
security of their intimate English, while the perpendicular
imperturbable valet-de-pied, white-faced in
the electric light, closed them in and then took his
place on the box where the rigid liveried backs of
the two men, presented through the glass, were like
a protecting wall; such a guarantee of privacy as
might come it occurred to Berridge’s
inexpugnable fancy from a vision of tall
guards erect round Eastern seraglios.
His companion had said something,
by the time they started, about their taking a turn,
their looking out for a few of the night-views of Paris
that were so wonderful; and after that, in spite of
his constantly prized sense of knowing his enchanted
city and his way about, he ceased to follow or measure
their course, content as he was with the particular
exquisite assurance it gave him. That was knowing
Paris, of a wondrous bland April night; that was hanging
over it from vague consecrated lamp-studded heights
and taking in, spread below and afar, the great scroll
of all its irresistible story, pricked out, across
river and bridge and radiant place, and along
quays and boulevards and avenues, and around monumental
circles and squares, in syllables of fire, and sketched
and summarised, further and further, in the dim fire-dust
of endless avenues; that was all of the essence of
fond and thrilled and throbbing recognition, with
a thousand things understood and a flood of response
conveyed, a whole familiar possessive feeling appealed
to and attested.
“From you, you know, it would
be such a pleasure, and I think in fact
I’m sure it would do so much for the
thing in America.” Had she gone on as they
went, or had there been pauses of easy and of charmed
and of natural silence, breaks and drops from talk,
but only into greater confidence and sweetness? such
as her very gesture now seemed a part of; her laying
her gloved hand, for emphasis, on the back of his own,
which rested on his knee and which took in from the
act he scarce knew what melting assurance. The
emphasis, it was true this came to him even
while for a minute he held his breath seemed
rather that of Amy Evans; and if her talk, while they
rolled, had been in the sense of these words (he had
really but felt that they were shut intimately in together,
all his consciousness, all his discrimination of meanings
and indications being so deeply and so exquisitely
merged in that) the case wasn’t as surely and
sublimely, as extravagantly, as fabulously romantic
for him as his excited pulses had been seeming to
certify. Her hand was there on his own, in precious
living proof, and splendid Paris hung over them, as
a consecrating canopy, her purple night embroidered
with gold; yet he waited, something stranger still
having glimmered for him, waited though she left her
hand, which expressed emphasis and homage and tenderness,
and anything else she liked indeed since
it was all then a matter of what he next heard and
what he slowly grew cold as he took from her.
“You know they do it here so
charmingly it’s a compliment a clever
man is always so glad to pay a literary friend, and
sometimes, in the case of a great name like yours,
it renders such a service to a poor little book like
mine!” She spoke ever so humbly and yet ever
so gaily and still more than before with
this confidence of the sincere admirer and the comrade.
That, yes, through his sudden sharpening chill, was
what first became distinct for him; she was mentioning
somehow her explanation and her conditions her
motive, in fine, disconcerting, deplorable, dreadful,
in respect to the experience, otherwise so boundless,
that he had taken her as having opened to him; and
she was doing it, above all, with the clearest coolness
of her general privilege. What in particular
she was talking about he as yet, still holding his
breath, wondered; it was something she wanted him to
do for her which was exactly what he had
hoped, but something of what trivial and, heaven forgive
them both, of what dismal order? Most of all,
meanwhile, he felt the dire penetration of two or three
of the words she had used; so that after a painful
minute the quaver with which he repeated them resembled
his-drawing, slowly, carefully, timidly, some barbed
dart out of his flesh.
“A ’literary friend’?”
he echoed as he turned his face more to her; so that,
as they sat, the whites of her eyes, near to his own,
gleamed in the dusk like some silver setting of deep
sapphires.
It made her smile which
in their relation now was like the breaking of a cool
air-wave over the conscious sore flush that maintained
itself through his general chill. “Ah,
of course you don’t allow that I am literary and
of course if you’re awfully cruel and critical
and incorruptible you won’t let it say for me
what I so want it should!”
“Where are we, where, in the
name of all that’s damnably, of all that’s
grotesquely delusive, are we?” he said, without
a sign, to himself; which was the form of his really
being quite at sea as to what she was talking about.
That uncertainty indeed he could but frankly betray
by taking her up, as he cast about him, on the particular
ambiguity that his voice perhaps already showed him
to find most irritating. “Let it show?
‘It,’ dear Princess ?”
“Why, my dear man, let your
Preface show, the lovely, friendly, irresistible log-rolling
Preface that I’ve been asking you if you wouldn’t
be an angel and write for me.”
He took it in with a deep long gulp he
had never, it seemed to him, had to swallow anything
so bitter. “You’ve been asking me
if I wouldn’t write you a Preface?”
