Vinicius went directly to the house
in which Miriam lived. Before the gate he met
Nazarius, who was confused at sight of him; but greeting
the lad cordially, he asked to be conducted to his
mother’s lodgings.
Besides Miriam, Vinicius found Peter,
Glaucus, Crispus, and Paul of Tarsus, who had returned
recently from Fregellae. At sight of the young
tribune, astonishment was reflected on all faces; but
he said, “I greet you in the name
of Christ, whom ye honor.”
“May His name be glorified forever!” answered
they.
“I have seen your virtue and
experienced your kindness, hence I come as a friend.”
“And we greet thee as a friend,”
answered Peter. “Sit down, lord, and partake
of our refreshment, as a guest.”
“I will sit down and share your
repast; but first listen to me, thou Peter, and thou
Paul of Tarsus, so that ye may know my sincerity.
I know where Lygia is. I have returned from before
the house of Linus, which is near this dwelling.
I have a right to her given me by Caesar. I have
at my houses in the city nearly five hundred slaves.
I might surround her hiding-place and seize her; still
I have not done so, and will not.”
“For this reason the blessing
of the Lord will be upon thee, and thy heart will
be purified,” said Peter.
“I thank thee. But listen
to me further: I have not done so, though I am
living in suffering and sadness. Before I knew
you, I should have taken her undoubtedly, and held
her by force; but your virtue and your religion, though
I do not profess it, have changed something in my soul,
so that I do not venture on violence. I know not
myself why this is so, but it is so; hence I come
to you, for ye take the place of Lygia’s father
and mother, and I say to you: Give her to me as
wife, and I swear that not only will I not forbid
her to confess Christ, but I will begin myself to
learn His religion.”
He spoke with head erect and decisively;
but still he was moved, and his legs trembled beneath
his mantle. When silence followed his words, he
continued, as if wishing to anticipate an unfavorable
answer,
“I know what obstacles exist,
but I love her as my own eyes; and though I am not
a Christian yet, I am neither your enemy nor Christ’s.
I wish to be sincere, so that you may trust me.
At this moment it is a question of life with me, still
I tell you the truth. Another might say, Baptize
me; I say, Enlighten me. I believe that Christ
rose from the dead, for people say so who love the
truth, and who saw Him after death. I believe,
for I have seen myself, that your religion produces
virtue, justice, and mercy, not crime,
which is laid to your charge. I have not known
your religion much so far. A little from you,
a little from your works, a little from Lygia, a little
from conversations with you. Still I repeat that
it has made some change in me. Formerly I held
my servants with an iron hand; I cannot do so now.
I knew no pity; I know it now. I was fond of
pleasure; the other night I fled from the pond of Agrippa,
for the breath was taken from me through disgust.
Formerly I believed in superior force; now I have
abandoned it. Know ye that I do not recognize
myself. I am disgusted by feasts, wine, singing,
citharae, garlands, the court of Caesar, naked
bodies, and every crime. When I think that Lygia
is like snow in the mountains, I love her the more;
and when I think that she is what she is through your
religion, I love and desire that religion. But
since I understand it not, since I know not whether
I shall be able to live according to it, nor whether
my nature can endure it, I am in uncertainty and suffering,
as if I were in prison.”
Here his brows met in wrinkle of pain,
and a flush appeared on his cheeks; after that he
spoke on with growing haste and greater emotion,
“As ye see, I am tortured from
love and uncertainty. Men tell me that in your
religion there is no place for life, or human joy,
or happiness, or law, or order, or authority, or Roman
dominion. Is this true? Men tell me that
ye are madmen; but tell me yourselves what ye bring.
Is it a sin to love, a sin to feel joy, a sin to want
happiness? Are ye enemies of life? Must
a Christian be wretched? Must I renounce Lygia?
What is truth in your view? Your deeds and words
are like transparent water, but what is under that
water? Ye see that I am sincere. Scatter
the darkness. Men say this to me also: Greece
created beauty and wisdom, Rome created power; but
they what do they bring? Tell, then,
what ye bring. If there is brightness beyond
your doors, open them.”
“We bring love,” said Peter.
And Paul of Tarsus added, “If
I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but
have not love, I am become sounding brass.”
But the heart of the old Apostle was
stirred by that soul in suffering, which, like a bird
in a cage, was struggling toward air and the sun;
hence, stretching his hand to Vinicius, he said, “Whoso
knocketh, to him will be opened. The favor and
grace of God is upon thee; for this reason I bless
thee, thy soul and thy love, in the name of the Redeemer
of mankind.”
Vinicius, who had spoken with enthusiasm
already, sprang toward Peter on hearing this blessing,
and an uncommon thing happened. That descendant
of Quirites, who till recently had not recognized humanity
in a foreigner, seized the hand of the old Galilean,
and pressed it in gratitude to his lips.
Peter was pleased; for he understood
that his sowing had fallen on an additional field,
that his fishing-net had gathered in a new soul.
Those present, not less pleased by
that evident expression of honor for the Apostle of
God, exclaimed in one voice, “Praise
to the Lord in the highest!”
Vinicius rose with a radiant face,
and began, “I see that happiness may
dwell among you, for I feel happy, and I think that
ye can convince me of other things in the same way.
But I will add that this cannot happen in Rome.
Caesar is going to Antium and I must go with him, for
I have the order. Ye know that not to obey is
death. But if I have found favor in your eyes,
go with me to teach your truth. It will be safer
for you than for me. Even in that great throng
of people, ye can announce your truth in the very
court of Caesar. They say that Acte is a Christian;
and there are Christians among pretorians even, for
I myself have seen soldiers kneeling before thee,
Peter, at the Nomentan gate. In Antium I have
a villa where we shall assemble to hear your teaching,
at the side of Nero. Glaucus told me that ye
are ready to go to the end of the earth for one soul;
so do for me what ye have done for those for whose
sake ye have come from Judea, do it, and
desert not my soul.”
Hearing this, they began to take counsel,
thinking with delight of the victory of their religion,
and of the significance for the pagan world which
the conversion of an Augustian, and a descendant of
one of the oldest Roman families, would have.
They were ready, indeed, to wander to the end of the
earth for one human soul, and since the death of the
Master they had, in fact, done nothing else; hence
a negative answer did not even come to their minds.
Peter was at that moment the pastor of a whole multitude,
hence he could not go; but Paul of Tarsus, who had
been in Aricium and Fregellae not long before, and
who was preparing for a long journey to the East to
visit churches there and freshen them with a new spirit
of zeal, consented to accompany the young tribune to
Antium. It was easy to find a ship there going
to Grecian waters.
Vinicius, though sad because Peter,
to whom he owed so much, could not visit Antium, thanked
him with gratitude, and then turned to the old Apostle
with his last request, “Knowing Lygia’s
dwelling,” said he, “I might have gone
to her and asked, as is proper, whether she would take
me as husband should my soul become Christian, but
I prefer to ask thee, O Apostle! Permit me to
see her, or take me thyself to her. I know not
how long I shall be in Antium; and remember that near
Caesar no one is sure of to-morrow. Petronius
himself told me that I should not be altogether safe
there. Let me see her before I go; let me delight
my eyes with her; and let me ask her if she will forget
my evil and return good.”
Peter smiled kindly and said, “But
who could refuse thee a proper joy, my son?”
Vinicius stooped again to Peter’s
hands, for he could not in any way restrain his overflowing
heart. The Apostle took him by the temples and
said, “Have no fear of Caesar, for
I tell thee that a hair will not fall from thy head.”
He sent Miriam for Lygia, telling
her not to say who was with them, so as to give the
maiden more delight.
It was not far; so after a short time
those in the chamber saw among the myrtles of the
garden Miriam leading Lygia by the hand.
Vinicius wished to run forth to meet
her; but at sight of that beloved form happiness took
his strength, and he stood with beating heart, breathless,
barely able to keep his feet, a hundred times more
excited than when for the first time in life he heard
the Parthian arrows whizzing round his head.
She ran in, unsuspecting; but at sight
of him she halted as if fixed to the earth. Her
face flushed, and then became very pale; she looked
with astonished and frightened eyes on those present.
But round about she saw clear glances,
full of kindness. The Apostle Peter approached
her and asked, “Lygia, dost thou love
him as ever?”
A moment of silence followed.
Her lips began to quiver like those of a child who
is preparing to cry, who feels that it is guilty, but
sees that it must confess the guilt.
“Answer,” said the Apostle.
Then, with humility, obedience, and
fear in her voice, she whispered, kneeling at the
knees of Peter, “I do.”
In one moment Vinicius knelt at her
side. Peter placed his hands on their heads,
and said, “Love each other in the
Lord and to His glory, for there is no sin in your
love.”