“To ’The Velvet Glove’ after
I’ve sent it to you and you’ve judged
if you really can. Of course I don’t want
you to perjure yourself; but” and
she fairly brushed him again, at their close quarters,
with her fresh fragrant smile “I
do want you so to like me, and to say it all out beautifully
and publicly.” “You want me to like
you, Princess?” “But, heaven help us,
haven’t you understood?” Nothing stranger
could conceivably have been, it struck him if
he was right now than this exquisite intimacy
of her manner of setting him down on the other side
of an abyss. It was as if she had lifted him first
in her beautiful arms, had raised him up high, high,
high, to do it, pressing him to her immortal young
breast while he let himself go, and then, by some
extraordinary effect of her native force and her alien
quality, setting him down exactly where she wanted
him to be which was a thousand miles away
from her. Once more, so preposterously face to
face with her for these base issues, he took it all
in; after which he felt his eyes close, for amazement,
despair and shame, and his head, which he had some
time before, baring his brow to the mild night, eased
of its crush-hat, sink to confounded rest on the upholstered
back of the seat. The act, the ceasing to see,
and if possible to hear, was for the moment a retreat,
an escape from a state that he felt himself fairly
flatter by thinking of it as “awkward”;
the state of really wishing that his humiliation might
end, and of wondering in fact if the most decent course
open to him mightn’t be to ask her to stop the
motor and let him down.
He spoke no word for a long minute,
or for considerably more than that; during which time
the motor went and went, now even somewhat faster,
and he knew, through his closed eyes, that the outer
lights had begun to multiply and that they were getting
back somewhere into the spacious and decorative quarters.
He knew this, and also that his retreat, for all his
attitude as of accommodating thought, his air that
presently and quickly came to him of having
perhaps gathered himself in, for an instant, at her
behest, to turn over, in his high ingenuity, some
humbugging “rotten” phrase or formula that
he might place at her service and make the note of
such an effort; he became aware, I say, that his lapse
was but a half-retreat, with her strenuous presence
and her earnest pressure and the close cool respiration
of her good faith absolutely timing the moments of
his stillness and the progress of the car. Yes,
it was wondrous well, he had all but made the biggest
of all fools of himself, almost as big a one as she
was still, to every appearance, in her perfect serenity,
trying to make of him; and the one straight answer
to it would be that he should reach forward
and touch the footman’s shoulder and demand
that the vehicle itself should make an end.
That would be an answer, however,
he continued intensely to see, only to inanely importunate,
to utterly superfluous Amy Evans not a bit
to his at last exquisitely patient companion, who
was clearly now quite taking it from him that what
kept him in his attitude was the spring of the quick
desire to oblige her, the charming loyal impulse to
consider a little what he could do for her, say “handsomely
yet conscientiously” (oh the loveliness!) before
he should commit himself. She was enchanted that
seemed to breathe upon him; she waited, she hung there,
she quite bent over him, as Diana over the sleeping
Endymion, while all the conscientious man of letters
in him, as she might so supremely have phrased it,
struggled with the more peccable, the more muddled
and “squared,” though, for her own ideal,
the so much more banal comrade. Yes, he
could keep it up now that is he could hold
out for his real reply, could meet the rather marked
tension of the rest of their passage as well as she;
he should be able somehow or other to make his wordless
detachment, the tribute of his ostensibly deep consideration
of her request, a retreat in good order. She was,
for herself, to the last point of her guileless fatuity,
Amy Evans and an asker for “lifts,” a
conceiver of twaddle both in herself and in him; or
at least, so far as she fell short of all this platitude,
it was no fault of the really affecting folly of her
attempt to become a mere magazine mortal after the
only fashion she had made out, to the intensification
of her self-complacency, that she might.
Nothing might thus have touched him
more if to be touched, beyond a certain
point, hadn’t been to be squared than
the way she failed to divine the bearing of his thoughts;
so that she had probably at no one small crisis of
her life felt so much a promise in the flutter of her
own as on the occasion of the beautiful act she indulged
in at the very moment, he was afterward to recognise,
of their sweeping into her great smooth, empty, costly
street a desert, at that hour, of lavish
lamplight and sculptured stone. She raised to
her lips the hand she had never yet released and kept
it there a moment pressed close against them; he himself
closing his eyes to the deepest detachment he was
capable of while he took in with a smothered sound
of pain that this was the conferred bounty by which
Amy Evans sought most expressively to encourage, to
sustain and to reward. The motor had slackened
and in a moment would stop; and meanwhile even after
lowering his hand again she hadn’t let it go.
This enabled it, while he after a further moment roused
himself to a more confessed consciousness, to form
with his friend’s a more active relation, to
possess him of hers, in turn, and with an intention
the straighter that her glove had by this time somehow
come off. Bending over it without hinderance,
he returned as firmly and fully as the application
of all his recovered wholeness of feeling, under his
moustache, might express, the consecration the bareness
of his own knuckles had received; only after which
it was that, still thus drawing out his grasp of her,
and having let down their front glass by his free
hand, he signified to the footman his view of their
stopping short.
They had arrived; the high, closed
porte-cochère, in its crested stretch of wall,
awaited their approach; but his gesture took effect,
the car pulled up at the edge of the pavement, the
man, in an instant, was at the door and had opened
it; quickly moving across the walk, the next moment,
to press the bell at the gate. Berridge, as his
hand now broke away, felt he had cut his cable; with
which, after he had stepped out, he raised again the
glass he had lowered and closed, its own being already
down, the door that had released him. During these
motions he had the sense of his companion, still radiant
and splendid, but somehow momentarily suppressed,
suspended, silvered over and celestially blurred,
even as a summer moon by the loose veil of a cloud.
So it was he saw her while he leaned for farewell
on the open window-ledge; he took her in as her visible
intensity of bright vagueness filled the circle that
the interior of the car made for her. It was such
a state as she would have been reduced to he
felt this, was certain of it for the first
time in her life; and it was he, poor John Berridge,
after all, who would have created the condition.
“Good-night, Princess. I sha’n’t
see you again.”
Vague was indeed no word for it shine
though she might, in her screened narrow niche, as
with the liquefaction of her pearls, the glimmer of
her tears, the freshness of her surprise. “You
won’t come in when you’ve had
no supper?”
He smiled at her with a purpose of
kindness that could never in his life have been greater;
and at first but smiled without a word. He presently
shook his head, however doubtless also with
as great a sadness. “I seem to have supped
to my fill, Princess. Thank you, I won’t
come in.”
It drew from her, while she looked
at him, a long low anxious wail. “And you
won’t do my Preface?”
“No, Princess, I won’t
do your Preface. Nothing would induce me to say
a word in print about you. I’m in fact not
sure I shall ever mention you in any manner at all
as long as ever I live.”
He had felt for an instant as if he
were speaking to some miraculously humanised idol,
all sacred, all jewelled, all votively hung about,
but made mysterious, in the recess of its shrine,
by the very thickness of the accumulated lustre.
And “Then you don’t like me ?”
was the marvellous sound from the image.
“Princess,” was in response
the sound of the worshipper, “Princess, I adore
you. But I’m ashamed for you.”
“Ashamed ?”
“You are Romance as
everything, and by what I make out every one, about
you is; so what more do you want? Your Preface the
only one worth speaking of was written
long ages ago by the most beautiful imagination of
man.”
Humanised at least for these moments,
she could understand enough to declare that she didn’t.
“I don’t, I don’t!”
“You don’t need to understand.
Don’t attempt such base things. Leave those
to us. Only live. Only be. We’ll
do the rest.”
She moved over she had
come close to the window. “Ah, but Mr.
Berridge !”
He raised both hands; he shook them
at her gently, in deep and soft deprecation.
“Don’t sound my dreadful name. Fortunately,
however, you can’t help yourself.”
He repeated his gesture, and when
he brought down his hands they closed together on
both of hers, which now quite convulsively grasped
the window-ledge. “Don’t speak, because
when you speak you really say things !”
“You are Romance,” he pronounced
afresh and with the last intensity of conviction and
persuasion. “That’s all you have to
do with it,” he continued while his hands, for
emphasis, pressed hard on her own.
Their faces, in this way, were nearer
together than ever, but with the effect of only adding
to the vividness of that dire non-intelligence from
which, all perversely and incalculably, her very beauty
now appeared to gain relief. This made for him
a pang and almost an anguish; the fear of her saying
something yet again that would wretchedly prove how
little he moved her perception. So his eyes, of
remonstrant, of suppliant intention, met hers close,
at the same time that these, so far from shrinking,
but with their quite other swimming plea all bedimmed
now, seemed almost to wash him with the tears of her
failure. He soothed, he stroked, he reassured
her hands, for tender conveyance of his meaning, quite
as she had just before dealt with his own for brave
demonstration of hers. It was during these instants
as if the question had been which of them could
most candidly and fraternally plead. Full but
of that she kept it up. “Ah, if you’d
only think, if you’d only try !”
He couldn’t stand it she
was capable of believing he had edged away, excusing
himself and trumping up a factitious theory, because
he hadn’t the wit, hadn’t the hand, to
knock off the few pleasant pages she asked him for
and that any proper Frenchman, master of the metier,
would so easily and gallantly have promised.
Should she so begin to commit herself he’d,
by the immortal gods, anticipate it in the manner most
admirably effective in fact he’d even
thus make her further derogation impossible.
Their faces were so close that he could practise any
rich freedom even though for an instant,
while the back of the chauffeur guarded them on that
side and his own presented breadth, amplified by his
loose mantle, filled the whole window-space, leaving
him no observation from any quarter to heed, he uttered,
in a deep-drawn final groan, an irrepressible echo
of his pang for what might have been, the muffled
cry of his insistence. “You are Romance!” he
drove it intimately, inordinately home, his lips,
for a long moment, sealing it, with the fullest force
of authority, on her own; after which, as he broke
away and the car, starting again, turned powerfully
across the pavement, he had no further sound from
her than if, all divinely indulgent but all humanly
defeated, she had given the question up, falling back
to infinite wonder. He too fell back, but could
still wave his hat for her as she passed to disappearance
in the great floridly framed aperture whose wings
at once came together behind her.